A Tale of Two Souls - Likkutei Torah Ki Seitzei "Ki Siyenah" #1 - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

the yeshiva dotnet page 74 duffel Ahmadzai column for he Siena wished a notion VAR in page 74 he states sale say key states a on top state say one word st. say this is the second column PC Emily llama giant diplomat Zion Amidala column four okay this is a discourse that the ballot Anya said on parses he said say in the summer of topic of summer gimel tuft of samejima would be 1803 in the secular calendar 5 5 6 3 in the Jewish calendar 5560 3 right topical summer now is 5-7 7-6 this was 5 5 6 3 1803 he Sienna least a no-show Marcus a Hoover a slew of oh yeah been up her that's me it interesting how laughter the Turner says in case of her in key states a man has two wives one is beloved and one is unloved and the oldest is born to the one who's unloved the posit says lo you helluva care has been ha overpaid reminiscent we can't give preference for the second child was the child of the beloved wife but rather the prior of the unloved wife he gets peace I am the oldest son gets double so no matter the fact that the oldest son happened to be born from the been hustler doesn't take away the fact that he gets a double portion of the inheritance that's partially Sates a payer tough I love tough success about this is the literal the literal pasta he has two wives a curse all over of us know when the been apart is licinia and now the high availment filius bun of he wants to give preference to the other one he says will you call de Vaca there's been a been our snow off name and i'll play i spend their who've okay but it's gonna get been a snore yeah colossus like peace and i am you have to give it up now of course the obvious question is why you need this dramatic scenario and a homer you just say that luck is that we have a player you have to give let's say you don't have two wives let's say you have one wife and you don't like her you want to write sit so you say it's a practical situation that he wants he wants to give that than otherwise but then you could do is not if you like or not that lovely that a car gets double mr. emphasized in Hollande person could give a gift whoever they want whenever they want how much they want they can give away their money if they want their not leave any Arusha some do that right you know the joke there were more important ounce that he's giving away 50% of his assets to charity so his daughter changed her name to charity I mean you could do what you want you could give any Madonna to whoever you want and if you want to give you a second child everything you can give me a second child everything I don't know if it's the wisest thing to do but you could do it but not paternity Lucia Terry Smetana person to take their money and give it away as a gift was a anusha in the hollowness of inheritance and say but I wanted then according to the laws of inheritance the prior shouldn't get double somebody else should get double the second child who was born from the second wife should get double that palasa doesn't allow this masked man much the cost of the time and this is our locals of universal I said my Tony you can do what you want but why does it say I have to give this whole drama you could say that luck is when you have children to stop no matter what automatically understand whoever it is you like the wife I don't like the white yester so there are these apps a hole a hole you side here well having my move all your holy to understand this so I'll pee my shirt so he goes on to explain it spiritually I'll pay much the cost of her a client without a shower huh kedusha the half is a kinda top I result in it so Korea had many students this prime student was a man named behind it all came from Damascus Syria and he was the chief transcriber of their resource teachings most of not all but most of the writings of the result we have come through the pen of Raqqa for pine beetle in addition to his teachers books he wrote his own smart yes appearance on how much called a table a Steiff yes another safe recalled Sharan how to do sure or sometimes it's called char a kedusha sorry kedusha char have dish he says let's introduce a teaching of a kindly town so yes we'll call after the record miso stain a fascist that every single Jew has two souls if you ever heard a concept that every Jew has to solve the source of it is this car ablution of Chinatown the gomorian breakfast of summa kalla says that every person has to eat sorrow not consult person has eight seven eight that comes from gomorian brothels it says my itza a shambolic in my Sodom by each term has two yards so house i'll say what are the two units snake it's our embark on this world it's the end of my sector brothers are mcauliffe hashem created each person - Yates's yates it literally means an inclination a pole gravity is a Yates our toy if design a Yates er of toy if and the eight sir of Hara it's a tenets are but kindly town introduces somewhat of a different a little bit of a different terminology the terminology is different but it's as we will see it's consequential stain the fascists souls yes for hell I'm gonna stay in the forces of course he brings a plastic as usual pastor Kenya Shia Hanavi a Shia para can design commercial Kosovo neshama sannyasis emotional Shia Nami says a Shem says I'm eight souls so it doesn't mean collectively means individually neshama son me a for each person I made an autonomous in other words every person has to neshama snot one but to Natasha's two souls and this teaching of the crime fatale is also coral and as the opening in the first chapter of Tanya he introduces his entire thesis so to speak by introducing this teaching of the second the same source and every single person every single Jew has two souls staying the forces of the past success in the summers and meiosis nefesh Arthas once all nicker nefesh Alchemist it's called nefesh of illness which means the soul that gives life the soul that gives vitality if you wish the biological soul the soul that's responsible for the theist for the biological electricity for the electricity and consciousness and consciousness of the human being it's the message that gives us it's also called a Bahamas it's also called the animals soul because every animal has life and every animal has consciousness this is a big animal a small animal even a tiny little insect or tiny little flea it has an effigy Eunice it has a soul so this is one so that's called an effigy bombers the animals consciousness and it's called the nephron obamas because in many ways it's similar to the soul that gives life and consciousness to an animal in other words from this perspective of this nefesh were part of the zoological species there's a big zoo our zoo may be a little more sophisticated we build nicer gymnasiums and taller buildings but essentially the human being is not in a different realm than the zoological species of creation bouillabaisse is madama are the Mohave a sag of commercial customer come on this soul is completely manifested and clothed in the blood of man to give life to the body not only the blood is the vehicle it's the house it's the place where this soul is housed so the blood like that cost success many places King nefesh a busser badami right how damn who on effort the blood is the soul so the Turner means that's what we have special respect for blood Latino history had nama you don't eat blood so the past success key had damn who are nefesh King nefesh a bust of Adam B so the idea is that the blood is the vehicle is the physical vehicle through which the fuse is enclosed and manifested in human life which is why is the blood circulation this is the key to human vitality of course in the brain and the heart and in the rest of the body it's mad no but it's manifested physical it's manifested within the physical blood and through that within all of the organs and limbs so we're dealing with the spiritual consciousness with the spiritual vitality and electricity but just like electricity we may not know no one has ever seen electricity but we see its results we see its impact we see its manifestations very clearly thank God for the air conditioned so we see the impact of it we see the results of it and we figured out how to detect it and how to channel it how to channel it which we didn't know for much of our history but we still never could see electricity itself Mahina schnozola me Malcolm Guevara Ali am sorry me robbing the derrick sorry Omar solace now this soul evolves the star means it's a change it evolves I'm a very lofty place through many and through many intermediaries and through many sorrow Missoula's many spiritual ministers and Missoula's Missoula's would mean my solace could mean galaxies masalas could mean planets but he's also referring to spiritual Missoula's through many spiritual forces above c'mon morons Allah like the Midrash says in gracious Rabb apart show you a maja a sieve mamata Shane Lee Mazel mal mindless amok iboga Oh Malloy get out there is no blade of grass down here that doesn't have a spiritual force up there that strikes the blade of grass and says grow grow in other words the blade of grass is growing don't take it for granted the process is so complex and so miraculous so even though you have the botanical processes and mechanisms that we take for granted of how it all works but ultimately if the traces back to a spiritual energy that strikes the grass and says he dialed now I want you to grow through something intangible that is being manifested through the grass that's ongoing there's this voice that the grass is responding to so of course all we detect are the that which are either and detect the effects of it and the effects are phenomenal I mean phenomenal how the flower knows it's mom is like a college dressing up for a date the part of the flower that needs to attract the bees or other insects to come because it needs its pollination in order to be able to reproduce a new generation so it makes itself beautiful with a good smell it produces even some neck there's some sweet stuff so that all the bees are attracted that part which I don't need to be spore that remains not very impressive so exactly how the flat windows which part it's going to become it's going to design itself and it literally waits there and opens itself up to Saybrook of abhayam and when they did so that all the weather the butterflies or bees or other insects come right so these are all process everybody takes for granted how the flower knows yes okay that's it time for a shed up well this time for sugar prices in the Botanica is there some times for the bees the bees the bees the bees is a crisis yeah so this is a very interesting bed rich there's always a Mazel that speaks to every blade of grass it's not there's a process going on fiber like down kick avoid my alga via via Malaya and it's an expression in clay hellas it's higher and higher and there's something higher on them so the methods of Bahamas also this animal soul also comes from a very very lofty space and it evolves by David who come on hotshot but as it gets distanced from the visible light of God responsible mother regular mother a evolving from one plane to another plane literally my Dragan means a step from one level to another level may Allah Lowell from cause to effect which becomes the cause for the next effect which becomes the cause for the next effect like an entire chain stayed in mid-summer Bradman it goes through many concealments and many restrictions archana slab should will go far them until it encloses itself in the body of a human being who's busted without made of flesh and blood well hey Nakula meat ivory so therefore even though in its pristine State it comes from a very lofty space like he says mocking Guevara but it goes through a very very intense and complex journey and in this journey it becomes coal from tiger and I another that's mixed from tight from good and now from negative from negativity now when you say rah here generally in the writings of the ballot Tanya it's not the route that we usually refer to when we say route we understand type as being a nice person and now we understand you're a bad person you're an evil person like somebody who's who's nasty or cruel or sadistic or barbaric is around that's wrong now that's of course true but the wrath really in its source means something else rah comes from the word in clay Hollister's an expression huckle heaven or us Rui Ruis through a race I involves soft means broken fragmented the word rah in its source means fragment not evil but fragmented sometimes when people learn smart and let's say of musa or of mr. of kabbalah consider they see a lot about how much around you have in you it gets them into a very lowly space in terms of self-image it would be very helpful for people to understand what the word round means in these writings rob basically means you're a fragmented person fragmented person means you don't feel your oneness with God at every moment that's what it means now that can evolve and many other issues but the source of rah means a sense of disunity in your life there's no unity there's a fragmentation that's what cry hello says huckle heaven or surah so the Tonya says a pair of over who stroke means it's broken off from roughness the feeling that you're broken you're fragmented you're not attached you're not always an intimacy with your source that's Iraq in a very small Nets around a very subtle space it's not course yet it's not Groot from that sense of separation after many evolutions that can come more course forms of Wrath and then I'm its most root form which itself has so many different levels until its most heinous manifestation of that you know real cold-blooded evil horrible evil that we encounter around us in our world unfortunately because rock could be in a very very subtle very very subtle way but the point of Ray is so there's no sense of unity anymore you're not feeling that you're absolutely one with Hashem that's what Ronnie's Graham means a sense a lack of experience of oneness a sense therefore a fragment fragmentation and disassociation with the source that's what he says that through many evolutions there's so many restrictions so therefore it becomes cobble from tithe and wrath when we men are by US law are the ministers me say this our own Shaba the gumse whole hand from her come to the person midday serious from the side this room everything is made up of four year sinus issue of my MA farm so she's also made up a fire water air and earth so from there I in this nefesh a Bahamas which has these four sizes Ryan come me des rois become Seth Landers now hey when you say minister is again Minister could be expressed in many different ways there's Minister is in a more subtle way there's Minister is in a more coarse way but the common denominator of all of them are coming from the nefesh a Bahamas which doesn't feel its oneness with its source began cycle anew she this is also where human intellect comes from which is very a very lofty thing say : ocean mean that the human being is capable of analysis and comprehension and curiosity cycle and Russia means the scientist and man the curious the curious ape the Homo Sapien that asks questions that analyze and that wonder is where we come from that wants to understand the secrets of cosmology or the secrets of biology or the secrets of physics this is say : losing the blessing of mankind then we have say oh we can dissect we can analyze we can ask questions with the creatures that wonder about things we wonder we have identity crisis we want to know where we came from where we're going who we are who were not what are we up to what are we not up to this say : oh she is part of the nefesh a Bahamas property in other words it's an intellectual animal he called nefes-kula make us Mabini dosimeters because each soul is made up of an entire persona it has many faculties it has faculties of cognition and it has faculties of emotions that's how macaques Mabini das cognition and made us our emotions Omid sido and the cause of hurry acaba ardently dismay over you Sonic especially a person is capable of transgressing God's will to my shaco serve as the PASOK says in via Kura the nephesh tea senator ass all that Wilson we nefesh be subtle but you could pay McKay what's the idea of an effort southern Africa Bahamas he Maximus anybody I stayed in the suits of Mikasa Malan in safer cool because due to the many concealments and restrictions that eclipsed the divine infinite energy near Allah Adam the person feels so Ashford Arbuthnot's my that he is detached from God and that is the beginning of rap the fact that I feel that Hashem is not in me with me every city in every space in every moment in every experience in every encounter this is what the message of Muhammad's perceives about life the first sense of disunity disassociation and fragmentation the truth is that it's arranged so far oho I didn't say borrow means it's an infinite presence if it's infinite so there's no space that's the void of it but because the person has an efforts of Muhammad's inevitable Hamas doesn't detect this easily so therefore the person feels shall we age for the Epiphany outs my that I am detached I am on my own I'm a somethingness Yash's or something an eagle but BB fly outs mine and separate detached so the net for sure Bahamas allows a person this feeling that I am separate unfragmented I am NOT part of him when the truth is that this is the experience of the nefesh angle its perception on a deeper level as we'll soon see the person experiences complete oneness complete intimacy there's no space in which he and me are detached in fact I am an expression of his light I am a continuation of his energy I am part of him there's no me outside of him my me is an expression of Hashem which means of course that yourself is really a part of the divine and therefore it's always connected with the infinite it's always in a state of wholesomeness it's always in a state of sacredness ah no he says it's coal from pipe and round but basically it struggles with existence as a separate being it sees itself as a separate being and that's where it struggles begin the other salt out never sees itself as a separate being it sees itself as a complete expression of God all the time and therefore it's never in a situation where it's gonna feel hopeless or depressed all hopelessness means I take too much responsibility for my life and therefore I say it's hopeless all arrogance comes because I suffer from too much insecurities after become arrogant it's all the same thing because it's all from the fact that I feel disconnected it's not that I feel disconnected I don't feel connected if I would feel disconnected that itself is pretty good I don't feel connected to be disconnected I'm just on my own I'm completely on my own so I have to compensate for this sense of being alone so how do you compensate so some people compensate by becoming cynical some people compensate by becoming arrogant some people compensate by becoming depressed another few things to do but that's main basic aliy the three things people do either you become a complete cynic so you don't expect anything in life will you become very arrogant oh you go in and out that's usually the way right that's how the kiss yeah yeah we'll see that the next step the next step that's the next it looks like a fight yeah that's like a Jewish answer right yes it's a fight that's a fight it's a fight but then ever the point of that the nitrogen Bahamas is not really not because everything is tithe that's what he says it comes from a very lofty place it just goes through a very complex evolutionary process so and goes through Hashem made many layers of concealment that it goes through and that becomes part of its identity so it's a product of concealment so therefore when you ask it who it is it will always define itself in terms that are detached from its it doesn't see itself as God's presence in this world it really is it really is it just doesn't see itself that way it seeds itself in a different way so therefore it has all of its experiences in terms of Li AC action for government for the app smite it does not feel that right now it's completely wholesome right now it's completely powerful right now it's completely positive right now it's completely potent it becomes lost it becomes broken it becomes fragment they don't have to it has to rebuild its life so it's a very impressive subtle and it's very very intelligent and it could be very smart and very curious but at the core of this soul the person feels completely detached that sense of detachment comes from this song so we operate on this level of consciousness sometimes all of our lives some people their entire lives they operate on this level of consciousness they may never even know that they have another level of consciousness this is the consciousness that they live with this is what they wake up with this is what they breathe this is how they feel about themselves this is how they would talk about themselves as are they gonna sleep this is their life always there it's called unconscious its unconscious 150 years before Freud's about a time he wrote hundreds of times that people don't operate on one level of consciousness they operate on two levels of consciousness at least usually on infinite levels of consciousness but at least two levels of consciousness but the one is relegated to the subconscious you know what subconscious means something's like a basement under so subconscious means there's that which is on the surface if you ask me Who am I and I start talking about myself this is Who I am the subconscious with me it's me but I don't know who it is so it's like in the basement it's like in this sub cellar of my psyche you know like I have a house with a cellar then you have a sub cellar you have a sub sub sub sub sub cellar and then there's a cell nobody ever goes into right just the mice hang out there so sometimes the sub sub cell has the most beautiful parts of the person not the mice but other parts not dead rats but good stuff so the person never goes there so the other soul is always there the question how much consciousness you have of it so we have we operate on two levels of consciousness the first is called Memphis a Bahamas or nephropathy illness and it's not bad that's why I say when you say bad they have to be careful you see what he describes it this is not bad independent self-contained that's what it is and then you have a deeper level of consciousness that he'll continue to discuss that's a wonderful question that's a wonderful question you're really opening up every person has a soul there's no question every person has an unconscious soul and but selam aleykum most businesses have even Adam should live rule but seldom keep its animal okay Masada every person has a soul and a holy soul the question is what type of soul the question is what type of salt is something called a Jewish self but every person Jew and non-jew has a song the nefesh a shame is Beach at all then there's a second soul by the Jewish people nekron officially kists nefesh allahís Gaelic la cama mal the second soul of the Jew is called a divine soul or as deposit kala kala camel is an expression in Eve safer yo job Kayla Kelly coming mal its kavaja ho part of hashem above the hija Bala ah ee and sodium clop this comes to the you pin to the human being without em saw him I'm sorry I mean without many intermediaries at all commercial customers the path success in clay Hellas soft cement soft Simmons I 'invalid him Assessor Adam Yasha Hashem made man straight yo sure so on a literal level it means that our made Hashem God made man straight and he continues the Hema Big Show cash - admin people turn their lives into complex winding their you know experiences but God made a person clot Yasha bahama big circus - nominee here he's taxing on a deeper level that aleck in arson is Masada Hashem made in a sum of a person yo sure that if Gus doesn't go through the entire evolution of all the different stages that caused it to assume a certain identity which becomes what we call the animals soul of the biological song but it's you're sure it's like straight from him into the body non-stop without going through the entire evolution that will morph it into something that is really lofty what ultimately becomes something that feels completely detached from God that's the nefesh a Bahamas the net facial the kiss is Yasha Oh commercial cause him on this we say in the morning in British a shotgun alla kindness Summerson has had to be Tahiry he at the Barossa okay it's active at door and a factor be you blew it into me so the Duke is about after you but after much believe in what saw him you blew it into me directly without any intermediaries without any processes in the middle but you'd pop of knishmas climate says by other Mauritian he blew into his nostrils the knishmas high in the neshamah of life and the duke is vegeta commercial heavily adams-yates a momento the metaphor of wood for this would be the breath of a person that comes out of himself when you exhale so your heaven is coming from you and it's going out of you but I for pequeña you had this in my belief set but unlike in the Marshall when I exhale the breath leaves my body in this case the neshamah 11 never left he ain't LaHood abortion cuts me manual because ultimately there's no breath or word that is outside of him so therefore it's always like the breath still remains internally commercial Costas a French abandon them as explained in the tiny which he calls safer shall banning them and pay and cuff impaired calf I love looking Tommy give me your head this but maxilla but that's once a year so therefore the neshamah is always united with its source with the one that emanates it in complete and absolute unification will midsi de from her perspective La Jolla Bev Sharda you saw other likely cloth it would not be possible for a person to sin Valley ice may are you here exciting to transgresses will after day shame you have had the stomach de Mesilla because she's always completely and absolutely United with her source so therefore the whole concept of being detached from her source is not a possibility doulas however besides the fact solace means besides the fact Shar nefesh a Bahamas Melba scheisse Oh Mikasa o Malin may habit by Island sober a hakama verbal look at mr it's just that the animal soul dresses her and therefore eclipses conceals her vantage point may habit for ability to gaze her ability to see her ability to perceive the infinite presence of God so therefore she herself doesn't feel herself because she may be completely covered over and eclipsed and concealed by the animal so because she is tucked into that animal so there there together who stayed Natasha's a Luna Krupnik Irma custard but Salman new kid Messina when Hashem says NASA Adam but some a new kid must say no it's a Ramazan these two souls are nefesh Alec Issigonis Selim baki Anissa pianist moose but some men who refers to the godly soul and kid moose a know that moose refers to the animal salt is but some NASA other vets al may know in art Selim kid moose a no like our image so he says our pyramids with some men who could Messina refers to these to Natasha's these two songs so the mailer he established from the pine beetle and shower a kedusha that every single Jew operates on two levels of consciousness not on one level of consciousness in other words we have two souls we don't have one so usually you have something that has a battery it has one battery and therefore it has one identity and the battery whether it's a phone or a computer or whatever it is it has a battery that gives it its electrical power so that it could function the way it's supposed to function but it doesn't have two batteries and two different types of batteries well it comes to a person a person has stea fascists in other words too we operate on two distinct levels of consciousness one is an animal level of consciousness that's why it's called nefesh obamas and one is a divine level of consciousness and nefesh Eliquis one is described as a helical economy mile it's literally so to speak a fragment of God in the person so therefore it experiences life from Hashem vantage point and it experiences life completely one with its source completely one with Hashem and one is called nefes-kula is the biological soul or the or the vital soul of the soul that gives life the soul that's in the blood below Besh's madammadam with the person experiences themselves as something that is detached and separate and severed from our sin we may not even feel at all the source and the person can operate on one level of consciousness one hour another level of consciousness another hour sometimes a day like this a day like this sometimes a minute like this a minute like this is sometimes a lifetime that one is in touch with one soul and it's not in touch with with the other soul but these are two very serious distinct levels of consciousness that both are legitimate and exist within a persons within a person's life and therefore from here stems a very fundamental important idea and that is you know we're not in the understanding of humanity many have struggled to understand how it works because ah well one could be subconscious one could be subconscious both countries can they both be subconscious yeah well you mean if the person is dead no meaning can can we be unaware of if we're alive on some level we're aware of some glimmer of life hopefully even maybe an external glimmer of life foot you know if the blood is if the heart is pumping away the blood so there's there's an element of use that we're aware of so we have some expression of the nephron Thomas we may not be in touch with the full capacity of our animal soul I mean how much percent of our brain power do we really use quite a miniscule percent but some glimmer of life we have so we may even in our nephron show Bahamas we may not happen to its full vitality to its full you know capacity but some of it were always conscious of some of it were always conscious of any animal over power yes of course that's what he says the animal soul could cover up the divine soul that a person completely becomes unaware even that it exists they'll still have symptoms of it but they will not attribute those symptoms to the godly soul because the animals soul will explain the symptoms its own way you know person may experience a void a very deep void and it's hard for them to attribute that void to the lack of nourishment of the godly soul because they're not aware of it so they'll explain the void in different ways so they may still have symptoms of it but they may be unaware of the reason of the symptoms be able to identify you know trace back the symptoms to their core and sometimes it could be a state where the godly soul is completely unconscious it's completely eclipsed and repressed than one is completely unaware of it that's the process I'm sorry what no I don't think he's saying that no there is another truth but it's not being discussed here and that is that the entire soul is not enclosed in the body in other words that there's parts of the soul that are rather relegated to the unconscious but here that's that's a true that's true probably in both souls but here we're talking about a specific idea that even on a conscious level a person has a godly soul but nonetheless it could be covered up it's still there but it's unkind person doesn't know about it yes the blood goes up to the brain also yes there's two operating systems yeah right excellent there's two operating systems in the Jewish body and that's what makes it very complicated right somebody once said I think I said stop if somebody wants a definition of chutzpah is you come to the therapist because you have a split personality and you want a group discount right so here you have it you want a group discount because you're not one person or two people so there's an inherent tension there's an inherent economy that exists exists between the two now there's two important conclusions that come from this conclusion number one is that the human being has a dichotomy that is inherent to the very fabric of his existence this is not a split that comes because of a mistake that he made or because of a sin that he committed or because somebody did something wrong this is part of the design of his existence who neshama is a mere I'm at fault I made you this way so therefore you have to understand who you are you have to understand the operating system which the atom in this way - yes and of course before this yeah I mean you mean cuz Rashi says Nicholas played Sahara you maybe for the set it's a toss yeah okay now you're opening up a serious can of worms say what dates are das accomplished let's let's wait with that okay because that's a little complicated the whole famous tickle of nefesh I'm from kind of a larger non that what happened as a result of dates a lot because Ashley says the it Sahara one into him afterwards the problem with that is if you had no a it's a harder why did he sin okay his wife what that's what you still do it's not me it's my wife but but the question is then his wife why did she sin so something that had to be right so when Ashley says the it's harder came in after you have to understand what actually means because because why they do the wrong thing that that my it's a hard they should only want to do God's will so it's a little bit of a complicated in it huh but why would you listen to a snake there's something in you I don't listen to somebody of there's no voice in me that tells me to but why would I listen to a snake probably we should stop while we're heads it's not going the road it's not going in the right direction how is sha Shan esata a muddy okay you know there's a Bala to him yeah other towels are shame how is Shanna sati muddy he must eliminate cycle this is the ballot pull him you could look it up it's not absurd contemporary my fetish he not only minute eights of ice all right he could have said he must not leave she gave it to me and I ate we know it's from the tree we know she didn't give him sushi she gave him on the tree so he says he nationally mean I ate survival I didn't want to eat she took she took the branch and she's push it started to beat me he must eliminate psych I saying it doesn't mean you haven't clap with the by him sees me an anger Gavin we know eight she took the tree and she was pushing pounding on me Michael I have to eat to the Bellator of sense huh yeah okay I'll call upon him so a person has to become intimately aware of the operating system that is to perpetual continuous operating systems going on and a person may not be aware of both of them simultaneously a person may be aware only of one of them and even that a person may not have full awareness you know depends how alert they are depends how conscious they are the Pens how honest they are depends how perceptive they are etc but this to operating system it's not a mistake this is an inherent condition of human existence which is a very important idea because it means that this split that exists in human consciousness is not a random error nor is it a tragic error nor is it due to the fact that a person is so bad they're so evil but it's rather the divine plan it's part of the Divine Plan so the struggle that we continuously have is inherent to our existence it's not because I'm so bad and I did something wrong that's a very important idea and very few people can completely eliminate this struggle from their life number two it has another conclusion that is very very important and that is one of the great idea one of the great struggles that a person has often is that there's so many contrasting voices in me and so many different types of emotions in me that it seems you'll ask a person who are you are you selfish selfish or selfless are you narcissistic or idealistic or are you a brute beasts or oru a divine piece of holiness are you a creature of Earth or are you a creature of heaven who are you so when one realizes how brute and animalistic one can get what it seems to do to so many is de legitimize all of your spiritual experiences because it just shows that you're dishonest you were just delusional you were having what you may call celestial delusions but they're no more you know what celestial means heavenly you were having heavenly but their delusions delusions means columnist or calm or a them allocate them they're worthless they're meaningless so when a Jew has a his arias an arousal a sense of inspiration a sense of ruffini's a sense of the vapors if you're honest you're forced almost to delegitimize it and say it's all checker it's all one big lie Valhalla five minutes later the same person it's capable of the most grotesque immoral horrific impulses it's almost comical if we would have the opportunity to be able to see what people are thinking about in the holiest moments right like sometimes under a chuppah under a chuppah or at a moment which calls for so much positive and holy energy what goes through people's minds and hearts could be sometimes the exact opposite and if they're honest with themselves it has to prove to them the truth that that is essentially they are complete beasts and everything else is just delusions and when they come back when they sober up they just get back to their regular self which ultimately produces one of two results either cynicism or dishonest either cynicism and the entire system system of you disguise because it's not true cynicism means you don't trust it it's not real it's if you're an honest person we gonna fake or the other extreme dishonesty no each one of them has a 1.1 billion ramification but the concept if you'll notice he calls it the tiniest safer shall bein in him this is important why generally sit for a masseur spoke about two types of Jews that good Jew say that Sadiq and the Jew who's flawed what was the difference the good Jew was the Jew who was always in touch with the will of Hashem Rutzen Hashem he wants to do what God wants cognitively emotionally functionally and that's what he does practically and the other Jew is the Jew who's not like that the Jew who doesn't can't say that all of his mid-ice and his entire personality is in sync with God as well so maybe call him the rusher call him the Jew who's flawed who has a lot of work to do on himself so you have here two different models now the regular Jew the ordinary Jew the Beynon II the human human being opens up these forums and starts reading them what happens there our nationís that are very subtle they're very sensitive they're very lofty they're spiritually very in touch in tune so they can reach that but most people can't live a life that they completely identify with God's will internally externally 24 hours a day seven days a week 365 days a year so when they read a lot of smart him different people react in two different ways one who approaches this is not me this is this is not me so I'm not gonna lie my whole life you have this buckle at 15 years old is hearing stories from his reverie Russia Shiva and he decided that he's gonna be Rebecca Vega you ever had that or he's gonna become the next baal shem tov who's gonna become the next Huff it's Khayyam or he's gonna be the next rajma who's gonna be the Panay yoshua whoever he's gonna right he's 15 and he starts tagging away you know 18 hours a day right he tells his mother no breakfast no lunch knows I'm not coming home anymore for seven years I'm not coming home anymore and then a few days ladies walking in the street and he sees something and he realizes new screen of a cave a gear he's got a pen a you sure he's not a Rambam he's not a Rajah but he's not a huff it's Khayyam he seizes a regular 15 year old boy with good hormones so what happens what happens to you at that point two things can happen one thing can happen is at some point you say okay I'm not gonna fake it so you give up on your spiritual aspirations because you want to be a real person the other extreme is you become a fake person so basically I should we ask you you're closing your eyes you make sure that you dive in longer than everybody else you lift up your hands higher than everybody else you're almost deluding yourself to believe that you are this person who want to look deep level you know you're not and that becomes very sad because for the rest of your life you're not honest anymore about your emotions because you can't be because if you're honest about your emotions what's gonna emerge is stuff that you don't even want to tell yourself that you have so your whole life you're pretending that you are one of these model Jews who are experiencing very lofty divine levels when really it would be like discussing a dish for years and years and you ever saw people discussing the dish for years and years and years that they never taste it but you have to make believe that you know everything about it now that's very tragic we're analyzing recipes of dishes that we never tasted we don't even know what they look like never mind but you have to make believe that you know exactly what they are you know so people are talking about this addiction people sometimes talk about the baal shem tov and i reason the bass joseph and the officers and the bud ditch event that should know bill there and and they never get mailer send it up in a position they never get butter on the upper tier of and everyone is supposed to get excited from their kedusha and tyra as though it relates to them and if somebody says i don't know what you're talking about i don't feel any this I am clueless I am alienated I don't even know what they want this is all nostalgia unless somebody said nostalgia today is not what it used to be like and it's all trying to draw inspiration from credit cards that don't exist anymore how long can you live on credit cards how long can you live you have everybody tried how long can you live on credit cards so the expert none of them say three years three years you could live on credit cards that you have absolutely not a penny in the bank but you live on credit cards how long can the Jewish world live on credit cards money we don't have inspiration we don't have telling stories how it used to be in Vilna and Slovakia in the mirror right in that circle or in other cities we want Poland or galettes you're hungry whatever wherever you come from whatever gets your parents or she was excited how long can you train a whole generation to live over those credit cards without talking about them without talking about them if God is true he's true today he wasn't true 200 years ago in measure bush he's true here today in this tray phonemic dinner with the internet if Martin theta is true it's true today so we have a major problem because you have those who say I'm honest I'm not gonna lie and if I'm not gonna lie this whole thing is not for me call it send it to the club I'm not I'm not gonna be part of a game and then the other ones who say no I'll be part of the game and therefore they're playing a game their whole life and whenever you try to talk them about their emotions they can't they have to cut off their emotions because if they deal with their emotions it's gonna be very ugly and this was one of the great revolutions probably of the ballot anja but he wrote a safer call safer shall bein in him and one of his condition and his safer was that God does not want everybody to identify with him 24 hours a day in other words part of the design of creation is that we are conflicted we operate on two levels of consciousness one level of consciousness you're one with God always another level of consciousness you really don't give a hoot you're just a beast and an animal and that's part of your design that is part of your jury and avoid SSM does not mean that you obliterate one avoid SR sham means you learn how to live with the two soul as he's gonna explain you learn how to live with the two cells another both of them fulfill a particular function and purpose he does not want everybody to have one godly soul your animal soul is part of your purpose and part of your design and the fact that you have it doesn't mean you're a failure a voyeur search them does not mean that every part of you is always in sync with God's will no that's not a very session avoid this Hashem means that you based on who you are honestly and genuinely with your two souls can find your own relationship with God according to your capacity what that does is it says two things number one that the Academy is inherent you can't get rid of it number two more important the moments of genuine spirituality are not faith just because they're followed by moments of grotesque grotesque immorality the nefesh of bahamas experience doesn't D legitimacy and make believe that the nefesh ology doesn't exist they never shall the kiss exists I sometimes I completely don't feel it fine you have two souls you have two operating systems and one does not cancel out the other it doesn't make believe it doesn't make the DeRose miss should be completely non-existent doesn't do that what does this accomplish not that I have to become cynical and let everything go nor do I have to become faith rather I discover every person can discover that their journey towards God is one that relates to who they are today Amaka my shaft on a model of admah sky - oh it's who you relate today in other words every person according to who they are confined and become an even a sham according to their MSM it's instance doesn't want everybody to become a sidelight meaning that they get rid of the neffenger bahamas rather avoid assertion means understanding your two souls and within that context and within that process finding your relationship with Hashem so this bit Sal may know kid more say no NASA other but some a new kid musei notes our main who is our M is for the nefesh on the kiss it was saying it was a ram as for the nephesh a Bahamas vahini adidas nefesh Eliquis bylaw my sub is a daily slavish beneficial unisza bahamas the purpose of the descent of the godly soul into the world was in order to become enclosed - so to speak marry to become connected to the animal biological soul in the body it's not that the never shall look his system on its own voyage on its own journey it was sent down in order to build a relationship and to become completely connected because the - one soul is tucked into the other soul it's not like you know we have two operating systems in two completely different parts of the body everything we do every thought every experience every emotion that we instinct every habit of course every action word thought is all through our biological vitality if a person doesn't have a nefesh the Bahamas and nefesh after Yunus then they can't live they can't function so there's no experience of the nephron shell the kiss in our world without the medium of the nephron obamas you need the blood circulation and to have damned who are nefesh the blood that is the vehicle of the nephron bahamas and that is what allows for the oxygen and of allows what allows for the circulation it allows for all of the abilities and capacities of a human body or anybody to be able to function on each on every level cognitively emotionally and functionally much over Libra MYSA me dice and so forth so then the two souls are completely it's two operating systems but they're always together they're affecting each other in a very profound way and they each need each other so he says the nefesh of the kiss was sent down in order to go into the nefesh obamas to be miss lavish it becomes like its garment it works through it like a person who's dressed up in all of Bush that's why using the wordless lab which when I'm dressed up in a lavash I'm expressed through my garment you see me through my garment so the nephron shall the kiss is in the net my mama's Lee he loved him eat oh now it is a few different words he was Lee loved him it to do battle with her Olivera her to refine her llaha phenotype manera to separate her time from her negative lolly solution and to sublimated regardless a professional and wahahaha shoe solenoid to transform darkness opaqueness into light that's a wonderful question what's the difference between Yeats Sahara and nefesh a Bahamas it's a wonderful wonderful question in other words he brings here the premises a trip I'm the town tortoise two souls why are you looking for a kindly talent i recondition you could open up a massage the brothers and it says at the end of roughness I think of summer holiday heat sir hashem elokenu sodomize mentioned this to us because hashem created to y8 sirs I eat sir he gave us two inclinations the age of tithing XR and this is why I mentioned process you have this dozens and dozens and dozens of places and cuss out in Bali and you shall me and the mad Russian and then you have it in so many sources does the Eighth Circuit or even theirs it's a heart every child knows right that hates it emanates a heart so why do you have to find a Kabbalistic work called Shahrukh do Shahrukh I'm the cow who live dashed in the sixteen hundreds the late 1530 sixteen hundred was a student of the reason tells us that every single Jew has to Natasha's that's your question positive you're saying it doesn't Hamish I think this is a clearly how much th O'Hara doesn't say anywhere doesn't say it's in you it says Reina satella for Nassau it's a high investor toy but some of us beside our hard to behind but that could be outside of you this this time here he's talking about inside that doesn't say anywhere in commercial enough it doesn't say clearly a mysterious aura that we know that says in Madrasi huzzah that's intelligible path but your Shidler is what do you need this issue with consults right right the same question or is it different so obviously the fact that he's not talking here only about the exit Oviatt Sahara he's talking about these two soldiers because he wants to expand expand the concept beyond the eight so to me it's a hard yes but of course they're connected of course they're connected which is why sometimes they become interchangeable in his own works sometimes sometimes not always I wouldn't say so frequent but sometimes they're interchangeable but even when they're interchangeable it's it's Llosa with the kalam it's nots Tom that it's the same word because if it was the same word then you wouldn't be flying big doll you would bring come you could bring dozens of my mother Casa I'll bring out two points there's more but I'll bring up two points in the distinction between the two if you see it's actually you've mentioned it right now cuz that's where you see it he says two things then official cos goes into he lock in me taught to battle with it and then he says another word who lovara lovara does not battle you know what lovara means right from the word Boyer like Shabbos burger burger means select or it also comes in the word borrower which means clear to clear up to refine that Lahari that tells me now like so watch them to elevate her what's her hers feminine nefesh nefesh Obama's I'm not elevating official the kiss la loi so much them to turn so you're battling it or you're elevating it what are you doing when you battle an enemy you're elevating your enemy or you're trying to destroy your enemy or neutralize your enemy he says both he says leave la ermita and he says lovara this is a key issue because the nefesh a Bahamas the main work with an average of Bahamas is not about extermination and even battle battle is only a prerequisite for sublimation for elevation for beater you need a do battle we'll see in a moment why but it's only a hawk honor to be Mahopac essential and higher why is this there's two ways of looking at the negative in a person one is y8 Sahara and one is nefesh a Bahamas the Yeats Sahara is an aspect of the method from Bahamas but it's not the story of the nefesh of Bahamas it's a derivative it's a manifestation it's an outlet it's a result but it's not the whole story of an official Bahamas the story of the nefesh a Bahamas is that it's not evil and that's what we don't call it the edge Sahara it's an animal animals are not bad they're actually cute right I don't know if you guys are lovers of animals probably some yes I'm not but at least all of you though some animals are very cute it says in Kabal in my yard that Keller is is made of two words cooler lave it's all heart right what they say man's bad man is best friend cool they leave it's all heart it's all emotional animals could be very cute very charming very trusting everybody knows some people love animals a guy once told me says I was a little younger than I am today he says you won't find love with people by yourself three dogs don't trust people he says I learned not to trust anybody they'll backstab you he says the dog that's where love is you come home in a bad mood you're depressed you're angry he says watch what your wife does but your dog doesn't care unconditional unconditional a laugh this was his now he was talking from his wife's experience I understood him very well I just put it very well so an animal is not bad those animals around it's not right at all sometimes animals are great are great heroes and and animals are certainly cute and charming and a lot of other things you know and very interesting they're interesting they're fascinating the study of animals is a fascinating study and it's really a study of the divine mind because animals were created you know it's part of monogamous Akash them you know to see how animals figure things out and how they develop in different animals it's fascinating that's what we call it Memphis a Bahamas it's a very important distinction nefesh a Bahamas is not necessarily bad it could morph into a eight Sahara and it often does that that's the point that's the point you have to understand what the eights are or is in its full picture the nefesh obamas expands it it zooms out rather than zooming in it zooms out and tries to give the full perspective of what what and what an effort tsubame says that's why there was a Kabbalist from abulafia early McMullen he says youth cave of K is Yeats er hot aviator now that's pretty loaded you'd cave off-key HIV etc at surface it seems like almost heresy really you'd cave off that's ashrams essential name in effort shame MF Irish you'd cave off days ate Sahara suddenly of course it needs a lot of it needs to be put into context he's not saying that every evil instinct a person has that's a revelation of God's name what he's explaining is that even the HR Hara if you trace it back to its ultimate source like he says here it comes from a mahkum gov William III that comes from a very lofty space so the nefesh a Bahamas gives it some context let me try to clarify one point in this that we should be able to understand I grew up in Brooklyn in my community where I grew up most people did not have dogs and the reason there's not because they have anything against dogs but when you have homes that are populated Canaan harder with 11 kids 12 kids 16 kids 17 kids nine kids eight kids there's no need for extra action in the homes there's enough going on in the homes nobody's bored everybody's pretty occupied so therefore wasn't a common thing that people have dogs in the house the way I grew up then God blessed me with our wife who comes from Pittsburgh and then when I went to meet her grandparents actually the day I got married yeah I came to Pittsburgh in the afternoons I went to their grandparents house to say hi they had a little dog called Georgie it took me a long time to get used to Georgie because I didn't grow up with a dog jumping on your lap and licking you and being your best friend and being your partner in Brooklyn when you see a dog that you start saying that the boy start saying tsukamoto burn a solid effort Skylanders Charlie let me issue about behavior every dog is an anti-semite every dog is a monster every dog wants to kill you so suddenly I see no the dog is part of the family you barbecue with the dog and you sleep with the dog and you're on the couch I mean the same bed then you're on the dog is everybody want the dog watches television the dog plays golf and the dog the dog is a member of the it has a name it has a birthday and as an anniversary it has everything anyway one day my wife's grandparents I mean they're ready in Oland members this is a number of years ago they called them nanny and pop-up so nanny and pop-pop made a barbecue a poolside barbecue which in a city like Pittsburgh or Muncie is sometimes a fee of minute Ida especially in the spring or summer months that a pool so we were sitting there and doing a barbecue sure my wife's grandfather mother told me that George Rhea now that I gave him human foods only dog food no no human food I'm sitting by the table there and on my plate there was a piece of hotdog a piece of hamburger whatever some meat and a little piece fell to the ground and Georgie eyed it so George restarts circling mamas with a lot of hot office the piece of meat on the ground the hot dog or the hamburger as I like this and I could see that Georgie was engaged in deep contemplation it was obvious she's not touching it but she's going fast this way that way around and around like scratching her head so to speak thinking about something unlike Balaam's donkey she wasn't communicating verbally so I only could speculate what she was seeing but she was thinking about something now I had to speculate so my speculation went as follows is she thinking the following thoughts does eating this piece of meat constitute the fulfillment of my purpose in life is this what I was created for is this ultimately my purpose my mission my slickest the reason my soul came down into this world which brings to mind a bigger question why was I created Who am I what is identity even then you know what why didn't God create me as a cat which would have made life so much easier or to piddle or not the piddle that is the question or perhaps the dog was thinking if it's moral if it's spiritual if it's right to eat it now I cannot tell you she was not thinking these thoughts I cannot swear it just didn't seem like it it seemed like she was thinking about one thing and that is could I get away with eating this piece of meat without nannies zapping me those of you who have dogs you know you SAP the dog which the dogs despise can I get away without being zapped she was deeply engrossed in this thought process her sagged in was I could she ate it and even though we were all charged with the job of being informers on her I decided my deluxe Omni LaCava a sovereign if I would eat a piece of meat illegally I wouldn't want anybody to tell on me so I'm not gonna be then-former and I didn't tell Manny ask autonomous care hire him that she ate this piece of meat she got away with it and since then we became good buddies we became good friends smartly varesh merlok I protect the Georgie and Georgie became a good friend of mine now I think in many ways that describes very well the nefesh a Bahamas the nefesh a Bahamas is not a bad song it's not evil it's not cruel it's not sadistic it's not bad barek it could become as we know people can be very barbaric very sadistic just have to open up the newspaper unfortunately every hour on the hour the nefesh are bahamas however is an animal it operates on a certain consciousness the consciousness is operates on is a beastly consciousness an animal consciousness it asks not questions about truth destiny meaning purpose transcendence the questions it asks is ultimately my existence is taken for granted my needs are taken for granted the question is could I get away with it how can I in other words its focus is self-preservation and self gratification and self propagation which is the focus of an animal of a healthy and that's a healthy animal we don't expect more from an animal we focus on a normal self-preservation self gratification self endurance including self propagation and that's also the mayor of an efficient Bahamas by an animal I never saw a horse or sheep saying I would love the potato chips but next week I have a wedding and the gown won't fit they don't do that they eat it's good to learn from them sometimes how to eat they eat with one purpose they want to live why do they want to live that's really not part of that profitable therapy they don't need they didn't need some dates at us they are instinctive creatures and even their intelligence it's embedded into them and their intelligence is limited by the animal consciousness its intelligence of how to achieve the goal of self-preservation and they're brilliant in this if you ever studied apes gorillas monkeys even insects you know what ants do to build their colonies you have a hundred million ants working together in synchronization without diplomats without the negotiators without arbitrators without their abundant maybe that's why without without those just a job without without anybody in between a hundred million ants working together they call it in biology a super organism it's not one bicycle it's like one body of 100 million who taught them this who taught this to that so no question that Hashem embedded into their into their brains a mighty intelligence but it's limited to one realm and that is how do I exist how do I make sure I have food today and they do it well they do it unbelievably well I sometimes watch bees in front of my houses spare time to watch bees is very interesting how they quote to get the nectar and bring it back to the Beehive oh so unbelievable how they do it and it's always good Cashman all meticulously worked out and there's no moment of waste and no moment of rest they live for 30 days because they work so hard they fly back and forth like ten times a day they work for 12 hours straight they ultimately die from exhaustion regular bees so there's a lot of intelligence there this brilliance there but all the brilliance is limited to a certain consciousness and if consciousness asks one question what is in it for me sometimes certain nature's will include tremendous loyalty to the master because that light becomes an extension of you like with dogs their loyalty to the master could be incredibly powerful and sometimes very moving very emotional somebody sent me a story a little while ago there was a dog that saw a snake attacking a two-year-old a three-year-old girl in the house by the pool and the snake jumped in between and at the dog jumped in between and got the venomous bite I saw the dog was in ICU I don't know what happened with the dog but the dog jumped in in other words it identified its self-preservation with the self preservation of of its master's girl that's how deeply connected it becomes like that becomes its identity the family the house the master the Masters family whatever it is but you can't expect from Georgie to ask any other question that's her question that's the nefesh obamas it operates on that level self preservation of self gratification in that sense if we would have only had a nefesh of Bahamas life wouldn't have been complicated because that's the question you ask what makes life interesting and complicated especially for a Jewess that we also have an official Lucas and therefore sell the kids is a chemical economy mom it's completely transcendent it speaks a different language it asks different questions it seeks truth it wants to know what is true it wants to know what is ultimately true it doesn't seek self-preservation and self gratification it rather wants to connect with the ultimate reality and the ultimate truth of life now you how complicated it is to have these two consciousnesses together the first one works the first door works that's why frogs don't suffer from depression Borges today they have therapists for dogs in the California in New York that's only because they hang out with people for too long so they become asthma sugars every mention it but naturally animals are also have very deep emotion do you know about the emotions of elephants how emotional is it emotional they are their memories now it's very very moving with elephants there was a fellow in Africa who used to save elephant you know elephants are endangered species because they shoot them all the time it's really not very nice what they do to elephants there are very you know special and majestic animals very interesting animals I mean all animals so but they want their rare what do they want their ivory right it's very very precious huh the tusks yeah so there was this fellow in Africa who dedicated his life to rescue elephants and he rescues many elephant then he sent them back into the jungle anyway I read the story it was fascinating to me the guy died the number of years ago the guy died in his house he lived in Africa somewhere in some city an elephant in the jungle walked for 12 miles 12 miles to his house where he was dead they stood there for two days and they walked back how they know he died nobody texted it to them and I don't think they read the websites they knew he died they came they stayed for two days they went home they went back to the jungle it's very it's very profound stuff it's not simple you know so I say this all to bring out the point what happens in this nefesh a Bahamas if my focus is self-preservation and self gratification that's my focus now the question is what is gratification I'm a physical person right so I have intuitions so naturally the certain things that give me enjoyment give me pleasure and the certain things I feel I need to exist and because I'm a physical person I don't see things deeply I'm like an animal so an animal knows this is good for me this is not good for me as a human being grows up if the nefesh a Bahamas is not educated refined and shown things naturally it could morph into a yetzer Hara I start craving things that are destructive for example they may be bad for me but they're enjoyable or at least they feel enjoyable they may belong to you but that's not part of my husband my husband is I have to live so my cute animal can turn into a dangerous beast if it's not like the POSIX s operations create sir Laver ardham ramen or earth it doesn't begin with that it begins with actually a pure animal and not only that with the proper enlightenment it can be completely sublimated and elevated why because it's not looking bad for bad it's looking to exist it's looking for gratification what if it could be show and what is real what is the real existence what does it mean to exist and what is your authentic ratification then suddenly the animal soul can become a full partner with the divine soul now that exists on many different levels how much can it partner up there's many different Fitness in life that's why he says there's little climb and this lovara little joy means it's not always gonna work peacefully if I'm having a terrible instinct right to steal to pickpocket money I can't come to my nefesh a Bahamas and say you know you're this cutest animal I want to punch somebody's nose or I want to scream at somebody or have an addiction to gambling or to alcohol or whatever the lovely addictions that people have today and I'm gonna start counting nefesh a Bahamas you're this cute beautiful little animal I'm gonna lose sometimes you have to wage battle the shimmer veer off says you know the shitty version of the Sun of the different I am at Sansa and the son of Shannara is a safer call different she says a purchase valuation it says buy you more in yosef refused by different wife and by reminders or shall jealous by what this old fellas so the never robbed says he was the robbed of Shannara son of the sons a rough I saw once in a safe for debris a fresco and Hamish he says in Yiddish that Joyce have said now I don't know if you guys have spoke Yiddish but he probably means means it's symbolically by your - I saw sellers you basically repeat the same note three times but you're stuck uh she said the ice have told her nein nein nein that's 50 no she said no no and then it says he gave an explanation you don't first give an explanation and then say no because the moment you give an explanation you're ready fell prey to the addiction you understand that first know if you want to explain it to you but it's always know it's gonna be that stage do you have to fight you sometimes have to battle you have to say no not because the never service is essentially evil cuz that's what it is right now and if you don't battle you're not gonna win you're gonna lose ultimately however it is a process of bitter conversation enlightenment education the main mission with the nefesh obamas is never obliteration it's always education which is what education is education is never about destroying somebody anybody who associates education with destroying somebody or put it simply an educator or parent who says something to a student or a buckler or a girl or a child that makes them feel destroyed that's not agitation that's horrible that's it's wrong it's immoral that's never what it's about it's sometimes it requires discipline but never to destroy to elevate to sublimate to channel the harness to refine to be my viral type from there on it's an avoid of beer or beer it is not destruction but it is extra cating who you are and eliminating the toxicity that attached yourself to you that's one of the ideas nefesh the bahamas gives us over y8 sahara it morphs into a eight sahara to becoming it so but at its core we're dealing with an animal consciousness that through you effort or through divine effort of the nephron so Lucas can read great space of spiritual and moral and like so the nephron shall the kiss comes into the world in order to build a relationship so to speak a connection with the nefesh a Bahamas and there's a battle however it battles it it refines it that speaks to it and ultimately elevates it sublimates it la hey Nikki Buscemi's wrong that is why we have the name you sir all the Jew is called you sir oh why is this the name of the Jew commercial cost of the PASOK says of course in my ich Lana he was given this name kiss Arisa in malay kim heemin our motto home the man who battled Jakob says sirisha cerissa means you quarreled you fought you wrestled wrestled email akin with God's women awesome with humans but to hell and has gyaku you prevailed from the word yahoo you prevailed you demonstrated capability Peter Sh what does this represent on an internal level it means you saw what does it mean to be a Jew shall never shall the history Allah see unisza bahamas kiss erisa that the never shall the kiss should become a sorrow should become a ruler on the Yunus and the Bahamas on the biological and animal soul he should become its leader he should become the mentor of the animals so not the other way around because if it's the other way around ultimately the purpose of one's life is not fulfilled and the godly soul is miserable and ultimately the animal soul is also miserable the only way to achieve manaka-san effort serenity is if it becomes clear in a person's life that there is a boss there's a mentor and the mentor is the nefesh Eliquis to give part partial to dogma if somebody owns a dog for example the dog goes ahead of the master the dog sees a garbage can jumps into the garbage can to find some food and gets excited if the man the master is gonna say ok let me follow my dog so you also go into the garbage can then you start nibbling from the garbage ultimately it feels horrible for the person it's not what he's supposed to do so what does he do he stays out of the garbage company says come over come over now sometimes the dog listen sometimes dog doesn't listen depends how well you trained it sometimes it comes begrudgingly sometimes it becomes willingly but it's not possible to have the human turn in to a dog and start doing what a dog does you're not gonna have that for the dog it's fine that's what the dog does on the other hand the dog can be mentored the dog can be trained by the master and then the dog is also happy so a person has a choice the nefra shall the kiss could follow the nefesh a Bahamas well the nefesh obamas could follow the nefesh on the kiss but whatever you do to the nefesh on the kiss it's never gonna become a Bahama it's always gonna remain godly so therefore the only path toward serenity according to this shift of the ballot Anya's only kiss Arisa when the nefesh of the kiss is gonna gain mastery over the nefesh obamas because you can't have the godliness and a person become animalistic it's not so whatever you do to try to have it follow the dog it's never going to become an animal it will always remain divine and thus it will remain miserable and grouchy and depressed if you're forcing it to behave contrary to its true nature and identity what about the other way around the other way around the animal will follow the master sometimes begrudgingly sometimes willingly sometimes enthusiastically but that's the way to have manaka-san nefesh now this is a very important idea because there is contention in life there is a split in the human psyche there is a dichotomy the question is is man capable of minutia of serenity of tranquility or are we destined to battle forever can there really be a sense of wholesomeness this Muhammed here that he's explaining is it is one way for wholesomeness and that's only if the nefesh of Bahamas becomes mentored by the nefesh on the kiss never the other way around because you can't turn the LA kiss into a Bahamas so therefore if the Bahamas controls you ultimately they'll a kiss is repressed and crushed and therefore its voice will be a voice of anxiety and anxiousness and very often the source of anxiety and anxiousness could be this very reality and that is that the person's soul the person's godly soul is completely repressed but the other way around a nephesh a Bahamas it may resist but it's not contrary to its core when it follows the nefesh of the kiss you're not crushing it at its core on the contrary you're elevating it back to its core so therefore sometimes after battle sometimes it does it enthusiastically just like the dog with the master not gonna suffer from coming out of the garbage can and going to the beautiful gardens that the master goes into so therefore here too so the avoid is kiss Arisa you have to become a sire and therefore lapa commercially sell me this a shallow loss mmm I'm a Dalit ultimately metamorphosize all her thoughts and meters which are under vine for rata tithe now again rot toy here doesn't necessarily mean from evil to good like we usually translate evil right in the terminology of terasaka siddhis means fragmented rousu are broken something that experiences itself as broken meaning it's not holistic it's not one why is it not one could it's separated from the source of creation anything that's separated from the source of creation this is called rah rah doesn't mean here at bad negative sadistic barbaric it could mean that - of course that could mean that - but wrath could sometimes be very subtle a sense of self-consciousness a sense of loneliness a sense of solitariness a sense that I am NOT holy I'm not part of the oneness of our sin that is rock I told you in clay helis it says loose rock it means broken rock means broken we have it in in halakhah in Gomorrah Hisle rah rah right in her coin is above a comma other places close to our what does it mean a weak wall it's about to fall it's about to break RAAA means weak it's fragmented it's gonna shatter it's gonna disintegrate so that's what ROM means ROM means chatter disintegrated in other words broken off broken off from what it's a shard that's broken off from the oneness of life when a person is in a place of rama's a person doesn't feel one with Hashem when you don't feel one with Hashem I'm in a place of avoir so sometimes I'm eating I'm going to the bathroom I'm sleeping whatever I'm doing what does it mean right now when I'm eating am I in oneness with my source with my soul with my god with the world that's a space of Taif space of ROM means I'm on my own on my own not in a good sense of on my own that you know I take responsibility on my own meaning that I'm alone I'm detached I've disconnected I don't feel my holiness I don't feel that I'm part of holiness so that void is to take the nefesh obamas which is not evil at its core and to transform its my service and midis and one can because an animal can be refined and educated like a child can be refined and educated but Hamidah is Nicky relic in commercial Kosovar Volpone Allah Kim mid-race are called L it came like the past success in - parrot Aleph by a volume nay Allah Kim with shot similar Shannon so the targum says is very viable Kim bottarga my Bonet Ravel Avaya the children of the great by Avaya Bernal Kim as the children of the great Panera veeraiah so Alpena stood on a deeper level he says la Kim by a volume Binet le Kim Binet rather the value the children of Nava VII it represents the me dice which are powerful which are potent when a person has an emotion it can take over you know you have an emotion that becomes overwhelming Ravi Ravi vemma notion goodness my Saanich initial so when it says kiss Arisa melech in the in Menasha mother took ow la Kim represents mid-ice a notion represents my senator says until the mice energy metabolism the works the actions of man of a laughs of Haissam may relative Ali they never shall the kiss how many you had this Ramat syllable est punim clown so kiss Arisa you wrestle and more importantly you become a sire a leader over le Kim over your midnight they mine or sham over your actions but to help and you transfer them from disunity to unity why they never shall look it's true the godly soul on your head this with Mozilla which is always one with its sorts with our Shambala has troponin clown there's never a concealment to face the nefesh on the kiss always senses the presence of the divine there's a part of us that is always one with God and there's no Hester over there there's no has deponent it's one with its source I'm invited her she can be boyish she can refine or Milan elevate nefesh a feelin is the biological soul we bottle Valley coal burner sure to become included to become submerge entire nation he says Li he bottle Willie he color real bitl means that you become part of the clown you're not anymore fragment and you're not anymore a detail a prat that becomes lost but it's like a leaf the leaf is connected to the tree and you come to the leaf and you ask the leaf how are you and the leaf looks at you and the leaf says I'm miserable and you ask to leave why you miserable and the leaf says because I'm forever connected to this tree and I want to ultimately go on my own I want to become a successful autonomous being in existence this tree dictates everything I do this tree gives me this tree has roots and I'm always connected to these roots and I'm basically based and being defined by the rhythm of this tree and I dream for the day when freedom will ring and I will be extricated from the shackles of slavery that pined me down to this narcissistic tree and then a wind comes and the leaf gets detached from the tree and the leaf starts dancing and making coulis making the somersaults and tumble sauces on the on the street as it rolls from one place to another place and it's completely free it's completely free and then you come a few days later and it's there by the sewer you know and it changed colors it's not the green anymore it's now dark dark grey it's shriveled up it's lifeless it's dry it's half its size and say well you went on a diet you're so emaciated right and a few weeks later that leaf just disappears from the face of the horizon so the leaf on the tree wasn't an act of coercion of dictatorship the leaf on the tree was allowing the leaf actually to be the leaf to be a leaf when it's off the tree what happens it doesn't have its source of vitality so that's what by he says let bottle valley color bittle really means to become missile and iron in safe in other words to realize how small you are on your own but how large you are because of your connection to the ain't safe on one hand on your own there's no real existence but when you realize who you really are that you're part of the infinite then you're much bigger and larger and more powerful than you ever imagined so it's this paradox the powerlessness of the leaf on its own but that allows it actually to appreciate what it really is that's why the he bottle the leaf color but internship bazooka nice Easter all this is what you throw meanness of course of course because nephrons Obama's is Iran what do we mean that disconnected it doesn't feel any connection not that at its core it's not connected the fuse of everything comes too much time including in Africa Bahamas but it went through a whole process of evolutions to the point that the energy that comes into it is so restricted and so concealed that experiences itself as an animal it experience itself as a beast and it does the best it can under the circumstances it doesn't recognize it's ultimate Korn ultimate source so the nefesh of the kiss is really in a lifelong conversation with the nefesh obamas it's a lifelong conversation and as we will see that this mammoth fella that is the time when the primary conversation takes place the conversation between the godly sorts of conversation I don't mean necessarily conversation that you talk to yourself I mean you could do that too you know the best and the shinstr most mothers do it but but it's a mental conversation it's an internal conversation between the two parts of the human being and it's almost comforting the animal soul and allowing it to be able to become what it's truly capable of becoming bazooka nice Easter all yah sure kale what does this mean kale who Russian Cossack Amon Shama the word kale in post-commit always says kale means strength as a lay Haaretz loketh he took the powerful of the land hail Kayla's strength power Lynnette say Atma Hampton official illness you sir all you must have the element of kale of poison because if the nefesh on the kiss becomes meek then it could never be successful you always have to know that the nefesh a Bahamas is looking for direction you know when a dog when you buy a dog the worst thing is that the dog thinks it's the master of the house what is it called the expression the Alpha because what happens then is it can really hurt you know the kids and the father and the mother in the house so you do it a harm when you make believe it's the master and you don't display confidence and strength imagine a teacher goes into a classroom and in order to appease the children the teacher sits down on the floor and starts playing and claims that he's one of the kids so then what happens is it confuses the children it makes them feel queasy and creepy and weird you should connect to me but you have to know who you are when you don't know who you are then you don't do yourself or the other a favor by being like that when the nefesh electus walks into life it has to tell the nefesh obama's here i'm here for you but i'm here to train you I Know Who I am and I know you are and that's the concept of the stroke he cerise so you have to be a Tsar and you have to have the new code of kale which is highly sick and I'm sure there's OSHA cost of this is what the puzzles hasn't to heal them you may say no by hem Shivam Shana they may be good as mine and Shana love it I'm Alec says into hill of capital Sadiq twiddle emotion we say Thomas morning right you Mason I say noob ahem shoot what's the behan by hem is Dyken by hem Russian oven we stay on the fascists emotionally saying over him the years of our life by hand with them in them with the two souls not one is Shiva marshana Shaba and here here at keyword should be call your Imam Ossama Hadassah every day there's gonna be a new battle between the two souls the challenge of yesterday that you met today you'll have a new thing to deal with in other words Lafitte hook and that's why says something might an aim to use some shovel says that guy used to be the hypothesis that's why no two peoples lifespans are identical one person lives longer one person shorter why how cult oh boy with the Erica mill Hamish it started a little cumin Ashlee Obamas with the hailer Kardashian bomb commish on him should throw too close to me much of this happens look like the amount of years a lot of to every person has to do with wonder could there and that is how much work he has to do with his animal song how much battle he has to do with his animal so based on who she is how many years he needs in order to make a dent and ultimately a transformation in the animals so that it becomes Taif yeah it's a different type of nephrons obamas maybe the good die young is not it's not just well of course he's not giving here the full reason why the husband but in other words the slickers of every person in this world has often to do with the remedies our concept of Gugu live and a lot of different things that play themselves out right you don't know why a person came down which could have the nefesh of hammers but it's always for the tickin of the nephron shy harmless and that's the lifespan of the person what type of thicker than average Obama's needs that's very hard to know a teacher who comes into class the master oh quit yeah right so that's the other extreme the other extreme is one extreme is you become a child other extreme is that you run away in other words I can't deal with it the point is you have to connect to the child a teacher has to connect to the children but not become one of the children because the children need a teacher you know children need parents when parents become one of the children it's not good for the children yeah so this is this on one hand you want to be able to identify with the students but they should feel close to you on the other hand you don't want to become the student someone had a nephesh Obama's has to understand inefficient Lukas you have to communicate in a way that's relevant that's relatable but on the other hand you have to know who is the mastering you have to establish it in others you can't take the nefesh Obama is that seriously to turn it into the master of your life because it needs guidance it needs help it needs sublimation and that's the emotion I say no BAM Shoshanna they say a mice about the cop scalable enough Zevon brings it mm yes observing the safest opponent sit him now once the cops could ever menachem mendel Morgenstern was his name Morgenstern he wants a father came to him and asked them to come visit a child who was very ill so he came for bicker Coulomb and his toy he asks the cot skirt to give a brother for him to davon fell and he says my son is mama shot Santa Kamala and he starts praising his son he says now as Nestor's outside the canisters are malwa and he starts denigrating the boy so the talmidim afterwards asked him why would you do this you talk to the kotsky rebel you know he couldn't tolerate flattery and patronizing we know but some lots of never here a little child what do you put him down the kids see he says he didn't understand the Gemara says about the paraffin in condition if Tyrfing became sick so the cause common came from bigger caelum so the mother of repeat our offender was a toxic a herself Amara describes that she was not a very nice woman she had a lot of issues she tells the harkaman do you have to dive in for him because his Cupid aim is incredible he's to respect his mother and I think Maura says he once put his hands under her feet but didn't have soles on the shoes she once spit at him in public and he didn't respond this keyboard aim is incredible so the Summum said he didn't even reach half of the midst of people dead because the man is sick what do you have - what do you have to insult him what he have to denigrate it so the cops could explain that the slickness of raped - in this world was keyboard aim if he fulfilled the mitts off came a day and then his soul goes back to its source they said he didn't even fulfill half the mitzvot keeper then this man was telling me that his son is at something with a mollusk and as a void is perfect if he's perfect then he doesn't have anything to do in this world the reason you're in this world is because you're not perfect so the defender Schlemmer did a dumpster never brings in the pasta he say te llama llama la vaca she says key sate say when the neshamah goes out of GaN Eden into this world its llama llama la vaca it's going to battle if you don't know this then you have nothing to do in this world this world is a battle it's a conflict and easy says everyday it's animal , I may have dealt with one aspect of my animal saw yesterday but today something is gonna come up you're gonna finish chakras you're gonna get a text from the favorite person in your life you're gonna get se hitched and you're like wow I thought I was in a good mood today I thought I was inspired I thought I was this and you lose it it's a mole karmakar Dasha and it's always interesting how it comes when it comes where it comes right right field left field center field it comes from somewhere he say see the neshamah goes out to the world you have to know it's love , because if you don't know this then what happens two things first of all you're not dressed for war you dressed for peace and that's not good you gotta have the gear more importantly you get depressed if you have war don't get depressed for this is it you go to the front lines you don't get depressed all you have an enemy of course that's why you here if you wouldn't have an enemy you wouldn't be here this is a fennec of the palace he says even I'm ready to cavort it hasn't half tired of high essaouira the beginning of the the beginning of of Melaka of amal awesome right by he I'm Ellis Dovid zotkin Baba Yaman he was seven years old and he couldn't get warm right he couldn't get warm so they brought him a visa got tsunamis to warm him up Parrish Lima says that he was 70 Mason I say November she from Shauna so he was moverá all of his seven minutes of the nefesh a Bahamas because each one of the mythos includes 10 each minute s said his hawkish of assassin leadership attested dharshan discusses passage of a class and so that's what 70 70 years in other words each 10 years this connected one mid right so it's 10 so it's 10 7 times 10 and he was completely miss buyer because of a bleed in his bar there was nothing for him to do in the world because he wasn't heated there was no passion there was no Tizen there was no struggle and because there was no struggle then he has nothing to do in the world and Africa Bahamas has perfected so go back to the source what are you doing here so he explains the whole story that they wanted to create some some need so to speak for struggle some come emo some passion some issue in the oven I'm Alex life in order to be able to continue his life but that's the Nick couldn't that every day there's a Mohammed inertia and every day there's another battle between the nephew Lucas in the nefesh Obamas now the reason for the battle is to sublimate to elevate it so therefore you Mason I say mmmm shiver Shana everybody's with us and mission in life is how they have to work with their animals solises everybody has a different nefesh obamas therefore everybody has a different lifespan in different places where their life takes them in order to deal with their animals so this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they you Shiva net slash donate