A Tale of Two Souls - Likkutei Torah Ki Teitzei "Ki Siyenah" #4

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Dominic's Lachlan or vinicky Hatano it's not just fear of punishment I don't want to be punished but it's more I want to be able to look you in your face I want to be able to have that wholesome relationship juice esta Shambu Mahto I want to be able to look the Rebbe initial I love them in the eyes in the face I shouldn't have to blush or duck or not to face you in my full presence which this is a deeper thing it's not that I fear punishment it's that internally I want that our relationship should be wholesome that I shouldn't have to feel that I'm always you know running away from Who I am and running away from who you are I can't really look you in your eyes and stand up a corner so much to hide so when somebody has a lot to hide it's very hard for them to look at their friend in the face even if the friend doesn't know everything but you know certainly if they do know so you really say barakaatuh you Russian I thought I want to be able to be able the Jew should always be able to look harsh em in the face in the sense that there's a oneness because he makes sure that the relationship is not tarnished so he continues he says the NIC revolution you'd gimel Nara a fruss minor Dalia in in Aramaic the youth given by the Seraphim are called the 13 rivers of fragrant spices I'm a veteran or Malabo name of innocence on his throne which whitened and sit through they cleanse the sins of the Jewish people villagio moussaka mouths Dylan busy galas return his Baraka so that there should be no veils that eclipsed the revelation of his will that the full relationship the full love that he has to you nothing should block it the love is always there but sometimes we block it in the sense that we cannot experience it because if I betrayed it so then ultimately it creates a partition a muscle and it doesn't allow for the seamless flow of that love of that relationship so what I want old sugar really what children is that you should be able to experience the love you should be able to experience the full relationship that's what sugar really means so this is never about the guilt it's not about guilt it's not about how bad you are it's about how beautiful you are and the ability to be able to experience yourself as beautiful as God experiences you this Gallus return Nia's burnished this is what he means his robson to you is always intact it's unconditional but you can't feel that Rutzen to you because you separate yourself and therefore you feel separated you feel tarnished so the real avoid of sugar is not yearís Irish I'm afraid amount I'm guilty and I'm gonna suffer and it's terrible and you're gonna hate me you know you're gonna denigrate me and torture me and so forth it's something much profound er and that is that the relationship is so powerful it's so beautiful it's so wholesome and yet there's a toxicity in me that's not allowing me to feel the power of that relationship the presence of that relationship and that's what I want to remove I want to remove the veil that I could fully show up into life I could fully be present in the relationship I could be fully present in life that's the essence of what true ver really means of what it's like la nuova nuki k'tano means I don't want there should be any partition that blocks the seamless flow between you and I it should be able to be in full full presence you know imagine in a marriage somebody hide stuff from their second half so they could never fully show up because there's a part of them that can't be there because if you're fully there it won't be good so therefore think of hey you're scared of it so therefore you're there but you're not really there you know a person is there you're always texting let's put it that way there's people and their whole life they're texting when they're not texting they're texting the sense that they don't show up fully to anything the reason I don't shop fully to something is could be a lot of reasons but a person is fragmented or a person is bogged down or a person has things in them that they that sit in their system and don't let the drainage you know go out it plugs the system like when you put stuff in the sink and the water can't get out so it plugs the system and so Truvia is really opening up the drainage to allow that which has to go out to go out in order to be able to be fully intact fully present Mahina you may l owe me a hug him less errors had given me the Soraka men who be a Mac you put him who's godless hurts and commercial basic ought to you sir Alba Hegel Miss Bossy lambs literally I'm a component Gazoo is gobbles or rots remember this was set he say so he adds that L will generally is a time for the arousal of these 13 attributes and Yom Kippur that's when the full Rutzen gets revealed just like the first-team kippered the juice in with the golden calf but on Yom Kippur the full ruts and got revealed to them in other words they could experience once again the full desire of Hashem in them which the shade did not allow them to experience because it was like a blockage Vahine a penis avi Robin SQL thinners become a dark on you yes Cersei's hog Balaam ila Mavis a neshama Taran boil oil Amazo the love that a person experiences called Bacall my death becomes more intense than the love of the soul before it came into this world he bought daphne this virus Natasha Eunice a bit flourish a bomb there's a love that comes only by refining your biological soul and eliminating the era the brokenness or the evil in it commercial cost of like the plastic says we learned before from ear if McCallum Lukas minify shook the deepest depths are revealed from dark masaaki yuasa Nariman official Kafka like the superiority of light that comes from darkness commercial Kosovo makamaka has explained elsewhere the past success in careless sly Mohammed that very see I saw that ye stir in our men aphasia white is greater than darkness keys to knock off women are syphilis just like wisdom is greater than 6 less than foolishness than folly so everybody wonders you needed Schlemmer homologs wisdom says ro ec Anisha easter Omaha from inner circles Keys diamond Arthur shows so Emma says in Kahala sigh have seeing that wisdom is greater than stupidity just like light is greater than darkness you really need slime I'm Alex to tell you that has baited better than tip cheese and it is greater than fascia you don't need to be such a great brilliant genius like King Solomon to know that wisdom is superior to folly maybe you do have to I don't know pens when you live maybe and light is greater than darkness so some say episode as they say there's a major Hashanah I'm not sure they've ever found the management in Swan and his brother Matt - it says on Schlemmer but yeah can we call her Adam he was wiser than all people so the managers are Philomena Satan in other words to be wiser than Hakam is not so hard but to be wiser than a Shia that's very hard they know the destroyer should recognize that you're a hawk them that takes really a lot of Kaufman but but what's this what's the meaning is about what Tanya touches listener - oh it means the light that comes from darkness not that light is greater than darkness we know that light is greater than darkness yes and Herman Arthur shook means the greatest light is the light that comes minify everyone touches the portion of pasta listen I'm an associate lawyer has a yeast Rin has an advantage over darkness not used to not armineh hush the greatest light is the light that comes min from darkness but the darkness is converted into light when the folly is converted into wisdom that's the greatest light why is that the greatest light because that light has a unique energy that on its own it will never have there is natural light but then there is taking negative energy taking the negative energy of darkness and converting it into an impetus into a force for light that light has a special quality that is unique because OSHA has a very deep distortive quality and when that gets turned into oil the oil has a transformation a transformative quality to it because it comes from the culture so anything that comes from converting the culture taking toxic energy or negative energy or distorted energy or painful energy or fearful energy and taking that and converting that into light in other words using that very reality how could I not come from questions you have light spirits it's me physically or spiritually or does a convocation the only illumination here we're saying something else the deflation is converted into not that the or illuminates the who shot the oil is created from the transformation of question the other transfer that's created from the transformation of cook that's the deepest type of light the earth at converts the opposite into oil so what has a whole unique dimension that never exists in oil in and of itself because what happens here is the oil gains the whole momentum from the opposite from the whole shot and that converts entire so the oil has a tremendous that releases the yesterday's vs arrives right before right you unleash the power that exists in it and it becomes part of the earth so then the earlier has a special special intensity to it because it's not just or on its own the whole intensity that I should had when that intensity is converted into iron so now the other gains that intensity oh yeah yeah yeah it's like he said the Gemara tells a story mastectomy Matt see ya I've paid dollar that rich lucky Sh was a gangster he was a gladiator it was a very mighty man and rebuke Shannon was one of the daily Hodari it's not the God Allah are the author of Talmud guru shall be the editor of time interior Xiaomi went to bathe in the Jordan River and rich Lockridge saw him rebuking was a very very beautiful man and rich sluggish jumped into the river jumped into the river whether he thought he was a woman or he wanted to do something with a man you could interpret it as different before and give different interpretations what his objective was but he wanted to behave in an inappropriate way with ruby eye phenomena Briona was his beauty was dazzling the damara describes Chiffre derivation on there was something unique and abuse women saw his strength so imagine he's right there and he wants to he wants to know whatever he wants to molest or he wants to do something with Revere Khan and rape or behave inappropriately so the Python and looks at him just think about the the presence of mine that it took and he tells him two words hallo lawyer I saw your power that I just saw this power that you have belongs to Toyota so they're sluggish was no stupido and he says sure Fred the notion and your beauty he belongs to women another they were saying that you we're both he was saying you're in the wrong career and saying you're in the wrong career maybe ethanol was saying such power belongs to Tyler and your slums of such beauty you don't understand what you can achieve in life with this beauty right everybody would be after you so the Buchanan says I have a sister who's more beautiful than I and if you become a mensch I'll suggest to her that she marries you imagine and that's what happened rich Lukesh became not only a man she became one of the Gedaliah dark a brother and when he married a beer cannon system became brothers alone throughout the south abuse and an Irish Lucas are some of the most frequent Amir Ali mentioned with their debates throughout the whole Shastra based on an Irish luggage they were brothers-in-law so what step shocked here he really have a very profound idea the bi Shannon could have looked at rich Lukesh and said you're a bum you're a parrot Adam you're a lowlife you're a despicable monster which is how he was behaving he jumps into the Jordan River not to learn with regulation on Duff yummy that was not why he jumped into the Jordan River or even to learn with him look at the tie now that was not the tasklist but it be - on what he did was he explained to him he says your strength belongs doesn't mean it belongs to Toyota it means that the real outlet for your strength will be in Toyota in other words such power you have such power he saw from his physical power we also saw the power of his will of his personality of his presence his charisma she says this power needs to belongs in Tyler so there slugger says and this beauty belongs to women what are you doing with it it's like you you're living the wrong life starter birth enough and he becomes a transformed person through this this order Buchanan did this is this is an example very good yes sir Norman efficient is that he didn't repress rich luck issues creativity he transformed her behavior schleppers in the creativity and then what happens is the oh you grow so much more because it has all of the all of the ingredients is that the fish has had that made it so destructive and all of the destructive powers are now converted into constructive powers and that becomes the most powerful the most powerful source for good I once heard from the Lubavitch I remember he's taxed a tomorrow main office very interesting fort tomorrow says him in office that there was a famous designer but she was you know world-renowned so to speak and there was this man who was very focused on this lifestyle and he heard about her and he traveled all the way to get to this person and it was very very expensive he had a lot of money ought to do it and and the foil in the process but typically sits this Lamoille they got some I said I just want to get to the know could that he he does true when she does true and they ultimately married the Gemara says ice on my Soyuz she'll see a lie but Easter it sealed my bed to her the same mattresses that she suggested to him that she's the same sheets that she spread out for him in Easter she now spread out for him behead so the question is why does the emergency he still might solid-state see you later it's the same sheets and if it was new sheets same sheets wasn't Amana trying to say same sheets that she used the Easter with him she now used bad what's the point more say something very profound only son wat Soyuz the same the same passion the same sheets in other words the same mechanism the same instruments that we use be his sir they will use behead to it's not that they ran away from their previous life they transformed their previous life and that's always much deeper than running away because when you run away you just run away to Deval decaying it but the power of transformation is that you use the very energy that got you into the mess in the first place and the very energy that was fueling the mess in the first place because that has very deep energy and the reason it has such deep energy is because as we'll see it comes from a very high place because all darkness all destructive all disruptive energy all energy that is making a mess in your life comes really from a very deep place and because it comes from a deep place it's sensitive to a very deep void and because it's sensitive to a deep void that ultimately fuels crazy behavior because it needs to fill a very deep void so when you take that and you convert it into light you're really revealing the source of the fascia and when you reveal the source of the closure that gives the are something that the earth doesn't have on its own you understand in other words the reason the person is behaving this way is because they're trying to fill a void that comes from a very deep and lofty space and that's which you know that and so that when they take that very trauma and they convert it and they transform it that's called you sooner Romina Hershel makalah Mook ismene Russia it's the secrets that come out from the feminization he says that Dinesh Sharma has when it comes down in tell'em house' that's what he says but Zell pathless you did this on a summer Bilaam house and this is the ultimate objective of the neshamah coming into this world lavada terlalu Bernard Asha beneficial Bahamas birthday shiitake larvae rabisu to whiten to sweeten and to refine their eye in the animal soul in order to reach the sovereign so here we have now at last the paradox the soul is battling with the animal the godly soul is battling with the animals soul because the animal cell has a whole different agenda and all different perspectives and yet paradoxically it's only through its entanglement with the animal saw and working with it that they never shall the kiss will one day experience an avatar sham that it would never be able to experience on its own because of the eastern terminus Asia so now it suddenly turns around the whole thing becomes topsy-turvy in the beginning we were learning that the animal soul of course goes through a whole system and restrictions and it morphs into this animal of this beast that is completely severed and disconnected and the soul comes down and lives with the animals soul and works with it and gets entangled in it and they fight each other and that's the whole process and the main time of the battle is during dava neighing when the two souls are so to speak negotiating with each other at the last what happens is as a result of this relationship with the animal soul and the godly soul is my viral when it does a beaver in the animal soul it reveals the source of its darkness the source of its 5/6 of what happens is the animal soul gives a fuel and energy into the nefesh alec is that it did not have on its own a whole new level of Alva of Bahamut death huh call the buffalo march on the become my death on my ID means infinite very calm I doesn't means with all your various I store my oil very good below my death with all your very the very nice dad comes from the animal solid the question is why why is that that's what he's gonna now explain why is it that an animal so hazardous why is it that the darkness has something why don't we say life is much better on its own natural light is greater than transformative life so you have to say that there's something there's a secret that the fire has that ostensibly at first glance is the greatest contradiction to light and you want to get rid of it but on the other hand when you manage to look into it to steer into the fire cannot be afraid of it you will one day discover that there's something deeper and this is really the essence of true ver because as he says elsewhere barcia's bollock that the reason that a shaman comes down into this world is to become about sugar and it's a very similar idea the become about sugar doesn't mean necessarily a person sins that too but even a person on ever since the whole experience in this world is an experience of truven the difference of children that Sonic is that Sonic is follows a righteous path truth afoul was a path that always entails darkness and stumbling blocks and failure and through the failure he rediscovers his life and ultimately the greatest of souls that lives the greatest of spiritual lives in this world is going through a process of children whose there's no other way to justify the meaning of this world if you embrace life for what it is if you're not in a mode of escapism and we see the same thing but sugar rush Lukesh says in the sec the human from all people rich sluggish and it's the reason that he says and you Murdock pave over the end of my circus humor that the toilet shoe versus Dinah's nasser like his obvious truth is great because it converts sins into mitzvahs how do you convert a sin into a mitzvah they say that the bad did sugar was one smoking him Kippur in Oblivion took apart did shift and he saw that there was a Jew who was violating him kept he was either eating or smoking so the bad sugar always had something good to say right so the Jew says new rapper what do you have to say so the Madeira says I am envious of you says why you're envious of me so he tells Tara bitching about ditch their basement the chief says cuz if you do true ver your sins will be transformed into mitzvahs do you know how many myths received in I have I will never ever be able to have as many mitzvahs as you cuz this guy was a real sinner so in true cynical fashion he says never wait till next idiom Kip and you'll be even more jealous that's the mice and the end of the mice is that the guy the man ultimately became a mulch along but what's the havona Tamar Shaw asks and Gomorrah theory says doesn't understand well you hate writing mister how do you have that the sinner benefits over the Sabbath if I'm not sad that can I never sinned I can only have 613 mitzvot if you send you can have a million mitzvahs pork is a mitzvah eating him kippers emits Surya everything is a mitzvah all our Vedas suddenly you have 365 no mitzvahs because every sin becomes a mitzvah says la high teen is scre doesn't make sense the guy who sins and dost ruler is greater than it sounded huh no he means just because just because I never say never because I never said never he can have so many mitzvahs and the marshrutka learns the Gemara not kept Marcia says we're a sluggish means is that about show them the cause of his remorse he does extra mitzvahs that's what he means but the Russian of the Gemara is is dirty nice nasty like his obvious not that this deines compel him to do more mitzvot so the ballot Anya says and Tanya para goes on in the seventh chapter sign that it means keep shooter why is it mean keep shootin he says I might add to cavort he says there's no passion like the passion that comes when you tasted the opposite when somebody was sick they appreciate health in a different way when somebody face death they appreciate life in a different way when somebody almost lost a loved one they appreciate their loved ones in a different way when somebody is in a desert in a parched desert the Eretz see but some others oh yes believe I am and you give them a cup of cold water after two days of dehydration in a parched desert there's nobody who appreciates that cup of water like that see says somebody the belch over who sinned and fell and stumbled and lived a life that ultimately caused them to destroy themselves when they rediscovered truth when they rediscover God when they rediscover a visage Shem the love is a different type of love it's filled the fuel that fuels the love is all the negative energy it's diagnosed now so like as obvious they're very sin becomes a mitzvah cause it's the very sin that gives an impetus to the mitzvot a depth of sophistication of passion an enthusiasm and a certain quality to their a ver that nobody has you could see it with people who are really in recovery really in recovery not to fake in recovery that they're very addiction as part of the recovery what do I mean you could see every day in them until people are very genuine there's sober twenty five years but they still call themselves addicts so they say they call themselves addicts because if they don't don't become addicts because they'll let go there's something deeper and that is that the addiction really fuels the recovery it's the knowledge of the other side it's the awareness of the destructiveness that gives their positivity their morality their authenticity a quality that is profoundly unique or to put it in different words in more sharp words and with this I want to finish every Mitzvah has Hatcher Mitzvah there's no Mitzvah without actually Mitzvah means what you do them I pray the Mitzvah shaking the lulav I have to go cut a branch of a palm tree shaking the Nestor it I have to cut the ester it sitting in a sucker I have to build a sucker putting on tefillin I have to make it fill in have to take the height of an animal make tefillin there's no Mitzvah that doesn't have a extra Mitzvah what do you do to prepare for the Mitzvah always every Mitzvah ever you want to eat on sharpest you have to cook before Shabbos so now I ask you a question there's a mitzvah called chuva the Mitzvah called shriven what's the hashish a mitzvah for children huh what's the hexam it's of each other how do you prepare for true ver sin right but you have to send to be moksha from true ver right but I I'm an active Arsuf it must be Kimmy are they licensed ruler so here's what happens when you sin you sinned you went against Ruxin Asha when you do it's over retro actively you redefine your sin into a hexa Mitzvah that's what sugar does when you send you sinned you detached yourself from God but when you do Trevor let my fray a retro actively you redefine your sin from a sin it has a new gather what's together it was the Heckscher of Trueba it was the springboard that was the cattle without it you could have no children if you didn't stand up in her children and spiritually - you wouldn't be able ever to experience this oneness without the sin so now the sin is redefined as action so this version creates a whole new type of about Cuba Eggar had a grandson his name was a blade below a ger label ager became a cuts colossal so he would dive in somewhat late he would have it somewhat late so they once asked him about it and he was a grandson of a Kiva a girl so he says it's finished in Syria in by my Rushton that's when I Kaplan meaning in halakha there's a scary I'm and a cobbler scarier means you're employed by the hour he worked from 9 to screw you goblin is you don't work by the hour you work by the job could be 24 hours you work him another night another day she says some Jews with God there are scary items they work with God by the hour ok morning chakras minister plot diagram don't have a good day I'll see you tomorrow he says I don't work with God by the hours I'm a compliment I have I have projects in this world I'm full-time I'm full-time another he was trying to bring out a sentiment that sometimes what happens is you're just trying I did my duties next time for the barbecue right I always say I'm sure I always said yesterday I always say I had a feeling I said it sure when they finish an early plank minica might've there's a certain simcha that people have the map it's free the night is off you know um I met some time ago Elie Wiesel all of our shaman so Elie Wiesel was a very interesting character you know he was born in sigit his family belonged to vision it's vision it's as I said there he was in Auschwitz he was in book involved he lost most of his family and he charted his own path in life but he remained very involved in the world of he used to learn tomorrow every day and he bethought remained that he would sit and learn he was very into learning and said this spiritual man also the Nobel Nobel the Nobel laureate so I met him a few years ago he was a friend of my father's I knew him a little bit he tells me that he has this home in Connecticut where he vacations and it's somewhere in Connecticut and it bothers him and the reason bothers him is because he doesn't have a minion there he was always mocked but I think shabbos 2015 your synagogue him and happy doesn't even mean it doesn't ever show it's very hard for him so I told them that I once heard a mice that did samat Zedeck had a son his name was abusive its hook he became a Reb in a city called average average even think about Rouge but his father was it's a pathetic Chabad was a big focus on governing long even be a sidess because they davon long very long so he went average and he became my rabid the the makhotin it was a different style so one of the conditions his father-in-law made with him is he gets the table with a million it haven't been simpler and he agreed he agreed that was like a condition now that you got to conform to the standards here straight shooters so the first day after shell Brooks or whatever I don't know I don't know I don't know exactly the dates it's probably already a few but he moved there enough who was after shell Abraxas over here lay I don't know exactly the days I hear this story from the I heard disturb from the llevaba Trevor himself once out of a bring and he said the story said with the very nice Gish mark his his father Moore was named after him his father mother I yeah it's was named after this due to some that suffered because it was as a the maternal Zaid of his his mother's father so be HIV to ever see so shred comes to him and says I don't understand he was a very hey Leakey he knew that he was a holy to that honest that we made a deal he says no no no a good haven't but ship all right now in Midsomer he says what do you mean what do you mean he says how do you tight fit simmer he says well with a minyan he says let me explain to it sipper means you have to have all the ten courses on a fish by Dominic all the 10 cuts on a fish Mabini das has to the word Taveras net look like you said molecules he said it took me time to gather my minion but I got it I doubted I doubt it simple he just let him along you just left them alone that was the end of that there's not quite this two patterns you know there's different is different different ways that people connect okay Oh Birla dollar will be here out of one two three four five six seven you see seven lines from the bond my math class on the vase eight say 75 Oh beer adult explained explained what explain why than a Shama to come down in order to engage the animal song booyah is Shoshana sniper Shafi Yuna see me my draga Guevara Mart the source of the biological soul comes from a very lofty moderator commercial cost of the past excessive Ayesha the a llama la commercial mulku Barrett's Edna and the flame alloys Malik Lebanese throw the end of Irish law it says these are the kings that reigned in the land of edom before the Jewish people had a king so the ariza explains this pasta to a llama lock him that before Jews had a mela mal que Adam had Malacca spiritually this means that the kings of Eden preceded the kings of the Jewish people the a llama la commercial stander by ish la he goes to the whole list of monkey Adam Laphroaig Malloy's my local of an era by him la vie Yama's by him was by Yama's by my ominous he goes to the list of all the mouths hey Adam they're so spiritually speaking and cabbalistic ridings this is described as the world's that preceded the world's the world of tell you that preceded the world of Tacomas we'll explain in a moment so he's saying that the adder him the kings of Eden preceded him out have been installed spiritually it refers to the animal soul versus the godly saw the animal soul is a king and the godly soul is a king and the king of Edom was a king before the Jewish people had a king raction no Flemish very secular it's just that this soul had an ax Fela went through a break a break went through a sphere ii went through a spiritual breakdown called breaking of the vessels that staying in with some some robin with many concealments and restrictions to Mikasa Master years of alien sized particle which causes it to eclipse and not experience the oneness of the Infinity for Lehane discussion is barred even if the penis on our mind in official occurs the divine soul has the courage to separate and extricate the negativity of the brokenness from her man mela tequila IV Robin is scarcely lbs essays come economy reducer the divine soul will experience a love passion that was deeper than its own love that it had before it came down to this world even though was godly the Selva Hodja have been a parlous Nia this is the meaning of the persica man has two wives one wife he loves and one wife does not heal oh this and the oldest son comes from the one that he doesn't like so you might think that he can inherit his inheritance to the youngest son because it's the son of the wife he loves so the plastic says in key states a cassia leash takes an alleged a notion Michael sorrow Baracus no oh yeah been up Carles near Ohio by a man Healy is one of the day of inheritance he may want to give periphery and write unique treatment to the youngest son because it's the son of the wife that he loves over the oldest son the puzzle says in key states it my usual lavaca is Benna over play Bennis Noah he been a snowy yaki losses like peach nine bahala she might say like a white mist but Eclair he has to get it the oldest son so the whole PASOK estranged his whole scenarios and now he comes to this punchline the two children represent the two solves for her you have been a parlous Nia the oldest child belongs to the animal song Siddhartha give me nefesh a Bahamas she's newer from the animals soul which is snore which is below the for how you been up higher from the end the car lifts neighbor why smell at the mouth the car they were the olders they can't be formalized my little Benes strong just need some husband need some beer here right right very good very good the problem is we usually sell our divine soul man our animals so that's the problem you have to know which soul to sell the show is right so when the posix is in Bayou Sheila how much they're right there the blue one the end of Parsons I used to look it's a strange you know it's one of these pirates with all the names so people don't people don't focus on it much but it's like it comes in as I in the whole story of a sub in the lineage of ace if it says here are the kings that reigned in the land of edom before Jews ever had a king now the first king of the Jewish people would be shawl so suddenly we're going through that this whole history and he starts off the first king was Bela he came from din hava Bella died the next was the of aviv of died the next was wholesome who sham died the nexus Hadad Hadad dies the next sunless am Allah dies the next is show this is all for mouth hey Adam schuld dies the next is ball come on bow on and dies the next is hot dire and here we learn about his wife made a veil and he somehow never dies I mean I assume he died but doesn't die yeah in the in the work of himesh and these are the mouths a Adam so what is this so in the Kabbalistic literature the writings of the reason this is like a whole big drama this this parsha this is the end of my ish Locke is like a whole big circuit it basically is called mal mal que ella mató yo spiritually the kings of the world of chaos which preceded the first king of the Jewish people which would be the king of the world of tikkun of healing Rashi says that there's a list of eight kings here eight kings and ultimately from the Jewish people there will be another eight Kings the first one would be Sheol and sha would have a son is bushes and they would have dove it and then Schlemmer recover man a via and SEO shuffle and then your room his uram Urim his son and after that Edmund would come back to power okay that's how people shot what is the idea here basically it's brought in magician veracious that Hashem is bona Allah missamma - he didn't just build our world he built worlds and he destroyed them and he'll Shabbos we have a concept called Sai sir l - live nice if you demolish a home on Shabbos biblically it's not forbidden unless you're doing it with an productive objective to renovate told say sir or Manaslu Venus you demolish with the condition to rebuild stomm the cow kill stomp to ruin take out a brick because you put them an item in their abundant it saucer but colomac alkaline material it's all Manaslu Venus the same is true this boy man al manaslu stir you build in order to demolish so this concept in Alaska originates in mister from the way creation happened the Rebbe initial island built four worlds initially a man a solicitor and then he destroyed them on Manaslu Venus one is called eylem how are you the world of chaos it destroyed itself on the debris of that world he created a new world column article the kings of trial are called mal Haydn the kings of tikkun are called mal ribbon a row they're also associated with a severe cough Asaph comes from a service Edom he's the father of Edom ASA was called a dome because he was read write her a dime harlot ad na minha a dime her other name Isaiah he's associated with IDO him and other and Yaakov is of course associated with Bernice Ravenna is saw the children of the Ark of sorts two kings a king represents a leader a monarch amela there's kingship in the world of toy in the world of tickle what does it represent spiritually oil Amato you proceeded oil o matic when we say proceeded we don't mean in time we mean in concept what does it mean it preceded it it's higher than the world of tickle in fact when it says how are at Isis saw you've evolved through a hillock America fess up name I am according to thy reason that refers to our motto you saw you Vova you through a phallic Americas and then comes by ameralik in here then starts automatic who in the world of correction the world of healing what's the difference between this world and that world and why was the first world destroyed when I say he built the world we mean a spiritual world spiritual universe the idea of Talia was very big it sir everything in the world is a marriage of two things of air and Kaleigh of light energy and vessels there's nothing in the world that functions without this marriage energy and containers or the light the power the passion the gust oh and the Kayle the container to harness it to facilitate it to implement it you have a dream your dream is you're going to make a lot a lot of money and you're going to change the world the dream is the energy the Kayle is the overhead getting it done getting it done is always the hard part because you always have to limit your dream harness your dream implementation is always Calum you need new people you need money you need investors you need a plan you need a strategy and if many dreams die in that process you have a dream you're gonna write a book you're gonna create an institution you create a business an organization or movement the website become whatever it is you're gonna make a change that's over but then there's the Kayle the limitation of it the Kayle always limits it the writer is the owner the editor is the Kayle anybody here who ever wrote knows that writers despise their editors because the editor of a newspaper always knows the article has to be 805 words not a word more the writer was having an emotional artistic experience he wrote an article of 4,000 words and every word is indispensable in his imagination the editor takes a look at it the guy opens the newspaper Finn stood in the AEGON he wants to kill himself he calls up the edit - you destroyed a piece of art nah I have a lot of experience of this because my father was an editor for many many years and the writers would call up the morning after the newspaper was published and it was a few hours of therapy and comfort and so forth mr. Tommy says a schreiber star pished from the hearts felid and they're stopped from Duke fella and a writer doesn't die from heart failure he dies from print failure from mistakes in the article that's what kills him he finds a mustaine every month is a mistake yeah so what's the idea the writer is experiencing it from his perspective he's an artist he wants to express himself the editor is thinking about I have to fill this page this page is placed for 800 then there's an ad that has to go in without the ad I can't support my newspaper so the article has to be cut in half and he's looking at it from a business point if he's looking at it from the order you the audience can't read 4001 I know my audience their ATVs even 800 words they can barely read they need two paragraphs tell me what you want to say and say it right today CNN and others they give you in the beginning of an article highlights of the article Kandak people read four lines and that's enough who has time so it's two perspectives from the perspective of ie everything is uninhibited from the perspective of Kayle everything is limited music is light musical notes are the calum for the music you have an idea for a book that's the other they're actually words of the letters and words that make up the book that's the Kayle and everybody knows you have a great idea now sit down and write it down when you have to write it down you have to do surgery and surgery again and surgery this was writing taking the vision and shout channeling it into words is always limiting it and whenever you have to limit it it's very very difficult it challenges you to be to be meticulous and precise it's very challenging the marriage of oil and Kaleigh take a marriage take marriage what's the oil of marriage romance love camaraderie all the nice beautiful words but what's the Kayle of marriage take out the garbage take out the garbage that's what it's about buy me a bottle of milk there's a leak in the bathroom okay it's leaks it's basically fixing leaks right now what happens in life is people have talents in different areas some people are artists some people are businessmen right some people are great with energy some people don't even know what energy means they just look at everything and they see the bottom line they see how it affects the people they look at it so to speak from a financial finance is always about calum because it's always the bottom line is the product gonna be bought it's not about creativity or adventure or self-expression or it is rich calum are brutal oiler despises Kayle Kayle is the quintessential enemy of oil Kaleigh is always chopping and cutting and channeling and implementing and limiting like a vessel a vessel always limits the light and limits damage this marriage in life is critical nothing happens without the marriage of artisan Kayla some artists died as anonymous hopeless beggars even though in their basement they had the most beautiful pieces of art because they wouldn't conform to the brutal the brutal realities of the market and then 200 years later somebody discovers them and suddenly they become you know for twenty million dollars a painting but that happened 200 years later the poor guy died without a penny a penny in his wallet came them are always brutal Calum is how it's gonna be received owners about the energy it all begins with Hashem like everything the marriage of the world of them throughout all the worlds as a marriage of two divine forces called iris and Caleb when we speak about Hashem hokhmah or a facet or Gloria the ten building blocks of creation known as the ten Spheeris there is the Euler of the sphere and there's the Kayle of the sphere yes it there's the love and there is the implementation of the love Nets on nets of his ambition I'm ambitious but how am I going to implement my ambition and the same is true with every single faculty there is the energy of it and then there is the callee of it heylia's Guevara have a tremendous desire to discipline to create structure but how do you do it you walk into a classroom you walk you you're hired as a new principal of a school the school is absolute chaos it's a school in the Bronx or Brooklyn whatever whatever it is it's absolute chaos right suddenly you're gonna make rules and nobody's allowed to walk anymore and nobody's allowed to talk anymore it's not gonna work you have to have the Kayleigh you have to channel your vision into concrete limiting steps a couple as a crisis and their marriage they want to fix it what are the Kahlan for it all spirits have arisen Kayla now how is the difference of Toyo and tickle in Tahoe the iris were infinite because God is infinite so his faculties were infinite so therefore the Kalin vessels could not contain the light because each light was infinite so what happens what happens is there was a head and head collision between the various energies they collide with each other because each one is infinite not only that each one dies from their own pressure their own weight is so heavy that it shatters their own vessel their own container so what do they have they have what's called in kabbalah Severus ha Kaylin whenever you see the word Spheeris like kayln it's the breaking of the vessels the vessel is having too much pressure just like a wire the voltage of electricity is too much and the wire is not a kV what happens to the wire when the voltage is overwhelming what happens it burns up and it's destroyed forever you can't use it anymore Kaleigh is brutal but if you want to channel it into a real reality where there are recipients if the newspaper doesn't have readers I don't care if you write a 4000 pay you can write 20,000 words in your article but I gotta print it and I got to publish it and I gotta sell it and the printer says sorry if I do another page it's another $10,000 as after Katya understand it's all that meant so to speak the demands of the market sometimes it's cynical Sanders it's not cynical it's just the idea of living in a world where there are recipients not everybody is me it's not just about my expression you have two types of teachers you have teachers who love expressing themselves and you have teachers who know how to penetrate the minds of the students it's a different art I remember once a Russia Shiva came to yeshiva it was a bitch-ass and you could see from the sheer that it was a Bashar's the problem is nobody knew a word that he's talking about so everybody went away impressed and overwhelmed but not affected they were like wow okay he knows his stuff there's another person who speaks in a way that a five year old kid can understand not because he knows less he may know less or actually he may know more but he has the ability to come down into Kalyan kala means you focus on the vessels you contain the wisdom in a way that it's limited and focused on the recipients hakama has Orion Kaylee bina has earlier and Kaylee but you're right generally Hakeem is more higher and being as more Kayla generally but in each one desiring Kaylee but you're right generally the idea of Qasim is oilier the seminal flash the overwhelming inspiration and be mesda Kaylee they're assimilating it into a structured idea generally speaking you're right Gotham is more iron and Venus Makela in Thai who which is the original universe of God the iris are uninhibited and therefore it's a much more pure world a much more real world a more authentic world everything is expressed fully the calum I'm not allowed to interfere with full divine infinite expression but what happened there was a horrible sri recycling the Kaelin broke imagine my ambition my love has no barriers my love has no barriers Forrest Gump my love has absolutely no boundaries it's very refreshing right you know what I mean but you could get into a little trouble for starters you take your son you baby and you say I love you I love you I love you and you'll hug them and hug them and hug them in you don't stop and you choke the poor kids physically but what about emotionally you can also choke somebody because the love has no boundaries the love has no barriers so you need restraint that's Kalyn you have ambition but if you have ambition without Calum you become a bulldozer you become a bulldozer I remember I was lecturing when Sharon expelled the Jews from Gush Katif in summer 2005 right this time August 2005 as it shyrone they always caught her on a bulldozer I said the problem is sometimes the bulldozer goes the other way it's still a bulldozer us nobody's got this whispers it goes the other way and at bulldozers it knows no inhibition and he was talking abou closer in terms of personality the same is true with everything so tell you in many ways was refreshing but destructive in many ways is the tick one is the other way around iris knew autumn bakalyan me Reuben min tickling the ire is diminished but the Kaley is large and brought everything endures but it's a much more limited form of energy its structured it endures it has longevity but it doesn't have the uninhibited creativity and idealism of toil in many ways it's the difference between teenagers and adults you know what I mean teenagers are generally young people are very idealistic you remember when you were young at least some youngsters if they're allowed to be idealist they're naturally idealistic they can also afford to be idealistic right in campuses you always see young people are always usually they're liberal they're very liberal they can afford it ah till they're mugged whatever I don't know whatever the situation is but the point is the point is you're young you're changing the world you're very idealistic you can also sleep for two weeks you can also sleep for two weeks and life is sometimes not structured you're up all night but you're dreaming usually people get older they get a little more cynical they get much more structured but they have a certain is a service it's just a muscle for these two trends so tell you is really much higher but it doesn't last Tikhon is lower but it lasts now think about it in spiritual terms tal was a divine world what happens when there was a shri recyclable so there was a so to speak of sherman this explosion spiritual explosion so what happened is now with the breaking of the vessels those vessels that are broken have fragments of light but the light is now not cohesive it's disoriented and it's not connected with its source so you have fragments of light that are really very deep but they don't recognize who they really are the world of tikkun the lights always recognize who they are because they're channelled in vessels so essentially you have here the story of the two souls the godly soul and the animal song or you have the story of the octave an ace of the ballot Anya says in terror viola yakov's neshama came from tickle ace of neshama came from title that's why ASA was a chaotic boy now ASA fell much lower than Yaakov morally he was a failure but yet Scott loved him and wanted always to elevate him and wanted to give him the brothers not Yakko cuz you took so an ace of where he came from when you look at somebody who may be shattered and a fragmented look where they came from in other words look at their potential look what caused the fragmentation it may be because they were in a much higher space and they couldn't contain their own white to put it in simple contemporary English the system could not contain their energy they could not fit into a box so what happens they break all the systems why not because they're lower because they have more light and nobody knows how to house their lines I see this all the time you find young people shattered lives but tremendous oil but they don't even know about their own light because it's shattered but it's everywhere it's like sometimes you have I remember I once saw a person walking in the street he was talking to himself so I have a certain mischief that to these types of people and I was listening and there were fragments of genius that were coming out of his mouth but nothing cohesive and then I understood for a second you know the story about that pianist in Australia they made a whole book on it wasn't called the piano then Sun and shine was a story about a Jewish kid pianist you know what I'm talking about a whole book was written I fill in the book the piano something a Jewish kid a pianist a genius and his father pressured him non-stop and he had a breakdown he had a breakdown it's a Shia he lived in Australia and he would sit down at a piano afterwards and brilliant pieces would come out but nothing cohesive because he wasn't a structured person he had such powerful genius but he had no vessels the vessel shattered so the genius is still there but it comes out and completely non cohesive non organized way that's the tragedy of time what's the purpose of it tikkun is not built after Toyo was cleaned up Tikhon is built on the debris of Toyo cuz we faced our you and the purpose is that tikkun should look at how you should receive its potential and elevate it bring it back and in that process Tikhon is elevated to because toe you has something refreshing that tikkun doesn't have on its own whenever you look at your life and you have something that is very chaotic it usually has sparks of tyloo there so you're not supposed to run away from it you want to elevate it this is the story of Yaakov and myself Yaakov needs a sub as much as a sub needs Yaakov okay so the animal soul comes from toil that's why it has much more strength than the divine soul that's why it's easier to become addicted to gosh me than it is to ruin is why because Toyo is more intense the problem of the animal soul is that it's true CENTAC power was lost in translation it went through a breakdown it literally went through so doesn't recognize its godliness anymore it has tremendous power tremendous animal power but it doesn't really doesn't know how spiritual it is how holy is so it tells the godly so let's become addicted to gambling to alcohol to food to the websites whatever is so the godly soul could do two things it could surrender to the animal song and then it betrays not only itself but also the animals soul because really the animal soul is looking for sublimation or it could say I'll be here for you because I know who you really are that's the depth I know who you really are because I know you really are I'll elevate you and then heals the animal sullen in that process the animal soul elevates the Divine's anybody has a commission sarikamish yeah okay so here towards the end of the minor the ballot Anya brings it all together coming back to the original posset on which this minor was based in the beginning of kiss 8 set so let's remind ourselves to pasa care the PASOK says in the beginning of kiss 8 say that a man has two wives one is beloved and one is unloved raucous Ahuva variks nor this is of course in a time when polygamy was permissible before a vinegar shams prohibition with of the mcComish so he has two wives ah huzzah who vacas no one beloved one loathe snore means unloved right hated or loathed by RFM Keis newer layer and the older LaVon they both have children ha over vast nor the issue is that the prior belongs to whom - thus newer to the woman that is not loved now comes the time of you sure in other words he passes away so it's the time of inheritance so he may want to give preference to some number to the younger son because this is the it's the son of the woman that he loves even though it's not his car it's not his first boy it's his second boy he's younger but nonetheless he wants to give him preferential treatment oppose the wife he loves so he's his you know his beloved charlie he says local lavaca doesn't work that way he cannot give him be cannot give him preference a suburban a snowy rocket lost is like peach nyam who gets double-double gets the curb an ass Noah he who raesha Sinai this is his first strength Loy mister papaya he gets the top card he gets peach 9k nagesh nya now as I explained in the beginning how logically you could give a gift to ever you want I mean a father could take all of his money and before he passes away distributed for elephant research in Indonesia or to save Turtles in New Zealand which may be a very good option better than giving it to your kids I don't know but depends on your kids I guess you know that you can give gift to whoever you want I mean you can do whatever you want right you can give it all the way to your Shrieker if you want I mean you could do whatever you want with your money you're a baller boss the question here is not a Madonna the question is you Russia in Russia is a different genre and a locker than Madonna a gift I can do what I want and the guy dies he's broke okay tough luck you know $20 left in the bank account so his children are left with a university may even be in some cases that may even be beneficial because they won't get into a fight right somebody once told me says when you see much boxes that get along very well probably the guy died broke if he would have died with money they would not they would not be on on this level of a relationship yeah you want to give as a gift as a Matano right you could write a king you want to go to Montana and if you want to give to your third second son everything is a gift I don't think it's a wise thing to do but as a Matan but that's all of you as you do yeah but I can't say I'm gonna inherit right the second one is gonna inherit this amount and the first is gonna dat Medina you sure your master much accosted by Tyra there's a constitution of tighter them it's a denim of inheritance the car gets dug out Smetana before but has to be before yeah because he Lucia's after death right so that's what he says that it could be you have to make well this is the mechanism kin Yanomami there's a mechanism yeah you do the Mecca yeah yeah yeah now the question is why does it try to have to get so dramatic that's the question with two wives you have to what do you need this whole kind of builds up this whole Jarama the most helices just say that laufe you know how to do this do this why here suddenly we have a whole drama he married to why this money likes one let's say he married one wife and let's say he loves her right and the oldest son and the second son and he wants to give the second son if you need two wives in you and I want to feel that's all over snow what do you need this whole this whole drama the how luck is a simple Alaka car gets double that's it whether in your a good mood or in a bad mood whether you like him or you don't like him whether he's District whether you ended up in the yeshiva you wanted him to end up we quit whatever the situation is the tighter here makes ups a whole story it doesn't have to do with two wives doesn't know if you love you don't love it every sector just say the period of gets double that's the shine Linda's pasta that's a shot and it's a political thing what the tide is trying to say so just to bring it together I brought here I once saw I once saw a miser in a safer a very interesting story with the Vilna gone I want to share it with you because you'll see it's interesting how to take the same thing and look at it from different perspectives because here in this mind me really the background is that he's addressing this question he's partially addressing this question and explaining why the pasta goes through this whole drama you just open it up here precious key say say yeah yeah the only one the only one that I know okay so there's a safer Cola leo carrillo yo they bring tighter from the Vilna gone Carlo Leo's name was a Billy Oh Billy Aubrey of zalman Kramer that was the name of the Vilna gone Billy oh ho bit of zalman crema sure just not passed away suka skull amide suka stuff canonicus 1797 okay so now remember what he's trying to buff on it first of all he says the text seems a little contradictory why first it states that the man has children from where from the loved life and the unloved wife right so the lushness Salish Danish a massive arsenal of the old alive anima over vast Noah they both give birth the Hoover and thus Noah okay then the Taylor says Valhalla Habana prior licinia but the Russian is it's interesting the order is it says vo do live on em ha Hoover vas Noah who's first da Hoover then it says for how you been a Picard was near so truly said we all do live on him a snoo evolved on while you been up Carla sneer why did say first I hope of us no one that's number one question number two it says lo uvaca well you shall have a cure as been ha hoo ha I'll play Bennis no hablo he can choose as per the son of the of the beloved woman right what's the have a minute you can't make the second son the first son you can say the first son is the pro the pro get speech nyan what's the usual of a cave is been our Hoover up and they been a snore huh Toya what would we think if the trailer would just say a prayer he get speech time so what would we think if I decide you become the parent you're number two how can you become number one what what are you telling me just say the prayer get speech tonight and in the old jock where the guy comes to shoulder looking for a kyon right so this guy says he wants to become a coin he's ready to pay money so finally offices why do you want to be a kindness his father was a kind his grandfather was a conscious wants to be a client so he's ready to pay a lot of money and and go through the training now the tightest says why can't you do it he who races I know why mr. Takeda he is his first power right so therefore one wish but al-qaeda you telling me like this the Sammamish rep repetitive well you could Allah backwards man overplayed been a snow up coid yeah why cuz he's the boy so what's the explanation you can't you can't change it you can make number two number one cuz he's number two it seems it's a little redundant and what cloud the whole story just say the hello so this is the my so they bring there was a man married he got divorced shortly after his marriage before they got divorced she became pregnant he's married a wife they got divorced shortly after but she managed to become pregnant he rapidly remarried his second wife became pregnant and gave birth to a boy prematurely even prior to the first wife who was divorced she gave birth to her full-term boy the the divorced wife's family the first wife we divorced they claimed that their child is the prior he was conceived first she was married to him first obviously he was conceived first the second wife the new wife her counterclaim was that since her child was born first because her child was born premature so even though she became pregnant later because she was the second wife he first divorced the first wife but since her baby was born first so therefore he's Despres now the man was a very wealthy man he died so every would get double would get a very nice sum of money said there was a big much like us the first son tiny the son of the first wife the ex-wife said he's the part cuz obviously I was conceived for his the second one said no he's the clerk because he was born first they came to the Vilna Gaon so he set the case and tighter this story entitled this is your story that's what he said immediately immediately Sargon said immediately and this is he said now analyze the text you'll see it's your story he says he see Emily's stain awesome you have two wives two children were born to one man in the following order the Hoover and the sewer first the beloved and then the one wasn't beloved was the second wife gave birth first rightful term so therefore first Ahuva than the sewer but for hire been applying las near but the the divorced wives son he was conceived first it's sad y'all do masada y'all do that was a birthday Hoover came before the snow ax but the Collier who was conceived first the ex-wife she conceived first cuz that was his first wife because the husband divorced her before marrying the second wife obviously this conception at me for so now so that's the question what defines pride the one who was firstly conceived or the one who was born so usually usually we don't have this question right cuz you were born first even consider ah uh uh uh one second so do we follow the first child to be conceived at the weave shop file then we did the first child to be born so the hill McGann said mahalia been a parlous Nia the real pain is the sneer in other words the son of the unloved wife see he said what is the tighter saying he who races I know the law mich Pythagorean Allah you color vacuous been now over what's the harm in that Minnie he was born first first he could say so the tight has to give this whole purple can you raesha Sona what's a nine it says by Yaakov that he said to the oven raesha s-- cleaver a she's only so what does she say it was the first seat Mira's era this was he was never about carry the first seed of Yaakov Avena was removing so what's raesha syenite the first seed who was the first seed they Venice Noah he who raesha Sinai like Mishpatim China the God said upright as defined by somebody but the one who was first conceived that's why the Toyota says lo you come a vaca why would you think maybe he could give preference because the card is really the second one because he was born first that's where the toyota says kihyun anxiously it's his first power sober mainly from Yakima vena we learn with gracious only who is and this says how the Vilna gone past it one second the story is not over comes the vulajin area shiva then it save was the velocity russia she would have been enough tal eats via with the Berlin right who lived a century or a few decades after the Vilma gone passed away a century after the Vilna gone and he writes Bashar Bashar high dubash boy this is a blood libel on the Vilna Gaon he never said this why the mitts if says that it's inconceivable pun intended to say that the car follows conception of birth he says it's ridiculous so canard clearly says in Russian wish but and simin race pays ayan clearly the Chicano Roja it's she says it's clearly I mean it seems it seems quitted pretty apparent that employer is defined by birth and therefore he says it's inconceivable that the the Vilna gone the Vilna Gaon says this however however although then it's if completely rejects the statement by the Vilna gone it's interesting that it's recorded by the plumber Kluger was one of the biggest post scheme of his time they robbed abroad in the name of Rob Ryan vulajin who was the Talmud movement of the Vilna Gaon clearly a Haitian wish but since immigration paid astronomic off from Islamic Islamic Luger he says it in the name of replying vulajin man so it doesn't seem to be an employment clue there was a huge spicy very reliable so it's not such a stretch to say the time wasn't heard it from the from the Vilna Gaon but here's the problem problem is they look lighter this flies against the yak of an ace of story right because let's remember until Yakov bought the part of a masive who was the prior ASA that says clearly in the title but who was formed first who was conceived first what does it actually say there was a Schmo Faris right and which was the first teper Yakov and then came a subsidy F came out first we'll call you know according to the Vil ngons understanding Yakov Amin who should have been the pride right he should have been the okay so it's interesting so some say some say that you have to distinguish between twins those twins is one conception twins is one conception in our case there were two conceptions he remarried there was one conception so therefore you go according to birth with two distinct conceptions the gone would say according to deploy mclogan kind of a large nut would say maybe you go according to conception the a combination of a formed from the same seed from the same Sarah so therefore the only remaining criteria has to be based on based on birth so that's that's one way of answering this this contradiction rat so now she says but did who should get to the superior because his seed came in first but questions why did he have to buy it according to the Vilna gone this was dialogue he gets the double now whether the mid-surface right that it's mama shaky-shaky he doesn't have not good as this because party can go according is an interesting question and how long right because the pastor's we go according to birth you're right no question that the types in the pasta it's a touch it's a powerful patient apostle now we come to the next step what would be the Sawada to say like this or to say like this what would be the svatah to say large missouria or karla helada what would be the smaller so the shiner is why would a party get double what why just because you're born first you get double I'm the baby of the family the baby of the family always demands Inuk right anybody here is a prior then he provide here so psychologically the party versus the other kids right it's not so simple to be a part that's what they say they've heard it's complicated psychologically because in many ways he's like the intermediary between the parents and the church I mean I guess every person is complicated psychologically but for Kurt we have other excuses they make all the mistake piece nyam all the issues in the family comes out by the car pshh and I am so that's why he gets double cuz he was the guinea pig he was the guinea pig all the mistakes of mami and Tati they made on the car by the time the baby is born and everything is already picture-perfect so the card to compensate him for the pain he gets peach 9 but what's talking de Voort and tighten it up Corey get speech 9 so the measured hokhmah the earth Sameach could have made some cutting of Dvinsk time as he says as follows listen to this a pro changes the game of life for the parents before that what is the Purdue before that husband and wife are individual people i am i you are you our first child turns us into parents and that's really a definition of a transformation of status before you married you push the bachelor you do mom much whatever you want sleep whenever you want to eat whenever you want fine you go you run away for two weeks even after you're married you're still individuals you know you can go out everybody could do himself now you became a father you became a mother so this is a new role so dimensional Huffman says it's basically a doubling of titles the Picard turned you into a double person so quid pro quo he gets double he says in other words you moved from spouse to parent it's a transition from let's put it this way from a donation to a commitment from an individual person or a person who carries responsibility for another person's life you're not just quasi dependent on each other but absolute responsibility you have a baby so there's almost a new personality that is born in you and it's an awesome scary and beautiful place to be now I should say for some fathers it takes a few kids for them to register they're actually parents mothers usually figure it out pretty fast for natural scientific reasons which we don't have to elaborate but that's because men sometimes you know it takes some time I told the women yesterday at the shear and they really appreciated it I'm sure you also well why is it that psychoanalysis works more successfully with men than with women so I said Co psychoanalysis tries to bring you back to your childhood and they're there already so I didn't have to say more whatever I could say whatever I said afterwards it was just it was just funny it's funny you're laughing if I wouldn't say this to women about women they wouldn't look at me anymore and that itself is a difference between men and women but I'm not gonna say that to the women in some ways we get it yeah in some ways we get it right so so that's why Hashem is called in other words is that's why the coin becomes a double person so he gives us parents a new role a double role till I am a father even a mensch hopefully once I become a father I'm not just a mensch I'm a Superman I'm supposed to be a silver no in other words you become a new a new FAFSA there's a new FAFSA so that's why he gets double cuz he made them into double that's that's that's one part um beyond that there's another new coda and that is Rashi says it says in Mauritius alkane Yasim ish as obvious in my vltava be ich die for how you the boss sir a lot so rashly says what's the boss Sir a cut how do you become one flesh through the child you become one flesh because the child is of course a combination of totty and mommy together chromosomes of other genes of the father Jesus another becomes so in other words a child binds husband and wife it's not simply the commingling of genetic material yes that too but it's not only the greater need to converse to discuss life - you know we need more diapers and we need to find a preschool and we need to find the achiever we need more formula we need more money I mean that also happens but rather the child represents abrir Hadassah there's you look at the child and who do you see you see your wife and you see yourself that's what you see it's a new Matthias in which husband and wife become actually one and in that sense their oneness is immortalized that's what we say a Binion at the yard it's immortalized it's a product of three partners as the Gemara says I need the gimbal should furnish a mafia in mind so therefore it's a unity of - neshama see that come out in a very in a very real sense if that's the case the pride brings out two objectives number one husband and wife receive new roles known as father and mother so this is like a quantum leap in their responsibility and number two husband and wife are now bound together in a shear destiny because the / unifies their nationís and really concrete eise's their shared aspirations hopefully hopefully through this child so now we go like this how do you touch the voice of a boy if the boy gets double why cuz he turned you into a father when does that happen that Apple is born but if the car gets double because because he made you one where does that happen that happens in conception while the bus around that's the two savaris how to learn it if it's mossad the responsibility that happens bacon and birth you become a father in birth you're not called the father before a mother before even though the Hakan happens before but if it's devoured the Valhalla bus or at caught the bus our effort starts right away in the womb starts with conception if that's what the part accomplishes it took the husband and the wife doesn't only make them more responsible but instead of being individuals it turned them into a new craft saruman see that's why he gets pitched and I am so then that happens with vision that you could say la vie Omni is die T the smarter of the two I found him then it's sieve and a kind of illusion and how you learn to get rid of clay I'll call upon him this is how he touches the pasta now if you take a look at the power tonjes Peter Sheeran Lakota tater he tied she's also the whole pasta and explains why the tire has to go through this whole story but here the tyke assumes from a logic concrete manifestation it's elevated or it's transferred to a higher plane to a higher world or to a spiritual world dealing with the spouses that exist within the soul itself PCM lah de NOSSA markers are over Bacchus Noah and they have two children that refers to the fact that every soul is married to two wives ha ha cassava vacas Noah that's the two souls of the Nephilim kiss in the nephesh a Bahamas and for hire bet up Carla's snow Eliyahu lavaca it's not just of my sir that happens it was you know once in a thousand years am i sir but rather it's a story that happens every single day there's the child that's born from the godly soul does the child that's born from the beastly soul the sensitive spiritual juice struggles with one wife and loves another wife he struggles with his animal soul constantly and he loves his godly soul each one produces different results naturally you want to give preferential treatment to your godly soul and abandon your animal soul and the kiddush of Toyota is law you shall live a cure has been overplayed Bennis Noah because the animal soul has been applied the reason it's been applied is its cherish comes from oil um hot oil which precedes oil emoticon so therefore even though you're naturally inclined to repress suppress crush break destroy mortify reject and hate a part of you and you don't want to deal with those struggles and front Asians and skeletons and ghosts and demons and you can add any adjectives that apply to your life I'm not your therapist you can add whatever you want you don't want to deal with it why because it's been a snore all you want to do with been our snow it is right throw it away in rejected so this is Luka lavaca key hooray she's only my villain wish bethubb : your real catalyst of why you new Shama came down in Tulum Howser was to work with your animal salt to refine your animal song to find the goodness and the godliness that really your animal cell is craving for Lima shut up crater and when you do that you're godly soul is also elevated that is the patient I am as we will see in the continuation when he finishes the mind so at last we come now to explain all that if a mr. this strange posit so we explored the view of the Vilna Gaon at least according to some in the name of the Vilna Gaon I told you dammit save the noise it schecky a Hindu boy but we see here that that's the hit the key here that this pasa building up this whole story is not stop to give you a dramatic story according to the Vilna gone spinach this is not gonna be shot in the mice as discussed now we go out that a canister what's the meaning so person has two wives one is beloved one is on beloved the pen when a player comes with sneer not the been deployed is the banal Hoover you want to give preferential treatment to give preference to the second son Luca lavaca well how you by your man chili is one of the same with the day of Arusha right the part of the Bennis Noah gets double their armor forum who say already there is showing him I saw at once that it's Arab mr. Yaakov an ASA Rahul only the Sienna leashed a notion this is a story of Yucca Valley Park says clearly by yara shem kiss newer leia there are doc says doesn't mean Yakov hated Leah you now allow to be married to a woman that you hate the Camorra says in condition that a person has to see his spouse before he marries her why because if you don't see her in other words you don't know you don't know right it may be a difficult relationship sham you ever have to leave ever come on so there has to be even basic other yeah especially we know the Gemara says in your Varma's civil ha common Shea Adam I have as each they could go fight or mohab that I submit go fine then a person has to love his wife like much he loves himself and respect her more than he respects himself so the more a lot of people don't know substantial Americans of sake Rambo I'm sure the most taper one said emotional from crimes from leverage to me Russia she veneers lion so he said that the two parts and children are FN Rambam and Amara are connected to each other not to separate things love your wife like you love yourself and respect them more than you respect yourself come said you should love your wife as much as you love yourself how so by respecting her more than respect yourself when you respect somebody more than respect yourself he said that creates the album interesting insights cope on him so there are doc said it doesn't mean Yakov hated Leia it means relative to the intense love that he acted Rocko it seemed like Leia was snore by aarush empty snore Leia there are hi him says by Jana Shem ki snore Leia nobody else saw it even Yakov in other words it was subconscious I am 150 years before the whole discussion only Hashem new snow away another even Yaakov didn't know it up can they come even yak of this sometimes you have feelings to somebody but you don't know you have the feelings they may feel something but you don't even know why they are Hashem only Hashem Lucas knew alaya Sookie see Emily ish and the app soldier from Lahey had driven from Rockley had Yosef she named her sons based on it so apparently she felt it apparently she felt it but in other words it's not stam people think you know there was just fighting all day over there but yeah Hashem ki snow away Shem was sensitive to it let's learn I'm sensing patches my hey I believe I saw it years ago but I think that's what he says very interesting inside only God saw so this park is referring to essentially our castle Vikas Noah you have Leia and Rocco one is newer one is a Hoover we all do my bun in Hoover bus Nova how you been up Carlos Nia and basically we know that ISIF in many ways in many ways was as it says you know he stroll off I said Nicole bond off but nonetheless in some areas or even remains the prior some type of things dr. Yosef tougher but here we come to the hi mekka Union LP Nestor what is it so every Jew has stain of fascists one is an ephah shell the kiss and one is an official hummus and we are married in other words not to one wife but to two wives just like in a marriage there is intimacy meaning you become one by EULA bus around each human being has stained ocean two marriages haha Casa Hoover Bacchus Noah what streptococcus Noah after Sir Marcus knew amines with one the relationship with Hashem is in a state of Alba and the other one causes a lot of struggle snore doesn't mean you hate it snore means there's difficulty this challenge and the difficulty you despise you loathe one creates in a wife struggle one creates challenge because there's a contention between the two souls as explained there's always a most common between the two souls so KCM lah de NOSSA Marcus are over Bacchus Noah it's not a bizarre something that happens once in a thousand years or your voltage then this is my symbol call um every person every single day life is a marriage between the body and the soul but not between one body and one so in one body and two souls two souls the body has two souls and they're tucked into each other and therein meshed with each other and they're always operating with each other so you're operate on two levels of consciousness one is divine one is transcendental one is godly and one is beastly and one is narcissistic and one is animalistic and both legitimately exist in the human being and we have thoughts that come from both and we have instincts that come from both and we have emotions that come from both and we have paradigms that come from both and we have perspectives that come from both and the person has to be able to identify this comes from this and this comes from that and most people's situations there's no solution of obliteration or even complete transformation complete complete transformation that's not an option and he says every date is a malcolm a kadosh and the primary time of the mul karma is Fela that was the time that Hashem gave the person a special AC oxen to be able to create a a platform or a situation with a person speaks to the animals soul educates it the lights lightens it and so forth and as he said that the different parts of Fela is essentially the conversation that the godly soul is having with the animal soul in its educational process because the key here is not about obliteration or destruction but always about enlightenment and sublimation even though that includes sometimes discipline sometimes it includes transformation sometimes it means saying no sometimes it means saying is strong know sometimes it's yes but the point is you're always engaging you're always in there's always an engagement here a professor would they say a professor once asked the students you taught them English he said what's the difference between an engagement and a war so one of the kids said one is before the wedding and one is after the weather so with an official the kissing official Bahamas you also have that there's always an engagement sometimes it's a war sometimes it's peace war and peace right with all my the war and peace inside of us so this is the sienna ich Danish I'm a cassava Vikas no now to take it and make it in a very personal way by every single person when a person is in touch with their godly soul so then their relationship with Hashem is a Whoville it's full of sweetness it's full of tiny that's full of love when a person is in touch with their animals so then their relationship with Hashem is in a state of snow ax it's difficult it's challenging not only that the snoer can even be to themselves they hate a certain part of themselves right people one of the deepest issues that we face is that we hate certain parts of ourselves we don't forgive ourselves for having those parts and we're driven by a tremendous sense of guilt or tremendous sense of embarrassment very good or you always have the right word okay those are usually the best words the words that come from not from the dictionary but from the from the psyche and this is what a person struggles with Sarkis newer means a part of me I hate and people I hate myself for I hate this part of myself I can't deal with it haha cassava but the arcus know and sometimes this newer part becomes very overwhelming very difficult the kiddush of this my memory is when the post excessive oh how you been a parlous no ah it's not if the snow has been a car it's always gonna be that way the been up higher is always gonna belong to the snow ax which means that our voyda the child that comes from engaging with the part of yourself that you don't like will always produce a double portion of benefits will always produce the been a part will always produce something far deeper far lovelier far higher far more sublime yes and i will only be materially shocked and on a deeper level because this irish of the nefesh a bahamas is higher than the church of the nefesh on the case it comes from toi you that preceeded tickle so tall you is called the prior tycoon is always the second child true the car went through a Severus akela true the nefesh of bahamas is lower than an official the kiss in terms of spiritual sensitivity 10 cents terms of truth in terms of ideal that's true true that bahamas needs the LA kiss to challenge it to sublimate it but deep down the nefesh Obamas has a secret a code that if you can unleash the essence of its power it will enhance and invigorate and rejuvenate the godly soul and give it a flavor that it completely lacks on its own not completely blacks on its own the book all my data the MA the bleak ville the infinity that comes precisely from facing the darkness of the animal soul in all of its manifestation sometimes very grotesque manifestations or sometimes subtle manifestations but that within itself is because it has sparks that came from a very lofty space it just fell and it broke it fragmented as explained the difference of Taiyuan tickle so the been applied always belongs to the sewer the higher biyomon Helius bond of the young man kills one of means the day of you Russia but Latonya teaches elsewhere when the gula comes which is below him and he'll is one of when our champ is gonna give a shame to my toe Calcagno mono younger than my offer your sustained with the full mark Allah to the Jewish people well you call of actor has been overplayed Bennis Noah you're gonna realize that you always wanted to give preferential treatment to a life that is devoid of struggle with animals soul but logical of a car you're gonna find that the benefit Larry the oculus is like pshh and I am that the depth of the marriage the depth of the relationship immersed precisely from the creations from the children from the the Gemara says insight to my pay rate mitzvos fruits are mitzvahs Rashi says in Noah ever told us nyah-nyah fish Sabich told they say I'm shall tsadikim mass and tie them in other words children are Jim but also children is what you produce in your life every mid sir you do all that vitae that comes from you the fruits the harvest of your labor that's all your fruits it's children like they come because I'll say in my mid Berk Allah Muhammad is been conveyed a Toyota King Louie LD achieved something to somebody who gave birth to him even though you didn't give birth to him but you gave him identity he gave him inspiration he gave him 30 gave him out you gave birth to so the part of the Ben that comes from the sewer right now a voyeur that comes from that challenge from that struggle that is always the play why because it comes from oil um I tell you so here at last we have a Stickle topsy turvy on one level the nefesh of the kiss you can't compare to the never diamonds this is a helical economy mouth and this is an animal and the animal you have carbolic Holly but it's an animal it's a beast and it operates on that level you can't even come close to the net for sure Lucas but by the nefesh our look is becoming the mentor of the nefesh obamas what happens is the nefesh of bahamas becomes a mentor to the nefesh of the kiss and that means if you don't become a mentor to the nefesh the bahamas you're not only betraying yourself you're betraying the animals so cuz the animals soul is almost begging it's almost begging and saying recognize who I really am I'm gonna call myself a beast but I'm really not a beast really I'm very very holy I just don't know anymore the language I don't know who I am I went through a breakdown literally I went through its recyclable I don't know myself I need you to know me yeah we got movavi ash limited does mr. Samish go the sanhedrin yeah so that's the Vaart that in other words I'm betraying when you betray your soul you're betraying your animal soul as much as your divine song because it's really telling you Allah was a sham Tyrol I'm avi ha Adam here Elaine I am Varsha Mira la leave off don't look at me from the surface you know sometimes you'll have this rebellious child who's who seems psychotic or okay that's a big word but who seems just seems completely out of line and everything is just problematic when you accept this child at face value and you say yeah you're as bad as you say you are you're not just betraying your higher troubling you're betraying the child that child deep down is begging you to say no I see something else in you bring out in me what I cannot bring out of myself because I don't have the language I don't have that sensitivity I've been broken I need you to bring out in me that Naqada so every time we struggle with a very powerful instinct of our animal soul there's really two things happening at once there's this superficial instinct but there's the underlying instinct that really it's the language of a world of toil which is not contained which has no borders and there's no barriers because it's very powerful but because it was so powerful therefore it could not be structured within the norms of moral life and that's why it's expressing itself in a tremendous machine huh maybe to something completely in the opposite direction but really what it is in its show your ish is an Indian of condition and that's why by just surrendering to the face value of the animal soul you're betraying it by challenging it and sublimating it it will tell you thank you more than anybody else because ultimately you helped it reach its own creamiest so by saying I'll give you what you want you're actually taking from her away her real gift her real her real energy a real divine source so the been applied always belongs to the sewer so when you're dealing with something in your animal soul this is a very tactless because this work will elevate a divine song that's what he says the last time the gsella Valhalla been up her licinia should DAF Kimi nefesh a Bahamas newer Africa the animal soul which is newer its loathed why because it challenges you it challenges your morality slaps you down all your kisser anus all your ministers come from in your laziness your fear your insecurities remember the nephrons all the kiss is not lazy it's not fear stop dominated by fear by insecurities by envy by by animosity by depression so this becomes slower from that nefesh a Bahamas for how you been applied with Naima like malla back to that pasta Malaka Mishimoto Barretts and then with naman like my little Binet is through the Malacca muffed are you lift neighbor like my life that's the prior before the Melek alumina is strong Melek alumina installs an official kiss Malcolm is a nephesh obamas the he maelys New York sieve be--you'd whosh and over after Thomas look I did it should have said snow up I'll be dicta and it's supposed to be back Turkish English 10 Damascus abacus Noah the elderly one of my hover about snow over yeah I've been a paradise knee up so for twice it's a snore a Hoover snow up the beloved one and the unbel of at one and then it is Valhalla been obscure to was sneer suddenly changes and then he goes back well you come back has been overplayed but nice Newark up grab a nice new one so this is the difficulty why suddenly here it says mas me exceed be youth the high knew this is an Emma's I seen I mortis has a massage the Shabbos why is heart-lung Anoosh Marcin I wise are called I see nine the word seen I comes from the word sinner the Gomorrah says she your does Cinna well if they could cover Mama's olives on that mountain anti-semitism was created that's what the Gomorrah says your does see no lumus Solem the day did you stood at that mountain they became victims of anti-semitism it's very interesting insight of the COS all that harsh Cena is the source of anti-semitism what happened at that moment ultimately there is a sense that the Jew is in a different space and there is a feeling that is uneasy the question is how it manifests itself sometimes it manifests itself in one way sometimes in another way but that's the shopping Damona harsh a your doll of signal o masala this is I'll people shots I'll Peterson is on a deeper level he touches higher that's the mountain she or the similar of the cover muscles it's a mountain that allows the Jew allows a Jew to be able to develop a sinner limo Sir Robert Atlas to be able to negate to get disgusted with him living a life of rah absolutely a life of ravage is a life of fragmentation a life of brokenness arrived from the word ruse coaster or separation brokenness fragmentation which can result in negativity to be able to be completely most with this metallus are they his gallows her rots in about a Vaishali my Lumia das by exposing and revealing the rots in and the Aven and official the kiss which is on my alumina das like he said back to ish maybe force my soul a Shambhala can wash I'm a caught understanding that even death God doesn't do justice is the never shall the kiss because an official the kiss is rooted in Schneider omotchama Latino which is even deeper than a sham as hard as explained before that the soul essentially is rooted in the place of Hashem that is completely beyond all of the worlds and completely transcendental and from there it went down into into the body and into the nefesh obamas when a person realizes that who they really are who they really are so the temptation of being broken becomes almost irrelevant limits a rabbit Atlas means it becomes so reprehensible so questionable it goes completely out of my league so that's the sneer the harsh a yard all of sinner it's not snow is hated but sneer he can develop that ability to he says Russians of her after the ability to be mayest to be must need to be must mean Milosh and mouthful to be mass need a rabbit Angeles this is what happens then so it that's an and knowing that the been up her attacker the been up her attacker belongs to belongs to the snail so for higher Bremen Julius Bond of Loy Ujala vaca was a ye'd methodically beast roll of illusion they combed the Hema conditioner maybe straw love region say a Meister that was once after young teeth came out to show and it was a show by some costed them they davon later some people Garvin later they would prepare for hours and daven later and he comes up to shoot is Rashad and he saw a young costed of his it was car of the hot sauce it wasn't concise but it was close to midnight and the man is putting on palace in full and starting to doubt this is why so late why can you dive in early why do you darling so late so the young man who looks perplexed he says the shul is filled with elder cussin they're all starting to Davin now what do you want from me loser says I'll tell you a Marshall there was a year the Marshall itself is quite profound there was a year each Pasha simple man worked very hard he was a water carrier what a carrier then was you didn't bring the water from the sink to the table you brought the water from the river of the brook of the wall spoonful now sometimes outside the city schlepping day and night to give every house some water to be able to wash their hands I have some water to cook whatever it made and each night he would come home I used to give mooch it exhausted the energy depleted and his wife who was a poor family his wife would always give him the same dinner this went on for years a hard piece of bread a piece of potato and a cup of water and that was dinner and he didn't know of anything else every night he came home 8 o'clock dinner was waiting but he I you comes home his wife is not there dinner is not there he starving he never prepared it the potato the bread the what it's not there the good juice he thinks to himself probably my wife knows how hard I work so she decided tonight he's gonna surprise me she's gonna prepare a dinner it's gonna be soo this Lavie awesome for sure her bar he starts thinking what a special wife he has she's going out of her way an hour passes the poor man's kishkes are turning over he's been fasting all day he thinks probably we did my wife even get money to buy food probably sheep warmed some of her jewelry she gave them as a maschmann to go buy the most expensive delicious gourmet fish and meat in the world to make me super slim Abishai and he's getting excited for this meal that he's going to see and which each hour that passes he starts imagining unbelievable how far she traveled to get the best of the best of the best to give him then around 11 o'clock at night his wife runs in she apologizes for the land she gives him potato piece of bread and a cup of water and the whole dream fell apart she looks at him he's Evanson my dear wife for this meal I didn't have to wait for three hours this meal I could have had at 8 o'clock this meal we could have had i didn't--we want to wait so delusional looks of this man he says male uh drew who wakes up and he prepares himself for Dominique for many hours and then he serves Hashem a breakfast commercial not stomach breca ah this was worth waiting for just but for dine davon and for your dominate your baked potato and art piece of bread you could already do forsake it you can do an early domine what he docked me late for with your dominant you don't need time anyway you know are you da Vinci just stop it davon uh fighting that's what he tells ok Sydenham leave story is not over CID them leave they're going home they come to an inn you know all these stories and the collection was you know they had like a motel 6 but it wasn't quite like a motel 6 there's always a of him there was a guy on top of the oven you know it's cold you know the ovens landing people on top enough to warm themselves an old man is less than 100 years old he's on top of the other so the consider them are sitting there eating dinner they're saying whatever they're schmoozing given a title at the races there's mices this old man says headon we coming from they say we're coming from the haley collusion this is new our forts supports will you hurt they said over this warrants this is worth that he said that morning to this man he chastised him for dominic late with your meal that you give god there's no excuse you could have an early so the man says to them you're deb is wrong you know custody no mike hearing that right they wanna they wanna kill it they want to attack him as relax i'll tell you why he's wrong if this man really loved his wife if he really loved his wife and even the meal that she gave him at 11 o'clock at night it was meager and scant knowing that she prepared it for him would have been so pleasurable to him that he would have eaten it with so much passion and gusto because it's not what she's limits who served them I say if Hashem loves the Jewish people then even the dominating that is later and is fast coming from the jewel he loves it and cherishes it your ever is wrong I said him however at least are supposed to have a who Sharia sense of smell they realize this is a void they went back to the erosion they went back to the Deborah and they told them divorce and he listened and he said in a shum of this Jew came down to the world to say this Vaart to say this limits closed on the seed and to bring out this heart that if God loves us for real then every new khuda that you give is so powerful it's so precious it could be on big piece of potato he cherishes it and they understood they understood he was a very a very old man that this was so to speak the completion of his other sluices in the world so this brings out this in the CUDA unofficial the kiss is so entangled with an official Bahamas sometimes all the person can produce is a piece of potato but knowing who the person is it's so pleasurable it's so precious mash them that he cherishes it he gobbles it up so much with so much Guster with so much fashion because of this Arthur this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple double dot they ueshiba net slash donate