As Darkness Descends, Don't Run to the Familiar Old Light

the yeshiva dotnet so what was the the point that we learnt yesterday I'm stunning I'm looking at a piece of art it's wonderous it's magnificent it's exquisite it's beautiful something special one-of-a-kind I must come to the conclusion that this didn't happen randomly this happened by design purposefully this doesn't happen on its own because somebody spilled ink and from the posture I such an exquisite piece of art was created I must assume that there is someone behind it and not just someone that the one who drew who drew this painting as he puts it as a hakama composer he has unique talent unique skill for this work he's an extraordinary artist I may not be so knowledgeable or cognizant or skilled myself or a we're to be able to really understand what it takes I may not be even an artist myself or her or an art connoisseur that's true but I understand limited if I would if I would if I would know more I would appreciate more but based on my knowledge what I'm capable of knowing at this point I can yet appreciate something something of the quality of the artist even if I don't even understand his quality as an artist so perfectly because I'm not I'm not one I'm not like a peer of this so even that itself is limited but but there's something I can appreciate it happens every day the same is true when I'm looking at a home that was built magnificently or reading a book that was written which is whether it's engaging or profound transformative or dramatic whatever the genre is or brilliant again I may not even appreciate the level of the brilliance that it took because I don't have it but I could see that you know some there's something special here and the writer the author has something the same is true with a speech the same is true with a piece of music you hear a piece of music it may not be a musician yourself you may not be a great expert on music but yeah you could say that the person who composed this kept aside a deep push a deep Russian music and the same mister with any really any creation it could be a creation of a business as you study a business a business model a company of corporation of course in a different realm and and you know that the person behind this as they call it a fake a businessman you know he knew what he was doing huh well if if the chaos has or her if the chaos as a design to it yes if the chaos is just chaos obviously not huh if the chaos is organized sometimes chaos is planned you know revolutionaries plant chaos into the system yeah yeah you're right the book like mine Kampf also tells you about the author in the opposite way what a dangerous monster you might be dealing with right etc yeah what you don't know that though is who the person is you don't know if say this artist is a master in other disciplines that are not connected to art that you'd never know how could you know that certainly you wouldn't even know even more that maybe he is even be even though he's an artist but that's almost his most insignificant quality this is like you know his side shop and it's actually this piece of art is the most inferior of his expressions that you certainly wouldn't know so you can go your whole life looking thinking about him speculating writing books about him especially if there's hundreds of pieces of art and thousands of pieces of art you can write biographies and you could paint create your own art paint pictures in your mind but then one day somebody comes and tells you he'll come and meet him and everything changes forever come meet him that's a whole different experience and that's the Nakula that's the poem the poem Deborah show me mark under the same muscle the initial of this exists in a relationship with the great artists of all mankind and of the entire planet an entire universe ain't circle okay no the Gomora says and Broca's ain't sire Calcagno paint suits as ain't circular Cana right there's no sir as a rock a boulder so then what is a serious sire there's no artist like Al okay no so it's actually a very appropriate Marshall it doesn't stop use a Marshall of seer can use a lot of McCallum but it's an appropriate Marshall then the same is true in our relationship with her shell that there is Kailen dollar dude Shin dollar do dis I know the Cuyahoga Ville I know the the power of finiteness or to put it differently I know shame aviod Allah SATA the lower level of shame Avaya Malaysian Mojave I know the Creator through creation from creation and even that that's why we're emphasizing the Marshall do I understand what it means to create a world of course not just like I don't understand what type of artist the artist is I don't know understand fully what it takes but I could say wow this artist knows what he's doing he's brilliant in art do I know exactly I don't even understand that exactly if I would I would be able to create a world myself and we can't even create a wing of a mosquito as New Year Xiaomi says I feel the cold boy Elemis consen enemy Harlem livery I feel the cone of itö shot but there's something I do know there's something something you can you can appreciate you can it's called deduction you deduce it right you deduce it from the product yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah that's the hakama Hashem that is known known from what from that which we know that which we see that which we perceive that which we experience with our five senses and with our intelligence a Philly D some things may add similar in size may absolute service the Euler Mazar not McCrea even a superficial knowledge of Optimus optimus would be like who the artist is at its core what type of family life does he have who is he in his essence does he have other interests is it even possible that the whole art work is the lowest expression is the most impression I wouldn't know that's what we mean by at smus yeah because this is the oldest animal my felides somebody is Maximus Aaron self there's just two types of you Diaz does he do some it's ears and you do some or horse me these samosas understanding somethings Cory do some things just knowing the fact I may not understand the core of this artist as an artist from looking at the art but I do know there's a big artist out there I do know there's some major architecture do I know who this architect is in terms of an architect no because I don't really appreciate the depth of architecture and his depth but I do know at least a fact that there's a great architect but the illumise ain't a Mack rhythm I feel I feel even a level of EDS um its ease of abscess earning safe their McCrea their McCrea that is a Mitzi's of a boiler but not of absol science of who was beyond by Rey you understand what I'm saying they're not there my career Committees of boyar there's an artist is a designer it is an author there's a musician is a composer there's an architect as a contractor but so what do I know I know that he's a contractor there's an expression look at the Turner in sharing the ballot on you says Loiselle ek Eliquis Marshall Alamos must have in the Meno don't define the primary aspect of godliness by the fact that the worlds come from him that's the nickel alloys Oh Iker Eliquis that's the ocean of the ballot Anya Marsha Alamos wasabi mama no that's not the icky River Lagoon I say we burn er shall oil embosser don't define le cose by the fact that the world's come from that's not the acre of Ilocos is it true of course it's true not only that in Zohar as we said the Saaremaa morris are called miller da da da which means if you could say so peasantry language simple mundane language love orchid the Malka listitem allah dad yet sir pastors for the king to speak such language why would we call that that side of my Marcos milord that the ITER language of a headlight of a peasant simple simple tennis language you know what I had yet this simpleton language why because lagari the Etzel what does it express it doesn't even express a fraction of his essence it's like the artist who really lives in a completely different and transcendent world and the hokum of seer is considered the most inferior expression of his of his magnitude but what I know about him is only this aspect because I never met him that's the coldcock me idea the hakama that we know from his towel is the husband that we know from the Bria you understand now of rama v no he Kira's Boyer how he looked at the palace and he said who is the master and a Shem reveals himself and says I'm the mullah bias liberalism I'm the bala bias you saying this is Maalik illuminance of Coloma okay you could put it in that you could put it that way as well you could put it that way as well yeah and the real question is is it even possible to have a relationship with anything beyond that perhaps that here you have a book read the book look at the mansion study the art maybe that's that's the top that's the that's the highest level man can reach don't delude yourself there's a quantum leap between infinity and finiteness you can grow within your finiteness more and more and more and their highest you can reach is study the design study the universe go to the moon yeah study the cell look at whatever you could look at and whatever you know you know and it's it's amazing listen you could spend there you could spend a hundred million years on it no no question you could spend 100 million years trying to figure out this world yeah we still haven't scratched the surface and and a lot of progress has been made even in the last 50 years progress has been made in terms of understanding the world maybe more than four thousand years five thousand years just in the last fifty a hundred years the developments have been so rapid and so dramatic they trumped all the developments for thousands of years in terms of our knowledge of the universe never mind in fields like medicine and neuroscience right etc etc but that's that's the limit that's that that's the limit comes motion says honey and upon him Deborah Jimmy Markum weirdest kite begins is and this is the finish to finish the revolution of Martin Taylor is that a vehicle Hashem in his essence he implanted himself what's fed himself his very core in the core of a Yiddish Enoshima that's then it could overdrew that the eczema neshama is typhus or as he puts it the ads I'm gonna summon it for some it is Medusa the MSF is Macias is knit face it's it's experienced its grasp it's found in the core of a soul which the world's cannot express not because they they don't want to not because they're evil that they're magnificent morale boom our second Colombo cosmicism but the oil ermis manifest and express that which the artist is choosing to express through this piece of art in the pinna me asana Shama in the core of the soul the Jew just knows God which God not the god of philosophy Hashem commercial ooh and eczema serious it's called an intimate relationship the core of eye connects with the core of thou the eye and our relationship not allow that is manifested through a particular product which tells me something but then do you at your core ah that's a whole different nice this is the new code of what a moon is this is the new code of the he descried this is the new code of Tara this is the point of upon him Deborah shammy Malcolm that the SMI Ishida knows at Smithsonian stuff like a best friend she say but from where from haha where well how how do you know what do you know your finite what do you know but that's the Nakula that that's the whole kshitij that guard himself in his essence he planted that essence that is infinite that is eternal that is transcendent beyond even the Creator and understand even the first thing what are you grasping again I know that there's a great artist do I understand I understand what it means he's a great artist know that itself I don't really know but even the first level is infinite and just understand that but I'm touching it I'm just I'm touching it but then there's meaning that is caballo so meeting a shot it's a whole different experience it's it's it's it's it's it's not the simin it's the 3s iron it's back to the Simmons resonant vsi the simin is the world is a sim infraction God leaves him on them everywhere if you want to look if you don't want to look you won't find anything but if you're interested there's a simin you know I shove Acevedo what's I shove a survey that shows every that means returning a lost item back to its master no which is the great greatest Aveda in history the world and I yeah Yakko what's a Yakka where have you been where are you yeah you lost Yakka what do you say yet no you lost after they'd say das we're trying to do our service of ADA ah the gomorrah says al-shater was the finishing of a show you know the Morrises yeah I'm an avid Martian oyster boy you give him something and he loses it this is about the tiny tight rasam I obeyed Martian toys them one your burnished one gives every person ma what's my mars the gift of bittle my Scott McCoy yes MA the National Mah and you lose it I'm a badmaash a nice term life there's the filet de ma so all of our voices are Chavez Aveda you got to return the lost object back to its owner we spoke alloy made of rubbish a my memory maybe go olive oil um you have to identify the armory everything has an Emer what are we say in the morning bara imambara a memorizer there's a Boucher my memory may be cooler Loyola mat so you redeemed the world so it's all wash over surveyed you're returning the lost object to its mass you sing here this is yours you make a broker on a cup of water and you say barakaatuh Schemmel the kingdom a little harlem shake' oil near boudoir if not the water is lost you do a shovel so vada you return it you return a lost object to its master you say this belongs to you la Shama ordered some loyalty vaviiova how do you do our other survey do you need some on him how do I know what's yours I found the shirt how do I know it's yours I found the pen Samana so the master left him on him everywhere this among and everywhere this Imam if you look if you're not interested you're not interested if yours are convey nullificator Salam to you go right and you know this singing but see but if if if you want to do our stuff with me the Samana take a look look look well you'll find a similar so what do I know about you from the simin I know that you made this simin I know that this is yours but then there's something called via Sian via science from inner recognition III experience you that's a whole different experiences and that's the the feathers of a neshama of a finish of an effort that at semana Shama beyond logic it's typhus at Smithsonian safe that the core of encipher shem himself bequeath this very essence and so to speak and planted it in the core of the soul that there there one there's a oneness I don't know the abstract God a philosophy there's an intimate intimate embrace the first God can also be very cold to be a cold one there's a certain detachment this one there's no detachment and the first one it's like oh there's a world of there's a world there must be a god there's no personal relationship there's no intimate relationship it's a logical philosophical conclusion a great piece of art has a great that's a great artist but here it's a whole different experience here it's the intimate relationship not only intimate relationship with the boy and intimate relationship with the core with the essence of wall without some muscle inside so we continue tests above second paragraph all the Fiza material a basic osseous we come now back to the conversation of our sham with moisture both of his questions have been addressed what's the questions question on the one is what's the whole purpose of godless I don't see sin question number two is if you're already sending me to redeem the Jews why isn't getting worse after the Google starts shaky-shaky I've Ramallah tackle Ashlyn was superb Leah's been absurd Vasa go save avoid o ciock Odin I'm showing in CONUS Ave Adela Sato miss O'Dare be mukherjee lucerne ila showing anivia Dilla Ayla she is gal I they Martin Taylor as of Rama V new reached his ultimate perfection when Brisbane up saw him Brisbane absurdum represented the moment that I've ROM reached his slimmest as of Rama V know what's that flame us that great scientist who is searching for the truth and will give up everything for the truth a world that steeped in paganism and idolatry and promiscuity is the world that of rom is born into and raised and and yet his keen and acute search for truth takes him on a journey down a road less traveled and as a result of that of Rama V no really is the great revolutionary who says yes Baba bhai is libera zoo - there is there is a truth here there is mammoth is a oneness here there's a calling there's a lack like America yeah he wakes up the universe he wakes up civilization from its slumber he reaches his Slammers by Brisbane absurdum what's - lame-o's have value Dallas SATA Hawaii in terms of Mojave appreciating boyer what happens now as the teacher back to our Marshall you remember the teacher reach - lamest of the first year cuz it hits safe my sir it's not being communicated to the to the student after all the toil in the teachers mind he hewed and they hey and evolve in there you remember the cloud prot cloud Pratt I'm not gonna cancel it over now because we're not gonna finish this mind man if I go back you have to remember in Casa but after all the student now it's already going in he's giving it so it's too safe my sir it reached a safe and what happens now a new chill emerges in in the mucker soca vehicle have rom finished a run reached his lame-ass avoid that what happens in the mocker in the in the muck and the source and the boy enugy Louie emerges our new revelation emerges what is that we call it javea delaila this Shaima volume in Russia and Mojave a creator Shaima V is also called in Halawa shame ha Aksum che mama for --is-- shame on me you could Hawaiian Lilith Fair away and Leila Hawaii in its higher form meaning beyond the definition of Mojave she is goddess will be revealed through mattandsarah vici reducer see bossest all cos gilja codon that's the only reason that the old revelation must depart because something new a new window opened and for that window to be completely open the old one gotta close this is iris of the new is the reason that the old gili must ascend must cease let's remember if the raf continues the old guy Louie right that triggering moment that epiphany is gone forever there has to be a a stylist from the old I'm sorry what yes yes the Brisbane up sir so what is our chef say middle of Brisbane I'm sorry there's gonna be goalless I'm making a covenant with you imagine you're proposing you're proposing to your to your fiance we're gonna have the most amazing life and you're gonna be in exile for 400 years right Leigh module Villa MOOC so don't give me your honey don't give me a bite it's something is misplaced there we understand in a moment of Mooser a moment of chastisement a moment of alienation a moment of anger a moment of hurry off there's the tiger cub we're here at Brisbane I'm sorry we're eternally connected with this greatest love oh by the way you're gonna be in exile for many years right yes yes you're right you're right you're right but this is very very important that's why he keeps on saying the reason this is falco sir is because something new opened up it's not when there's his stylist as oh let's give him something new no there is no departure without a deeper revelation if something closed in your life if there's a moment of confusion uncertainty darkness it's because a new light was unleashed and in order to open yourself up to the new light the old light ascended and the more the new light is emerging and fermenting and and taking shape the deeper the old light must ascend like in the metaphor in the beginning the teacher will continue the sheer remember on the level of Kozma right the first week he'll continue this year he had an epiphany wow he's like oh that's interesting but he'll continue he'll whole wing it but then as the new light you know take some more safe what we call bina now there's already his words are sentiment this confusion but then when this das when that new idea is really taking shape and becoming internalized he just grows quiet silent this relationship is dead from an external perspective and what is it all about that there's a new light coming to the students but it's a process so it's not that there's a hiss tall coast and then there's a new Guillory now the Gila is what prompts this tall coast which means enough from if you could see everything from its enemies there's no historical because the whole East out coast which is again the ascent the distance the absence the darkness is really what it's really a manifestation of a new awareness of a new Gila and that changes everything that's exactly the idea when was mashiac born the moment the destruction of a submitted it's not two separate things it's not as a destruction of gods as old what do we do now okay let's bring mushiya know the destruction happened because mashiac was born that hoobin happened because what she was born not there's a husband oh I gotta give them something ok let me show ya come into the world let's try to fix this you see how this changes everything yeah that's the idea that we spoke about before Tish above the gomorian you me right none download when they came into the to the Odisha Kardashian to destroy it they didn't come in to to do Kairos they came to destroy it these are the these are the Babylonians Roku oven morons Abaza they see the cherubs the crew of M intertwined representing the greatest moment of intimacy really this is the greatest moment of intimacy it's the greatest moment of alienation Ragan a good day they're looking at each other in a bad day they're facing away from each other in the worst day they're hugging each other what's going on unless you see the whole thing from a different perspective the ultimate departure the ultimate the stylist came because there is an ultimate ghillie of intimacy but it still doesn't take away from the pain of the fact that the teacher is sitting and he's looking at his teacher and there's no teacher anymore from his perception that relationship has grown dark silence in the beginning there's still words there's still gestures there's still some communication but then there is complete complete distance yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah and both are true this this should never deal Ajith my's empathy you know Oh everything is just beautiful there's this right this dish above and the Shabbos knock'em all right if you're a good student you panic that's why tisha Bove is a fast day we don't say Tish above but on the other hand in Houma she comes what still more gonna be it's gonna be the greatest jumped if there's a lotion in Sector a young Tavella Titian buff really because that's really it's not wrapped their album says that when Messiah comes all the fast days are gonna be on them tie them so the way we learn it is well there won't be a reason to fast right but why will it be a young turf so there won't be a reason the fastest about five so we won't fast we won't have to watch videos all day we'll be able to go to work okay why'd it become a young TIFF because he used to be a tragedy how do you understand that so apostasy you say well it's nice because I know you know the bad day became a good day so we're celebrating it but but it says just like any other day the shaft is something else when you understand this of course is the biggest jump TIFF because that was the essence of the sadness as well yeah in other words Tish above is really the greatest day it's really the day of Google it's really the day of Google of course is the greatest young tooth but only that element you'll only see when the new Guillory emerges as long as what we're experiencing is still his style coos that you're not you're not open to that yet and it would be it would be a crime drew gets up to this I'm gonna eat this ship I'm gonna drink this above because machine is gonna come and it's gonna be a young tooth that's a Nevada personally it means you it means you're not you mean you're detached from something there's something off about it are you right yeah you're right you're right and it in the perfect ideal world you're right but we don't live in a perfect ideal world we live in a world that's still fragmented yeah we usually look at life there's a cause and there's an effect really what we're learning here is the opposite the effect is born and thus the cause is triggered the effect is really the cause for the cause what comes later is really happening earlier there was a new Guillory and that's the cipa that there's a historic us so you say but what I don't know what to do with my life and this is true this is true about Claudius Ostrow about individuals it's true about every person's life and it's not easy to see because when I'm struck with this confusion of this uncertainty or the state of of weakness what I'm feeling is just I'm lost I'm lost but you have to know why are you lost why you lost because a new way opened for you and this way is gonna take you nowhere what does it mean to be lost what it means to be lost is I'm following the path and I'm like I don't know where I'm going thank God there's a whole new way for you the bazzill fresh tastes close enough fish oh yeah now you're gonna ask me the hard questions yeah the life the light that's there is for that person or for this Wow or it's also for that person but remember we're still in gallus so we still grapple with this we still grapple with this without gosh shivered in Hampton now but remember what super then has come to everything become that doesn't mean that the student got it none of this means that he sees a glow on the face he's like there's something good out there right you remember in the first three weeks it's just panic it's like I used to have a teacher he just disappeared he broke off this relationship I don't know what happened Shiva Dean Hempton you already see a glow new hero Don Pitt so what does that mean it just means this hope discomfort is soulless I don't know yet what yet then the teacher that student has to open himself up to be able to get then and then he can get it so that's in the calendar but in terms of history it's a struggle and there's some things that we you know that at this point in history we can just look at it and cry that's the truth and Hawija and that doesn't mean there's no ammonia amber talkin that that's that's that's the student has a moon at this - he's a real student he's not a he's not a detached student but it's it's it's a painful moment and it's really acknowledging the idea that I can't wrap my brain around everything I don't have to I don't have to figure out how it's going to be good and the reason is actually if I try to figure it out I'm it's gonna get much worse because it's actually not something that my brain can deal with at the moment I have to like shut my brain and say don't figure it out just be be present don't run away be present you know we have this instinct that we have to figure things out that sometimes people have this issue they feel after explain things to people if you can explain this then you didn't get it you understand ah yeah you just didn't get it if you're explaining it you're actually worse off than the person you're trying to explain to actually he gets it how do I know he gets it because he knows he doesn't get it and you're trying to bring him back to old paradigms like now I'll explain it to you and you're fitting it in to old models the whole point is a new model opened and you now you open yourself up to new models silence that's the first thing you get this huh this is very important I didn't think of this before but talking about you know in the middle of mushiya things come out you know I I knew it I sometimes see certain situations people are explaining reasons to people and I would avoid explaining it is actually much further than the person is explaining it huh like Eve's friends yeah he's trying to say oh it's it's still the old paradigm I'll take you back I have a good seer for this no no your old shear is gone damn is she here but he doesn't want to go to one who's she he likes the old she has been doing it for 65 years why should he go away from his old fear this is we got us covered from his partner from it's a good fear I don't mean to judge anybody tell about judgment I understand the psychology it's a good shear why go away from it proved successful but you're completely in the your mama in the dark more than the person who's in the dark the person who's in the dark is opening himself up to the light and you're in the dark and you want to stay in the dark you're not even ready to open yourself up because you're you taking me back to the middle you know made the medieval times the Dark Ages so to speak yeah yeah right that's it yeah you're right I think from Einstein right insanity you do the same thing and you expect different results I'm still giving the same shear it's a different shear a bison and and great teachers which are great leaders in every generation their toy is there's a new oil and the new earth is painful because a new oil only comes with the death of the old oil and that hurts because it's the light that may allowed me to see things but that light was extinguished for a new light to come that's not easy so some people will say let's just go back to the old light and so they'll explain everything but there's a new light there's a new light and the new light is not here to torture you the new light is here because of love and that's where humility comes in real real humility comes in yeah exactly my old paradigms and my old mindsets which just yesterday were the key to my success become the great trap that trap the great light and will never allow it to will never it will never allow the growth the new egg the egg will never hatch I take the egg and I just you know I cook it too fast there's a chicken coming out ah but it's been up sorry Mia yeah that's it the he may aim in the Brisbane absorbances meaning a Maha Chicago Illinois fellas all of that's Mama's dist amos dread machetes darkness huge dar falls on a rama vino and that's when God tells him about the golos and that's the whole question you're having you're making your covenant this is the moment of intent of the greatest love what are you doing I sure it's not like a moment of rum did this terrible sin that Shem says you know there's gonna be a punishment there okay this is a strange model police being absorbed is the eternal covenant that I've made with the Rama Venus he promises a marriage is sure all your my nation it's forever it's eternal it's unconditional it's never gonna change right then there's darkness what happened so that's what we're learning here ah that's the moment because I've wrong reached his graciously most at that moment Shaima Via della Sato the tactless of avoided the way it was then before Martin trader of discovering the boy ray so now something new is born in the source and what happens that newness creates the ascent the departure from the old how is that translated that's translated in Kalos Kalos Messiah of course he fell asleep that's what you have to do what happens when you fall asleep you stop thinking yeah you don't figure things out right that's exactly the point sleeping here doesn't mean he fell asleep because he was bored the sleep was an avoider falling asleep means I don't have to be in control I don't have to figure it out right when I'm when we're awake we have to be in control it's good to fall asleep in a positive sense that's where the Jews went to sleep the night of snores why they go to sleep okay so those are all the details the Blackbirds it said it but the idea of sleep is I'm not in a position where I can wrap my brain around it I don't have to figure this out I can't figure it out the student when he's sitting there and the teacher goes you know space is out say oh I know exactly what's happening I don't know what's happening I really don't I'm confused if I substitute the pain with Tylenol and temporary reliefs I'm not the same guy who was explaining it I'm stuck again you don't have to substitute it you don't have to we have this temptation we have this temptation that everything has to fit in so either I take tylenol right or I explain it or I'm looking for a substitute to relief can I just sit in the in the in the moment whatever it brings up there is a pain there there's an absence there and I don't have to run from it I have to be able to trust the relationship trust the teacher he's not he didn't this didn't he's a real teacher if I don't then you're right I have to run away and any Tylenol but if I could trust I could be here you we all know in human relationships what allows people to sit in their disagreements to sit in their pain there has to be a trust if I feel that ultimately I can't trust you I'm not gonna continue the conversation I'll make a joke and I'll run away you know what I mean I'll storm out of the room what allows me to sit in the pain is the fact that there's a trust there has to be trust I'm sorry what'd you say about Martin Taylor very nice IntelliChoice enviro for the same not good because that's the moment there was the revelation of what that whole was the whole shock of Brisbane absurd and beautiful emerges by Matt and Tyler you know the math interior is really a commentary on the darkness it's a commentary of what happened in the moment of darkness in the moment of darkness when all light seemed lost really the new light was being born and because the new light was being born the old light became dark so Matt and Tara was really the commentary of the darkness beautiful Voort we learned once I think a minor from the ballot Anya about the whole shock and are awful I'm at until after I remember what he says we learnt it Abdallah typhus my mother admira's nakka nakka sorry my sake so let's let's finish this paragraph by is IRA Susi basis-- telcos Gilly Hakata this man has a lot of you know you have in an article keywords so it's certainly this is one of the key words this iris is always the reason for the historical the reason there was a historic OSes because there was a cyrus the new Guillory was aroused and hence the old said goodbye Villas n is IRA hagalo x' so by Brisbane up saw him there suddenly an emergence of the concept of colors why what is this it's the fact that a new light was born via stylists who be illu a career way back to the muscle it doesn't happen in one stage the ascent of the teacher is stage after stage he goes higher and higher and higher when he goes a little up it's a LITTLEST alkis when he goes higher up the stylist is greater just like in the muscle the more the teacher is absorbing the new light the higher he goes the more he internalizes the new higher the deep historic us the greater the distance the profounder the absence probably can't say profound absence but the profound er the sense of detachment like we learned the three weeks is hakama bina dots for Lehane this gives us a new perspective how gollu super hall you're in batik of choice this is the answer why the Gullah s-- everyday becomes stronger the goal is to become easier if it's a punishment but what if Gullah siz not a punishment what if Gullah s-- is the prerequisite for the new light what if it's not a punishment so you're saying with more time the gullet should become easier you're gonna going at a prison soon come on go into a halfway house what's you hear it's the opposite but what if it's not a punishment what if it's the development the birth of the ultimate new lights of the ultimate love so then the more that light is coming in the more the departure from the old and the more the old light gets extinguished until when the new light is about to come in the old light is completely extinguished and what am I feeling I'm feeling nothing I'm hanging in the air ah the birth of a child yeah yeah the most painful moment is then the child is about to emerge the greatest pangs you'd say oh this is the hard most horrible moment yes I mean it is and I guess the people sitting here are not real masters of this issue our job is you know just to be there and to empathize and be present emotionally but but that's the point we always think about the caterpillar and the butterfly that moment that moment the squeezing out squeezing out yeah you ever saw a chick come out of an egg ever watched us it's powerful for a tour now kitchen if ceccacci you cerca de Maga Marie soshim tells moisture attitude which is why now now supposed to get better now what happened now in Egypt the old fuse got completely interrupted the last lifeline of spirituality was caught the high nukem accretion midseason Lucas lagari would vie revived by certain memories ain't a mayor clown at this point Perry denoise everything godliness is a complete non-starter he calls it a solemn Ally and the word of God manifested in the tenth utterances of the creation a night mayor cloud is no light whatsoever the lowest made there the lowest moment out there is now lamb to do mia in tehilim there's an expression Catalan capital M attest now lambda I was silent do me a complete in complete silence God silence is thunderous right you know the expression your silence is deafening the silence is so deafening but that means you can hear the silence oh that's already not silent there's a silence just silence so there's nothing here that's the silence moisture experience so our Sam tells Moshe this silence is deafening you know why their silence cuz you're about to hear the greatest noise that's the silence now l'm t do mia who simeon xiong ira hadashah martin tarik varney glulam ila this means that the newer are ready took shape it already emerged we're why don't I feel it l'm ila in the marsh allah would be by the teacher and the teacher is there and that's why he's completely silent now he can't speak anymore there's no communication the whole he's is done it's over cut from the students perspective this relationship is finished why because the teacher actually got an hour ago or a day ago when he didn't have an idea yet he's still in communication with you now the communication stopped he says to Moshe after now now when they're Saaremaa Morris are completely eclipsed the old Shearer is gone there's no simin anymore father I'm in this world look at para he doesn't believe in anything he just increases the godless physically and spiritually what does this mean this means that Martin tire already came into the world we're lamella what's LeMay lamella basileus bazillion midlas dissolve in the 7 minutes of our Zyliss vato DAF gatir ace is garlic Amla neshama is debride sericea now it's ready to come to the students to be revealed for the nationís of the world's breed see Razia actually call a clipper see Connell Vakula me I know where all the shells will ultimately become subservient the husks will remove then everybody will be able to acknowledge the truth vows and Emma that's what he says at the Syrian now you'll see now could be your Kazakh you shout him with a strong arm he will expel them this is how he answered both questions of moisture Ravi no moisture no man who has to give vowel decay questions question number one law Mario Salam Isaiah remember the Meldrick I look and say from veracious I see sin punishment sent punishment same punishment cause effect cause effect cause effect here I see an effect without a cause partial mice goalless without an antecedent without a cause effect without a cause suddenly God less Denville is dyin why are the Jews tortured why the Jews abused why why why what they do there should have been a scene in parish mice the dude went to Egypt they assimilated they became corrupt they stole molar mix Ryan commerce right and God turns to mush and says well once there wasn't around yet God turns to somebody and says who they're gonna suffer but there will be salvation fine that's not what happens in choice out of the blue out of the blue there's abuse and this is the question that so many people ask what did I do wrong to deserve this story in life tell me so they go to experts or the experts say in a previous gilgul you sinned you understand what they're trying to do they want to go to the old seer to move in and the previous Gill who you said they can go out of their paradigm you send the question is which pilgrim I was three years old when it happened yeah it's a Gilgo a preview I could see it on your face that in the previous gilgul you said that's one way of dealing with it or maybe your father sinned or your mother's Synder your brother send the you say this in their previous births in and you're gonna be am a hopper etc and what happens the person who asked the question he just experienced abuse for the second time he may even not be able to articulate it but he knows he goes home right and he feels horrible he doesn't know why and it's not that the person was trying time he wasn't he was doing the best he can using the tools that he has he we he may be a very fine person huh the old Shearer they all share this year that he knows this year that he uses to deal with everything right so moisture says what's going on here give me a good effect has to have a cause that what happens here that's what people say why your Camela father suddenly boom AGGA act for half what happens second question is and now when you already send me to give the good news we're going backwards this Hashem says the two answers are to Syria not only now why cuz you have to Rihanna stand this whole goal of you're looking at me like la Kim I need a sham this is not about din it's all love but what are you talking about IVA Adel of Ramallah Sigma Yaakov McKellan Dollard youth there was an old seer who schmear violin or he died Tila I want to give them the new sheer shame Avaya Delilah Acorah not just he dear three is iron after Simon at Smith's not just buried upon him upon them not just distance for that the old Shearer has to go and when the old Shearer is completely eclipsed you know that the new one emerged that's why now Google it can happen this was the response to at the end of in the beginning of when you can experience ah that's a good question it's a good question as an epiphany good then amber the last thing they ever brought in a new ire and then he grew silent and he can only gesture after the stroke and then was a stylus completely so some people run to the old shear because it's it's too much and others are confused and it's really have to tune into the new beautiful very very powerful songs good state yeah it's a minutiae tag ancestress Emma's the Madras says that the Goldsmith's ryeom happened moistu appeared and then he ran away in the Salim and then he appeared inviting assalam and they met their share the same is true with a Googler silver Hallam Gillingham you'll have to look it up here there's a man the old is that the news that the breeze so there's two human traps one is a person still lives in the past which is already gone another one that person lives in the future which didn't happen then why not traps to traps carries to be present very good very good there's the trap of living in the old that's that's that's gone trap of living in the future that's not here and it may never happen very good there's living in the presence exactly yeah living in the present and the present is sometimes the most difficult place to live because you don't know if the past you know the future yeah yeah very well that's good the miner the preppy is giving over to the very good stuff and then of course the new doesn't destroy the the new doesn't of rama's the student hashem is the teacher at the brisbane Apsara when that relationship reached its perfection safe MYSA a new new identity is revealed and that's why at that moment he communicates the message of God and it takes hundreds hundreds of years it's not like it's happening tonight but in other words this seed was planted for Kalos why because this starting there was a new epiphany if there's a new epiphany sow the seed is planted for the old to die Corbin is the moment that mushiya has born because you're right you're right yeah it wonder why it's taking so long for the light to that's a good question that's a good question yeah much bigger that's the next piece the next piece starts with the next light yeah from Brisbane absurdum to Martin Toyota was just a few hundred years from the hoard mental mushiya is much longer because it's a completely different light even the GABAA Matt and Tyler it described in those days it's just it's in the past you've really we yeah that's the reason also whitish above they say it from I think the erosion at the hillock erosion he said that from the baal shem tov yeah is already a certain light that was revealed in tisha buff josh above in the olden days was considered a very very sad day it still is but it was very manifest after the bar some to view so that ish above there was obviously everything has to be according to halakha but there was a certain lightness because the closer you get to mushiya on one hand the darkness is worse but on the other hand you can already sense that the pinna meais of the darkness is the lights because he getting closer to the new lights so on one hand is a very intense darkness because them closer to the light and more their stalkus on the other hand is already in my taste yeah the shivered in a Hampton is that there's a light coming so when you look at ish above you're not just seeing her burn you're seeing the birth Shia so even though it's still a day of availeth and tightness of course tilma shear comes it's it's that stitch above is still some of it's not a young term but there's absorb certain Plinius comes out because the darkness is really light that's the vort but there's stages in history he you can't be premature in gaul was the darkness is darkness but that awareness makes creates a shift what they say was the best of times and it was the worst of times but what we're learning here is it was the best of times because it was the worst of times but now we're ready for the best of times without the worst of times that's what Google is goals is the best of times because it's the worst of times I'm laughing it's not so funny you understand and Google is the best of times without the worst of time just the best of Tears ah and this is also true individually that the answer to your emotions question that's already a very deep question as I understand the teacher is limited so he gets a new Epiphany well Ferrum gets a new epiphany he should have known it before yeah huh become an assassin he came up with new ideas mainly the teacher is a limited teacher he has a new Epiphany that's very deep question ah the answer is even deeper though how much back it's an Emirates if you remember there were three reasons why this year unleashes new ideas in the teacher reason number one is cause chaos a dipper is mahalik remember and the claw is that all beer comes to his house when you have to when you're forced to speak and articulate it forces a clarity that you don't have without it if you think about something you will never have the same clarity say say it even to yourself say it because just getting it out in words like writing it or saying it forces much more clarity that's a fact I know I have ideas I speak a lot when I have to write the article I have to go back everything to everything because you can't repeat yourself and you have to like is this really the point or is this the point is that what it forces you to crystallize the ideas that's number one number two he said that when the the desire of the teacher to give hits the the wall of the student you remember and the student can't get it so that that combination of his desire to give and the students frustration an inability right it creates the earth Kyser that bounces back and it unleashes a new creativity of finding new ways to communicate third thing he said is safe mice of much of Attila it since the ultimate Kevon is to give so when you hit the safe MYSA when you the ideal leaves your space and it goes into the student space you become reinvented you find a place that you could have never found without that relationship right because when it hits the safe mice which is the Michelle Vitello of the student it evokes your teyla so dr. Michelle said the first to have logic that there doesn't have a logic I explained that this is not logic this is beyond logic this is the OP the whole operating system of the world is based on this truth that God wanted a relationship and therefore it's when the relationship hits the mark yeah that kavaja Cole Hashem I don't know how to say this if you could say there's a certain reinvention of himself so to speak right that brings out like the Gemara says knit suni benign it's Coony the gemara Sasaram says my children one me what they want they were victorious over me the Mauryan baba metzia paid allah and none test it's hony benign it's who named the child your fake I have been macaé half the relationship is behind everything so mela went there when the student gets the shear and it reaches its ultimate completion so because of that a new engine in Eliquis is revealed a new engine Cavanaugh : a sham also has revealed because the relationship is at the core of everything okay we need some time to ferment but we'll get there seems like it was pretty severe actually itself above this goes in the back well say one thing yeah we think so yeah time yeah lean urea to say if time is linear the course precedes the effect but if we see time as a circle so the effect can precede the cause yeah that Hashem and his deepest core wanted the relationship right so when that relationship comes to fruition yeah some think so to speak gets revealed in godliness that couldn't be revealed before that so to speak within the mucker the new Guillory in the mocker of course in his core core core everything is there but because he chose this relationship so that relationship he chose it in his deepest place so the ultimate ultimate depth emerges only through the relationship it's not a simple idea this it's one of the tradition of the ballot Anya I'm introdution one of the disks in other words it's not it's not a philosophical idea this ah it's not a philosophical idea it spun him upon him first ace it's eczema you hid this typhus Osmos in his deepest etson that relationship is embedded so malar in that relationship so you simple wash I miss forced by that no but he chose that to be his deepest core so the mela that relationship will bring out things that nothing else will bring out nothing else will bring it up he will so to speak reinvent himself event I mean it's sensitive stuff unless this isn't a coup d'etat it doesn't sit as menachem of means why it's called menachem of literally means right the Father comforts but then it should be of Menachem not menachem of Menachem of literally means you comfort the father so in other words the child could comfort the father in a way that is very profound varnish will of our needs Wilma the Rebbe reacts once said vineet filler is been guevara gnostic filler van meat filler I became a filler ok I'll be mum Shechem it's a sham tomorrow yeah this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate