Basi Legani 5726 #8: What Can You Give Your Loved Ones? Your Self & Bliss; That's What Creation Is

I mentioned to you that in my mind of Lagani also Shoshana twice a year and that was my mind he would build the mind from all of the rabiem of Chabad and from the time to market only Shoshana and Shoshana is Shoshana of the year and was the day of the yard set of the assumed leadership so Lagani has from every and he would build it that way other my mind every mind was usually based on a previous mind that was said either from the altar or another but but Lagani the mind is constructed its building blocks is a piece from the and the market and the altar but it's not stand I find a piece here a piece there and put it together the mind is built from a teaching a mind of perspective and insight of each one of the men and it's not in the order because it's based on the theme of the mind like he went through all the he didn't discuss the show yet that's going to be the last the last section that's going to be the section now he started off with a the altar what inside the whole union of earth the middle and to have a love of husband some how rotten impacts the person market back to look at the Torah and the about Shaka and the Sears and the Maharash about the different market with ocean and bias and then the last year we explored the time to market so obviously the it's all based on him it's all based on the Lagani but the is going to be the next piece about what different levels of and the deepest which brings the whole mind together and then in the last chapter that I be summarizes what the treasure is and how it's relevant to us but now is the last section where he goes into the beer the explanation of the theme of this mind but but here it goes to the world of book if you noticed the mind is structured so meticulously people took the 38 minutes to say wasn't a wasn't 9 it was 38 minutes but it was those 38 minutes we have a recording of it on audio so it goes through it's structured meticulously meticulously also I'm later they printed they found from the transcript for himself Russia come they have it in the beginning of the countries not but other places they printed it again where before the for himself he wrote a summary of the whole so you see a kisser of the whole thing not explained just literally point by point I don't know I'm not sure probably when he prepared I'm not sure maybe it was in the city I don't know Lagani the Lagani is my mind I think most of them come out more I don't know if all of them but most of them that they saw you and they printed them they print them today if you look in this country they have it's very uh they this is my mind that I own yard that when he said the mind made it didn't have access to this is on you see page base and literally it's this whole structure of the mind and and it's interesting sometimes there's a few little things that he did never said or things that he said that are not here but usually it's more or less he followed this uh this pattern you know what it's it's good I told you cuz it gives a summary of everything let's let's learn it crossed off means that in the he crossed it off so they put it in so just people should see what he was thinking for example one of the things crossed off here is I have a guess all of base and as he was thinking of another of the market besides the one that he did he wanted to do another one and then he decided not to for whatever reason so he crossed it out so they put it in because it's you know that itself is valuable so you see that I literally so if you were just read this without hearing the mind would be almost impossible it's it's not just it's not that brief summation it's just pointers for him himself to know like once you have the mind every word here is huh yeah yeah okay at the end we'll go through it okay so we're now up to up to Zion the series of Lagani is dedicated with graciousness in honor of about him good Nick Ben Mordecai and him good Nick is a love her to smash him and him and him and it's also dedicated by Ezra David Philip in honor of the is the world over and dedicated for a complete and speedy recovery for Benjamin and David bear Ben Esther her for a complete and speedy recovery and him for Shannon Thomas amen thank you so now goes to the next step if Zion I'll take a mind her this chapter is a very very deep every chapter is very deep so this could be very abstract so we'll try base him some of us to be able to be a channel to be able to bring it down integrate it so he says he now my mind I love being a man what we explained earlier in the mind they represent the two aspects that safe goes up infinitely and down infinitely which the matter this theme is also in the mind of him and him and him this is a mind of the the fifth the father of the and he said this at the of his son the got married you all of them Zion that would be 1797 at the mind at the and the brothers I'm sorry 18 1897 the Zion is 1897 right you all before Shoshana so during that and the said my mind and two very big long my mind one is known as and one is him you all of them Zion this is the mind of him and him that the said as you could see in the footnote Zion you all of them him was published in him and him actually published it because it was the wedding then of the his grandson who later became famous with the whole court case of the books he got married that's why it's him and him so in honor of his wedding the published this mind from his grandfather from his great grandfather from the his great grandfather at his grandfather's wedding him and him it's just the history of when the mind came out that's why it's him and him wasn't stand 1953 stand today it's printed in him and him and him and him where all the mind of that year are printed so this mind uh the says my is base my market market him there's something called in market something called market of market of him which he mentioned earlier in the mind and the point is market of him is him we generally have something called and him we learned earlier that means direct light which literally means it's in flow from the source of the light it's communicated to the recipient of the light that's called him somebody is communicating you have a couple you have a mentor you have a student you have a parent you have a child you have a leader and you have the people who follow him all forms of light that you give physical spiritual intellectual emotional divine that's called him him literally means the light that returns it bounces back that's what comes back and that's created from the friction from the collision with the him which often goes through a process cuz this is not what's communicated it's like the says in this that I learned a lot from my teachers I learned more from my friends only tell me that you I learned most from my students what do you mean you learned most from your students they're your students they're supposed to learn from you what's the point the point is the friction a person could be a and it's and it's beautiful and then they teach and like none of this makes sense I don't know what you're talking about or there's serious questions there's pushback what we call pushback that's him from pushback comes a much deeper light always huh >> [laughter] >> it's It's just I learned a lot from my teachers. You could say from my students also. No, I learned from my students what I couldn't learn from my teachers. What I learned from my teachers is what they gave. And then he gives it up in his own way. The semicolon is the pushback. It has to get It gets filtered much deeper. It has to go through a process of cleansing. And it evokes a deeper It what bounces back from the wall creates a new momentum in the game that you couldn't expect. Right? You shot the ball. That's all the ball, but that's the shot, but then there's the return. And that's where the real chaos ensues for those who know that particular sport. That's what I heard. >> [laughter] >> Huh? It's a new momentum that comes from the return. So my teacher brings in the lesson interestingly that uh on top of the mountains it's cooler than here on Earth in the summer days. The climate should be the other way. They're closer to the sun. He says, "But here on Earth you have the return." Bounces back from the Earth. Boom, it creates a new a new a new warmth that the mountains don't have. They have the shot. They don't have the return cuz the cuz the light continues. Light continues until boom, the ball hits the source the the the bottom, right? Rock bottom and now you got to go up. That's the return. It's brought out the look of actually that's a major theme in the memoir. Talmud Bavli and Talmud Yerushalmi. Why is it like Bavli? Talmud Yerushalmi if you ever learn Talmud Yerushalmi it's more like a shot. It's very straight. It's very direct. The Talmud Bavli nothing is straight. Everything is challenged and more like nothing is accepted. Why is it to say this? It says this, but there's a state of here. Everything is challenged. So one mission it takes mission and mission with another with another with another with another with another with another mission that he refutes it. Another mission another mission. What is that? That's really I'm not just accepting this light. This light really has to go into me and therefore every level of resistance is going to emerge. But from that a much deeper light emerges. It It challenges the route to go into a deeper place. So it's return. As it goes up it goes deeper into the than the shot. The shot comes from a certain source of creativity. But the return taps into a deeper source of creativity. Which is more unconscious. We once learned in the memoir of about the three weeks over there is a whole on this how it works. No it's from the class. That's generally a shot and return. Here the lesson is of a shot and of a return. So it's not the regular shot. What's the shot >> [laughter] >> and return? We always learn is not It is It is in me. It is in me is that which is integrated. It is that which is not integrated. That's why it's called It encompasses. It surrounds. Like a circle. Surrounding here doesn't mean spatially. It's like around the circle. It's around the ball. It means It remains transcendent >> [snorts] >> even when it affects you. It never tailor It doesn't It doesn't filter itself to be constricted according to the container of the recipient. And each one has a tremendous advantage. The advantage of me is you own it. You could walk away and say it's actually mine. You can plagiarize it. That's the beauty of it. It becomes mine. It's really yours cuz it it like I told you in the other share it's so good. You know what somebody said? The is so good. I don't know why we need Right? did such a good job. You don't need him anymore. The sun is so amazing. Who needs him during the day? You don't even attribute it to the source. That's how good the teacher is. That's how integrated it is. That's what real means yours. That's how we know he was successful. He was so good that you don't need him. You could really take it away. You could You could take the ball and run with it. Why? Because he changed something inside of you. It became yours. That's product. It goes into the becomes part of the Like when you eat something right? Good food it becomes you. It doesn't stay stuck in your system. We know what happens then. You get nauseous. You vomit. It's not good. You want food that's integrated into your bloodstream and that's why you have to know what you eat. That's That's why is the perfect example for me. I don't walk away two weeks later and still talk about you know the salad or the fish. It's not salad anymore. Now it's me. It used to be salad. But now that's that's That's It's not that. It is It remains transcendent even as it's communicated to you. It retains its pristine quality. This is what challenges the person to go out of their This is what challenges real growth. It is something above. It's beyond. So that's the difference of and me. The language of is sometimes called and of me. The light that permeates and penetrates every aspect of the world to the point that it becomes the identity of that creation. When I'm looking at a squirrel or I'm an ant I'm looking at the moment. The world calls it an ant. It's not an ant. It's the moment. Right? Adam gave everything names based on the divine energy. That's the GOD IS SO GOOD. YOU DON'T EVEN CALL IT GOD. YOU call it an ant. That's how good he is. That's not an ant. Coffee is not coffee. It's divine. He says he's creating the whole world every single moment. It's all divine energy. But he's such a good The sun is so good. You don't need it. God is so successful. Who needs God? It's a beautiful world, right? >> [laughter] >> The whole premise of science. It's a beautiful world. Who needs him? It's shining outside. Who do They tell me you don't need the sun. It's that. It's a tip of course. But that's the That's how That's the of the world. That's how good the is. Same thing the people deny the soul today. The soul does such a good job. Who needs THE SOUL? THE BODY AN AMAZING MACHINE. SURE IT'S AN amazing machine. 60 trillion cells amazing machine. If you built a machine with 20 buttons and you tell me it just happened randomly I tell you you belong you belong certified idiot. And here every 22 million decisions milliseconds with billions of miracles every second. But it It does so does such a good job. There's no soul. Who needs a soul? We don't know soul. >> [laughter] >> That's how it is. That's how you know it's a good me. They plagiarize it. They all take it and they plagiarize it. That's how That's how good it was. What do they say is the best compliment? What's the expression? That's the success of me. You can't do that. It remains higher. It remains above. It remains transcendent. That's why it's called me. Right. Imitation is a great form of flattery. And if it's really me they're not even imitating. It's mine. I always owned it. I always knew this. I always knew this. Then when people go away I always knew it. In other words he evoked or she evoked something that was deeply recognizable resonant. Like of course I knew this. And that's a beautiful thing. Yeah, stoking the coals and just bringing out the fire from within. Because you cannot do that if the me was not ready for this. That's me was always adapted to the vessel and that's why every world and every creation has a different me. It is based on diversity. It's not based on uniformity. It can't be. Diversity is a divine quality of life and that's what Shame is the only name of that's plural. This is all a for me. It is an engine of It remains even as it permeates. It also permeates. But it Excuse me on a less conscious level. It's not integrated. In other words, I do not make peace with it. I don't say this is my identity. If I would say it's my identity it would mean that the light was dumbed down much more and it's not dumbed down. It gives me a gift of growth. Real growth. And like we said in a teacher that's that what he gives immediately and you get and then there's that which you have to work on for 40 years. What was that? That's It's there. It's there. It's in the words. It's in the words. It's embedded, but you need to unravel it. Somebody may get may may have gotten it right away cuz he's in a different has a different so he can right away. In other words, my can be can be your me. My can be your me. It depends on the It depends on the vessel. What is in me uh is me in me. You understand? What's in me is me in me. What's in me is me in me. And as my vessels expand what was yesterday completely transcendent. I didn't even know how a clue what you're talking about. Suddenly today it's like of course. This is what growth means. This is how you can measure growth. What was yesterday completely transcendent. Maybe you believed it a little bit. Maybe you had some feeling some sense. You probably did. That's why you were pursuing the path. You didn't run away. But now it's like of course. How can you even think otherwise? And then we start to write the fallacies when we start judging people who don't get it yet. But where were you yesterday? >> [laughter] >> You know where was I last It's It's very nice. You know I discovered America and now everybody is you know everybody is slow besides me. So it's like cuz what you're going to discover tomorrow you're >> [laughter] >> It's It's It's a bigger So this is where uh humility is very appropriate for everybody doing this work. Huh? Yeah. Yeah. It's It's a hijack it. Hijack it. It's It's a trap. Yeah. It's actually a paralyzing trap. Very clever. Yeah. Because it could come from a lot of actually work and and progress. Yeah. So that's it. So now we says this of a shot and Makkah of a return. So two concepts here I get integ- get mixed up together. Or Yosher and Or Choizer is one sugiyah. Makkah of a call of Makkah of Or Choizer is another sugiyah. But, in this mind they come together. Makkah of Or Yosher and Makkah of Or Choizer. That means the Makkah of Or Yosher is that the Or Yosher is also not integrated. The Or Yosher, which is the direct flow, is also beyond giluy. Why is this niggun in this mind? Because this mind is about Ein Sof. The way it's a giluy of Ein Sof, Hashem is Or Ein Sof. So, even that which is begiluy, Or Yosher is also beyond giluy. Elama, it's begeder giluy. Like the example of the teacher that after 40 years I'll be able to get it. It's something that ultimately lends itself to the realm of revelation. Even though that may take a lot of time. That's the lamatah din tachlis. But, it's still called Makkah because here we're talking about the Or in its pristine form where even the Or is beyond revelation. It's called Makkah. What's Makkah of Or Choizer? Here, the Makkah of Or Choizer is that the Or Choizer What's the Or Choizer? The Or Choizer is that which comes back from the from the mekabel. So, it's the Makkah of that. So, even that is not begiluy. Again, Makkah is that which is beyond giluy. So, the Makkah of Or Choizer is something that goes back upwards. Or Yosher is downward always. It's direct flow from the mashpia to the mekabel. Or Choizer is that which returns and it goes upwards. Here is the Makkah of Or Choizer. It goes upward all the way back to the source, which is inaccessible, which is concealed. Those are the words. And this is what the mind of Hukos Chosson focuses on. You will soon see the mind of Kamin and all this all this and I would like We're going to get to that. But, but there's just the osiyos of Makkah of Or Yosher and Makkah of Or Choizer. That's what he says. Makkah of Or Yosher comes in a revealed way, but it's beyond his shlabbshus bechinus pnimiyus cuz it's Makkah. So, it remains Makkah, but it has a connection to the integrated Or light and will come out to revelation to revelation. The example of a teacher of a rav communicating seichel and svara communicating logic, ideas, whatever can be absorbed by the mind of the student, that's called Or Pnimi because it settles into his vessels. But, the depth that cannot be absorbed, this is also communicated, but it remains Makkah above his brain. What do you mean above his brain? Above his brain means you say this went over my head. Makkah. Makkah means it's a relationship, but it's a relationship where I cannot say I got it. I can't. It did not go into my keilim. It did not. Yeah. It's yours. It's yours. Yeah, over my head is just over my head. Usually doesn't make sense what you said. Just a nice way of saying, you know, figure out your stuff. But, it's still close to him. It's like, you know, when the bird hovers over him. It's like, you know, when the bird hovers over the nest. It's not in the nest. You can't have it. But, it's And with time and experience, it can come into your reach. Like when the finally the student masters, he stands on the daas of his rebbe. Meaning, he really gets the true daas of his rebbe, even the depth that he could never get before. Why? Because it was something that was relatable. In fact, somebody else with bigger keilim may have gotten it before. So, that means even you who did not already will get it one day. In other words, even the first day when it was communicated to you, it was already something that we want should be integrated. And a real teacher knows exactly the measurement. We're talking about a real quintessential So, you're talking about In other words, it's a very very It's a very nuanced element. That which he can give in an integrated way gives. But, he wants to give everything. So, some things he gives in a way that ultimately maybe in 5 years you'll get, in 10 years you'll get, in 20 years. So, this is a real You know, talk about a curriculum. Talk about a a learning plan, a teaching plan, right? It's a teaching plan for 40 years. For 80 years, for 100 years. Planting seeds. Exactly. I plant seeds. I'm not expecting tomorrow you're going to go harvest apples and you'll have what to eat. But, like the story with the story in Gemara Taanis, he's planting, right? What's the planting his palm palm tree for his einikel? What are you planting for your einikel? Because that's what we do. So, my grandson is going to harvest it. So, why am I planting it now? Cuz that's part of my life. That's part of That's part of love. That's part of teaching. Right? This This is This is a very what's called long-term vision. Can you plant seeds and knowing that for 40 years nobody's going to know about it. The person won't know about it. But, in 40 years it's all going to be because of what you planted. It's a very deep relationship. You have to realize the Makkah requires in a many ways much more connection than the Pnimi. The Pnimi looks good. It's geshmack. Everybody went home and they're satisfied. The Makkah, nobody touched it. It's a It's a form of mesirus nefesh, but it's real commitment. It's real dedication. It's like what a parent could communicate to a child and he knows the child won't understand it. Maybe the child will be defiant. Will rebel. Rebel. Will actually get upset, maybe. But, your your love and confidence knows that this this this this needs to be said or this needs to Of course, you have to be a worked out person for this. This is not stam impulsivity. This is the opposite of impulsivity. It also means you have things that you want to teach that are bechinus Makkah, you know. >> [laughter] >> They said there was once a professor and his arrogance was a little more than his wisdom. So, he came to this big conference on nuclear physics and you know, he was supposed to give his speech for 45 minutes and present his ingenious chiddushim. And right before he went up, they were already running short on time, you know, other speakers, whatever it is. So, the the MC, the the master of ceremonies who was running the show, he comes over to him and he says, "Your speech, 8 minutes. 8 minutes, not a minute longer." You know, telling him to speak for 8 minutes. So, he looks at him in disdain. He says, "What am I supposed to say in 8 minutes? What am I supposed to say in 8 minutes?" He says, "Speak very slowly." So, uh so So, for this For this you have to have Yeah. It's a moshech of Or Choizer Makkah. Like, really you know, kamin as with the pnimiyus. So, you're talking here about a the ultimate daas and that's why it's a moshech for Elokus. That's all Makkah of Or Yosher. Not Or Yosher, Makkah of Or Yosher. So, what's Makkah of Or Choizer? Slow down, yeah. Makkah of Or Choizer is it's not revealed that Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein It doesn't come out to revelation. Not even in Makkah. The whole inyan of Makkah of Or Choizer is the heipech hashafa. Interesting words. It's the antithesis to flow. It's It's defying revelation. Wherever it can, it defies revelation. I don't want to be revealed. It's protesting. The Or is protesting itself. >> [laughter] [panting] >> It's working against itself. He says, "It's Calling on his heipech hashafa. What So, what do you want from me?" It seeks to conceal it more and more until it's completely concealed. It's motion is not hamshacha downward. It's motion is aliyah, Or Choizer, upward. But, upward to the point that it it disappears. It's It's completely concealed. This is the deepest form of truths that remain completely concealed. And the expression of this is expression in Torah Parshas Lech Lecha. He speaks about Avraham. What's Avraham? And he says it's seichel hanelam mikol raya. Now, just translate those words. Seichel. Seichel is usually an idea, a truth hanelam, which is concealed, mikol raya, from every idea. So, stop calling it seichel. Seichel hanelam mikol raya. Here also, you're calling it Or. You're calling it Or Choizer, but Makkah of Or Choizer means there's no giluy klal. And this is lamailah din kets. And the whole mind is trying to say that this is what he's trying to give you. This is what he's trying to give you. Something that's not givable. I don't know if I made up a word, but it's not begeder giluy. This is Makkah of Or Choizer. Yeah, mamash a paradox, right? In the mind of Rabbi Gani, the Rebbe adds the next his next moshech. It's all moshech. And he adds another moshech. She is nikayus mashpia maskil umiskakel baatzmo. This you see even more when the mashpia is sitting himself and learning and thinking and and and conceiving. In other words, not a relationship to the student, relationship to himself. So, I'm just abstract abstract words now. Dehinay yedua asher kol haskalah Everybody knows. You do what snow one snow one I guess to everybody who has to know that every has color of his a person every time he's learning conceiving it always adds more light more revelation more appreciation. The there's a the way he's teaching a student but here he's talking about himself when he himself is conceiving and learning every time there's more light there's more like it's not like oh I learned it once it's over every time he's masculine there's more light there's more depth there's more revelation. This is what we were talking about light which exists in the motion of communication and revelation and the more you deal with it the deeper you go the more revelation the more depth the more creativity the more flow. That's the example of in the cuz this was all a but when you have a deeper which is means it's essentially concealed not concealed because I'm not ready for it but it's a type of truth that is essentially concealed and I know we need to understand what that means the the essence of this is in a motion of his of concealment not so in the this is the the quality of that's essentially reflecting the inaccessible essence which is completely concealed not because there's no but it's he may so even as it's revealed to him it's in a way that the remains and concealed in its essence so even as the learning for himself it's not about the before the you have an that by the itself gets more and more revealed and here EVEN BY HIM HIMSELF it remains CONCEALED BUT BECAUSE THAT'S THE OF THE that's a different type of so why are you calling it he said good let's see let's and he continues in this that to say that this deepest could come out but how only in stories parables riddles should be why there cuz over there actually they're the best places you know why cuz they hide it because they conceal it so therefore in a paradoxical way they're the mediums for just transportation they could channel this because they don't come out and say hey look at me I'm revealing I'm going to reveal anything because they don't have the quality of a is like I'm just a cute story I have a cute joke I have a cute riddle oh okay thank you for the entertainment so in a in a paradoxical way because they don't even is not part of their resume so I'm going to now give a and tell you I'm not telling you no no insight NO PERSPECTIVE WE'RE TELLING STORIES SO IN A IN a in a paradoxical way because their whole Indian is there so they could channel that which is which wouldn't be able to channel it cuz would put it into a framework of of revelation they don't do that they're not tempted to do that protects it it protects its integrity and the only way you could protect it its integrity is by protecting its integrity that was deep no the only way you could protect its integrity is by protecting its integrity right of course it's a completely different type of you see the only comes out in if you talk about it if you say I want to reveal this you're not protecting its integrity you just you're not you're doing something else fine we're calling it but it's that's his whole point it's not it can only come out not in the world of the is a good thing for it why because the says oh I'm not I don't tell you anything I'm just I'm just a waiter >> [laughter] >> I'm just I'm just a driver I don't I'm the entertainer I'm the entertainer well one second he's not just saying something uh it's yeah let's see because because over there the is because you cannot get it from the it's not like the is SCREAMING GET ME GET me but you can go away from the and you don't feel dumb you go away from a certain you feel dumb you go away from the there's nothing to feel dumb about what what right is not garnished with he's not screaming do you get me I'm not I'm not but something is happening the which the essence which is inaccessible to is enclosed in this in this parable and here it becomes much greater than you know why so he says revelation could only be a ray cuz that's what can be revealed that which can be transported into the world of revelation it can be articulated in some form that's always a ray but here because it's not coming in the world of it's coming into something which is completely concealing it so its entire essence is transported but not transported in a way that it's screaming I have it it's transporting it in a way that it remains inaccessible and yet it was communicated and this is the of >> [snorts] >> what do you think wants to talk about these things we finished understanding everything else in life and this is the like the last missing link in your in your marriage in your relationships in your family and your children like if you want to bring all your children together and like give them something for life like >> [panting] >> but he says that this is the this is the whole so the fact that I'm just what I want to point this out cuz a lot of people read this to learn it if if if a person cannot articulate to ourselves even >> [laughter] >> that this is the to win the war we're obviously disconnecting from something that said this at the wedding of his also said at the wedding of his I'm >> [snorts] >> I'm saying this just to understand that this is not another like let's get more abstract so that people we make sure that nobody understands anything we're talking about you have to talk and know that you don't understand that's true that's important but but this is also being communicated right the is being communicated so I guess that understood how deeply abstract this is so he adds something now he adds >> [snorts] >> the this will be much better understood when you come to the world of till now we were talking about the world of ideas rather than is mostly focused as he keeps on saying but let's go to the world of means bliss ecstasy delight pleasure the word is a word we all use I like it it's nice it's comfortable it's it's delightful opposite of it is pain right anguish so seems to be a very of course and that's what people look for what do people feel like what are people looking for in life what are they looking for more or less I want to feel good I mean at least it's a major force in people's lives I know this one is trying to make money this one is trying to do something maybe very idealistic this one is trying to do a little bit of both idealistic but also make a little money but at the bottom line what do you I'm looking for so is a very deep deep reality but here in this here he says when you come to you have to speak about three dimensions of and these three dimensions of are going to give us and he says like this there's a called you know the word means you have more common of more common and more is it's not a pure esrog tree. Why? Because esrogim trees are very hard to nurture. They are extremely vulnerable and they get sick and they die. And they're also attractive to worms and viruses. So, what do you do? If you don't care too much, you put in some lemons. You plant some lemon seeds together with the esrog and lemons are machaya. They're strong, they're durable, they can deal with resistance much better than esrog. Esrogim are nice on the outside, but deep inside it's a weak tree. Zaysem, I mean what's it called? Lemons are much more durable. So, that's why the esrogim salesman, what was their idea? They put in lemon seeds and then suddenly it's beautiful esrog, but it's not real. It's fake news. It's a possible esrog. Falsified. It's called esrogim murkavim. Murkav means mixed up with other things. The word harkava is like a jigsaw puzzle. It's murkav. From chalakim. It's a composite. That's the word composite. From different pieces. Like you take different pieces of metal and you create a kayli from it. The body is murkav from 248 evarim. It's murkav, right? A nigun is murkav from many diverse notes. The the the the the Everything is Everything in the world is murkav. This table is murkav. This cup of coffee is murkav. Everything is murkav. That's the beauty of it. Murkav. Harkava is not echad, not achdus. It can be. It's bringing together, but it's not achdus. It's mixed. So, ta'anug also has ta'anug hamurkav. What's ta'anug hamurkav? It's not esrogim and lemons, but it's the same concept. It's a ta'anug that's made up from something that allows the ta'anug to blossom and flourish. And that's usually the ta'anugim that we're familiar with and we seek. In that itself, there's a spectrum. Lemayle lemala bizlematamata. An infinite spectrum including things that are much more genuine and authentic and things that are much more superficial and more feel good for the moment. That's all true. But the common denominator is it's a ta'anug hamurkav. Then he says there's something called ta'anug hapashut. The word pashut here doesn't mean simple. It means simple, but it means pashut from the word mufshat. Like upashat as begadim, you remove your clothes. Why is that called pashut? Cuz real pshitut means you remove all layers and you get to the core. Like the simplicity. The Bal Shem Tov used to say the pshitut from an ish pashut is pshitut ha'atzmus. Right? Pshitut ha'atzmus. It means the pure simplicity which is really more sophisticated than the sophisticated cuz it strips it from all the kashas. So, what's ta'anug hapashut? Ta'anug that's stripped from any layer that is being connected to the ta'anug. The ta'anug is not coming from connection with other things which is called ta'anug hamurkav. IT'S TA'ANUG IN THE CORE OF TA'ANUG. It's like touching bliss itself. Like the command center of bliss. You know, the the central nervous system. You go back to the core of the ta'anug. Well, but ta'anug hapashut gufa yesh lo if oifen she'ein lo achiza beshum davar. But in ta'anug hapashut itself, you have also two levels. You have ta'anug hapashut that expresses itself in something. You will soon see. And then there's a ta'anug hapashut, it cannot hold on into anything. There's nothing that can can grasp it. Vahainu lefi she hegiya ha'oineg be'etzem nafsha. It looks like there's nothing there, but really the oineg reached the core of his soul. This person had access to the essence. She'ein mebeged begiluy umshacha klal. And at the core of the soul there's no revelation. It's not in the realm of revelation and it's not in the realm of communication. Komunikatsia. Adiraba, hu oineg bechinat aliya ve'histalkut lemala davka. In that state, he's actually in a position where he's in aliya, up, and histalkut, departing higher and higher to the essence. Velachein ein lo shum tenu'a klal. So, this ta'anug hapashut, there's no movement. There's no tenu'a. There's literally no motion. There's no motion. It's not expressed itself in any motion. Not because there's no ta'anug. Because the ta'anug actually touched the deepest part of the soul which can't be revealed. It can't be communicated. Like we spoke before about a mashal and seichel that the mashal is the greatest tool for communicating the etzem because it conceals everything. So, it protects its integrity. Here to protect the integrity of this type of ta'anug, there can't be any tenu'a. Any tenu'a, any move, any motion, any expression is dumbing it down. It's It's It's the It's the It's It's the It's defiling it. It's It's It's soiling it. Soiling it. Le'yoser bechinat oir chozer be'atzmusa davka. Beged be'hechdel degiluy umshacha legamrei. This is oir chozer in its ultimate sense where the light doesn't go downward, it goes upward back to the essence. So, what's the function of light here? To defile itself. Get me out of revelation. All revelation is compromising my truth. The truth, go back. OIR CHOZER, GO BACK TO THE ATZMUS. That's ta'anug hapashut where there's no expression. Vachein besichel amuk be'yoser anelami kodaya. This is the mashal. Remember this is a mashal. Everything is a mashal for a mashal for a mashal. So, this is a mashal to understand what we said before. That there's a seichel anelami kodaya. There's a seichel that's concealed from any idea. She'ein mebeged begiluy mitzad atzma. Mitzad itself it's not beged begiluy. It's not beged revelation. Ela bechinat aliya ve'histalkut lemala le'hadar le'haster be'atzma davka. It's entirely in it's higher. Higher. Aliya, up up, ve'histalkut, to depart more and more and more because anything that's not departing, if it's going downward, if it's not departure, it's compromising its truth. It davka wants to go in le'hadar le'haster be'atzma davka and that's what what that and that's the inyan of seichel anelami kodaya and that's the makeif of oir chozer that comes through the meshulam and the hesteirim and that's this ta'anug hapashut. AND THAT'S WHAT HE SAID and we learned in THE PREVIOUS YEAR THAT THAT'S WHAT THE BAL SHEM TOV MEANT. THAT THE FATHER is looking to connect WITH THE TA'ANUG YOSER. HE SAID THAT'S NOT MORE TA'ANUG. It's He said THEN IT'S TA'ANUG HAPASHUT which we'll explain later. He said that earlier in seviv. What's this? This is what he was saying. THIS TA'ANUG HAPASHUT. THAT'S WHAT THE FATHER WAS LOOKING FOR. That's what he was That's what he's looking for. That's what the child is looking for. And when the magid says that the whole purpose is to connect everything through ta'anug all the way down to asiya, it's this ta'anug. So, this is where where it comes together. Now it's easy to say this is nothing we can't understand any of this. The Rebbi Rashab knew probably what he The Rebbi Rashab knew what he was talking about. The Rebbi knows what he was The Rebbi knew what he was talking about. Sure. But that would be failing the Bal Shem Tov and the magid and atzmus and everything. So, we may we have to sit with it. Yeah. We want to sit with it. Not we have to. Yeah. You're saying you can understand that you can't have oir chozer without oir yashar. Yeah, of course. You can't have it without it. Of course. And I remember something else just, you know, to add to the equation. You're talking here about ein sof. Ein sof is achdus. It's Hashem's ein sof. The oir itself is ein sof. So, when you say ein sof is lemala and kes lemata and tachlis, it's not like there's two sections. >> [laughter] >> It's from the east, you know. The 30 miles this way is lemala and kes. 30 miles that way is lemata and tachlis. They're both the same oir. It's all one. And it's ein sof. Ein sof means pure infinity, no definition. And yet we have these two names and he even says early yesh hefresh gadol beinayhem. There's a big difference between them. And this is finally where he comes at. What is this? This is a TA'ANUG HAPASHUT THAT'S NOT ONLY TA'ANUG HAPASHUT, it's a ta'anug that can't be expressed in anything and it's belishum tenu'a where there's no motion. I looked up the ma'amar of tafshin zayin. I wanted to learn it in the source. So, he says there language. He says, "When you look at this person at this ta'anug, you know what he looks like?" This is lashon. He says, "Ke'even doimem belishum tenu'a klal." He looks like a rock, a lifeless rock that doesn't move. That's this ta'anug. Huh? I'm telling you his lashon. Ke'even doimem. He says it's belishum tenu'a. In the ma'amar he He could do Rebbi Rashab the original ma'amar of hukas that he said at the chasana of his son. It's It's like he's an even doimem. In other words, it's takka belishum tenu'a. When you look at it and you don't know what's happening, it's actually looks lifeless. An even doimem doesn't look very ta'anug. I mean, I don't know. I don't know what the even is experiencing. Maybe we should learn more about rocks. When you're looking at an even doimem, you just see a stone. And that's what you're looking at. You would think it's the less least ta'anug in the world. So, he says, "No, that's the ta'anug that went into the etzem hanefesh and therefore it's not expressed." So, the lack of expression is not a lack of experience. The lack of expression is a lack of allowing anything to dilute even in the smallest way this frequency of ta'anug. Yeah. Silence in its deepest form. And that's even deeper than ta'anug hapashut. >> [snorts] >> And as he continues in the next the next the next paragraph, this is the answer that we're talking about. Because this is the answer that we keep on talking about. And this treasure is given and it's given to the soldiers because in a time of battle and conflict of such faithful consequences, without this treasure the king realizes that everything could be lost. So everything is at stake. And when everything is at stake, he takes the that not only was it not spent, it wasn't even shown. And that's why we keep on saying it's which means spiritually it wasn't ever shown. Not because I'm trying to hold secret, but because it can't be shown. It's beyond the way. And that's what comes out. And yet it comes out without losing its integrity because if it comes out with losing its integrity, it's not that. It remains even when when it comes out. Huh? Yeah. So I want to with God's grace try to at least share some I don't know if the word is understanding, but some experience. At least the way I understood parts of it. >> [snorts] >> The whole mind is about in the castle in the darkness. In the second sheet already we discussed at length what is and what's the condition of This whole mind you have to realize is one structure. It's one it's one one point that keeps you know, people get confused. They don't realize the everything every part in this mind is like a puzzle. But not just a puzzle, you know, you know, a puzzle that we make. It's an experiential puzzle where every word becomes part and indispensable to the whole of the mind and more and it negate what the person takes away from it. The the could of everything is always the could of We spoke what's or or is connection. That is or. I told you I think in the second or third year that one of the greatest challenges people have when they learn this is there's so many words and the words are so powerful. But they don't realize that the words are just they're code words. The words are important. They're the words. But they're code words. They're code words for for for deep experience and truth of reality. And because you're talking about such frequencies of reality that are not easy to talk about and certainly experience, so therefore the words are so meticulously chosen to be as accurate and authentic as possible to be able to talk about this, but never to get stuck in words cuz you get stuck in words, you have to really be able to every mind how do you know you know it? You could say the whole thing without using a single word of the mind. You understand? That's how that's how you you could say the whole thing without using the words cuz the words are real, but they're also traps cuz I can get away with words, right? There's a lot of classes a person sits down and he says and everybody is supposed to know what is so he never even bothers. There's a was a label of the street ski. So in the 1940s is a letter he wrote to the ever. The wasn't in the life of the and he tells the that we keep on learning about and I don't know what in the world they are. I think 1944 45 printed in his the so he writes to him you don't have to apologize. Okay, apologize. He says for cat usually the things that are always quoted almost nobody understands. So it's actually a very good opportunity. And he was a and he gives him a whole martial original martial that have to explain the full word that I see that I could I have to learn one day. You see this is the trap. The trap is when you're sitting with people who are supposed to know, you say everybody nods. What are you nodding? You visited you know what it looks like? What is it Hawaii? Where is it Antarctica with the penguins? I don't know my I was there yesterday. Oh, near Starbucks. I see you. Okay, I see you for sure. Yes, I see you, right? Yeah. I see shine I see shine. Why not? How can I according to the IT'S SOME OF COURSE it's some he consulted with me about the I was there. When did it some some happen? We once learning with Khan. So somebody was asking questions. So he says he says in year is the when the some in which century did some happen? Tell me, what do you think? Which century? The 14th, the 15th, the 16th the 9th century BCE, right? BCE before existed. >> [laughter] >> When did it some some happen? The some is happening now. So all these things I'm saying it because this is a very big trap. The words on one hand are the without the words we talk about so The chose these words. The chose these words, but we have to know that words as much as they can reveal like we're learning here the whole mind as much as they can reveal, they can much more conceal because they let me get away with everything. Even the word love forget about even the word love, right? Nobody knows what really what's love. Huh? Of course, of course, of course. And not use words to like words could be masks. I could stand behind them you know like I'm hiding behind it and I throw out words. And and it's frustrating because people they're so used to it. Yeah, you throw out another word, but there's no experience behind it. Like I don't deserve to say that word. Did you experience it? So talk about experience. Don't talk about the words. But words allow me to stand behind them and make believe that I'm experiencing it when I'm not. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU HAVE TO PAY A PRICE TO SAY WORDS. IT'S not the word comes with a price. You want to say it? Fine. But go What did the say? Go into the means a word, right? Go into the word. Don't throw words at me. Go into the word. Are you inside? Go in with your wife, with your children. Go into THE THEN TALK. HUH? YEAH, go in the when you and learning are you inside the word? Don't throw words at me. Tell me right give me you. So this is this is critical in all of this learning. It's critical because I I I I speak about this with passion cuz I struggled with this for years. As I grow up I learned this as you know, I grew up with this information. But there was so many words and words and words and I struggled with this. And sometimes when I would ask some of you know, my superiors or teachers or mentors it was so frustrating not to get a real answer about this and it wasn't their fault cuz they were also hiding behind words. So it's like it's normal. I get it. It's not it's not it's not a judgment, but it's it could be very very frustrating. And people need to be honest and vulnerable about it and the best thing to say is I know nothing I'm saying. I know nothing. Which is probably more true than anything else they're saying. Those are the only words they can stand by. I know really know nothing and that's fine. Okay, good. That's a good beginning. I love you know the with the river. Ah. >> [laughter] >> It's a deep story. The he was born in of. Huh? Stories very good. Very good. It's true. The stories People think stories are the whole mind stories are not entertainment. Some people use stories for entertainment. Stories capture things. That's what we're learning here, right? That other things can't capture. Yeah, this is an example. They call him of. is in Poland. Later he went to is in Poland. But he was in the city. He grew up there. He was a kid there you know, he was a a of. It's a holy holy Jew. Years later when he was already a great master, he went back to of. So the the Jews from the came out came out to greet him. And they offered him hospitality and you know, the most beautiful home. I mean relative to it was also but relative to it was a home. You know, probably had more than one bedroom. And I'm sure half a bed and the windows weren't broken. They offered him hospitality. So he said no, he wants to go to the who taught him his first you know, his first three when he was two three four years old the the first told him that's where he wants to stay. They said man he was a captain then he's a captain now. It's not a house to stay in. That's where he wants to stay. And he went to stay by him. >> [laughter] >> So they asked the why? You wanted it you wanted to say thank you. Go say thank you. We have to She said I'll be honest with them. He's the only one who taught me something that I know and it's true. I love after that it became so confusing. Once I went from to the next level, I don't know what's true, what's not true, what I understand, what I don't understand. THE ONLY GUY WHO TAUGHT ME >> [laughter] >> TRUTH AND I ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD IT WAS HIM. I LOVE YOU SO I WANT TO STAY BY HIM. [laughter] I STAY STILL. After that, he says everything is confusing. Once you start with ideas, schmayn ideas, this I don't know anything. Aleph Aleph Aleph Yeah. I once heard from the Rebbi bringing the same name of the Rebbi started to cry when he said it. He said that when you teach a child kamatz aleph ah He said das is the aleph the kamatz aleph das is a aleph It's not kamatz. They start kamatz aleph ah They were those who wanted to change the whole system of education. So, he said you teach kamatz aleph ah aleph kamatz aleph ah It's done by aleph. That's really what the Kotsker Rebbi was saying, right? What was he saying? He was saying the aleph bais. This famous story with the Alter Rebbi What is an aleph? What's an aleph? Okay. So, when we talk about right? >> [laughter] >> If we don't want to hide behind the words. We don't want to hide behind the words. The real inyan of the nekudah of and this is why for the Alter Rebbi this you know in Torah the Rebbi Rashab writes in the Kodesh the Rebbi Rashab writes in the inyan of Ohr. That's his lashon on the Alter Rebbi. The Rebbi Rashab inyan of Ohr. The Rebbi the Alter Rebbi was inyan of Ohr. Now, he wasn't inyan of Ohr. You have Ohr in before. The Rebbi inyan of Ohr means the nekudah of Ohr. The way he understood this was a of Alter Rebbi. When you say a Rebbi in this doesn't mean a Rebbi that he decided one day that's Ohr. It means he was megaleh. He was a channel to be megaleh this inyan in Ohr. Because this is based all on Torah of the Baal Shem Tov. What's the whole nekudah of Torah of the Baal Shem Tov? That you have to appreciate the taanug that at the core of everything there's a taanug which means not only a love but a bliss which is connection. Taanug If you say the father wants more taanug from whom? From the child. And the child wants more taanug from the father, that's connection. Ohr is the ultimate word in Chassidus and Kabbalah for connection. Because what's light? Right? Like we explained in the previous Very very fundamental. What is light? Light is basically the medium of communication. You could call it energy. You could call it energy. And that's even on a physical level. As I said, if the room was dark, we can all be here, but I don't see you. I don't mean only physically. I don't see you, right? Light allows me to see you. Allows you to see me. Allows us to see. What it means to see? To see not only what is inside of me which I can experience, but also to see something else outside of me. Ohr Ain Sofe means that the Ain Sofe wants to be in relation. I want to be seen. I want to be experienced. I want to be communicate I want TO COMMUNICATE MYSELF. IF THERE WAS NO OHR, Hashem could have made a world without Ohr. What would life be? Ohr everything is self-contained. There's etzem without Ohr. I am I and you are you and that's where it stops. I am I Take out the end. I am I Not even and you are you. RIGHT? THE WORD AND IS ALREADY OHR. >> [laughter] >> THE WORD and is Ohr, right? I am I and NO NO NO AND I AM I DONE. NEXT. YOU ARE YOU THAT YOU'RE GOING TO SAY. I'M NOT EVEN GOING to talk about you. I'm not even going to talk about you. Yeah, it's very good. Very good. This is very good. It's not I and I you are you. I am I AND THAT'S MY WORLD. YOU ARE YOU IT'S YOUR WORLD. Zog zog. Yeah. So, you're saying it's not taanug of narcissism. Why not? You asked me a good question. Isn't taanug THIS NOT I WANT PLEASURE FROM YOU. And I don't want to give you pleasure. >> [snorts] >> Right? Everybody knows one of the worst forms of abuse is when a person experiences themselves as an instrument of somebody else's pleasure. It's one of the most sinister diabolical Is that the word? forms of pain to inflict on another person. Why? Because it's not just I'm using you. It's more. Yeah. It's not just you don't exist. It's worse. Your existence You do exist, but you exist as what? As a tool. As a shmata. Not just for something I need to survive. For my pleasure. You understand the distance? You exist fully. Not only you exist. You're allowed to have pleasure. And me not only I don't exist. Not only do I exist to help you survive which is also not so nice, but at least I can get it. You don't want to survive. No. You have oxygen. You have food for you to have pleasure. So, you understand the distance. So, you exist in bliss and I don't even have the right to feel anything. You understand what this does to people? Just for the record, that's where the levels of disassociation and self-loathing and self-shame are beyond what anybody imagines. If you don't understand this, do not deal with healing. >> [laughter] >> Like people who make fun of this like they don't understand this and I'm not blaming them. Thank God they don't understand it. Unfortunately, I understand this pretty well and I know I know about this with people. So, this is a very serious thing. So, this asking a question. Does it This almost sounds like this. And when we do experience Judaism with this paradigm of abuse which many do, that's what it sounds like. Somebody once wrote me an email the Rebbi Rashab writes like that and because HE HAD A TAIVA, I'M SUFFERING MY WHOLE LIFE. NOT BAD. YOU HEAR? It's not that he needed it. No, he had a taiva. YEAH, YOU WANT POTATO CHIPS. YOU HAVE A taiva for ice cream. He has a taiva for cheese cake. He has a taiva for a new phone AND BECAUSE OF THAT THE WHOLE WORLD HAS TO BE IN GAN EDEN. >> [clears throat] >> SO, I COULD say it's kashas, but that's not going to help anybody. It's a It's a serious issue. This is an emotional issue. It's a Yeah. I got a letter like this. Actually, more than once. And it makes sense. The word the word right? At least use another word. A girl once wrote to me. She said, "I'm not in construction business. I'm not interested in building a house. I'm not in interested in construction. If he's such a big God, let him find his own carpenters. Let him build his own house himself. I'm not in the construction department to build his home. Right? >> [panting] >> And I had to explain to her that the She is the house. She is She is what he's looking for. >> [laughter] >> You're building a house somewhere. You build a house and that's the and I'm the one who's building it. You're You're the That's what he's looking He's That's what he's crazy about. Just wants to move into your heart. But people are not happy. So, you're asking a question. So, all of all of this will become clear So, if is that connection, and that's why is the most spiritual entity in the world because it's a metaphor. It's the physical metaphor for the for the connection. Connection. is the relation what we call the relational field. That's what it is. Not the etzem but the relation. And that's what we see physically also, right? allows me to see you. And I think you said it, right? At one of the lessons. The real quality of is battle. Meaning, doesn't say, "Look at me. How beautiful my light is." always says, "Wow, look at this window. Look at this person. Look at this home. Look at the ocean. Look at the sun." EVEN THOUGH IT'S THE LIGHT THAT I'M SEEING. I'm not seeing the sun. NOBODY SEES THE SUN. >> [laughter] >> NOBODY sees the sun. NOBODY SEES THE OCEAN. We see the light. You can't even see the ocean. You can't even see any person. You only see the light. But the light is so subtle. What does the light say? Oh no no no you're not seeing me. You're seeing him. That's not really true. But it is true because that's what is. doesn't take credit. whole inyan is what? Channel. The ultimate mailman. The ultimate communicator. The ultimate You know, the matchmaker. The one who's invisible. Like a should be. Doesn't come after the and say, "By the way, I you know, I'm the guy in the middle. I'm coming to live with you. I need a place to live." You know, those people. The is the but invisible. Literally invisible. So, is not that the comes from Ain Sofe. The itself is Ain Sofe. What's the The itself is Ain Sofe. So, you remember. is revelation. What's revelation? reveals. allows me to see you. But what about that which I can't see? So, says, "It's above my pay grade. I can't do this. I can only show you what you can see." We all understand with light I can only see certain dimensions of reality. Certain things that are inaccessible. Either cuz I don't have the for it. This colors that I don't see. Or because maybe it's something that's beyond being revealed. Even if I have amazing for it. So, by definition only transports that which can be transported. It's a messaging system. It's a transportation system of that which could be communicated. How can you call Ain Sofe? The from Ain Sofe. The itself is not Ain Sofe. The has a source. Comes the Alter Rebbi and his inyan of that means that the battle of oil. It channels not only that which is accessible, it's also that which is inaccessible. In other words, in the lotion of this again, I'm I'm using words >> [laughter] >> with the trap of words is Migola not only that dimension of which lends itself to his because I shall lend himself also to his just like I shall have the lower higher he has the capacity to be concealed. He has the capacity to be revealed. So it doesn't only channel the frequency of and most >> [snorts] >> but the bitter of that is entire is what I am nothing but a channel for the mayor. So channels that which can't be channeled. channels the elements so I'm using words element the element of most that's beyond it. The essence of which is not why is it not BECAUSE IT'S NOT BECAUSE IT HAS NO DEFINITION. WHEN I SAY HE'S NOT REALLY I DON'T mean he's stuck not he's not because nothing could define him not not him. You can't say he is, you can't say he's not. You can't say he's fine and you can't say he's infinite. You can't even say he is. Even the word isness is already our definition of and that's not and so it means infinite not only in space and time but infinite in definition no description. And I CHANNELS THAT TOO. IN SIMPLE ENGLISH TO QUOTE TO quote you see that's what I like what said that she wasn't wasn't hiding behind in simple English is all in. I'm not in with a part of me that I want you to appreciate which is also not a bad thing by the way. All in means all in. But it's not all in an investment you know all the money in my bank. All in here means at most. So we have to we have to appreciate what those words mean. That's what is giving. That's what I'm giving to you. In the lotion of the minor not only but also than cats. The element of that channels the the of a shot. How does that come out? A how does that come out? That comes out in every moment of revelation. From the from the how does it come out? It comes out in every experience of comes out this and most. ALL THE WAY DOWN TO THE LOWEST LEVELS. Wherever you have a moment of life we have clarity where you have connection where you open up where you feel and flow. What just happened? That is in in your in your experience. It can happen in this in in can happen in him. But that's a moment of him. What's in cats that comes out in it? So it's not that that's not in it. That's also in it. But how does that come out? That doesn't come out. In that comes out where? In the concealment. Yeah, it doesn't come out. What Those are the moments I feel I'm alone. I'm abandoned. I feel broken. I was as we said thrown off a cliff. So it's not you were abandoned. You're gone. You're finished. Now it's like in the muscle, right? What were you given? You were given something that is beyond it. If you come to the muscle of the what's the muscle of the of? The muscle of the is that the child was separated from the father. Why? Because he wants more what's that more a whole different type of for that he had to go into to a to the distance. And that's why the title comes into physical stories because that's like the person who dresses up in a different garment and speaks a different language to connect to the child. So now what does that mean in a person's life? There's the way the and the golf are reflecting God. In other words, the matter they're near the father. Even if they're far but they're still related and then there's the child who loses all connection. What does that mean? You're disconnected. Every time you feel disconnected, you're feeling in simple English depressed, despondent, lazy, blah, disconnected. That's the soul left separated. It's alone in the world trying to figure things out. That's a classic example of him Simpson. There's concealment. There's no flow. There's no communication. Yeah, that's the whole unit of and that's what separateness is. That's the separateness. I'm on my own. I have to deal with my own ego my own insecurity. Comes about and says all of this is kind OF SIR. WHAT'S KIND OF SIR? So the says not more pleasure. For that I didn't have to go through all OF THESE PAIN. DIFFERENT TYPE OF WHAT'S THE DIFFERENT TYPE OF OF? THE MATTER THAN CATS kind of a portion. So now what does this mean in it? What does this mean in it? I want to try to make this but kids are just to get here through the could. I'm going to ask you a question so deep question that people have to ask themselves. What do you think you could give most to somebody you love? What what can we give most to somebody we love? It's not I'm not trying to ask on paper. So you'll say connection love, validation, appreciation of course shelter, protection, right? All that. You keep Huh? Oh, myself. What does that look like? I can't pull out my heart and give it to them because I'll be dead. I can't pull out my brain. So what does that look like? You said to give myself. Beautiful. Not my money. Obviously if you give yourself you'll probably give some money. You'll give protection. You'll give shelter. You'll give you'll give love. You'll give kindness etc. You'll give your resources. But yourself, right? What do they say? Don't invest in the eggs. Invest in the chicken. Don't just give your loved one the eggs. Give them the chicken. What does that look like? What does it mean to give myself? So in lotion of that's kind of that's what kind of means. What you can give to somebody more than anything else is your bliss. Your bliss and there's nothing that replaces that. And it's the hardest thing to give. >> [snorts] >> It's the hardest thing to give. In fact, I would argue that many of us deep down know that we don't know how to give that. So therefore we compensate with another hundred thousand things to give outside of our of. What does it mean to give my bliss? It's in a very little way. If you're sitting with your spouse, you're sitting with your wife, you're sitting with your husband, you're sitting with your child, you're sitting with somebody very very close to you. I can give them kindness. I could say nice things. Right? I could smile. I could give a compliment. I can give them money. I can give them ideas. We can have a beautiful I don't mean fake a real meaningful conversation. A meaningful conversation where you're actually sharing perspectives and we all know that's how people connect. You talk about life. You talk about challenge. You talk about interest. You talk about priorities. You talk about ideas. You talk about meaningful ideas. You talk about and I. You learn with your wife Tanya. It's a very deep form of connection. Right? It's called what do they call it? DMC deep meaningful conversations. That's what the teenagers call it. DMC. Not to confuse with DMV the Department of Motor Vehicles where you don't want to have DMC. You just want to go in and out as fast as possible cuz So that's all good. We could connect even deeper. We could connect with singing a You connect with singing a everybody knows. You could connect with food. That's the quintessential Hungarian and Russian Polish Jewish way of connecting. S S S S S S S In fact, in many Jewish cultures where they couldn't deal with emotions, food was the substitute for love. They fed you till you couldn't breathe and that meant [snorts] they love you till you can't breathe. It wasn't what you needed but it was their way of saying I love you. I starved as a child. You will never starve. I will make sure you go out of my house choking to death and with stomach digestive problems for 2 weeks because you just ate the meal of nine people that was supposed to eat it over 9 weeks in one sitting because I love you. S mine kid S S S S a beautiful way of compensating. Right? And the truth is feeding somebody is love. It's a beautiful there's five languages of love. They all talk about five languages of love. Right? All these languages of love. But there's something that people want more than anything else. And you know what that is. That's your of. Your of means if I'm sitting with somebody if I'm sitting with my wife if I'm sitting with my child or you're sitting with your loved one and what they feel from you is that you're actually experiencing bliss from this connection. And that's why you see it's not so easy. If I give you food, I give you money, I'll play a game with you. Playing a game is a schmuck. But the game will only be as good schmuck as your time is, right? That's what means giving your answer. What do you What What are you giving? That's what That's what self means. I can't cut off my hand and give it to you. That does not going to do anything for anybody. It's not what you want. It's not what I want. It's not the same connection. People sometimes think that's love. You cut off parts of yourself and you give it away. Yeah. Here, go you narcissist. Just take it. Time is not giving away yourself. It's sharing yourself. Sharing yourself. How do I share myself? What does that look like? I'll sit with you for an hour and look at you. Okay. It's nice if I'm not on my phone. We'll go to Costco. Fine. We'll go on vacation. Beautiful. It's a good weather to go on vacation. Run as fast as you can from New York. All good. But it will only be as powerful as the time that's there. If you're taking me on vacation to get rid of me. So you I shouldn't say that's nothing. But even if you're doing these things in a nice way but with the time is not there, the self is not there. The time is the deepest frequency of self. That's the bliss. And when the child or the spouse or the friend feels that, it's irreplaceable. Yeah. That's where they're truly seen. Because we're not giving them something. You're giving them you. What do you mean? Where did I give you you? You're in bliss from this relationship. What does that mean? That means that you touch me. That means that your presence touches me. I'm not just giving you something of me. I'm giving you me. Because time is rooted in the core of the soul. Everything else is a faculty of the soul. Time says in this is a market connected to a fish. It's what the soul is internally. The bliss of the soul. It's even deeper than desire. Desire is I want. I'm gravitating to something. I want. Time is We will soon a second. Time is I am. This is the soul in itself experiencing bliss. It's not even gravitating to something. Time is the soul in its own sacred self is called time. Now This time I'm working with time a portion. Time I'm working with is like all pleasures in the world. There's so many pleasures in the world cuz God put Why is there pleasure? There's almost pleasure almost in everything. There's pleasure in eating an orange. If you clear If you eat an orange slowly, especially if you didn't eat the whole day or you came from an interesting journey and you eat an orange or even one grape. We usually don't do it cuz we just eat it fast and you take one grape and you see what's in that grape. There's a lot of time in the grape. We just eat one grape and then we need another 20 grapes and we don't even notice. But that's not how you're supposed to eat. You eat a cucumber. Eat lettuce. Eat a tomato. Whatever you're eating, a banana. There's a miracle there and there's a pleasure there. You know that writes in a moment in time portions of that the pleasure of the taste of food comes before digestion. Digestion is the pragmatic part of food. But God made to give God wants to have pleasure in the food cuz that's the time that he put into the food as part of the connection. I don't just want you to eat a grape so that you have nutrients. I want you to eat a grape so that you feel MY LOVE. THAT'S WHY IT TASTES GOOD. Why Why from an evolutionary perspective every fruit and vegetable and piece of wood has a different flavor cuz it's a different form of time of a relationship. I want to share something with you. I want to share something with you. So when we eat coffee beans, it is a time. I want to share my love with you. How? Here's a little flavor of that This is but this is God's time. This is his way of saying He did We We take everything for granted cuz we live in a crazy atheistic world. We don't understand that it's all about relationships. But why are you taking it for granted? You went to a tree. You took off a fruit. What happened there? You know how many billions of forces of nature came together to create this banana, this tomato? Why are you taking it for granted? I shall invested his ingenious creativity in putting it together. Why? With a special flavor. Why? So that you should feel my presence. It's all the rights. Before digestion comes the which is the relationship. And everything in the world has time. What about music? Music. What's music? This A person hears a song, plays a song, composes a song and their heart opens. It touches the time in the cuz music has time. Say has time. Ideas. You learn something. Wow. Special. Love has time. Vision. You look at a You look at a sunrise, a sunset, an ocean, nature, a landscape, a beautiful body, a beautiful structure. Wow. You hear something. You hear a beautiful voice. This time Everything in the world has time. Different frequencies of time. By the way, kishka and babka also have time. But that's much more short-lived and it touches a much more base level of time. There's deeper deeper deeper. That's all time I'm working with. It's time. How do you experience time? Through the orange. Through the conversation. Through the music. Through the learning. Through the learning. Right? Through the love. Through the vacation. Through the experience of I would the art. Visual. Or or audio ears or even you smell something. Ah. Wow. A good tobacco. It's also time. IT'S ALL GOD communicating his bliss. Didn't come from nowhere. Where Where Where did it come from? Was it It WAS IT WAS CREATED. IT was created to share something. This is all time I'm working with. Then there is time a portion. What time a portion? Time a portion means it comes from somewhere. If there's music, if there's pleasure in music and pleasure in ideas and pleasure in in in symmetry and pleasure in art and pleasure in every good in the world and food and in time. There's also pleasure in emotions. It came from somewhere. It came from the source. And how do you know the source is pleasure? Because if everywhere If I have pleasure and I want pleasure and you have pleasure and you want And there's pleasure the source must have infinite pleasure. Time a portion is touching the source of it. Like the central command, the central nervous system. You know, there's so many nerves. You go to the vagus nerve. You go like to the central command. The source of that's called time a portion. It's not a time connected to anything happening. It's a moment you can experience the frequency of the divine itself. That's time. Not through the world. Not through a medium. Time I'm working with is through a medium and there's endless mediums and IT'S ALL FROM TIME A PORTION IS YOU'RE TOUCHING THE FREQUENCY of time itself. It's not so easy to get here because we have so many bad edges and so many struggles and so much darkness. We don't even know we have it. Me, I'm just I'm dark and depressed. But everybody has it cuz your soul is such an antenna of life. And since the source of everything is time because the time originates in himself. And what is God in his essence? So we have no definition and no description. But we know that a major part of it is bliss. Time and that's at the That's the back end code of all creation. That time. That what? My time is in you. And I want to share that time with you. So now when you ask a question is time narcissistic, there's two types of time. There's the time with an agenda. I want to use you. But that's not real time. That's coming from my own trauma. Which thinks that my greatest pleasure in the world will come from using you cuz I don't even know myself. I don't know who I am. In real time, the real frequency of time is the opposite. The bliss is so infinite and it's so deep. And the bliss is in the relationship with you. In the relationship and the connection with you. Not to use you. Not to manipulate you. Not even to get anything back from you. But just that connection is the deepest bliss. So the whole idea of is that his deepest time is you. That's the deepest time. You. That's the time. God says I'm infinite. But you know where I want to spend my time? IN YOUR HEART. My heart is nothing really EXCITING THERE. THAT'S WHAT I WANT. THAT'S I YOU'RE THE HOME. I DON'T NEED YOU TO BUILD another home. You're the house. You're the That's the time that I want. And this is the back end code of every Everything comes from here. And it begins with life. So the experience of a person's time is The deepest time is when you could touch God's time in you. That is the deepest time. That is the place where you connect in the deepest place. That's the That's the light. The opposite of narcissism in the highest extreme. Yeah. Huh? And it's really surrendering everything because the person is just You You learn that your essence is the tinok. Which essence? The essence that doesn't need any form of presentation or validation or any masks. Huh? It's not There's no transactions. It's not transactional. Yeah. Now, here in tinok of pashut, here we come to the last nakuda. There's two nakudas. This tinok of pashut that's not murkav. But it comes out that every Rashab says it comes out in a person dancing. I don't know if you ever experienced this, but if you dance uninhibitedly when a person is feeling a deep tinok, they lose control, and it's the best feeling in the world. It's like when you people start dancing and there's no self-consciousness. Very often when we dance, you know, you're looking, am I am I normal? Am I crazy? But when you talk because that's all tinok that's still measured and there's a little ego involved. Huh? And that's that's gehenna. And that's gehenna. Yeah. But even when a person is experiencing tinok there's a self-communicating there. So it's tinok of murkav. In tinok of pashut it expresses itself without any inhibitions. So the person, like it says by David, David mefazeze mekarche mechol ois lifnei Hashem, and his wife said, "You're embarrassing me." And David Hamelach said, "I would have danced even more. It was in front of the Aron." That uninhibited self-con- There was no self-consciousness there. Touches a deeper place of tinok. Where there's so much internal bliss, it's just you're celebrating life itself and the relationship itself beyond any expression and manifestation, and therefore it just comes out in an uninhibited way. This is all gilui of tinok. Lematah den tachlis. And then there is makif of Or Choizer. Az oi. And here is This is it. When the Ohr is real Ohr, what does it know? It knows that the truth is that Atzmus is not bigated Ohr. So if Ohr is a real channel there's a message encoded in the Ohr that says my very identity as a channel is undermining everything. So I want to just go back to the source. To the point that I should be completely invisible. That's what the Ohr says. Even though the whole inyan of Ohr is to channel Ein Sof, I understand this cuz this is the secret of life. Even though the whole inyan of Ohr is to channel Ein Sof, that's true. But because Ohr is a real channel so Ohr in its very nature has a a paradoxical message. On one hand, I'm here to channel Ein Sof. But what does it mean to channel Ein Sof? To tell you that Ein Od Milvado Mamash. So there's no channel. So if I'm really doing my job, you know what I am? I don't exist. I'm I'm right back in my essence. And that's what Ohr says. So in the deepest place of Ohr it's channeling the essence mamash, and therefore it undermines itself in a beautiful way where it says, "All you want is go back to the source and don't come out. Go back to the source and be subsumed in THE SOURCE WITHOUT ANY LIGHT." AND THAT'S PART OF OHR. CUZ IT'S EMES. EXACTLY. It's emes. And if I don't know this, if if if if This this is the Ohr is cuz Ohr is kulai emes. Ohr does no compromises in Ohr. It's not telling you 50%. Telling you the whole truth. So in the whole truth, EIN OD MILVADO MAMASH. ATZMUS HAS NO DEFINITIONS. SO IT GIVES YOU EVERYTHING. IN other words, Atzmus wanted to give you everything, not just Ohr. He wanted to give YOU HIMSELF, AND IN THE REAL SELF THERE'S NO DEFINITION. Everything is subsumed in infinite oneness without a definition and a description. SO IN OHR ITSELF YOU FEEL THAT. NOW, SINCE EVERYTHING in the world is Ohr, everything is communicating God. So whenever you go to the deepest core of anything it's going to defy revelation. And that's why in the deepest place of seichel it's ne'elam mikol rayen. The deepest play- LOGIC IS ALSO OHR. Everything is Ohr. Everything is God communicating. The question is which frequency? So logic is also God communicating. But since in Ohr there's lema'alah den katz, Atzmus, so in every nakuda in the world that when YOU GET TO THE CORE OF IT, IT'S GOING TO TELL YOU, "I DON'T EXIST." AND IF YOU WANT TO HAVE ME, TAKE ME BACK ALL THE WAY TO THE SOURCE WHERE I DON'T EXIST cuz there's nothing outside of him. So in seichel, what is it going to do? It's going to become ne'elam mikol rayen. It's deeper and deeper and DEEPER AND DEEPER UNTIL IT DISINTEGRATES IN YOUR HANDS cuz that's the emes of seichel. In tinok also. IN THE DEEPEST FORM of tinok, it's going to be so deep that the tinok IS GOING TO SAY THERE'S NO WORDS for the bliss, not even dancing. So what, yeah? You're like a stone. Why are you like a stone? So it could be there's even people who experience a little bit of this, but there's a moment of tinok at least in the human language and I think it's touching on this where you are so subsumed experientially in the source that you can't even you know that if you express it in any way, you're going out of it. The only way to be there is not to acknowledge that you're there. To even think about that you're there takes you out of it. So what does it look like? It looks like you're a stone. You're lifeless. Why? Cuz you choizer latzmusai. Any tnu'a if I go like this if I go like this, if I go like this, beautiful. But in that space of tinok I just ruined the whole thing. Cuz if it's the choizer latzmusai lema'alah lema'alah den katz, there's no katz to how concealed it can be. Just like revealed, ein katz deep enough. Any expression is already not that tinok cuz that tinok is complete fusion. Fusion with what? With Atzmus. So how does it How does a person experience it? Without mamash death. I don't mean physical death, death of ego, death of spirit, death of everything. And the answer is there's no tnu'a. That's what he says, "Bli shum tnu'a." So So what, are you dead? No, you're alive. That's what That's what it looks like in Atzmus. Experientially, what that is a moment where you so experience the fusion between your soul and the divine source that the bliss is so overwhelming that the person is just like glued and subsumed in the source and everything is open. You're a channel for infinity. But you can't even process it in any way. You can't think about it. You can't articulate it. You don't even want to say, "Wow, this is amazing." The words "Wow, this is amazing" takes you out of it. So what, yeah? And the answer is it it it it it's it's an achdus. It is. Now, we we don't live in that place forever cuz dirah betachtoinim. We're usually thrown right back. Okay, wake up. You know, somebody got to pay the bills here. So that's where we come back to the Baal Shem Tov's idea that the the child is thrown away, but in the merhachim that's where this tinok is nigala. That's the whole vort of the Baal Shem Tov. We Hashem wanted to give us this tinok. This tinok you only get in the distance. Why? Because in the distance there's no gilui. So what connects us? You remember like the mashal em. The mashal em is in the world of seichel, but in the world of tinok it's even more powerful. The world of mashal, the reason the mashal captures this is because it conceals everything. Only in a place where there's complete concealment can the tinok of pashut actually experientially emerge in you because it can't emerge as a revealed reality. It must emerge as a secret, and the secret is inside of you, and it's in your essence. And that's what gives the child the connection when he's distant. When the child is disconnected, what connects him? And the answer is what connects him is not connection. What connects him is essence. What connects you on that level is your core core core core. And what's in that core? And that core is his core. And that's what you find. At that moment you find his core. Where? Not in any flow, in your core. And could you describe it? I can't describe it. That's why it couldn't be communicated. This is something that's indescribable. But this is the deepest essence. That's the makif of Or Choizer. That's the tinok of pashut where there's no tnu'a. That's what the Baal Shem Tov meant, tinok yosef tinok. >> [snorts] >> If I go through all my layers, all my blockages, blockage, blockage, blockage, blockage, blockage. The pain. You see, we create a life as far as possible from tinok. Because that's what the distance looks like. We create a life as far as possible. We create a life of survival. Deep deep down, we have to admit this, deep deep down for many of us if you will tell them that the core of all life is your blissful experience of God and God's blissful experience with you. They're like, "Which world are you living in? What drugs are you taking? Leave me alone. You're a meshuggener." I don't know I told you once that the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker after the Maggid passed away, the Alter Rebbe went to the Mendel of the Pri Orach. He was a talmid of his. So it was once Rosh Hashanah he went to be by him. And the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker came home and they started the seder Rosh Hashanah. They wanted to make kiddush. Alter Rebbe is not there. So the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker didn't want to start the meal uh without the Alter Rebbe. So he sent a few of his talmidim to go to shul and see what's happening. Maybe he you know, maybe he needs an escort, whatever it is. They come back and they say, "He's davening noch. He's still davening." He waits longer and he sends other shluchim and Alter Rebbe used to daven on Rosh Hashanah at night very, very long for hours. There's a special niggun he had for dveikus Rosh Hashanah. It's called niggun dveikus Rosh Hashanah. In any case, he wasn't coming. He sent more and it was getting late. So what did he decide? He's going to go himself. He's not going to send any talmidim. So the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker went himself to the shul to see. And he sees Alter Rebbe davening. He comes back. The story was recorded so it was remembered. And he turns to everybody. He did not disturb him. He went back and he said, "We're starting the meal without him." So he said, "Well, what's happening?" So he said these words. He said, "A freybt zich mit dem Meibershtn un der Rebbe sich freybt zich mit dem." And I'm not going to be the And so to speak, I'm not going to be the one to disturb that. In other words, he's now tapping into everything. So now I'm going to schlepp into a meal so we can have a Rosh Hashanah meal. >> [laughter] >> I'm just explaining it in my own words. You understand? What was that? That's this That's the ta'anug. A freybt zich mit dem Meibershtn un der Rebbe sich freybt zich mit So you say, "So we could have stayed up there un zich frey mit Meibershtn." Says the Baal Shem Tov, "No. Ta'anug yoyser." There's the ta'anug that comes with derech giluy or yerusha, makif of yerusha, le matah din tachlis. That's the way the ohr is communicating God's revelation with neshama feeling close. That's Gan Eden and zeiva shechina, the higher world. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. Pre-tzimtzum, after-tzimtzum, depends where, but it's all giluy. Then comes aninyan. Atzmus takes the neshama, throws it out completely. So it goes through the lowest concealments. So the Baal Shem Tov says, "What's this about? Stam, so now we're going to make a game with torture and everybody's going to be tortured?" And they're going to figure it out and then after many years, okay, they're going to find some hope in life. Like it's it's it could be it could seem very sadistic, like very, very, very hard, very harsh. And the truth is we don't have answers to everything. This is not a place of answers. What's the Baal Shem Tov being megaleh here? The Baal Shem Tov is being megaleh here that there comes a moment where you lose everything. You literally lose everything. And those of you who are more sensitive, like everybody sitting here, that's why you're probably still sitting here. Those who are more sensitive feel it much more because they're more sensitive. The only word The only thing that's worse than being thrown off a cliff is being thrown off a cliff and saying, you know, it was just a joke or it wasn't really a cliff. Huh? In other words, you recreate from your trauma, you recreate redemption. You make your galus into geulah. You make your abandonment workable. And the And God And if you have more distractions, you can get away with it. Today I have a new phone. Tomorrow I get a new watch. The next day I get a new car. The next day I buy a new house. The next day I go there to sell for 3 weeks. Next day I go to Florida for a month. Baruch Hashem, you have your ta'anugim. >> [laughter] >> All to avoid facing the real pain of the world, the real pain of loneliness. So we forget. Everybody should have all the ta'anug in the world. Much better than the other way, right? But a person needs to understand the emes. So there's one thing you can only discover in distance. Only one thing. If you're looking for giluyim, then go back. IT'S MUCH BETTER. THAT WAS NOT Bnei Yisrael's mistake. That was the meraglim's mistake. They weren't stupid people. The meraglim were high neshamas. Alter Rebbe says neshamas gvoyis me'od. They weren't stam. They [snorts] said, "This is very nice, but we want the midbar. The midbar is the place to be. You're in a cocoon of divinity. You're in Gan Eden." But what's the emes? The emes is is one thing that happens in the distance. One thing that remains connected. What remains connected? There was no connection anymore. You were completely detached. The one thing that could be communicated only through detachment. It's not through flow, not through revelation. What is that? The atzmus. The whole moshel of a moshel is that. You're giving a moshel. The moshel is didn't give me anything. The moshel I'm just an entertainer. There's nothing here, but you gave everything. In that disconnect, what did I give you? I didn't give you connection and ohr and light and revelation. But there's one thing. What is that? The essence itself that you have. That you have. When you discover that, that's the ta'anug. And in that ta'anug, everything is worth it because it's the core of the whole Ein Sof that you have a relationship with in your deepest essence. Be'ezras Hashem, I hope to finish the ma'amar tomorrow morning 8:00. Huh? >> [applause] >> So he asked, "It's not big at the giluy. It was It's why are you calling it giluy?" That's the whole revolution. His This question that's Ohr Ohr says, "I don't exist." THAT'S THE ULTIMATE MESSAGE of ohr. THERE'S THE MESSAGE OF OHR IS LIGHT. LIGHT. LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, I'm revealing light. Not I'm revealing light, but the light is being revealed through me. Not me, but through me. And then there's the deeper element of ohr. What does ohr say? Ohr says, "You know what? You don't really need me." You really don't need me. I'm just a little part of the equation. There's much deeper. There's the atzmus which is the source of ohr. Reb Avraham Shmuel Taub says, which level of ta'anug? Yeah. It's a state of mind that if you acknowledge it, you literally ruin it. If you want to hold on to it. If you want to like grab it. If you want to write about it. If you want to talk about it. If you even want to feel it. What's wrong? I want to feel it. You just ruined everything. Not your fault. It doesn't lend itself to be felt. It doesn't lend itself to experience. It's a paradox at the core of reality. Huh? You get out of flow, yeah. You disconnect, yeah. You swap it for something that feels good for a second and you just lost it. This can only be experienced through non-experiential dveikus. So you don't. I can't It's not f- It's not fake. No. Not fake at all. It's the It's the ultimate truth. It's not fake at all. You know you touch it. It's not It's It's not replaceable. So the vort is that atzmus, which is not defined, sends you out of it. That's the That he sends you out of it. He says, "Now go into the world of experience. Go into the world of tachtaynim." And in that space, and the way it comes out is it'll be like high distance, but it's rooted in that space. And that's what gives you the koach to go in to go out of it, to go into the merchak. Because then the merchak and in the distance, you're not revealing ohr, you're embodying ohr. You don't become a revelation, you become an embodiment. As I said in the other shiur, you don't connect to source, you are the source. You are the source. Here is where it is. Well, me? Yeah. But it's in the most humble, humble way. There's no ego here. There can't There's no ego. Already in ohr there's no ego. And here the ego is like shattered on steroids. You are the source. That's the only thing in the ultimate distance. What do I have left? I'm not in flow. There's nothing coming down. The light has not been The light has been interrupted. So what's here? You don't have a ohr. You don't have giluyim. But the atzmus came in. Not came in. Atzmus is here. Oh, that the child That the child has. Can we say that