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Basi Legani 5726 #8: What Can You Give Your Loved Ones? Your Self & Bliss; That's What Creation Is
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I mentioned to you that in my mind of
Lagani also Shoshana twice a year and
that was my mind
he would build the mind from all of the
rabiem
of Chabad and from the time to market
only Shoshana and
Shoshana is Shoshana of the year
and was the day
of the yard set of the
assumed
leadership
so Lagani has from every and he would
build it that way other my mind
every mind was usually based on a
previous mind that was said either from
the altar or another but but Lagani the
mind is constructed its building blocks
is a piece from the
and the market and the altar but it's
not stand I find a piece here a piece
there and put it together the mind is
built
from
a teaching a mind of perspective and
insight of each one of the men
and it's not in the order because it's
based on the theme of the mind like he
went through all the he didn't discuss
the show yet that's going to be the last
the last section
that's going to be the section now
he started off with a the altar
what inside the whole union of earth
the middle and to have a love of husband
some
how rotten impacts the person market
back to look at the Torah and the
about Shaka
and the Sears
and the Maharash about the different
market with ocean and bias
and then the last year we explored the
time to market
so obviously the
it's
all based on him it's all based on the
Lagani but the
is going to be the next piece about what
different levels of
and the deepest
which brings
the whole mind together and then in the
last chapter that I be summarizes what
the treasure is and how it's relevant to
us
but now is the last section where he
goes into the beer the explanation of
the theme of this mind but but here it
goes to the world of book
if you noticed
the mind is structured so meticulously
people
took the 38 minutes to say wasn't a
wasn't 9
it was 38 minutes but it was those 38
minutes we have a recording of it on
audio
so
it goes through it's
structured meticulously meticulously
also
I'm
later they printed they found from the
transcript for himself Russia come
they have it in the beginning of the
countries not
but other places they printed it again
where before the for himself he wrote a
summary of the whole so you see a kisser
of the whole thing not explained just
literally point by point
I don't know I'm not sure
probably when he prepared I'm not sure
maybe it was in the city I don't know
Lagani the Lagani is my mind I think
most of them come out more I don't know
if all of them but most of them that
they saw you and they printed them they
print them today if you look in this
country
they have it's very uh
they this is my mind that I own yard
that
when he said the mind made it didn't
have access to this is on you see page
base
and literally it's this whole structure
of the mind and and it's interesting
sometimes there's a few little things
that he did never said
or things that he said that are not here
but usually it's more or less he
followed this uh
this pattern
you know what it's it's good I told you
cuz it gives a summary of everything
let's let's learn it
crossed off means that in the he crossed
it off so they put it in so just people
should see what he was thinking
for example one of the things crossed
off here is I have a
guess all of base and as he was thinking
of another of the market besides the one
that he did he wanted to do another one
and then he decided not to
for whatever reason so he crossed it out
so they put it in because it's you know
that itself is valuable
so you see that I literally
so if you were just read this without
hearing the mind would be almost
impossible it's it's not just it's not
that brief summation it's just pointers
for him himself to know like once you
have the mind every word here is
huh yeah yeah
okay at the end we'll go through it okay
so we're now up to
up to Zion
the series of Lagani is dedicated with
graciousness
in honor of about him
good Nick Ben Mordecai and him good Nick
is a love her
to smash him and him and him and it's
also dedicated by Ezra David Philip in
honor of the is
the world over and dedicated for a
complete and speedy recovery for
Benjamin
and David bear Ben Esther her for a
complete and speedy recovery and him for
Shannon Thomas amen thank you
so
now goes to the next step if Zion I'll
take a mind her
this chapter is a very very deep every
chapter is very deep
so this could be very abstract so we'll
try base him
some of us to be able to be a channel to
be able to bring it down integrate it
so he says he now
my mind I love being a man
what we explained earlier in the mind
they represent the two aspects that safe
goes up infinitely and down infinitely
which the matter
this theme is also in the mind of
him and him and him
this is a mind of the
the fifth
the father of the
and he said this at the
of his son
the got married you all
of them Zion
that would be 1797
at the mind at the and the brothers
I'm sorry 18 1897
the Zion is 1897 right
you all
before Shoshana
so during that and
the said my mind
and two very big long my mind
one is known as
and one is him you all of them Zion
this is the mind of him and him
that the
said
as you could see in the footnote Zion
you all of them
him
was published in him and him actually
published it because it was the wedding
then of the
his grandson
who later became famous with the whole
court case of the books he got married
that's why it's him and him
so in honor of his wedding
the published this mind from his
grandfather
from his great grandfather from the his
great grandfather at his grandfather's
wedding him and him it's just the
history of when the mind came out that's
why it's him and him
wasn't stand 1953 stand today it's
printed in him and him and him and him
where all the mind of that year are
printed
so this mind uh the
says my is base my market market him
there's something called in market
something called market of market of him
which he mentioned earlier in the mind
and the point is market of him
is him
we generally have something called
and him
we learned earlier that
means direct light which literally means
it's in flow
from the source of the light it's
communicated to the recipient of the
light that's called him
somebody is communicating
you have a couple
you have a mentor you have a student you
have a parent you have a child
you have
a leader and you have the people who
follow him all forms of light that you
give physical spiritual intellectual
emotional divine that's called him him
literally means the light that returns
it bounces back
that's what comes back
and that's created from the friction
from the collision with the him
which often
goes through a process cuz this is not
what's communicated it's like the says
in
this that I learned a lot from my
teachers I learned more from my friends
only tell me that you
I learned most from my students what do
you mean you learned most from your
students they're your students they're
supposed to learn from you
what's the point the point is the
friction a person could be a
and it's and it's beautiful and then
they teach and like none of this makes
sense
I don't know what you're talking about
or there's serious questions there's
pushback what we call pushback that's
him from pushback comes a much deeper
light always
huh
>> [laughter]
>> it's It's just I learned a lot from my
teachers. You could say from my students
also. No, I learned from my students
what I couldn't learn from my teachers.
What I learned from my teachers is what
they gave.
And then he gives it up in his own way.
The semicolon is the pushback.
It has to get It gets filtered much
deeper.
It has to go through a process of
cleansing.
And it evokes a deeper It what bounces
back from the wall creates a new
momentum in the game that you couldn't
expect.
Right? You shot the ball. That's all
the ball, but that's the shot, but then
there's the return.
And that's where the real chaos ensues
for those who know that particular
sport.
That's what I heard.
>> [laughter]
>> Huh?
It's a new momentum that comes from the
return.
So my teacher brings in the lesson
interestingly that uh
on top of the mountains it's cooler than
here on Earth in the summer days. The
climate should be the other way. They're
closer to the sun. He says, "But here on
Earth you have the return."
Bounces back from the Earth. Boom, it
creates a new a new a new warmth that
the mountains don't have. They have the
shot. They don't have the return cuz the
cuz the light continues. Light continues
until boom, the ball hits the source the
the the bottom, right? Rock bottom and
now you got to go up. That's the return.
It's brought out the look of actually
that's a major theme in the memoir.
Talmud Bavli and Talmud Yerushalmi. Why
is it like Bavli? Talmud Yerushalmi if
you ever learn Talmud Yerushalmi it's
more like a shot.
It's very straight. It's very direct.
The Talmud Bavli nothing is straight.
Everything is challenged and more like
nothing is accepted. Why is it to say
this? It says this, but there's a state
of here. Everything is challenged.
So one mission it takes
mission and mission with another with
another with another with another
with another with another mission that
he refutes it. Another mission another
mission. What is that? That's really I'm
not just accepting this light.
This light really has to go into me and
therefore every level of resistance is
going to emerge.
But from that
a much deeper light emerges.
It It challenges the route to go into a
deeper place. So it's return. As it goes
up it goes deeper into the than the
shot. The shot comes from a certain
source of creativity.
But the return taps into a deeper source
of creativity.
Which is more unconscious.
We once learned in the memoir of
about the three weeks over there is a
whole on this how it works.
No it's from the class. That's generally
a shot and return.
Here the lesson is of a shot and of a
return.
So it's not the regular shot. What's the
shot
>> [laughter]
>> and return?
We always learn is not It is It is in
me.
It is in me is that which is integrated.
It is that which is not integrated.
That's why it's called
It encompasses. It surrounds. Like a
circle.
Surrounding here doesn't mean spatially.
It's like around the circle. It's around
the ball. It means It remains
transcendent
>> [snorts]
>> even when it affects you.
It never tailor It doesn't It doesn't
filter itself to be constricted
according to the container of the
recipient. And each one has a tremendous
advantage. The advantage of
me is you own it. You could walk away
and say it's actually mine. You can
plagiarize it. That's the beauty of it.
It becomes mine.
It's really yours cuz it it like I told
you in the other share it's so good. You
know what somebody said?
The is so good. I don't know why we need
Right? did such a good job. You don't
need him anymore.
The sun is so amazing. Who needs him
during the day? You don't even attribute
it to the source. That's how good the
teacher is. That's how integrated it is.
That's what real means yours.
That's how we know he was successful. He
was so good that you don't need him.
You could really take it away. You could
You could take the ball and run with it.
Why? Because he changed something inside
of you. It became yours. That's product.
It goes into the
becomes part of the Like when you eat
something
right? Good food it becomes you. It
doesn't stay stuck in your system. We
know what happens then. You get
nauseous. You vomit. It's not good. You
want food that's integrated into your
bloodstream and that's why you have to
know what you eat. That's That's why is
the perfect example for me.
I don't walk away two weeks later and
still talk about you know the salad or
the fish. It's not salad anymore. Now
it's me. It used to be salad. But now
that's that's That's It's not that.
It is
It
remains transcendent even as it's
communicated to you.
It retains its pristine quality.
This is what challenges the person to go
out of their This is what challenges
real growth. It
is something above. It's beyond.
So that's the difference of and me.
The language of is sometimes called
and of me. The light that permeates and
penetrates every aspect of the world to
the point that it becomes the identity
of that creation.
When I'm looking at a squirrel or I'm an
ant I'm looking at the moment.
The world calls it an ant. It's not an
ant. It's the moment.
Right? Adam gave everything names based
on the divine energy. That's the
GOD IS SO GOOD. YOU DON'T EVEN CALL IT
GOD. YOU call it an ant. That's how good
he is. That's not an ant.
Coffee is not coffee. It's divine.
He says he's creating the whole world
every single moment. It's all divine
energy. But he's such a good The sun is
so good. You don't need it.
God is so successful. Who needs God?
It's a beautiful world, right?
>> [laughter]
>> The whole premise of science. It's a
beautiful world. Who needs him?
It's shining outside. Who do
They tell me you don't need the sun.
It's that. It's a tip of course. But
that's the That's how That's the of the
world.
That's how good the is.
Same thing the people deny the soul
today. The soul does such a good job.
Who needs THE SOUL? THE BODY AN AMAZING
MACHINE. SURE IT'S AN amazing machine.
60 trillion cells amazing machine.
If you built a machine with 20 buttons
and you tell me it just happened
randomly I tell you you belong you
belong certified idiot.
And here every 22 million decisions
milliseconds with
billions of miracles every second.
But it It does so does such a good job.
There's no soul. Who needs a soul? We
don't know soul.
>> [laughter]
>> That's how it is. That's how you know
it's a good me.
They plagiarize it. They all take it and
they plagiarize it. That's how That's
how good it was.
What do they say
is the best compliment? What's the
expression?
That's the success of me.
You can't do that.
It remains higher. It remains above. It
remains transcendent. That's why it's
called me.
Right. Imitation is a great form of
flattery.
And if it's really me they're not even
imitating. It's mine. I always owned it.
I always knew this. I always knew this.
Then when people go away I always knew
it.
In other words he evoked or she evoked
something that was
deeply recognizable resonant. Like of
course I knew this.
And that's a beautiful thing.
Yeah, stoking the coals and just
bringing out the fire from within.
Because you cannot do that if the me
was not ready for this. That's me was
always adapted to the vessel and that's
why every world and every creation has a
different me.
It is
based on diversity. It's not based on
uniformity. It can't be.
Diversity is a divine quality of life
and that's what Shame
is the only name of that's plural.
This is all a for me.
It is an engine of It remains
even as it permeates. It also permeates.
But it
Excuse me on a less conscious level.
It's not integrated. In other words, I
do not make peace with it. I don't say
this is my identity.
If I would say it's my identity it would
mean that the light was dumbed down much
more and it's not dumbed down.
It gives me a gift of growth. Real
growth.
And like we said in a teacher that's
that what he gives immediately and you
get and then there's that which you have
to work on for 40 years. What was that?
That's
It's there.
It's there. It's in the words. It's in
the words. It's embedded, but you need
to unravel it. Somebody may get may may
have gotten it right away cuz he's in a
different has a different so he can
right away. In other words, my can be
can be your me.
My
can be your me.
It depends on the It depends on the
vessel.
What is
in me uh
is me in me.
You understand? What's in me
is me in me. What's in me is me in me.
And as my vessels expand what was
yesterday completely transcendent. I
didn't even know how a clue what you're
talking about. Suddenly today it's like
of course.
This is what growth means. This is how
you can measure growth. What was
yesterday completely transcendent. Maybe
you believed it a little bit. Maybe you
had some feeling some sense. You
probably did. That's why you were
pursuing the path. You didn't run away.
But now it's like of course. How can you
even think otherwise? And then we start
to write the fallacies when we start
judging people who don't get it yet. But
where were you yesterday?
>> [laughter]
>> You know where was I last It's It's very
nice. You know I discovered America and
now everybody is you know everybody is
slow besides me. So it's like cuz what
you're going to discover tomorrow you're
>> [laughter]
>> It's It's It's a bigger
So this is where uh
humility is very appropriate for
everybody doing this work. Huh?
Yeah. Yeah. It's It's a hijack it.
Hijack it.
It's It's a trap. Yeah. It's actually a
paralyzing trap.
Very clever. Yeah. Because it could come
from a lot of actually work and and
progress.
Yeah.
So that's it.
So now we says this of a shot and Makkah
of a return. So two concepts here I get
integ- get mixed up together. Or Yosher
and Or Choizer is one sugiyah. Makkah of
a call of Makkah of Or Choizer is
another sugiyah. But, in this mind they
come together.
Makkah of Or Yosher and Makkah of Or
Choizer. That means the Makkah of Or
Yosher is that the Or Yosher is also not
integrated.
The Or Yosher, which is the direct flow,
is also beyond giluy.
Why is this niggun in this mind? Because
this mind is about Ein Sof.
The way it's a giluy of Ein Sof, Hashem
is Or Ein Sof. So, even that which is
begiluy, Or Yosher is also beyond giluy.
Elama, it's begeder giluy.
Like the example of the teacher that
after 40 years I'll be able to get it.
It's something that ultimately lends
itself to the realm of revelation. Even
though that may take a lot of time.
That's the lamatah din tachlis. But,
it's still called Makkah because here
we're talking about the Or in its
pristine form where even the Or is
beyond revelation. It's called Makkah.
What's Makkah of Or Choizer?
Here, the Makkah of Or Choizer is that
the Or Choizer What's the Or Choizer?
The Or Choizer is
that which comes back
from the from the mekabel. So, it's the
Makkah of that. So, even that is not
begiluy. Again, Makkah is that which is
beyond giluy. So, the Makkah of Or
Choizer is something
that goes back upwards. Or Yosher is
downward always. It's direct flow from
the mashpia to the mekabel. Or Choizer
is that which returns and it goes
upwards. Here is the Makkah of Or
Choizer. It goes upward all the way back
to the source, which is inaccessible,
which is concealed. Those are the words.
And this is what the mind of Hukos
Chosson focuses on. You will soon see
the mind of Kamin and all this all this
and I would like
We're going to get to that. But, but
there's just the osiyos of Makkah of Or
Yosher and Makkah of Or Choizer. That's
what he says.
Makkah of Or Yosher comes in a revealed
way, but it's beyond his shlabbshus
bechinus pnimiyus cuz it's Makkah.
So, it remains Makkah, but it has a
connection to the integrated Or light
and will come out to revelation to
revelation.
The example of a teacher of a rav
communicating
seichel and svara communicating logic,
ideas, whatever can be
absorbed by the mind of the student,
that's called Or Pnimi because it
settles into his vessels.
But, the depth that cannot be absorbed,
this is also communicated, but it
remains Makkah above his brain. What do
you mean above his brain?
Above his brain means you say this went
over my head. Makkah. Makkah means it's
a relationship, but it's a relationship
where
I cannot say I got it.
I can't.
It did not go into my keilim. It did
not.
Yeah.
It's yours. It's yours.
Yeah, over my head is
just over my head. Usually doesn't make
sense what you said.
Just a nice way of saying, you know,
figure out your stuff.
But,
it's still close to him.
It's like, you know, when the bird
hovers over him. It's like, you know,
when the bird hovers over the nest. It's
not in the nest.
You can't have it. But, it's
And with time and experience, it can
come into your reach.
Like when the finally the student
masters, he stands on the daas of his
rebbe. Meaning, he really gets the true
daas of his rebbe, even the depth that
he could never get before.
Why? Because it was something that was
relatable.
In fact, somebody else with bigger
keilim may have gotten it before. So,
that means even you who did not
already will get it one day. In other
words, even the first day when it was
communicated to you, it was already
something that we want should be
integrated. And a real teacher knows
exactly the measurement. We're talking
about a real quintessential
So, you're talking about
In other words, it's a very very It's a
very nuanced element. That which he can
give in an integrated way gives. But, he
wants to give everything.
So, some things he gives in a way that
ultimately maybe in 5 years you'll get,
in 10 years you'll get, in 20 years. So,
this is a real You know, talk about a
curriculum. Talk about a
a learning plan, a teaching plan, right?
It's a teaching plan for 40 years.
For 80 years, for 100 years.
Planting seeds. Exactly. I plant seeds.
I'm not expecting tomorrow you're going
to go harvest apples and you'll have
what to eat. But, like the story with
the story in Gemara Taanis, he's
planting, right? What's the
planting his palm palm tree for his
einikel? What are you planting for your
einikel? Because that's what we do.
So, my grandson is going to harvest it.
So, why am I planting it now? Cuz that's
part of my life. That's part of That's
part of love. That's part of teaching.
Right? This This is This is a very
what's called long-term vision. Can you
plant seeds and knowing that for 40
years nobody's going to know about it.
The person won't know about it. But, in
40 years it's all going to be because of
what you planted.
It's a very deep relationship. You have
to realize the Makkah requires in a many
ways much more connection than the
Pnimi. The Pnimi looks good. It's
geshmack. Everybody went home and
they're satisfied.
The Makkah, nobody touched it. It's a
It's a form of mesirus nefesh, but it's
real commitment. It's real dedication.
It's like what a parent could
communicate to a child and he knows the
child won't understand it. Maybe the
child will be defiant. Will rebel.
Rebel. Will actually get upset, maybe.
But, your your love and confidence knows
that this this this this needs to be
said or this needs to Of course, you
have to be a worked out person for this.
This is not stam
impulsivity. This is the opposite of
impulsivity.
It also means you have things that you
want to teach that are bechinus Makkah,
you know.
>> [laughter]
>> They said there was once a professor and
his arrogance was a little more than his
wisdom.
So, he came to this big conference on
nuclear physics and you know, he was
supposed to give his speech for 45
minutes and present his ingenious
chiddushim. And right before he went up,
they were already running short on time,
you know, other speakers, whatever it
is. So, the the MC, the the master of
ceremonies who was running the show, he
comes over to him and he says, "Your
speech, 8 minutes. 8 minutes, not a
minute longer." You know, telling him to
speak for 8 minutes.
So, he looks at him in disdain. He says,
"What am I supposed to say in 8 minutes?
What am I supposed to say in 8 minutes?"
He says, "Speak very slowly."
So, uh so So, for this
For this you have to have Yeah.
It's a moshech of Or Choizer Makkah.
Like, really you know, kamin as with the
pnimiyus. So, you're talking here about
a the ultimate daas and that's why it's
a moshech for Elokus.
That's all Makkah of Or Yosher. Not Or
Yosher, Makkah of Or Yosher.
So, what's Makkah of Or Choizer?
Slow down, yeah. Makkah of Or Choizer is
it's not revealed that Ein Ein Ein Ein
Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein Ein
Ein Ein Ein
It doesn't come out to revelation.
Not even in Makkah.
The whole inyan of Makkah of Or Choizer
is the heipech hashafa. Interesting
words. It's the antithesis to flow.
It's It's defying revelation. Wherever
it can, it defies revelation. I don't
want to be revealed. It's protesting.
The Or is protesting itself.
>> [laughter]
[panting]
>> It's working against itself. He says,
"It's Calling on his heipech hashafa.
What So, what do you want from me?"
It seeks to conceal it more and more
until it's completely concealed.
It's motion is not hamshacha downward.
It's motion is aliyah, Or Choizer,
upward.
But, upward to the point
that it it disappears. It's It's
completely concealed.
This is the deepest form of truths
that remain completely concealed. And
the expression of this is expression in
Torah Parshas Lech Lecha. He speaks
about Avraham. What's Avraham? And he
says it's seichel hanelam mikol raya.
Now, just translate those words.
Seichel. Seichel is usually an idea, a
truth
hanelam, which is concealed, mikol raya,
from every idea.
So, stop calling it seichel. Seichel
hanelam mikol raya. Here also, you're
calling it Or.
You're calling it Or Choizer, but Makkah
of Or Choizer means there's no giluy
klal.
And this is lamailah din kets.
And the whole mind is trying to say
that this is what he's trying to give
you.
This is what he's trying to give you.
Something that's not givable. I don't
know if I made up a word, but it's not
begeder giluy.
This is Makkah of Or Choizer.
Yeah, mamash a paradox, right?
In the mind of Rabbi Gani, the Rebbe
adds
the next his next moshech. It's all
moshech. And he adds another moshech.
She is nikayus mashpia maskil umiskakel
baatzmo.
This you see even more when the mashpia
is sitting himself and learning and
thinking and and and conceiving. In
other words, not a relationship to the
student, relationship to himself.
So, I'm just abstract abstract words
now. Dehinay yedua asher kol haskalah
Everybody knows.
You do what snow one snow one I guess to
everybody who has to know that every has
color of his
a person every time he's learning
conceiving it always adds more light
more revelation more appreciation. The
there's a
the way he's teaching a student but here
he's talking about himself when he
himself is conceiving and learning every
time there's more light there's more
like
it's not like oh I learned it once it's
over every time he's masculine there's
more light there's more depth there's
more revelation.
This is what we were talking about light
which exists in the motion of
communication and revelation and the
more you deal with it the deeper you go
the more revelation the more depth the
more creativity the more flow.
That's the example of
in the
cuz this was all a
but when you have a deeper
which is
means it's essentially
concealed not concealed because I'm not
ready for it but it's a type of truth
that is essentially concealed
and I know we need to understand what
that means the
the essence of this is in a motion of
his of concealment not
so
in the this is the
the quality of
that's essentially
reflecting the inaccessible
essence
which is completely concealed not
because there's no but it's
he may
so even as it's revealed to him it's in
a way that the remains
and concealed in its essence so even as
the learning for himself it's not about
the before the
you have an that by the itself gets more
and more revealed and here EVEN BY HIM
HIMSELF it remains CONCEALED BUT
BECAUSE THAT'S THE OF THE
that's a different type of
so why are you calling it he said good
let's
see
let's
and he continues in this that to say
that this deepest
could come out but how only in stories
parables riddles
should be
why there cuz over there actually
they're the best places you know why cuz
they hide it
because they conceal it so therefore in
a paradoxical way they're the mediums
for just transportation they could
channel this because they don't come out
and say hey look at me I'm revealing I'm
going to reveal anything
because they don't have the quality of
a is like I'm just a cute story I have a
cute joke I have a cute riddle
oh okay thank you for the entertainment
so in a in a paradoxical way because
they don't even is not part of their
resume so I'm going to now give a
and tell you
I'm not telling you no
no insight NO PERSPECTIVE
WE'RE TELLING STORIES
SO IN A IN a
in a paradoxical way because their whole
Indian is there so they could channel
that which is
which wouldn't be able to channel it cuz
would put it into a framework of
of revelation they don't do that they're
not tempted to do that
protects it it protects its integrity
and the only way you could protect it
its integrity
is by protecting its integrity that was
deep no the only way you could protect
its integrity is by protecting its
integrity right
of course it's a completely different
type of you see the only comes out in
if you talk about it if you say I want
to reveal this
you're not protecting its integrity you
just you're not you're doing something
else fine
we're calling it
but it's that's his whole point it's not
it can only come out not in the world of
the is a good thing for it why because
the says oh I'm not I don't tell you
anything I'm just
I'm just a waiter
>> [laughter]
>> I'm just I'm just a driver I don't
I'm the entertainer I'm the entertainer
well one second he's not just saying
something
uh
it's yeah let's see because
because over there the is
because you cannot get it from the it's
not like the is SCREAMING GET ME GET me
but you can go away from the and you
don't feel dumb
you go away from a certain you feel dumb
you go away from the
there's nothing to feel dumb about what
what right
is not garnished with
he's not screaming do you get me I'm not
I'm not
but something is happening the
which
the essence which is inaccessible to
is enclosed in this in this parable
and here it becomes much greater
than you know why so he says
revelation
could only be a ray
cuz that's what can be revealed that
which can be transported into the world
of revelation it can be articulated in
some form that's always a ray
but here
because it's not coming in the world of
it's coming into something which is
completely concealing it
so its entire essence is transported
but not transported in a way that it's
screaming I have it it's transporting it
in a way that it remains inaccessible
and yet it was communicated
and this is the of
>> [snorts]
>> what do you think wants to talk about
these things
we finished understanding everything
else in life and this is the like the
last missing link in your in your
marriage in your relationships in your
family and your children like if you
want to bring all your children together
and like give them something for life
like
>> [panting]
>> but he says that this is the
this is the whole
so the fact that I'm just what I want to
point this out cuz a lot of people read
this to learn it if if if a person
cannot articulate to ourselves even
>> [laughter]
>> that this is the to win the war we're
obviously disconnecting from something
that said this at the wedding of his
also said at the wedding of his
I'm
>> [snorts]
>> I'm saying this
just to understand that this is not
another like let's get more abstract so
that people we make sure that nobody
understands anything we're talking about
you have to talk and know that you don't
understand that's true that's important
but but this is also being communicated
right the is being communicated
so I guess
that
understood how deeply abstract this is
so he adds something now
he adds
>> [snorts]
>> the
this will be much better understood when
you come to the world of
till now we were talking about the world
of ideas rather than
is mostly focused as he keeps on saying
but let's go to the world of means bliss
ecstasy delight pleasure the
word
is a word we all use I like it it's nice
it's comfortable it's
it's delightful opposite of it is pain
right
anguish
so seems to be a very of course and
that's what people look for what do
people feel like what are people looking
for in life what are they looking for
more or less
I want to feel good
I mean at least it's a major force in
people's lives
I know this one is trying to make money
this one is trying to
do something maybe very idealistic this
one is trying to do a little bit of both
idealistic but also make a little money
but at the bottom line what do you I'm
looking for
so is a very deep deep reality
but here in this here
he says when you come to you have to
speak about three dimensions of
and these three dimensions of
are going to give us
and he says like this
there's a called
you know the word means you have
more common of more common and more is
it's not a pure esrog tree.
Why? Because esrogim trees are very hard
to nurture.
They are extremely vulnerable and they
get sick and they die.
And they're also attractive
to worms and viruses. So, what do you
do?
If you don't care too much, you put in
some lemons.
You plant some lemon seeds together with
the esrog and lemons are machaya.
They're strong, they're durable, they
can deal with resistance much better
than esrog.
Esrogim are nice on the outside, but
deep inside it's a weak tree. Zaysem, I
mean
what's it called? Lemons
are much more durable. So, that's why
the esrogim
salesman, what was their idea? They put
in lemon seeds and then suddenly it's
beautiful esrog, but it's not real. It's
fake news. It's a possible esrog.
Falsified. It's called esrogim murkavim.
Murkav means mixed up with other things.
The word harkava is like a jigsaw
puzzle. It's murkav.
From chalakim. It's a composite. That's
the word composite.
From different pieces.
Like you take different pieces of metal
and you create a kayli from it. The body
is murkav from 248 evarim. It's murkav,
right? A nigun is murkav from many
diverse notes. The the the the the
Everything is Everything in the world is
murkav. This table is murkav. This cup
of coffee is murkav. Everything is
murkav. That's the beauty of it. Murkav.
Harkava is not echad, not achdus.
It can be. It's bringing together, but
it's not achdus.
It's mixed.
So, ta'anug also has ta'anug hamurkav.
What's ta'anug hamurkav? It's not
esrogim and lemons, but it's the same
concept.
It's a ta'anug that's made up from
something
that allows the ta'anug to blossom and
flourish. And that's usually the
ta'anugim that we're familiar with and
we seek. In that itself, there's a
spectrum.
Lemayle lemala bizlematamata. An
infinite spectrum including things that
are much more genuine and authentic and
things that are much more superficial
and more feel good for the moment.
That's all true.
But the common denominator is it's a
ta'anug hamurkav.
Then he says there's something called
ta'anug hapashut.
The word pashut here doesn't mean
simple. It means simple, but it means
pashut from the word mufshat.
Like upashat as begadim, you remove your
clothes. Why is that called pashut? Cuz
real pshitut means you remove all layers
and you get to the core. Like the
simplicity.
The Bal Shem Tov used to say the pshitut
from an ish pashut is pshitut ha'atzmus.
Right? Pshitut ha'atzmus. It means the
pure simplicity which is really more
sophisticated than the sophisticated cuz
it strips it from all the kashas. So,
what's ta'anug hapashut? Ta'anug that's
stripped from any layer that is being
connected to the ta'anug. The ta'anug is
not coming from connection with other
things which is called ta'anug hamurkav.
IT'S TA'ANUG IN THE CORE OF TA'ANUG.
It's like touching bliss itself.
Like the command center of bliss. You
know, the
the central nervous system. You go back
to the core of the ta'anug.
Well, but ta'anug hapashut gufa
yesh lo if oifen she'ein lo achiza
beshum davar.
But in ta'anug hapashut itself, you have
also two levels.
You have ta'anug hapashut that expresses
itself
in something.
You will soon see. And then there's a
ta'anug hapashut, it cannot hold on into
anything. There's nothing that can can
grasp it.
Vahainu lefi she hegiya ha'oineg
be'etzem nafsha.
It looks like there's nothing there, but
really the oineg reached the core of his
soul. This person had access to the
essence. She'ein mebeged begiluy
umshacha klal. And at the core of the
soul there's no revelation. It's not in
the realm of revelation and it's not in
the realm of communication.
Komunikatsia.
Adiraba, hu oineg bechinat aliya
ve'histalkut lemala davka.
In that state, he's actually in a
position where he's in aliya, up, and
histalkut, departing higher and higher
to the essence. Velachein ein lo shum
tenu'a klal.
So, this ta'anug hapashut, there's no
movement. There's no tenu'a.
There's literally no motion.
There's no motion. It's not expressed
itself in any motion. Not because
there's no ta'anug. Because the ta'anug
actually touched the deepest part of the
soul which can't be revealed. It can't
be communicated. Like we spoke before
about a mashal and seichel that the
mashal is the greatest tool for
communicating the etzem because it
conceals everything.
So, it protects its integrity. Here to
protect the integrity of this type of
ta'anug, there can't be any tenu'a. Any
tenu'a, any move, any motion, any
expression
is dumbing it down. It's It's It's the
It's the It's It's the It's defiling it.
It's It's It's soiling it. Soiling it.
Le'yoser bechinat oir chozer be'atzmusa
davka. Beged be'hechdel degiluy umshacha
legamrei.
This is oir chozer in its ultimate sense
where the light
doesn't go downward, it goes upward back
to the essence. So, what's the function
of light here? To defile itself. Get me
out of revelation. All revelation is
compromising my truth. The truth, go
back. OIR CHOZER, GO BACK TO THE ATZMUS.
That's ta'anug hapashut where there's no
expression.
Vachein besichel amuk be'yoser anelami
kodaya. This is the mashal. Remember
this is a mashal. Everything is a mashal
for a mashal for a mashal. So, this is a
mashal to understand what we said
before.
That there's a seichel anelami kodaya.
There's a seichel that's concealed from
any idea. She'ein mebeged begiluy mitzad
atzma.
Mitzad itself it's not beged begiluy.
It's not beged revelation. Ela bechinat
aliya ve'histalkut lemala le'hadar
le'haster be'atzma davka. It's entirely
in it's higher. Higher.
Aliya, up up, ve'histalkut, to depart
more and more and more because anything
that's not departing,
if it's going downward, if it's not
departure,
it's compromising its truth. It davka
wants to go in le'hadar le'haster
be'atzma davka and that's what what that
and that's the inyan of seichel anelami
kodaya and that's the makeif of oir
chozer that comes through the meshulam
and the hesteirim and that's this
ta'anug hapashut.
AND THAT'S WHAT HE SAID and we learned
in THE PREVIOUS YEAR THAT THAT'S WHAT
THE BAL SHEM TOV MEANT. THAT THE FATHER
is looking
to connect WITH THE TA'ANUG YOSER. HE
SAID THAT'S NOT MORE TA'ANUG. It's He
said THEN IT'S TA'ANUG HAPASHUT which
we'll explain later. He said that
earlier in seviv. What's this? This is
what he was saying. THIS TA'ANUG
HAPASHUT. THAT'S WHAT THE FATHER WAS
LOOKING FOR.
That's what he was
That's what he's looking for. That's
what the child is looking for.
And when the magid says
that the whole purpose is to connect
everything through ta'anug all the way
down to asiya, it's this ta'anug.
So, this is where where it comes
together.
Now it's easy to say this is nothing we
can't understand any of this.
The Rebbi Rashab knew probably what he
The Rebbi Rashab knew what he was
talking about. The Rebbi knows what he
was The Rebbi knew what he was talking
about. Sure.
But that would be
failing the Bal Shem Tov and the magid
and atzmus and everything. So, we may
we have to sit with it. Yeah. We want to
sit with it. Not we have to. Yeah.
You're saying you can understand that
you can't have oir chozer
without oir yashar.
Yeah, of course. You can't have it
without it. Of course.
And I remember something else just, you
know, to add to the equation. You're
talking here about ein sof.
Ein sof is achdus. It's Hashem's ein
sof. The oir itself is ein sof.
So, when you say ein sof is lemala and
kes lemata and tachlis, it's not like
there's two sections.
>> [laughter]
>> It's from the east, you know. The 30
miles this way is lemala and kes. 30
miles that way is lemata and tachlis.
They're both the same oir.
It's all one.
And it's ein sof. Ein sof means pure
infinity, no definition. And yet we have
these two names and he even says early
yesh hefresh gadol beinayhem. There's a
big difference between them. And this is
finally where he comes at. What is this?
This is a TA'ANUG HAPASHUT THAT'S NOT
ONLY TA'ANUG HAPASHUT, it's a ta'anug
that can't be expressed in anything
and it's belishum tenu'a where there's
no motion.
I looked up the ma'amar of tafshin
zayin. I wanted to learn it in the
source. So, he says there language. He
says, "When you look at this person at
this ta'anug, you know what he looks
like?" This is lashon. He says, "Ke'even
doimem belishum tenu'a klal." He looks
like a rock, a lifeless rock that
doesn't move.
That's this ta'anug.
Huh?
I'm telling you his lashon.
Ke'even doimem. He says it's belishum
tenu'a. In the ma'amar he He could do
Rebbi Rashab the original ma'amar of
hukas that he said at the chasana of his
son.
It's It's like he's an even doimem. In
other words, it's takka belishum tenu'a.
When you look at it and you don't know
what's happening, it's actually looks
lifeless. An even doimem doesn't look
very ta'anug. I mean, I don't know. I
don't know what the even is
experiencing. Maybe we should learn more
about rocks. When you're looking at an
even doimem, you just see a stone.
And that's what you're looking at.
You would think it's the less least
ta'anug in the world. So, he says, "No,
that's the ta'anug that went into the
etzem hanefesh and therefore it's not
expressed." So, the lack of expression
is not a lack of experience. The lack of
expression is a lack of allowing
anything to dilute even in the smallest
way this frequency of ta'anug.
Yeah. Silence in its deepest form. And
that's even deeper than ta'anug
hapashut.
>> [snorts]
>> And as he continues in the next the next
the next paragraph, this is the answer
that we're talking about.
Because this is the answer that we keep
on talking about.
And this treasure is given and it's
given to the soldiers because in a time
of battle and conflict of such
faithful consequences, without this
treasure the king realizes
that
everything could be lost. So everything
is at stake. And when everything is at
stake, he takes the that not only was it
not spent, it wasn't even shown.
And that's why we keep on saying it's
which means spiritually it wasn't ever
shown. Not because I'm trying to hold
secret, but because it can't be shown.
It's beyond the way.
And that's what comes out.
And yet it comes out without losing its
integrity because if it comes out with
losing its integrity, it's not that. It
remains even when when it comes out.
Huh?
Yeah.
So I want to with God's grace
try to at least share
some I don't know if the word is
understanding, but some experience.
At least the way I understood parts of
it.
>> [snorts]
>> The whole mind is about
in
the castle in the darkness.
In the second sheet already we discussed
at length what is and what's the
condition of This whole mind you have to
realize is one structure. It's one it's
one one point that keeps
you know, people get confused. They
don't realize the everything every part
in this mind is like a puzzle.
But not just a puzzle, you know,
you know, a puzzle that we make. It's an
experiential puzzle
where every word
becomes part and indispensable to the
whole of the mind and more
and it negate what the person takes away
from it.
The
the could of everything is always the
could of
We spoke what's or or is connection.
That is or.
I told you I think in the second or
third year that one of the greatest
challenges people have when they learn
this
is
there's so many words and the words are
so powerful. But they don't realize that
the words are just they're code words.
The words are important. They're the
words. But they're code words. They're
code words for for for deep experience
and truth of reality.
And because you're talking about such
frequencies of reality that are not easy
to talk about and certainly experience,
so therefore the words are so
meticulously chosen to be as accurate
and authentic
as possible to be able to talk about
this, but never to get stuck in words
cuz you get stuck in words, you have to
really be able to every mind how do you
know you know it? You could say the
whole thing without using a single word
of the mind.
You understand?
That's how that's how you you could say
the whole thing without using the words
cuz the words are real, but they're also
traps cuz I can get away with words,
right? There's a lot of classes a person
sits down and he says
and everybody is supposed to know what
is so he never even bothers. There's a
was a label of the street ski. So in the
1940s is a letter he wrote to the ever.
The wasn't in the life of the
and he tells the that we keep on
learning about and
I don't know what in the world they are.
I think 1944 45 printed in his
the
so he writes to him you don't have to
apologize. Okay, apologize. He says for
cat usually the things that are always
quoted almost nobody understands.
So it's actually a very good
opportunity. And he was a and he gives
him a whole martial original martial
that have to explain the full word that
I see
that I could I have to learn one day.
You see this is the trap. The trap is
when you're sitting with people who are
supposed to know, you say
everybody nods. What are you nodding?
You visited
you know what it looks like? What is it
Hawaii? Where is it Antarctica with the
penguins? I don't know my
I was there yesterday.
Oh, near Starbucks. I see you. Okay, I
see you for sure. Yes, I see you, right?
Yeah. I see
shine I see shine. Why not?
How can I according to the IT'S SOME OF
COURSE it's some he consulted with me
about the
I was there. When did it
some some happen?
We once learning with Khan. So somebody
was asking questions. So he says he says
in year
is the when the some in which century
did some happen? Tell me, what do you
think? Which century? The 14th, the
15th, the 16th the 9th century BCE,
right? BCE before existed.
>> [laughter]
>> When did it some some happen?
The some is happening now.
So all these things I'm saying it
because this is a very big trap.
The words on one hand are the without
the words
we talk about so The chose these words.
The
chose these words, but we have to know
that words as much as they can reveal
like we're learning here the whole mind
as much as they can reveal, they can
much more conceal because they let me
get away with everything. Even the word
love forget about even the word love,
right? Nobody knows what really what's
love.
Huh?
Of course, of course, of course.
And not use words to like words could be
masks. I could stand behind them you
know like I'm hiding behind it and I
throw out words.
And and it's frustrating because people
they're so used to it. Yeah, you throw
out another word, but there's no
experience behind it. Like I don't
deserve to say that word. Did you
experience it? So talk about experience.
Don't talk about the words. But words
allow me to stand behind them and make
believe that I'm experiencing it when
I'm not.
IN OTHER WORDS, YOU HAVE TO PAY A PRICE
TO SAY WORDS. IT'S not
the word comes with a price.
You want to say it? Fine. But go
What did the say? Go into the
means a word, right?
Go
into the word. Don't throw words at me.
Go into the word. Are you inside?
Go in with your wife, with your
children. Go into THE THEN TALK.
HUH? YEAH,
go in the when you and learning
are you inside the word? Don't throw
words at me.
Tell me
right give me you.
So this is this is critical in all of
this learning. It's critical because
I I I I speak about this with passion
cuz I struggled with this for years. As
I grow up I learned this as you know, I
grew up with this information.
But there was so many words and words
and words and I struggled with this.
And sometimes when I would ask some of
you know, my superiors or teachers or
mentors
it was so frustrating not to get a real
answer about this and it wasn't their
fault cuz they were also hiding behind
words.
So it's like it's normal. I get it. It's
not it's not it's not a judgment, but
it's it could be very very frustrating.
And people need to be honest and
vulnerable about it and the best thing
to say is I know nothing I'm saying. I
know nothing. Which is probably more
true than anything else they're saying.
Those are the only words they can stand
by. I know really know nothing and
that's fine. Okay, good.
That's a good beginning. I love you know
the with the river.
Ah.
>> [laughter]
>> It's a deep story.
The
he was born in of.
Huh?
Stories very good. Very good. It's true.
The stories
People think stories are the whole mind
stories are not entertainment. Some
people use stories for entertainment.
Stories capture things. That's what
we're learning here, right? That other
things can't capture. Yeah, this is an
example.
They call him of. is in Poland. Later he
went to
is in Poland. But he was in
the city.
He grew up there. He was a kid there you
know, he was a
a of. It's a holy holy Jew. Years later
when he was already a great master, he
went back to of.
So the the Jews from the came out
came out to greet him.
And they offered him hospitality and you
know, the most beautiful home. I mean
relative to it was also but relative to
it was a home. You know, probably had
more than one bedroom. And I'm sure half
a bed and the windows weren't broken.
They offered him
hospitality. So he said no, he wants to
go to the
who taught him
his first you know, his first three when
he was two three four years old the
the first told him that's where he wants
to stay.
They said
man he was a captain then he's a captain
now. It's not a house to stay in.
That's where he wants to stay. And he
went to stay by him.
>> [laughter]
>> So they asked the
why?
You wanted it you wanted to say thank
you. Go say thank you. We have to
She said I'll be honest with them.
He's the only one
who taught me something that I know and
it's true.
I love
after that it became so confusing.
Once I went from to the next level, I
don't know what's true, what's not true,
what I understand, what I don't
understand. THE ONLY GUY WHO TAUGHT ME
>> [laughter]
>> TRUTH AND I ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD IT WAS
HIM. I LOVE YOU
SO I WANT TO STAY BY HIM. [laughter]
I STAY STILL.
After that, he says everything is
confusing. Once you start with ideas,
schmayn ideas, this I don't know
anything. Aleph
Aleph Aleph
Yeah.
I once heard from the Rebbi bringing the
same name of the Rebbi started to cry
when he said it. He said that when you
teach a child kamatz aleph ah
He said das is the aleph the kamatz
aleph das is a aleph
It's not kamatz. They start kamatz aleph
ah They were those who wanted to change
the whole system of education. So, he
said you teach kamatz aleph ah aleph
kamatz aleph ah It's done by aleph.
That's really what the Kotsker Rebbi was
saying, right? What was he saying? He
was saying the aleph bais.
This famous story with the Alter Rebbi
What is an aleph? What's an aleph?
Okay. So,
when we talk about right?
>> [laughter]
>> If we don't want to hide behind the
words.
We don't want to hide behind the words.
The real inyan of the nekudah of and
this is why for the Alter Rebbi this you
know in Torah
the Rebbi Rashab writes in the Kodesh
the Rebbi Rashab writes in the
inyan of Ohr. That's his lashon on the
Alter Rebbi. The
Rebbi Rashab
inyan of Ohr.
The Rebbi the Alter Rebbi was
inyan of Ohr. Now, he wasn't inyan of
Ohr. You have Ohr in before.
The Rebbi inyan of Ohr means the nekudah
of Ohr. The way he understood this was a
of Alter Rebbi. When you say a Rebbi in
this doesn't mean a Rebbi
that he decided one day that's Ohr. It
means he was megaleh. He was a channel
to be megaleh this inyan in Ohr.
Because this is based all on Torah of
the Baal Shem Tov. What's the whole
nekudah of Torah of the Baal Shem Tov?
That you have to appreciate the taanug
that at the core of everything there's a
taanug which means not only a love but a
bliss which is connection.
Taanug If you say the father wants more
taanug from whom? From the child. And
the child wants more taanug from the
father, that's connection.
Ohr is the ultimate word in Chassidus
and Kabbalah for connection. Because
what's light?
Right? Like we explained in the previous
Very very fundamental. What is light?
Light is basically the
medium of
communication.
You could call it energy. You could call
it energy.
And that's even on a physical level. As
I said, if the room was dark,
we can all be here, but I don't see you.
I don't mean only physically. I don't
see you, right?
Light allows me to see you. Allows you
to see me. Allows us to see. What it
means to see? To see not only what is
inside of me which I can experience, but
also to see something else outside of
me.
Ohr Ain Sofe means that the Ain Sofe
wants to be in relation.
I want to be seen. I want to be
experienced. I want to be communicate I
want TO COMMUNICATE MYSELF. IF THERE WAS
NO OHR, Hashem could have made a world
without Ohr. What would life be?
Ohr everything is self-contained.
There's etzem without Ohr. I am I and
you are you and that's where it stops. I
am I Take out the end. I am I Not even
and you are you.
RIGHT? THE WORD AND IS ALREADY OHR.
>> [laughter]
>> THE WORD and is Ohr, right? I am I and
NO NO NO AND I AM I DONE. NEXT.
YOU ARE YOU THAT YOU'RE GOING TO SAY.
I'M NOT EVEN GOING to talk about you.
I'm not even going to talk about you.
Yeah, it's very good. Very good.
This is very good. It's not I and I you
are you. I am I AND THAT'S MY WORLD. YOU
ARE YOU IT'S YOUR WORLD.
Zog zog.
Yeah.
So, you're saying it's not taanug of
narcissism. Why not?
You asked me a good question.
Isn't taanug THIS NOT I WANT PLEASURE
FROM YOU.
And I don't want to give you pleasure.
>> [snorts]
>> Right? Everybody knows one of the worst
forms of abuse is when a person
experiences themselves as an instrument
of somebody else's pleasure.
It's one of the most sinister
diabolical Is that the word?
forms of
pain to inflict on another person. Why?
Because it's not just I'm using you.
It's more. Yeah. It's not just you don't
exist. It's worse. Your existence You do
exist, but you exist as what? As a tool.
As a shmata. Not just for something I
need to survive.
For my pleasure. You understand the
distance?
You exist fully. Not only you exist.
You're allowed to have pleasure. And me
not only I don't exist. Not only do I
exist to help you survive which is also
not so nice, but at least I can get it.
You don't want to survive. No. You have
oxygen. You have food for you to have
pleasure. So, you understand the
distance. So, you exist in bliss and I
don't even have the right to feel
anything. You understand what this does
to people?
Just for the record, that's where the
levels of
disassociation and self-loathing and
self-shame are beyond what anybody
imagines. If you don't understand this,
do not deal with healing.
>> [laughter]
>> Like people who make fun of this like
they don't understand this and I'm not
blaming them. Thank God they don't
understand it. Unfortunately, I
understand this pretty well and I know I
know about this with people. So, this is
a very serious thing. So, this asking a
question. Does it This almost sounds
like this.
And when we do experience Judaism with
this paradigm of abuse which many do,
that's what it sounds like.
Somebody once wrote me an email the
Rebbi Rashab writes like that
and because HE HAD A TAIVA,
I'M SUFFERING MY WHOLE LIFE.
NOT BAD.
YOU HEAR? It's not that he needed it.
No, he had a taiva.
YEAH, YOU WANT POTATO CHIPS. YOU HAVE A
taiva for ice cream. He has a taiva for
cheese cake. He has a taiva for a new
phone AND BECAUSE OF THAT THE WHOLE
WORLD HAS TO BE IN GAN EDEN.
>> [clears throat]
>> SO, I COULD say it's kashas, but that's
not going to help anybody.
It's a It's a serious issue. This is an
emotional issue.
It's a Yeah. I got a letter like this.
Actually, more than once.
And it makes sense. The word the word
right? At least use another word.
A girl once wrote to me. She said, "I'm
not in construction business. I'm not
interested in building a house.
I'm not in interested in construction.
If he's such a big God, let him find his
own carpenters. Let him build his own
house himself.
I'm not in the construction department
to build his home. Right?
>> [panting]
>> And I had to explain to her that the
She is the
house.
She is She is what he's looking for.
>> [laughter]
>> You're
building a house somewhere. You build a
house and that's the
and I'm the one who's building it.
You're
You're the That's what he's looking He's
That's what he's crazy about. Just wants
to move into your heart.
But people are not happy.
So, you're asking a
question.
So, all of all of this will become clear
So, if is that connection,
and that's why
is the most spiritual entity in the
world because it's a metaphor. It's the
physical metaphor for the
for
the connection.
Connection.
is the relation what we call the
relational field. That's what it is.
Not the etzem but the relation.
And that's what we see physically also,
right? allows me to see you.
And I think you said it, right? At one
of the lessons.
The real quality of is battle.
Meaning,
doesn't say, "Look at me. How beautiful
my light is."
always says, "Wow, look at this window.
Look at this person. Look at this home.
Look at the ocean. Look at the sun."
EVEN THOUGH IT'S THE LIGHT THAT I'M
SEEING. I'm not seeing the sun. NOBODY
SEES THE SUN.
>> [laughter]
>> NOBODY sees the sun. NOBODY SEES THE
OCEAN. We see the light.
You can't even see the ocean. You can't
even see any person. You only see the
light. But the light is so subtle. What
does the light say? Oh no no no you're
not seeing me. You're seeing him.
That's not really true.
But it is true because that's what is.
doesn't take credit.
whole inyan is what?
Channel.
The ultimate mailman. The ultimate
communicator. The ultimate You know, the
matchmaker. The one who's invisible.
Like a should be.
Doesn't come after the and say, "By the
way,
I
you know, I'm the guy in the middle.
I'm coming to live with you. I need a
place to live."
You know, those people.
The is the
but invisible. Literally invisible.
So,
is not that the comes from Ain Sofe. The
itself is Ain Sofe.
What's the The itself is Ain Sofe. So,
you remember. is revelation.
What's revelation?
reveals. allows me to see you. But what
about that which I can't see?
So, says, "It's above my pay grade. I
can't do this. I can only show you what
you can see."
We all understand with light I can only
see certain dimensions of reality.
Certain things that are inaccessible.
Either cuz I don't have the for it. This
colors that I don't see. Or because
maybe it's something that's beyond being
revealed. Even if I have amazing for it.
So, by definition only transports that
which can be transported.
It's a messaging system. It's a
transportation system of that which
could be communicated.
How can you call Ain Sofe? The from Ain
Sofe. The itself is not Ain Sofe. The
has a source.
Comes the Alter Rebbi and his inyan of
that means that the battle of oil.
It channels not only that which is
accessible, it's also that which is
inaccessible.
In other words, in the lotion of this
again, I'm I'm using words
>> [laughter]
>> with the trap of words
is Migola not only
that dimension of which lends itself to
his
because I shall lend himself also to his
just like I shall have the
lower higher
he has the capacity to
be concealed. He has the capacity to be
revealed. So it doesn't only channel the
frequency of and
most
>> [snorts]
>> but the bitter of
that is entire is what
I am nothing but a channel for the
mayor. So
channels that which can't be channeled.
channels
the elements so I'm using words element
the element of most
that's beyond it.
The essence of
which is not
why is it not BECAUSE
IT'S NOT
BECAUSE IT HAS NO DEFINITION.
WHEN I SAY HE'S NOT REALLY I DON'T mean
he's stuck not he's not
because nothing could define him not not
him.
You
can't say he is, you can't say he's not.
You can't say he's fine and you can't
say he's infinite. You can't even say he
is. Even the word isness is already our
definition of and that's not and so it
means infinite not only in space and
time but infinite in definition no
description.
And I
CHANNELS THAT TOO.
IN SIMPLE ENGLISH TO QUOTE TO quote you
see that's what I like what said that
she wasn't wasn't hiding behind in
simple English is all in.
I'm not in with a part of me that I want
you to appreciate which is also not a
bad thing by the way.
All in means all in.
But it's not all in an investment you
know all the money in my bank. All in
here means at most.
So we have to we have to appreciate what
those words mean.
That's what is giving. That's what I'm
giving to you.
In the lotion of the minor not only
but also than cats.
The
element of that channels the the
of a shot.
How does that come out? A
how does that come out? That comes out
in every moment of revelation.
From the from the how does it come out?
It comes out in every experience of
comes out this and most.
ALL THE WAY DOWN TO THE LOWEST LEVELS.
Wherever you have a moment of life we
have clarity
where you have connection
where you open up where you feel and
flow. What just happened? That is
in
in your in your experience.
It can happen in this in in
can happen in him.
But that's a moment of him.
What's
in cats that comes out in it?
So it's not that that's not in it.
That's also in it.
But how does that come out?
That doesn't come out.
In
that comes out where? In the
concealment.
Yeah, it doesn't come out. What
Those are the moments I feel I'm alone.
I'm abandoned.
I feel broken. I was as we said thrown
off a cliff.
So it's not you were abandoned. You're
gone. You're finished.
Now it's like in the muscle, right? What
were you given? You were given something
that is beyond it.
If you come to the muscle of the what's
the muscle of the of?
The muscle of the
is that the child was separated from the
father. Why? Because he wants more
what's that more
a whole different type of
for that he had to go into to a to the
distance.
And that's why the title comes into
physical stories because that's like the
person who dresses up in a different
garment and speaks a different language
to connect to the child. So now what
does that mean
in a person's life? There's the way the
and the golf are reflecting God. In
other words, the matter
they're near the father.
Even if they're far but they're still
related and then there's the child who
loses all connection. What does that
mean?
You're disconnected. Every time you feel
disconnected, you're feeling in simple
English depressed, despondent, lazy,
blah, disconnected.
That's the soul left separated. It's
alone in the world trying to figure
things out.
That's a classic example of
him Simpson.
There's concealment. There's no flow.
There's no communication.
Yeah, that's the whole unit of
and that's what separateness is. That's
the separateness. I'm on my own. I have
to deal with my own ego my own
insecurity. Comes about and says all of
this is kind OF SIR.
WHAT'S KIND OF SIR? So the says not more
pleasure. For that I didn't have to go
through all OF THESE PAIN. DIFFERENT
TYPE OF WHAT'S THE DIFFERENT TYPE OF OF?
THE MATTER THAN CATS kind of a portion.
So now
what does this mean in it?
What does this mean in it?
I want to try to make this but kids are
just to get here through the could.
I'm going to ask you a question so deep
question that people have to ask
themselves.
What do you think you could give most to
somebody you love?
What what can we give most to somebody
we love?
It's not I'm not trying to ask on paper.
So you'll say
connection
love, validation, appreciation
of course shelter, protection, right?
All that.
You keep Huh?
Oh, myself. What does that look like?
I can't pull out my heart and give it to
them because I'll be dead. I can't pull
out my brain. So what does that look
like? You said to give myself.
Beautiful.
Not my money. Obviously if you give
yourself you'll probably give some
money. You'll give protection. You'll
give shelter. You'll give you'll give
love. You'll give kindness etc. You'll
give your resources.
But yourself, right? What do they say?
Don't invest in the eggs. Invest in the
chicken.
Don't just give your loved one the eggs.
Give them the chicken. What does that
look like? What does it mean to give
myself?
So in lotion of
that's kind of
that's what kind of means.
What you can give to somebody more than
anything else is your bliss.
Your bliss and there's nothing that
replaces that.
And it's the hardest thing to give.
>> [snorts]
>> It's the hardest thing to give. In fact,
I would argue that many of us
deep down know that we don't know how to
give that.
So therefore we compensate with another
hundred thousand things to give outside
of our of.
What does it mean to give my bliss?
It's in a very little way.
If you're sitting with your spouse,
you're sitting with your wife, you're
sitting with your husband, you're
sitting with your child, you're sitting
with somebody very very close to you.
I can give them
kindness. I could say nice things.
Right? I could smile. I could give a
compliment.
I can give them money.
I can give them ideas. We can have a
beautiful I don't mean fake a real
meaningful conversation. A meaningful
conversation where you're actually
sharing perspectives and we all know
that's how people connect. You talk
about life. You talk about challenge.
You talk about interest. You talk about
priorities.
You talk about ideas. You talk about
meaningful ideas. You talk about
and I.
You learn with your wife Tanya.
It's a very deep form of connection.
Right? It's called what do they call it?
DMC deep meaningful conversations.
That's what the teenagers call it. DMC.
Not to confuse with DMV the Department
of Motor Vehicles where you don't want
to have DMC.
You just want to go in and out as fast
as possible cuz
So
that's all good.
We could connect even deeper. We could
connect with singing a
You connect with singing a
everybody knows. You could connect with
food. That's the quintessential
Hungarian and Russian Polish Jewish way
of connecting. S S S S S S S
In fact, in many Jewish cultures where
they couldn't deal with emotions, food
was
the substitute for love.
They fed you till you couldn't breathe
and that meant [snorts] they love you
till you can't breathe.
It wasn't what you needed but it was
their way of saying I love you. I
starved as a child. You will never
starve. I will make sure you go out of
my house choking to death
and with stomach digestive problems for
2 weeks because you just ate the meal of
nine people that was supposed to eat it
over 9 weeks in one sitting because I
love you.
S mine kid S S S
S a beautiful way of compensating.
Right? And the truth is feeding somebody
is love.
It's a beautiful there's five languages
of love. They all talk about five
languages of love. Right? All these
languages of love.
But there's something
that people want more than anything
else. And you know what that is. That's
your of.
Your of means if I'm sitting with
somebody if I'm sitting with my wife if
I'm sitting with my child
or you're sitting with your loved one
and what they feel from you is
that you're actually experiencing bliss
from this connection.
And that's why you see it's not so easy.
If I give you food, I give you money,
I'll play a game with you. Playing a
game is a schmuck.
But
the game will only be as good schmuck as
your time is,
right?
That's what means giving your answer.
What do you What What are you giving?
That's what That's what self means.
I can't cut off my hand and give it to
you. That does not going to do anything
for anybody. It's not what you want.
It's not what I want. It's not the same
connection.
People sometimes think that's love. You
cut off parts of yourself and you give
it away. Yeah. Here, go you narcissist.
Just take it.
Time is not giving away yourself. It's
sharing yourself.
Sharing yourself. How do I share myself?
What does that look like?
I'll sit with you for an hour and look
at you. Okay.
It's nice if I'm not on my phone. We'll
go to Costco. Fine. We'll go on
vacation. Beautiful. It's a good weather
to go on vacation. Run as fast as you
can from New York.
All good.
But it will only be as powerful as the
time that's there. If you're taking me
on vacation to get rid of me.
So you I shouldn't say that's nothing.
But even if you're doing these things in
a nice way but with the time is not
there, the self is not there. The time
is the deepest frequency of self.
That's the bliss.
And when the child or the spouse or the
friend feels that, it's irreplaceable.
Yeah.
That's where they're truly seen.
Because we're not giving them something.
You're giving them you.
What do you mean? Where did I give you
you?
You're in bliss from this relationship.
What does that mean?
That means that you touch me.
That means that your presence touches
me.
I'm not just giving you something of me.
I'm giving you me.
Because time is rooted
in the core of the soul.
Everything else is a faculty of the
soul.
Time says in this is a market connected
to a fish. It's what the soul is
internally.
The bliss of the soul. It's even deeper
than desire. Desire is I want. I'm
gravitating to something. I want. Time
is
We will soon a second. Time is I am.
This is the soul in itself experiencing
bliss. It's not even gravitating to
something. Time is the soul in its own
sacred self is called time.
Now
This time I'm working with time a
portion. Time I'm working with is like
all pleasures in the world. There's so
many pleasures in the world cuz God put
Why is there pleasure? There's almost
pleasure almost in everything. There's
pleasure in eating an orange. If you
clear If you eat an orange slowly,
especially if you didn't eat the whole
day or you came from an interesting
journey and you eat an orange or even
one grape. We usually don't do it cuz we
just eat it fast and
you take one grape and you see what's in
that grape. There's a lot of time in the
grape.
We just eat one grape and then we need
another 20 grapes and we don't even
notice. But that's not how you're
supposed to eat.
You eat a cucumber. Eat lettuce. Eat a
tomato.
Whatever you're eating, a banana.
There's a miracle there and there's a
pleasure there.
You know that writes in a moment in time
portions of
that the pleasure of the taste of food
comes before digestion. Digestion is the
pragmatic part of food.
But God made to give God wants to have
pleasure in the food cuz that's the time
that he put into the food as part of the
connection.
I don't just want you to eat a grape so
that you have nutrients. I want you to
eat a grape so that you feel MY LOVE.
THAT'S WHY IT TASTES GOOD. Why Why from
an evolutionary perspective
every fruit and vegetable and piece of
wood has a different flavor cuz it's a
different form of time of a
relationship.
I want to share something with you. I
want to share something with you.
So when we eat
coffee beans, it is a time. I want to
share my love with you. How? Here's a
little flavor of that This is but this
is God's time. This is his way of saying
He did
We We take everything for granted cuz we
live in a crazy atheistic world. We
don't understand that it's all about
relationships. But why are you taking it
for granted? You went to a tree. You
took off a fruit. What happened there?
You know how many billions of forces of
nature came together to create this
banana, this tomato? Why are you taking
it for granted? I shall invested his
ingenious creativity in putting it
together.
Why? With a special flavor. Why? So that
you should feel my presence. It's all
the rights.
Before digestion comes the
which is the relationship. And
everything in the world has time. What
about music?
Music. What's music?
This A person hears a song, plays a
song, composes a song and their heart
opens. It touches the time in the
cuz music has time. Say has time.
Ideas. You learn something. Wow.
Special.
Love has time.
Vision. You look at a You look at a
sunrise, a sunset, an ocean, nature, a
landscape, a beautiful body, a beautiful
structure. Wow. You hear something. You
hear a beautiful voice.
This time Everything in the world has
time. Different frequencies of time.
By the way, kishka and babka also have
time.
But that's much more short-lived and it
touches a much more base level of time.
There's deeper deeper deeper. That's all
time I'm working with. It's time. How do
you experience time? Through the orange.
Through the conversation.
Through the music. Through the learning.
Through the learning.
Right? Through the love.
Through the vacation. Through the
experience of I would the art.
Visual.
Or or audio ears or even you smell
something.
Ah. Wow. A good tobacco. It's also time.
IT'S ALL GOD communicating his bliss.
Didn't come from nowhere.
Where Where Where did it come from?
Was it It WAS IT WAS CREATED. IT was
created to share something. This is all
time I'm working with.
Then there is time a portion.
What time a portion? Time a portion
means it comes from somewhere.
If there's music, if there's pleasure in
music and pleasure in ideas and pleasure
in in
in symmetry and pleasure in art and
pleasure in every good in the world and
food and in time.
There's also pleasure in emotions. It
came from somewhere. It came from the
source.
And how do you know the source is
pleasure? Because if everywhere If I
have pleasure and I want pleasure and
you have pleasure and you want And
there's pleasure the source must have
infinite pleasure. Time a portion is
touching the source of it. Like the
central command, the central nervous
system.
You know, there's so many nerves. You go
to the vagus nerve. You go like to the
central command.
The source of that's called time a
portion. It's not a time connected to
anything happening.
It's a moment you can experience the
frequency of the divine itself. That's
time.
Not through the world. Not through a
medium. Time I'm working with is through
a medium and there's endless mediums and
IT'S ALL FROM
TIME A PORTION IS YOU'RE TOUCHING THE
FREQUENCY of time itself.
It's not so easy to get here
because we have so many bad edges and so
many struggles and so much darkness. We
don't even know we have it. Me, I'm just
I'm dark and depressed. But everybody
has it cuz your soul is such an antenna
of life.
And since the source of everything is
time
because the time originates in himself.
And what is God in his essence? So we
have no definition and no description.
But we know that a major part of it is
bliss.
Time
and that's at the That's the back end
code of all creation.
That time.
That what? My time is in you.
And I want to share that time with you.
So now when you ask a question is time
narcissistic, there's two types of time.
There's the time with an agenda. I want
to use you.
But that's not real time. That's coming
from my own trauma.
Which thinks that my greatest pleasure
in the world will come from using you
cuz I don't even know myself. I don't
know who I am. In real time, the real
frequency of time is the opposite.
The bliss is so infinite and it's so
deep.
And the bliss is in the relationship
with you. In the relationship and the
connection with you. Not to use you. Not
to manipulate you. Not even to get
anything back from you.
But just that connection is the deepest
bliss.
So the whole idea of
is that his deepest time is you.
That's the deepest time. You. That's the
time.
God says I'm infinite. But you know
where I want to spend my time? IN YOUR
HEART. My heart is nothing really
EXCITING THERE.
THAT'S WHAT I WANT.
THAT'S
I YOU'RE THE HOME. I DON'T NEED YOU TO
BUILD another home. You're the house.
You're the
That's the time that I want.
And this is the back end code of every
Everything comes from here.
And it begins with life.
So the experience of a person's time is
The deepest time is when you could touch
God's time in you.
That is the deepest time.
That is the place where you connect in
the deepest place. That's the That's the
light.
The opposite of narcissism in the
highest extreme. Yeah.
Huh?
And it's really surrendering everything
because the person is just
You You learn that your essence is the
tinok.
Which essence? The essence that doesn't
need any form of presentation or
validation or any masks. Huh?
It's not There's no transactions. It's
not transactional.
Yeah.
Now, here
in tinok of pashut, here we come to the
last nakuda. There's two nakudas.
This tinok of pashut
that's not murkav.
But it comes out that every Rashab says
it comes out in a person dancing.
I don't know if you ever experienced
this, but if you dance uninhibitedly
when a person is feeling
a deep tinok, they lose control, and
it's the best feeling in the world.
It's like when you people start dancing
and there's no self-consciousness.
Very often when we dance, you know,
you're looking, am I am I normal? Am I
crazy?
But when you talk because that's all
tinok that's still measured and there's
a little ego involved.
Huh?
And that's that's gehenna.
And that's gehenna.
Yeah.
But even when a person is experiencing
tinok
there's a self-communicating there.
So it's tinok of murkav. In tinok of
pashut it expresses itself without any
inhibitions.
So the person, like it says by David,
David mefazeze mekarche mechol ois
lifnei Hashem, and his wife said,
"You're embarrassing me."
And David Hamelach said, "I would have
danced even more. It was in front of the
Aron."
That uninhibited self-con- There was no
self-consciousness there.
Touches a deeper place of tinok.
Where there's so much internal bliss,
it's just you're celebrating life itself
and the relationship itself beyond any
expression and manifestation, and
therefore it just comes out
in an uninhibited way.
This is all gilui of tinok. Lematah den
tachlis.
And then there is
makif of Or Choizer. Az oi.
And here is This is it.
When the Ohr is real Ohr, what does it
know?
It knows that the truth is
that Atzmus is not bigated Ohr.
So if Ohr is a real channel
there's a message encoded in the Ohr
that says
my very
identity as a channel
is undermining everything.
So I want to just go back to the source.
To the point that I should be completely
invisible. That's what the Ohr says.
Even though the whole inyan of Ohr is to
channel Ein Sof, I understand this cuz
this is the secret of life.
Even though the whole inyan of Ohr is to
channel Ein Sof, that's true.
But because Ohr is a real channel
so Ohr in its very nature has a a
paradoxical message. On one hand, I'm
here to channel Ein Sof.
But what does it mean to channel Ein
Sof? To tell you that Ein Od Milvado
Mamash.
So there's no channel.
So if I'm really doing my job, you know
what I am? I don't exist. I'm I'm right
back in my essence. And that's what Ohr
says.
So in the deepest place of Ohr
it's channeling the essence mamash, and
therefore it undermines itself in a
beautiful way where it says, "All you
want is go back to the source and don't
come out. Go back to the source and be
subsumed in THE SOURCE WITHOUT ANY
LIGHT." AND THAT'S PART OF OHR.
CUZ IT'S EMES. EXACTLY. It's emes.
And if I don't know this, if if if if
This this is the Ohr is cuz Ohr is kulai
emes. Ohr does no compromises in Ohr.
It's not telling you 50%. Telling you
the whole truth. So in the whole truth,
EIN OD MILVADO MAMASH. ATZMUS HAS NO
DEFINITIONS.
SO IT GIVES YOU EVERYTHING. IN other
words, Atzmus wanted to give you
everything, not just Ohr. He wanted to
give YOU HIMSELF, AND IN THE REAL SELF
THERE'S NO DEFINITION. Everything is
subsumed in infinite oneness without a
definition and a description. SO IN OHR
ITSELF YOU FEEL THAT.
NOW, SINCE EVERYTHING in the world is
Ohr, everything is communicating God. So
whenever you go to the deepest core of
anything
it's going to defy revelation. And
that's why in the deepest place of
seichel it's ne'elam mikol rayen. The
deepest play- LOGIC IS ALSO OHR.
Everything is Ohr.
Everything is God communicating. The
question is which frequency? So logic is
also God communicating. But since in Ohr
there's lema'alah den katz, Atzmus, so
in every nakuda in the world that when
YOU GET TO THE CORE OF IT, IT'S GOING TO
TELL YOU, "I DON'T EXIST."
AND IF YOU WANT TO HAVE ME, TAKE ME BACK
ALL THE WAY TO THE SOURCE WHERE I DON'T
EXIST cuz there's nothing outside of
him.
So in seichel, what is it going to do?
It's going to become ne'elam mikol
rayen.
It's deeper and deeper and DEEPER AND
DEEPER UNTIL IT DISINTEGRATES IN YOUR
HANDS cuz that's the emes of seichel.
In tinok also.
IN THE DEEPEST FORM of tinok, it's going
to be so deep that the tinok IS GOING TO
SAY
THERE'S NO WORDS for the bliss, not even
dancing. So what, yeah? You're like a
stone.
Why are you like a stone?
So
it could be there's even people who
experience a little bit of this, but
there's a moment of tinok
at least in the human language
and I think it's touching on this
where
you are so subsumed experientially in
the source
that you can't even
you know that if you express it in any
way, you're going out of it.
The only way to be there is
not to acknowledge that you're there. To
even think about that you're there
takes you out of it.
So what does it look like? It looks like
you're a stone. You're lifeless.
Why? Cuz you choizer latzmusai.
Any tnu'a if I go like this if I go like
this, if I go like this, beautiful. But
in that space of tinok
I just ruined the whole thing.
Cuz if it's the choizer latzmusai
lema'alah lema'alah den katz, there's no
katz to how concealed it can be.
Just like revealed, ein katz deep
enough. Any expression is already not
that tinok cuz that tinok is complete
fusion. Fusion with what? With Atzmus.
So how does it How does a person
experience it?
Without mamash death.
I don't mean physical death, death of
ego, death of spirit, death of
everything.
And the answer is there's no tnu'a.
That's what he says, "Bli shum tnu'a."
So So what, are you dead? No, you're
alive.
That's what That's what it looks like in
Atzmus.
Experientially, what that is a moment
where you so experience the fusion
between your soul and the divine source
that the bliss is so overwhelming
that the person is just like glued and
subsumed in the source
and everything is open. You're a channel
for infinity.
But you can't even process it in any
way.
You can't think about it. You can't
articulate it. You don't even want to
say, "Wow, this is amazing." The words
"Wow, this is amazing"
takes you out of it.
So what, yeah? And the answer is
it it it it it's it's an achdus. It is.
Now, we we don't live in that place
forever cuz dirah betachtoinim. We're
usually thrown right back. Okay, wake
up. You know, somebody got to pay the
bills here.
So that's where we come back to the Baal
Shem Tov's idea that the the child is
thrown away, but in the merhachim
that's where this tinok is nigala.
That's the whole vort of the Baal Shem
Tov. We Hashem wanted to give us this
tinok.
This tinok you only get in the distance.
Why?
Because
in the distance there's no gilui.
So what connects us?
You remember like the mashal em.
The mashal em is in the world of
seichel, but in the world of tinok it's
even more powerful. The world of mashal,
the reason the mashal captures this is
because it conceals everything.
Only in a place where there's complete
concealment
can the tinok of pashut actually
experientially emerge in you because it
can't emerge as a revealed reality. It
must emerge as a secret, and the secret
is inside of you, and it's in your
essence. And that's what gives the child
the connection when he's distant. When
the child is disconnected, what connects
him? And the answer is what connects him
is not connection. What connects him is
essence.
What connects you on that level is your
core core core core. And what's in that
core? And that core is his core.
And that's what you find. At that moment
you find his core. Where? Not in any
flow, in your core.
And could you describe it? I can't
describe it. That's why it couldn't be
communicated. This is something that's
indescribable. But this is the deepest
essence. That's the makif of Or Choizer.
That's the tinok of pashut where there's
no tnu'a. That's what the Baal Shem Tov
meant, tinok yosef tinok.
>> [snorts]
>> If I go through all my layers, all my
blockages, blockage, blockage, blockage,
blockage, blockage.
The pain. You see, we create a life as
far as possible from tinok.
Because that's what the distance looks
like. We create a life as far as
possible. We create a life of survival.
Deep deep down, we have to admit this,
deep deep down for many of us if you
will tell them that the core of all life
is your blissful
experience of God and God's blissful
experience with you.
They're like, "Which world are you
living in? What drugs are you taking?
Leave me alone. You're a meshuggener."
I don't know I told you once that the
Mendel of Rimanov Dicker
after the Maggid passed away, the Alter
Rebbe went to the Mendel of the Pri
Orach.
He was a talmid of his. So it was once
Rosh Hashanah he went to be by him. And
the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker came home
and they started the seder Rosh
Hashanah. They wanted to make kiddush.
Alter Rebbe is not there.
So the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker didn't
want to start the meal uh
without the Alter Rebbe. So he sent
a few of his talmidim to go to shul and
see what's happening. Maybe he you know,
maybe he needs an escort, whatever it
is. They come back and they say, "He's
davening noch. He's still davening."
He waits longer and he sends other
shluchim and
Alter Rebbe used to daven on Rosh
Hashanah at night very, very long for
hours.
There's a special niggun he had for
dveikus Rosh Hashanah. It's called
niggun dveikus Rosh Hashanah. In any
case, he wasn't coming. He sent more and
it was getting late.
So what did he decide? He's going to go
himself.
He's not going to send any talmidim. So
the Mendel of Rimanov Dicker went
himself to the shul
to see.
And he sees Alter Rebbe davening. He
comes back. The story was recorded so it
was remembered. And he turns to
everybody.
He did not disturb him. He went back and
he said, "We're starting the meal
without him."
So he said, "Well, what's happening?" So
he said these words. He said,
"A freybt zich mit dem Meibershtn un der
Rebbe sich freybt zich mit dem."
And I'm not going to be the And so to
speak, I'm not going to be the one to
disturb that.
In other words, he's now tapping into
everything. So now I'm going to schlepp
into a meal so we can have a Rosh
Hashanah meal.
>> [laughter]
>> I'm just explaining it in my own words.
You understand?
What was that? That's this That's the
ta'anug.
A freybt zich mit dem Meibershtn un der
Rebbe sich freybt zich mit
So you say, "So we could have stayed up
there un zich frey mit Meibershtn." Says
the Baal Shem Tov, "No. Ta'anug yoyser."
There's the ta'anug that comes with
derech giluy or yerusha, makif of
yerusha, le matah din tachlis. That's
the way the ohr is communicating God's
revelation with neshama feeling close.
That's Gan Eden and zeiva shechina, the
higher world. Beautiful, beautiful,
beautiful. Pre-tzimtzum, after-tzimtzum,
depends where, but it's all giluy.
Then comes aninyan.
Atzmus takes the neshama, throws it out
completely.
So it goes through the lowest
concealments.
So the Baal Shem Tov says, "What's this
about? Stam, so now we're going to make
a game with torture and everybody's
going to be tortured?"
And they're going to figure it out and
then after many years,
okay, they're going to find some hope in
life.
Like it's it's it could be it could seem
very sadistic, like very, very, very
hard, very harsh.
And the truth is we don't have answers
to everything. This is not a place of
answers.
What's the Baal Shem Tov being megaleh
here? The Baal Shem Tov is being megaleh
here
that there comes a moment where you lose
everything. You literally lose
everything.
And those of you who are more sensitive,
like everybody sitting here,
that's why you're probably still sitting
here.
Those who are more sensitive feel it
much more because they're more
sensitive.
The only word The only thing that's
worse than being thrown off a cliff is
being thrown off a cliff
and saying,
you know, it was just a joke or it
wasn't really a cliff.
Huh?
In other words, you recreate from your
trauma, you recreate redemption. You
make your galus into geulah.
You make your abandonment workable.
And the And God And if you have more
distractions, you can get away with it.
Today I have a new phone. Tomorrow I get
a new watch. The next day I get a new
car. The next day I buy a new house. The
next day I go there to sell for 3 weeks.
Next day I go to Florida for a month.
Baruch Hashem, you have your ta'anugim.
>> [laughter]
>> All to avoid facing
the real pain of the world, the real
pain of loneliness.
So we forget. Everybody should have all
the ta'anug in the world. Much better
than the other way, right?
But a person needs to understand the
emes.
So there's one thing you can only
discover in distance. Only one thing.
If you're looking for giluyim,
then go back. IT'S MUCH BETTER. THAT WAS
NOT Bnei Yisrael's mistake. That was the
meraglim's mistake. They weren't stupid
people.
The meraglim were high neshamas. Alter
Rebbe says neshamas gvoyis me'od. They
weren't stam.
They [snorts] said, "This is very nice,
but we want the midbar. The midbar is
the place to be. You're in a cocoon of
divinity. You're in Gan Eden."
But what's the emes?
The emes is is one thing that happens in
the distance. One thing that remains
connected. What remains connected? There
was no connection anymore. You were
completely detached.
The one thing that could be communicated
only through detachment.
It's not through flow, not through
revelation. What is that?
The atzmus. The whole moshel of a moshel
is that. You're giving a moshel. The
moshel is didn't give me anything.
The moshel I'm just an entertainer.
There's nothing here, but you gave
everything.
In that disconnect, what did I give you?
I didn't give you connection and ohr and
light and revelation.
But there's one thing. What is that? The
essence itself that you have. That you
have.
When you discover that, that's the
ta'anug.
And in that ta'anug, everything is worth
it because it's the core of the whole
Ein Sof that you have a relationship
with in your deepest essence.
Be'ezras Hashem, I hope to finish the
ma'amar tomorrow morning 8:00. Huh?
>> [applause]
>> So he asked, "It's not big at the giluy.
It was It's why are you calling it
giluy?" That's the whole revolution. His
This question that's
Ohr
Ohr says,
"I don't exist." THAT'S THE ULTIMATE
MESSAGE of ohr.
THERE'S THE MESSAGE OF OHR IS LIGHT.
LIGHT. LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, I'm revealing
light. Not I'm revealing light, but the
light is being revealed through me. Not
me, but through me.
And then there's the deeper element of
ohr. What does ohr say?
Ohr says, "You know what? You don't
really need me."
You really don't need me.
I'm just a little part of the equation.
There's much deeper. There's the atzmus
which is the source of ohr.
Reb Avraham Shmuel Taub says,
which level of ta'anug?
Yeah. It's a state of mind that if you
acknowledge it, you literally ruin it.
If you want to hold on to it. If you
want to like grab it. If you want to
write about it. If you want to talk
about it. If you even want to feel it.
What's wrong? I want to feel it.
You just ruined everything. Not your
fault. It doesn't lend itself to be
felt. It doesn't lend itself to
experience. It's a paradox at the core
of reality. Huh?
You get out of flow, yeah. You
disconnect, yeah. You swap it
for something that feels good for a
second and you just lost it.
This can only be experienced through
non-experiential
dveikus.
So you don't.
I can't It's not f- It's not fake. No.
Not fake at all.
It's the It's the ultimate truth. It's
not fake at all. You know you touch it.
It's not It's It's not replaceable.
So the vort is that atzmus, which is not
defined,
sends you out of it.
That's the That he sends you out of it.
He says, "Now go into the world of
experience. Go into the world of
tachtaynim."
And in that space,
and the way it comes out is it'll be
like high distance,
but it's rooted in that space.
And that's what gives you the koach to
go in to go out of it, to go into the
merchak.
Because then the merchak and in the
distance, you're not revealing ohr,
you're embodying ohr. You don't become a
revelation, you become an embodiment.
As I said in the other shiur, you don't
connect to source, you are the source.
You are the source. Here is where it is.
Well, me?
Yeah.
But it's in the most humble, humble way.
There's no ego here. There can't There's
no ego. Already in ohr there's no ego.
And here the ego is like shattered on
steroids.
You are the source.
That's the only thing in the ultimate
distance. What do I have left? I'm not
in flow. There's nothing coming down.
The light has not been The light has
been interrupted.
So what's here?
You don't have a ohr. You don't have
giluyim.
But the atzmus came in.
Not came in. Atzmus is here. Oh, that
the child That the child has.
Can we say that