Beauty in Pain: Tefillah During Challenging Times by Rabbi Menachem Nissel

too much pressure on me over here I've never done this before I've never sat teaching before let me try let me try I've never done this before in my life sit while teaching oh my gosh just like I'm so high up as it is I feel like okay if I stand up is this good I did the camera person can see me hi everyone my name is I just wanted to thank uh once again ritson's mirror for introducing me as usual um she mentioned that I'm a writer for mishak magazine so I just want to plug that this week you should all buy Mish magazine because they're doing a feature on me and not that I like to sell myself but yeah a little bit I like to self-promote so uh Mish magazine will have both in the women's section I'm starting a new column there on um Inspirations for the shabas table and on the main section I have a um well they're writing about me about a book that I'm coming out now on my rebi rosi Shapiro whose yard side is this Friday on aares so they're featuring him and the book that I wrote about him so yeah and uh if you want next time I see you I'll sign your copy and uh you can resell on eBay for a profit so it's like win-win for everybody um it's going to be um here in Israel immediately available hopefully ready next week it's a felim book and it's called looking into the sun Mish magazine will be here in the stores on Wednesday um at every good local store yeah Mish magazine um I I this is out of my my knowledge scale I get it for free I'm a writer I get I get it I don't know how it works in real life um yeah um so and and the other thing is if I'm ready self-promoting so you should just know that um I'm having a next month God willing the new version of Rick H for women is going to be out expanded version and uh this is very exciting for me so I actually have a very serious topic to talk about so I want to begin with the story um I apologize I have definitely told this story here in this room beforehand so if you've heard this before bear with me uh one of the things that I do for a living is I take groups to Europe honestly if I had my choice if I would take you I would go to what I call Happy Europe which is you know whatever Spain and Italy and fun places like that but most times I go to sad Europe which is basically Poland and Lithuania and I take groups uh from all over the world and I try and Inspire them uh with our history so the story goes um this is now two years ago two years ago I went to a place to Kent with a group of men from um you know from Flatbush Mony lakehood you get the picture this my over there and in lens as you may know is buried a great sadic who wants to finish my sentence the re right re I have a side to me so whenever I go to these sikim I always first go to the Mikvah as a mik right there so I can go into the Kev I can go there with my Holiness having just been there to the mikah um the group that I was with we bunch of Yesa guys they don't do Mikvah before K but two young men decided to accompany the rabbi it turned out it was a blessing because while I was there something happened I don't exactly know what happened um it seems to me that I slept maybe on a bar of soap and I woke up in a leens hospital um and basically if you can imagine there's a lady in the back who's eating um Can a favor can you just raise your sandwich just for one moment for everyone to look at imagine that's my arm over there okay you see how it's cut in the middle it's cut in the middle that's what it was I still have a bone sticking out exactly and it was also cut three ways times this way so thank you you did this on Q it was perfect um so that's my was broken my arm was broken in several places and um I in incredible incredible pain I woke up my hand was the size of a balloon I didn't know what was happening it was just at the end of Corona remember Corona remember those days Corona so uh the only person that was allowed to accompany me was voch my polish driver and he was trying to explain that I had completely lost all sense of my arm so you can close your eyes and you can touch your nose like this but I did not know where my hand was my hand was just did not exist the nerves had nothing was connected nothing existed except for my pain and um at this point now I I saw what they were doing they they took a photograph I saw what was happening I heard them say um we have to bang bones together right they were talking about the doctors discussing now when I say it was a hospital um it wasn't a hospital like you and I know hospitals it was more like a Dracula's castle you know like V blood I just I don't know what was going on over there but uh you can't actually see patients you just hear the moans and the Cries From the distance and uh I heard them that they wanted to literally bang my bones together and um um Nails one person was complaining they I have friend okay he have nails he is Carpenter I did not know what was going on okay I was pushing them like smashing my bones together I knew this was not good I called up my friend could be some of you know him um Dr Michael wensky hadasa Hospital anybody know him Willie childhood friend from England I called him up uh he was watching a football game in a pub here in usai I'm not going to go into the details but Harry Kane had just scored for England so basically he assumed that's why I was calling you like go I said really okay I said no no no no this is this is this is step out I know you're you know I know England's beating Denmark like woohoo but you step out this is your best friend we grew up together I need you now I need you I explained to him what was going on sudden he became very serious he says get out of that hospital get into your taxi go straight to W the airport fly to Y here we'll take care of you which is what happened he took care of me and a lot of incredible Miracles happened to be once I arrived in AR to thr but the first thing we had to do was literally escape from this Hospital okay this was me like my broken arm the whole thing with the pain uh they had put me on these happy drugs I don't want to go into details but uh yeah the happy drugs made me happy but did not really take away the essential pain itself and uh literally I told vek to find his inner Jason Bourn right to basically to get in there to run away to J we picked up one of the KRA from the group one of the senior uh members of the group joined us and uh this was it the three of us were heading to w and this is happening at night time so we're driving all night long now about 4 hours into this drive I suddenly noticed that voch my driver is uh is starting to Swerve he's falling asleep at the whale so now I have a whole new set of problems okay I I say VCH I says I says okay this is ridiculous just get out get off the main get off the highway get into the first Forest you find and get some sleep for half for now I we need to live we need to make it to the airport thank you RAB thank you RAB we Veer off we go into this Forest he stops the car within seconds he's asleep seconds later Dove is asleep and suddenly I find myself in the following situation now I want you to understand okay I cannot sleep over here all I'm feeling is there waves and waves of pain going like this and um Hashem decided to torture me in a very Exquisite way at that moment then why because both VCH and Dove my friend were both snoring but they were snoring in harmony vek had like the high notes uh he had some kind of a nasal situation so picture King David's harp but instead of harop strings it was his no strings and this was B basically he was going like that thing and Dove was doing like this deep thing and I said I don't know what gam is like but this is how I imagine it and at this point now I start to think and I start to think with Clarity I do not know how I'm going to do anything with my life this moment now my life had come to a like a basically it had been halted I don't want to go into details but just think about it without an arm how do you do basic acts of hygiene okay I'm not going to go into the details with one hand and okay I tell you what I can say try doing your laces with one hand apparently can be done one of my students showed me how I hate her because she could do it right she was a what's it called one of those people that work with um occupational therapist she showed me how to do it in the veal and seriously I've never forgiven her for that that for that you know she showed me that it can be done of course in real life you can't do it bottom line is for the next three months my children had to take care of everything I did not sleep in a bed for three months I wasn't able to to to put on my f anything nothing for 3 months my life was Gehan but that moment in that Forest I had a certain Clarity that I've never had in my life you see I'm AA teacher I always teach I'm always trying to get yeah you got a do like the whole thing you got to say the H I'm always like raah at that moment then I felt a sense of vulnerability that I don't remember ever having in my life there was unique pain that I was going through both physical and emotional um I could hear the sounds of bears in the forest of course it's my imagination but the Wolves you know the that was definitely there and it was pitch black dark and I'm there along with the K and I said to K but for the first time it wasn't just words I meant it you've got this okay it is completely and totally in your hands and I don't wish upon anyone the feelings of pain that I had at that moment the whole thing was a big joke I'll tell you why because when I woke up vek I asked him how far are we from the from the airport he said about 20 minutes oh my gosh okay we were literally 20 minutes away from the airport we could have gone straight there but K wanted me to feel that moment of extreme pain of extreme vulnerability and with that the extreme Clarity that we are all in's hands that all my otheros cannot bring me and this is really what I wanted to share with you today I wanted to share with you that no one in this room wants to experience pain emotional or physical or otherwise but sometimes and unfortunately we all know this these things happen and we're living in an age the last two months where there's been a lot of pain I'm I'm not a soldier but I have a lot of lot of beloved friends I mentioned my friend Dr wensy he has three sons that are fighting my sister has three sons it's secondary pain of what they're going through it's late at night thinking about the hostages everyone over here knows what I mean when I talk about that secondary pain that we feel thinking about what people are going through what it means to be fighting in those awesome those awesome situations that our soldiers are going through right now as we speak but I want to share with you that that this pain has to be seen for each one of us as an individual as an opportunity and I want to expand on this just a little bit um what I want to share with you have the exact quote in front of me unfortunately what we're going through now in history is something that you and I have seen many times in our own lives but it is basically a constant in history basically the children of Ishmael and the children of asov they as they always have are following a script Nothing is really knew about what's going on the children of ishma we know about the children of ishma the children of asov the explosion of anti-Semitism that we've seen in the last two months is following a pattern asov I always say that with a n there is what's called a recessive gene okay you don't necessarily activate it they can go their whole lives without it being activated but given the right circumstances this recessive will come out and the person sitting next to you on a college campus in Harvard suddenly looks at you differently how does that happen it happened because tell us it goes back thousands of years asov is extraordinary I don't I'm just reading a medish it feels like I'm reading today's newspapers this medish is um in in P Bas why are they called there'll come a time will hear the pain the groans of his people that's my re who I mentioned earlier points out this word is used in paros to describe the pain the Jewish people had in Egypt when they were suffering underneath the Egyptians today we're going to have that NAA once again and he continues the pain of the Jewish people that will be expressed for what the children of Ishmael will do to us at the end of days we're in the land of Israel that's why they are called is he brings the into God will listen to us the name and will answer OS and that is how the story is going to end there's going to be a moment and this ladies I just want to emphasize I'm reading to you pza was written 2,000 years ago 2,000 years ago rabar RAR the teacher Raba told us what is happening today that we will be back in the land of Israel and we will be suffering for the children of Ishmael and we will cry out to God and God will answer us so we all know secretly every person in this country knows that diplomacy is not going to solve this problem militarily we hope that A Kar is going to give us a pause but we know that it's not going to permanently solve the problem so we'll Crush Kamas and then tomorrow it be I don't want to say I don't want P but we have enough enemies to take their place that's just sold on shabas these million of children that we're trying to protect in 10 years time they're going to follow the M of the of the Tata that's what's going to happen over here they're following the script the children of Asa are following the script CL we are the ones that know something new and we always experience new because pain is always fresh when we say that we are following a script it's not really true because we have choices the pain is a constant the pain that everyone in this room feels and the extreme pain the people who are on the front lines and the hostages of feeling that does not follow a script because we have choices we have choices how to deal with that pain that's what I want to speak about over the next 25 minutes if I may I just want to expand a little bit about how to interpret how to deal with that pain so I want to share with you a story I'm asking the ladies in front of me to interrupt me the moment you figure out who this story is about okay this open for over here I'm not a lecturer I'm a teacher so if you know what I'm talking about you just can can scream it out R we know exactly who you're talking about once upon a time there was an old man who lived a life where he had no end to his suffering he was never married he was now in his late 70s had not slept for ages and he has someone who's trying to kill him and he's running away from that person killing and he's going towards danger everything he's ever had every wealth he's ever earned has been stolen from him and he finds himself in a moment of complete and total pitch black darkness and in that moment he turns to The One and Only In Praise Yak thank you very much okay so I see a few of you murmuring the word yako I presented it backwards without telling you it is because when you and I grew up I'm talking about me where are my fellow Brits where are you okay so you know remember dick wittington remember dick wittington okay or the wizard of ours okay picture Yakov in going out okay to see some kind of like a like a like there was some kind of um nobleness nobility and drama about him going out to build his family it wasn't that way yak let's go over this slowly Yu he left home at 63 he went for 14 years to learn in the Yesa off sh a place without benches right he did not sleep it said he had not slept for 14 years elifas had stolen everything he owns as had already made a rash brings down the as considered yob as good as Dead who was waiting for him at the other end laan alas had stolen everything and now here he is this elderly man never married no children nothing on his own he finds himself in this place that you and I know is the place of the future B mikdash and there he unleashes a power in that reverberates until the end of time that you and I every single time we dve inas arit ar Mar every time we dve in the mar we plug into that moment so for a lot of ladies over here this is going to be new information Mari is the Prototype of feeling in pain Mar is the first time that we have in the Terra feeling in pain took it from yov so I'm not going to explain this to you now because this is not the agenda of today's class but as you all know that the 24 hours is divided into four parts so originally corresponded to the morning corresponded to the afternoon therefore AB gives us and then when the Sun is setting that's the of and his Yakov took the night yakob took the night but yakov's great great great great great grandson D took the second half of the night and gave us a thing called toim to him corresponds to to from Midnight until the sunrise and to Hill him is what today is our custom um many ladies in front of me do not D Mar I said teacher never tell my students to D Marv you have enough on your shoulders you don't need to add more prayers but the idea of mar and what Mar represents the idea of in pain the idea of for the nighttime that is something that we need to connect to especially in these days in practice it means I heard the last um the last few minutes of reiton pearl right she spoke about the power of toim and toim okay is basically our go-to of how we express our pain to he him is like a joker in a pack of cards that allows all our anxiety all our anst all that we're going through to be expressed through the ancient words of D but the bottom line is is that y he represents feeling in pain he represents the a the forefather that lived a life that from beginning to end until par where he finally gets that tranquil Tranquility that he craved to be able to elevate himself even further that last 17 years of his life where he was in gas in Egypt but nevertheless yakob represents the forefather in pain and he gave us a that corresponds to night time so let's talk for a few minutes about night you and I have forgotten what it is the power of night why because of light electricity so you and I when the moment it gets dark we put the lights on and it makes our lives the quality of Our Lives consistently filled with light if we lived 150 years ago and if we were the average person which means that we were in poverty we couldn't necessarily afford candles Let's see we going back before before Thomas Edison before there was any form of light so what do you have a choice candles right wax or oil make a fireplace what happens if you could not afford it so when it turned dark you will Plunge Into Darkness and if it was the beginning of the month you will plunge into true Darkness I remember I'm sorry just to share with you something funny when I was um um 17 years old I grew up in London I was a very naughty boy in those days and uh what can I tell you I once um had a friend of mine his parents owned a farmhouse in a place called Kent out in the countryside we used to go there for weekends and one shabas I decided I wanted to see demons my teacher in hasman taught me that if you go to a place where there's no natural light far away from anything you take a candle you take a mirror you told me what to do you can get to see demons and I don't know why but in my teenage mind I thought it would be a lot of fun oh my gosh I walked out there midnight deep into the fields of C far away from London and I did put the candle on mirror and I scream when I saw that face I was terrified and my go I did not realize it was so scary but there it was okay a demon later on of course I realized I was just looking at my reflection but until that moment I had that moment of Terror I knew what it was it was the power of night in our religion night everything comes to a standstill Basin cannot convene at night the Bas mikdash is quiet at night nothing is happening except for the the burning of the fats I know it sounds like an aerobics work out but the burning of the fat that's all that happens um um there's no Mitzvah the Von wres there's no Mitzvah that belongs to the night that comes from the teror that is specifically uniquely night Focus except for one night in the year says the Von which is filled with mitzvos because that night is a taste of a future world where night is banished and that is satanite where would he find this Von on the words he translates the child ask the father what's going on there suddenly night is behaving like day let me quote you from the words of the moral of Prague moral of Prague in his classic sa hav his essays on in the sixth chapter he writes the following words he says my definition of night is and I quote the absence of reality it's hard to translate the word mits it's a it's not a real real it's not a word that you could translate but the absence of reality true nighttime there's no of time and there's no sense of space if you find yourself in Pitch Black you don't know what time it is and you don't know what where you are there's no sense of depth we need to be able to see to be able to see three dimensions but in pure pitch black darkness there's no time and there's no space that is called the absence of reality in that world yaku gives us the prayer called The Prayer of pain the prayer in that world Yak who was experiencing at that moment extreme pain he finds himself in the place of the future b mikdash a few miles from where we are now and in that world he expresses to KES this incredible feeling of vulnerability that he sees with Clarity that he's completely and totally in hashem's hands so I want to show you something very beautiful you summarize what I've said so far we see nighttime as an opportunity the whole world escapes from the night the whole world either sleeps which is like obvious or you party at night you don't want to think about the night you want to disconnect from reality at night you look at a screen or you go and you do anything you can not to think about that we're not in control at night I want to show you something incredible I'm going to show you something that you all know but maybe you never really thought about how powerful this idea is something else that unite that the nighttime has that is a unique gift from yaku I'm going to use a marshall to explain how this works over here imagine that you were conducting a survey in the secular world so my next five minutes I'm going to be giving you a secular narrative you go to the secular world you go to a a a shopping mall somewhere near you us Brits we go to Brent Cross wherever it is but wherever you are in America or South Africa wherever you go you go to the local shopping mall and you ask people the following question would you rather be young or would you rather be old in other words if you could live for 10 years from either 15 or 20 to 25 or 65 to what can I just tell you something I got a wakeup call last week I don't know if you know but I have a cousin called Rafi nissle so Rafi nissle is my first cousin he lives in Los Angeles beloved cousin and he's on the way to sh he was beaten up and him was with his wife like like Rifka it was anti-Semitism again right there in Beverly Hills he's on the way to shore uh he got five stitches doesn't make any difference bottom line is is that he he's a fighter he's a fighter be he went to sh and they were waiting for him because they needed a Balor so he managed to but he was in the LA Times what shook me up is that it was said in the ear times it said an elderly couple an elderly couple because my cousin she's 70 he's 75 what mean these are my cousins then I remember that I'm 62 and I said oh my gosh yeah yeah these things happen in life so um let's not think about this too much okay it's just the number you're as young as you want to be anyhow whatever so let us continue I'm just making a point people are obsessed with youth it's just a fact you go to the front cover of any magazine they love young people um they other beautiful people they idolize athletes and athletes as you all know they are basically they we have today Ronaldo Messi Ronaldo and Messi the two greatest football players soccer players they are now at the Twilight of their careers one goes to Sat one goes to America because they hit their 30s this is what happens in the athletes they basically go downhill in their 30s um in the world of acting if you're a female nothing personal but that's it whoever is the the beauty queen of today she knows she's finding a time bomb in 10 years time she will basically unless she's her name is like Merill stre she's going to have to like you know find some kind of like side jump it's the way these things work work everything goes downhill I was in university in London one of the girls over there was from Northern Scotland I can't do a Scottish accent but I do a good Irish one he says a woman's like a Christmas pudding everyone waits till the 26th if you're not eaten by then you grow old and moldy that's it okay 26 downhill so I want to show you something incredible what is it about the glamour of Youth what is it that people who are in their teens and we have children some of us have grandchildren I've I had a bz in anle last week okay we know we know that they live in this world that it's just beautiful there's some kind of a freedom that young people have what is so beautiful about that age group so you can give me many answers some of you are thinking well they should see what medicines I take no that's not what I'm looking for something much simpler something much simpler the beauty of Youth is the beauty of the power of possibilities is the world of choices when you're young you can do whatever you want so my granddaughter who's like 14 years old she can wake up in the morning and she can dream whatever she wants she wants to be a ballerina she wants to be a dancer she wants to be an actor she wants to be a musician she wants to be a poet or writer or she could be you know a Nobel Prize winner in physics she could come a politician hasem should bless her okay okay whatever it is she could do what she wants the world is her oyster the freedom of choices the freedom of dreams and you and I I'm talking about those of you in my age group this already full disclosure I'm 62 right they my age group so we want our kids to dream it's important to dream and dreaming is beautiful but the point is that those dreams start to disappear just like as night time turns into day those dreams disappear excuse me as daytime turns in tonight those dreams disappear as you start to make choices so what do you do at some point you you you you choose whatever youra your Seminary then you choose your college you choose a career and that's it you become a if you're like a f girl today a something therapist that's it I mentioned occupational therapy that's what you're going to be doing 9 98 this is what you do you sit there and you work with the arm I remember this because I had this occupational therapy with Mario that's it and then you finish that TR this is what you do you dream about marriage oh it's going to be so beautiful and romantic and everything like that and finally you meet the right guy and then that's it the day after Chev bras you know the smell of his socks it's over with okay Welcome to the Real World so yeah um I still have I'm the spell boy I still have the magic hamper I you you never know every ladies know what the magic hamper is you don't know what the magic because you're not a male we men have magic hampers it's basically a thing in my bedroom where I put dirty clothing in and I don't know how it happens but magically it gets empty and then I get my clothes clean I don't know how it happens it's one of the mysteries of marriage anyhow what's my point my point is that that's it suddenly you find yourself trapped at some point in your 20s do not try and fight it you will be married you will have your career you will be probably living in New Jersey raising obnoxious kids that is the rule of Life do not try and fight it and that's it now I used the metaphor of day and night I want to use another metaphor with you summer and winter you feel existentially that the summer of your life is turning into winter everything's becoming cold you turn 30 that's it you're stuck there's no place to go you look in the mirror oh my gosh I have an extra chin I have like You Know Nothing fits me anymore I hate the music that my kids listen to you turn 40 and then it comes really really bad because you realize that one of the goals in your class is just become a grandmother and um there's just no place for you to move and then fun starts at 50 and here I don't get into detail because this is too close to too many of us you turn 50 the doctor will introduce you to medical terms that you did not know existed like colonoscopy we're just trying to find out what's happening it's not a big deal well it's not a big deal some some kid half my age is gonna put rubber tubing in me I don't think so wait till you taste what you have to drink before and it's like goat spare and this is this is what happens okay we go through this it turn 60 okay I this this is we'll we'll maybe stop there okay but this is it every sudden he becomes real and frightening until the kids say okay Mom and Dad becoming a bit of a burden let's send them down to South Florida and let them enjoy the winter of their lives at least in a warm place and that's it you get up at 4 in the morning you go to the local shopping center looking for the latest experience in soft yogurt and complain about why the kids don't call but don't worry Wednesday night is Maan where you get to meet your friends okay s and see you still around it's just depressing that's the way it goes life goes downhill life turns from Summer into Winter life turns from night from daytime into night time comes along yaku and says sh I live in the world of Truth in the world of Truth there is nothing more disarming and nothing more fake and nothing more distracting than the world of choices until you turn it into something real until you plant it into seeds how beautiful is the Jewish language one of the words for youth is you may l means the days when I'm sharp but it can also mean the days of my winter says live in the world of Truth do not be distracted focus and plant seeds when you're young plant seeds remember God when you're young plant seeds plant seeds build build build do not get distracted and then when you get older you start to see the fruits of your labors and it gets better and better and better as you get old when you start to see what you did when you were young turning into fruit and this is the greatest proof that a world to come because if it gets better and better as you get older then surely after you die I'm talking about things that are not physical the truly important things in our life the things that are the source of true Joy if it gets better and better and surely it will continue after we die comes along yak and says I want to teach the world we Jews see everything the opposite of the rest of the world the whole world day turns into night the whole world summer time and the living is easy fish is jumping anyone know that reference okay turns into winter no no no no seoras this is not us Jews we start off with winter we plant seeds it turns into summer nighttime is the greatest gift of all nighttime says y nighttime is where there's no distractions there's no thought that we are in control we know it's all God we know we are totally in his hands we have complete and absolute Clarity in that world we turn to Hashem in prayer and then Hashem can open Infinite doors for us there's no end to the possibilities that are open for us I teach teenagers and I teach colle seminaries and yeshivas and I always tell them I says your world is so distracting you can spend five six hours a day looking at a screen you'll never get that time back those five six hours you could be making an impact in the world you could be St studying you could be building yourself you could be doing acts of there's so much that you can do don't waste your time when you're young plant seeds and you will be the biggest beneficiary when you get older it just gets better and better and better and better so let's get back to how we started over here I don't know what's happening in history I come from the school of thought that we don't predict I don't know what's going to be tomorrow all my said don't talk about go mle and this it's not going to help you because whatever you say you don't know we don't work for we're down here trying to do the best that we can the only thing that we know today with extreme Clarity is that we're in his hands this is something that s which we're still trying to process but s gave us his Clarity gave us an incredible army with to we saw what Hashem lets us do during The Six Day War says I don't know what he's saying but one thing we so for Clear Hashem says no it's no Hashem says no it's no and my friends who are fighting actually I say my friends to be honest with it's the children of my friends who I've spoken to they've said they've seen Miracles after Miracles the famous saying every bullet has an address they know that they don't say it they feel it in their guts they see how K is holding their hands in the battles that they're going through there's a Clarity that we have not had since yaku that first Mar in that world of Darkness you connect to the world of Ms in a totally different way today the most connected to in the whole planet Are Soldiers on the front line and B give them all the in the world these people are extraordinary the clarity that they have and we as I mentioned earlier with the next level we feel that pain vicariously for what they're going through and the hostages and we have to try and reconnect to that world of total Clarity that went out in and that the G are going to be there for us okay I'm British where are my friends BBC I think not okay it's not happening okay okay we are on our own this is CL we have each other that's all we had the Jewish people are more connected in my feelings I haven't felt this way since since the M Kiper W I'm old enough to remember that those days the sense of Cl reconnecting I don't want to say terrible things but I said this over to a leader of a big Cur of organiz AAS gave us in one day what your care oranization could not achieve in 10 years what do I mean thear says in in M that when gave his ring to hamon it was more powerful than all the and one day we have that sense of clarity that clel we're in this together we're brothers and sisters as a matter what you believe in what Yash is we're one nation and we have what Yak taught us this that morphed into the of we have that special connection to so I want to conclude with what we say in these moments of clarity that we have over here this moments that it's all we put himself into his hands we become infinitely powerful we put ourselves into his hand we become like when he finished that Mar he opens his eyes what does he see sees a ladder where does the latter go the ran says to the End of Time the ram in says to the highest of the highest Universe the man of Darkness the man who is nothing becomes infinite and sees to the very very end and he never got to see the downfall of Rome but you and I can feel in our gut that why I read to you half an hour ago is very very close and I want to conclude once again that why is it the Last Enemy of the Jewish people before is will listen it's a guarantee this has been written 2,000 years ago everything else that was written by P has already become true so this will also come true the the pain the gron of in the land of Israel that's now you know why will listen name and he will answer thank you for listening