Eli: You Are Drunk on Yourself. Chanah: I'm Not Drunk; I Am One.

the yeshiva dotnet yesterday sheer we we discussed the questions that exist apparently the questions that come to mind when you read the story of the Huff Toyota versus genre with Hannah and Ailee and briefly the questions were that Ailee considers her drunk when she's Davin in for a child she's brokenhearted she's full of pain that she doesn't have a child and a leaf looks at her and he thinks she's a drunkard and he speaks to her sharply and says how long are you gonna remain drunk get rid of your wine and your alcohol and Hannah responds and says no that's not the case I'm pouring out my soul Tasha I'm a woman with great pain Ishika through a son I see I did not drink iron and shaker I did not drink wine ash versus now Schlieffen a sham and do not you that you should not call you should not see me in that light and Ailee here's what she says and immediately he responds you know he takes 180-degree turn and he says a Shem shall fulfill your request from him and indeed she goes home and some time later it says let's go for such honor she becomes pregnant and she conceived such conceives a charge becomes pregnant and she gives birth to the son who she named small Kim may Hashem chill t'v because I borrowed him from Hashem which was her promised our sham that if he gives her a child she's going to dedicate him to the service of Russia all the days of his life and he indeed becomes one of the greatest leaders and prophets in all of Jewish history if not the greatest Shmuel Hanavi and the obvious questions is how can a Lee make such a mistake from one extreme to another extreme and confuse a woman who's pleading to God for a child with with somebody who's uh who's an alcoholic somebody who's smashed and inebriated and intoxicated I mean you could think about yourself you sitting in shul and a woman comes into Sheol and goes that Arrancar dish and starts crying how much you don't have to be a prophet like Ida to know the difference between somebody who's drunk and somebody who's pouring out their salt and got in a very genuine and an authentic way and even if some people could make sometimes an error in judgment you would expect from the cayenne and the Cayenne gobble and the Schaefer to have a little better judgement the second question was even if there was an explanation why is it really relevant for tighter just to really disgrace and speak negatively about a limb and it's not a central part of the story the central artery that Schmo was born small was raised I mean it's an interesting story that he thought she was drunk doesn't really add to the story we have a cloth at the Toyota does not speak negatively about people without a very productive purpose you know Filipinos bahama timaya and the third thing is if a li really thought she was drunk you know gonna be in a Michigan drunk you know another than a vu died because of it sue AI initial imitation now that even davin when you're drunk which we actually learned from the story that you know Ella Davin when you're drunk but a li didn't interrupt her Dominic he didn't say Rebbetzin go out of the Michigan this is not the right place for this he did not the alias rumor is Pia she says he waited till she finished he waited haider she's in the Mishkan she'll a listen a Hashem it's in front of God it's been the Michigan Bailey should have immediately said this is not this is not the place he does not do that he waits and only afterwards when she's finished completely that's when he he rebukes her chastiser sir there was a most hits in the Michigan wish it was you saying exactly another interesting fingers you can add when you read the story you see Hana doesn't get upset at him if you were if you're oh if you're a person you go to Davin and you have a real pet something painful in your life and then the kind God will cruises you're being drunk it's very very insulting it's strictly insulting you know and he'd see taozi calls her Chakiris is a massa touch the current how long are you gonna be doing these things it's a real you know accuser it's a very painful accusation but um actually yeah you don't swen she responds she like responds with a lot of a lot of dignity almost like she empathize with them she explains to him I'm not a bosib leo I did a drinky successor welcome I think yeah it's like she almost like understands only and then a li immediately here's what she says in he ran away backs off you know ask any person who's drunk are you drunk no I could drive I can walk a straight line right it's a fact if a li really thought she was drunk the moment she said I'm not he's like okay you're not like it's also very interesting boom boom she listens she responds with empathy and then he's right away okay you know he doesn't say I'm sorry he just says go go go home and pees lifeless lucila show Amanda Shan melikhaya all eaten as Sheila said you should fulfill your request so as a result of this in this in this city there ever says that it seems that the story has to be understood on a much deeper level the Bailey didn't think she was drunk on a literal level that she consumed large quantities of alcohol which caused her to be intoxicated but there is a deeper type of intoxication that Ailee was addressing and and in order to understand this when we understand this we can understand the connection with Rosh Hashanah we went off to discuss their issues Shana throughout Jewish history and although Jewish writings has two different components which at first glance seem different to different things and on deeper love fractions seem even paradoxical on one hand the focus of Rosh Hashanah and many swaram is God in the day of judgment in other words the day when the fate and destiny of every individual is decided in terms of all aspects of their life material emotional psychological spiritual financial children health life bummer hi I'm assignment that's why we dive in an especially intense way before issue Sean on Rosh Hashana sesame Trivium Kippur we say in a sonnet a cobra Shoshanna ecosave vmq you're the same on camera Avraham a year Barea similar such Phyllis and Pia time of Rosh Hashanah which really occupy a major central theme of Rosh Hashanah where the person is very conscientious and focused on asking for everything he or she needs everything he or she needs fixed and everything he or she needs generally and specifically transformations and blessings and even the best life even the best most blessed life has its challenges and a new year comes and you want to ask the crane Oh Luke I am mela Javed bhai and we say Frick I am John Panozzo Tommy Chauvin I command all these similar Phyllis and Putin in the master that come out through through the davines in the days of Rosh Hashanah of enamel Kano and so on and so forth and we near the focus is on the person wanting a good life a blessed life a prosperous life a healthy life and all aspects that we ask for energy Shama on the other hand there's another theme in Hashanah and actually in the Davin Inc that's more prevalent in the shwayne Esther itself and that is is the day of coronating Hashem as a king Malaika loyal uncle in-betweener should humbly honey alaikum Melik alkaloids and you see the Pieta more chartreuse and muslim that's a major focus when a sham Ella Hashem mullah Claude the además Malik Elliot there's the special hemella Cobra Shoshanna when the cousin goes over how Mela is the day of Coronation a story similar so story about a baron of carl in just a student of the maggot of marriage that I should have foreign and Karlin absolutely okay we have rare Kalina closet so they say about a baron of carl in that russia Shana ones by hemella by before Shabbat right before she'll come out before you Starbucks where ml he fainted I think he went up himself to be the cousin and he fainted so they asked him later they revived it they asked him why'd you faint sabayon of Colin said cuz when he said I'm Alice she remembered the story in your Mara which story that he remember you Mario says I'm a sexy kitten that during the siege of Rome over Jerusalem radiation of Ben Zakai sneaked out of the city in a coffin because the zealots would not let him leave this a cricket and he had to fame that he was dead and sneaked out and he meant that meat especially honest respe she ended Roman general and he called him the mela their next Emperor so the Spacely and asks him email Kanna am i Loy ocess lagaa boy add hosta if I'm the king why didn't you come till today see I should explain they couldn't they didn't let me leave he says muscles come give a kind soul of iron colleen said when he said hemella he thought of this question if i'm the mellah will he will he who till today what's sudden that you remembered see he fainted the bad enough Kallen fainted so this Nicotra Shoshana is rockstar's have my look the coronation of the King which seems like a whole different idea cuz the coronation of the king is not about my needs and my personal issues and struggles it's actually about the the Bittle the the submission and the unity of the whole nation accepting the king as a leader and essentially it's really two very paradoxical components in one the focus is on you know what do they say in the first two focuses on the individual my yearnings my my tears my pain my requests the tourism Elif is a very opposite notion it's the it's the point of of surrender of a bita love the nation to the king to the point of the Zohar is so adamant about this the desire says that people who ask for themselves he said it's like the keller of like the dog who just says have have all i want i'm very loyal to you but only for one reason because i know this is where my food is so here the same thing i want god only foreign reason you know he's the best bank account he could swipe the card and doesn't stop as long as you have him on the good side so desire is so so so adamant about this on the other hand it's the Hazara who defined Rosh Hashana as the Yom our Deen and the day of mish but and they put into the pillars that it's in group it's the auspicious time to ask for your requests which means that you're not just doing it's Tom because they said you should do it that's what our sham wants but a person has a feeling and a desire for it so on one hand you want and you need Hashem to fulfill your needs which means you feel yourself and you feel your needs on the other hand if you're stronger we speak about timeless annihilation transcending the self so let's now go to the explanation oh so that's what we want to understand so let's see 294 on the bottom we're holding evolve you see 294 the first column on the bottom sieve of the beer bizarre even those who don't understand you this I'll explain after a paragraph the beard explanations now this explanation is gonna be on two levels as we'll see sip of is going to be the foundation and then it's going to be explained more how it relates to many people also the swih say it better than anybody Shoshanna now assigned him a bookish mr. libs auntie Alice birthday as Arizal Habanera by engineer LOM has added a fill you re bringing on aluminum that oughta hampshire's that are very different on the Kenai Alaska when a Jew and Rosh Hashanah asks for his his needs his personal items it's not just because my own my own benefit I should have excessive material blessings or even excessive spiritual blessings it's a continuum to the coronation of the King to the void of tamil sanaya why kadai is also faithful in the Malayalam colobus way they saw as in the Gans levels of the songs and Methuselah cottage borough who it is dude of Denver Saeed finances matignon a la maza or Maxwell's they are mocking the shifter is Bora in order to achieve the Malaysia : collab with a Maha Sabha coil masala vada capo kieth about that he can't be in heaven in order to achieve the purpose that in the whole world the mouth was the presence the oneness of our Sun should be revealed and manifested which is the purpose of creation it's by a Jew who works with the world and transforms it into a home into a Mullen to a home for God's dwelling when we bowed as yet they did not need suits irreducible cause on a child's designer Shama Val air DAF Kodama virus I possess animal abortion that volume Gershman was the a brush to brush dimples Elko Nevada sigh then I bet they eat mama burstiness as a Lamar Spears and is a construction there's ol doodles a ice feelin them tail form illogical oil and coal a versus tracks everything is Bihar Gaza the house I live in the food that comes my way the money that comes my way the clothes that come my way the part of the world that comes my way that's the part of the world where I have a mission to fulfill the Malloy column Columbus we're done the Baal Shem Tov says that in every physical diaries already says every physical thing hasn't it suits us has sparks and the reason is I get this money I get this house I live in this neighborhood I come in contact with these people in business it's because in these things there are sparks of kedusha that belong to me I'm the one who has the ability to there's like a gravitational there's like a charge there's a connection I'm the one who has the mission and the ability to be able to reveal godliness the Malayalam collaborate decimal in this area so it's not star a person has a house here person has money here a person owns this a person it's all connected to the mission of your soul so therefore a Jew asks a Shem I should be able to have all my needs physically materially whatever they are all the needs in Bona hire Medina to be able including even very mundane things in order I should be able to fulfill the mission of Malayalam in the world in the part of the world that's connected to me comb toys as it's about consciousness of initiation isn't it an angry mr. anguish to Mitzi asada well their bet sinner for the neighbors to Dragon the atom the scum DAF commit Sodom Tuscaloosa beetle in Vulcan mistake by their avoid if honest honest Amala one of the bothers bitter than it suits are such autonomous for bundle but Simon Schama the cash aim with the qivana furnace avocadoes bottle Julius Lee did a bit octane was very afraid to have a disability his moustache is box messiahs border I'll data says by edon was a fin under if they come on up a pile as devoid this from a technician awesome was in eczema national don't hire the guns in you from ignited sadness these have occurred VUCA Bach Italy after its first and ik as the Bokashi Ostroff cadet useful in the kimono Jana is for Boone limiting bits of little from eczema neshama was retinas Galvan devoid of atomic annihilation this means that even when I drew stands on a Shoshana and asks for needs and even if those needs seem very small very mundane not just spiritual needs even very physical needs the true - of it is not the opposite of the coronation of the king no on the contrary this is doctoral sumela for the militia loyal I'm cool I become a dacha happens through I am every Jew is the ambassador of Hashem this lyric of our Shem to be able to accomplish the Malayalam colobus whether and how do I do that I do that in the world by transforming my part of the world into a home into a dear Allah is birth but a Steinem which is the purpose of creation the meander says a sham wanted to have a dear but a stone as we sandwich Hashanah the VA the called Palkia to Baltimore Houston McHale masala which is that concept so therefore and every person has their part of the world that they affect that they sublimate that they have to work with every Jew has the sparks of kedusha that are connected to his soul and only he or she could be my veerudu and those are the places I end up those are the jobs i i have those are the people I come into action with those are the clothes I wear those are the foods everybody has the food everybody everybody is in bo dy and everybody as in everybody yeah the certain foods for example I can eat a certain phrase I'm not supposed to eat sometimes you're allergic to something there's the food that comes your way it's all divinely orchestrated because this money or this fool these closing or these material realities whatever they may be even furniture a car person wears jewelry a person could wear whatever it is it hasn't it suits us that ARMA lubbers that are manifested in the physical things that are shem established for your hailer can you avoid that so I asked under Shoshanna when I asked my solemn call it betray their car I'm not just asking for personal needs this is the blessings that I should be able to fulfill the ultimate mission of the coronation of the king and not only that it's connected to the greatest bitl because this our Veda of transforming the world is rooted in the at some of the soul of a Jew just like it says that Hashem is Kevon of derivatives Tyler is rooted so to speak in his essence that this is what he wanted this is the purpose of creation so a Jew who fulfills this Quran at this avoid is connected to the essence of the song the essence of the soul there's no personal return as the essence of the neshamah like we're saying to her shyness is he he delay after it's a vocal debuff it's incomplete Vegas so the soul yearning to change the world to fulfill the Covenant is actually the expression of its core intimacy and what question good question next next next paragraph curcumin fraggin the Bokashi furnishes alkaway given music at villa Fayed in Eden in yet in Miami the mats of a significant sir the Phyllis additional was established not purpose of a few people for every Jew every yes one since the other image banoffee sure everybody knows personally as das was a better source of Higashi in Verona is knit Blois cadenza suffice for maybe Austin's Kevon not I'll cope on him eyes the fibrous egg offense has been mates equip shoot a villa de Bristol's of Amazon's ina dimension struck me odd am lay up suit leadership 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done in Constance I know some fun neighbors in this wagon here's the big question you could say there are some individuals that the whole requests of Phyllis and magician is it's part of the Malayalam colobus Veda you say many people they're asking it's just at least you could say maybe it's also for that but also it's a person I'm just thinking about myself I want to be happy I want to have what I need I want to be successful it's not the life column he says yeah image but now say a person knows individually where he is even if you say no II can't at least this is also part of it and for carrot that's the mitts what's the Mitzvah filler the midst of a filler like the Rambam says is the Mitzvah is that when you need something you ask a sham for it that's the Mitzvah if you don't feel the need you don't ask for it that's the midst of Trula so if you would come and say that under session is one day the trader acts of the Jew don't think about yourself not your gosh miss and not even you rush me so to speak think only about timeless Lamia life that you could say that since a Jew is a Jew and it's Rosh Hashana shun it says is a time of Kirov ha Marilyn it says which means that's the expression and Siddhas finish on him this time of the akhirah of a moral and its meyer is the source of light knits it is the spark yeah when you have a little flame and you bring it close to a huge fire what happens the flame gets swallowed up by the by the bonfire the torch got swallowed up when it's distant it's separate so when a sum is a helical economy mile but the neshamah comes down into the world on rosh hashanah it says it's Kira of hamari Ramon it's the spark of the neshamah gets close to the Mario to the source of light so then a shaman is so to speak melts it melts away melts away they say that Kirov ha Marilyn it was the Mario comes in to mail the knit suits filled with his Shauna what's the heritage of a Jew on Richard Shauna the midgets feels the Moyer then it's like so to speak melts away in the mark Meyer so it says man that every Jew is Mitsuko what he calls to have a Hadassah acts --mess to be moved essentially to have a heritage even for a moment I just want to be with you will dear Elaine I just want you it's not about me know that we can understand that once a year you should have the ability to transcend yourself because this is this man of Kirov ha Marilyn it so the niches could lose itself could become subsumed in the Moya but here we're asking from every Jew that this should be what seems to extremes on one hand under Shan Shan you should think about your own needs and ask for them and ask that Hashem should fulfill them and on the other hand it's all part of the malkos it's not my own agenda and my own self-consciousness and my own ego it's completely for the mouthwash I'm from alehsalaam colada that seems like a very difficult paradox that meant us for staying late and perishable symptom of imposter craving smelling Afshin bam Cassata yes the Baal Shem Tov has attached a fascinating incredible touch from the modern on the pasta can to Hidden Cove Zion Raven Gump's main option BAM literally means your Ava people are hungry Mayim they're thirsty now from Baptists atif their soul is begging for food Cassatt oaf is like it feel it feel Allah initiative the south of is the soul is like their ear they're pointing for food says the Baal Shem Tov the pasta is saying something very deep their hunger and thirst from goof oddvar Michael dimashq nemzer from them was not shown by empty sot off the nefesh dilma virus and in it suits a cruise ship from the Michael Marshall but I'm the new citizen entire staff could say in show hoots are Lusaka the sayst hodge demands filled boys and TVs Dickon hung its estimates aunt hagatha in some of em as The Hunger ensign - omits the net substitution of Michael was Gavin sir more summative says redeposited Morten with more depth rave him a person is hungry gums ma'am a person is thirsty you just think it's a biological fact my body is saying it's time to eat it's time to drink well there's no known now from behind to sign it's because the neshamah is yearning to elevate the divine sparks that exist in this particular food like in every physical thing we said before there's a host is a divine energy in it ah so the neshamah wants now from empty side of the neshamah is looking for these suitors and and this food or drink is connected to my soul as we said before that these mothers as decent so just I could fix question can only state can I be excited process of thinking there it seems from the world it follows it but something is we give it to me so that if I'm not right am i missing an opportunity that's the same time Russia showing well no I'm not to tell you know God knows what I need to accomplish that process so it seems that I can't jump or repudiate my role in the world otherwise there would be a separatist lately right where person has yes you see he's learning here that so so so so fascinating thing the body I made the body translates the the language of the soul in physical terms so it's so it's really it's that it's the soul communicating through the body in its language so the body translates the souls needs in corporal language in physical biological language but it's really if you wish it's the electrical signals or biochemical signals of the neshamah if I can use that expression that the nasha neurological or spiritual signals of the soul transmitting a message what's the message the message is I want to elevate why do why that I should make that we shall have to eat seems like a nuisance I mean just like he created the organism the way it is you could have made an organ is no we shouldn't have to eat or at least be like a camel that doesn't have to eat for a few who a few uh you know camels have humps with a lot of reserves of fat so they can go through deserts and not and not drink for a very long time because it melts away but we are created like most organisms not just humans that you have to eat a certain amount of time in order to be able to survive what is this for why why the nuisance why the need so it's not just we need the food it's also that the food needs us it's both ways we need the food and the food also needs us that there's something in food there's an energy there there's a theist is like we learn always that there's a highest of Eliquis the spiritual divine energy i resource says that is a nephesh even in rocks even in diamond certainly in produce certainly in animals there's a there's a routinely is there there's a depth depth there there's a voice from the Optio Venoy every straw when moisture spoke to the jews about eating the first time Mini's he says I suck hyah hyah hyah shatters oh yeah Ashley one is what's a Sakaya cos I'll say he showed them every animals eye Sakai so dr. Rob says a higher shot a fluid motion of men was saying is that when you eat you should look for the heels inside of it you should look for the for the for the nutria real nutritious outlet and a nutritious element within it and the spiritual highest which is in it so therefore comes about symptom and says your avium gums may aim is true I'm hungry I'm thirsty it's my body communicating to me a message of the soul through the medium of the body the body can't speak in a in a revealed way that language that spiritual language of the body translates it into what hunger pangs feel hunger ik filled urge the grave and I'm smelling but what's the premise of it the premise of it is now from Baptists Atif that the nephesh is really looking for its fulfillment and it's looking for its mission it's looking to fulfill its lusts are you really hungry that those no do with hunger that has to do with every physical thing in the world wouldn't live it's not there is amid suits it's not it's much deeper than that there's nothing but the mid suits there's nothing but in it suits every physical thing that exists is only right even from a scientific point of view when you look at a physical thing what we're seeing is just the surface of it if you take a microscope and you look deeper and deeper there's a whole world of movement inside of it that we don't see the whole what's called molecular structure all of the atoms that are flying around for synchronization the premise of that itself is the devar hashem it's the divine energy that it lives so the niche is the torsion of the thing that's what it is that's the premise of it and that's the use of it and that's why it exists and that's the most important that's the purpose of it when you speak about the nit so it's it's none of the some strange mystical spark the knit suits is God's will that it should be which results in the atomic structure that causes it to be which represents the purpose why it is to be my very own it says just means I use something according to its purpose there's a purpose why a computer exists a purpose why a car exists the purpose why coffee beans exist the person why the purpose why a tree exists why an ant exists why grain exists what abraca of course yeah exactly i i abused in its 'it's i abuse the purpose when i use my computer yeah yeah when i abuse when i use my computer yeah for something that's not very nice i'm not just abusing myself i'm abusing also the niches of the internet it's a divine creation it's a sensitivity the whole world is warm it's not a bazaar i have give out this purpose and everything so the knit suits don't look at it as some mystical stray like some spark flying around the midst is just an expression of saying the real inner design and chemistry and purpose of every single thing now of course I could finish eating I'm not hungry anymore but I still want to eat you know what I want to eat because I'm a miserable person foodists could be an addiction just like her alcohol could be an addiction just like work could be an addiction everything can be an addiction you understand so here I have to work on myself I have to actually tune into my soul to put it this way when you're eating because your soul wants to eat you're gonna eat very differently I'm not gonna sit and stuff myself with garbage there's a cake heaven it's us everything has an it's it's it's but right usually however the NIP suit is associated with the value of it you understand what I mean what's the value of cake everybody knows what the value of cake is to numb your phenom your anxiety but like everything a small measure of it it's it's it's it's it's not it's not black and white this is good or bad I'm sorry about you yeah but the combinations of the atoms the combinations so what Tucker makes the difference from an atomic level what's the difference rabbie why does it appear to my eyes so different because this is a different configuration no I'm saying from a chemical from a from a chemistry point of view almost you're right but we in simple disease also but there's that that that 1% or a fraction of a percent difference in the in the DNA in the DNA structure which creates a difference between me and the chunk of Z you're right the whole world is that way by sorry mama it's all words it's all letters but the configuration makes the knit suits difference the knit suits and everything is unique in this the evenin to people right we have many many similarities but also differences so the boss captain is giving us here a press that the language of the body is not the voice from the language of the soul it may get lost in translation because I'm not sensitive to it but really what's happening is the soul is speaking the body gets the signal how does the body interpret it the body interprets it we call it hunger hunger pangs which is actually a biological phenomena and today you know you could see in the brain what lights up what lights up when you're feeling hunger what lights up when you eat it so that's the way our cow chemical makeup adopts and interprets the conversation of the soul right because my goof doesn't yet have the language of it suits us Lucilius Ilocos annoyed Mirada the body says I'm hungry what is the hunger really longer is the soul wants to do its job the soul wants to interact with this food or this drinks or whatever else it is no no that must something to say mr. nice guy but to mention the hunger is really the hunger of the soul even if I'm not aware of that even if I'm not aware of it mr. nice guy but to match the people that no people are hungry every five minutes they have an issue they have that something is bothering them it is also it's a show they're neshama exactly that's the point that you didn't need them that's positive they're neshama cuz it's not the food you ate five minutes ago from a biological perspective you're not only full you're associated for a week so why are you starving and that's nothing to do with food it has nothing do with your body needs food in order to live you brush it didn't stop eating for the last hour you're completely full and now suddenly you go to the next chef at breakfast and you eat a whole meal again what happened and you come home and there's a third meal you don't tell your wife either the first tool so it's emotional exactly it's so kepis but probably for what I'm looking for it's not gonna be in the food because after I eat I'm still hungry so I'm probably looking for something so you have to know what you're looking for but the baal shem tov is talking about a situation a person is genuinely hungry you didn't eat for seven hours eight hours and you're hungry remember he lived in a time when there was no surplus of food even ukraine later years there was no surplus of food even today in ukraine there's not a surplus of food at least a lot of parts of it ah I'm saying we don't understand today in America more people die from obesity than from famine but it's the first time in history that's happening for macho's history famine was one of the greatest causes of death worker so we don't understand most of us don't understand what used to wake up in the morning every day again and again and again and people are starving but this was very this was a major part of civilization so he's talking about a genuine hunger that a the biology of hunger he says is rooted in a very deep spiritual experience you say that's not true my soul is not looking for anything I just want to eat he says that's what your body your body says I want to eat that's how the body is typhus and a somatic experience but what what do you want him that's what the body says ah yeah also also eats but over there it's a hold of it that's part of the mechanical genetic program of the world where there's no Peter it's ultimately it's also furnish time a purpose it's also furnished on my purpose because because this is a food chain it's the food chain it's the food web right the animal eats the grain yeah there's the diamond serves it's a mayor that sir mayor serves the high decide the safer II Karim writes this it's diamond serves it's a mayor of the soil serves growth produce ran and the chain mayor serves the high the whole Animal Kingdom which looms in math and the high serves the Madaba and then the Madaba brings it all up but the animal is not the animal doesn't struggle the animal for the animal is just all part of its a genetic makeup you know when that lioness chases its prey and kills the gazelle there's nothing personal about it my family got to eat and this is just all genetic when we do that it's called swishes diamond nobody blames the line is for Trista's diamond with a sheet if it's mrs. Dunham saying it's all part it's like programmed into the that's already part of God's plan that they just they're part of that symphony the only one who's out of that symphony is humans right we're the only ones in the whole world the whole cow who wake up in the morning and like Who am I I need a new therapists we're the only ones who somehow every single animal in the world every insect every reptile every mammal every fish every bird instinctively knows who it is and why it is sorry it's dogs cuz they hang out with people especially in California and New York so they themselves need therapy but dogs on their own also know who they are they don't have an identity crisis even chimpanzees they're very comfortable themselves I mean they have their own struggles within the animal kingdom but the point is the only ones who wake up in the morning and say I echo Who am I Who am I not why am I not you I wish I was this I wish that were that maybe I'm this could I be this why am i successful am I not say that I want to be more successful what should I be doing with my life an animal that's not what I should be doing with my life what didn't you do three things every animal knows you do three things every ant knows this every bee knows this number one you make sure you're alive and you'll do anything to survive numbers show you bring a new generation into the world you propagate and number three you enhance your environment however you do it pollination every every tree knows this every tree what does it tree do it does anything to survive it does anything to propagate to produce a new generation and it enhances its environment so it should have been instinctive within every person why am I here I'm here for three things I have to make sure I survive after make sure there's a new generation and I have to enhance my environment why am i capable of destructing my environment of destroying my environment so with a person it has to come with a choice I have to choose to be able to be part of the symphony of creation and that's really what Toyota's Toyota is the missing link between the human being and the rest of creation because well well it's a different type of bitter yeah you can't compare when when when it's you know a soil the service is not that's not the same thing I mean the concept of Abraha is to make a person I mean I tell you enough to make a broker before ye the kazama Institute about why the instituto Brava bias traditional brokers and by ashaming the started to be Broca's by solution you drank and you just drank you drank a cup of water drank a cup of water the Cahaba made a broth because they felt that as the world was growing more material materialistic it was needed that a person should be able to be conscious before they eat I'm drinking a cup of coffee I say Baraka shambolic animal asylum shall coil me abit vara what shock only abattoir that's the mid suits Devorah is the mid sense okay so this is the Toyota from the bottom how does it apply here says out the second paragraph 296 I'll dare excises has been your name dose was I eat better Shoshana Mitaka new name holy as the a burst assalam gaben stroke of a gosh mean virus ma'am is a 4 PS but it's a nice assessment added over sims and in a gay in unum from bonnet I am as I knows I'm at sears is about the MS of premise for this reason a fish their hunger for neshama so ice feeling the qivana all units of Martin from the devanam - room I did a la espada a Jewish standing under Shoshanna he's begging God please fulfill all my needs and wants material emotional spiritual externally you say what do you want I want I just just I want these things this is what I want yeah I want to be comfortable I want to be happy I want to be healthy I want to have NASA so my children I want to have a nice house and I want the cleaning lady somebody once said so lady told me after this did their mother used to say there's a Shana Duffman bettan as the shiksa sanga's owns the shiksas of Zionism do those anchors of the ships of the rangas owns uh-huh the cleaning lady meaning the cleaning lady so Sangha songs so all I want a cleaning lady yeah I want a cleaning lady ah is it appropriate to ask tradition Shana that's for a good cleaning up the cleaning the cleaning lady the cleaning lady is not showing up she gets headaches she doesn't know how to do a job wall I want ya I want help I won't ever comfortable why everyone I have a good life when I have a healthy life i'ma struck him a thousand years ago was not struck him today in America 2019 it's important to understand that the bar has changed Morris Hashem we have living in an age of tremendous prosperity that our grandparents couldn't even dream of on a good day that's true we have to be very thankful for that so the drew says I wanted for me yeah I want health I want good children I want sustenance I - means I want ruthless so that's true but the pinna meais of that the penis of this vicious are nefesh of this yearning is your soul is hungry you soul wants to fulfill the qivana hell jana the divine purpose to make the world that d really is borrowed protect i know you see no i don't care about that i don't care about that I'm not a spiritual person I'm not a selfless person I'm hungry to the for the food I'm hungry for the drinks that's your consciousness that's your external consciousness on a deeper level the soul is talking why do I need why do I want why do I want the beautiful home it should be a home cuz it's about one to be a base on McNish i want it to be a source of kedusha source of light i want money yeah i wanna I just want money I want wise a person want money I want to be able to pay all my bills with prosperity and have leftovers and be able to go on a few very beautiful vacations and save up for a rainy day and have much more why don't you want money you want money was one of those with Malayalam cooler before huh and the same is true everything a person asked us for I want my health I want mouth cuz I want my health because it's me cuz I care about me that's why I want my health and that's what the Jew says he says I'm not thinking about anything else so why am I going to God cuz I believe or I was told that God is the source I go to malayalam collab with my dad but he's saying even a Jew is asking for a surah him the pen emissive it is he's asking Malayalam calligraphy though huh I wonder - M's light should be manifested in the world and I am his ambassador and it's manifested in the world through me and through my health and through my home and through my work and through my money and through my daily interactions so the premieres of everything I'm asking for in bond and high and Mazzone and gosh miss an erroneous is what is that God's purpose in the world should be able to be fulfilled because I am the manifestation I am one of his solution in this world were added AB does gopher verse Mazetti as Eden Vorenus earlier by Magan honest a notorious Mia Noah Mia Noah from Tiffany's from Hodgson not matter be decided as bombs Agha Malayalam Khalid bhai jetha is I thought as as is a seismometer seen one ask your question and surely Shoshanna when do people get moved most by Malayalam call it before danke you won't find too many people shedding a tear so nice filler the sonnet okay he says here everyone this and everybody is moved why why just our felt peers the Tom gali of them is you know why because Malayalam Columbus made that cuz talking about God but in the sonnet oak if what is it talking about me here o me almost and your imagination starts flying everywhere you start thinking about you know history and about life and what people go through and about the dangers of life my mom and me by Asia me but never me but skill and me a new army a new army Russia me only me shall follow me are and it touches everybody what's a Turkish because now you're dealing with my as we saying you just taking a puppet my life shall call it before death car okay God you should have you should be a wonderful King and have a very successful and hope you have an easier time than Trump being the president of the world and have less opposition fine and they shouldn't impeach you good Mallika but but in the sauna taketh suddenly it's me they say that in communist Russia there was once a teacher they turned to the students they used to indoctrinate the students with brainwash them terribly so he turns to the student and he says if you own Moscow if you own who would get what would you do with it he said I would give it away to Mother Russia and if you owned a private yacht what would you do with the yacht I would give it away the mother Russian to the Communist Party and if you own the prize jet I would give it away to the communist party then he said and what about your pair of pants he says that I keep he says why just was that I actually own the private yacht I give away the Communist Party not a problem the private jet but my pants that I don't give away cuz I got that Malayalam Coulomb is way darker you don't see that his iris the sonnet iqaf we all know even us a simple people are not very spiritually sensitive the sounder it strikes a court how would you explain it you explain it portions cuz we all think about ourselves that's it we think about ourselves and we're worried we want to have a good yeah we want our kids to be healthy we want to be healthy we want to have long life and where are we some of us are frightened or at least cautious or sensitive to this and therefore it strikes a court so he says half up here's the time golly of them is but the truth is it's not so partial Zion the canoe Shama Berghoff signing in your nay alum has an entrance him and anemone moving unemotional a la maza touches me more than release me by my a mummy by age touches me more than my uncle my solos antibody he says that's the Tom Galway that's the conscious reason if the revealed reason he's over the tampa mean them based on the baal shem tov there's a deeper reason about the qivana for nuts Messiah's birth his DAF kid did a bit a Steinem canal Siva over Mela then empty so he didn't ask me as an officially on the fire vet in his earlier holy in D Bokashi Africa was beep enemies it does dosa optimist from eczema neshama choice from the carbonyl unit samarkanda Volta did Allah is bara the ultimate qivana of hashem was a sham wanted a derivative Dunham that this physical world should become the place where actors Hashem is revealed because that touches so to speak God in his deepest place it touches a Jew in his deepest place the sanitary what is that you asking for the creaminess is asking for a Bettina because for dinner but that item to happen I have to be in the physical world in a physical body with physical health with physical money with a physical house in a mundane world so I'm looking at it I'm just a mundane guys I ask for mundane things my eczema neshama wands the mundane things cuz God wants to dwell in the mundane world if I'm not involved in it if I'm not here he can't dwell him we are his ambassadors to fulfill the dinner but the sternum just touches our drew in his deepest place she said what people are really moved by an asana tychicus on one level you could look yet it's called selfishness which is normal it's human but like I like them colourbox way that goes about him this is about me huh yes yeah they won't want to say they'll do it and they'll do anything they'll do anything that instinct for survival that instinct the sonnet like of rings that out that instinct for survival and I just survival we want to also thrive I want to be successful I just want to survive in dala dala dala I want to be successful right I want to be successful resistible physically one's just emotional every person wants to be successful prosperous on one level you could say yeah okay that's people what do you want to nobody thinks I'm on our show so did every no that's the Sonia's of it that's how the body is Transat how your mind is translating the eczema neshama the Etzel - um is looking for one again after Sasha it's Vegas the Hester moisture huh there has been ever cooked a fayeed the AFT initiative Jew is looking for the Vegas one Enya that's that's his real agenda says come on don't be idealistic and that's how idealistic I'm looking for foods about services non annoying as Shama wants to fulfill its purpose did Abbott a Steinem is mush it's rooted in the action of a shell so it's rooted in the Exim and the essence of a Jew that's what's coming out by an asana tiger that's the of it once we understand this now go back to alien Cana alien Cana was a very deep debate there wasn't Portia Haley was saying something extraordinarily deep and that's what we have to know about Ellie wasn't obses a judgmental clueless what's the word I'm looking for apathetic and different person who sees a woman break down and cry and says addict get out of my base are McNish Haley was a issue honey Haley was a Cohen God Leigh Leigh was a very deep purse and a Lee had a tiny Turkana that was very profound and kinda understood it and that Hannah tells a Lee you're right you're 100% right but now I'm gonna show you that you're also 100% wrong but not because you're wrong cuz you're right but there's something deeper yesh Lamar as the society Tom Val very diverse Minette cave a given sizzling the after a different Phyllis Canterbury Shoshanna she's a middle aged for a Leah Cohen had mastitis Taconic that's why the half Toyotas on Rosh Hashana this is the whole story of Rosh Hashana I want to say that it could and then regions Haley turns to Hannah remember - Allah says that this happened on Rosh Hashanah Haley turns the qanun says you're in pain I got that you're in pain but you want anyone or the truth you're drunk you're not drunk on alcohol you're drunk with yourself you're drunk on yourself that's what you're drunk on you're drunk on yourself consciousness isn't there any time in your life that you could transcend yourself and ask not what God can do for you but what you can do for God and isn't that time Rosh Hashanah in the Mishkan in front of God stop thinking about yourself I'm not denying that you have pain but he says do you think all of Judaism is what God can do for me stop telling God how great your problems are maybe start telling your problems how great God is or ask not what you need ask what you needed for this is a very profound idea and what Ailey's saying is some people some people all of you disguised is just me God is just a hasty Tim circles he's the best bank in the world why do I run to my bank cuz the money is there it's about the bank cuz I care about the bank and the manager of the bank I just I need you my loyalty to you is I'm the dog you got the cash what are some people visit their grandfather every Friday present company excluded do you have to see me that God owns all that service in the world see you visit him three times a day I would also if you had a grandmother who had access to billions of dollars I would also visit or three times a day it's that are going to work I would visit her it's a Christmas abideth right and that's the perception so what is really you dish but really about me me me my and evil talking Rosalia smile um haba my sky my flame was me me me Ellie Ellie other stopping drunk you're drunk you shake it on yourself another year in a drunkard state you in a state of drunkenness who are you drunk on you drunk on yourself true it can't be about yourself there's something called ms we learned in the Maya and Miguel commercial military gasosaurus is what's Gossett's are WA not arrogant God solutions do routinely is as gasps spirituality can be narcissistic you understand spirituality can be narcissistic religion can be narcissistic it's all me aye-aye-aye aye-aye-aye I want kugel and he wants Olam haba same thing his kugel is a llama I like your Xiaomi Google with loyal that's my hobby and he likes extender his Olamide standard is Elba sable its gasosaurus DeRusha mrs. gasps you never emancipated yourself so Ellie says maybe once a year and Richard Shawna stop thinking about yourself some people can't let me stop thinking about me dude there's only me check you want me to stop thinking about me how can me stop thinking about me when the stopping of the thinking is also me right you get that that's what drunk means drunk means you're trapped when you're drunk right I'm trapped into me and I can't even get out of it cuz even when I'm getting out of it you know sometimes I'll say okay so the ultimate perfection is bittle that's the worst brittle and it's more dangerous Guyver spiritual narcissism is sometimes did the most dangerous thing because it's camouflaged and holiness it uses God to manipulate God you understand this is deep stuff it uses God to manipulate God so it's beautiful it's beautiful but it's really an opium it's really opium God becomes opium it's Tylenol I think Tylenol and he goes to truth hue Lee was saying something deep faintly saying I don't I know your own pain I'm telling you then you're in front of us shouldn't ask not what he can do for you ask something else that's what he told Khanna oh man understood and Hana said a Lee you're a hundred percent right but let me tell you that there's a deeper judy's you're being drunk and I'm gonna teach you that there's a deeper you disguise and the deeper you discard is that the gosh me and the roof to me are one so a Lee's position is a sacred position we have to know it we have to learn it because if you don't understand a Lee you can never understand Hana Hana comes after a Lee Amy says you describe it ultimately there's a code of transcendence there's an accord of Nicias if not me not me that's what truth can be defined by me my my slain was my perfection it's what its most a little says sauna you know it's fair means a proven I'm not there's a word in English fair you drunk the drunk sober up different type of drunkness you drunk on yourself you drunk on Senor always self-conscious could you ever melt away and lose yourself there shouldn't be you they should just be God they should just be infinitely could that ever happen anything is this is this is a fabric in a way is for bringing well ladies looked good a were you saying the MS of them then I couldn't sit this ain't like move out it's not about you and then Hannah says no Haley but you're wrong I'm gonna teach you a little bit about feminine Judy hmm you're dealing with masculine Judaism is compartmentalized and the rep assist goes a Lee was a coin god--all and a coin is compartment a coin is segregated and Cano hit from a different place kind of revealed something deeper and it's fascinating most hollow curse of filler we learned from trauma the Gemara says in brothers most hawker siddeley we learned from hand which isabella I've roamed aven't it's cooked avant says in so much Yaakov davon the lot moistured Avant the amorous David rifka davon we don't want filler from them and we learned a lot of thing tomorrow says he'll sister dad versa massacres brother slamming al the main a loss essential Senora soft fellow we learned from Canon because Canon wasn't just davon Akana taught the Jewish people a paradigm about darvany cuz what are you Dominique what are you davon a you inch mine Astra shui masters you throne of the King and you're saying grew fainter wash them I want to be healthy Baraka lay no make sure that the IRS comes back the IRS clears the you know the tax returns etc etc let's see inside of all three the tine of an alias given as Bashar sermon stateless niosh em with naked Shia Kardashian they're our bag rights for t0 by Dropbox says she went into Kurdish Ekadashi that's what they're all bag rights which is fascinating well he probably means left naked Chaka Dasha meaning right before not inside I mean when in all the way to the snail ofin a carjacker - dolphin is I'm a gay Akane Zack I sued them as mental inertia Haley says when you're in this place if you're a Jew nothing should be relevant in life only the fact that you left inertia you don't feel yourself you lose yourself there's certain places where you don't find yourself in God you lose yourself in God I haven't Macias I have a goof Avinash um I have a brain I have feelings you're right I understand daily I understand Shannon but where are you now you live in a kind of second ocean I would expect as a jewel if Michael is a Kenosha you stop experiencing yourself meet a cane or a dancer Ligon him but cautious find Yanam - man when I feel you need that but caution Venus at Elon Musk Azera notion even something like I want children she's not asking for another billion dollars or private yacht or in the Ferrari then he spoke about she's asking for a child that's a pretty legitimate not excessive not at IVA OB frat no can i - from here bacillus power well you're a li sees the excessiveness notice sometimes it says when he says in 43 when the Kohen Gadol came out of Yom Kippur was a Tefila Katsura i've art i rice she was here bacillus pal in other words she was really self and she was real like I need that I need that I want then I want you ever feel the cat Felix ro means time I could I write the hit bacillus powers no this is really about me in a good way this is what I want the sadaqa matzah from secrets from irrigator or burdock egg inherit sinus this is called intoxication what are you drunk are you drunk on your own will even if it's a good will no satella massa eruption is as I start as it happens it's an elusive offense Turkish deadlift nasha your subtle your desires are so powerful that you get lost me you don't realize where you are you completely forfeit the moment you completely completely lose touch of the moment you're so you're so drunk on yourself and your needs and your pain that you lose touch of the moment live demo con again firt she didn't get angry at a leaf she understood very well Haley you don't understand you are confusing you think that when I'm asking for a child it's just because I look at the other women and I'm jealous and I want my own kids right and when all my friends go out for coffee with carriages I want to come with a carriage and when they talk about the Kindle ah I want to be able to join the conversation and even deeper than that it's a very deep feeling of satisfaction that I want the person as a child Rahul said right through him I in May so nicely so Connor said to Ailee that's what you are understanding need not is it's vilifies Arron Asham it continued for Shakir especially me again at its owner's knife a carrot thus is an ice goose from Panama is a nephesh but does dark Aatish Isis to matzah for staying with nation not only is it not intoxication actually at this moment my heart is being poured out to God what does it mean it's the ultimate oneness it's precisely because it's linear sham locomotion number the puzzle says until them box upon i borrow mehhhh spinel kashama vacas seek my enemy's box upon I because I'm looking for Europe enemies must hop did Cain egg in the rocks and calm its uses was kava could walk about the PME is core of a Jewish soul doesn't have its own self-conscious Rutzen the whole matsyas of a neshama is Vegas that's where I am the expressionist naturally my deepest soul is coming up what's the deeper soul of a true one the myth is a move on was it about caution glide Schmidt neither given as Edvin esatas a muslim Oshima's Bennis octave wash em Kali ma Shia Zhang Gong celeb InDesign it came akin in our variable Samaritan fall a biker Steve said I'm not sure miss Mitchell libs if no blade Librium a bush to this wagon verse very there had been a shape anymore when you look at your children you could look at two things you could take your children personal it's my thing don't even the way it applies to us sometimes your child doesn't do exactly what you expected so sometimes we take it very personal how do you go out of the house this way how dare you speak this way how do you behave this way it's like almost a personal affront and I was expecting this knock us and and I love you and I care for you and I invested so much in you and now this is what you do to me and when that happens it's actually very hard to think about your child because you think very much about yourself but what happens when you realize that actually you don't own your child it's a Shems child you were in Ashley R of RM to be able to raise the child it's not a personal thing like what you're doing for me what you're not doing for me it's really the question is what does God want me to do right now for this child you can actually think what this child needs in the deepest level with Hannah was telling alias you don't get it when I'm asking for a child it's my penance and nefesh asking for on the plumies are nefesh is one thing it's always one with god it's not separate there's no Rutzen that's why the moment she asks her child what did she say if you give me a child what happens I dedicate him passion his whole life why why he dedicated his whole life now this is my Baker's with a champ kind of feels that the deepest eruption of our son is I should have a child were able to bring a child to this world it's not that just it's just myself my true self on this level is not herself my truest self is completely one with Hashem a vaudeville cabal he he delay after so my Kersh is not I'm separate and I'm asking God what you can do for me no in my deepest soul what I'm feeling is my Vegas that's what I'm asking for and by her it's not just the penis like the Baal Shem Tov says this is what came out Ashley's last national if nasha this is not I'm in a selfish mode stop start thinking about truth I think my god stop thinking what he can do for you think what you're needed for that's not what that's my opinion what she's feeling in her inefficient image is the deepest cavern of Hashem that's what she wants that's that's what she wants a child I want to be able to fulfill my purpose in the world I want to be able to bring the ultimate light into the world I want to be able to be a real channel in the world through this child this child will light up the world this child is God's child and the moment Ailee hears this he's like I got it we'll see LaShawn there's no argument anymore so this debate between aliens Anna this is the essence of Rosh Hashana this debate is in every Jew that's what he finishes the FEU not yet they either robbed of a does his pulse in science filiberto Shoshanna this debate happens in every Jew as his new universe the premise for naiveness que deberían or the Prime Minister for excrement begala the premise of a Jew is always great but we want the Penniman is to come out on the fire Bashar say it's doctors with a Shoshone Tibetan by maybe Western if my gosh ma'am drew gets up on a trip son and says God give me serenity God give me money God give me health God gives me this God give me a sugar confident I feel a ruler even a Jew a solution is I want that slaw can tell you that look didn't you shove my and that's lucky in this I want rookies he's God the penis a Lea Korean shipping officer and every Jewish sold is a little Ailey or a big Ailee was tying it's a mad must site Ishtar Colin and every Jude is an alias Eze sober up my friend sir Shoshanna davell sober up verse Fatah after its bikini on a Amazon Aegon it's awesome in Azaz mindfulness tourism ugh ah yeah Phil erroneous what yeah really was a star yeah yeah yeah I told you gossips or walk cuz it's me I want to be the god alloh door so God let the exist mama stop me it's a covered but but that I won but even if it's even room is I want I love harbor I want Shlomo's I want to be a good person I want on my might Savior they should ride that he was you know you know what I mean okay that's also petty arrogance but let's say it's even deeper than that I want to I want to fulfill my purpose I want to be spiritually satisfied what I want I'll um haha that's really is but what is it it's all the south so a Lee says can you ever sober up can you ever not talk about yourself could you ever stop feeling is a so he would say no I can't this is it this is my everything say a lee says okay you're drunk so he says a Lee speaks to the souls Tartus amela feliza that's the that's the debate of the Hofstra teas and every drew a Lee I for PK and Afra better for the honor nonetheless you have to ask for this the added up does goofy roof to raise demands for from Hana on the contrary this debate this this critique of a Lee provokes it triggers the response of kana as by ending it I feel it there was there viola tractive ensign it Stuyvesant celebs it is the pen abuses I'm Akasha I mean Yin from the ash Perez national if NASA and ice goes from Panama is a nephesh versus have aku Lucca book aims act but that's Macias but every Jew even if right now what he's thinking about is purely himself that's where I am that's perfect finish Hashanah it's perfect finish your summer because you don't know you're judging yourself too much you think you're just a little animal a little selfish animal you don't understand that the plumie is a Jew asks for health Jew asks for an austere a Jew asks for children whatever a Jew is asking for physical as proteins what's the premise of it the ash versus novel if national your soul is being poured out passion it's an ice goes on icicle sandy says goes I'm out pouring an outpouring of this soul of the pious and every and what is the plumies a nephesh it's Haruka it's always hugging our sham it's Deluca it's one it's completely one with ashrams essence so when that soul is coming out there's nothing separate what you're really asking is to be one with oneness and to be one with oneness and to fulfill that qivana to be the one with a Shem that's the premise of all your requests the child and the money and the house and the health and life and long life irises um and revealed goodness that's what it is saundra Shoshanna ask it I you yourself say listen listen no no no no I am just a brute fellow and that's it I care about me me me I'm coming to show cuz they say you shouldn't you come to shore fine so you still need to learn a business in this as I said what you got to grow up a little bit I'm mature life will do it it's fine but you have to know who you really are who are you of ash because National inertia okay shame with the ends and when a li here is this a lee says kana you're right Donna you're right not because a Lee is wrong alias a kinder Tyner but kana says is something deeper ah all very good the Sawyer says you're a dog screaming how half right now we understand that's if the have have is divorced from alehsalaam cool it before deca if they have hop yeah yeah yeah yeah the Caleb just wants your food that's the half of but the premise of a Jews have have is worse is Malayalam kaliba deca come who could look above his hidden reactor that's the premier survivor I would say but I'm not there my bio I don't believe in this about something already said they're aiming them smashing Baptists are tough this is who you are I eat his exact name Burstyn it's not a separate thing in the core of your being you're not drunk in the core of your being you're not self-conscious in the core of your being you're it's Vegas dick I may not have the ability now to experience that okay but by Honda there's no fragmentation there's no compartmentalization there's no heaven there's no earth he says in 46 I'm ready to cavort the yesh Lamar does Esha a Leela huge Boozer whom in a chignon is shall Korean hula he bowed Dale made archaea olinville amethyst Yaroslav national random Schmidt Aviva the function of a Cohen is segregation that's his function function is that he separated from the world over frat allaha daya Shaylee are you crying gargle my Jewish Mourdock Rama sure yo you should be making this collar you claim God will sat in the base I make this all day a regular call you not the regular client had his shifts a Cohen godless at all year all day in the base night at night he can go home he couldn't get Tommy for a relative he was a bass I make machine that's what he was full of shame it's a penis ooh shameless truck of a lament of inertia I'm a mats of him often the paradigm of the coin and especially the coin goggle is he's aloof he sublime he's at you I reckon is the kid he's at him leshiy heed this tuck in no self he sits lift nation so Amy looks at this and says not this is not this is not you described and hammer revealed this in a CUDA of complete is between the gosh me between the physical and the spiritual between the south and Asha he finishes ashamed with the ends from carnitine gansan for ends fattiness alien business added up the alien mask when you emit a beasts of Gabonese I'm Braco enough talks in them well okay he saw it in astrological she shot me just like the answer of Hana completely answered the question of Ailee the complaint of Ailee and not only did he say you're right he agreed with her and he gave her a brother if you're if you said that she did something wrong what are you giving her abraca for what she did he gave her a bracha and a promise that a sham should fulfill what you asked for was a li completely consented to fan Zoe in every judicious Shana drew comes and asks for whatever he's asking for so the alien doesn't say fair laelia kyon agrees so a is the a bridge term I'm Ali the Mikasa from Yeti Eden Hashem fulfils the request of every Jew whoever he is or she is far Shana Tova Masuka for a good and sweetie what do we mean cap shooter literally good and sweet not just in heaven good and sweet but I even a Devon Ziggler with visible and revealed goodness but Bandhu when it comes to children higher when it comes to life health mizuna when it comes to sustenance hooba Kulemin and all over them are auditioning with tremendous her cover was tremendous prosperity I'm maintaining here Autzen a good Givenchy er to everybody but born a high Oma's I know become revision demonic was our stuff the Michigan especially fun of Ketchikan here is the ultimate and yet he actually teaches us that's actually but cautious even I feel like Elliott yeah yeah and the interesting thing is the Gemara says in breakfast when she brought him back a few years later right a li said that he's high of Missa story happened again and Hana said Aloha our house a spell all T the whole story and Gomorrha same thing happen again I wonder she fought for this boy that's an interesting Hara that's an interesting comment that alien is often a Li's children there was not a lot of Na Costa Coffee empanadas that's an interesting horror paradox Hana he rebuked karna for asking for a child and it turns out that Connors child lit up the whole world he was equivalent to my Shannara and a lee's children he was the coin goblin there was the opposite it's an interesting order yeah yeah it's not about in this world it's not about right or wrong you understand it's about understanding this perspective and yeah it was coming from a good place but but but karna challenged him and he consented this perspective and his halakhah another perspective wasn't bad it wasn't there was nothing wrong that's what that answers all the questions how can he make such a mistake it wasn't him some mistake that he thought she was a drunkard it was a wizard it was a deep mistake it was like almost a good mistake that's why I can understood that's why he didn't interrupt her Davin e she's now an intership he's not interrupting or she's not drunk yet she he actually feels me not to think that she is drunk physically she's at the ground spiritually yeah yeah yeah yeah she's drunk she's drunk with with her desires in life she's up she wants to be a mother and we all understand that's the deepest desire maybe Russell said without that I'm dead it's not like well there's what if she's asking her he's not asking for some you know she's some spoiled girl or a prima donna so yeah I want to be a mother I want I want our I mean you know we would you know those who go through infertility that's one of us on the pain is tremendous so a li can understand that it's a very deep thing it's not like a li is coming to comment saying you're a grub young you're not a mother a woman asking for a child is it's maybe the most legitimate prayer in the world you know not having a child is very very Bashar's dear ever said the sister and he was describing the debate between alien cana he was sobbing terribly you know the sobbing doesn't come out of he with sobbing a li that you shake it on yourself and kana said no ash because now she lifts my a sham he was publicly sobbing it was very very intense perhaps could be also yeah I'm saying when he was discussing the premise of it Haley was saying this and kana was saying there's a Shauna tough son ahmud evolve ah a good gay bench does a lotta flavor here comes back them for their cans better for say Isaac ins baton fazil say that physician does like the rapper physician fire I'm a mother for Jana Isaac Beth for Jana macaques abettin physician this is my problem I think from Baal Shem Tov if you go deeper deeper deeper deeper he Tucker says I want a Ferrari like he says I was what I want I want $100,000 watch why why does he want to test Li wanted you be able to sit in the car and do his body those soft Drive thus the truth is like the truth is like that about sometimes vart is true almost everything in life it's its cunning today it's La Havas cutting-edge psychology peeling the onion exactly peeling done but there's a lot a lot of layers there's a lot a lot of lace so in secular psychology the deepest layer is just evolution survival somewhere you want to survive basically you feel lonely you want to survive why do you why do you need why don't you want to be lonely because in evolution if you're with people if there's a group there's more chances for survivors that's the deepest you'll get and that's what the therapist and the psychoanalyst will try to do you know get you to cry that you're lonely is this but but I'll pee I'll pee up enemies are tired especially as citizens divert is really you're looking for the ultimate oneness it's coming out in this and that so when it's hungry for food and it's not come emerge this food has done it so sometimes it's a little more complex you have to go through more winding from the destination to the ultimate origin but this is the truth and even if a mountain touch with it it's just I'm not in touch with it but this is the Emmis male the softcore soft will come out all the gosh mr. Ultimates fulfill your purpose the purpose of creation and your oneness with that and yeah it's you it's you cause that's Italy actually Artemis our Shem and you are not separate the real you is Hashem it's one we look God is here I'm here sometimes I'm interested in him usually I'm not interested in him but I know he's the boss so I gotta pay respects that's wool external torque Real Talk does not-it's not separate there's no separateness the real eye is Xmas there's only one essence the core of me is it's not it's not like God wants I wanna that's what's kind of saying no you don't get this we're on a journey together we're one but finishes even a Jew says no about one guy's shoes I'm not one with anything I'm just one with me I care about me but the real premise of it is if you delay after to fulfill the Kevon of Russia which is my real qivana that's my only real agenda my only real agenda is Eliquis the only hair your only real agenda yet they eat the dust learning abyssum Exodus you're too cynical you you are the deliberative titanum you're the first derivative time yeah you are the manifestation of a Shem in this world like you once said God wants to have an extrude you say he wants to experience is a Shem wast experience life through you yeah and and through me means my body my neurons my chemicals my cells then ultimate desires actually actually of course so I want to be healthy I want to have life this person is asking to lose weight this person is asking to be beautiful this person is asking for a bigger home this man asking for should the first kids asking for Shalom bias so Ailey says I got it but just think about a show you're just a little little creature just stop for a moment ask what you can do for him what he needs you for Wow Haley touched it a li got it Haley clinched it Haley clinched it and then Connor said your rights but to something even deeper but it's actually not the gosh mr. Rufus is not separate things drew is asking the cleaning lady should show up yeah you should be able to build a sucker with our hover she were able to have guests he wants it should that he wants this kids should find the right school what is that really that's the that's the premieres of Arts mas that once the light of truth should be in this world how through my children through my home my Bayside McNish needs a cleaning lady so the wife could be a mother she could she could raise children what is it you could look at it as selfish but to look at it as selfish that itself is selfish every every Jewish mother wants to be a Hannah she wants to bring her cut children Tasha so it's not so so looking at it in a selfish way that it's selfish selfish when you when you dismiss your desires as selfish that is selfish thank you thank you pleasure you understood of art paradigm shift that paradigm shift is there everyday yeah and then it could be on how the flat if I'm eating when I'm not hungry it's not good it's called a heel agasa right but what am I really looking for you have to know what you're looking for at an economic something is missing in a phenomena but the manifestation may not be the solution in other words when I'm genuinely hungry right eating the piece of fish or eating a salad that's the right thing to do that's how I Shem designed the world I'm supposed to eat a piece of fish or a piece of cell it's not just physical - Shama is looking for the Mitchells I'm looking for that what the cucumber really is sometimes I'm looking for something I'm looking for some expensive piece of whatever what was he saying his car or is watch what I'm looking for is now gonna be fulfilled through that because I'm not looking for that so you have to know what you're looking for the penny is what you're looking for is debeikis but it unlike the food this may not be manifested it's like I'm looking to something I start drinking alcohol the alcohol is not the mid sense that I'm looking for it's a confusion you get what I'm saying actually people were expensive watches so that other people should be impressed with them now they're really looking for something else but they're missing something inside of them I spoke you say one layer so I noticed yen tiniest watch ten dollars may have four dollars watch and I I didn't even ask the question I realized why he's wearing yes put him it's only the time which you choose the purchase of that he doesn't have to impress him right he has enough money it's very true so you have to know the difference if that object you're looking for is really what you're looking for like by food I'm pushing starving yeah the right thing is to drink a cup I'm thirsty drink a cup of water at the bottom they were saying it's not just you're thirsty you know someone's thirsty so you know some is always thirsty but to what say here you get the point here the object that you're looking for is really what's gonna do it I'll finish drinking I'm not thirsty anymore mission accomplished when I finish with alcohol still thirsty tomorrow I'm more thirst cuz it's something else but if you go deeper deeper deeper then it could there's always a person is looking for the Vegas so yes if I'm asking for it Hashanah for stupid things destructive things then we don't say ask that she only asked for one a hi Amazon and he asking for food you're asking for Panozzo asking for help asking for life you're asking for good things that will fulfill the ultimate purpose so even if right now I'm not to fill it fit feeling that , is asking for a chocolate right now you're not feeling that's fine no but it's not alcohol that's the really feeling the inner feeling they know right the bottom but but I'm asking for things you shouldn't person should not ask for things that are destructive we don't say ask honor Shoshanna that my you know whatever I should have unhealthy food in my life that's what he's saying even a Jew even a Jew who's not thinking about malayalam colobus with us or at least not only about that exactly but the premise of that is a Qataris amela it's your coronation of a sham that's the right when I'm asking ya for my child I'm asking for myself something I need what am I asking it's part of my coronating Hashem I'm coordinating our sham now I'm allowing mouth assertion to be revealed in the world that's what I'm doing I'm making a deal Erbitux I know that's what I'm really asking that is richer Shauna it's not a separate thing for my ship I should get there Tara session the relation is there Russell what's not sure yeah right it's the ultimate coronation because it's the ultimate in this avocadoes baroque of what he really wanted so to speak in his accent this is what he wanted leus lady rabbit explaining the purpose of creation so it's really it's the ultimate coronation of the king and that's what's coming out by an asana taiko that's the D but depth of the depth of the emotional Masonic talking about one level it's just you know everything is brought home so people are get very you know fearful by an asana Tigers I'm a deeper level right cuz the new code of Rosh Hashanah is bitter because in the code every son is Bittle the condition is Kabbalah samal house you're right that's the new Kedavra Shoshanna the understand yeah that's the real rashanna he's saying even the Jew the only reason why asking for ourselves is because that is Richard Sherman and that's what asking for yourself really is even if I'm not in touch with it right now Sushma Ness is doing a good of the mouth yeah it's not a personal that you're I'm asking for my child I'm not just asking the personal thing mind that I Shems child should be fine shams child in the world should be a healthy child and actually psychologically for education it's much healthier that way because I could actually think about my child much more it's not personal it's like I don't get angry I don't get so angry how you disappointing me how can you do this to me I put them off actually thinking I'm not so gods Charlie put into the world he gave me a Seleucus so now let me ask myself what does her she'll want me to do with this child right now what's the best attitude it allowed it frees you up from a lot of toxic thoughts that drive you crazy my kid is dis michaelis that my kid is that well without my kids it's God's kids such times light in the world I have a mission to be able to help this it's as part of mine it so it's part of my schlissel so the question now is when you de personalize it you can actually be much more loving people don't realize that when you deep personalize it it's not purse on a personal affront to me or a compliment to me my kid doing well or hospital not well is not personal it's actually God's child you can actually be there and I'm much more powerful you're the Slayer Charlotte is not the way so you ask yourself what's my shlokas right now what's my sluices now that's the question it's not like no no I don't mean it's not of course it's my child but and the truth is I just realized what's the first what's the crease attire of this day doc ADA what's that Kaede that Kaede is this it's I'm amazing thing that Kate is basically a sham telling our arm it's my child and now take him back okay I'll kill him no no no don't kill him I didn't say it's my child you kill him you don't kill children take him back and raise him and love him but he's my child so your love to him will actually be much deeper because it's not about like oh I'll prove myself through my child or this is what I want for my alum haba or - it allows my meat to be much more wholesome much more objective much more like actually look what the child needs rather than my experience of disappointment it's so much more powerful and so that Kaede is in the Korea cetera and then after Hannah says the same thing I'm giving my child up Tasha not by killing him Haley wanted to kill small lady said he didn't want to say this guy you miss her because he was my real luck or shall I be a beef in a robbery now how come our in Broca's but she took shaded miserable the pole kana says no I want him alive but he's dedicated touch time so it's the same story of it's very fascinating it's really the same point you don't kill you suck the Kevon is not that your child has fur solemn should die normally as you should live why it gives them such a challenge that's a tile well I think I think I think I think the way I understand it I left is one aspect of it is that Kaede that allowed of ROM to love you talking much much more I think it's the opposite of what most people think most people Dean that Kaede is ultimately a cruel story kill your child kill your son and he was ready to do it for our Shem I think really what I um was saying I want that you should be able to love your child as a divine child not as of Rome's child because when I love my child as my child ultimately it's so intertwined with me it's like me it's accession and now he's not doing well in school he's not doing well in life or he's going through a period or he's rebelling right and it's like so sonam shattered and destroyed and this kid is doing it to me even if I'm a good father and I'm a good guy and I love him to pieces and I'll diaphragm but ultimately I lose it I'm so angry in this appointment of frustrate my life is a failure and now when I'm talking to him I can't even think about him it's so much enough but if I can actually give him Tasha and he becomes God's trial that's right so now I could look at this person and say he's a shemp's child and I was given a mission to be able to be there so ashe Lucas for my shamash ever says here's my child it's very different so now I could look at this trial and say wow so he's a sham boy and he's going through something what's my mission now it's a whole different approach so much healthier you'll your decisions are gonna be much wiser you'll do whatever you have to do whether it's discipline or love or both but it's not coming from a place of how could you do this to me you're not doing anything to me I don't own you I don't own you you're not doing anything to me it's very hard for parents to see it this way please yes I used to love him self in its yes I love ya I loved myself emu yes and now he says yes loving a sham in you yeah yes because a shame if you don't have love and hate well you I can have love and hate because I hate myself because I don't do something right yeah it's like for you in mu I have a love and hate yeah yeah now it's I love a shame of you so there is no freed arcade I love you I love me and you yeah you're me how can I not love you and therefore when you're doing bad it means I'm really like a disaster I beget so entangled and then I feel guilty I made horrible mistakes I'm the worst father in the world whatever the fifth just become so obscuring you sitting with this poor boy and he gets that all and he just wrong as he runs further but if I could actually tell myself I don't love you because I love me I mean that's a normal thing or there's something much deeper I love I love you there's God in you you're God's child you're like you're everything to you and now he gave any yeah now he gave me ash licious to be the father of this child to be the mother of this child so that's my mission so now I ask what's month what's my Lucas what's my mission what's my purpose what what right now does this child need what does God need from this what did God want me to do for this trial it's a very different question and I think that happened post I only after that kinda of room had to do a radical quantum leap to sever that natural court cuz this is even my animals you ever see a mother beer what you'll do for her for a cup I'm serious no fish right what the bees do for the queen bee I mean this is like they set you sacrifice everything so it's a biological instinct so it's it's a selfish biological engine it's a very beautiful selfish instinct because it's what mothers do for children for fathers do for children I've ROM had to experience a quantum departure a rupture a rupture that was the word of that paradigm I think that was dark' de God couldn't good just give a speech because this is this is the core of existence die yourself yeah he had to die yeah the Father and of ROM had to die in order to become a real father yeah but but it's it's it's it's the this thing in the world because I'm a father Kafka nas Benson you're killing everything you you'd rather die yourself than kill your child times will say yeah I think yeah so that K that was really of run really severing that final Court of the human biological relationship that makes it very limited and now Hashem says taken back I don't want him he's yours al Tish like a Lamar but at the end I think he really came out but now I know that you'll be able to be the ultimate father you know that the Schnee Yaakov was gonna be on a different level you'll be the ultimate ultimate father because you're not just gonna be the biological father who sees himself and his child and sees the child as the fulfillment of him you'll be able to be the father who loves his child with divine love it's a very deep thing this is not simple this is an experience that you have to go through an emotional transformation for this my favorite story it's the deepest story it's probably one of the deepest stories of all time we see we say that kata every day somehow that Kate is seeing as the the source of the Jewish you know the chauffeur's for that K that we do so many things with all right the Ayla shall get some the Rams want to remember that Caden all arts Phyllis right we say remember that Kade there x-saber Shoshone also a Takeda see it's hawk lazara hi I'm disco should remember it every morning to be mentioned Swiss arcade so on the surface the echoes of rumbles are ready to do everything fresh on but there's really it's not just it's not just he was ready to give up his trial as a result of that history was transformed what we're capable of because God doesn't want us to slaughter our children pit the pagan slaughtered their kids right I was the that did that was the challenge of ROM preached his whole life against lottery so suddenly got it but really the varta is that it was it was a rupture that allowed for a different level of unity of Rob's loved he hits her postdoc ADA's in different laws which he couldn't experienced before even though one can understand how much the love was before because Hashem said caffeine has been because I share 1/2 them I mean the chef is saying I know you love him it's a great great love and yet it's it's a human love and a human love my definition is an entangled love she also says I share because the one that you love not that that right sure 1/2 talk yeah and I think the solution rim says and when the moment Hashem said Ashura hafta the love that of ROM experienced T it's book was the strongest ever because it was like Hashem said you love him so there was like this this divine testimony and that's what I've ROM went away from that's what I've roamed trance and it's like this father who's screaming at his child he's really crazy about the skit he loves him to pieces and yet he's destroying him yeah this father is not screaming at his doesn't love him the neighbor's kid he doesn't scream and he's the nicest guy in the world to the neighbors yeah he's crazy about this could I'll die for you so why are you killing me I'll die for you I'm dying for your happiness why are you killing yourself that's what he's screaming really kid doesn't hear that okay this is my father's having a roof fit of rage let me get back at this place but really the father is just saying I love you I'll die for you I did everything for you for 20 years I did everything for you what are you doing to me what are you doing to yourself and that's a big earnest sight to be able to say you know you you're you're in a very narrow place you're in a narrow place you are taking this personal and and this is not the best thing for your child do you mean well you mean well the father is not like you we're talking we're talking about real fathers then I don't want crazy dysfunctional abusive people but how can I not take it personal well you're me I shouldn't take it personal somebody cuts off a part of my body why shouldn't take it personal what should I take somebody else's triumph so that ability to really be able to say that you know how who could Vukovar but I'm one with Hashem I don't own anything I don't own this this child it's really your your not mine it's so it's liberating it's liberating if you if you're there emotionally or you're a liberated person you're like I could feel the pain because I love you but I'm liberated actually feel the ecstasy of grief you feel that and then you could come from that pain you know what the child will feel it like this the child will sense it maybe subconsciously I'll know immediately to look at his father's eyes will see right away the father's not talking about himself he's talking about the child he'll feel it right away yeah you're not talking about yours well well yeah but if the backing off is coming not from a place of fear but from a place of deeper love yeah of course and I'm when I when I speak to him I'll just sense it he'll sense it'll sense that it's really not about me it's really about him it's not even up not about me cometh lodging that it's about him you know sometimes I say you know I'm thinking about you and your future really I'm thinking about me and my future through you but really I really I'm not thinking about me I'm really tuning into you listen this isn't this is not a shear this is a trap that's emotional transformation it's not words I could say it all day you know but the poem which I sit down with my kid then I'm like it's very it's it's takeda it's a semi akkada it's a semi okay that's really giving up ownership but well how could i what I mean I give up on it I raised you I I held you when you were born I changed your pamper I paid every bill in your life I slept you to the doctor I was in the hospital for three nights well what do you mean actually give up what am I giving this know what I mean so that's why it's an arcade that to give up ownership if there's anything mine it's you you're the only thing that really belongs to me oh my energy - table mine this specially a mother everything went for you I worked 18 hours a day to me was to pay your metals to be able to afford a house for you and food and tuition and all that that's why it works what do mean I don't own you what do I own in life my coffee I own so it's it's just o'clock ADA it's really an arcade now it's up it's a real mistress not fresh yeah throwing a child out of the house you have to be very very careful with I mean I think it has to do a lot with this know the concern of other children is a very genuine concern but it has to come the decisions have to come from this place it has to come from a place of divine law what does Hashem really want me to do to do for this truck actually do you explain with other kids the way that you actually feeling and even even explain deepen your among this I will actually understand you there would yeah you're right they would not go away from you because I think the other way around they'll respect her father yeah the true values in one side if the children understand what you're doing they could become the greatest allies but you have to speak to your children about it you can't just ignore it because if not they could get very confused but it's sometimes the greatest springboard for tremendous unity between parents and other kids but listen this is a you know it's a very sensitive issue it's a very very sensitive issue now sometimes a person has a child and they get older and there is a room for you know for space like I'm not talking about because you know they're afraid of other chosen as a child himself you know needs to go away needs to get a job yes just you know living off mommy's milk is also not good for the trauma you have to know every situation well sometimes suggesting to a child to move on his own could be a very productive thing that's not throwing out of a house it's very different sending them up for life yeah it's basically you know you see what do you know in the house is a couch potato and doing nothing like the ability to take responsibility the ability to build yourself up the ability to appreciate what you have like yes I'm saying you have to know every situation is but it has to come again from a place of not entangled anger that's the Lord really from a place of very deep acceptance okay a good get backyard of Yaakov Cinemax Emmett OVA pleasure having all of you at the shear this class is brought to you by the yeshiva dotnet please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at 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