Emunah! A Shortcut to Emunah Everyday (Teshuva Power Week 5786)

So, you know, one Friday Arab Shabas, I started getting really panicky because I started thinking about like all the things I had to do that day. I started thinking about how I had to get to the bakery and I had to get the fresh collars. Then I remembered I needed a haircut and I didn't make an appointment with the barber. So, I knew I was going to have to wait in this long line and I had to get to the bank before they closed. So I was under so much pressure and I felt my my my chest was pounding and all of a sudden I opened up my eyes and I realized I was in the middle of that ever happens to anybody. It's like you're diving and you're like totally somewhere else. Well I just realized that you know toil for me it means a big all the time and I think for everybody because we're so we're like grling it. We we're it's so have it habitual for us that we need always need const constant. Today I know you all came for beton but I'm going to show you how to feel in bethon what's the relationship over there and how we we can mazic both before I really get started I just want to I I think the biggest you have this whole sheet and you have all these great speakers and you have this whole program the biggest for me from all of this I don't know you know no matter what they say the biggest is seeing he called me up I don't even think it was a week ago and he says yakov I I want to do this program I want to I'm going to call it whole week and we're going to I'm going to get all these rabbis. Do you have this rabbis number? And we're going to go maybe I'll get some sushi. He made this whole he had this whole thing in his and now it's like this is amazing thing. So I want to talk a little bit about you know one time I went to and uh I wanted to get a bra. So what was my situation? I was learning half a day and I was working half a day and the was getting to me and it's kind of was telling me you know maybe you need a little bit more parnosa maybe you know things are what do you need to be learning so much. So I said you know what I'm going to go to Rafaim. I'm going to get a bra and see what he says. So I wrote it all out on a piece of paper. My whole situation I'm learning and I'm working everything that I'm doing. I went to and I'm sitting at the table across from him and he takes the paper and he reads it. He's looking at it, looking at it. And he looks up at me and he says, "Add 15 minutes to your learning sader. 15 minutes to your learning learning s." So I said, "I could do that. I mean, I'm already learning for a few hours. 15 minutes is nothing, right?" And I left there and I felt so good because I felt like I I had something concrete. I had a broker from the Gulador and he gave me something like very tangible that I can do. I said that's it. Perasa problems are over. Everything's going to be good. Wow. I really felt good. I left there and the first week it went great. I was learning. I added a few 15 minutes. I can't remember which safer it was, but I I started learning. The first week went great. The second week went fine. The third week I missed one day and I figured I would make it up at night but I forgot and then by the fourth week all I also missed a day or two big kits by like 2 3 months it was like just it was like forgotten. It was like I you know wears off you went to the whole thing it was like nothing. So I said to myself like this is ridiculous. Time went by and and things started bubbling up again and the whole thing with parnets and everything. I said well I'll go back to Rheim. You know I I'm very superstitious with broccolas. I don't know like if you can just pick up the broccolle where it left off or you need a new broccol like how does it work? So I went back to Rafim and I wrote the whole thing out again and I sat there across the table and I was like very you know yeah learn 15 minutes right you know I'm just waiting for him to just finish reading and he looks at me puts on the paper looks at me and he says tit pale I was like I I felt my jaw hit the floor I was like tit pale I left there and I was thinking what does he want that's WHAT WHAT HOW WHAT'S THAT GOING TO do how's that going to help I d him three times a day already he wants me to dab him so that's it I'm never going up a he had a he has no no faith in me whatever I blew it and I really felt so and I realized that that dabing that's not the way it's supposed to be ding is a tremendous kak is a tremendous co and in fact I want to show you today that it's your whole purpose your whole purpose in life is sadden it's sadd to get close to koreshu and and to show that that's really the I started thinking one day and I started like thinking how to like really what's the whole purpose of life how do you really put it into a nutshell and I came up with this this idea you know the sharim it tells us that the whole purpose of a person's his whole tap in this world his whole purpose in life is to listen and haba that's his purpose you are here to get to a point where you can listen and okay great but that means nothing to me I have no concept of what aba is and like what are we going to be doing like hanging out with Hashem up in in Shmay? What does that mean? It totally means nothing to me. So the charm goes a step further and he says Torah and mitzvah are the key to getting to Habah and Alashem. Okay, now we're getting somewhere. Torah mitzvah. I can appreciate that. something tangible, but also it's like a bit of a problem because you know Torah mitzvah if that's really what's going to get me into I'm not the biggest learner and my mitzvah I don't know like am I really doing them right anyway so you I I could be falling short how am I going to get it my my tit in this world my whole purpose in life to get to to how am I going to do it so we take it a step a step step further back and the way to do it is to get more roughness in your life if you get more in your life and get rid of the gashnas. Get rid of the interruptions. You'll have more time for Torah mitzvah. You'll have more appreciation for Torah mitzvah. You'll have more sim in your life. If you put more into your life, that will get you to to a higher level of Torah mitzvah and the Torah mitzvah will get us toem. But there's still a problem. What is what is rnas? I mean, rrooknas for one person is not the same ronius for another one. I hear people talking, they say, "Oh my gosh, Thursday night fill in. Like that's their like what is that? I mean people have different definitions of roas. So the ronius is the true sim for a Jew. We know which which time of year is the is the ultimate sim for a Jew. Porm why Porim because Porm was a time where the whole world looked like it was upside down. Keshu was out of the picture. He checked out and the Jewish people were just left to to their own destiny. Whatever it was wasn't there. And what happened? All of a sudden we see a keshbar was has hashka in the world. He's he's THERE EVERY SECOND. EVEN WHEN THE JEWS were keeping the biggest doing the biggest they were sitting at the at the s of a and he they were bringing in bashi to get killed to make room for for Esther the biggest right there. And and it gave us the that's why it's the biggest when we see that there's order in the world when we see that there's when we see Hashem is in my life gives us a real true sim. So now we can have with the it could lead us to more to want to get close to Hashem to want to do more Torah mitzvah and that's going to be our ticket to we still have a problem. Where's the hashkah? Hashem is in my life. Does he know what I'm going through? Does he even know I exist? Where's the hashkah? Everything is going so crazy for me. Where's Hashem in my life? There's no hushkah. So then we get to the final stop. We have to have that is involved in our life. He's there in every single aspect of our life from the minute we open our eyes to the minute we lay down on the our head on the on the pillow. He's there every single second. There's hashka in the world and in our personal life. When we realize that we get to a point of true sim and we get to a point of we get to Torah to Torah mitzvah and we get to and what is synonymous with is synonymous with now is a state of mind you have to work on you have to learn but what is the expression of our expression of our is toil it's constantly talking wanting a relationship with Hashem seeing Hashem in every little thing that we do. It's it's constantly the lips are constantly moving. It's 100% a keshu. Because if we have a tila and we don't think it's a kes 100% hashem and we're not totally tied to a kesh bar, then what kind of feel is it? If I'm sitting here domining and I need I'm doing for my health, okay, we're domining for our health. And in the back of my mind, I'm thinking to myself, you know, I have a cousin in the states. He gives millions of dollars to Adasa hospital. If I need an appointment with the top top doctor in Israel, it's like a phone call. It's like nothing. I am totally good. I am totally taken care of. So, if that's the case, if that's really what you think, what do you need a kesh bar for? If you're doubting for Parnos, and you know, you have a big business meeting and they already promised you, you know, you come in, you sign a contract, we have a check of $50,000 waiting for you. That should take me for a few months. What am I need? What am I ding to for? Everything is from Hashem. Even when we have it in our hand, we have to dive into Hashem. It all belongs to him. It's all from his rat and there has to be no other options. No, no, nothing else but a koteshu. Even though it doesn't look like it looks like we're doing everything, it's a kesharu. And it's very interesting because I I said this over a few times. we get to do a little bit of speaking for an organization called and uh I said this over a few times and I was reading to him one day and it was just amazing. It says in right the third it says righte what's the next say and you will enjoy you'll take pleasure with hem and he'll grant you all the all the I saw this connection between and I thought it was like wow right I just thought it's emis it's mish emis that's the way we get to the sonashem we have to have the telephone and that kesher with the kesh and we really think it's funny because we think that like we have problems in our life. Everyone has problems. Everyone has ups and downs. So what what do you do when you have problems? You dabbing, right? You have to dab him to to ask Hashem to to alleviate the problems. But it's not that's not what it is. You know what the em is? You know what the em life is? Em life is you're going to have we're all going to have that we should have to go through any realness. But it's a fact of life. We're going to have ups and downs. We're going to have trials. We're going to have we're going to we're going to be tested and is only doing it so he gets us to dive and to talk to him to open up our heart and to realize it's you. We're not on anything else. We're not running here. We're not running there. We're only coming to you. We're running to you. We have these trials and tribulations in our life only to get us to Daven. That's the end. Don't think that, oh, something happened. I better din. No. The whole the whole goal is to There was a woman There was a woman she was being interviewed. She was a survivor of the Holocaust, old woman. And um she during the interview she said, you know, I I sometimes I miss miss Awitz. And I said to myself, wow, these Germans, what did they do to this woman? They made her crazy. Miss missed a what she miss. The food, her bed, the entertainment. What what kind of what what was how can you say such a thing? You know what she said? She said, "I missed Awitz cuz I I when I dabbed and I spoke to a Kesh Bar, it was so real. It was so real. He was like it was so tangible. I was it was like he was standing next to me and I missed that. I haven't been able to get that back." That's what she said. And this is this is what we have to do to realize that we have to be in a state of of non-stop toil. We have to constantly be talking to for everything for every little thing. And and and if you feel like well things are going pretty good you know am I pronouncing am I held the kids are good everything's good like well AM MY DINING OKAY I d because it's a mitzvah of din so then davin be creative how many times do you see somebody walking in the street an old person that isan not well how you seeman children you see a wheelchair you see some thank hashem you know thanking hashem is also a it's a big toil it's a big opportunity it's a big a big sus to be able to to realize that we have to thank hashm We have to constantly be talking to a tower rabbit kyki. She was she was um someone came to see her not to see her to see the rav and she was in the kitchen. I don't know if anyone has ever been was in the house, but it's like you walk in and and there was like a like a room, the double doors, and the kitchen was like right there off to the side. Small, very small apartment. And um he heard he was waiting to go into Saf and heard the Rebbitson. She was talking and she was saying, you know, look, he's uh he's working hard. He really needs Parnasa and uh you know, the family is is is having a rough time and and you know, possibly can help them out. And she's having this conversation and he kind of like glanced in. And he wanted to see like who she was talking to and there was nobody there. There was nobody there. So he he went in. He said, "Um, everything okay? Who who you talking to?" She said, "I'm talking to Tati. Talking to to my Tati." She constantly just talking talking to Baru. You came here to hear about the and how to how to walk and just just feel close to walk and feel close to by talking to him all the time, thanking him, being a part, showing that that he's he's a part of your life, even for the small things. You want to go to the mall. You want you need a pair of shoes. Talk to you. Talk to to I'm going to the mall today to shle. Help me find good parking that I don't have to walk and I don't get headaches in the traffic and then once I get there, help me find what I need and the right color, the right size, everything. I don't have to spend a lot of money. I don't have to waste time up and down the malls. Help me. Give me even for the little things. That shows the godliness of aes that he's involved even in the little things in our life. Be creative with your tail. If you feel like everything is so great, be creative. There's so many people that need so many things. There's one time I was in a in a it's a place called Oranit. I don't know if you've ever heard of it. It's um it's run by Azer Mitsion and it's a place where the um where where uh kids that um they they need to go for treatments and they have to go usually early in the morning. So what they do is they stay it's a or an is like a it's like a hotel not I don't call hotel but it's like a a hotel of sorts specially made for patients that are going for treatments to it's in uh impeductive I think they go to Bellinsson it's one close to one of the hospitals anyway I was helping them doing some um some marketing with them and um I was there we're sitting around the table with with their people and this guy showed me we're talking about getting material for for uh to to promote the the place and he he showed me this little clip on this video and he said, "Look at this clip we took. This this young girl, she ended up passing away a week after this clip was taken." And he showed me the clip. And it was of a of a girl who was who was sick and visibly sick. And what they used to they have is they have this ambulance that they use for the kids that they they they take them around. So sometimes they can't leave because of the they can't be out in the public. So they have this special ambulance and it's made like a disco. Literally like a disco. has the ball and it has a light and and they play this loud, you know, I run freed and you know, music and the kid and with all these volunteers, I don't seen the young the young girls that are volunteers, they have so much energy and she's in this in this um this ambulance and and he's they show me the video and they're singing and like they're holding the shamas are coming out and this this girl she's like I said she's visibly say it was very heart-wrenching. It was very heart-wrenching. So I said I said we have to use this clip. this is like such he can you know show people what is doing and it's emotional we have to use this clip he said no I can't let you I said look I know like we can talk to the family maybe they'll let us say no I can't let you it's not that why do you think he didn't want me to use the clip I wouldn't have thought of this in a million years why do you think that he didn't want me to use the clip he didn't want me to use the clip because he was afraid that there or other children who knew this girl and they knew that she passed away and when they would see it and they would see her celebrating and they knew that she wasn't around anymore, they would also get scared. They would also feel like here I am and and what's my future going to be? Maybe I'm next. That's what he told me. He says, "I don't want these kids to Yeah. Like people are suffering. People are going through so many things. So if you feel that you can't die for yourself, then do it for someone else. There's um there's a way that when we dive in, you have to really understand that it becomes a part of you and you have to really get to the to the point of of like that it changes you, right? Let's I'll give you an example. Let's say you're a businessman and you have a big business meeting in Hyifa, right? You have to go to from Bennis. You have to go to Hifa and it's a real big meeting. It's like the biggest meeting you've been waiting for this meeting and you have to go there. So what do you do? You make all your preparations. You dive in Nate so you don't get stuck like, you know, go there late, you get an early start. You dive in Nates, you uh you you bring you bring food with you so you don't have to run around and you're not hungry, you have a good, you know, get a headache. Um you bring a safer just in case you have like uh some extra time. And um you know, everything is totally set. The car is filled with gas, everything. And before you get in the car and you're on your way to Kyifa, you you you dive in. You say to Karesh Bar, he said, "Kesh Baru, I have this really big business meeting now." and I've been waiting for a long time. Please help me help me get there and and just make it so that it's successful and uh make everything just just go well for me. Now, would you say that that's a good feeler? Yes. No. Maybe. So, sound like a good feeler to you? Would you say something like that if you're on your way to a uh Sounds okay, right? Something's missing there. means I'm I don't have my own my own plans. I have I have a desire. I have a rut and I do have a plan. But the outcomes I recognize all the time that it's coming from meaning that a real would be au I'm going to now because I'm doing my I have to make parnasa for my family. So I'm I'm going there. I don't know if it's the best thing for me. Maybe these people are not meant for me to to do business with. I don't know. But as as far as my history goes, I think that this is the this is a good move. And I'm just asking you if you want me to get there, then let me get there. If there's traffic, I know that it's from you and I'm being prevented from getting there, that's also from you. And if I'm successful, I want to thank you in advance. And if I'm not successful, that's also my success because it comes from you. And you just think that's what it takes on a new your whole vision your whole that's and you see that the tila has to be an expression of that of that closeness. That's what is and not only it changes the way we think and the way we we walk and we we we think and we see the world and you start realizing everything's from you start to worry less cuz it's in Hashem's hands. It's all it's all we're done. This is the time of year that we recognize everything is decreed now. So what do you as soon as it's all over then we just start worrying and doing and it's on my hands and I have to make this and I have to do this. This is the time this is the we have the opportunity to ourselves. It's obvious that everything is from aeshbu and it it changes it changes our masle. It changes our whole the muzzle because because when we start thinking of a keshbu the challenges that that a kadeshu might want to send us so that we do and so that we get close to him. They're not meant for us anymore cuz we're attached to a kadesh bar. So he doesn't need to give us these things these challenges anymore. We're not the same person anymore. We're a different person. So doesn't he deals with us differently and we get a whole new masle. We get everything changes in our life when we attach ourselves to a kadesh bar. And the main reason why the main reason why it's very hard for us is because we're living in the dot. Okay, we're living in the dot. I'm sure none of you know what the dot is because I made it up not too long ago. And I'll tell you what the dot is. The dot is a infinite timeline. Okay, it's like if I started from this wall over here and I drew a timeline and it just went straight out out for forever and ever non-stop infinite, right? And I asked you where is your life on this timeline from the beginning of time to nitus to eternity where is your life your 120 years on this timeline. So I'd have to take a microscopic micron micro whatever needle and make a tiny little touch to the timeline and say there you are. This is your 120 years. This is where you're spending all your time. But then the shama who you really are is out is all the way out there. It's not going to stop. It doesn't end over here. It keeps going and going. You have eternity. That's your rrook. That's why everything that you're doing here is what you're working for is so that you enjoy it over there. The infinity, the eternity. And we don't realize it because we get stuck in the dot. We get stuck in that little dot and we start getting upset. We start worrying. We start running after things that have no meaning. We we need to add more into our life. That's the problem why we have such a hard time because once we have we realize it's only you. I'm not even doing anything. I'm doing I have a rat. The only thing we get reward for is our ratson of what we want to do. Other than that, everything else is from au. [cough] And that's how that's our problem. Once we start getting rid of the the interruptions, the gosh, we get it. start getting clarity in our life and it's very hard because you know even though we're like okay you know and we feel close especially this time of year right we feel very close but sometimes we get like you know one neighbor can drive by with like with a with a it's water okay one neighbor could drive by with like his big new car right and it's like all my rrookness and all my go I want one of those right it's like it's so fragile we have to hang on to it I remember I remember that um when when Prince Carl was coronated the king Lucifer Danny. Yeah, he was being coronated. They invited the chief rabbi of England to the coronation, but the coronation was on Chabas. So, how's he going to go? So, they made all these arrangements for him. They put him up in the in the in the uh palace uh residence. They gave him a room there. It's like about a 20-minute walk from where the coronation was going to be so he can get there. And like his food and everything. And I was thinking to myself, like that's so cool, right? Like like that's like a what is that like a slumber party with Prince Charles? Like being in the the the palace and seeing all that. It's like that's like the coolest thing, right? And then and then like to be, you know, just around the that to me that like has a big effect. I love I like history. I like all these different things. And then I started thinking to myself, I said, "Wait a second. How many hatarium how many hatarium did this guy have to go through? this the the rabbi the chief rabbi that did he have to go through to make this happen I mean think about it what's with the a roof what's with all the goim the kashmal there's probably security things all around what's with the food I mean as what you you one of those trips where you bring a crockpot in a hot plate and you put it in the president in the in the palace residence like what how many things would he had to have gone through right and then he had to go to the coronation which was probably in a church right he probably had to get a header for that right and I'm thinking to myself wait a second look what we have we have chabas We have good food. We have our families. We have friends singing, laughing, coronating the king. We have the king. We have the real king. And we get so we we have to it's like it it loses we get lose touch with the reality. But this is our work and this is what we this is really what we need to do. And the truth of the matter is is that there's a lot of sources for this. We say three times a day, [clears throat] not three times a day, three times. We say um four times actually. And did you ever ask yourself what like serving a kesharule with MS is? What is the mis like? MS like you know like oh like before I didn't really believe in a kesh bar sparkle but make it so that I really do believe in a kish like what's the ms ms means 100% a kesh bar that's what ms means anytime you see ms in davin that's what you think to yourself it's totally a kesh bar here we had in rash shana we had I don't remember the the exact but the bracoa right it says dvar ms right uh the the last the last bro before the the end of the um yeah soar It's like everything. There's nothing else. It's only aes we're asking that we should have the clarity. We shouldn't be we shouldn't go after the you know prince Charles. We should be going after you. You're the real melik em should serve you with ems with total clarity that you are the only thing that's important. You are the only thing that means anything that for my future for my nitis for my children. And we have to start thinking about that because look look at the rrooknas. I mean, if [snorts] you're domining, if you're domining for things like worrying about like uh like where you going to go Beni, you know, where you going to go for Pesak, should we go to Greece or should we go to Italy? Like, if that's what you're you don't need a kishar for that, you don't need to dabin for that. That's not dabbing. If you're totally glued in stuck into the into the gash, you don't have a kadesh. That's not where that's not where the baton and the and the and the davining and the ron comes from. The ronius comes from when you start thinking about your nishama. Where am I going to be at 120? What's waiting for me? What about my children? Grandchildren. I have grandchildren. They they're growing up. My grandchildren are growing up with cell phones and smartphones and they see it and they it's terrible. It's really terrible. And and I'm not even talking about bad things. I'm not even I mean kosher and everything, but it's like the whole every what's going to be please. When you start thinking about then you then you really start connecting. That's where your that's where you that's where you start connecting with Hashem. [cough] And you [clears throat] should know that ail of emis if you get to a point where you realize that it's only a keshb and it's a real til of emis it always gets answered. It always gets answered. If your tila doesn't get answered there must be something lacking. Ail of ms is always answered. We say it in ashray. What do we say in the end of ashem? Anyone who calls out to with ms is answered. Guaranteed. We say it in in uh in uh also one of the the things that we could say in um in this amazing thing. You want to be the one of the people that that is attached to with MS. You're going to have the whole dominating for you. Right? What does it say over there? Right? What does it say over there? The whole congregation is in there. He's saying give this person a GOOD SCAR FOR THE person who who who attaches himself who who's who's the Isn't that great? Get the whole kahila for you. All you have to do is connect to Hashem with MS. There's nothing else. There is nothing else. There was a um there's plenty of stories like I mean it's like but there was a boy who was in uh he was in balancin he was uh he had the maka and uh he had a tumor in a place it was like right in the middle of his um the main arteries towards the the middle like in his chest. He had a a huge tumor and um it was too difficult to operate. They couldn't remove it by by having an operation. So they said, "We're going to give him um some some treatment and uh we're going to try and just get rid of it that way because we can't do anything else." And they gave him a very very hard a massive amount of of radiation, a big shalom. And it was it was like a more than more than usual. They tried to to to be able to get rid of this thing because they couldn't operate. And after the after all these treatments, they came in. The mother was there in the room with the boy. And the doctor comes in and he says, you know, all these treatments and everything, we just we just did a scan. Nothing has changed. Nothing. It didn't shrink in size. There's not it's totally the same situation. The only hope that we have is to operate. But I'm telling you right now, this is in front of the boy and the mother. I'm telling you right now, there's a 90% chance he's not going to make it. So the mother is crying. She's saying to Helim and the boy's sitting there in his bed and he says, "Ima, I want to go Davin in the in the hotel in the hospital in the down to the to the shul of the hospital." She says, "Ma, I want I want to go down in Davin." And she says, "Listen, honey, you can't you can't you just had a serious round of treatments. Your immune system is like non-existent. You can't leave. You can't go out of the room." She says, "Ema, I want to dive in." She says, "I'm sorry. you you can just get it out of your head. He says, "Ima, if this was my last tail, my last time I can dab him, wouldn't you want me to go and and into a shul and and have a tila?" So, she heard that. She said, "Okay, I'll ask the doctor." And they dressed him up in the in these these uh suits, these hazmat suits and the and a shield and then a masks, double masks and on the shoes, everything totally totally covered gloves, everything. And they wheel him down into the shul and he goes in. And the shoo there wasn't a minion going on. It wasn't diving time, but there's a few people learning there. But he goes into the uh to the RO and he opens it up and he said [clears throat] he opens it up and he says, "Hashem Mosh Moshana, okay." And he closed the and he walked out and he told his mother, "I imma call everything's going to be okay." What happened? They had an operation. They did the operation. It was supposed to be a 14-hour operation. The doctor comes out after an hour and a half and the mother's panicked. She said, "What happened? What's what's going on?" The doctor says, "I don't know." We opened him up and we went to do surgery to cut out the the tumor and as soon as we touched it, it was hard like a rock, like it became like a like a walnut, like a like a hard piece of of and and we touched it and it just broke open and fell away. EMS when you rely totally on a kadeshu em your tilas get answered and um uh time is running out so I'll just finish with with something that um is related to yam kiper related to tfila related to the um the there was a a story of um well first of all it says that that there's a big question we had a judgment for rashashan up. But it's very strange because when you have a judgment, what usually happens is you go in front of a judge and you try and cover up everything like, you know, oh, I was innocent. I didn't really mean this and that. And the judge is trying to uncover all the facts and wants to know what's going on. And he wants to give the right the proper judgment. And and uh and basically that's what a judgment is. It's to find out what's really happening with a person. But over here on Rashashana, it says we had a judgment. But what was the judgment? And the judgment is from he knows everything. It doesn't make sense. I mean if we if Hashem is going to judge us and he's going to find out what we did and then he wants to give us a punishment. So just give us a punishment. Why this whole this whole thing of judgment? This that doesn't make sense. He knows everything. But there is a judgment. So it must be that the judgment is on the future. It must be that the judgment that is looking for he's asking us where are you going? What do you want for the coming year? Where do you want to be? What's our relationship going to be like? And that's why we have all this this this concept of taking on cabalas because we're showing that what I really want is to be close to you. I want to take on more. I want to be part of your world. I want a bigger responsibility cuz that's the only thing that means anything to me. And there was there was a um there was a story old story and maybe you heard it, but there was a guy Jewish guy. He was in a in a sports car convertible. He had a shixa sitting next to him. And he was on his way to uh to a Michael Jackson concert, the hottest thing, you know, at the time, whatever. They were like, he was just loving life, right? And he's driving down and all of a sudden he hits this big traffic jam on a street. They're like, there's no traffic. It's not like a business district or anything. And all of a sudden, the traffic just stops. And he's like, he doesn't know what's going on. He starts beeping his horn. Beeping his horn. Get out of my way. Beeping his horn. And all of a sudden, this uh this Mexican was in California. This Mexican cop comes up to him. He says, "What are you doing?" "Oh, I'm sorry, officer. You know, I'm just on my way to a very important uh thing, you know, and then uh there's traffic here. I didn't know what the traffic was. I thought someone didn't want to move. I don't know. There's not supposed to be traffic here." He says, "Don't you know that today's Yam Kipper and the Jewish people are going to shul? We have to stop the traffic so they can cross the street and they can get to Shul." And it just hit him like a Mexican cop has to remind him that it's Yum Kipper and he just like it turned his head around and he the story goes he became well that's that's the end of the story but this rash shana I had somebody at my table I don't want to mention who it is he lives here I'm could be many of you know him and he was telling me that before he became religious he was uh working in a part of the world where um he had a factory and um and he he called me. He said, "You know something? Before I became religious, I was I was in this place and and an Israeli came up to me and he said, you know, tonight's Rashashana." And I said, "Okay, so what do you want me to do?" You know, that's what his reaction was. It was like Rashashana is like a Jewish holiday. And he he said, he said, you know, I can't believe how far I was. Like I just had no concept. It just like was like, you know, cuz we sit here and we think we like all these and they know what it is. They just don't want to they don't want to participate in in in the religious because they're against and they're anti. No, they are so far they are mamish so far away. I have family that that like very close family and and it was like so what are you doing for Rashashana? Ah we're going with one of the other people in the member of the family and their kids and whatever. We're going to Vienna and we're taking like nothing like not even embarrassed like they we're not going to see them. They're just saying that like you know oh we're busy I don't know. No, we're going to Vienna, spending the whole week coming back on Chabas, flying on Chabas to, you know, and it's like we feel like like how can they do such a thing? Don't they see us? Don't they see our life? Don't they don't they really like we take it as like a disrespect, but it's not that. They're so far. [snorts] And I thought that as the time comes for Domin Cabalas and these type of things, there's a braha. And I just thought of this and it's like something that I had tried to do myself but I but this thing this whole story this whole thing was in my mind because of my family because of this person was on the table. There's a we say anyway every day, right? And it's what do we say? What do we say after that? We want the Torah to become sweet in everyone else's in in their also in their mouths. All the generations, all the all THE that the Torah should be sweet. They should know you Hashem. If anyone is looking for a cabala, another cabala, I think this would be a perfect thing just to have this one that we say anyway, mark it in your sitter, make a highlight or whatever and say it with kavana. Say with kavana, have in mind, maybe have in mind someone specific and that it should be that all of they come back, they know what a kesh bar is. We're coming here to find out what how to get closer to how to to to maximize our that they should even know who is that he exists. How how powerful it is when he's in their life. How much there is when there's and there's order and and there should be that we should see the the I appreciate your time your listening.