G-od love us! Then Why do we suffer?? Long, but a detailed explanation and a solution! Rabbi Anava

I'm sorry that I I came late. I will uh in the course of the lecture will share with you some points and some examples. You'll understand why I was late. But uh I want to talk about a very important and yet very sensitive uh topic. something that on the surface some might say, "Oh, that has nothing to do with me." But the reality is what I'm going to talk about tonight applies to every f every person, young, old, female, male, Jew, non-Jew. And I think it's one of the most important topics one needs to focus on today in our days. And the topic is why do we suffer? Many of you have the idea and many of you hear it from many different places. God loves you. God loves you. You hear it from many different places. Oh yes. Okay. If God loves me so much, why do I suffer? Now I can make a survey now or ask you all to raise your hands. But I don't need to do that because I know the answer. But if I would ask you now to anyone who's now suffering in some type of a situation please raise your hand and everybody would raise their hand. And a person who doesn't raise their hand then either lives in denial or lies to themselves or in such a high spiritual level that it's not even suffering. So you see the diff the the the difference either the person is in denial or in a huge high high level that it's not even suffering. And the sad reality is that if you look at every living person right now or you look at yourself, everybody is suffering some type of a situation, a challenge. It can be a financial crisis, can be health crisis, it can be divorce, it can be uh being single for 20 years and battling loneliness, can be depression, it can be a million in one things. Every person has his own share. Your troubles has nothing to do with my troubles. For me, my troubles are the worst and yours are easy. But the sad reality is that each and every one of us in this at this moment has something bothering them in their mind, something bothering them in their heart, something is annoying them emotionally, physically, and they're dealing with some type of challenge. Some people it's small challenges every day. Some people is one challenge already for two years. I don't think I even need to continue explaining my point. The sad reality is then you don't have to nod and you don't have to raise your hand. It's enough for me to look at you and I can tell you what you're going through. So now of course comes the big question. A if if you say that God loves me so much then why do I suffer? Why do we suffer? Why is there so much pain and suffering in the world? And now nowadays it's like uh every 2 minutes 30 40 years ago. Okay, there was some challenges. Now the world is so under pressure. It can be an entire nation as a nation and one individual or one family. And another thing that I find which is not the right way of doing it is that most people are not willing to acknowledge the situation. So they're putting on a fake happiness or unfortunately many the fake happiness will come with abusing drugs, alcohol or whatever type of habits to uh forget all my troubles. That's not a solution. But in many of the situations, people are so lost with advice that they they they neglect the fact that there's a situation, there's a problem. But each and every one of us late at night when the door is closed, when the phone is off, when you're sitting with yourself, well, there's a little bit of a chaos going on in your mind. You worry, you're sad, or you whatever it is, you you you're confused. you're under pressure. So some people it's more, some people it's less. Some people deal with it in a more mature manner, some people don't. But to conclude, what I'm trying to say is that right now every person in the world is suffering from something. And the reality is that every person is not suffering from one thing, is suffering from a lot of things. And if they're not really suffering particularly themselves then they seeing all the suffering of other people their children their loved ones or other individuals and they that causes them also suffering. So at the end of the day if I want to summarize it in one little phrase there is a lot of suffering and and and pain in the world and and yet we know God loves us right. So what does he stop loving us when when we're suffering? So 10 years I'm going through hardships and challenges. So that 10 years Hashem doesn't love me. And then I do something and he starts loving me. Or when I'm if things are good, he loves me. When things are not good, he how does it work? So the purpose of the suffering in the world can be explained in many many different ways. many many different ways. I will cover some of them that you can relate with at least one. I would rather spend most of the time today and more talking about solutions than just presenting a problem. We all have we all know there's a problem. every person today besides dealing with many different things at the same time. I don't think there's one person in the world right now that doesn't feel how the world is under pressure. It looks like the world is closing in. Time is going faster and faster and faster. Nothing gets done. Nothing barely gets done. That's something that I lately noticed. Everybody's busy, busy, busy. Nothing gets done. I'm the proof to that. I landed two months ago, less than two months ago from the last uh uh trip and I knew I'm coming in whatever it was, six, seven weeks forward. And I started the day I landed preparing to the trip and before I knew it, boom, a week before the trip, 20% is done. 80% is not done. I've been working 20 hours a day with a 15 people crew. Nothing is done. How? I thought something's wrong with me. But then I noticed that everybody's like that. They work. They do. They toil. They go crazy. Nothing gets done. No results. You move forward one step. Time flies like an F-16. But your productivity is like you're working a minute a day. So that's another way of seeing that kadu is already relating to the world is start starting to introduce to the world a different reality. So first since I want to cover a few points of the suffering I will divide it into two groups and then I like I told you I rather focus on solutions and focus on what what needs to be done. So there are many different types of suffering and again suffering is uh uh it's a definition for me suffering is a and for you suffering is b now when the talmud is talking about the concept of suffering which the talmud calls it isim then the talmud presents the situation that if a person has hardship or some type of a challenge or in the words of the if you feel some type of hardship. Go through your actions and try to see why would be a reason for you to suffer and uh you need to do some type of analysis and introspection of [clears throat] what's going on. what did you do today, last day, whatever or what's the challenge that you're going through and to try to reverse engineer why would you suffer in that specific thing? So to give you one example, you get a parking ticket or shalom, somebody bumps into your car and runs off, you need to pay now $500 to fix the car or the boiler breaks. So little little financial erh erh issues. One person might say it's normal that the boiler will blow up every 10 years or that I'll get a parking ticket. I don't even see that even as suffering. And a regular individual will just skip over the fact that that's a sign from Hashem. But our sages explain if you have a situation and we're talking about now financial and something small. No, I'm talking like a half a million dollar lawsuit. Talking about a park car parking ticket, small dent in the car, small expenses. The koshu is hinting to you that you must have done something in the department of finance. Maybe you [clears throat] stole money, maybe you did gazel and the gazel is for gazel, the translation of gazel is robbery. But really gazel is [clears throat] that you take something without permission that is not yours. But you don't have the intention of stealing. It's not theft. Theft is that I break the window at night and I jump in when you don't look and I say something and I and I and I go. That's stealing. But gazel is that I can come to your hotel and I walk out with the with the towels and I walk out with the shampoos. So forget the towels. styles is a little bit exaggerating. You walk out with the shampoos and in your mind I'm not stealing anything. I was in the room. I'm taking the shampoos. But really the will tell you the shampoo is in the shower for you when you're in the shower. It's not a souvenir. It's like the towel. If you are normal not to take the towel, why you taking the shampoo? So unless instructed otherwise from the hotel, that's gel. for one shekele. I once gave a class about this concept of gazelle. It was a series of classes and one lady asked me told me one time we went for a road trip. We stopped in I don't know how it's called here 7-Eleven or something like that. And she said we just wanted to buy uh some um basic things and then on the way out they have like these hot dogs from like 3 weeks ago. So she was like, "Of course, we don't we don't buy the hot dogs. We eat kosher." But there was some ketchups there and napkins. So I took some ketchups in the napkin. I told her that's 100% gazel. And if the napkin and the ketchup is costing 36 cents, you are now under the the sin of gazelle and you owe 36 cents. And ana will come back here in an incarnation for 36 cents. [clears throat] Why? Because you came in to buy water. The ketchup has nothing to do with the water. If you would buy a hot dog, you can take one of the ketchups. But you came in to buy a bottle of water. You want the ketchup, go to the cashier and tell them, "Can I have one bag of ketchup? Can I have the napkin?" So people don't even notice that. But that's that's what's called gazil. So when a person uh gets his hint in with money then you need to think maybe I owe somebody money maybe I promised somebody money maybe somebody get lended me money I didn't pay back maybe I did some type of gaz something with money and it's not always going to be the solution could be that you'll think thing think okay I didn't do anything it's not 100% that because you got a ticket you did something with money I'm just saying chong how hashem gives you hints And I'll give you one example out of many. Let's say the the example is on the the body. A person has some type of sickness. So if I'll give you an example two years ago, I broke my uh right hand uh right over here. And when I kept asking my my hashem, why duffka the hand? Why the hand? I mean could have been the leg, could have been the I don't know any other part of the body. But since a specific part of the hand was broken, I was like, "Okay, what am I doing with my hand? Maybe I'm not giving enough to the car or I was trying to think what I'm going through some type of suffering. Shem is giving me a hint. He's giving me a hint that I need to think and to connect. Why did Hashem is now turning on a red light?" Exactly like you would be driving in a car and you're running out of gas, then the light goes on. Now imagine the light wouldn't go on, then you would drive, drive, drive, and then the car stops. Same thing if you're running out of oil, you're driving without brakes, you need the warning lights. So many of the suffering that that we call it suffering or challenges that we go through is just red warning lights. It's not for the purpose of making you suffer. It's for the purpose of getting your attention. So many of the little things that you deal with and I'm talking about little things mainly to get your attention to get your attention to watch how you behave to see where you may be going the wrong the wrong direction. Many people are smart you know they see something is not working out they try to reverse engineer why this specific thing is not working out. So many of the suffering I gave an example with with a little bit with money with with health but when it comes in little doses it's Hashem telling you check yourself out and it will come again like I told you in the department where where the the blemish is and in many of the cases you don't find the the the answer but that's the first thing that the Talmud says look on your in your actions now if you do not find anything then could very much be that this suffering is from something that you did in a previous incarnation. Now imagine now a nama goes up to the heavens. They char they put the shama on trial and they find the soul guilty in this this this and this and this and part of the tikun is that the soul comes back into this world in an incarnation another life and the person will go through some changes some challenges and difficulties and that will be the rectification to something I did 200 300 500 years ago and usually it will be these little things that I don't put too much attention to. On the same level, many of the great challenges can be a tikun for rectification from a different life. And that can be and this we're not going to put much of time in this lecture to talk about, but many many many of the big challenges that we go through, it's uh tikun from something major that has to be fixed from a different life. And that's usually the challenges that a person goes through in a period of life. Not like a ticket or not like a broken hand that it's a very short period. It will be like a 10 years of a horrible marriage or 20 years of building a business and then the whole business collapse. Something that is significant in the person's life. In many of the cases that's that's I don't like using the word karma because but many people like they relate with that but that's your karma. You brought baggage from a different life whether you owed a person a lot of money. Maybe you were mean to a person then it's going to happen to you. It's all measure for measure. It's not [clears throat] that Hashem is punishing you. Hashem says whatever you put out that's you. That's what you need to deal with. Mida connected mida. If you can't handle the cr the time, don't do the crime. So most people don't understand, want I I I need to deal with such a challenge like this and like that. Yeah. Don't ignore that. A year ago, half a year ago, 2 minutes ago or 200 years ago, you were very quick to run to do a certain act. And again and by the way it's very important to understand many many people think that that when you sin a lot or you sin specific things then you bring on yourself specific suffering so it's true to an extent but I know a lot of people that they have different types of suffering they attribute it to different sins that they do and it's not true even it's not connected and why they think that because somebody told him oh uh you're not you don't have parasan Huh? You have problems with you're probably breaking the your pa now the person is like okay who says it's from the Brit I know a lot of people that battling that sin they have parasa usually usually it's not but a lot of people think that oh I did a certain sin this is the punishment so I'm already telling you it's true to a certain extent but in many many cases that's how I see it from my experience The reaction to your action comes a long time after. It's not instant. For you to get the reaction instant, you have to be very loved by Hashem and in a very high spiritual level that you do now the sin. Maybe a minute passes and or maybe an hour or two and you get already back the reaction. That's a high level that Hashem doesn't want you even to even continue sinning or going over or or messing it up. That right away comes the sign. But we don't realize that a lot of our I call it the reaction to my action. Sometimes it comes after 20 years. And you know when it comes in the most annoying time the when you don't the most don't need it. It just waits for you for 20 years here in the corner for the right moment and then it comes and then of course you don't understand where did this come from what do they do now so to summarize that department yes sometimes a person does sins the sins will bring reactions that the reactions will be interpreted to many as suffering lack of money I can make this deal work also some damages also these little things then you have some suffering big or or little from previous incarnations and I would say that a large amount of our challenges and we'll call it again suffering it's really from sins that we do and baggage we carry from previous lives and why is that important to know for two things the sins that you do then just stop doing the sin. That's it. Shem is sending you uh notifications all the time and you're ignoring the notification. It's like the electricity bill sending you the first notice, your bill is due in 10 days, then the bill is due in 7 days. Then the bill is due in a day. Then you don't pay it. 10 days later you get a message. Your bill is passed due. Then you get another message. Your bill is pass. How many bills? How many messages do they send you? 2 3 4 months. Then the bills they change color. It's all red. We're going to shut down your electricity. You still ignore it. And then one day the electricity is off. Exactly when you needed the electricity to do the most important thing for you right now. That if you don't do it, you lose your job, lose your career. You know what I mean? You need electricity that moment. That's how Hashem works. And then you start hitting yourself on the head. Why didn't Why did I ignore the bill? I saw the bill. It was on my desk. Why did I ignore it? And then you start kicking yourself in the head that you saw the bill and you didn't pay it. So it's the same thing with sins. Again, I like to more look and I'm staying it from my my experience. I like to see how when a person sins, usually the reaction for that sin comes much much later. And the reason for that is that Hashem wants you to do chuva because if he would punish you right after you do the sin, it doesn't even give you time to digest what you did in order to do chuva. So let's say a person did a certain sin. So Hashem will send little messages to wake you up your attention to you to think, wait a minute, that is wrong. And you start getting these messages. Maybe I should have done that. Oh, maybe I'll do this. That's Hashem giving you the opportunity to do chuva. And then he's waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting, sometimes years for you to repent. And when you don't repent, then it starts bubbling. Now, okay, you didn't repent for 10 years. Now you'll get the reaction of what you did then. And when it comes now it comes in a delay. You don't understand why why why it came. So first type of suffering is your own fault. Your own fault. And I can in I would say 50% of the cases I recognize my suffering that are it's my own fault. I as I recognize my own stupidity which is good. I know what to work on. And we're human beings. So in many of the cases it takes three four fives attempts but a smart person learns gets assigned and learns and better themselves. So really the first level of suffering is warnings from the system and Hashem warning you you are you are going off the path. Where do you see it the nicest? Now in in in the new cars, there's a wonderful technology. When you start drifting away from the uh lane, then uh the car buzzes or something, the the wheel moves and sometimes it pushes you back. The car pushes you back. So that's exactly what Hashem does. You look this direction turns your head back. Don't look there. It's not your It's not your business. Unfortunately, most people are not in the spiritual level to understand the messages that Hashem is giving them. And it's not that you need to be. You just need to work on yourself a little bit. And you'll be much more sensitive to the signs that Hashem is sending you. As long as you are involved in activities such as foul language and cursing and lash cheating and everything that has to do with your mouth, so you contaminate your system through this gate. And if you're listening to junk, watching junk, whatever comes in through your gates, that's what makes your spiritual immune system. So if I want a strong physical immune system is that I strengthen my phys my natural immune system and then I just let my body fight whatever disease it is. It's the same thing in the spiritual. You have a spiritual immune system. If you are neglecting your spiritual immune system by letting junk into your domain when I'm talking about junk and in we have seven gates two eyes two ears two nostrils and a mouth all the gates besides the mouth are bad but not as bad the difference between the mouth and the other gates is the eyes and the ears and the nostrils Mainly the problem is what goes in. There's not much going out that is a problem. It's what comes in. Through the eyes is what you're looking at. Through the nose is what you listen to. Sorry, your ears. And through the nose is what you smell. Now, there's no sin in smelling things. But beware that the sense of smell is so sensitive that scent can change your mood can change a lot of things in your perception. And if you're looking at the the marketing artists or the best marketers, they know how to manipulate things with smell. Look at McDonald's. You smell McDonald's from half a mile away. So you see that the marketing here is working on graphics the huge M but the smell and every person that walks next to a good bakery a good restaurant. Wow. [sighs and snorts] So the difference in the gates eyes the nostrils and the ears the danger is when it comes in nothing comes out with the mouth. The first danger is what goes in. That's your kosher diet. And then what goes out. The main problem is most people who are observant, they're very particular with what goes in, kosher, the meat, the dairy, the but what goes out, it's like a one-way street. And it's sad to see because some people are so observant. They're so e good Jews. They follow what Hashem says. And when it comes to the kosher diet, wow, magnifying glasses looking at the at the leaves of the lettuce. But when it comes for that mouse to reverse the the direction from here till tomorrow, slandering, lying, cheating, cursing. So when you don't guard your gates, you are defecting your spiritual immune system. That's the the simple explanation. Don't don't need to to now get into too many details. When our sages tell you you guard your eyes, guard your ears, guard your nose, guard your mouth is again not to annoy you. It's not to contaminate your body. Now when your body is contaminated, of course the nama gets dirty. When the nishama gets dirty, don't expect to have what I call spiritual imu immune system. Which means you what happens when a person has a weak physical immune system? He's constantly sick. Constantly weak. So it's the same thing spiritually. If you are weak and sick spiritually, how are you going to grow? You don't want to do mitzvot. When you're sick physically, you don't want to go out of bed. You just want to lie in bed and leave me alone. So when you on the same level spiritually, you don't feel like doing mitzvot. There's no excitement for a mitzvah. you're spiritually sick and the result is again what's surrounding you. So a smart person again every every individual should be observant. It doesn't it doesn't give any exemption in the Torah for your age or geographic location or your background. If the Torah says you have to observe Shabbat, it's with no exceptions. We all have to observe Shabbat. Whether you agree with it or not, it's irrelevant and nobody's asking you >> and the dua instructs us to eat kosher. It doesn't say, well, if you're in the ages of 30 to 40 and you are a male in the eastern, then you and you are exempt. [snorts] No, the Torah says you're not allowed to eat mix and mixed meat and dairy. It's for you. You you you. It's for everybody. So, it's not that you should be what? more religious than me and I should be less religious. [laughter] It all depends on the individual. Some individuals understand that the basic things is just for their benefits and some people don't. So when it comes to the basics basics of basic because a lot of people I know a lot of people say listen I I love the Torah I love the mitzvah but I'm not really in the level of doing all these things. So what now? Right now I'm not in the level to be so close to Hashem and so I'm going to be suffering. So first of all, the answer to that is yes. Okay. But when Hashem does see that you are working on yourself and you're taking on yourself to change and you are really serious, he sees in the future what will be the result. So he gives you the benefit of the doubt. He puts you in some type of a buffer and nothing happens till you really do chuba. But to conclude the area of this suffering, it's yeah, it's your sins. It's your sins from this world and it's your sins from a previous life. And like I told you, you can't do the time, don't do the crime. Very simple. If you can't handle these little chachkas, then uh then work on yourself. Now here I just have to add one thing cuz many people who become observant. They say I agree with what you said. Then I became observant and then life became worse or everything became even worse than how it was. So first of all don't forget that when you become observant then you open some bucket of junk that and then all this junk starts surfacing. So it's almost like when the when when the body is fighting some disease that when it's ready to fight the disease then it will come out from the body somehow whether through the urine whether through sweat whether it will come through the skin and but when the body is dealing with some type of toxins and the the body doesn't know how to get the toxins out for whatever reason normal h behavior of the body the toxins will come out from your your your urine from sweat and otherwise but many times the the toxins they can't go out so we come with all sorts of rash or different different sicknesses the exact same thing that's how it is in the spiritual level there there's not not much of a difference so when I let's let's define it that if I keep my health and I keep a very healthy diet then Maybe after a few years that I I if I wasn't born like that then I get my body to a certain level. Technically from this point and on the body shouldn't be sick. And the proof is that I know many people. I have a good friend. He's in his 70s stronger than me. His diet is unbelievable. You should see him. He's strong. He's vibrant. He's you can't even believe he's in his 70s. But he looks, you know, an older. You wouldn't believe he's 70. You would give him 50. And you can't even believe how strong, how vibrant he works in the he has a a farmer, works in the land like and you see good diet, good diet, everything is healthy, doesn't consume any junk. And you see a 72-year-old man, I'm telling you, you wouldn't even believe, runs, picks up things, works hard, happy h true happiness. So the same way that works in the spiritual level you neglect your spiritual health the nama will start talking then the shama will suffer and eventually you will suffer and then you don't understand where all these sufferings are coming from and right now I'm talking about and again it can be small suffering and it can be the big suffering. So when you're dealing with a some type of a challenge, first thing that our sages say that understand that there's a very good chance that this challenge is from a previous life. Therefore, it says in the Talmud, you must accept the challenge or the or the hardship. Hashem gives you through uh puts you through a challenge. Accept it with love. Be very happy that Hashem gave it to you. If it's from a previous life, you won the lottery. Not everybody gets to do a tikun. Shem is presenting you a situation and he tells you, "Pay the bill. I'll I'll wipe off the debt." It's like you owing the bank a million dollars and the bank comes to you after a while says, "Listen, I know you don't have the million. Give me a 50,000 and we'll call it even." What? Yeah. So, the does the exact same thing. Therefore these types of suffering you need to and again it doesn't mean that tomorrow you wake up in the morning you go out of this door you know how to recognize oh this is from a previous life oh that is from the and I'll tell you already don't seek people who will solve your answers why do I have this suffering I know people come to me I have this suffering what do I need to do and that's after they went to like five other rabbis. So if I say do A, B, and Z, but Rabbi so and so said this and that. So why are you coming to me if you went to that rabbi? If he already gave you an answer, well, you you're shopping around for an answer. Whatever is the easiest, you'll you'll choose. So the problem is that people go to whatever fortune cookies or fortune tellers and all sorts of nonsense like that and they tell them all sorts of nonsense and people I end up coming to me. Oh my fortune teller told me this and this and that after she read in the cards and I'm like why? So why are you coming to me? If you're running out your answer from some psychic or some psycho why you come to me. So these types of people they're not happy with the answers with any answer. You know how many times people come to me ask for a qu ask a question and they're not happy with the answer. >> I'm not happy with your answer. Okay. So don't be happy. Next time go to somebody else. What do you think? This is a community center. You have a then you have a question. That's the answer. You don't like it go knock on heaven's door. So the ganoshu [clears throat] is he built a system that when you do some type of action there will be a reaction. You can call it a punishment. You can call it however you want. But throws at you some type of a system that whatever you put out there will come back to you. You just need to refine yourself to a level that you understand and make some type of order in the in the hardships you're going through. And I will tell you later how you do that. But you want to get to a point that you are sensitive enough and it's not 100%. It will never be 100%. But you're sensitive enough to feel that where the hardship is coming from. If it might be a tikun from a previous life, if it's a sin that I did right now, which that is urgent or as the talle continues by saying if you went through your actions and you see that you didn't do any sin and it not necessarily a sin from a previous life, then must be that you have to must be tora. That's one of the sins that tora means that you can sit, you can you have the time to learn Torah and instead of that you're on Instagram or Facebook or Netflix or whatever other junk you watch that's Torah. Just know that whatever whenever you're on your smartphone looking at the junk that you watch and all the rest Torah if you're willing to take it take it to Torah is not a not a simple sin. There are a few sins that are said you say that every day you fail whether you want it or not. And Torah is one of them also. Now again I know a lot of people that say listen I need a little bit of uh clearing my mind. I I don't need to be clearing my mind. What am I different than you? >> So clear your mind. Go run. Do workouts. Do something else. You think that if you watch some series on Netflix that's clears your mind. It doesn't clear your mind. You're just bored or whatever or in most of the cases you're just looking your nishama is looking for triggers for some excitement. If your nishama is not triggered with excitement, which can only be done with Torah, then you're looking for such little things to excite you and then you fall into s different sins because unfortunately our system needs some type of an excitement all the time. Now if you are a Torah observant individual, you have constantly excitement. You get excited when Shabbat comes. If you don't get excited before Shabbat comes, then you will have a very severe blemish on from Shabbat desecrations and you need to do serious cha. If you get excited when Shabbat comes, then you're you're good to go. So, tomorrow, less than 24 hours, measure how excited you are that Shabbat comes. And I know most of you will be like, "Oh my gosh, so I'm in trouble." Well, you all probably are [clears throat] not in trouble that somebody's going to do something to you. But if you don't get excited for Shabbat, I'm not talking about excited like when you order your new Mercedes and in two days it's coming and then you're really excited. I'm talking about you feel some type of an excitement. Now I I see now on your faces that you're like, "What is he talking about? Excitement. I only have chaos before Shabbat. The kitchen looks like some warehouse. Everybody's screaming at each other. Nothing works out. Excitement. This guy's deranged. So, a it's okay. Everybody has chaos in their house before Shabbat. You're not the only one. But has nothing to do with it. If you don't get a little tickle in your stomach or some little excitement before Shabbat, even for a second, ask yourself why. I I will answer your question. Why is because you must have desecrated Shabbat at least once time in your life. Even if you were born observant, you desecrate Shabbat. And not to blow the winds out of your sail, all of you, including me, desecrate Shabbat every Shabbat. you know that I s I I I observed Shabbat after I became religious maybe I don't know five years when I was convinced that Shabbat because I don't touch my phone I don't turn the lights on and off I don't drive I don't work I don't use the phone all that we do but then when I got to the section in the in the Jewish code of law about Shabbat and I started learning it more in depth I understood that I'm not keeping Shabbat because I'm failing in muk all the time failing in borer in sifting twice an hour in cooking in all the 39 the basic things you know but the little things which you don't know then you're failing for example you're not allowed to open the drawer and to go like this through their socks it's called ber this one that's ber In order to do that on Shabbat, you're allowed to put your hand like this in the drawer and pull out a piece and and pour whatever sock is there. Or you prepare it before Shabbat. So you now learned one in Shabbat and you see this is one out of many of little things that you I didn't think about that. So you're obligated to learn that. Take on yourself twice a day. Oh, sorry once a day. You match yourself with him. You match yourself with him. You with him. Do something productive after this after this lecture and make you after this lecture. You didn't come here for food and there maybe there's food in the back. I don't know. I see you come for tora. If you didn't come for the Torah, why'd you come to take a selfie with me? Can find that on Amazon. And I have a picture like this. And you just insert yourself and you have a selfie with me. I hope you came tonight to be inspired and to take tools home. So I'm just I just gave you now a golden nugget. Learn two Shabbat every day. Which means that on Shabbat you can apply 12 new things or restrict yourself or refrain yourself from 12 new things and in two years you'll be in a 10 times higher level of Shabbat observance. That's what you need to focus on. Most of us, by the way, you're doing your best. Hashem sees that. He's happy. He loves that. But then he sends me to tell you, step it up a notch cuz you're really not doing it right. That's it. Don't be offended. Be happy. And by the way, unless you really learning Shabbat, even if you keep Shabbat for 50 years, I can guarantee to you there are things that you're failing in. Many different things. I see sometimes on Shabbat how people do things. If they fold the toita or don't fold the tit if they fold the tablecloth or don't fold the tablecloth. When are you allowed to fold the tablecloth on Shabbat? When are you not allowed to fold the tablecloth on Shabbat? And a million other things. Most people don't even know how to pour capativ for themselves on Shabbat because you have the concept of cooking. And if the water is too hot, you are cooking what's in the cup and you can cook water. And just the other day I by mistake said some that h that the one of the students came to me. She's like I don't believe I did some but you said I'm doing it for years. And what did I say? I I was talking about something completely different. And I said how important it is to have hot beverage in on m Shabbat cup of tea soup to drink something hot on mabat and then as I'm explaining the concept that I'm saying but be very careful not to use the hot water from the hot water earned from Shabbat new hot water because these are that's hot water from Shabbat and you're not allowed to prepare something for on Shabbat to Shabbat. You can't drink the hot water that's in the hot water that had was on Shabbat the entire on the counter. You need to empty it completely and you boil new water. And this lady >> in her 60s who's observing Shabbat all her life, she was like, I never heard of that. She tells me, can you give me the source? She's like, "I never heard of that." And I said, "Well, no. That's why you need to learn Torah because you can do a mistake for 10 years and you don't even know that you're doing a mistake. And what's the solution to not knowing that you're doing a mistake to fix it is you need some signs. So don't get discouraged by the signs or by the tests that Hashem is doing to you. He's basically telling you, "Hello, wake up." you're not doing it right. Change something. So, like I told you before, a person needs to better themsself all the time. Not only for the sake of following the mitzvot and not only to be a good following god-fearing individual. Half of the things you do is just for your own benefit. When you keep on a very strict spiritual diet, if it's a physical diet, then you eat vegetables, you eat fruit, you don't eat sugar, you don't eat white flour, you don't eat at certain hours, and you you guard your your your health and you see results from that. So you need to do the exact same thing spiritually. So many of the times what you're doing as a is not necessarily under the category of a mitzvah. Yeah, it's titled as a mitzvah or it's tagged as a mitzvah, but it's a certain act that will refine yourself that again I use this term. Your spiritual immune system is strong. Your mind knows how to deal with things doesn't falls into depression and sadness and anxiety for every little thing that comes to your direction. So when a person is really keeping a good spiritual diet, it's for his own benefit. And what's this good spiritual diet? Of course, following the Torah and the mitzvah, that's no question here. But when a person refineses themselves, guards themselves, all these little things eventually allow you to be more refined and more sensitive to the signs that Hashem is telling you. So I started by telling you the the way to reach to this refinement that I'm talking about, not any type of that specific refinement is when you guard all your gates. You guard your eyes, you guard your ears, you guard your mouth, you guard your nose. Any gate into the body has to be guarded. And when you guard these gates, of course, the first thing that will be, you'll be a much better person. Second, you'll be a much spiritual, much more spiritual person. You'll sin much less. But one of the most important things that's going to happen to you is that you're going to become spiritually sensitive. Most people right now are not spiritually sensitive. They do the mitzvot and they don't even get excited before Shabbat comes. I told you, let's do the test tomorrow. You have to report. If you got excited before Shabbat, please. If you didn't get excited, don't report cuz then all the reports I know all the reports will be I didn't get excited. I want to get like two emails of somebody says I felt something but it passed after 3 seconds. You need to get to a point. And again, each person gets excited from something else. One person gets excited because he got a brand new car. Understandable. I'm on that side. One person will get excited cuz she got a gorgeous dress. Don't relate with. But nevertheless, every person gets excited from something else. Think what gets you most excited. A vacation, buying a new clothes, or whatever. What gets you excited? Some people it's nothing too materialistic at all. Even sometimes people get excited when their kids are doing good successful bring a good report card. You ask yourself what gets you excited reverse engineer it and now try to understand why you don't get excited when you have the opportunity to do a mitzvah. I know your answer. It's coming and cooling me down. Right? As it says in the Torah, cools you down. So why would I get excited for a mitzvah? I get excited for nonsense. But you have to ask yourself, why am I not getting excited for a mitzvah? I should get excited from doing a mitzvah. Are you excited to come tonight? >> Why? >> Here. >> That should excite you to learn. to learn. That's what Jacob says. I was I'm excited to learn, which means you're attributing it to me. >> Okay, we can refine that. But you know, I'm not challenging or attacking you. I'm just saying you what gets you excited cuz you wanted to see me to learn from me to get some that's it. Why don't you get that in the morning when you're about to put fill in on or why don't you get excited tomorrow for Shabbat or any other mitzvah? Yeah, I don't think this is so first of all to if you starting on your cart there's one smart lady who's writing notes there. First of all, I told you start learning to every day. It will take you 4 minutes, 5 minutes, maybe 6 minutes to the long halot. A, you are going to perform the mitzvah of learning Torah. And more than that, you are bettering yourself for observing Shabbat. Do that for a few more months. Raise the raft in your Shabbat observance. Trust me, then you're going to start feeling some excitement for Shabbat. Now, you might attribute it because you can't wait to eat the amazing meal that your wife makes or you can't wait for the alcohol that's going to be on the table and for all the friends to come in and we have a few good drinks and we're laughing and we're singing and so, okay, you're getting there. You're getting there. You're getting excited because everything that I just said on Shabbat, it's a mitzvah. Anything you do on Shabbat, it's a mitzvah. You eat, it's a mitzvah. You're with your wife, it's a mitzvah. Everything is a mitzvah. You drink, you're happy. Of course, drink normally, not to drink 50 bottles. You drink to be happy. It's a mitzvah. Put it to the test. Smart people apply what they learn. Learn to every day now with another person, not yourself. Because yourself, you're not going to do it. You're going to zoom through. When you learn it with another person, then one needs to explain to the other. You ask each other the questions. Make make it a five minute call. I guarantee to you that after a while you will start feeling some excitement for that mitzvah that is called jabbat because you invested in it and you refine yourself a little bit and that's what you want to do. Now I'm talking about refining and guarding the gates in order for the person to be even more spiritually sensitive. Most people are not spiritually sensitive. What does that mean? Spiritually sensitive. Is there a man here in this room that fainted once from putting fill in? No. You know that I witnessed a man who came to my yeshiva I don't know a few years ago. Uh, it was alul. Somebody took out the chafar and told me, "Rabbi, please blow the chauffar." Some people have the custom every day in ul to blow the chauffar. [clears throat] I blew the chauffar. This man fainted. He fainted. He literally in front of us fainted. When we woke him up, came the whole thing. Uh he looked at me like as if he saw Hashem and he's like what was this noise that you did or not noise the voice and I told him this is a chauffar he's like I never ever heard the chauffar blowing and he got so I don't know if you call it overwhelmed he fainted. I saw with my own eyes a man fainting from a mitzvah. We were so shocked. Later on, we learned he's a kuhen and he's uh from somewhere, I don't know, Oregon, somewhere in the middle of nowhere. He didn't even know he's he just found out that he's Jewish. That's why he was in Israel. But I saw with my own eyes a man fainting from hearing a chauff. And I he told me, "I'm not diabetes. I am not uh I don't know weak heart, low blood pressure. No one in the measure. He's like never in my life something like this happened. And he was shaking. He says I never heard such a voice. I never heard such a sound. So okay, I'm not expecting you to faint from every little mitzvah that you do, but you want to strive to get to a point that you get some excitement from the mitzvah that you do. If you get excited to go to the gym and you get excited to watch a movie and your new the new episode is coming out from your favorite series or whatever, why you get excited from nonsense? Because you feed it all the time. If you will refine the gates, then you'll see that the body and the soul becomes more refined. And when the soul is refined, then you're sensitive to the mitzvot. And when you do it the wrong way, you feel bad. You put the in after of or whatever it is that you do something and you did it wrong. You feel it. You're upset. You feel that you did the mitzvah not the right way. So next golden nugget you should write down and go and apply is that you need to refine your gates to make your soul sensitive. [cough] And when your nama will be sensitive, why am I telling you all this? Then it's easier to recognize where the suffering is coming from. If you are completely in a calm state and you're not getting overwhelmed and excited, then it means that it's a something something small and you and you're by by accepting it, you're doing the tikun. And it doesn't matter where it came from. If it came from previous incarnation or from a sim you did, you understand that Hashem is giving you an opportunity to clean your own blemish. So you don't get excited for, okay, whatever. Take it. Ah, whatever. Oh, the boiler exploded. H, somebody bumped into my like whatever. But you need to reach to the spiritual sensitivity to understand more or less where it's coming from. If it's coming from sins that you do, then you need to straighten your path. If it's coming from a previous incarnation, then uh you should be very very happy that Hashem is doing it for you. He's cleaning you off your debt and he's removing off blemishes from your nisha. >> [snorts] >> Now, of course, and I don't want to dwell on too much on the facts that when you're doing sins, there's reactions. You by yourself need to figure out that if you do something severe, then the reaction is going to be severe. You do something small, the reaction is small. So, if you're going through something very hard, a challenge that is very hard, then after you do your analysis, it might come from a severe sin that you did. And like I told you, you try, we have to try to recognize what's the challenge and see if it has a common denominator with one of your sins. If it's connected somehow to Shabbat, if it's connected somehow to if it's connected somehow to the most important advice is don't do it in OCD manner like do it in a normal way not to be compulsive like on every oh my god and this and that. and worse to go ask everybody's advice. I I don't like when people come and ask me this type of advice because I don't know and nobody will know. The only one that can know is you and the only one that can know is how is if you work on your silver. I'm not telling you now to become the next chief rabbi of Israel. I'm just telling you guard your eyes, guard your ears, guard your nose, and guard your mouth. Sounds easy. You you'll feel the change. And women also have to guard their eyes. It's not that men only can't look at inappropriate pictures. Women also have to guard their eyes. Now, it doesn't mean women have the same challenge as men. Women have a different challenge. They look at the dress of their of of that woman and get full of jealousy. Or they look at another woman that her husband is powerful, rich, successful, and gets full of hate, resentment, and jealousy. Doesn't matter what you look at. The eye can look in many different directions and be troubled and to be annoyed. And the same thing with the ears, listening to listening to the wrong music, listening to people who whine all day long and etc, etc. And same thing like I told you people are fixated that is for a man not to look at a woman who's not is also not to sit in front of your phone for four hours and and look at junk on Tik Tok and Instagram and people crashing on the floor and dogs dancing and what all sorts of junk. You're laughing because you all know you're doing it. And you're like, "Oh, he knows the one with the dog." Huh. It's a good one. But the sad reality is that everybody's entertained from these things. So to conclude this part, like I told you, many of the suffering coming from a previous life, many of the suffering coming from your sins. The only way for you to understand, recognize, and deal with it, you have to refine yourself. That's it. No other way less required from you Torah learning and stuff like that. More guard your gates which you just have to have a plan. What am I watching from now and on? Okay. I I understand some people need like you say I need to relax. I want to watch my Netflix series once a week or [clears throat] once a week I want to watch a movie. First of all, I'm not judging anybody. You do whatever is good for you, whatever is easy for you. I'm just telling you that even if you're in this level, then you need to slowly slowly slowly refine yourself and grow and grow and grow and understand that Hashem really wants you to spend your time learning Torah and not watching movies once a month to watch a movie. And again, don't take it as I'm giving you a by the way. What I'm saying here is not them right signing off permissions. I'm just saying if you're already doing it, then let's just minimize it. So if you're in the level that you're all day long watching movies so watch a movie once a month make it exciting do once a month you watch a movie and not twice a day or you know what I mean h but I again if you're asking me don't watch the movie at all throw the TV out of the window but if you're already watching the movies and the same thing with everything you're already on your phone you you use your phone use your phone for productivity and if you have a weakness and you're watching junk all day long on the phone. So from 3 hours, reduce it to two hours and from 2 hours to an hour and for an hour to half an hour and get your five minutes of the videos you need to watch, laugh and this is it. Put it away. Eventually you'll figure out you'll see what a waste of time it is. So to reach to the sensitivity to be to understand the hardship, the challenge where it's coming from, it's only if you refine yourself. Now it's so much more. So if you refine yourself in levels of mitzvot and Torah, that's of course ultimate. You still learn Torah all day long and your kosher diet is amazing and you observe Shabbat and you and you follow the Torah. That's a whole different level of sensitivity. When I'm saying sensitivity that you recognize and you realize what's going on. Most people don't know what's going on. And what do they do? They go to the rabbi. And why do you go to the rabbi? You think the rabbi has some office depot and he has a book of of answers. So why do you go to a if you want a big a good solution a big rabbi not the community rabbi? Oh we're going to go to the other side of the world to see so and so but why you go to this rabbi? You know [clears throat] why you go to him? Because that rabbi that you hold in a very high level he doesn't say he doesn't cheat. He doesn't lie. He doesn't desecrate Shabbat. He doesn't look at women. He doesn't do things. He's he's he's a he's holding the weight of the Torah. So his mind is sharp. So he sees things not how you see it. That's it. So you go to ask advice from the great rabbi. And why is he able to give you this advice? Cuz he doesn't have all these filters in front of him that block him from seeing the truth. Because like I told you, his kosher diet is strict. He doesn't have discounts in the Okay. Today, you gave yourself a discount. No pro. No, I'm I'm not your enemy. Give yourself as many discounts as you want if you need to. Just know that you're moving yourself away from and then the vision becomes blur. So don't you're not going to understand anything in your life. [clears throat] Again, going back to the rabbi, why do you go to him? Why is the rabbi so sharp that he's able to give you good answers? How would that start with? How does he even remember all that he learned? But he's more smarter than you. I know people who are mathematicians, physicians, amazing lawyers. Give them a they don't even know how to read three lines and teach them the sugra has nothing to do with intelligence. Torah is holy and if you are holy you will hold the Torah and then you will remember the Torah and then when a person comes to ask you a question you just need to go to the archive and pull two examples from whatever you learned or whatever whatever experience you have oh you just see it right in front of right in front of you because if I damage my eyes in any type of way me whether it's watching movies all day long whether it's through judging people not the right way whether it's looking in inappropriate places if I don't guard my eyes then how would I be able to see things in this world and perceive what's going on then I will see it how you see it I see it like a human being I don't see the godly hand here I don't understand the divine message here I don't understand what Hashem is hinding to me so I'm again lost in my own maze I go around I don't know maybe it's from this and I go to this rabbi tells me Oh, you're doing that. You go to this rabbi. Oh, you're doing this. And then you're like, you don't know what to do. So, I tell you what to do. You need to refine yourself. And it's just good for yourself. It's only going to be good for yourself. And why? The more you refine you are, the more excited you are to do to right now. You have to understand if you are a bal chuva or a convert or maybe a person who was born a religious but somehow went a little bit back and went back up. That's again called a bala. Do you remember how excited you were in the beginning? Right? You were excited in the beginning. Put that Philly in the first time. How excited I was in the first year. It was unbelievable. And it's not that I'm not excited now, but now it's like already 20 years. It's like, but in the first year, I was excited. First time to go up to the Torah, I was shaking like what if they ask me something? I don't know how to say the that's good excitement. Why you not excited now? Next, besides what I just said, now that's a portion of your suffering. Now, let's go to another type of suffering. The other type of suffering, it's the majority of the suffering that you go through. And I'm using the word suffering because in Hebrew, it would be called and not always it's the right way to say hardship, suffering, challenges. You know what I'm talking about. A large amount of theim that a person is going through, it's nothing but 100% Hashem is testing your reaction. That's it. He's testing of course you it's a test but mainly your reaction. And the will throw a challenge in you at you. Now he's waiting to see how you react. If you are upset, if you lose your temper, if you start blaming everybody, if you do chuva, if you sit down and pray to him, what he wants to see what do you do? How are you going to digest now the challenge I threw at your at your face? So he throws at you some type of a challenge, an waiting to see. He's waiting to see if you will fail in the test, meaning falling to the sin or not. There's many different tests here. Now the test sometimes comes in a form that you suffer from it. What would be the test? I'm trying to do a lecture in Los Angeles. [laughter] Uh I'll explain. But what's example of the test? You're you're trying to to to achieve something. You're trying to do something good. Good. I'm not telling you now that you're trying to rob a bank or you're like conspiring now to I don't know what you want to do something good. You want to invite a rabbi to speak in a shoe or you want to make a evening. You want to fund raise for whatever you want to do something good. You see a family in despair. You go around to try to help them and then you can't seem to do anything. like all the doors are closed like as if is sabotaging in your opportunity to do something good and I'm just giving you one example of many puts you in a situation that the translation to yeah you're suffering from the result of it and you are being challenged the first thing that comes up to your mind if you are a little bit observant is why is Hashem doing it to me but in in a ver in a form of complaining not like a oh my gosh what did I do that Hashem is doing this to me but many people are like why is Hashem doing it to me I'm such a good person I gave sedaka yesterday I learned Torah I do this why is Hashem doing it to me the reality is that Hashem wants to see your reaction when you are hit with a challenge Especially that comes in a disappointment. You work work work work. You didn't get it right. You invested, it didn't work. You wanted to do something big, it blew up in your face. But nevertheless, there are many different types of challenges. And why is Hashem doing it? He wants to see a reaction. Why does he want to see a reaction? because wants to give a lot of merit to the to the nation of Israel. So he gives him a lot of Torah and a lot of mitzvot. He gives you a lot of opportunity to do mitzvot. Hashem wants you to earn your mitzvah. Hashem wants you to earn your reward. So what do you think? He's just going to give it to you for free. So like a king that is testing his son to be the next king, Hashem is testing you all the time because he wants to see if you learn from your mistakes. He wants to see if you really learn from the Torah what you learned and you apply it. So Hashem is going to put you through a challenge and then starts the observation. A he wants to see how upset you get and what would it lead to? Would it lead to Would it lead to cursing? Would it lead to violence? Would it lead to you being impatient with your wife and kids? Would it lead to you developing feelings of revenge towards the person who did something to I mean your your mind starts going through some type of a a storm. First test, how are you reacting? And Hashem is waiting to see your reaction. And you need to learn from that that half of the sins that you do, it's because Hashem manipulated a situation that he knows you will sin. He made it that you will sin just to see how you react when you sin. If you fall into anger, despair, if you rise right up, rush off all the dirt, if you quick to do chuva, if you quick to anger, half of what Hashem is testing you is just to see your reaction. Therefore, our sages explain in many different ways. Something happens. First of all, chev sit down. Don't do nothing. You quick to analyze the situation, you'll you'll do it wrong. There was a situation there not too long ago and I got me very very upset. Believe it or not, I get upset too. Once I used to break what would be in front of me. Now I just take a deep breath. But I get upset. I'm entitled to get upset. Right? So something happened got me upset and a certain individual. So that individual wanted to talk to me and I said very bad idea. You talk to me in three days. Now if you talk to me I'm so upset I'm going to eat you alive. I'm sure I'm going to say something. I'm sure I'm not going to be able to hold myself and I'm going to say something that I'm going to regret. Therefore I'm not thinking straight right now. Let's talk after Shabbat and let's talk in three days because I know that I don't trust my own reactions. I know myself already. I know my reactions. I know how I react to certain things and I know how to prevent myself from going into these situations. And if I know how I'm going to react and I know how to hold it. So the test that Hashem is sending you is like going to the gym. The more you go, the more stronger you go, the more good you you become, the more in shape you become. It's the same thing. The more you understand the system of the challenges with Hashem and you know how to deal with it, you're building your your your spiritual muscles that you don't get affected by the challenge. You understand that that's your workout for the day. Because if you ever went to the gym or lift weights or did some type of a sport, you'll know gym is a perfect example because why do you go to the gym? Whether it's to lose weight, to become stronger, to be muscular. If you sit like this on the on the on the how do you call the bench now and you sit like this for two hours, you didn't do anything. You're not going to go sweating out of the gym. You need to push, you need to pull, you need the resistance. The muscle will never grow if there's no resistance. If I will lie down on my back now and go like this 5,000 times, nothing will happen. No muscle growth will be. The only way there will be muscle growth is if there's resistance. So, I need to push something heavy and it's hard and then maybe some sweat will come over my on my head. Oh my god. But that's exactly what Hashem is doing with you every day. He's taking you to the gym and he's saying, "Today you're working on your shoulders. Tomorrow you'll work on your biceps. Next day you work on your triceps and chest." And so today I'm going to throw at you this challenge. Now let's see how you working with it. That's it. And when you work with the challenge without getting impressed, A, you become stronger. B, you go up in the level, the spiritual level to whatever Hashem wants to raise you. If you don't have challenges, you will never ever ever grow. Challenges and this hardship that you go is the ladder for you to grow one step after another step after another step. How can you relate with that? The example I gave you with the gym. That's it. Some people for them going to the gym for one hour and lifting heavy weights and sweating that's suffering. Okay. Some other people like it they like the the feeling or I think most people like the result not the feeling but it doesn't matter. Here you have a perfect example of a person who goes and does some hard work and enjoys the results. A same exact same thing says what you want to be the same level all your life. I have big hopes for you. Look at yourself in your path of Torah. Look back now, five years, 10 years, and you'll see by yourself the path you walked on and how you changed. All of you. If you're looking from now backwards, you're not going to see the difference. If you're going to look 10 years back, you're going to see, wow, wow, I'm much more observant. I'm much more learned. I'm much more closer to Hashem. So the next type of challenge that we are going through is Hashem is only testing your reaction to severe and extreme situations. That's it. He wants to see how you react. He wants to see if you would lose your temper, if you would hold your tongue, if you will start cursing, if you talk, if you get offended, if you get judgmental, what's the reaction? Now comes the big question. What should be the reaction? [snorts] If your reaction is negative, then obviously that's not the reaction. The reaction has to be appropriate to the challenge that Hashem did. The what Hashem is hoping to see is that you don't get angry, you don't get upset, you don't uh attack, etc., etc. The main thing in the challenge to in this type of challenge to understand and the sign to it is that another person is involved. The other challenges that I told you is doesn't have to be necessarily with a person. The boiler gets exploded. Okay, here's a financial struggle right now or something like that. Usually in the challenges that Hashem is testing your uh reaction, it will be with another person that the person insults you or the person hurts your feelings or the person does something that now is involved another individual and what you think of this situation is because of that individual. So now what happens is that you're putting your misery on all these people. I'm sad and upset because my boss, because of my wife, because of this kid, and because of the neighbor and so you're attributing now all your suffering to other people. That's the mistake. Nobody's doing anything to you. And if you want to blame somebody, blame Hashem. When your wife annoys you, it's not she annoying you. Shem wants to annoy you. So, he put her in your house. That's it. [laughter] And she's not annoying. She's just being natural her. You are the problem, not she. when somebody else is the problem that's your red light that you are the really the problem. So in these type of challenges when a certain individual is involved I know right away that person has nothing to do with me and this is 100% a challenge from the because nobody in the world does anything to you unless Hashem allows that. So who really did it to you? If you think that anyone can do something to you, hurt you, steal from you, take your money, anything without Hashem's permission, then you are basically saying that Hashem has no control over the world and you are a heretic. So if somebody comes and curses you, steals from you, embezzles you, cheats on you, it doesn't matter what that person did, yes, he has free choice to do it. But he was appointed a messenger by Hashem. Hashem finds the best messenger. And Hashem is the one who appointed him, which means Hashem is doing it to you. And if you think that person is doing it to you, big mistake. Huge mistake. Because then you're trying to fix it with that person. He's saying you know what he did to me. The second a person is involved a partition needs to come down and that person is right now the messenger of Hashem and any anger or any other feelings toward that person you lost the test on the spot right away. You lost this challenge. Now we'll come another one bigger. you and the point is if you want to look at it like a video game you know how many lives you have to lose in a video game what do you get three lives five lives so I don't know how many lives you have here how many things you how many times you can lose you know you sin too much on something it's very hard to repair to repair it it's very hard to to battle it so the next thing you need to understand nobody does anything to you I know many People tell me, "What are you talking about? You know what this person is doing to me? He's suing me and he's taking from me and he's doing." And I hear these stories 50 a day. My brother took the money. He sold the father's house and he's doing this and he's I'm giving you one example that I heard recently heard of a man telling me, "My brother took my he sold my parents house after they died. He took the money, he did this, he what should I do? I have to." So I told him you you know all the time just blaming the brother. Everything that you're going through all these suffering is Hashem doing to to you. You know that. So what would be his argument? No it's not Hashem. He that's what he told me. It's not Hashem it's him. I said you got to be very careful with how you talk. You're basically saying that he's stronger than Hashem. And if you understand the otherwise, anyone who comes to do something to you or does something to you can only be done with the permission of Hashem. Which means when you're upset at that person, why do our sages called heresy? Because you don't believe that the kadb has control over it. The person does have free will. Also had free will. Haman also had a free will. Hitler also had free will. But the knows which messenger to to choose that they're like they want to do that. That's Hashem's deal with him, not with you. It's nothing to do with you. When people do things to me, their first reaction is I I know I have an issue with the kadosh. That person, okay, you you're exempt. I don't get upset. Not looking for revenge. that third party individual just a messenger. And by the way, whenever you don't involve that individual, you'll already see the challenge goes 50% less because Hashem is testing you if you believe in him. If you believe that he did that or that person, but that person stole from me. Okay, Hashem allowed it. But that person did this and that, but Hashem allowed it. A person doesn't even move his finger here in this world unless it was announced in the world above and Hashem approves it. Somebody comes now and punches me in the face. Hashem punched me in my face. That's how I see it. And he chose that person to be the messenger. So this type of challenge is the most annoying challenge because you don't know what Hashem is testing you. What does he want from you? So what do you do? What do you do? I'll tell you what do you do. You exempt the person from any responsibility. I know you want to go and sue that person or do other things and you find all the loopholes in why you allowed to do what you want to do. But that's revenge by the way. A prohibition from the Torah. you're not allowed to revenge and you're not allowed to do a different type of revenge that it's not really a revenge but you're saying when he will need me. [laughter] So you're not revenging but you're waiting for the day that he will need you and know you are happy when he comes and you like gladly say I'm not going to help you. Remember 32 years ago >> [laughter] >> You're not allowed to you know what what it means to what level it means that you need to humble yourself not to do something to that person. I had not too long ago a situation that I had all the rights in the worldly morically legally to to sue the person in any different way. the person was 10.1% wrong in what he did in any way I would look at it. If I take it to a civil court, if I take it to a bedin, doesn't matter what I do, my hand is the upper hand. I demand >> justice. >> Justice demands money, demands revenge, demands to see him suffer. Not justice. But the point was that really all aspects of the way morally I I I could have and many people say should have and [snorts] I was about to and then very quickly and that's a perfect example and again it's not about showing off. I'm just about giving you examples and proofs. When my mind was going, my was taking my mind. You got to sue this person because you have to warn other people. Forget about the $2 million of the lawsuit. That's not what I'm just That's not my example. In my example, I was thinking why do I want that person now? What would I want for this person to happen? And you know when you're angry, you want the person who did something bad to you to suffer. You're looking for justice. But the reality is somebody did something bad to you. You are very unhappy. You want Hashem to punish them or you just curse them or whatever. But when you get [clears throat] to this situation, you have to remember one thing. A, you're not allowed to revenge and you're not allowed to do any any type of a sin because of that. But you need to bring yourself to that point in that point to understand that that's Hashem that did that. Now, in the situation that I had, yes, while I was angry, it was more hurt, you know, in my mind. Yeah, we got to do this. is that you you you cook in your mind all these thoughts. But very quickly, Hashem intervened. And the divine message that I got is if you really want justice, if you really think you need to teach this person a lesson or if you really think that something needs to be done here, then leave all the options to Hashem. You don't intervene because the second you intervene, you push Hashem out. then you need to deal with it. Now, if you are in the level or in the in the market for revenge, get off your high horse. There's only one individual that allow to revenge. Only Hashem is allowed to bring revenge. So, if you're already in the level that you're saying, I want that person to suffer. Don't you think that Hashem's revenge will be better than yours? What are you going to do to that person? Beat him up. Sue him. Break his mirrors of his car. What are you going to do? You know how sophisticated Hashem is? What Hashem is going to do to him if he deserves it. Now, the second that you take the law to your hand that Hashem steps out. So, first of all, just for your own sake, and that's what I do. I I the second I see a person involved then right away I know it's very hard. It took me many many many years to get to that point that you have to pray for that person not to be hurt by you and that's why the of which you know that I constantly push to say it. How does it start? Now, why are you saying that if you don't really mean it? And I know many people who don't say that because they don't mean it. And they tell me, I'm not going to say such a thing. But what did I just say for the ones who didn't understand? I hereby forgive any person who did anything wrong to me, to my body, to my money, to my soul in this incarnation, in a previous incarnation. And the paragraph is long and then it ends by saying, "And no one should be punished because of me." Now, I'm going to say something that sounds very that doesn't make sense, but h go with me and you'll understand. If you are already looking for their revenge, if you think that person needs to be taught a lesson, I'm telling you that the ultimate revenge is if you let Hashem deal with it. That's it. Because Hashem is much more powerful. Hashem is much more powerful. And Hashem's message are much more stronger than what you will ever do. And when you think you can take matters into your own hands, you putting yourself in jeopardy that you are going to start sinning out. Who needs that? >> [snorts] >> It's a lesson in humility that Hashem says, "Humble yourself. He didn't do anything. She didn't do that to you." And I'm telling you all day long, that's what I hear when I deal with people. But my wife, but she says, "And you know, she did." And and like this everybody. So challenges that come to you and there's people involved take consideration. there's a very good chance that it's 100% a test how you react of course involves in it that if you fail will be a sin and involves in the other things but the title of the challenge is how do you react how do you react that I believe is most of your challenges and these are the challenges that you fail the most because you a don't realize it's a challenge. If you would know right now if you had that green light blinking telling you challenge challen challenge, then you get ready, right? If you walk in the street and somebody surprise you from the back and hits you from the back, you're not ready for that. But when somebody's in front of you, you you at least can uh defend yourself, move. It's the same exact same thing here. If you do not recognize it's a challenge, you get the hit from the back. You didn't know what hit. You don't know what hit you. And when you recognize it's a challenge, then it's in front of you. Then if you're good, you know how to move, you ditch it, you move, you don't get hurt so much. But these type of challenges, I'm already telling you, is Hashem testing your reaction and that's it. And when you recognize it and when you take a deep breath and you don't react. How did somebody tell me the other day? 1,000 2,000 3,000. And he told me I count. Okay, count. That's good. I also used to do that. I would close my eyes. I would something would come to my direction. I would close my eyes. Not to hear, not to see. Open the eyes. It's still there. Close it again. But don't forget that Hashem is constantly testing your reactions. He wants to see how you will react to every situation. And I'm telling you already you you fail miserably in most of the challenges because you're not familiar with that. You didn't you don't realize that oh my god what I'm going in through right now it's a challenge for my reaction. Now if you react the right way the challenge disappear. It literally disappears. Now if you don't react the right way then Hashem is like a riddle. He's waiting for you to find the right way and you're like trying to give answers literally like a riddle and you can't figure it out. So, I'm going you go back to what I told you before and start refining yourself. And again, I'm not telling you to run to become now the next chief rabbi of Israel. I'm telling you refine yourself. I'm not telling you now to become of course the more connected you are to Hashem, the more refined you are, the more sensitive you'll be. And there's no other ways to explain it. So we have suffering from sins that we do suffering from previous life suffering because it's really a challenge how do I react and that's the majority of our suffering and the tool to that is like I told you is in one way to refine yourself the other way to start working on yourself how do you control your emotions and how do you control your behavior what you say what you think that I cannot explain to you in a Yeah, you want to go go on my website atm.com. I have many many series of classes to many other classes that are serious. You need to learn how to work on yourself. 22 years later, I was the most impulsive individual, impatient individual, anything that is negative and extreme, that's how I was. 20 years later, there's refinement. Now, it will take you three days to get me out of my calmness. Once it took exactly one and a half seconds. So from one and a half seconds of a reaction went into 10 second reaction a minute reaction. Now you don't get a reaction. That's it. 25 years of cha you know how to look at the person and not to get upset and to swallow your pride. And you know I better shut up right now. And that's most of the cases how I deal with situations. I just don't deal with it. and the exact moment because when I deal with it in the exact moment will be anger will be emotions will be some type of an emotion that will go out of out of control and if you know your weaknesses then you don't put yourself in that type of situation now I want to talk about another type of challenge that's a new type of challenge I'm sure all of you in one way or another see that the world is not as it was and going to a place that is unfamiliar. Okay, for us Jews and many other Gentiles, they see, okay, that's the beginning of the messianic area. Believe it or not, also the Muslims and the Christians, they all believe. Each one believes something else. Same idea. So, with no doubt and with no question, everybody sees, doesn't matter their faith or where they come from, something's changing in the world. And we all attributed to the fact that Mashiach is coming, the redemption is coming. Some believe more, some believe less, some don't believe at all. [snorts] Some believe that Mashiach is one thing and other people believe that Mashiah is a lot of confusion. And the confusion is as as a result of the concealment of the godly light. Ultimately, if you're thinking about it, most people who are spiritual in the world want the same thing. We call it Hashem, they call it Allah, they call it whatever. Everybody calls it something different. But in the essence of the soul, we're all looking at the same thing because also the Gentiles, they might not have a neph don't don't look at them as garbage bags. It's not correct. I've heard in many many that the rabbis are teaching that the Gentiles are junk and they're this and they're that. That's not the Torah. I didn't see that in the Torah. You know that the Torah usually tells you one thing and it's enough, right? If the Torah feels it and you need to hear it twice and it will repeat itself. If the Torah feels that you need to hear it a few more times and it will repeat and repeat and will repeat. Most of the prohibitions and the mitzvah in the Torah one time some things for whatever reason thought that the ten commandments has to be repeated twice. So you have ten commandments twice in the Torah. Twice you have but you know there certain things in the Torah there's three times five times about not mixing meat and dairy. Three times how many times is it talking about observing Shabbat >> h >> 12 times >> 12 times it repeats in the Torah about guarding the Shabbat. So just goes to show you something. So important like Shabbat 12 times it repeats itself. 36 times in the Torah it says that we have to treat the Gim and the Gentiles in a respectful and honorable way. You are also converts. We are all converts technically if you want to. But that's what the Torah says. Don't look at me. You are also foreigners in mit. You are also from a different nation. When gave us the Torah, that's when we became the nation of Israel. So that's saying that as a side a side note, but let's go back to what I was saying. There's no doubt that right now that world is taking into a shift. Everybody sees that and not everybody understands what they see. The kadoshu is preparing the world for the redemption. Slowly by slowly, bit by bit, step by step, kadosh has a plan and he's doing his plan. Like a professional check player, he moves this. Now he waits, then he moves that is moving the pawns on the board and very soon will be the checkmate. just we don't understand what's going on because everything in the world is like changing now. Some people call it okay it's the the the president it's the war in Israel it's the this it's it's not anything in order to prepare the world he's a little bit uh shaking it. So now what we're going to experience is a new type of suffering. Brand new type of suffering that we didn't experience for many many many many years. I recently ran across an interesting concept that the Ramach teaches. The Ramach is Rabim Deo. He's the teacher of the a great cabalist. And he says something very interesting. First in the same he says that before Mashiach is going to come most will be most of the people in the world will be that to that extreme he even says I'm just quoting him don't look at me and be angry at me he says half the nation of Israel will be then he says that of course will be a lot of challenges and a lot of tests and a lot of hardship and Why? To clean. Hashem wants to clean our souls from so many years of suffering. So we will be merit to see the coming of Mashiach saying in other words says spiritually you are so dirty that if Mashiach will come today you wouldn't be able to stand and see him. >> Would you like that? >> Would you? No. >> So, Hashem says, "You are not cleaning yourself or you don't have the time or the ability. I have to clean you." Let me explain. It says in the Mishna, "If a person uh transgresses a negative mitzvah, not to mix wool and linen." Okay, this is a negative mitzvah, a percept from the Torah. When was the last time you checked your jacket for wool and linen? Never. Women, when did you check last time? You know that hugs are mixed with wool and linen. The shutness in hugs. >> Hugs. That's what they call not hugs. What? The Australian. What? >> Hugs. >> What did I say? Hugs. >> Same thing. No. Same $400 boots. Okay. So agg check the shaness or don't bite >> and you're not allowed to mix wool and linen. This is called sha. This is a precept. So if a person fails in a precept, he has to do chuva. The Torah says his chuva puts the sin on hold. Nothing happens. No judgment or nothing. out comes yip, you empty the trash, delete it. But that's for the little sins that don't not heavy heavy sins. If it's a positive mitzvah that you didn't do, you didn't say, you didn't put filling, you didn't say it's a positive. Now, how do you pay this back? Then first of all the Mishna says you do chuva and you're saying I'm not moving till you forgive me and Hashem forgives you because you did chuva. How would you gain back what you missed? That's a whole different thing. You miss one day of your life fillin you can never pay it back ever. I don't care who you are. Even if for the rest of your life you wear three pairs of fill in one day of your life you missed fill in. No way of bringing it back. You cannot reverse the day and on the calendar in Shamay there's one hole you miss. How do you fix something like that? Then you need to now balance it out calls it to Mishkal that if on this mishkal means scale if this size is heavy then I have to put more weight here to bring it down. So if I missed one date fill in, then I have to put on the scale other fill in that will be in the same value of me putting fill in. So I will go out to the street and put on you fill in and you and you and you and you and maybe 10 men that I put fill in on them maybe will balance the time one time that I didn't. The reality it's not going to balance. You need to be more in a level that you help an individual. You inspire an individual to put fill in. Then you help him financially to buy that fill in. And that man puts fill in for the rest of their life. And every day that he puts fill in, you get one little ounce on that scale that eventually after a long time it will pull down. This is called that's what is explained. You need to do the counteractive many times. But let's go back to the Mishna that says that and it says if a person did a sin which falls under the category of death by the heavenly court or the soul gets chopped off desecrating Shabbat eating ones eating on eating from the sacrifice in the holy temple doing a seance many other things 36 34 are negative and precepts two are positive most of The is the forbidden relations that take most of the 32 because every every type of incest is a different type of ket. So most of the is incest and forbidden relations but many of them are things that relate to us and one of them is and and eating on and we all failed in that. So we have when a and death by the heavenly court many other things. So if a person has a if and he does and he does so it says the chuva puts the sin on hold puts the sin on hold. What does it mean puts the sin on hold? They're not going to do anything to you cuz you did chuva. And then it says and then hardship and suffering will wash off all the damage. You desecrated Shabbat for 20 years. You did hundreds and hundreds of will take a lot of suffering to take it off. Add on that all the add on that all the add on that all many other things. Stop complaining. Be thankful is cleaning you. saying based on this Mishna, the Raak says the exact same thing. Before Mashiach is going to come, we are all so spiritually dirty from our sins because we lie and we cheat and we steal and we do so many horrible things. And I'm not talking about right now somebody who's completely secular. That's that's a whole different thing because the in many of the cases the secular doesn't know. He doesn't So I'm talking about you know you're here you know and don't not that I'm saying that the secular individual doesn't won't get punished or won't get judged but every person is judged in a completely different way. The reality is what says that before Mashia is going to come, we are all going to be faced with horrible challenges only to clean our nish from the dirt. And why? So you will have this you have the merit to be alive when Mashiah comes. Amen. >> Now, first of all, it's very important to remember a lot of people say specifically different rabbis and I don't agree with that and I don't like that they come they give false hope to people by saying don't worry everything will be okay. When you really think there's going to be a holocaust, you're fine. Everything is great. Just sign here the check made out to the reality is of course we want to believe that Hashem is going to be with us come through with great miracles. We pray for mercy and many of the times Hashem is making the situation hard only for us to wake up so we can pray for his help and salvation. That's what Hashem wants. But this is not the case. The case right now is that each and every one of us in his or her way and I'm not excluding myself whether it's from sins from the past whether it's sins from previous life whether it's sins from now whether it's from whatever activities that you do is telling you straight out you have a few mitzvot you have a few merits but not enough to take you through the gula you can't go through the redemption with what you have. So, I need to clean you. How am I going to clean you? You're going to suffer and you're going to suffer a lot. And you're going to suffer till you can't handle it. And you're going to suffer so much that maybe you'll start doing chuva. But you're not going to start doing chuva. So, you'll suffer more and more because you don't know how to clean yourself. Then I'll clean you. That's it. So right now every person in this world the the challenges increased everybody one out of three million the things are kind of okay on the surface because he doesn't have the challenges of others and I'll give you an example if a person now is rich healthy has a good family, okay, nice wife, nice kids, lives in a nice house, etc., etc. He doesn't have most of the challenges that most people have because most people have challenges with money, challenges with relationships, challenges with their kids. So, here's an individual that on the surface seems seems doesn't have challenges. Everybody has challenges. Everybody has tests and everybody's suffering in their weak point. And it doesn't matter how much money you have or who you are. Money doesn't make you suffer less. Most of the cases, money makes you suffer more. All day long you're worried. You know what a test it is to have money. It's one of the hardest tests a person could be put with. When you have money, you become arrogant. You become a showoff. You think you own the world and many other things. The point is said it doesn't matter the challenge right now. It's not that your challenge is worse than the other. I know the green is always the grass is always greener by the neighbor. You always look at the other individual and you say I wish I had his life. What we need to understand is that the majority of what you're dealing with re with right now is not your sins and not Hashem testing to see your reactions. It's Hashem saying that we're running out of time. You will not be able to do enough chuva till mashia comes. Let me hasten to you hasten it to you. You know how in the airports you have these uh moving floors? How do you call it? No, not the >> conveyor >> like a conveyor belt, but it's I don't know if it's I don't know if it's called a conveyor belt. Whatever. The floor is moving. Okay. And and and so you walking on it, but it's like a little a few steps before you. That's what Hashem is doing. He says, "You continue doing your thing. Can try to do chuva. focus on your spiritual growth, but I'm going to underneath your feet move the whole world because you won't make it to the gula with your level of chuva. That's what Hashem is saying. And if a person is really in the program of chuva, then they don't there's not much challenges. There is challenges but not in the same level because our sages say if you want to remove from yourself suffering then suffer on the Torah. In Hebrew it sounds different because in Hebrew it says I don't know how you say that in English. Suffer yourself by the Torah. It's basically saying make the Torah the the the the weight and the yoke that you're carrying. If you're carrying the yoke of the Torah, you're not going to be dealing with financial yoke or with raising your kids yoke or challenge or cuz you're carrying the yoke of the Torah. Carry the Torah on your back. Hashem is going to take all the rest of the challenges from you. That's what our sages say. But now we are in a challenge that I'm telling you that most people cannot move it away from them. That's the one that I just told you. Hashem wants to prepare everybody for their redemption. And by the way, in the same scary cuz he says before the coming of Mashiach, many will die. Many will suffer, but many will die and many will get wounded. And when he explains the dying and the wounded, he says anyone that will die, that's their tikun. And anyone who gets wounded, that's their tikun. Which means that anyone who dies now as a result from the birth pains of mashia, that's their tikun. So they reach to a they didn't see the coming of Mashiach that be resurrected in the coming of Mashiach. And that's why I told you before I don't like the approach of people saying everybody will be in the redemption. Not everybody because yesterday thousand people died and the day before a thousand people died and tomorrow thousand people died and the next day. So who's all of them are making it to the redemption? Alfki made it to the redemption. No, of these giants. What? They don't deserve to see the redemption. So why you telling me everybody will make it to the gula? These are great rabbis. How did they not wake make it to the gula? Obviously, the statement is false by saying everybody will be redeemed. Not everybody. >> Would they be resurrected? >> That's where it's talking about. Thank you. You jump the gun. You said it a minute before I was about to say what it's referring to is. But then there's a problem. Some people won't wake up in you got to be very careful. There are some opinions that will tell you whoever speaks won't wake up in that means that when Mashia comes, we're going to be 700 people. >> [snorts] >> So I wanted to say that that's when it says everybody will be included in the redemption. It's referring to don't you want to see the show? You know how the show is going to look? You know you don't. That's what our sages say. What you saw, the wonders that you saw going out of Mit, that's nothing. What I'm going to do now in this generation when Mashiach comes, what we saw in Mitim, we didn't even see it. But what they saw or any miracle that ever happened in the past is nothing compared to what we going to see when Msiah is going to come. And I told you that not once and not twice. Most people won't be able to sustain what what they see. They'll just faint or die. Just imagine, just try to internalize you standing on the on the sea and the sea opens. How would you react when you would see such a thing? How? Just think for one second. How would I react if I'm the one one of the Israel who's standing on the water and suddenly the water starts sanding and what is going on? Meditate on that and you'll understand. Wait a minute. When Hashem is going to decide to start the show, what are we going to see? The miracles that we're going to see are going to be much greater than mit and many won't be able to sustain. We're no one going to be able to handle it. Only the Torah and the mitzvah. So right now, Hashem is telling you the talk clock is ticking. Mashiach can come any second. It can come also in half a year, in a year, five years. Personally, I if you remember, I gave a very long class two kanukas ago where I compared what it says in the Talmud in San the seven years preceding to the coming of Mashiach, one year after the other. And then we compared it to the United Nations agenda 2030 and it's perfectly even. So what do you take from that? We just finished two years ago a sabbatical cycle. So 2029 2030 it's the next sabbatical cycle. That's if if we don't get our act together and hasten it probably that's when it will be a right time to come. Can you survive now another four years with what's going to happen here? We don't we we didn't even this is just the cranking of the engine. It's not even the running of the engine. This is just so now we're introduced to a brand new type of that are which is hardship and suffering that are going to come to us as love of the now if you go back to the what I started telling you before that it says that if come on a person look in your actions maybe you did something take responsibility you could not find any connection to what you did then there's a very good chance that you have to and it goes through a section if not this then this and at the end what does it say if you could not find any of the above then these are then these are suffering of love the Hashem loves you so much that he's making you suffer because you have to Understand that for every bad decision you make a sin and an act like that you bring spiritual blemishes on your on your on your spiritual garments not easy to remove it. Yumipur doesn't remove all these blemishes strong chuva hard chuva and a lot of suffering. Now if hashem sees a huge stain on yama that he says that will take him five years to clean this. You know how much he needs to read? You know how many filot he needs to do? That's a lot of people what they don't understand. They pray for 20 years and it becomes regular and they don't realize that in order to fix a certain blemish on the sh they need four years of three every day and after 3 years of every day praying three times a day in a minan a certain stain is removed from one of the sins. Imagine now you'll get a spiritual X-ray that shows you your entire Shama where are the blemishes and why why the blemish here are the blemishes because every time you do a sin every sin is connected to an organ in the body 613 mitzvot 248 positive corresponding to 248 limbs 365 precepts corresponding to 365 tendons which means that every precept or mitzvah that I do or don't it affects a certain part in the body like meridians 100% exactly I told you already many times that I tried I'm still trying to compile a book of every sin or mitzvah which organ is affecting and how talks about it a lot you can find in his but we don't have the entire thing but if I for example do not put fillain on the meridian of fillain will start suffering. I know most of you think it's the the hand doesn't mean that the spiritual meridian of the fillin is the hand but many great people can see the spirit the physical problem and they tell you this is a mitzvah that you're doing wrong. A few years ago and I'm not claiming or saying other I do that but a few years ago my mom I talked to her and she I told her what did you do? She told me I went to a doctor. Why? What's going on? Ah, for months my hand is hurting me. My wrist is hurting me. And I went to this doctor and they did MRI and they did the CT and they did this and and I said no and what's the what did they find? Nothing, right? Yeah. Yeah. They don't know what it is. So says, why don't you come to me before you before you went to all these doctors? She [snorts] was like, what would you say? So I would tell you the spiritual problem now. Not the numsome hoo-ha. It's just putting two dots together. Your wrists hurt you. So you obviously you doing something with the wrists. I suggest that when you wake up in the morning and every time you go out of the bathroom, you wash your hand three times with a cup. You're doing it till your dime and make sure that once a day you give charity. And she's like, "Oh, I give a lot of charity." I said, "Listen till the end with coins and you go like this in a box." Sure enough, few weeks later, how do you feel, Mom? Feeling great. No more pain. That's it. Sometimes the external effect is because something that you're not doing as a mitzvah or you're doing something that you're not supposed to do. Hashem should help me that one day I will find all the sources and to compile a book that we will have this mitzvah corresponds to this organ. This a corresponds to that tendon. But we don't know it all. But it's that's how it works. Going back to what we were saying. Right now we are facing a whole new era of challenges of tests of suffering. Suffering that we weren't so familiar with. Suffering that throughout the entire years weren't so common. Not talking about now terror attacks. And I'm not talking about anti-semitism or wars that we always had. But right now the is going to put pressure on the entire world. Doesn't matter who you are, doesn't matter where you live, doesn't matter how nice you are. Everybody's going to be subject to this suffering. And it's only for you to be cleansed from Mashiach. So how do you deal with such a challenge? Now what do you do right now? Now you just everything that comes to your direction, you're just saying great, I'm waiting for Mashiach. First of all, no. For every situation in your life, you still have to do an effort. You still have to do you need to tr to do the minimum of the minimum to deal with the situation. But it's mainly a a a voda a effort in your mind is to understand that's Hashem's way of cleaning me. That's Hashem's way of cleansing me. With the second that you put all the responsibility to Hashem, then the pain goes much much less. Just think about it as going to the dentist. Besides the dentist that makes a lot of money, nobody likes going to the dentist. I don't know anyone who likes going to the dentist. The the dentists like going cuz every time you open the mouth, he's like, "Woo, new BMW." and should have you want to be a dentist. Go ahead. But nobody here likes to go to the No one likes to go to the dentist. But why do you go? Cuz they have a lot of pain. I said I need more pain to remove the first pain, right? So you need more pain to fix the initial pain. Now you can understand what I just told you for two hours. Sometimes you need more pain to fix the initial problem that causes pain. So the only advice I can give you besides strengthening you getting closer to Hashem, learning more to giving more Shabbat is more has to be more special everything you have to constantly grow. Now is the time. If you didn't figure out yet that if you're not going to do chuva 100% that's not going to work well with Hashem, why do you think Hashem is going to bring Mashiach to a bunch of secular world? No. So now is the time where Hashem says go back. Hashem warned the generation of Noah 120 years. Nothing happened. And even Noah Rashi says was he didn't believe that there's going to be a flood. He built the ark. But he didn't go into the ark till the water came up to his knees. He himself didn't believe that there's going to be a flood. So also Hashem is now giving us another sign and another sign and another sign. You don't need more signs. You don't need another three-hour video online me with sources. And we don't need more signs. We already have the signs. Now we need actions. It doesn't matter if I find another prophecy or another piece in the Zor that corresponds to what's going on right now in this world. It's interesting. No doubt. No doubt. In every book that I read, I constantly look for something that is hinting on the the time that we're in. But that's not the point. The point to understand is that right now is telling us in other words if you didn't get it then start getting it and now the ground is going to start going faster than what you can walk and that's why people can't handle most of what's going on in their life and the answer to that is only to get closer to Hashem to do cha there's no other way and every person in their level so you are fully observant so you need to fine-tune it you are completely not observant then start keeping some of them it you have to understand that when a person does cha Hashem puts him in some type of a buffer zone when I became observant I declared to Hashem I cannot observe Shabbat it will take me a few years and it will take me time to start doing this and that and and sure that's what it took but the second the saw my intention saw what's going to happen So he puts all my chuva on hold means no judgment. You're not getting punished now. You're not being judged. Giving you the time to do chuva. Now Hashem is fast forwarding fastforwarding the coming of Msiah. I'm sure all of you experience the same thing that I experience. You do have on Shabbat. The candle still stinks from the burning fire. And you're already cooking for Friday, right? >> Tomorrow is Shabbat. I still smell the the I still have the the drips here from the from >> the time is like that. I haven't seen anything like that. You you it's it's already Friday. It's already avo. That's Hashem pulling the floor under our ground and we are busy with junk and nonsense and Instagram and Tik Tok and she said and he said and he took and he and our time frame went shorter. Everything went shorter and you have time to deal with all this nonsense. You know how many times myself in the last few months got caught in some situation that requires for me to do certain things and I just thinking I was like I don't have time for this I cannot do now if you're busy with good things then all the junk around you you don't have time to that that's how you basically keep your head up that you're not going to drown in your misery so there's nothing wrong with you. Don't listen to anyone who comes and tells you you are the problem and you need to do this and that and Hashem is punishing you. It's not you what's going on right now in the world. It's everybody. It's accumulation of all of our behavior but simultaneously alongside it's also the preparing the world. Now when you see a person that the suffering is not that much you can know that person did very good chuva that person is in a very high level that there's not much sins if any did already the tikun and he's waiting for the redemption just grabbing another mitzvah grabbing another and helping him and helping him that's what you need to reach and just you know life is going to become a little bit harder everything is going to become a a little bit harder. But I'm going to answer the question that probably many have cuz a lot of people say, "Okay, I believe Mashiah is coming. I see what Hashem does. Should I just go and learn Torah all day long or should I keep my business and should what should I do?" Then you take the advice of my world stays the same, but you have to be the Torah observant Jew. How the world is right now? If you have the ability to move somewhere because you are retired or you have money or you don't have responsibilities that's one out of a hundred or one out of a thousand and there are people like that. There are people like that. I see them every day. They move to fat is very cheap to live in. They live inat for nothing. $1,000 a month you live like like very comfortable. and they just learn to roll along. No responsibilities, no job, no nothing. There I'm waiting for the for mia. 90% of is like that. That's why everybody's so poor there. No, seriously, it's a very poor town cuz people there don't care about money. They just care learning Torah all day long. All day long. Waiting for the redemption. Now, the reality, not everybody should do it or can do it. We have to be regular people. What does it mean regular people? You have a job, you have family, you're going to have tuition for the next three years to pay. Why are you thinking now of changing something? Nothing's going to change yet. Now we have to be in the world and the challenges that Hashem is sending us is in the world. Financial, health, relationships and many others. So now that we cut got a little bit familiar and it's a little bit but we have some type of an idea when I say Hashem loves us and then we add so why do we suffer then take the last fourth example that I tell you yeah he loves us he loves us so much that he's willing to make us suffer so we can make it to the gula so ultimately it's the love of Hashem But we need to understand that this is the point in the world right now. This is the point in the world that is compared to the birth of a child. First 9 months the or I'll explain it even more. First trimester, okay, the mother is don't feel that great. Maybe throwing up or something. Okay, a little bit bumpy. Usually second trimester, everything's fine. Third trimester starts becoming a little bit uh it's good. No, no sicknesses and it's a little bit uncomfortable. But once the woman is in the nine months, that's it. It's not comfortable anymore. You can't sit, you can't sleep, you can this, you can carry, you can't see your toes. But once the labor starts, then the pain comes with and it starts with a contraction and 20 minutes later another contraction. And then the contractions become closer to each other and stronger and it gets to a point that the contractions are seconds away from each other and they're extremely strong and not that I was once on the in that situation that I telling you my experience but I have seven kids so I'm very observant when I see my wife in agony and I'm like Shalani sh. But with all jokes aside, I saw with my own eyes my wife giving birth to seven kids. I saw the pain. And my wife says, "Every time we had a child, she told me, I failed that I did a tikun for the entire world." And really when a woman gives birth the pain that she goes through she does a tikun for the entire world. First of all she brought that problem. So don't say okay but nevertheless it's unbelievable pain but it brings a great tikun the birth of the coming of Mashia. That's what's going to happen. So what we experiencing now that's the contractions. How I see it, Corona was the water breaking. There's no turning back. Once the water breaks, there's no turning back. >> No, no, no, no, no, no. >> But going back to my example, I believe that's how I see it. The corona was the water the water breaking. You can't go back and from that starts the the real birth. That that's where the birth starts. Of course, today uh doctors right away cesarian educe not good. Oh, relax. But nevertheless, once the water breaks, there's no turning back. Corona was the breaking of the water. And after corona came a little contraction. 45 innocent men were killed in Meon. Nobody understood why. young young bore all angel you see in their faces sadikim one by one that was the first hiccup and then started more contraction and more and then October 7 that's a big contraction now the contraction is like with a woman will go closer to each other and stronger so you just need to be prepared there's going to be more contractions and more pain and more suffering all good for us all part of the love of Hashem. I want to be part of the redemption. So all it needs to all you need to do is just think I'm going now to the dentist. I have a lot of pain prior. Then I need that initial pain to fix the first pain. That's it. And when you understand that that's the love of Hashem. And when you understand that it's good for you, you just need to put in your mind that okay what do is required for me to believe that Hashem is the one who's doing the test not to be judgmental towards anybody else and not to be angry towards Hashem [snorts] not to lose hope or to lose my excitement for and to continue business as usual. Once you do that the kadoshu removes the the challenge or it makes the challenge like this. When you are struggling with the challenge then the koshu moves aside and he says okay let's see what you do you can't handle the challenge you need to put hashem you're saying hashem that's you I need to do myoot but hashem will solve the problem and the pain in between you just have to bite it that's it we have to bite the pain another contraction another contraction it's almost over that's What we need to remember is after the contractions and the pain of the woman who's giving birth, after that ends comes a new baby, a new life, new light to the family. So, Mashiach is coming. And I know it's very hard for most people to perceive it in their mind. And I do believe firmly that the minority of people really believe and picture them living in the time of Msiah. Most people don't relate with that. They can't relate with that how the world is going to change. And that's why they either do not want to be close to Hashem or they don't want to cater the idea because they're not ready to it for it. They don't know how to digest this. And nobody wants change. I'm comfortable right now in this stinky situation. I don't want to change anything. But the reality is that we are sitting in our dirty diaper for already a few years. We don't even realizing how much it stinks. And the kados says, "I need to clean them. It's going to hurt. It's going to hurt." Because listen, the vision that I have in my mind now, it's not a nice vision. But my wife brings the kids to the world. I clean their toes. So I have a lot of experience with changing diapers and dealing with the what's in the diaper. But I noticed something. I know it's disgusting. I'm asking you for your forgiveness. But when a child when a baby's with the diaper for too long, it's stuck already to the you need to wash it and scrub it. And I know, but I'm trying to make a point cuz we are in dirty diapers from all the junk that we do. And the says So the cleaning hurts. So stop complaining or clean yourself. Clean yourself. Dive into the Torah. Let the Torah be your suffering. Cuz to wake up at 4:00 in the morning to most people is suffering. It's not easy to wake up in the morning, 4:00 in the morning, and you rip yourself out of bed and you're tired and it's freezing and your eyes are like that and you're and you still get up to go to pray with that pain that you just put yourself through, you removed a 100 tons of suffering from many other thing. And then you can go uh like uh How do you say uh one minute walk to the fancy mikvet that is all heated or you can walk a 15minute walk to the freezing cold mikvah that is not as nice but you walk to the mikvah cuz you want that freezing one and you want so you put yourself through suffering of the Torah then you remove all the suffering that the kadu has planned for Not my advice. Our sages say that. So when you suffer and when you toil on the Torah, half an hour of toiling in the Torah suffering, then you remove yourself months of suffering in this world. [snorts] It doesn't matter in what department. If Hashem already Hashem already in decides what you're going to suffer, who's going to live? Who's going to die? Mir, who's going to become rich? going to be poor. Everything is decided on Shah also how much isim you're going to have this year is decided on and what will be theim everything is decided you already know how much is you're going to have for the rest of the year and what you going to be but you can accept on yourself newim new hardship and then it take takes it off from the debt what it's in the list so the point we want to take from tonight is a few things. A, Hashem still loves us. The title doesn't change. I also love my kids. And you know how I express my love to my kids? I educate them. I'm firm with them. When I need to be friendly, I'm friendly. When I need to be strong, then I'm strong. There's no And when my kids are not happy with my way of educating them because I scream, I take, I punish, doesn't matter what. I don't care if you're unhappy right now and if you don't like me tonight. My job is to educate you. My job is not to spoil you. I don't need my There's no definition anywhere that I need to do something that my child should love me. That's bad parenting. The child would love you if you give him real love. Not if you buy him a bunch of stuff and you give him three iPads and you let him do whatever he wants. So kids don't like when you're strong with him. When I grew up, I hated how my father raised me. He was like like a like a general. I didn't like it at all. He was real tough father. Now looking back, thank God that he did that. I would be end up I don't want to say not nice things, but I see a lot of people from my age cuz I grew up in a very very rich area. My father was always doing well. So I grew up in a rich area where all the kids around me had sports cars. And my I wanted the sports car. You know what my father told me? Go and work. But you have money. I'll buy myself what I want. You want you go and work. Now a 17-year-old doesn't like to hear that. But when your father makes you work when you're 14 and you get real good work ethics. So when you're 50 and you're doing well financially, you thank your father for giving you these ethics and not to be some mirror and taking money from the entire world. So I didn't like how my father educated me with when I was a kid, but he gave me values and me don't and and many other things that now I look back. So I do the same thing with my kids. I'm not running here a popularity test. I don't need you to lie. You don't want to like me. My kid don't like me. Comes the age of 18, I I'm done my with educating now. I now I'll be your friend. But my purpose is to give you the tools. Hashem is doing the exact same thing. Hashem doesn't want to just do it for you. Hashem says you need to do it. So the exciting news here is that Mashiach is coming. I know many people hard for them to believe. I know it might take a few more weeks or months or maybe years, but we're already in the delivery process. >> It cannot be reversed. Well, you can sweeten the delivery. Now, I and many others, I don't think a woman needs to take the pain killer, the epidural. Listen, I'm not a woman. I I think I think I think many women were just I saw my wife my wife been most of her labors she did it natural but and you know the only time that she went to give birth in a hospital when was the option of epidural then she took it and suffered from that half a year from the junk that they give you to paralyze your the the the spine. But the point is that [snorts] the child birth is painful in one way but nevertheless it's new life. So we're in a such a special place before Msiah is coming. Yeah. Okay. So the world is a little bit bumpy. Yeah. Yeah. It's going to become much more bumpy. Don't think that it's going to become better. Somebody comes and tells you don't worry, Hashem loves us. The redemption is going to come. Don't worry. Didn't you see the eagles over there waiting and warming up their their their wings? And have you ever seen in the last 4,000 5,000 years of the existence of this world any redemption that came nice? Any? No. We can bring in the redemption. and a lot of a lot of it will still happen but with much more mercy. So what I want you to do tonight is one very simple thing if you walk out of the door without the right tools. So I failed to give you the tools you failed to take. If I gave you nothing happened tonight we didn't do nothing. The point is, as I say always as a broken record, what do you do when you go out of the room? So, a I gave you a few options of why suffering are coming whether it's sins that you're doing now, sins from previous life. So, start controlling that. How do you recognize where the sin is coming from? I told you you need to refine yourself. The great way way of refining is learning Torah, doing mitzvot, but one needs to refine themselves in their characteristics, their midot, refine their their gates, guard their gates. All these little things, they make a huge difference. Then we were looking at another type of suffering that Hashem is testing us. You have to have this constantly in your mind because every second of the day, if I would tell you how many challenges I have a day, you wouldn't even believe. I need four hands just to hold all the phones and I need to make the phone calls all day long. It's unbelievable. When Hashem wants to give you a challenge, he drives you nuts. I understand you have great challenges like mine when you appreciate what I'm saying. But the reality is it's going to become worse. It's going to become stronger. We need the right tools. And the ultimate tool that I need to understand that all this is coming from Hashem. It's not coming from anyone. Not from people, not from governments, not from officials, not from my neighbor. Nobody is doing anything to me. The trick to understand here is to and to to not only to understand the trick to to to save yourself from all this is to understand that the koshu is the one who's doing that. And when you understand what Hashem is doing, then you accept the pain. You don't like the pain, but you accept it and you suffer the pain. Many many years ago, I took my one of my kids to the dentist. He had pain in his teeth and we had to take him to the dentist. He was young, 3 years old, four years old. Now he's 13 years old. So, we went to the dentist. I sat down on the chair and I held him on me cuz he was afraid. He he didn't want to sit. Now just imagine now this poor three-year-old going to the dentist. He's already in pain. Now this weird looking guy with a mask and a and glasses and like a a light coming out from his the it looks like I don't know what. And then a light from here. And then another scary woman with a and worse than all that, his own father brought him to the slaughter house and holding him not to move. So he goes through the medical procedure. He goes out of there hating the doctor, afraiding afraid from him and hating me. You're the worst father in the world. I just took you to the person who saved your pain and I'm being judged as the first worst father in the world. Okay. Two hours later he got ice cream. I was already the best father in the world. And now he doesn't remember that day. But the example here is that I have pain because of my stupidity. A child eats candy, lollies, whatever. That's his stupidity. So then he gets the the cavities and he has pain. Me, I just sin. I just follow my eyes. I follow my heart. I I am weak to every temptation. I'm not willing to put any stop to any desire that I have. Not willing to put a little bit of an effort to anything in my life like a little kid. And then I suffer and I I have pain. The bank is going, the credit card is not working, this deal didn't work, she dumped me. So comes the father, the loving father holds you tight and now you get more pain and you perceive it. That's I don't like this. But that's that's what happens. Understand that it's happening from Hashem. Hashem wants to humble you. Ham wants to fix what you are wrong with. We all need to be humbled. So he breaks us. But if he needs to fix you something, then he will treat you in a certain way that you are experiencing. And if you're smart, then Hashem, you let Hashem fix you. So ultimately, if I need to summarize this entire sh suffering is good, right? It is the love of Hashem. It is good for me. Do I want it? No. I want the love of Hashem in a different way. So that it has to do with me. So you have two options today to take. I'm offering you two products today. Product number one, bite the pain, suffer the pain, accept it, let Hashem do his job, accept it with love, and continue your life like as if nothing happened. And you'll see that 90% of your challenges become this big. Not always. And listen, I'm making it sound nice. But when you have a challenge, doesn't matter right now what sometimes when it reduces from this to this makes a big difference. Product number two is saying I agree with what you're saying. I want to save the suffering. Hashem tells you, you don't have to pay my price. you show me that you're taking it on yourself then you don't have to pay anything. The question is if you're willing to take it on yourself that means that you need to be a very very very dedicated Torah observant individual and not to complain and to take consideration that you also have debt from the past and to just take it as it is but to know that I want to cash my suffering instead of what Hashem has in mind. I will decide on myself what will be the suffering. That's it. I like sleeping. Instead of sleeping 8 hours, I'm going to sleep 6 hours so I can wake up and learn two hours of Torah. Here I just gave you a perfect example. You know the first 10 years of my marriage, I didn't even sleep. I love sleeping. Oh, I how much I love sleeping. I'm like a polar bear when it comes to sleeping. If you don't touch touch, I will sleep for for days. I go up somewhere at night. I don't even know where I go. I don't want to come back. You know, the last six weeks I had to prepare this tour. I'm on a huge tour. Two months I'm going to be in the United States from tonight. In a few hours, I'm flying to Los Angeles. Few hours, not a few minutes or day. A few hours. Los Angeles two weeks, then I'm going to be in the in the Southwest, Texas, Arizona. I'm going through the United States. It's there is a hint here if somebody is trying to figure it out. But why am I saying that? Because for two months, I slept maybe an hour a night because there's so much to do. One morning I was up all night, finished the night, went to pray, came back, and then I told my wife, I need I'm going to sleep for like an hour or two. I need you to wake me up. I need I have a lot of things to do. She didn't wake me up. So I end up sleeping I don't know, like 1:00 in the afternoon. Went to sleep like at 9:00 and but I needed to wake up in an hour or two. I told her, "Why didn't you wake me up?" She was like, "You slept so peaceful. I I didn't have the heart to wake you up." [laughter] She was like, "You smile when you sleep." You're like, >> I told her, "Take a picture once. I want to see how I look when I sleep." She's like, "You're you're like I don't know where you are when you go to sleep. You smile. You sleep like you're in heaven." And I tell that's probably where I go. And I'm so the body's smiling. So why am I saying that? I love sleeping. And I can find all the excuses why I can sleep a lot of hours, right? Just go to Rambam. He tells you you need to sleep eight hours a day. Thank you. Raam said I have to sleep. Please do not disturb. But when you love something so much and you want to really grab what I'm telling you. So yes, so you take one hour less of what you really love. You're not going to suffer from that. Don't tell me, "No, you need your 8 hours." Yeah, I make it very well with 5 hours. But I'm giving you one type of an example. You love watching your series on Netflix. You can't get enough of it. You love it so much you watch three in a row. I know everybody's smiling because you all do it. you I when I grew up and there was like a series then you had to wait a whole week for the next episode. Now you go into Netflix, you see the entire thing in two hours. Just fast forward the whole thing. We had to wait. So you love so much the junk that you are on. Then take an hour from what you really really love and apply that to something you really don't love to learn Torah or to go and help other people and do some. So you're reducing from your leisure time and you're taking on yourself things that not necessarily you really really like. So these are the two products that you can choose from. But as long as you understand that the suffering is coming from the master of the universe and you know that it's good for you then just stick it stick with it. it will pass and bes all the challenges will pass. So I want to end with a quick story and with a blessing and then with a request and then we're going to pray and then we're going to say nicely goodbye. So I'm going to end with a quick story that there was once uh a certain individual and that individual was really a very very observant Jew. Did everything in the book, never complained, did everything Hashem wanted from him, >> but had the worst life ever. Never had money, was poor, his wife left him. All his kids went against him. Everything that you can imagine. He had the most horrible hard tough life. One time he's like in his 80s, sick. Oh, bend down. He goes down to the street. Boom. A car runs him over. He dies. He gets upset. He goes up to Shamim. He comes to the gate. Sees an angel sitting there. He's like, I I I want to see the bus. I want to talk to. Okay. They bring him to Hashem, comes to Hashem. Hem tells him, "Oh, no. What's what do you want to see me?" He's like, "Listen, I don't understand. 82 years I was a dedicated Jew. Never complained. Never did the sin. Did everything the Torah says with love. I did it with and that's how you rewarded me. Suffering all my life. Never had one peace, one moment of quiet. All the family went against me, never had money, did he goes and complaining and complaining. So Hashem tells him, "What do you want from me? What do you want to complain? You're coming here and complaining. What do you want?" So the man says, "I want an opportunity. I want you to bring me back to this world. I want to live a life again. I want to have a near-death experience and have a YouTube channel. >> [laughter] >> Wow. [laughter] 34 seconds to people to Oh. So he tells Hashem, I want a second chance. I want you to bring me back to this world and I want to have a a normal life. So Hashem says, okay, your wish is granted. But just that you know that everybody in this world needs to have some problems. So you also have to go down to the world again with problems. But this time I'll let you choose your own problems. Deal. He goes out. Hashem tells him, "Go to the end of the corridor. Turn to the right. Second door on the left. Knock on the door. There's an angel there. Tell him I sent you. He'll help you." No. He goes down. Knocks on the door. The angel open. Hashem sent me. What do you want? I need to look for uh to choose my own problems. The angel takes him to this huge warehouse. Looks like a Home Depot. Aisles and aisles and aisles, shelves from top to bottom. All the shelves are packed with bags with little bags. And the guy tells the angel, "What are all these bags?" The angel tells him, "Every bag is a bag of problems for one soul somewhere in the world." He's like, "Really? So I can choose now my bag of problems. Go ahead. That's what the kadesh said. So he starts running in the aisles up and down, in out. He's looking. He sees bags this big, this big. He's like, I'm I'm coming down here with like a after hours of running up and down, finally he sees in the corner underneath like two bags like this little bag this big. He grabs his bag, runs happy to the angel, tells him this one. The angel looks at it, scans it. You're all good to go. Go back to Hashem. He's running all happy, coming with his little bag to Hashem, all excited. Hashem doesn't tell you, "You chose a bag of problems." He says, "This one." He says, "Why did you choose the same bag?" So the fact that we want to remember is that we all have bags of baggage and baggage and bags of problems. But it's my problems, which means that I need to deal with it. And I am the owner of these problems, not you. You are not making my life harder. Not you, not you, not you. And definitely not my wife. I am the responsible individual to what's going on here. I need to take responsibility that it's my problems and my problems are not what you think. Your problems are this big next to other people's problems. So I bless you that you'll have the understanding and the awareness and the tools to know that your bag is your bag. It's a small bag. It's not as bad as you think. And that bag of problems that Hashem gave it to you, that is the dentist that Hashem is trying to remove all the pain that you create to yourself that Hashem is coming through. And he says, "I'll remove it for you." What more do you want from Hashem to do for you? So, I'm going to bless you all to be successful, to be happy, >> to have peace in your heart, peace in your body, things in your life should work out. Whatever your heart desires, Hashem should give it to you. In all the chaos and the darkness and the despair that Hashem should bless you to see the good in everything, Hashem closes one door in your face. He opens two doors behind you. Hashem turns the world around. It looks bad because he's turning it around cuz you're missing what you really need to see. Hashem should bless you to have the ability to see, >> to understand everything >> and to change. >> And the ultimate blessing that I want to give you is that you will be part of the nation that Hashem cleans to a point that you can see the coming of Messiah with your own physical eyes.