How Do You Open Yourself to Your Unconscious? - Likkutei Torah Bamidbar "Vayedaber" #4

the yeshiva dotnet the Neil Denari says I give enough gimel that the Neil says that he saw but the people didn't see and yet they trembled so the de maras says they did not see but their Mazel I found out the EULA housing was lying cozy their mouth and saw what's the meaning of the Mazel the Mazel is that not the entire neshama is manifested and enclosed in the body rather a major part most of the neshamah is not in the body meaning confined by the body and yet it experiences many things that sees things and the word Mazel means it causes a flow a nasal like a trickle and very often when we cannot contain experiences by the soul that's in our body doesn't mean that the soul above our body does not experience some something and as it trickles down into the soul in the body it overwhelms the person because we don't have the calum to make sense of it we don't know the calum to internalize it so doneö who had the vessels to contain and he didn't tremble but the people with him oh they can access it only on a level of mazel beyond comprehension because comprehension always comes from what from the his fastest of the nefesh in the Gulf once the nefesh is enclosed in the mind and their mind was too small to contain that vision that experience because all her Saga only exists on the level with the soul isn't closed in the brain and therefore I comprehended but that which I comprehend has to be able to suit my ability for comprehension they did not have that so what did how did the experience express itself in tremendous or tremendous shrimp and tremendous trembling on a tremendous carrot she says the kaho pinion given safe Mama's the second line from the top to Zion on the second column page 31 this is the same is true with Gilead and softer penis Mazel so who won a summer Shalem island miss lobsters burger for presenting the soul that is beyond being enclosed in the body that Leticia Angel is a ballad a lobster's Leah schnitz was with Nicola my exes since this experience cannot be internalized and grasped and absorb mitzvahs means grasped Nicollet means absorb in the mind of his intellect in other words he cannot wrap his brain around it which means the soul the way it is in the body cannot make peace with it cannot get it why can't it get it because it's too deep it's too intense like a tipple all of April pacify her Abdullah so how does it express itself and tremendous or or fear or reverence or trembling or anxiety the person experiences dread or other means dread why not because it's a bad thing actually it may be a beautiful thing may be a very good thing but since lace much of anticipate this is how he concluded his explanation why save of kawaman is called sovath why is it called South Africa that's not in the world it is in the world but we don't feel it and the reason we don't feel it is not because it's not here it's because our vessels our instruments cancel it out and the reason we cancel that out is because we are mutually exclusive the two are mutually exclusive for the eye to experience it the eye has to be able to be intact something which completely transcends the I would overwhelm it and obliterate it because save of kalam and represents that they mention of divine energy that no thought can grasp it no consciousness can grasp it it's not God's energy the way its limited and manifested trickling down to the unique composition and makeup and chemistry of every individual creature whether diamond so mayor high Madaba and therefore it's a a granulated expression of the vine energy and what I mean is that it's literally divided and and and and tailor tailored and a cust custom made for the individual makeup of every particular creature this is my molecule almond it fills the world's meaning that in our own consciousness it's relatable to our consciousness and actually it is our consciousness that's granulated divine energy size of kilometers shovel mash that's not granulated it encompasses all over the worlds identically why because it transcends all of them because if it transcends all of them so therefore the highest is not closer to it than the lowest because even the highest would not be able to grasp it in its own column so therefore it's relationship with it is not one of a conscious relationship but one of a super conscious super sensory relationship and therefore even the lowest world has the same contact with it in the same relationship with it this is the Marshall we gave the difference between just a Marshall it's not a perfect Marshall but it's a Marshall the difference between the teacher's function in the classroom and the commander-in-chief's function in the battlefield right the teachers function in the classroom we're talking about the successful teacher the caring teacher the teacher who is a pedagogue we know that there's different types of teachers and different types of classrooms we don't need to elaborate on that everybody went here through the system of education Mark Twain said I'll never allow my schooling tend to fair with my education but besides that we all know that the mission statement of a teacher is granulated information it's not about being impressive or domineering it's about penetrating the mind of the student it's actually about the student the Maura says in Titus hired male Amada Tamara bison may have a limit on me die yo you see me Coulomb I've learned much from my teachers more from my friends and even more from and most I've learned from my students because of the feedback you wanted to tell me someone should understand and every comment as a different IQ and every comment is different sensibilities and sensitivities and every talmud thinks differently and therefore the sheer must be accustomed to the faculties of the student so that he should be able to internalize it and just to scream at him understand because I'm telling you to understand doesn't make somebody understand something I cannot force somebody to understand why because by definition understanding means you understand it me telling you to understand it is as me telling you feel feel how can I tell you to feel it's not something I could command you to do why because this has to do with your own makeup I cannot impose it on you it's not an external thing so therefore it must be I have to work with your faculties that's a muscle from a molecule um the divine energy that is accustomed to the particular identity of the liver size of kalam and the example would be the commander-in-chief in the battlefield who looks at a million troops or a hundred troops or thousand troops and says go or if they're doing a march march and everybody is marching identically and uniformly how can it be so many different personalities and the answer is because the common denominator between them is not that they all appreciate or understand the message that in the same way the common denominator is the submission the submission to Authority the submission to the country the submission to the flag and as a result of that everyone is equal why is everybody equal because if I'm searching to accommodate their individual personalities then nobody is equal but if what I'm searching for is not the yeah but the nisht I'm not searching for the affirmation of self but rather the transcendence beyond the self here they can unite and integrate as one and literally do exactly the same thing March evenly even though in terms of intellectual prowess or emotional emotional experience they vary drastically and they may be from one extreme to another extreme but nonetheless in this an akuna of what we would call the bitl the submission of all of the troops of all of the soldiers to their to their leader to their general to their commanders here there is an absolute shovel Masha Oh No well this is not felt that's the point we're giving a mussel how if he tells them to do it right go so somebody says but I don't understand since I don't care if you understand I told you to do and here the two people can be extremely identical in the shear that doesn't work I can tell you to do I can't tell you to understand because what are we searching for an understanding we're searching for your individuality that's a muscle from a Malick alone the commander-in-chief is a muscle as a muscle it's not an accurate muscle but it's a muscle for this relationship that what that doesn't accommodate the individual personality and tone and heartbeat and sensitivity of each soldier what does it search for it encompasses all of them it unites all of them by a singular mission that transcends any of them individually and therefore the most intelligent and the least intelligent actually appear and behave in complete unison anyway didn't understand what he didn't what he was not so he had a better with him so what are you gain by bringing this analogy to the what what point is now clear by virtue of its mentioning the whole story he anyway wasn't co-lead so they fall I think it brings out the point what he started to say that he sent a Russian in the beginning of the discussion he said in Korea but should never in the hostel Keely Arthur Rock Macomb became America's on a fog of the Eloi Cosima's like us in other words this gives us a vivid Marshall for the idea that something can be completely in you it may define you it may impact you dramatically it may change you but nonetheless you cannot be aware of what it is that's the mushroom the mushroom is something is very very powerful it may be more powerful than any other force in the world but you cannot wrap your brain around it and say this is what it is I can identify it and this is a martial offset for set of Columbus a vocal Amin is really the same thing it's not that the infinite energy of God that encompasses the whole world and is enclosed in everything in the world doesn't have an impact it has a tremendous impact but the impact is one that one can sometimes see it symptoms but not be able to identify its core or its source simply because our consciousness as elevated as it is our brains our psyche our minds cannot detect it and the reason we can't detect it is because it's completely beyond it so this is a muscle for what he gives if you do see there is a parenthesis here that would actually a little contradict what I'm saying if you see one two three four four lines from the top and rezaian this is the parenthesis were generally footnotes added by the somatic who was the grandson of the ballot Anya his daughter's son and he succeeded his his grandfather after his father-in-law it was the ballot and he passed away and his son took over who's known as the Mittler everyday affair and when he passed away that someone said that his son in law on the ballot Anya's grandson was he was both an ephah he was both a nephew of the Mythili Reb and a son-in-law of the Mythili Redmond and therefore a grandson of the ballot Anya both from himself and from his wife so he wrote these footnotes when he published a look at the Toyota so if you'll take a look he says but I'm much accustomed Kumasi look what was written elsewhere ALPA Sokka Ozzie no meaning the Mimer of the ballot Anya on the word has in you imagine stars in Oh Indian Muslim explains Mazel show premise I inshallah Milam a hakama that it represents that I in the nothingness which is beyond Hoffman now this itself is a very powerful description iein means nothingness why do we call it nothingness not because it doesn't exist because it exists in such a powerful way that we have no way of describing it and whenever we have no way of describing we call nothing right it's like for example when you'll ask somebody you know your wife asks you how you feeling or what are you feeling and you say nothing right now sometimes that nothing is far far from nothing because when you start talking that nothing is not so nothing what have you we've made some of there's nothing could mean two things there can be nothing right nothing it's nothing but very often nothing means it's too much to talk about now sometimes we don't even identify that we say it's nothing right as soon as you look at somebody to say what's going on in your life nothing they're suffering from untold trauma but they just say nothing why they say nothing either because they don't trust you so then I'm gonna tell you or because there's really there's so no way of dealing with it that the only thing I could say the best description is nothing right it's just nothing so in in in in considers that which is higher than Kozma we call I in not it's nothing it's much more but because it's super conscious it's super sensory so it's nothing not because not because it's nothing because I don't have a way to deal with it so the best way to describe it is it doesn't exist it's much easier to dismiss it as non-existent than to acknowledge it and then have to have to break down the walls of my personality and expand my horizons to be able to contain it is just too much say it's nothing it's I I in Islam I'll America macaca is the first trickle of consciousness always Hakim is the first trickle of consciousness is called hakama what we would call the insight the inspiration the aha moment the Epiphany withered the Epiphany come from I don't know it came from somewhere we say I don't know why we say I don't know right we say I don't know you know when people start saying I don't know of course they know but it's easy to say I don't know that PIFAN ii comes from a place where we say I don't know because I have no Isis for it and I don't want to go there it's not easy to go there that's Mazel so when we say Mazel it's that space of the self that is beyond the conscious self and that trickles down it creates a Mazel it's Mazal down into the conscious into the conscious self now if you were to ask for an academic or a psychologist who knows his stuff and you would say who introduced this idea that most experiences at least many experiences of men are subconscious and yet the little bit of our subconscious self trickles down to the consciousness that which we could contain and we can grasp all these ideas are attributed to well Freud Sigmund Freud who died in 1939 so live just a few decades ago but really you see you could see literally almost by the iciest emotion kadish and that mama SH in Psychological terms but almost word-for-word you just saw here in this minor almost word-for-word literally that the main self is higher than being experienced all her saga comes from the nefesh that comes into the Maya most of the net which is out of the Maya so there's no hisagi there's no way of grasping it of experiencing it and yet it has a major impact and much of man's fears and this comes from that because we cannot wrap our brains around the Neo was the meal the meal was a prophet and his entire self was expansive so therefore what what for one person would be sizeThe that's the key sovath could sometimes be relative meaning what for one person would be service for the other person mamala which is how the ballot anya explains the concept of a muna versus india in Judaism there's two concepts right this v Edyta hi i'm is knowing god and then there's belief in muna and it's complicated to understand what's the role of each we discussed this in the moon if this knowledge they don't need a moon what is that Mona Mona is a very hard thing to understand because what someone is I'm gonna based on rational information was it based on irrational information if it's irrational then who needs it then it's not a good thing in other words it could be corrupted because then what's then what distinguishes between a believer and a cult member which is an important question are you a member of a cult am i a member of a cult are we members of cults so just asking that question is a good sign because usually cult members don't like asking that question so that itself is this fine it gives us a little hope but the truth is in other words if something makes sense you don't have to believe it and if it doesn't make sense so why are you believing it because your grandmother said so this is a question my service is through what's the role of a muna what's the role of indie and there is chinam already argued about it what's better what's superior what's greater and so forth but there is a place in the Kuti turn invest Conor with the ballot Tania says that a moon a needy are all relative in other words what for one person is a munis for another person you dear and what for one person is ideas for another person and when and that's how he explains the concept of a moon Lawson love it it's interesting somebody wants ask the brisker of revolve Allah Briscoe if there's going to be a muna when Messiah comes because Emunah is based on belief but if you could see van Nicola quite a sham you know Nina Mona so the brisker of gave what would I guess could be defined as a classic brisker response he said a Mona is a mitzvah and mitzvos will never be nullified and wouldnít is a mitzvah there's a mitzvah to have a mona and mitzvahs are not obliterated or Machir comes so it's a good brisk of art in other words and one is a mitzvah there's a min of a Mona but he didn't explain the mechanism the vorticity SHM a convert we can get it it's a mitzvah and the myths of exists doesn't go away but what's the Met fine it's a Mittal what's the Mitzvah the mitzvahs it's a mitzvah to see that the wall is blue if it's obvious so the ballot and explains that well I said Lobby the idea will be much higher so the Emunah will also be relegated to a space which is completely transcendent so a Mona never compete the idea just like so doesn't compete with my mallet there are two streams of Judaism that never compete with each other and therefore should never be threatened by each other faith real faith is never threatened by real intelligence if it is you have to be cautious you have to be cautious because it's a slippery road real and munna is not competing with you d it's not afraid of it it doesn't bash it doesn't it doesn't feel that using the intellect as a curse it doesn't feel that the intellect is the worst enemy of man on the contrary so what is it then it's relating to that which sheedia must acknowledge its limitation so that's an example here instead so for what one person could be saving this for another person I'm a male and conversely so the topic says in this parenthesis the hash to aaseesh appear the premise cyber vehicle his gala sloppiness Mazel so now we can understand if the Mazel as alien so serveth can be expressed to the Mazel now what does he mean here he doesn't mean of course is a concept of cyber that doesn't get expressed in Mazel because he said lace marks trumpets viseme common even not sillas can't grasp it so he's not suddenly reinventing the wheel and saying Oh on the level of Mazel everybody experiences save them but in other words the size of could be relative what do I mean it could be relative if you were to put in to one person the consciousness of another person they would be obliterated just like if you'll take the brain of a human being right and put it into another creature it might have litter in him because every energy has to be filtered according to the product you want to create with this energy and if you create a super dose it is overdose on many levels the voltage is too high so therefore there's something that Mazel can experience that nothing else can experience am i conscious of can't and the meal could experience it in his conscious self and therefore he was involved but of course there's a side of that not it's clear of course of course of course that's the that's the key that's the point yeah well you're using the word Mazel I'll be able to open himself up to the immediate experience of it not just to the not just to the residue not just to the impact of it they will not be able to experience it they have to open their Caitlin just studying it's an internalization process I'd study fact it's not about stunning facts it's an internalization process right now there's there's a famous Marshall there's a famous Marshall that brings brings this out very well namely it's a muscle that was actually used by a man named Heisenberg he they say that he used it to again with Einstein in a correspondence or conversation with Professor Albert Einstein the 1930s there were Jews Heisenberg and Einstein great physicists and there was a big argument then about something called quantum mechanics Einstein was a very big opponent of the concept he said God doesn't play dice with the universe I don't want to get into the details of the argument today today Eisenberg's worldview has been embraced I think quite by every eye by most yes all the elements of quantum mechanics modern physics so the absurdities basic absurdities of subatomic particles so they say that that hyzer I heard this my brother wants that heisenberg gave a marshall tines time in order to explain to him how flawed his view is which turns out heisenberg was right today I think cool Alma my dude he was right at least in some instances and the muscle was a very profound marshal simple but profound he said you remind me of a fisherman who decided to ascertain how many fish and what types of fish are in the Pacific he builds this huge hypothetical net puts it in the ocean leaves it there I don't know for months and it lifts up the net then he comes up to with a declaration to the world that there are no fish smaller than nine inches he becomes the laughingstock of everyone in everybody because in your own dining room and living room you have a fish tank right with fish that are far smaller than nine inches they're called goldfish and many other fish and the scientist this fisherman maintained that he was right he was absolutely right that he wasn't lying I simply said there was only one problem the holes in the net were 9 inches long because the holes in the net were 9 inches long there were really no fish smaller than 9 inches in the net meaning the instruments we use to determine reality will always determine the nature of reality that we determine as a result of those instruments but very few of us will ever go and challenge the instruments that we initially employ to determine reality so each of us has a net and we walk around with that net in our entire life and the fact that my net has 9 an h net is made up of nine inches holes of nine inches that I don't challenge that's my net that's my instrument to define reality for example when you meet people who do you define as normally define as crazy I have a net right you fit in you don't fit in I'll never go back and say you know maybe my holes are 9 inches maybe I can't detect certain realities that's an obvious now I walk around I see that there's no fits more than 9 inches I'm convinced I'm I'm right then you know what I am right based on the instruments I'm using I'm entre percent right I'm arguing with you but I'm not really arguing with you because most arguments between people are not arguments they're just using different instruments - the term in reality that defect show is about most arguments not all arguments were most arguments it's very seldom that you have a genuine argument in the world everyone is just using their own nets so the question is can one really challenge those Nets can you go back to the drawing board and so you know maybe I'm using the wrong net but you will see most of our convictions conceptions especially perceptions about others what about realities they are guided directly and explicitly by my net and we all have that net what creates your net for you aah-ha-ha that you'll ask your therapist what creates this nature and is nurture right there's there's all all factors of life whatever creates you creates your net how do I walk around judging the world and that's a very necessary assistance oh my net is my net size of kalam and doesn't fit into that net it doesn't exist doesn't exist how does it exist my thought can remind my mind mash of it doesn't grasp it my much rubber doesn't grasp it I don't acknowledge it that means doesn't fill me of course it fills me but I don't know that it fills me because my eye has a net and that net doesn't grasp infinity and because there's a grasp infinity so it dismisses it as non-existent where my molecule almond suits the holes of mine and it's the fish that's large enough or in this case it's small enough to be compressed to be compressed in my identity so at least I have some some some sensitivity to it so therefore it's really about the ability for a person to be able to challenge the very paradigms the very nets that we use to catch to catch our fish when that's a knock let's face it it's an uncomfortable question for people are the nets may be completely off completely that's essentially what bittle really means mental really means acknowledging the possibility for six hours in the possibility that the holes of my net cannot relate to certain of fish and therefore they don't exist in my life acknowledging that possibility once I acknowledge that possibility I can then open myself up to a different possibility that is that is essentially what you Melanie means humility is that power to be able to look up and acknowledge that if I cannot acknowledge that then then I cannot open myself up to it now here is the real question many people argue I'll say this bluntly that religion religion is the most uptight net in the world because you are educated with a certain net and you judge everybody based on that so everybody gets a checklist you know either you make it or you don't make it because we have holes that yeah you're koi free your mind man yeah because you're not you from your fry your modern your your your her ad you black you're white you from the MIT your in your ad your been 13 our maintainer and sometimes you have conversations with people and they mean well but those nets are complete idolatry completely idolatry I don't mean idolatry in the classical sense of worshipping pagan maybe I do but it's in other words it's completely it's complete and back true nation it has absolutely the first definition we know about God is that there's no definition so that's the humility humility simply doesn't mean a person doesn't have a position doesn't mean there's no right and wrong that's not about moral relativism it's not about you know being so open-minded that your brains fall out that's the other extreme that ended in the you see this is really very potent this is what's been call today post modernity meaning there's a level of sophistication where everything gets destroyed because these conversations can destroy everything because basically you dismiss everybody's view as just coming from their net so there's ultimately no truth in the world which is very common today in university your own oh man your own and then your own you are completely your own your own then you wind up destroying your own your own net of course of course using it becomes endless and then most and therefore in university life the most convenient conclusion for all of this is never speak about truth to speak about opinions because all opinions all truths are just opinions he's a terrorist no you think so he's a freedom fighter from his perspective from his you have your net of course your net is your net I remember as once being the brand I students so the guy couldn't tell me that Hitler's behavior was evil I said but he killed six million Jews he's like I don't like what he did but you know we do kill mice why mice maybe mice are also as valuable as as Jews like why don't you call yourself evil for having a mousetrap in your house you intentionally kill mice instead now here is a 19 year old good-looking handsome intelligent athletic good probably kind respectful tolerant students but and a Jew and a Jew and a Jew a Jew so this is very common today it's extremely common today it's like the issue with Isis about gun control this has to do with gun control like Nazi Germany like you tell me the problem of the Holocaust was that you could buy guns in Germany that was the problem with the Holocaust you understand you're dealing with a situation where there's no barometer of truth so that's the danger that's the value of old-style religion but it's where liberal open-mindedness Moxon's because it's stuck in in such paradigms that are completely very very primitive you know right and wrong are based on very primitive conventions in many ways I would say that these texts here Lakota toga have a very revolutionary combination in many ways they speak a language that's very postmodern and descent of understanding how everything can be broken down to a point we're really all the nets that we take so seriously are just that and yet what it does is it opens us up to a definition of truth that is beyond definition in other words it opens us up to a view of Tyler that is not built on narrowness but it's built on the ultimate expansiveness and that's I think a very valuable contribution in our days because you'll find two extremes you have those who are etched in modern thinking and everything gets broken down there's nothing that's sacred anymore because everything is just perspective you know it's your mother's perspective your grandmother's perspective including the value of getting married including the value of having children everything it's all everybody's just using nets and stop being a bigot stop composing your lifestyle and me and there is value to that thought because we are all using nets it's true and then there's the other extreme you know where we just have our net and you fit in it you don't fit in you know you eat them for cholent if you don't fit in so again if you're out your Astro sized socially or at the moment and we're finding the revolt against us today so I just I'm pointing out that I think this is a very subtle subtle very valuable ideas here about how we have to break down the net as a preparation not to break down all boundaries but actually to experience truth that is not defined by the limits of our ego and even our intellectual imagination you get what I'm saying okay because I don't what did I answer to that student what am I supposed answer what am I supposed to ask I'll tell you what happened when I was eating chicken and I would later he turned to me says you eat chicken I'm like yeah why not so they see a cliff it to my unconsciousness that's pretty evil I'm like why he says do you know what they do to the chick he goes into the whole thing so I'm like you know you may be right you may be right that eating chicken is a really really bad thing and I have had my many thoughts about this I don't take it lightly that we meat the meat chicken I don't think it's such a simple thing I get it other Mauritian was not supposed to eat meat and chicken fine this is what I find so interesting is that Hitler Hitler's behavior first a thing I didn't say that Hitler is behaving you can't call evil eating can you could whole evil explain that to me I told them I'm gonna give you now free analysis of yourself okay you know that there's good and evil you know it in your depth of your heart okay the generation that stopped calling Hitler evil because it's not sophisticated because everything is relative that generation also needs to know that it's good and evil so you're the generation that started to call eating chicken evil because everybody knows there's good and evil when you stop calling that evil you start calling other things evil you understand so that's it that's what I told them I said you should realize because you know there's good and evil it's just you replaced it instead of looking at murderers who will murder millions of people without without blinking an eye you'll call that evil and try to make the world a better and safer place you will misdirect your evil so badly and your definitions will become so warped and you will destroy the world and I don't know if he understood what I said he didn't understand what I said but that's what I told in the New York Times he gave me on Sunday there was a whole article somebody is explaining if Trump is like Hitler or not like Hitler now Trump could be whoever he is it's completely irrelevant whatever you want to call him but I found the shackle of Italia very very repulsive very repulsive here's a man who caused the death of the no 10 besides Jews 10 or 20 million people the most bear berrak sadistic way in the history of humanity right here is a man who once the bad must loves okay let's say it's evil build a wall okay let's say it's evil outlawed punished factors give abortion let's say it's evil but understand that they're putting it on the same face that shows that you're dealing with a breakdown of common sense which for them is not a big enough common sense it's an expansive consciousness it's an open-minded consciousness where everybody that fits into the term bigotry and intolerance goes into one group so that's Bibi Netanyahu Hitler and shrimp all together in one group you know what I mean that's a very tragic symptom of post modernity which comes from from from from progress but the progress creates an absolute or even an absolute Corbin you type this what I'm saying it's not so complicated but it's very complicated when you're in that world so this world is a protected world here at forshay you know but out there kids will go to campuses and universities this is the this is conventional conversation this is not this is conventional conversation and then you have I once gave a lecture on paste something and I said that whatever your position about going to the army is whether you believe that your Shiva boy should go to the army or you believe that your Shiva boys protect that you're all through sitting and learning and if you be exempt from the army whatever your position is every is Shiva buckle when he sees a soldier should say thank you and the reason is because then every muster schmoozed everybody talks that car is a toy of a car some type of it but they've done mean if somebody gives you a tissue box you say thank you it means if somebody is on the front lines and they're dying because so you should be able to live and learn you go over to a soldier and you say thank you so much for doing what you that's what I said I think that's a very normal rational Jewish Tyrel refined thing to say I think the tough Italian would have said that I think nd whatever I think it's normal are you Shiva boss a few guys I'm not gonna say which even access to all but good yeshiva a nice achieve I know they achieve a well they start screaming they start screaming that these soldiers it's hard for me to say the Bacchus is worse than the Arabs when they come to our neighborhoods they hate that they show us is worse than they hate the Arabs so this is a buck I said you know I don't blame you for speaking such a nonsense because you're indoctrinated it's not even your fault you're brainwashed I only bless you that enough you shouldn't get law if you have to get lost in Israel don't get lost in a neighborhood of Arabs get awards in the neighborhood of Israeli soldiers that's my blessing to you you'll see you'll see you'll get lost in neighborhood members I hope you'll never see who hates you more I said I hope you'll never see it but where does this come from how does some family speak like this it's all part of the net to Zion the second column right I'll hear it down the kazoo you see to Zion column to page 31 one two three four five six six lines from the top while you read a little valued alakazoo Sheila my Lamaze saga by Maya Sicily grab the penis Muslim rule Amane hokhmah in Europe on this type of or that is basically transcendental meaning it's beyond what do we mean by transcendental it's beyond that which can be wrapped a rat can it can be grasped by the Maya by the mind of one's intellect there are those experiences that you could wrap your brain around literally your mats called hosaka the word house saga lajas aghh actually doesn't mean comprehension it means to be massive something means to reach something like we say la Hasek right we have a partial case of a VC Guha call hot vara may Allah they should reach you they should reach you so actually lajas it means that which is in your reach it's in your huggable we use it for something we understand because on that we understand we reach it we have the holes in our net that can take it that can detect it that in comprehended that which Islam Allah massacre means is beyond reach because I don't get it I cannot wrap my brain around it it it slips through my holes because I don't have the parameters for it so he says only the cleanest Muslim so um blue on this the cause I'll tell us a main hokhmah ain here if there's no Karma there's no year we learned before Styria cuz I'll say you main Hockman you remain here a hakama so what do you begin with you say if there's no Karma there's no year if there's no year there's no karma but I kind of caught without Europe so what do you begin with so he says this year it earlier you say it's not gonna be without God first it has to be hakama and then there could be here commercial cost of the PASOK says in verse Canon by its Avinash am lasses a scholar who Camilla lira Sasha Hashem told us to do all these hook into here in other words that hook him bring to year it's not that the year is the cause of the hook him if you have your assertion you do what he wants it's deeper than that the hukum bring loot to lehre soshim in other words the hakama cetera and the observance of toyota brings to year shall do is give aways have a penis muscle I actually love mmm apartment why they a circuit IRA because that Eve a person should even be able to allow his muzzle which is the sole that's beyond his body the soul that is super sensory to be able to experience what the Mazel can experience to the point that it's a trickle down he should experience or this happens through the a circuit or through the involvement in turn what's the connection the riser may Hoffman Africa's Tiger desire has an expression the trader comes from Karma what's a tire comes from Karma Toyota is routed a vehicle in Hashem chochmah Hashem is wisdom waha via the hakama the posix says initially Aschenbach achma yo Sedaris hashem founded the earth with hokhmah so he uses this as a just as a catalyst explain that Hashem is in Kakuma in other words sure Erik earlier in Southborough who showed her who miss gullible hakama the presence of the ain't safe dwells and is revealed in hoffman why in hokhmah Kaufman's two words kaya MA Karma's Huff yes MA kaya MA this also comes from Sawyer tycoon Azaria it's the choir of MA what does mommy manage what like moisture Boehner says in part especially but not pneumo krisily no love me and now what are we what you say MA kamau on me right Russia now I'm a mommy is what so what's Cosmo Cosmo is the Koya of MA the kayak of what now what does that mean the cleric of what he says penis bitl it's basically the career of Bittle that's what Myers the National Mah what are we I don't have a definition for it if all I could say is what the question what represents a state of humility and therefore Shayne early and save Barolo showroom is gala Alabama a bottle now here is the cloud there will never be a revelation of the inn energy of God only in that which is bottle only in a place of complete nullification will the be a manifestation of the divine wherever there is arrogance and egotism there will never be a guilty of innate Southborough the high knew what is the ultimate place this is Tanya she is Baraka mamas Toyota is literally his Hockman voova hawk Messiah hunt this is a ram bombs expression he and his car from our one key who our mother who I idea he is the knowledge he is the knower and he is the known and therefore in Toyota we say a ricer comes from Toyota and javea is in Hofmann because the ain't safe dwells in karma if the Eco dealers of a mile of immaculate Irish administration at casa milà the primary gilli of this is in the source of Toyota because Toyota exists on so many different levels the source of a which is car from a law which is basically the highest level a sham is karma to tied it down here sometimes a person may not experience the ain't safe in it even though it's also the same Toyota but in the source that is the traitor he the pinnace Mazal this is in the state of mazel Shimizu la mancha hirschbaum McGee Luiza we splashed a cetera shelf on a normal herbaceous B'gosh mix just like we spoke in the person the Mosel of the neshamah trickles down to the neshamah in the Gulf and that creates the aim and the same is with Toyota the source of Terror is hotmail ah over there ain't safe dwells and is revealed in the most manifested way that's thoughtless being the Mosel of title but the Turner that we learn the tailor that we grasp is the Toyota the way comes down in Isla Marcia in a concrete world we learnt shocked but nonetheless the source of Toyota is Mazal it trickles down to our spa to the tire that we have that is mogul bashes pegasion is just like the eczema neshama is Mazal the source of tire is also called Mazal because from the source of Toyota there's a flow of the earlier Shemin the Toyota that we have here and that's why this Toyota bites of a new Martian license is called Kokomo illa li year si sham this level of year of mas Maya huzi comes through tire because the tire is linked it's toilet just like why a person is the subconscious and the conscious is the superconscious in the contrary Oh says the consciousness Turner and the superconscious of Tyler the title that we don't access directly most of us but but our toilet is a trickle of that toilet it's a reflection of that Tyler so when that something happens in that point is something also is affected an hour Tyler that we learn and it could create this level of years yeah shot shot after anything yeah now what's this idea that Hakim is quiet MA and toilet is basically Hockman so here we have to understand a little bit about hokhmah which is a frequent term that's used McClellan entire semester especially in by the volatile citizen about about Latonya or all syphilis is this really but here it's very elaborate this concept what is this concept of hokhmah desire just as KF MA it's a chaos of what what what do we mean the kind of what generally in the cognitive faculties of a person Bala Tonya explains based on safety it's Syria based on many cifra Kabbalah there's Hoffman bean and das those are the first three faculties of the human soul which are conscious and they're called cognitive then you have the seven meters which are more emotional acid and Gura Taveras nets a hide you said Malthus but the first three with the famous acronym of chabad caca mabini das basically represent the first three cognitive faculties there's something beyond Kaufman like we learned yesterday there's the I envy on Holcomb of the Mosel that's known as Kessler but that's already super conscious in terms of cognition what a person is aware of in the soul the first experience is hokhmah then is veena then is das what's the difference between cost Mabini das to translate hakama is conception Venus comprehension das is application and the three are very different experiences different modalities really of cognition one is like conception literally they the conception of a seed with a woman the mother the feminine conceives a seat all you have at that moment is a microscopic seed that will hopefully flesh out into a full-fledged fetus but that takes nine months after that there is the development it has to be conceived it has to it has to become as to develop together with the egg and into an embryo into into something will become a child which then grows and grows and grows and then this birth veena is comprehension it's the development of the seed it's the growth of the seed it's femininity the mother is called bina emo I've was always associated with hakama like the father contributes the sperm the seed and that's basically the beginning and the end of his contribution without the mother working through quite a while with quite a lot of pain and nausea and birth them and then raising a child for 60 years till he becomes mature nothing really happens we all know that so you know some of us so that's the father's contribution is spiritually speaking is called Hotham what's this these are just these are just physical manifestations of ideas but the truth is the physical manifestations are those ideas the way they come down in a physical way what is the idea of let's talk about it cognitively say a person learns a piece of Gemara or really any book any text that's maybe difficult well it's not negate what the point is something that's not easily understandable so sometimes you get it you get it on one level sometimes you just don't get it you learn it again again again again five times not because you don't know the language you know the language it's on the language if to learn the language you know the language you know the text you know the you know you're familiar with the with the vocabulary that's not the issue the issue is the idea is not going in we all have this oh you have a tremendous dilemma in life and you have no way of solving it a question a dilemma a problem a struggle I'm talking here intellectually I'm not talking hearing xiety that's a separate issue that's midlist we're talking here on a level of awareness the person is learning and they just don't get it they're trying they're trying they're harder than they're dying as we would say they're toiling but they don't get it and you read it again you read it again you read it again when I'm talking about a person who give them he still don't have it and then you're walking in the street and boom there's a flash we call it the light bulb right goes off the haha moment did that Tiffany it's like an inspirational insight he may be sitting on a couch you may be lying in bed you may be taking a walk you may be eating something usually you don't even realize that you were thinking about that topic it's like almost you're walking in the street and you're unconsciously engulfed by that dilemma by that question you're like daydreaming about it and then from nowhere pop is pop said in fact the ballot anya compares it to a lightining he calls it a Baraka maverick if you ever in the wilderness in the Catskills and a dark summer night without any light like some streets in Muncie we're really without any lights not like city with his lights everywhere and it's pouring rain and it's pitch dark and then a lightening goes off and suddenly if I hear it says Enzo if I hear the hakama there's a light whether the light comes from we don't know we do know but we don't know in other words we know where it comes from but we can't identify the source it comes from a place called Chi aha Maskull plays called Castle unconscious on the unconscious level the person knows the answer but that answer was too deep for the conscious brain to access Kozma is that moment the flash the flash of inspiration the flash of insight the lightning that goes off in your brain and suddenly you have this moment where you say I got it so somebody says you got it tell it to me I can't say write it down I can't write it down I don't know what I got and how I got but I know I got it you know that feeling anybody who was involved in cycle and learning new things if you're just reading the sports section this doesn't happen because it's just this score that score it's not you're not gonna have new ideas that you have to tackle with all due respect to the world of sports but if if somebody is challenging themselves with new texts that are difficult they're just reading cereal boxes you know you're not gonna have this experience but if somebody's challenging themselves with new texts that that define them that that challenge and they're not accustomed to they're learning new stuff new ideas new concepts new gamora's new safar whatever it is new hokhmah this process is inevitable then is stage two what stage two stage two is you had an insight take it flesh it out write it down think about it you basically take them a sperm you take the seeds and you're developing it you're revealing what it's all in the seed but now you have to take that seed and allow it to grow and blossom and it flushes out there's a beginning there's a middle isn't and there's a structure there's an idea there's a question as an answer disapproval so it always starts with that Naqada a seminal seminal point the russian seminal is from like a semen on the CUDA and then the Nakota becomes veena which is expansiveness let's take this a step deeper now this is really where the richness of the Ballantine is mush of it comes into play why does it work this way that's how it happens why does it work this way why it works this way is very profound whenever two things have a relationship with each other there's always a question who's dominant always a question or as we say in English who wears the pants in the house because whenever you have two different things converging one has to yield right if I'm going driving into the highway they say yield why if not they're gonna have a head and head collision if two people are working together closely two people enter into our relationship who is the dominant one and who was the subservient one you say a AT&T salesman came to a house one night and he rings the bell and the woman comes to the house I'm the husband the man comes to the house and the guy says you know I'm looking for the master of this home I have this great new sale but I need to speak to the master of the home who was the master of the home so the guy says you know you came exactly at the right moment wait five minutes because that exact question is being decided in the kitchen right now so so everybody understands in any normal healthy relationship is called compromises what do we mean compromises I compromise to you you compromise to me sometimes I have in my way sometimes you have a dear way sometimes we learn to agree sometimes I give up a little bit you give up a little bit that's all works with partners in a business you know you you you try to divide responsibilities you have your things I have my thing so we don't clash and things that we don't clash you work it out it's called civil conversations compromises Bashara so why do you have to do this the answer is but I'm not living alone if I'm living alone in an island I don't have to compromise when I'm with you in a relationship is different personalities there's always a clash of personalities a clash of perspectives clash of emotions a clash of interests a clash of agendas it's said I don't have to elaborate so everyone else to understand I give you give etcetera but whenever two things meet the question is who's going to overwhelm the other who is going to be the domineering force who's going to be the subservient what or both will be domineering and both will be subservient you know the t-shirt that reads I'm very easy to get along with once you learn to worship me because basically you know if you learn to worship me I'm very easy to get along with because there's no you this is just I it's wonderful the problem is it is an eye and there's a you who wins is it I or is it you or is it one day I one day you one hour I wonder how are you set up what is understanding understanding as a relationship a relationship between my mind and an idea or to use terminology of the Rambam your idea and your doer mas skill and Musco my skill is me my mind musculus idea I'm learning the Rebecca Vega it is Rebecca very gay and there's me and I'm trying to build a relationship with Rebecca Vegas finish over the toaster so with there a sheet with a piece of Gamora or whatever I'm learning whatever text I'm learning will have look at me mathematics there is my mind and then there is the text the idea the wisdom the information the data and we're trying to get married what do I mean get married you're trying to build a relationship I want this to become part of me I want to become part of it there's the masculine is the Musco here's the question who wins who is the dominating force in understanding is it the mind that ultimately captures the idea and dominates the relationship or is it the idea that dominates the relationship the answer is there's two stages there's the stage of karma there's a stage of binner in the stage of karma the idea defines the relationship in the state of Vina the human mind defines the relationship what does this mean why is it that I learned the Gemara ten times and I don't get it and suddenly I got it what happened I went for brain surgery what happened to use Hasidic terminology what happened was as follows a 7 ounce cup cannot contain a hundred ounces of water try pouring 100 ounces of water it will go all over the place besides in the cup now there is a cup and there's a cup there's a 7 ounce cup and there's a 7 ounce cup when I mean this cup I don't mean literally 7 ounces but every brain has we would call the brain power the brain capacity it's also a 7 ounce cup I don't mean against 7 ounce cup but every brain has its Koya its parameters you have your brain I of mine but now what's in a brain is beyond what we will imagine and certainly what we're gonna be discussing today what's in the human brain today it's cutting edge research what a human brain is well what a brain is made up of then the floor use of a brain are beyond what anybody could even mine staggering in what we nevermind what we don't know nevermind what we don't know we don't know but that's how that shove it is a brain is a Kaylie it's a tremendous Kaylie and it's a Kaylie that's suitable to be able to conceive ideas but it has its limitations my cup has limitations this text is beyond me it's seven ounces and this text is a hundred ounces it's not going in my brain has walls the walls say I'm sorry I don't get you I try again I try again I try to get mr. 9 well did he teach you say huh first up the cup what's first up the cup me wash top to cup me literally means the cup is first stop but it's plugged you can't put anything in what can you put anything in because it's plucked so I know that expression may not be the most nurturing and confident building one but the idea is it's a plugged head clay ray can master clay Malini moccasin just like somebody who's addicted to video games for six hours a day start talking to them ideas they go crazy that's why one of the hardest things today and your Shiva says it before giving serum to people right this between texting and this people are not used to the concept of actually engaging listening tuning in it's almost a non-existent art everything is powerpoints visualizations videos every 12 seconds you need something to distract people because the attention span is basically 12 and a half seconds ah three seconds three and a half seconds three and a half seconds okay okay I stand corrected I was overestimating okay that's that it could so a mailer it's not going in what has to happen for me to grasp an idea that transcends me that eludes me what has to happen is my walls have to be shattered the cup has to expand its horizons that is the definition of bitter I'm gonna ask you now a question look at any moment you had an epiphany reflect at the moments preceding the and you will see that we're in a state where your mind was completely engaged in trying to figure out the idea usually by daydreaming about it to the extent that you weren't even conscious that you were trying to figure it out because if you were conscious that you were trying to figure it out you're not trying to figure out what you're thinking that you've tried to figure it out usually hakama happens in a moment when you are completely dedicated to finding the truth of the idea and then what that does is it creates an intellectual humility that breaks down the intellectual ego of the human mind and then allows for something beyond me to enter into my intellectual space and that is why I could never force fuck'em I can never say I'm gonna sit down and I'm gonna get it whenever you try to do that it usually never happens why because as long as you're present and you're gonna get it you will never get it for hakama to happen it has to get to you you can't get it as long as there is a you you won't get it because the you is the problem and since the you is the problem you will never get it or as Einstein said never will the solution to a problem come if we do not change the paradigms which created the problem in other words you have to completely think differently in order to be able to find out that which will allow you to leave the problem so that's why if I'm trying to prepare for it it's not gonna happen when does hokhmah usually happen by surprise spontaneously but if you look back you will see you were sitting on the couch and for the last six minutes or ten minutes or thirty minutes if you were daydreaming about this question you didn't even realize you were thinking about in other words you were so submerged in the idea that you didn't even realize that you're so submerged in the idea which means there was no self-consciousness whatsoever you know what else happens you're frustrated with yourself and you're annoyed with your limitation you like I I am frustrated that I can't get it you know what that does is it shatters the ego of your intellect you are completely focused on getting it what happens is that as bittle bitl means that can knowledge meant that transcends my present comprehension the frustration with my present comprehension the need the feeling that I want to look up and I want to get it that is Korea ma the Korea to say what I don't know what tell me I don't get this I am I am clueless that recognition and the frustration that comes with it that is the ability that allows you to break down the walls of your intellectual ego and open yourself up to something beyond yourself and that is always when the insight will come in you can't force it but it will always come in after there has been complete dedication of the mind to the idea seeking only the idea and nothing else and realizing the humility and limitations of my wisdom and that's when it fire comes in you know why it comes in then because my walls have been removed and the Kayle has been broadened and the cup has expanded the cup has expanded and allows something beyond it to come in but because it required that the Bittle of my Kayle therefore I can't explain that I can't write it I can't share it because I am not present in a moment of hokhmah you are not present it's like almost a light that shines in and you're not there so if somebody says tell me what happened I don't know what happened I just know that something happened right then you cannot articulate it you know what because you did not get it it got you then comes bina what is veena veena is you reassert your intellectual identity and you assimilate to the insight into your intellectual faculties and then you can write it communicated articulate you will see an interesting thing people will always crave to re-experience the moment of the Epiphany the moment of the insight the reason is because there was a clarity then that you will never be able to reclaim unless you wrote it down right then it's usually six seven words you will never be able to reclaim it even though you wrote a paper on it and you explained it and you gave us year on it that single moment of inspiration there was a clarity that you will never be able to reclaim because when the lightining comes there is a light that is awesome after that you light a match based on that light the match may sustain you longer because you light a candle but I'll never have that intensity hakama will have a clarity that bina will never have you know why because in Kozma the relationship was defined by the idea not by you and then B na the relationship is defined by you not by the idea so when hokhmah you are surrendering to the idea and bina the idea surrenders to you one's the idea surrenders to you it never has that same quality and pristine clarity like there isn't hokhmah in fact in Zoya it says that Hakim is oil and moisture is bina Venus high shelf why is beneficial because bina is already not the idea in its purity it's the idea the way it was integrated into your details into your faculties now it's beautiful to operate on a level of hakama always the problem is you can't activate a level of cosmic ooze there's no you to operate chakra is a space of bitl Huffman's a space of uh of nullification come is a space where I am NOT present and that's why I can grasp things that transcend my intellectual faculties because there's no i obstructing the flow but I cannot I cannot stay in that space so bina I reassert myself but I now take the information that I got as a result of the Epiphany and I assimilate it into my intellectual identity so I can talk about it I can prove it I can explain it but it will never have that same pure pristine estat hot mass although it has its own Milas the Milos's it's developed it's integrated its long-standing hokhmah will never last for more than a few seconds you know why because it's a transcendental experience it's not part of your Kaylee it's it's it's a sublime experience another customer will never be more than a few words ever because it defies Isis it defies containers it never comes with operation elaboration is always based on restricted restricted energy the more Isis the less owed the more or less Isis it's like the deeper and emotion is intense the less words you'll have for it ask somebody who just experienced a crazy emotion they can't talk about it it takes them years to talk about it they cry they sing they dance they jump they holler why can't they talk cuz oysters are containers Rahman never comes in a lot of Isis will come six seven eight words that's it very rarely will it come or Edison once said that all invention is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration Karma's inspiration bina is perspiration hokhmah is an event bina is a process hokhmah it has you bina you have it in Kakuma the I become subservient to the truth of the idea and bina the truth of the idea become subservient to you that's why karma is kaya Amma it's the kayak to say what that's a very deep color the ability really say what just what I know nothing tell me that openness that yearning that pining and that complete singular dedication without any distractions to discover truth that's what allows truth to enter into your airspace without that nothing is coming into my airspace I'm too blocked there's an expression in old swaram call gay sheikha now gay in Hebrew is not gay in English even gay in English is not gay in English you know gay was a nice as a nice English word it means happy right gaily yeah an old literature it's been hijacked but I'm not going there now but gay in in in Russian coitus is Gimbel you Dallas it means from the word divert so there's an expression called gay gay you'll gain you Allison called a Shia what's besides why is an arrogant person a fool we all know arrogant maybe very very smart in fact their wisdom breeds their arrogance but it's not true but it's not a prediction it's not a neva it's not a religious statement that's a fact if you're arrogant you're a shade to the etson you have no choice because the prerequisite for true wisdom is humility real arrogant people are also very stupid people even though they may be brilliant but they're still stupid bad similar because arrogance is the greatest obstruction to true learning they will remain completely stuck in whatever they get but there's no evolving there's absolutely no evolving because they're stuck in their confined reality the definition of learning is humility it's not only a prerequisite as as gula that is gula it's the definition because karma is karma karma is bitl that is karma when the ear space opens up something higher than it can come in as long as the cup insists on having these walls fine but you're gonna get your seven ounces you can't get anything else so you'll expect to that and anything else doesn't exist or is crazy because you have back to the net you have the holes in your net and that's it you won't shrink them and you won't expand them this is reality if it fits into this it's reality doesn't fit into this it's not reality I don't go there now let's face it most of us will not even go there because who wants to experience a clash you don't need something banging against the walls the walls but those who aren't sensitive to these things you can almost feel sometimes ideas banging against the wall and they can go in become a stuff like you learning and if it sits near me but I can't go in I don't get it I don't get it so she's Shiva once I knew his name was looking good he was a big comic awesome so there was a boxer came over to him once and Miss Madras and the acid shot entices she explained the town he loved me Vince it says it again love me again three times in the moment so the boy starts crying so there's a Shiva Gozo take some and give us a master kiss shavon amazing now I understand now I understand so sometimes you have an emotional an emotional block but a person could feel the information cannot settle now I could say the words of the sagacious that I I'm not tough isn't so this two things have to happen first of all you have to realize you're not toughest things I used to I never thought that if something has to be spoken about but I realized it's a very important idea people today don't realize they don't grasp things you'll ask something somebody will be sitting at a shear let's saying is she that's what he understood of course it's almost a godless today for somebody to say I didn't understand a word but it's very important how many Boston me thinking of shear did he achieve this understand this year she's about a Shaka sorry or if I am a British small of the dish out there not Rebecca Vega or whatever it is a cos but the kid can't mean a Mishnah can't read Commissioner ah she's they tell me understood this year but I can't say I don't understand how do you say that it's a shocking some sugar so sometimes people sit in an environment for 40 50 60 years they'll never say they don't understand they think they understand I maybe they understand love but they really don't get it in other words the prerequisite of all understanding is I don't understand anything I don't think anything for granted I start from scratch tell me I don't know anything why what when the stupid questions are always the best questions Klotz conscious that's number one the prerequisite to be able to say I don't understand anything but that's that doesn't mean you understand yet that's the heart honor to be able to ask to be able to get frustrated to be able to grow that's hard that's why karma is the good of it you understood cosmas something it comes and it goes if you don't hold on to it it's nothing comes from it and you need the woman to the mother so to speak to nurture it yeah so Toyota is actually hock massage knuckle is vertical so in hakama there is a unique expression of godliness because of the quality of bitl the definition of hashem is oneness it's everything in other words this is a very important idea if God is not every if God doesn't amount to everything he amounts to nothing at all in other words if it's God right if it's real God so then it's it's connected to everything it's in everything that's it's the reality of everything if it's not everything it's just where I'm comfortable when I get into a religious mood or when I get OCD or whatever it is so then it ultimately amounts it amounts to nothing it doesn't have that real significance it's just my own stick it's God created in man as a revolutionary father says that veracious teaches God is created man is created in God's image not God is created in man's image many gods are created in man's image I decide what it is and I create my gun and then I call it God then it works very well because it's my carpet and I'll fight for it but I'm really fighting for myself I'm fighting for my stick so the concept of of God is something that he defines reality on his terms not I define it on my terms and it can't be relegated oh here yeah and here not you know if it's God it's connected to everything if not it's not God it's something else so therefore a giveaway of a knife is always in a place where there's gonna be bittle where there's gonna be a presence of openness that's what it is gonna be a ghillie of ain't safe in other words the moment there is arrogance the moment is holiness the moment there is self-centeredness and mainly agendas bias then it's already not a place where Hashem could be revealed because our Shem is everything everything means everything the only thing that can block it is me so if my me blocks its so ultimately there can be a ghillie avoid inside somebody once told me that when they go to 12-step meetings recovery meetings they feel God they're always they asked why is it that they feel God there I told them because Hashem dwells with his bitl and every person sitting in that group their life has been shattered they did they destroyed their life through their addictions because of that there's a tremendous bittle in that room there's a lot of Hockman that work because when somebody didn't when somebody thinks their life is fine so they don't need the bit hokhmah only comes when you're frustrated with what you don't understand because you realize your limitations in life - when somebody shattered and destroyed his life unfortunately for whatever reason sadly and admits it I'm not talking people who are in denial people are in there now that's God is not there denial is a river in Egypt it's part of gulls but we're talking about in a place where there is real acknowledgement of mistakes and real vulnerability in other words people are naked in the sense of they strip themselves from all the nice stuff you know when we sit and talks everyone we wear masks we say nice things but imagine there was a situation and there are situations when people are completely open open about everything so then what happens there there's no ego nobody's protecting themselves when nobody's protecting themselves the defenses are down then there will always be automatic it's almost automatic it will be an Ag Ewing of it cuz ain't safe is here you don't need to bring God here God is here the cops wherever famously the store and it was a child right somebody who is got Whizzer shams anybody was saying every way they say the cuts care everyone didn't claim once out there hustling there's different versions of the story but the version I'll tell you right now is that he claimed artists acidnam want the cuts grab and he said who is God where is actually they said what do you mean Hashem is everywhere he said name name God is from a luster my right God is where he's led in where he's allowed in now he wasn't arguing with a pasta coma local or exploited the cuts could have been knew that faucet he also davon chakras and he also knew the original which is you Shayan avi Mallorca Lord scoided when he was explaining yzma local arts quite there but doesn't mean it has to do with you you may not feel it right like you learnt about cervical um you have to let him in how do you let him in that's karma karma means you let him in how do you let him in the first year sight to let him in his bitl self-effacement fine there's bit toll on those millions and billions and endless moderators of bittle but it's out I'm just bringing out a certain it couldn't this doesn't mean everything in the 12 steps is holy and it doesn't mean every new couldn't in the 12 steps is holy but it sometimes a lot holier than what happens outside of the 12 steps let's put it that way I'm bringing out one that could that that when people are completely vulnerable and they have to be vulnerable because because the gear the masks weren't working for other people the masks work for them it didn't work they lied to themselves they lied to their families they lied to their spouses they lied to their children they destroyed themselves there was a younger man who came to me from one of the very you know observant Jewish neighborhoods not far from here and tremendous tremendous suffering from tremendous addiction to very immoral behavior so [Music] there's a father a wife eleven kids it's not a newly married fellow a bottle comes from a family I mean prominent family and a lot of children a tiger and Russia Sheba's the works she told me something very very it was very moving he said that what brought him back what brought him to recovery was listen to this he was sitting in gambling in Atlantic City and it was caught it was late afternoon he was drinking and gambling and somebody came up with them and said it seemed Kippur today was in keeping it today I'm surprised that a man like you was here he says he looked at the clock it was six o'clock which is the time when you start in the illa so he was thinking to himself that if the time when you start in the illa he's sitting in Atlantic City drinking yayan whatever type of wine it was and gambling he's pretty bad and that's when he realized that he hit rock bottom the next day he went he went for help in other words he had to feel that Nilla has become completely irrelevant as a result of his addiction now when once that happens you become a vulnerable man you're not protecting anything because your mask is not working you feel your Busher and in a paradoxical way that moment becomes the best moment because that's the moment when you forced to strip away all the protective gear that allows you to be masked and camouflaged and disguised and live your life we are enabled because the lie works and even if it doesn't work we think it works and even if we don't think it's or it works we tell ourselves that we think it works you understand what I'm saying right and even if we stop telling that to ourselves other addicts tell us that it works so you're in this web that you can't get out of the new couldn't this is the explain to you come on at different levels but that's the Nakota at the moment that that you've got nothing you got nothing it's not working and therefore what happens you're broken but you know what happens you become open you become open why because the walls are not there anymore there's nothing to protect you in that openness of vulnerability when you say to call the Gemara halo I racial color for Nana Mitzi you tell Hashem Here I am here's your naked child who has nothing just a vulnerable broken self in a very profound way that becomes a moment of gilja Sheena even though you don't feel it at the moment because you're in that mode of brokenness but retro actively you will discover that that was your moment of redemption the moment of recovery that step shot in in Syria Exodus that mushiya was born on the moment of the Hortman the gomorrah says in yuma bashar Shannon Asuna from LA hey ho row crew the Marines Abaza Sugimori Numa DAF mandala they went in and they saw the crew of M intertwined flag the Gemara all the Russians are very interesting sugah Gomorrah says that the crewmen were intertwined when the Ziva between us the Jewish people was the most powerful the time of the Corbin was the worst relationship Morris is the crew of him used to look at each other when the relationship was a good they would turn away from him like a husband and wife you know you get the eye treatment you know she stops looking at you you walk so the proven were a replica of that suddenly by the Corbin the crew whom are intertwined doesn't make sense so the lord of different beryllium the market of ms rich said been a sucker brings it from the market how my didn't convert the gomorrah says in the obama's I have autumn live goodness ich liebe sure she ate salad era when a person is going on a journey the night before he has to be together with his wife cuz since he's leaving her alone and it's difficult for a wife to be without a husband may not be difficult for a husband but it's difficult for a wife that was just a joke maybe not so therefore why you bother me has to be there for his wife the night before why could he's going on a journey so the market says during the curtain base-emitter story burnished Alana was going on a very long journey by lishala Madden s I am so before that you have to be together with your wife so that was the knocker of the cruising coming together that was the intimacy during the whole birth but that's it goes a step deeper from intimacy there's conception which what was conceived the neshamah of mushiya that's why I really on Tisha but we say nothing the poisk mo brink asthma she was born at it will new wasn't some tension couldn't find a better day but that's the VAR they lift great this Easter created the conception of Google okay so it's it's it's it's nice its vadoma what does this mean practically in Psychological terms what it means is the moment of ultimate devastation when one can't escape the urban that's the moment mashiac is born even though that's a moment of grief it's not a moment of jubilation it's when gullu's begins but the awareness that Gulley's began in such a frightening fashion means that redemption was born why because the walls of denial were shattered and the moment the walls of knowledge sudden the person is open and says I got nothing oh you got nothing now God can be present why because Hashem can only be present where there's nothing blocking what's blocking blocking is anything outside of God's oneness so therefore the steerer to give lishchyna is not a varus that step be the steerer is ego the false ego because if I then it's not him and the definition of him is all the definition of a Shem is one is that swine you'll never see here the term very you will but very sorry boner shillelagh the term that's gonna used constantly which you probably noticed is ain't Southborough hope why ain't Southborough home your burner shall oil that means the master of the world God is the master of the earth but ain't safe is a step deeper ain't safe means infinity infinity means we're is infinity where is it not that's the point infinity is not no infinity means wherever there's something that's part of it the side of clipper means that you're detached from ain't safe if it's ain't safe there's no space that's the void of it lasers are quantum in a laser Sarpong Amina means there's no space devoid of it if I say I'm so so bad I cannot experience God we think when we say we're very bad that's when we experience God you tell a yeshiva Buckley you tell a girl you you're so bad they can experience I it's the other way around when I say I'm so bad what I'm saying is God is not hearing me cuz I'm so bad so that means I deny the person from experiencing a shot ain't safe means he's right now in you in in your space so whenever you're in a mode of nothingness what do we mean by nothingness nothingness in the sense that there's an empty space that you allow him to be here that's Delia Skinner where can that happen most in hokhmah where the other faculties already represent more self-assertion but karma by definition is karma bless the union of little and in a recovery room that's usually very palpable because if people are real we're not talking that people are coming in a favor usually after a few times they'll quit if they're fake because it's very intense so therefore in such situations of durability you will always feel some holiness why because where there's no ego there is God any questions same idea tomorrow in Marquez the end of my second Marcus shoe likes of a biscotti ekaadasha Ark even the Cantona mark even they come tano they cried because they said how can the facts come out of this place house or her career view mostly the motor says in Marcos used to be a lessor all goes in here he dies and now faxes are chaiwalla milk oh boy the lucky versus lakhani moussaka that which makes you cry that itself makes me laugh it's not what makes me laugh as I'm thinking about something else you know the pessimist in the optimum is the famous drunk right you take them both and you put them in a room full of horse manure so the pessimist is never crying and the optimist says they gotta be a pony here too so much so whatever there has to be a pony here you know so the boys he's looking for something else the finisher of a cave is know that which makes you cry makes me laugh not because I'm naïve because in the very same reality I see the birth I see rebirth also the very same reality is in hill cos Shabbos we have right column a calculate Orion unless you say surah manaslu Venus I mean are clearly only liable to be no carbon Carter figure demolished our house because you want to renovate if you stop demolishing a house because you're bored or you whatever destructive then you're not having Shabbos I mean that minute is the calculus Potter if you search it all - living as youkai of why you're demolishing your Michalka the answer is when you dis motion in order to renovate it's not demolishing it's renovation renovation includes two phases phase number one is demolition phase number two is construction unfortunately we get stuck and phase one with most contractors present company excluded but but so sir I'm an ass living is so it's not stealing there's a lesson here is shining high steel opinion mercury demolition is called construction in psychologically it's also true demolition the structure is sometimes the greatest prerequisite and it's part and parcel of construction why because it allows you to build something real something authentic so Taylor is hokhmah hokhmah ela will you have the ghillie of ink safe and then you have the Mosel which express itself in the Toyota down here that we have which is like oil Amasya because Toyota has all these layers that the soul has and each level of Toyota is a deeper depth in the same tighter just like we spoke about at Cilla's Bree its ear I see it it's the same reality seeing it from different perspectives that's how Toyota works but yet the highest height and the lowest rate are all one like the soul in the body and the superest country soul it's one song we don't have a hundred souls the questions are for conscious of it or not conscious so one person could be learning the same Stickle Gemara what he sees in this Gemara is what the neshamah Vasilis will see when he looks at a tree versus somebody else who will just see the externalities of it and both are true it may appear used to say the Gemara says in succoth that hello are sucking at 80 Tom made them the oldest was younger Simba Newseum the youngest was a birth in the bin Zach am role of a young innocent Minos eel that every birds that would fly over his learning would get burns so mary schapiro would say an ammeter the to buckle my learning the Gemara so one baka is like wow wow what a story of shepherd a howl of mist of the kucherov yummy Simba nosey the takers are going something to his friend is you don't get the point it's not the point the Shila that I'm thinking about is this Yona Savannah's Eli if to pay for the birth because he's learning and the bird got burned so is it called drama is it called garmi are you higher but in a sham I am ia higher but in the other Maya pot they're completely your learnt and as a result of your holiness then I've got burnt and it belongs to you you have to pay for those huh he missed the point right technically it's a Shila but he missed the point because he saw only the most external of external layers he didn't get to of it he didn't get the creaminess of it so it's not that the plumies is naughty just not conscious of it I'm just giving the dogma if you say Pete two people could read the same line one sees one thing another season the same is true every union in theater and it's layers upon layers upon layers we learnt in the put in mind me that by Dabish salacious I'll often Marshall slim others could explain every suit on three thousand levels and they were all reflections of each other a Marshall for an intial for another muscle for another Marshall in solution all the way 3,000 and really floats will now say a misprint sub a male that starts with Carmelo which is our Sam's cousin which is one with them more than any other sphere because Hakim is mental and then it trickles down into the tighter that we have B'gosh means that's the power of toyota so a Mena could that person learns turn it has it how conscious I am a bit that's a question of life how conscious are you of what you're seeing of what you're learning of what you're experiencing just like in yourself how conscious of you are how conscious are you of your internal experiences being reflected in your external emotions or sensations sometimes there's a cut off a person completely doesn't sense the flow and sometimes there is a flow and one could sense at least some elements of the flow I forgot the Eloi Cosima's lie of huzi there's some or as a result of the Mosel even though you can't experience it in your totality because it would be too too intense unlike the Neal she says right the V he may you see Tess Dalian it's a second column design the morale of the line starts began it's probably 1015 lunch from the time the line starts B'gosh Lewis the he made class Kishen Miss Karen Dumbledore there's a famous expression in Zoya that there are three knots that connect one with the other desires as you saw by rice and the rice of a butcher brutal the Jew is not a to tailor and turn is knotted to Hashem famous by the way the expression is sure all or eyes of a coach a beautiful cool of hot doesn't say inside higher it's it's a lotion of Eden the sword the closest source and Zayed is this desire class Kishen miss cash Randhawa doc it's interesting to know that expression we don't have InDesign although he one quotes it to desire but this is something very similar just three knots the Jew is knotted to Taylor and Toyota's not at a sham so as a result of that they're knotted together the Islamic regime kryolan very nice in Missouri DARPA sexual urge Bonet is strong in Zion beneath the mud on the plastic he calls the Jewish people high yeoman their eyes which really means the soldiers of theta the legions the troops of Thailand what's the excitement ksama cream is a toner paint shaders from marcus i'm ernie manouse on mrs. snow call illustrator samokhina summers the 600,000 letters of the cefotetan are the source of the 600,000 jewish souls every letter in the trailer is a sure dish of anna summer now there's more than 600,000 Jews but as it's explained in tiny imperio climate scientist 600,000 souls are root souls but just like the root of a tree can have many branches one neshama can have many branches you can have a thousand of summer's that are rooted in one place so you can have different Jews so although we're one people like we're one garden but we come from different trees so family members might be branches from one root or certain a summers that are deeply connected because they come from one root so this is the idea even though it's different branches but this system dibban if some is Chloe's and each neshama is rooted in one letter in his tailor now some people can open at eight and they could recognize their ice in the title of the central khanubis Odessa usually you can't but every mission has its Ison Taylor or Makeev as he says since every new summer has a mocha noches at Ida so basic a total Amata to either shaders nish Mesilla my the penis Mazel so when a Jew learns Taylor down here it Shriekers the shoulders of his neshama love Miley the Maslov is neshama Laham says Gimli earning say formal lubbers become a la máquina Taylor to bring forth the revelation of the presence of the infinite one which is manifested in casa milà the highest Hashem says with the source of Tyler Hashem you say da social on a shadow behind craters which is also the root and the foundation of the neshamah in the mountains of holiness Leah's membership in is do Louise ever penis Missoula Shire Shanna Shambhala Milan that this deal will harm should be expressed in the muzzle of the shaver sano-sama the tip Allah love aim of a Fathead Mahara did a little cleaning Gilead and saber a home Amish the penis was lighted the Kazi as a result of this there would be those are tremendous oil and tighter because of the Gila in the Mosel in other words the cash in between the Jew and Toyota is down here every Jew is rooted in a safer time every Jew has a letter in the title like it says in the Managua Lukas Easter all is yeah sheesh amri boy Isis latina every Jew is rooted in the taiga but the cashier doesn't begin down here like everything it evolved from the catcher up there because the sugars of the neshamah comes from Marcia who become assay effort Bini bellarius no that's the source of tighter so the Jew and Toyota are essentially connected Toyota comes from confidence on become some so here's what happens when I learn traded down here so what happens it trickles down but it also trickles up you know you pull a rope yeah I could cover the closer you pull a rope the Rope may travel thousands of miles you pull it down there there will be an effect on every level on every level of the Rope will come down you throw the rock into the water they'll be the ripple effect that will go and go and go and continue what do they say as the butterfly flaps its wings there is an avalanche right there's a windstorm in New Zealand or in Japan because ultimately it's effective didn't shove it down here when it connects to Toyota so on every level of the Nashawn man on every level of China that becomes a relationship so the oil that shines in cosmic Ida will be in the source the muzzle of Tyla will immediately shine in the module of the neshamah so what happens when a Jew learns Titan is that the superconscious force of the neshamah is completely overwhelmed by the energy of the tighter in its source which trickles or is revealed in the muzzle down here I don't experience that full intensity of it but here is what the commercial a fog of the evil eye Cosima's logically because my conscious soul is rooted in my super conscious song my conscious soul is rooted and tired and my super conscious soul is rooted in the Toyota above so therefore down here also there was an experience from the Maslov the neshamah which experiences the Gili of cross maintainer and that's where the gomorrah says in Broca's mala Holland Bahama being urban essence of busyness I'm at antenna there was tremendous or so every time a Jew loons tell you this tremendous or what does this mean so now Latonya is explaining what this means because what happens when limit that Toyota did the Mosel of the Nisshin when somebody's open to this they have to be sensitive what's happening is the muzzle of the neshamah is experiencing the full revelation of God in Cosmo of China which is connected to the cosmos the neshamah or trickles down down here so there's a tremendous aim of a faster manner of the very low the cause of the give out that can give Li that happens right then through limited Tiger truly monetary sebou mela the mela this is the continuation of the discussion of sovath Kalam and verses mamala kawaman right this is what he began this Pericles that serve of calallen is that energy which no thought can detect and no thought could grasp like we spoke with the marshal of the holes of the net we cannot grasp it because it's beyond being restricted to our state of consciousness but nonetheless there is a concept called mass la huzi what's much logic Ozzie that the xr- shaman like we spoke mammalian savings are relative so the X amount of Shama which is higher than the sensory soul is not enclosed in the body what do we mean it's not enclosed own uncle Mel it doesn't mean it's not in the body it's not felt by the body it's not the consciousness that I'm aware of it's not the are that I'm gonna ride in my resume when you tell me who I am when you ask me who I am there's what I can tell you there's what I don't want to tell you but I could tell you and then there is what I'd like to tell you but I can't tell you because I don't know exactly what it is and then there's that which I don't even know that I don't know what it is and that's really the majority of your personality right the majority of your personality is exactly that and that's what that's what's called that's what's called your Mazal but it trickles down into the soul that's in the body so when the Mosel of the neshamah is causally when it sees an experience which we would call cypher because it's above sensory unconsciousness it create or and a reverence and a dread in the person because it's overwhelming that's that's the concept of a sacar Toyota because since the ain't saved dwells in Holcomb a law which is Dinah and through the tighter this gets expressed in the Mazda the Nizam Allah my Allah which is rooted in China so it affects a person even here we hearing dialer this is what some Jews experience when they are learning tired because this is what traders I he's learning about our locker he's learning about al-qaeda technical a lot of what neither what Mazel what mother would save it now you God is not even mentioned in the halacha he still looks right about a technical thing making Chris Venus making in Jana but that's the outer layer of it this is the same time is really a reflection something deeper because he is talking about the vault of the Neil that it's it's so pad so similar comes from a sense of expansiveness of comfort here comes from a sense of awe of reverence something overwhelming something completely beyond me creates the two of I have a sympathizer two of closeness I feel close here is I feel poor I feel my smallness I feel the distance that creates year and and if it's too different to Lewis whenever there's a Dooley of size of Kalama nan any level it generates usually a sense of a sense of year a sense of victim a sense of awe in the presence of that which is like wow unknown where Simic on the contrary is self-assertion it it dispatched asana fish and so forth okay we'll be mopsa care the next year 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