How My Grandmother Died - Maasei Women's Class

the yeshiva dotnet I want to address today a fascinating question that comes up when one learns the Torah portion of masse which is actually the last portion of the Book of Numbers the conclusion of safer Bamidbar the 4th book of the Commish which in many ways is within the conclusion of Tyra because the 5th book is the sermon of moisture remain when he bids farewell to his people a lot very much into promotion so the entire last safer is Moishe's presentation his speech to the Jewish people just the final weeks of his life but actually the story the way the Torah narrates the story ends with the book of Amanpour and then begins much to speak there was something extremely perplexing when you read this verse in Paris must say that comes to mind and that's the following the Torah does not mention any York site of anybody when you read the text of himesh and tomorrow you will not know the day nanniversary of the passing of any individual even the greatest of the great those individuals responsible for creating civilization impacting civilization molding the Jewish people leaving the Jewish people individuals individuals who have had an incredible impact on our history on our heritage on our story their York site is not mentioned for example when did other more recent or have a pass away when did Adam and Eve die I don't know when did Noah pass away he saved all of civilization from the flood I don't know when the nav realm Avenal the founder of Judea the father of the Jewish people the one who brought monotheism to the world when they'd have Rama vino or Sarah passed away I don't know the Taira tells me how old of rom was when he passed away it earlier tells me how old sorrow was when she passed away but I don't know when there's no date no month no day in the month certainly no day in the week I don't know Yitzhak second of our patriarchs his wife rifka Rebecca I don't know it says he took passed away he was on genady use all that rom was 175 SAR was 127 roofkies death has not mentioned explicitly in the tire Yaakov the third of the patriarchs the father of the 12 tribes his wives Rockaway a bill of Zilpah they pass away Yaakov lives 247 Russell dies during childbirth a young lady it's very interesting and the same goes on moisture a banal moisture the man who is the central figure if you can call it soul of Tyra the one who's mentioned in every single portion from his birth till the end from parish miles the day he's born he's mentioned in every single part until the last portion besides 110 Sava which we once discussed in another class I don't know what my she passed away the Torah does not say the Turner tells me that my son passed away the tyre tells me that Miriam passed away Miriam it says you learn to precious Hocus to people passed away their miriam passed away and aaron passed away and the language there is the jewish people came to mid Bergson in the first month and Miriam passed away there so with Miriam I still know a month moisture remain no it doesn't even say a month it just says he passed away and they mourned for him 30 days now let me make it clear the Talmud and the Madras derives from different verses through different analytical methods the dates of different than the visuals passing away for example moisture remain of the Gemara tells us attracted Magilla thinkers page 13 Marcia was born on the 7th of other and he passed away on the 7th of other the same is true with Miriam we have a tradition we deduce from the verses that Miriam passed away on the tenth day of the month of Nisan we have traditions for other great personalities in the home agenda Tom ah but nowhere is it explicit in the text certainly not when it comes to the twelve tribes roving Shem and labor you that it says that the ice have passed away it says that Joseph's brothers passed away I don't know a date there are traditions in Madras them about different dates but nowhere in the text there is an exception okay interesting exceptions and that is the children of Hama the ten sons of ham and we know when they were hung but not because the book of Esther is out to tell me you know when we should commemorate the yard site of the anniversary of the ten sons of Haman being hung it's just because it's in the context of the wars that the Jewish people fought against the enemies who try to destroy them so we happen to know the day one more yard said that we know and I guess I should say a lot bigger half though not even of you oh so not even of you were the two sons of Aaron who died the day that the Michigan was inaugurated but the Turner doesn't tell me their yards attorneys by he by your Marsh mini it was on the eighth day and there's a whole series of events and one of the events is that neither one of you passed away so indirectly I find out that it was on the eighth day which according to our tradition is the first day of the month of Nisan when I am said to put up the Michigan the tabernacle sanctuary even there it's not very explicit there's one exception do you know that there's only one exception in the whole Tyra for an individual who passed away and the turret explicitly states the art set now when you see such a thing your eyebrows must be raised and have to ask the question Makara what happened what is the easiest what is the significance of this individual and this individual purpose individuals passing that the tire here makes an absolutely unique exception to explicitly give me the day of his yard site the day of his passing and who was this person Aaron Hokulea moistures older brother Aaron who was a prophet who was the high trees that coin go to the high priest of the Jewish people his yard site we know from the text and it's fascinating it does not say weird should say we shouldn't say it should say in the story that describes his actual passing if you want me to know when I repressed away when you tell me that he passed away you should give us the date now where is that this story of Aaron's passing stayed in an Amish its earlier in the Book of Numbers and parishes who cuss as I mentioned before Miriam passes away in that person and then Aaron passes away in that person that's numbers chapter 20 the end of chapter 20 it says there that everybody saw that outer pass the way era went up to the mountain called higher a hard double mountain interesting you could still see that mountain if you visit Petra in Jordan on the Transjordan the eastern side of the Jordan eastern side of the Land of Israel higher our hearts like a double mountain Argan passes away there and everybody saw that IRA passed away and they wept over the whole house of Israel wept for our endure for thirty days it does not say a date suddenly in Paris Marseille when we're not even talking about erinn's pass the trader in Paris Massey enumerates the 42 encampments of the Jewish people of the Israelites during their journey from Egypt all the way to the land of canal hey let massive may install the Turner begins purchase massive these are the journeys of the children of Israel when they left Egypt moisture a banal wrote down every single destination every place they encamped and then they left that encampment and traveled to another location where they large either for a very long time or for a very short time and they moved on and in the midst of these journeys this is by mid map area klamath gimel pasa la Madrid that's numbers 33 chapter 33 verse 38 its describes there have they left the place called Kadesh they arrived at the edge of a land a territory known as the land of Edom right near a mountain called ho haha Iren haquyen goes up to the mountain based on the instructions of Hashem and he dies there by Yama's shaman the toyota says when wish nos our Bible it says nay so merits medallion in the fortieth year since the exodus of Egypt but hey there Shaka me she battered Lahaie dish on the fifth month of the year on the first day of the month which of course in the Commish you do not have the names of the months then months aren't are titled by numbers the first month the second month the third month the first month and Himesh is always the month of Nisan I find this a zealous hemorrhoid are some rationale of how much on a person's but er is month to 7 as month three those who are more familiar with the names of April May and June so Nissen corresponds usually to April and May and June the four month is Thomas that's the month we are now we are now present in soon Thomas is going to end in a few days and then comes the fifth month which is the month of of menachem of ayran passed away unruhe Schneider's of the first day of of the only yard site and then tired tired and then tired that I'm not in the place where he passed away portions later completely out of sequence we're not discussing here Aaron's death we're discussing here the journeys from Egypt till they reach the land of c'mon it's here when the tyre of mentions that iron passed away the tears as you know what let me give you the month let me give you the day when Aaron passed away and then the terror adds his age and Aaron was 123 years old then our sellers faster my son of my supper when he passed away on this mountain her are what is the mystery behind this what is the significance one of the great biblical commentators to raise this question is known as then it's is then it's it as an acronym for Rubino Naftali it's V Yehuda Berlin he was the great rabbi and Russia Sheva of valoran vulajin is a city in Lithuania a counter Luther way Nia Val Larson had the famous great yeshiva called the vulajin a yeshiva that was founded by a man named Abraham valar Jonah was one of the great students of the Vilna Gaon he founded it in the early 1800s Binet sieve was a descendant of replica of a larger man and he became the rabbi of the city of a Larson and the famous head of the achieve of the velocity Shiva he's also very well known for many great works that he authored on Jewish law scholarship and one of them is his great commentary on Hamish known as ha make govern and her saved over Nevada Naftali to you the Berlin passed away in the 1890s so he's a 19th century great luminary of Eastern European jury and he passes away in the eighteen the early 1890s I believe he addresses this question and let me see what he says he says lo you may be our cost of life and missus moisture related mrs. Miriam I fighters by Anne team the mrs. Anna the turret did not tell me not by the death of my son not by the death of Miriam the month or the day by Miriam it says who was the first month but that the day my motion doesn't even say the month little am baby shall I say a fighter's gharam listless suddenly do us away the submission contrite they are in a clay and Irish home is that similar de leus to the finish of a narrow base of English then itseif gives us a reason and we can call it i guess on one of the melancholy means its if says that the third layer is intimating that this month may spell disaster for the Jewish people because Aaron is the first high priest who inaugurates the first base summit was the first mission of the sanctuary where God's presence dwells amidst the Jewish people Aaron haquyen who represents the service in the sanctuary passes away on the first day of this month says Dan it's if this is a sign for generations that in this month the base hamikdash will be destroyed which is like the second death of Aaron because Aaron represents the holy sanctuary where he served and he represented the Jewish people in the divine service he was taken away on this month and the base a big nurse that he embodied and where he served as the first high priest was also taken away on this month then it's if says the Turner here in a very subtle mystical way intimates what what might happen or what will happen in this month when the first holy temple and the second holy temple were both destroyed on the ninth day of the month of off yet at some point out the answer seems enigmatic because if that's the case we have a principle Maroubra minute over the attribute of goodness is greater than the attribute of negativity famous expression of our sages in the town with their ration quotes it we all know the talmud attracted Magilla speaks about the month of other and Moishe's birth and passing the day of other then Haman humma cast is lot to figure out what would be the best day to annihilate God forbid the Jewish people and it fell on the month of other and his arrey arrey it's the month that moisture remains the leader of the Jewish people passed away this is a good month to annihilate the Jewish people if motion was taken if Moshe the greatest man who ever lived God's prophet was taken away on this month this is the month when I will be able to achieve my scheme to annihilate God's people the morris says attracting Magilla that dedicated to poram jamón was unaware that moisture Ravenna was also born on the very same day in the very same month and therefore the plot could not hold up it could not be maintained if that's the case then the month of others should have also been mentioned as the month formation Obinna was born just like you mentioning the day that Ireland passed away to teach me and intimated that this is going to be the month of destruction it was moistures birth and passing in the month of other that ultimately heralded the events and subsequent generations of poor of the amazing event support of the Jewish people stood at the brink of annihilation and then their destiny was transformed from grief to jubilation from darkness to light why is that not intimated also in the Commish myesha's death and birth on the month of in the month of other the seventh day of other which would intimate what would happen in the future of Jewish history I want to share with you a very interesting insight which comes from this famous this farce M s was the second Gary RIBA one of the great Hasidic dynasties is known as the dynasty of gore or guerre its founder was the fiduciary picture mayor of its hood mayor alter who was a student of the cut scarab and then after the cut scarab is passing he became a great master and teacher and mentor in the city of guru which is not far from Warsaw in Poland he's known as the she do she heard him sadly he lost most of his children during his lifetime he raised a grandson have you heard the I relay who after the judiciary was passing in the 1800's 1866 I believe was succeeded by his grandson known as this famous and he became the second drebber of guerre he passed away in fat to fish salmon a 1905 and he's very well known in the world because of his great works on Talmud known as sauce Emmis and his commentary on homers and holidays also known as sauce Emma's it's quoted in a book called the could tell you hood that this is what he says my grandfather dismiss Emma said it says and safer has ended it's a very famous work writer view that Hassan called safer Kassadin it was a story about a person he honored very much those who passed away he remembered them he warned them he spoke of them and he paid tribute to them and when anybody in the community was sitting Shiva and was mourning the death of a loved one he himself would come back home from the funeral without shoes to pay tribute to show sympathy to show that he empathizes and identifies with the people sitting shivers he himself would take off his shoes and even though he was an obligated he himself wasn't sitting Shiva but to show his friendship and empathy so for his mitzvah was nickel my Valen Mitchell my bail means to comfort those who are mourning and this was his special Mitzvah so anybody was mourning he himself felt that he wants to participate show the person that he's not alone in his grief do so he has a friend and he would take off his shoes says the safest has sinned him in Section 434 this man died on Tisha buff on the ninth day of of when nobody wears shoes so basically the day that he passed away and he was buried everybody was walking around barefoot without shoes this was like God demonstrating the effect of his actions he was there for everybody else showing empathy showing comfort showing respect showing camaraderie and himself took off his shoes when he passed away everybody took over their shoes and not because they necessarily wanted to because on Tisha buff it's the National Day of Mourning of the Jewish people we don't wear shoes on Tisha pub it's one of the things we do so he passes away on this above nobody wears shoes it's interesting I remember there was a Jew in Montreal and he was obsessed I'm using the word obsessed I don't know another word but relation means he was obsessed with learning I rely on the commentary of Irish I am Akash on Hamish Robinho's I'm not that he was absolutely infatuated with Eric I am and he would make a weekly class in our Hyman who drive people crazy they should come to this year this was his thing Sun and rain is sunshine and rain snow winter summer hot cold in a Montreal against very very cold whatever the circumstances he made sure there was a class and I am yet to learn her time and he did this for years and he slept and he mobilized people and he promoted and he advertised and he passed away on the day of the Arts at of Eric I am which is Tessa of Tamas the fifteenth day of Thomas Nelson fell ik it's an interesting thing my grandmother my mother's mother her name was tybo Lipsky Luba alte Tiber three names Luba alte Tiber which means an old love bird Luba is love alte old-timer is a type of bird old love bird or love Albert Luba Alta Tibor table she passed away a number of years ago at the age of 94 aphasia by the 25th day of Shabbat she this is a personal and fascinating fascinating story about my grandmother my said my mother to Liang Liang and her mother she was a very special woman you know the matriarchs of that generation who went through unfathomable turmoil and agony and she was a refugee she lived in Georgia in southern Russia Hitler could not get there because of the Kafka's mountains the Caucasus Mountains they could not get there the Germans could not get there so the Jews were safe but they were living in Stalinist Russia under the Soviet communist regime it was not an easy life then after the Holocaust like many Russian Jews they escaped through false passports because Stalin allowed the refugees citizens of other countries to leave Russia so they forged their passports and my grandfather my grandmother and their children who were still who were young the oldest my mother was a young girl they left Russia and you know they went to the BP calves displaced person camps my mother told me they were given an apartment with one room and you're talking about a mother and a father with quite a few children they had five or six children at the time with one room and you know you went from one place to another place one place to another place thank God they were alive that was itself was a great miracle they were thankful for being alive until finally in 1947 they arrived in the United States of America my grandmother once lamented to the lubavitcher rebbe that she suffers from depression she's not in a good mood she's anxious she has anxiety and she has some form of melancholy depression today you know they sent you off to a therapist but this is the days when you know the Jewish world was somewhat different is the survivors generation who didn't have anxiety I'm laughing who didn't have anxiety who didn't have trauma I mean the trauma was endless the question you had to ask yourself was do we move on or do we wall in the trauma but very few people were those who didn't have trauma but very few so but she once told this to the rebel what do you think they'd ever told her he gave her a fascinating instruction my grandmother was a very good dancer she was an exceptional dancer so the voucher ever suggested to my late grandmother that she should go to as many weddings as she can not just relatives or friends weddings of Jews and dance dance at the wedding and bring joy to the caller to the relatives to the family to the community and this my grandmother did for 40 years for approximately 40 years whenever she could she went to a wedding not weddings of friends or relatives for sure she went to friends of weddings friends and relatives she herself married off nine short but she went to any possible wedding she can in the fact an uninvited she would go and she with debts and dance she could she had get danced and the tungsten the dance she was a really good dancer a skilled dancer and everybody knew time ellipse skiers here it's about as a climatic very few people knew the reason she's doing it she's doing it because she's trying to find her own reservoir of joy but in that process of bringing joy to so many people she herself found the fortitude the courage the resilience to resolve that she needed to be able to live a noble life a dignified life a moral life a life of deep commitment dedication and love and she would dance I remember as a child in I would sometimes if I was at the wedding you know my grandmother so to speak stole the show and she wasn't that star she didn't have to steal his show but he would start dancing with other now that with other women or herself for a very long time and that she would go home but she would dance to the point of exhaust until she couldn't dance anymore first of all I have to say it was very good exercise it was probably very good for her health too the rabbit killed two birds with one stone besides that there was the benefit of what it did for him what it did for everybody else particularly her dancing came to very special use at certain weddings she lived in Crown Heights section of Brooklyn many weddings were people who were Bali Chula young women and men who grew up in second with Jewish homes and then came back to either side and then chose to get married and they got married very often in Crown Heights section of Brooklyn or nearby dozens and hundreds over the years now they did not have large extended families sometimes the families were broken sometimes the families wouldn't even come but even if the families would come remember their parents and grandparents sometimes they were not Jewish sometimes they were very alienated from the Jewish people they didn't even know the traditions and the customs of a Jewish wedding and it's not like these girls and boys grew up you know in large classes and communities and a hundred relatives and 300 relatives like some of you and everybody was at the wedding they didn't have those families you know sometimes you had a little nuclear family one or two or three people and maybe one uncle or one aunt so these weddings could have been a little on the dull side and my grandmother when she heard that about trubiz getting married this was her wedding she would go and she would dance away and it was really really beautiful why am I telling you this story my uncle my mother's brother married off his youngest child this is 12 years ago 12 years ago he married off his youngest child this is my mother's younger brother and I came to the wedding I had a lecture had a shear that night so I was somewhere else I came late I came very late to the wedding I was coming towards the end of the dancing I would be at the end of the dancing and the bench in the sheva brachot or the last dance of the wedding when it's empty I come to the wedding it's close to midnight and I see something strange my mother is not there my uncles are not there my aunt's are not there the only one who's there is the father of the groom and his wife and the whole family is gone and what the ring I called my mother like what happened to me everybody they're all at the wedding like what happened he ran away from this wedding nobody is there nobody is there okay it was very strange to me but I went in my eye Dave Mazel Tov you know did some dancing and and I didn't we stayed there till the end of the wedding I leave the wedding and I hear what happened my grandmother who was 94 years old she was home and the last few years she was basically home and that night the middle of the wedding she wasn't feeling well she had a hard time breathing so the assistant the person who was there you know helping her medically called the a cousin of mine that Sola came over said she has to go to the hospital so they took her to Methodist Hospital in Brooklyn my mother is the oldest daughter and she was at the wedding so my cousin from Uppsala right away called my mother and his mother-in-law my mother's sister and said that your mother was taken to the hospital and it's a difficult situation so my mother told her siblings and at some point the middle of the wedding they all checked out and they went to Methodist Hospital they didn't want to tell the brother who was the son of my grandpa who is a son of my grandmother because it was his child's when he did ownership into the hospital it would have been inappropriate but they all you know sneaked out hoping it would it make such a ruckus and they all rushed to Methodist Hospital my grandmother was taken to the ICU unit and all of her children most of her children went into the room with their spouses who also came from the wedding and then some grandchildren who heard about it and they also rushed to the hospital so there were around 40 people in the ICU around her bed the doctors and nurses were quite perplexed of this scene but they allowed it they allowed it she was having a difficult time breathing but here's the most fascinating thing they all came from the wedding so everybody was wearing wedding gowns beautiful fancy wedding girl beginning with my mother all the way all the children you know the grandchildren the granddaughters the sisters-in-law daughters-in-law of my grandma everybody with wedding gowns because they were coming from the wedding of my first cousin all wedding gowns and my uncles and cousins started to sing songs and they started to sink beautiful beautiful Jewish tunes heartwarming and heart stirring melodies including Lebanon happy songs wedding songs which my grandmother cherished now the nurses were rubbing their eyes that like 40 people in wedding gowns or capataz peckish as suits you know dressed up that's how you come to an ICU you put on a wedding gown because your mother died see they didn't realize that everybody was coming from a wedding and as they were singing these beautiful songs my grandmother returned her soul to its maker the middle of the night the 25th day of Shabbat 12 years ago and when my mother shared with me I wasn't there cuz I came late for the wedding and I found out later that she just passed away so I already went only afterwards but as the next day we all went to the funeral and hundreds of descendants escorted my grandmother and they interred her into the month of fury Cemetery in Queens just a few feet from the burial place of the Lubavitcher ever I thought to myself wow she spent 40 years bringing joy to brides and grooms at weddings she would dress up in a beautiful wedding dress or gown and she would go dance away and when she returned her soul to its maker as she left the world she was surrounded by children coming from a wedding dressed in wedding gowns quite literally quite literally singing wedding songs celebrating her life and that's how her neshama went back to be embraced by its father in heaven and remained in his bosom because the way we live and the way we interact in our lives it doesn't only impact the people that see it of course it also creates very deep influence it has a tremendous influence on the energy of the world and our own energy and sometimes it's expressed itself in stress itself in fascinating ways so the safer system says this drew his thing was empathy he took off his shoes for every person who passed away to be there with their relatives and that's how he would come home and I'm when he passed away the whole community was the same way it was tisha buf says this famous Aaron Aaron's legacy was he loved the Jewish people he gave kindness to the Jewish people so he we all know it says in pre-k of is about iron.i of Shalom right if someone is a breeze on McCarran litera love peace pursue peace love people bring them close to tyre in fact the Talmud says our sages say that by moistu it says all the children all the sons of Israel wept for him by a Dharan when he died and says the whole house of Israel wept so are safe to say everybody men women and children but was Aaron dedicated his life to bring peace between couples peace between former enemies Aaron's mission statement was love peace pursue peace love people and bring people together unite people this was Aaron's mission in life that's what he did so when he passed away it wasn't just his students warned every single drew the scholarly and the simple everybody warned because Aaron entire life was dedicated to bring people together says discuss Emma's when Aaron a client passes away all the Jewish people mourn and therefore his yard site is Rosh Chodesh up on the first day of when the begins the nine days which are the days of national mourning all the Jewish people more than nine days because the structure that based on English it's not like other days when you have one person warning in other words Irina claims death is mourned every single here by all of the Jewish people because who was iron Aaron was a person who brought love to all of the Jewish people and therefore he is remembered and he's mourned for every single year unrestrained this up when all the Jewish people go in the morning and the title wants you to know that this is the deeper layer of what the Mitzi was saying to appreciate the fact that all the Jews so to speak pay back they pay tribute to iron who was really there for them so just like this Jew who would take off his shoes when somebody was warning and when he passes away everybody had their shoes off Myron a client whose entire life was about obviously strong love of the Jewish people when he passes away it's not just one person participates for generations for generations all of the Jewish people are part of the commemoration of Aaron's passing and Aaron's your concern because the way he lived I have a friend in Israel he's a teacher he's elected to be the right name is rabbi Schneerson Ozzy so he sent out a story this week this week I want to tell you the story he said it's a story that he knows personally he vouches for it he said it was 35 years ago but one day before circus his father was a Jew named of matochkin Ozzy he was the rough of the town car Chabad in in Israel he says 35 years ago one day before Circus a woman walks into our home - can now see household in fact about she lives in France about and she comes in with a friend of hers whom we did not know the woman we knew but her friend No both of them start crying and they tell my father the rabbi Frank about that this woman the friend who came in made an appointment tomorrow this was two days before so cos she made an appointment tomorrow right before circus for an abortion why she lived a very complicated life she did some she made some mistakes she became pregnant she said if her father finds out that she's pregnant he will murder her he will literally murder she has no choice it's her life or the fetus is life she has to do an abortion so she made an appointment that day before service my father Redmon touched on the other track Habad pleaded with her to push over the abortion - laughter circus and after since Asteria he wants to be in contact with her he said listen during the days of suka see father won't find out that you're pregnant so we still have a little time let me see what I can do let's work on it let's just push off the abortion for now and it was trying to buy time let's be in touch after some Cristina rabbi Ashkenazi and his wife now decided to do what Jews do to find a Jewish family in Europe perhaps a family of kabocha loom in Europe with this young lady could go live and give birth in Europe and her family would not find out about the pregnancy because she wouldn't be in Israel she would be in Europe and we'll figure out what to do with the baby obviously make sure that the baby has a bright future they would find a family that would later adopt the baby a loving good femme without the baby and take care of the child to avoid abortion my mother Rebbetzin Ashkenazi may she be well begins calling various loose ice about smoked ice in Europe but nobody was up to the job they simply couldn't do to be able to adopt this girl until she would give birth they simply couldn't cuz you know would be almost would be quite a while uncle Amaya hello my asuka's he says my father their Abbottabad goes to Davin one morning and he meets somebody and sure this is a Jew who's French he's a friend drew he lives in Leon his name is rip small good average and he's the Chabad ashley has become an ambassador to Leon for many decades and he happened to a million suckers to come to Israel and he went to shul to Darwin in the morning my father season he says I'm looking for somebody from France what's the going on he tells it at my good average the whole story with this girl never says no problem I'll deal with it we'll work and partnership we'll get this done my parents rabbi Reb is an Ashkenazi who did not have a lot of money he was the rabbi of a city his salary was not very prosperous went and collected money to buy a ticket they gave her an extra $50 of their own money which they didn't have but they gave her an extra $50 so she should have you know some pocket money to buy a bottle of Pepsi a bottle of water and she goes on the airplane right after semester the pregnancy was not easy it was complicated it was difficult the family that became the host of this girl went through a lot of difficulty this was not a simple story it's a complex story this was a complex girl a very difficult and painful story so the whole thing was just as we call it in English a big mess but full-term baby nine months pregnancy time of delivery came and she gave birth Baruch Hashem to a healthy young baby girl another city another family in Leon who struggled with infertility and was searching to adopt the baby adopted this baby girl this infant and they were very generous and kind so they used to send to Israel they used to send to Israel a ticket for the biological mother to come and visit her child fascinating the mother recovered and Leon and then she went back to Israel nobody knew she was pregnant but they the family adopted the baby would send her tickets to be able to come and visit her biological child the girl grew up and rabbi Schneerson Ozzie says a wonderful wonderful girl extraordinary gorgeous on the inside and on the outside physically emotionally spiritually and she studied in the Chabad school system in France in the girls school system as a teenager she came to visit the Holy Land and she came to Kaaba to visit the home of the Ashkenazi's she came into the dorm and she met my mother Rebbetzin Ashkenazi who was the one who arranged the whole the whole operation you know the most sound operation that she should be able her mother should be able to go to Leon and find the house and give birth and that the girl should be adopted she saw my mother she knew the story she said she embraced my mother was a very emotional moment and said till the last breath I will never forget the debt I owe you for giving me literally the gift of life because I was destined I might have been destined to be aborted you know when I was filling the womb no bacon Rousey says 35 years past remember this happened 35 years ago 35 years past the days of Corona have arrived Corona where they say in Israel kawana he says one of my brother's lives in Montreal his name is battalion Eliezer Ashkenazi's it happens to be a friend of mine and he can't go to shul just like everybody else the schools are closed down and he can go to show slowly as the pandemic you know as the corona continues some little schools open up something young and outside some eminence near my brother's house there's a little Spartak shil he usually would always go to a big show we dive in the right near his house there was a little spartax - a little Sparta coming it and because of the corona he daven's there he says one day a little while ago somebody's sitting not far from him and they start smoothing after domini and this fire to command transfers what's your last name he said my name is Ashkenazi Ashkenazi where you from I'm from Israel where it is Shabbat your father was the wrapper for Shabbat he passed away already yeah we're Munchkin as it turns out that this fellow married the girl who was born in Leon he was the husband to married the girl who supposed to be aborted by her mother a day before supers thousands of kilometres thousands and thousands of miles from France so his brother Ashkenazi meets the husband of this girl before pay sucker his wife they little good the girl not little anymore cause my brother and says I had a baby the woman the girl who was saved wasn't aborted who lose husband met Rebecca and I was in Montreal she calls rubbish cannot even pressure but his son says I had a baby my first baby son I'm gonna have a bris in a few days this is this year a few weeks ago I would love to honor your father to be the Sam dick when you father passed away I wasn't honor you just to pay tribute to your father and your mother so to be a son become a baby have to be tested say when to test the test of covert 19 the tests came up negative so he was allowed to go to the bris of course with a mask and he was the sondik and he held the baby the Grist had to be very small quarantine it happened in the home of the girl of the mother the mother who was born in Leon and was adopted it was you who is in the house three men the father of the child the moil and Rebecca in Milazzo Ashkenazi the suntico held the baby honouring his parents so now think about how the hajj gaza works his a baby has a bris only three people are at the bris the father of the baby it's his house the mile somebody got to do the circumcision so usually the bristan that happened now in the places where they're careful and certainly paste at the time that was it the father of the son of the mile because you don't must have a minyan by a bris it's nice to have but if you can't he can't a lot of britain happened with two people two men besides the mother of course you had the mile and yet the father the father held the baby and the mile did the bris and always booked but here there was one more person who the son of rubbish canaussie who was really the spiritual father of this baby because he was the spiritual father of the mother because he saved he literally saved her life from being aborted and now she has a baby and his son ends up at the Driss in montreal in no way could have anybody figured this out they would end up much role Korona and sit in there solely with me there husband a few weeks later she'd have a baby after Facebook and he would be the son what does this teach you my dearest what does this teach us all it teaches us there's nothing that doesn't have an impact everything we do we say it creates an energy that lives forever we may see it if we're lucky sometimes we don't see it my grandmother danced for 40 years bringing joy to so many people's lives that energy is not forgotten and when she returns her soul to its maker it's like a wedding she's surrounded by 40 wedding gowns singing and celebrating her life the Gemara says in a Yerevan hi Alma Kabini Lula da mia our world is like a wedding the whole world is like a wedding at a metal hat I first ich seize the moment the Gemara says eat and drink basically it's a metaphor of saying it's a wedding it's a time to celebrate and seize every opportunity to be joyous to dance to extract gems the resources that portunities you have in every single moment of life and the energy lasts forever here is a Jew living in Krakow bot saves a girl saves a girl from performing an abortion on her own baby and not easy these are the unsung heroes of the Jewish people fines of kabocha Leah and Leon who's ready to host this girl and allow her to give birth and another family adopts the baby but still invites the biological mother so they could still be that connection and one day this girl builds her own beautiful home finds a husband settles in Montreal a lovely Sparta Canadian family has a baby and somehow God the hundred also making sure that the family who are the spiritual parents and progenitors of this great miracle and this great act of love and kindness and life-affirming act somehow are there as well so thus Massimo says Irina : he touched every Jew he was dedicated to every Jew he knows the tyre doesn't just say he passed away gives us the day and tells you for generations everyone becomes part of that collaboration because in the nine days we all have a certain Ellender a certain element of availeth a certain element of mourning but I want to act one more detail and this is something I happen to hear myself I was privileged to hear from the Lubavitcher ever of blessed memory which takes it one step further we did in its it we did this awesomeness takes it one step further director says it's not just that the tire is telling us all the Jews will be part of the yard site mourning commemoration of iron it's much deeper than that Aaron doesn't pass away additionally pass no average garnish of the first of the nine days rather the toy is intimating to us something very powerful and very special and that also explains very beautifully we're it's located in the passion Paris Marseille is always red right before the nine days punishes Devoran is the sharpest before Tish above Paris must say is right before that before we go into the era of the nine days we always read purchase must it's here not in Lucas when the Turner tells us that Aaron passed away and we're traitors of you know why the teach us something special I could it's Borough Hall McNamara fool amok whenever there is a plague in the world God already orchestrated that the remedy should be able to be accessible it may still be concealed but if there is a challenge and a crisis there is a ready a secret remedy for it because why because the truth is the purpose of the challenges to get to a deeper place of awareness and love so the challenge doesn't bring the remedy the remedy is what brings the challenge the remedy precedes the challenge because the whole purpose of the challenges to reach a deeper place of healing I hope you understand what I'm saying it's not that there's a problem so God says let me find the remedy the reason there is a problem is because there's a remedy for the problem and through the problem we're gonna reach that deeper level of awareness of love of oneness of intimacy it doesn't mean it's easy sometimes it's painful but there's no challenge if there's no solution for the challenge beforehand this is what our sages teach because the whole reason for the challenges to reach a deeper place of truth and connection and therefore the challenge always comes after there is already the healing opportunity although the healing may be concealed but if there is a crisis that is born before that something else was born the nine days are a challenging days for the Jewish people before we go into the nine days we meet a parish a master and there the tire unexpectedly put something in that doesn't seem to belong there Aaron passed away on the first day of the month of off because the yard sector but Sadiq is a day when that subjects life and influence is manifested in the world and there is an extra opportunity to killeen his energy his love as light as perspective as legacy historians Mitzvahs his good deeds and make them part of our life on the day of the yard site of a person any person and certainly at Sonic their light their teachings their Toyota is manifested in this world polishers but care of our roads is an expression in Tanya from tehilim and therefore Erin's yard set under a stylish of makes his light and his influence be manifested what was Aaron's life about Oh a Michelin Man made me Tommy the Salar and picked a of his be one of the students of our love peace pursue peace love people and bring them close to Tyra what was the biggest and what remains one of the greatest challenges of the Jewish people that led to almost every story of destruction in our history decisiveness strife politics animosity fragmentation what is our greatest source of healing unity trust love dedication to each other we must not agree with each other but we have to be able to love each other we must not see always eye to eye but we have to be able to support each other be here for each other cherish each other respect each other even when we have disagreement see when we have ideological disagreement we must never allow them to become personal we must never carry personal vendettas we have to cleanse our hearts from the trauma created by grudges and negative energy and toxicity sometimes it's difficult if I feel somebody has done something wrong to me how do I get that hatred out of my heart but this is the avoidance Hashem maybe I have to speak to the person maybe I have to speak to somebody else maybe you have to share with the person what I'm feeling give the person an opportunity to understand my perspective understand their perspective maybe the person will then be able to apologize but I have to be able to actively work on not walking around with grudges resentments frustrations hatred envy animosity now we have these emotions but we have to quarantine these emotions meaning we can't allow these emotions to take over our life and dictate our behavior I may have this feeling this emotion okay put it in its place understand where it's coming from but do not allow it to dictate your life we have to be dictated we want to be guided by the voice that teaches the voice that you are part of God's infinity in this world and I am a manifestation of God's infinity in this world and therefore we are really one and they have a disagreement with you but that cannot translate into hate and mistrust and negativity what do they say there's a famous expression holding grudges holding grudges you know when you have your heart or a grudge in your heart towards somebody else you know what it's like it's basically you inhale poet it's like inhaling poison and hoping that your enemy is going to die from you inhaling poison or as somebody else said it's like putting yourself on fire and hoping that your enemy is going to be affected by the fire when I Harbor a grudge I become dysfunctional now sometimes it's very difficult if I had a difficult experience or encounter circumstance this is the work of arguing that we have to work on this is what Adam represents so Aaron passes away and Rosh Chodesh off right the first day of the nine days God says you have the energy of Aaron in the world to be able to bring the world to a deeper place of love this is the hakka dermis for fula maka the remedy that comes before the challenge before the crisis of hatred and destruction we already have the opportunity of Aaron to create love because remember the whole challenge is here only to bring this to a deeper place of unity a deeper place of love the contention is here to bring this to a deeper place of Ava's Easter all and after sister now God knows how difficult it is to extricate animosity from our communities it's very very difficult IRA Napoleon becomes the paradigm of how to do it and as a result of that Aaron is the one whose yard site is very distraught and the turret emphasizes it in the time when we come into the month of of this business - I said every year it's that way every single year the tire is somehow God knew that parishes - is gonna be read right before the nine days when the base emitters both of them will be destroyed the primary source of it would be hatred the negativity and strife and animosity as the Gemara says in humor page nine seen a scene on baseless hatred it tells us I want you to know that Aaron's yard site is this time there's a tremendous flow of positive energy of love and as a result of that you have an opportunity to be able to seize to seize the energy of Aaron and remember that love of the Jewish people towards each other the unity of the Jewish people with each other reigns supreme and there's nothing in the world that justifies our hatred our mistrust towards each other we may have issues we may have disagreements we have to learn how to work them out respectfully but never stop speaking to somebody always communicate with each other never throw somebody under the bus never allow disagreements and politics to corrode and erode our unity and we essential connection our essential relationship I'm going to conclude with a fascinating story in the Madras and then we'll take some questions the Metra says in yahood sirmione section 2 section 38 what was the first burial in history anybody knows who was the first person to be buried in history the answer of course is heaven right kaien Cain killed murdered Heather and Heather lay there dead so the man who says other man have o saw their son dead a corpse they didn't know what to do nobody told him about burial they didn't know so what did I sham do fascinating Madras so logical ahem oh you live sham a Sri a 3-burner shel olam sent a raven and the raven had a colleague a friend another raven who died and autumn watched other men have watched how this raven dug a little hole a little pit and buried its friend so Adam tells halvah I think we should emulate this raven and they created a grave and they in turn to their son heavily was murdered by their other son kaya that's the Madras now I want to ask you a question why didn't other men have and not know what to do what did I Shem tell our them after he ate from the tree of knowledge for Athavale afar Tasos you are dust you are earth and you're gonna go back to the earth God created Adam off from me nah nah man that's where you gonna go back to what what what was this God said everybody's gonna go back to the earth Havel passed away have it was killed he does not live and he won't put him in the earth now you might say well how do you bury somebody but that doesn't seem to be so complicated I mean you create a hole and you put the body in the earth it's not such a complicated Mitzvah I mean it takes work but it's not complicated in terms of intricate laws it's not like for example creating a mikvah where there's a lot of laws or creating an area over here there's a lot of intricate loss another question why does a Shem send the raven a raven from all creatures all living organisms he sends on or you rave to teach this lesson to other man how I'm gonna share with you a very powerful very powerful answer to this question the answer I read years ago in a in it's a vowel called bacillus regime s valium 25 these are journals of very brief tour ideas that were written by the lubavitcher rebbe in his early years in Europe and they were never published after his in 1994 they found them in his drawer in his room and they published most of them these are like you know journals like private journals Diaries and he has there a lot of hundreds of pages of solution ideas of Toyota and in volume 25 he says something about this story with the raven two men other men hava are sitting at the corpse of their child it says they didn't know what to do it's not only a question of practically what do we do with the body it's a question of they don't know what to do they don't know how to move on it's not only a question of what to do it's a question of why do anything I think some of us understand that feeling a certain event happens in life and it's not only I don't know what to do I don't know why to do like where do I go from here I feel so lost I feel so demoralized I feel so sad I feel so depressed there's no meaning in anything like why should I wake up tomorrow morning I've heard this from people you have heard it from people people say I don't have a reason to wake up tomorrow morning people who survived the war so many of them ask this question to what am i waking up to what why should I welcome the Sun and why is the Sun even rising a Jew survivor once said he asked the question why who gives the Sun the disclosed but of the Sun to rise and give us life and make believe that the world is such a bright and beautiful place how cruel of the Sun this is a very deep emotion and takes over people I don't know what to do with myself I don't know why to do anything where do I go from here after the abyss opens up in a person's life a hole the size of an abyss opens up such a wound and deep cavity in the human tender heart one is sometimes completely bewildered and dumbfounded and overwhelmed and simply does not know where do I go from here other Mancala were created by a shaman they had two sons kaien and hello this was their not house kaien murders have a will you go from here one kid is dead and the other kid is a murderer who murdered his own brother wow that's a big one how can you continue living in a world where a brother can murder another brother where one of your children can kill another one of your child so children and why the toy is not so clear but there was some form of jealousy some form of Envy some form of animosity kyon could not tolerate Hemel and he felt that if Hamel exists in the world I can't exist in the world and there's only one solution I have to murder I have to execute heaven in order that kyon should be able to exist other men have asked themselves is this the world that God put us into are these the children he wants us to create is this going to be the legacy of human civilization this is not just an intellectual question this is a question that affected every fiber of their being we do we go from here they knew that people will die natural deaths Hashem told them after eating of the tree that this initiated the concept of death but they did not know or imagined that one brother can stab his other brother to death because of some petty jealousy when they are the only two people living in the world other men have lost their motivation to go on with their life you know what Hashem Sheldon he showed them something very very simple and very special he said in life you have to make a choice are they going to be part of the problem are you gonna be part of the solution and the only answer to the depth of hatred that we see in our world is when you bring to the world that same level of love zette Lumas elekid there's only one way to battle such a powerful hatred such powerful toxicity such powerful negativity and that is bring in momentous ferocious powerful positivity love affection you see hatred in the world you see negativity in the world either it becomes an invitation to get depressed to go into the spear to wallow in the Quahog mire of melancholy depression negative energy or it becomes an invitation to an unprecedented unleashing of camaraderie love trust loyalty dedication when you see such cynicism in the world when you see such apathy when you see such a difference when you see such carelessness either I become part of the problem and I start signing about on mashugana veldt or I become part of the solution and how do I become part of the solution when I use a counterbalance that very same negative energy and I unleash the exact opposite with the same momentum and ferociousness as the evil I unleash nuclear energy of love healing hope light Redemption truth integrity authenticity wisdom faith resilience courage fortitude with the same momentous power the same nuclear electricity this is where the Raven comes in you know our sages say there's an expression instruction of Crisco a rave we say every morning and domina you remember we mentioned the Raven you remember we're in the hallelu cause of Socrates indra from the end of tehilim what do we say there are a foolish for delay of Meghan's long learners in our mushrooms and pots I'm a hostage to my involve and God covers the heaven with clouds I'm a Schindler it's Monty prepares rain for the Earth noise in lava Hema laughs my live may I live a Shia crow Hashem provides bread for the animal for the mammals to the children that whoof spring of the Raven will call out what was Springer why mentioning a raven you mentioned all the mammals and animals in the word bahama suddenly you single out one bird one raven why don't you mention on the birds so our sages say something interesting usually in the animal world there's natural instincts of affection and love between mommy and Tata and the offspring this is the instinctive DNA of an animal it will fight for its offspring it will sometimes die for them it will do anything to feed them but their Raven is considered a cruel animal Cyrus Carrera of that the Talmud says that the owner is a Kazari there's a genetic characteristic of cruelty of selfishness to the point that he doesn't know his cure she doesn't always care about feeding the offspring I show you CRO the babies cry out to wash them and I shall make sure that the species of the Ravens can also perpetuate and continue to live and survive and propagate despite the difficult circumstances was every single animal every bird every fish every reptile Hashem created in the mechanism of this animal ability to be able to propagate and to create new generations despite challenges in other areas for the time that are shem wants this species to exist and this we see by the raven it often allows its offspring to find its own means of food and it will not take responsibility for them nonetheless in this case God shows other men have a look at the Raven the Ravens transcended its own genetic makeup and it went to Barry and show respect to a friend another Raven who died this week all have such of MS sometimes I can be cruel but I do you a favor because it's reciprocal I need a favor from you tomorrow right the raven couldn't do it for that reason why because this other raven is dead there's other raven is not gonna be able to help the other raven tomorrow we all understand quid pro quo do you a favorite tomorrow you do me a favor in other words it's a selfish favor but this raven is helping a dead raven this raven will never be able to reciprocate its favor what is this called lesson shall ms authentic kindness true kindness avasthaa nam' baseless love meaning it's not motivated by a rational calculated reason that i'm gonna give you love and i'm gonna get love back now this is absolute infinite uninhibited love in other words i'm not expecting any return that's what other men have a saw in the Raven this in a fascinating way is what gave other men hava not only the motivation but the mentorship the perspective how do you move on in such a world when the Jewish world was destroyed 75 years ago it was a question that faced so many of our parents and so many of our grandparents how do you wake up tomorrow morning after seeing what they saw how do you wake up the next day how somebody I work with told me that her she lost her grandmother a few weeks ago maybe was mrs. Hunger she was 98 years old she lived in Williamsburg she was in Auschwitz taken with her parents her siblings her parents were gassed her brothers were gassed siblings were gassed she arrived with that she survived with her sister from Auschwitz she was a Hungarian Jewish girl they went to Auschwitz in 1944 but she survived afterwards she met her husband who was not able ended they got married the whole story her husband passed away a few years ago in his 90s she was obviously infected by Corona before perception was taken into the hospital NYU listen to the story it's a crazy story her grandma granddaughter told me the story yesterday Sylvia mission escaped from here for Muncie she was taken to the hospital and of course they were put in ventilators and everybody and she a 98 year-old woman said no way no way why she did bigger hilum for 40 years 40 years because Heinlein and she said she told her granddaughter I knew what ventilators are like and you know what she said they told me you're gonna die you're gonna die I said I'm fine I'm 98 years old I lived the fine life I'll die she refused to allow them to put a ventilator they called her son they called her son who lives in Williamsburg and they said if we don't put on a ventilator on your mother she is going to die he said listen my mother has her mind she is sober she is aware she is completely on top of her game she says she doesn't want it respect her wishes you know what happened she didn't put it on she was the only one who survived she tells her granddaughter she says everybody there died much younger than her relatives of her and their 60 said she's the only one who survived I'm not making judgments here in anybody I don't know I'm not a doctor I'm not a medical expert and in this area I think the knowledge is was still to the spoke plenty of ignorance we have to figure things out I'm not here I'm not here making the judgment about anything I'm just telling you a story a week later she was out of the hospital she celebrated pastes up with her family with her son's family she continued to live function on Kimmel Thomas the third day of Thomas she passed away in her sleep 98 years old exactly the way she wanted peaceful in her sleep in her own home and her family huge family Baruch Hashem paid their last tribute and bid farewell to her and a granddaughter tells me at the funeral there was a lot of sadness but there was also a lot of gratitude for such a life that was well lived here is a woman 98 years old came out of the worst calamity the darkest moment in human history in Jewish history but she was a representative of a whole generation of such women young girls and boys lost everything and then somehow they found within themselves the courage the faith the fortitude not only to wake up the next morning but to get married to build families to raise families and even though they have so many challenges on different levels but nonetheless they would not allow the evil that they saw to blur their vision to create fog in their lives and they became heroes of the Jewish people matriarchs who gave children wisdom perspective morality values faith hope and allowed them to raise their own families with love and dignity and dedication and I'm sure many of them made lots of mistakes and different things happen nothing is perfect that nobody's perfect but you marvel at that we did this come it started with other man however who understood when I see such darkness in the world when I see such hate when they saw the ashes and Auschwitz and treble and can't back up they have to make a choice conscious or subconscious but everybody had to make a choice either I will become a victim of the darkness or I will respond with unprecedented energy of light and love and hope and they chose thank goodness they chose the latter either I will become a victim to this abyss or I will use this as a catalyst and a springboard to bring out for my innermost soul my deepest energy and fortitude and strength and faith and resilience and I will rebuild a Jewish world with pride and love and dignity and bequeath to children and grandchildren and great grandson and great-great grandchildren four thousand years of Jewish hope and faith and heritage yiddish guy terrier mitzvahs the values that have sustained us through thick and thin over the last four millennia when you watch such destruction there's only one way to respond you have to be able to say I I'm going to introduce them to this world infinite love infinite faith infinite hope something that transcends any barriers any limitations because when you see such destruction it's so easy to become part of it in one way or another even if just becoming depressed and other men however have to see an act of absolute greatness with no expectation of reciprocity and this taught on that in the face of such evil there is hope but the only way that could be hope is if you just become single-mindedly dedicated to a life of infinite and absolute love light hope healing and redemption thank you very much have a beautiful day and a beautiful week let me take some questions and let me announce before I take the questions Thursday morning we have a 7:30 morning class we will be discussing two types of life the life of holiness versus a different type of life a life in which you are intrinsically alive and a life in which you're trying to distract yourself from the pain because you're not really intrinsically alive that's our topic Thursday morning 7:30 right here I'm the achiever that met or if you want to join us on the zoom thursday 10 o'clock a.m. we continue our new class in Rambam we begin the fundamental laws of Tyra chapter 1 which is the first chapter of Rambam everybody is invited right here on the yeshiva dotnet let me take some beautiful questions okay here we go I'll start with the chat and then I'm gonna go over to the you should without net questions okay I finally understand now the way your mother dances at weddings with more zest than a teenager thanks so much for that story yes my mother god bless her emulates her mother next question your mother learns from her mother oh that's what I just said once she grabbed once I was at an event and a wedding and your mother this woman is writing to me your mother grabbed me to dance and like you said she danced in a way that I have never experienced before this was I think the wedding of about shuva and she danced with me in an incredibly powerful way I never had such a dance before or after and I want to tell you from that experience I derive strength every single day wow that's very meaningful you should share that with my mother she showed me what true simcha and Alice Easter all looks like and feels like thank you for sharing that that means a lot that's my grandmother and that's my mother yeah okay rabbi thank you very much amazing a huge life lesson okay beautiful this was very inspiring riding all the way from Panama welcome Panama the next class at Rambam will be Thursday okay next question I was in your parents home for Shabbos I met your father of blessed memory and I met your mother may she be well she is amazing thank you thank you I'll tell that to my mother but that's true she is amazing let me go to the next questions the next questions I'm gonna open up okay right here here we go here we go first question Wow great questions okay do we do anything on moistures yard site yes I know that the camera condition does something on my shoes your site Rotten Tomatoes yard site you're our freshman people go to cave arauco that's all true but none of these yard sites are recorded in the tire that's what's so significant we have traditions that Raquel passed away at Olive Cashman the Gemara says that my should passed away sigh you're not there that's true but what as recorded in homage itself obviously is of a different level and different caliber means that God dictated Moishe's yard said he wants every single Jewish child to know moisés yard site okay next question the observance of a yard site by a family of somebody who passed away or by us a vehicle by a goggle or by a father a mother a great figure are today common and known but the date of the art set is not mentioned in homage we art sites observed in ancient generations or is this a new idea that was developed later did they used to visit graves did they celebrate yard set okay that's a very interesting discussion visiting graves is a whole separate discussion by itself there were those who opposed it but the universal Jewish custom has become that we visit grave sites of parents and of silicon and we already see that the sparse colleague went to the Mara soma Fela to pray at the resting place of the of the 'voice we know about Mir on the grave site that we've shown by a high and many others but there were those who opposed it that's true in terms of commemorating a yard site and I think this is something that develops in later generations but my point is that the fact that the Taira mentions aaron's yard site means that IRA wants us to know the day that he passed away and this is significant and we do know that that yard set is a significant day in terms of the influence that the soul has on our people on that day next question the siege on bait r during the bar cultural revolt is also commemorated at this time are we in the midst of such a siege many people are sick the numbers are growing we're in quarantine would you compare it to the siege of beta the siege of beta is a whole different Sangha the siege of beta was Barco revolted against the Romans and the Romans crush the revolt brutally sadistically in the year 136 after the Common Era six decades after the destruction of the second base of McNish according to Roman historians around five hundred and sixty thousand Jews were murdered in beta r there are other figures it was one of the greatest calamities in Jewish history so that's a whole other story and beta are indeed was conquered during this time of the calendar as well next question thank you for the story about your grandmother I can really relate to it I'm watching you today and thank you for the story and thank you for the classes okay thank you thank you next question where is this far summers that I mentioned a similar that I mentioned is in a safe record Lakota Yehuda Paris Marseille you'll see it over there there's a story I want to share with you it was told by the Khoisan bigger ever the chef Italians at South it was an old woman in Krakow before the war she had one request you wanted to be buried in the old cemetery in Krakow we rabbi moisture is siliceous there are ma the 16th century great rabbi of Krakow was buried it wasn't you for two hundred years always she saw whenever she saw someone she knew she used to ask that person please give me a blessing to be buried in the old cemetery everybody blessed her but they laughed because they knew it can't happen the cemetery was not used anymore but she always answered I mean the day she passed away there was heavy rain and heavy flooding it was impossible to bury her in the new cemetery even though they tried there was not working the camera condition had no choice they were forced to bury her body in the old cemetery what she asked for and what she prayed was given to her beautiful beautiful story the bantul thank you very much isn't it amazing that God chose the Raven of all the other possibilities to teach other men cava what to do and how to go on you know that's what we explained that it was precisely the Raven because of its unique its unique characteristics it was precisely the Raven okay next question thank you for the encouragement especially during these times thank you so very much mushiya if is supposed to come in our generation when does this generation end listen we hope and pray that mushiya comes every day Lycia wausaukee V Nicole hi I'm a hakama bakkali I'm Jaiya we especially during this time of the year said the exit site it's about time that the ghoulish should come and take the whole world and think the Jewish people out of exile and I think our job today is to prepare for the gula and most importantly not just to prepare in a passive way but to prepare in an active way which means that we start living the type of life that reflects the world during the gola when the gula comes on mushiya comes we will all experience ourselves as the manifestation of God's light in this world I am God's light in this world you're God's light in this one that's why we will all become one the harmony of the entire universe and the entire planet and all people will be manifest because it will be clear the niggler coin Hashem Viroqua vasa Yaakov kefir and Eber that everybody and everything is a manifestation of divine infinity in this world we can and should start living with consciousness with this attitude with this perspective now so you start living Gulen now and that itself helps rusher in the ultimate world of redemption when the reminder shillelagh will send us machines it can know them hey Rob you may know our main thank you very very much have a beautiful day of course we do any Mitzvah we can do we do more mitzvahs we learn more Torah we give more it sadaqa we bring more light to our lives into the world but I think it's also something fundamental inside a paradigm shift inside my soul my heart and that's what I was talking about you see many of us live with a lot of anxiety and a lot of trauma and a lot of fear and a lot of insecurity and a lot of doubt and a lot of difficult memories and difficult experiences and we respond to life from that place which is human and natural because our brain develops what we call neural pathways of how we react to different situations and different comments and different experiences is it possible for me to actually put us you know eject the old CD and put in a new CD in my brain and the new CD really sees myself and other people and every experience in the world in terms of a night malvada I see myself as an ambassador of Hashem in this world I am a representation of infinity in this world I am infinite not because my ego is big on the contrary because I am a conduit for Hashem infinite light in this world and that's the place from where I make my decisions I speak my words I communicate to myself and others I do my actions i slam i thoughts to flow so when thoughts of anxiety come in and negativity come in and an alienation and jealousy and frustration and resentment that all other forms of negativity they are not allowed to reign supreme on the contrary I look at them I observe them I watch them I can even appreciate them for the information they're giving me but I make sure to allow my innermost divine core to become Manifest and to really make healthy make the choices of how to pursue my life at this very moment and when I look at those voices of toxicity instead of seeing them as enemies I realize no they are also manifestations of divine light because they are here to teach me something that I have to work on every time I'm getting the thought of anxiety or depression or negativity or hate or anger or whatever it is it's also God's manifestation it's teaching me something I have to work on something that is unresolved maybe something that I have to deal with and confront and heal from so we must we start living in a world of absolute oneness of absolute harmony and in the practical way it means that I should be able to actually tell myself I am NOT my anxiety I am NOT my thoughts I am NOT my fear I am NOT my challenges I am NOT my trauma I'm not even my body I'm not even every emotion that I have I am not my emotions and my thoughts and my trauma and my family insecurities and my envy and my anxiety and my depression I am NOT those Who am I I am divine infinity in this world even if right now I'm having sensations that are very bothersome and very disturbing and very negative and if I can go into that place and treat all those negative sensations with compassion and know that even they are really alarm clocks they are alarms a lot they are sounding alarms from Hashem to wake me up to a deeper place of living that means living with the harmony of a night Malvado right now that is living in a world of Google the living in a world of machines oh and I can live that way and I relate to other people that way I see others that way and I see every event from this perspective everything changes your world changes you live in a world of rightness you live in a world of oneness you live in a world of godliness that I think is the great calling and opportunity of our time of our day we we discussed this a lot in our early morning class seven-thirty that we do Monday and Thursday and Friday we we explore this if you listen to the class I did the Monday morning it's on the yeshiva net it says I said this Monday what is Bittle the second half of the class we explored this at length that may be helpful I'm gonna be continuing on this theme also Thursday morning 7:30 a.m. on the issue with that met so you're welcome to join us with a cup of coffee or a cup of tea or just a cup of warm water will also do the job the fact that cataleya says that's probably better a cup of warm water is probably better for your metabolism and for your circulatory system and their justice system right doctor okay so we have here a comment from South Africa another Wow class I am from Johannesburg this morning I woke up and I was battling to feel the let's get out of bed let's move on I went down to have breakfast I share my breakfast with my computer usually playing Scrabble I opened my email there was your email tears were flowing down my eyes God sent me the cure your class your presentation the cure for a not happy day was your message thank you thank you for responding to my email and right here I and I am thanking you for all of this thank you listen we are all conduits of hashem to bring light into the world and bring kindness and bring hope and bring healing every single one of us is an agent of God's compassion to bring compassion and hope into the world that's what all of us are here for each and every one of you and us is an ambassador of the creator of the world an ambassador to bring love light hope healing redemption faith truth as we always say so this is this is what we should be doing and when you live an operate on that level of consciousness you will always find incredible opportunities with yourself with your family with your community and with the world there's incredible opportunities to to Kindle sparks to embrace hearts to ignite minds and to empower souls so let's get on with our day and do just that cuz that this shop is the shop how's that how's that cuz I and these has a be strong be strong and let's strengthen each other [Music] this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help 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