How Your Dreams Can Heal You - Torah Or Vayeishev "Shir Haamalos" - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

the yeshiva.net [Music] which is this week's parachute uh page 156 s [Applause] a this is a mimer of the balatanya the balagula of today which he said in the year tough summer that would mean 1804. why does this possible come into territory passions by asia of course the ant serious passionate vaishev is a parish of dreams [Music] at some point in vaiisha in in parish safer predations everyone starts dreaming the early parties there's not too many dreams at some point the dreams begin already has a dream at the end of a yates a loved one has a dream and uh in vaiisha very everybody is dreaming joseph has a dream yosef has another dream the butler has a dream the baker has a dream pirate dreams one dream another dream reality shifts to dreams so he starts over deposit from tehillim of course we all know the past section is what does this mean what does it mean are you we will look at ourselves that it was and see ourselves as dreamers we will experience it all as a dream what does this mean the definition of a dream is that it's not in reality a person wakes up from a terrible dream and then they sigh they relax they breathe they breathe they have a sigh of relief because they realize it was all a dream it's not reality it's fictional it was just in your mind in your imagination but you can say that all of jewish history was a dream i mean it's all a dream so there's different explanations what does it mean are you nuka is going to give a perspective what's this a unique helmet and it will then tie into the uniqueness of yosef atsadek who was the great dreamer of the balachallonas if you analyze a dream you know that dreams are unique what do dreams do they bring together two opposites in one theme things that can't co-exist the dream makes peace between them o mark the dream brings together paradoxes as though they work together as though they weren't mutually exclusive how does this happen you all know you wake up from a dream and things that were impossible to go this is suddenly co-existing you're at home but in your house in your house you're in your house with the people living in your house but you're also in another country you could be in two separate places and somehow both of those places are in the same place in the same dream things that in reality if you scrutinize if you put that under the micro if you put it under the the lens of reality it doesn't make sense in the column it's perfect how does this happen what does the dream do to be able to allow this what happens is when a person falls asleep the kayak has the intellectual ability to distinguish to discriminate mafra from the word to examine to test and to create separation is gone what remains is the imagination of imagination can be market can bring together can synthesize paradoxes he's going to give an example of what a person may dream about this is 1805. fina ratza ba'avir you want to travel you get into a boat but the boat flies boat flies it's exactly a hundred years before the wright brothers gave us the sphina but you hear what he was dreaming about sveena rotsaba the spheno is flying in the air today it's not a dream anymore i was yesterday on the svenerotsuba i'm going to be tonight on a spinner on sabbah it's not a dream sometimes it looks like a dream commercial in the proc raksha bahakas when you wake up when you wake up you say why did they give credit to wright brothers yeah they actually did it 1902 1903 1903 i believe raksha bahakats when you wake up what happens to make all these tricks because in the eye of your mind you see clearly these are separate things and they cannot come together so even though the power of imagination is fertile even during the day but during the day you have a counter force of the kaye haseko which meddles into your imagination and says hey dude you're getting carried away it doesn't work this way if you're here you're here if you hear you hear this happen it didn't happen when you go to sleep that shuts down when it shuts down you're free to fly like a bird completely no problem why you say it doesn't make sense it doesn't work on paper it's not reality who says that reality is reality has its reality says excuse me i have to conform to the standards of reality that we see with our eyes we feel with our five senses and therefore challenges the madame and it doesn't allow it doesn't allow it to express itself fully of course there are people who are sleeping during the day they don't have they don't have any duty they don't have to um they don't have a pledge of allegiance to kaiju hasselhoff they are always in kayak yeah it's fine somebody once told the ponova jerov he was a a dreamer and he was a builder so somebody once said ponovich holland you're dreaming he says ms i'll be schloffnes it's true that i'm dreaming but it's not in the middle of my sleep i'm dreaming while i'm sober i'm dreaming i'm dreaming during the daytime so during the day he says gets overpowered it's not it's still there but it gets overpowered by a stronger dictator's force the kayak has doesn't let it get out of control and frankly somebody who does let it get out of control we don't we start giving names to this person even though everybody really doesn't but as long as you do it in your sleep we have no issue with it you wake up and you say that i have a dream everybody's fine but if you start defining that as daytime reality then they start giving you all types of diagnosis all types of names what's the difference difference is you open your eyes once you open your eyes you get out of bed and you put on your suit now you have to conform to the dictates of reality that the aryan haseko says this is reality this is akdama what a columnist but the embassy is that this is really a symbol a metaphor of the whole experience in ghalos nitsuta lakus beneficales we're talking about here it always starts with a personal exile the spark of godliness and the human soul is in exile a person is in a state of sleep and is talking their awareness departs from them is your sense of awareness somewhat departure doesn't mean there's no awareness and there was no awareness the person wouldn't be able to live the brain still functions and in some ways functions in a very profound way but there's a certain level of sober awareness of calculated organized awareness which as we see is about the hierarchy everything has its classification this is here and this is here and don't mix the two that's what a dream does if i'm in australia i'm not in new york if i'm in new york i'm not in israel and if i'm in israel i'm not in california in the dream you have no issues like this in a dream you're alive and you're dead you're here and you're there and you meet this person you meet the other person one moment you're doing a deal here the next moment you'll be calling a different country in a different lifetime but you wake up now the power of awareness which is very discriminating and wants you to conform to reality takes over and godliness is the shot when there's a time of sleep so therefore the level of awareness is somewhat less somewhat dulled based the definition of galaxy is not talking about a psychological spiritual exile what is definition of godless you're dreaming what does it mean you're dreaming opposites coexist in your life perfectly and you have no no problem with it there's no issue we call today cognitive dissonance i have no problem there's this thing and there's this thing there are two opposites and they both sit very comfortably in me that's because i'm asleep what does this mean he says look at people's life leo is called a whole day the person is stressed out in business ishle beats every person trying to make his buck betsah means money my bets are very interesting the islamic everybody is trying to make his dollar me cut sail that pointless it's an expression of khazal this one is looking for his olive and this one is looking for his uh his his vine this one is looking for his fig tree now that every person has their their issue their their partner their muscle martin that they want to they want to produce even though by david he's talking a serious person so he has a moment of dampening where he arouses to divest herself from all of the cloaks all of the garments the cleft hashem because of the mindful meditation and either the higher level of unity or the lower level of unity which generally in the torah of the valatanya one of the biggest sadnesses based on the zoya that has two ways of experiencing god's oneness one is called the higher consciousness of unity the lower consciousness of unity it's the difference between shema yesterday is a higher consciousness of unity para shame is a lower consciousness of unity now it's a long and have very loaded suit i'm just going to say one of art just to put it in context and that is basically if you want to use the yeshiva course the search for i the search for i the search for self or the famous man's search for meaning man's search for self-discovery and one of the paradigms of torah especially terrorism especially to this is that in the search for self to find who you are ultimately you have to find god because that's who you are the search for self is really a search for god and the search for god is really a search for self because the self is an expression of divine energy sorry literally means from me from my life i'll see god he says sorry means from my flesh the flesh was always in philosophy was always deemed as something inferior as a piece of garbage you know buster the flesh the animal part of you the goof and the ultimate is to leave the goof but he said okay sorry excellent he said without shine in the bus or bismuth you have to sand your flesh excavate it until you'll perceive god in your flesh in other words if you'll really search deep into yourself you'll find hashem that's ye that's a lower consciousness of youth even though between you and i it's a pretty high consciousness trust me but relative to you it's a it's a lower consciousness of unity is the other way around once said i mentioned i think last night god is out and else is god god is everything and everything is god god is everything as ye everything is god god is god you start with everything and then you reach god is the perspective of complete oneness where there's no self that's struggling with finding out who it is and it discovers it's an expression of hashem is complete oneness this complete absolute oneness with the independence didn't emerge yet as a separate reality as a separate being it's completely part of oneness so there's no consciousness and struggle with a world that you're trying to make peace between the world and god so he says whether somebody meditates on you either way by davening they're capable of arousing a love and the love is so deep that you want to especially that's what love is love is i hate my garments i don't want to stay stuck lavushem here is a metaphor it doesn't mean the specimen of washed mamash have to take off your clothes even though we have in the tanakh you know what they would do they would they would naked they would take over their clothes they didn't want any any blockages any blockages but here he's talking about spiritually the idea is that the person doesn't want to be connected to anything that holds them back from the love they want to completely fly away they want to completely be in love they want to completely melt away in the experience of the other and the experience of hashem he says a person is capable of that avataringtophila but what happens is so here he's talking about a person who has genuine experiences but after davening it's all gone the ainu is some lolita he doesn't even realize he's now in a state which is completely contrary to the mindfulness that it was during it in his heart he brings together paradoxes as though they were warned really when you put it under the lens of reality it's two separate opposite remote realities it says what are you saying it's opposite same toyota that speaks about hashem says for six years you should plant your field the same it's part of serving god this is the way a person serves hashem on the seventh year smith is the way you serve hashem in the six years the way his six days is shabbos because throughout the six years there are very called avoid of birmingham of selection of elevating of sublimating of separating and then there's the seventh year when everything goes back to its source like shabbos and it's all about kavanaugh saleh that gamaka of krishna is not detached from the avas hashem but the heart of the masses who gravitate after the money lahath left him in order to find and discover the prey of the bread of what they need literally a lot of pros here he says pros he their heart does not imagine it this way their heart doesn't follow it this way he says what happens is it's a new person it's a person who suddenly sees his physical material needs as the key of life is where he was completely in love with god there was no mixture of anything alien and if that would continue he would go to work that's not an issue the problem is not the work the problem is the paradigm behind it the perspective behind it if it's a helicopter hashem then the money and the food and the grain and it is all part of his relationship with god that's avoided here he's dealing with that paradox that a person somehow in his mind deals in two separate realities one moment one moment the davenink he really really has a genuine love to hashem where there's nothing else that matters and it's such a deep love he wants to take it and divest himself from all garments from all concealments from all burdens and from all attachments that don't allow him to fully experience the love he wants to completely soar and that's real and then after darwining he sits down to eat the omelet and he forgets everything he suddenly comes into the office and there's a whole new reality whoa whoa whoa you just had a recognition of a night mulvade you just had a recognition that god has won yehudah and now his wife tells him something boom it's all gone what's the question if it's continuous then it's continuous itself and it's not that way you see that's the definition of god the definition of god is of the spark of holiness in the goddess is the spark of allah says that a person has the state of a column what's the state of a column then of a column is i live in opposite realities and they both coexist in my life and somehow that's how it is that's reality for me reality doesn't make sense reality i go from one extreme i go to another extreme even though if i put it under the lens of scrutiny it's like what are you really what are your real priorities what do you really believe what is your real value system are you this person or are you that person who are you if it's taka continuing then that's not enough to be right that's the contrast he's addressing so what would most people tell you now most people would say or many people would say and this is what we often tell ourselves you're a hypocrite you're a liar you're a delusional person you're a dreamer you're a dreamer we know who you are however people are manipulative and the first person you manipulate is always yourself klutzka said like knife the first thing like significance yeah don't steal from yourself don't deceive don't do geneva's dos to yourself so basically what's happening is you have a moment of idealism but you know that it's fake vahraya an hour later your wife makes a comment and suddenly the selfless idealist became a narcissistic beast so what happened what happened you go into work and somebody says something somebody does somebody sends a text an email and suddenly you forgot everything so one moment there was a hergish of yehuda tattoo there's oneness and then a moment later the person is in a very different mode so they have to say one is a false reality and one is a real reality so which one is the false which one is the real one they say the feeler was obviously a very external superficial reality and then you sober up you wake up from your dream and you figure out who you are that's how one season person should not get depressed lipo means your heart shouldn't fall down loima to say okay you understand that this is a response to people who would come to him and they would say i captain i can't figure out who i am am i an animal or am i a human being am i selfish am i selfless am i divine or am i earthy do i have a sense of god's unity or i'm completely detached from it who am i he says don't feel so bad don't let your heart fall down you come to the conclusion that all of this irish you ever had is a demian shove you know what a demian shove means vain imagination it's a foolish dream dimi in his imagination shove means it's it's it's nothing it's futile it's nothing it's meaningless don't say this it's like a dream you take dreams seriously people who take dreams seriously have a serious problem you wake up from the dream how long does it take to figure out it wasn't a dream if you had a nightmare it takes some time 60 seconds right you're trembling you screamed and you sleep anybody here has nightmares you had last night no not after that okay good at least not last night but you wake up you're sweating you're nervous you just got you know people just die whatever they almost they don't usually die but they almost die and when they're about to die you know the trigger was pulled they wake up so something it takes 10 seconds but after 2-3 minutes you wake up thank god it was a dream if you wake up what about a person who takes the dream a whole day wherever they go they're still dreaming so obviously there's something we call this a clinical situation i mean there are terms for it it's a clinical situation it's a person not living in reality dr ebba says he woke up he woke up kehine but afterwards he's completely transformed he loves his body now again loving the body is not a bad thing but it's like the work if the goof is a helicopter [Music] the body is holy but he's talking about love is goofy the person completely detaches their outer self from their inner self lev is goofing means they love the outer shell of their body they don't see their body as a continuum of their soul their body becomes a completely self-contained reality which actually betrays the body too because a healthy body is a body that reflects the sultan right the famous martial that's brought to consider is that uh when a person as one source aided one over a big grove went over to the lobster river and he gave him some he said he filters it in yiddish he said v filters which literally translated means how do you feel yourself v filters so he says asthma filth how do you know that you're not healthy explain to the person if you feel your pinky what does it mean it means there's a boo-boo if you feel your head means you have a headache a person let's say has a good workout and they feel great what do they feel they don't feel they don't feel their body the body is one with the soul the more one with the soul it is the less you feel it the more you feel it it means it's detached from its source of life is established it's actually a sign of hospital and affection or fatigue or exhaustion or illness or even just heaviness if i start feeling my body it actually means my body is not the way it should be when it's the way it should be in an optimal health you don't feel it so self-consciousness is a sign of detachment from self so when he says lev is goofy when the body is one with the soul then it's a different type of goof what happens is after dominating he becomes a different type of person here was a person who was focused internally and i was a person completely focused externally the body wants something and he jumps for it sits down for breakfast it was he spent three hours in the morning learning davening learning he became one with himself then he goes to the to the breakfast or to work and it's all gone it's all lost suddenly his external habits cravings inclinations and instincts completely overwhelm them it's all gone so the whole consciousness that was there is simply wiped over the map and this happens i'm going to be a month and a month it could be a year and a year it could be a week and a week and with some people it could be minute to minute or hour to hour so he says how they move on you're not sober you're not awake you're in dreamland in dreamland opposites coexist really they're mutually exclusive you're just not aware of anything when you're not living in reality you allow paradoxes to co-exist and both of them are real for you but you have to at some point wake up and be honest with yourself and say you never had a daughtering in your life you don't even have that experience because if it was real now what happened 20 minutes later you're mamish in the abyss what happened even if you're feeling your body now it's just like a demi never disappears then you say you have a co-authored wolf which obviously also never disappeared right like right even by dominating the ava that you were experiencing it was a demon it was like in a column and that's why five minutes later 10 minutes later in the office he'll backstab he'll cheat till gossip what happened you were in a different space you weren't in a different space you wanted to be in a different space the environment maybe was there was like a delusion it's called celestial delusions heavenly delusion but it's really halamis and the question here is really a very fundamental one how much should you believe in your idealism because you're going to get disappointed how much did you believe in other people's idealism some people have a philosophy they don't trust anybody first person they don't trust is themselves second person is their wife third is their kids and then the world of course you don't trust because then somebody once told me he says i don't trust so i don't get disappointed and of course it starts with yourself we call it cynicism cynicism says i'm not a dreamer cynics say cynics will always tell you we live in reality we don't live in dreams we live in reality reality everybody betrays your friend today is an enemy tomorrow he was your best friend you see it sometimes and it's tragic right you see people or mama's best friends something happens in business something happens between a family amish he didn't give him it's over 20 years later he didn't give him it huh yeah he says not to say that right aiming yes you want to spoil the whole uh the whole thing you should say ah this ms if he starts that you shouldn't say it then you missed the point there it's an ms what i'm saying is true it's a column it's a paradox the person could come and tell himself so the whole thing is worthless and the real issue comes up with young people older people usually become a little more cynical they've been around the block and they stop getting excited by things you know they'll sometimes sit and sit with older people seasoned people you'll sit with them at meetings they already heard everything they become what's called jaded the word is jaded place was jaded mate what's the yiddish word for jaden who's jaded it's like yeah it's it's in a way it's not you don't even have to be cynical martin nothing gets you nothing moves you anymore nothing moves you if you walk with a little kid to shul yeah we'll say wow look look look right there's something red on the earth and he gets excited let's go you know we're already after being short because there's lunch because there's a nap because it's already sunday afternoon in casco you're not walking on from surely it's already you know three years down the line i have to marry you off there's no something called living in the moment you're jaded it's like let's just you know another day bites the dust you're exhausted you don't you're not interested in anything so but young people are not jaded because they have rituals they have the passion of youth so you'll often have teenagers especially the boys in yeshiva and this they get very very excited with their possibilities but of course a week later a month later a year later they discover that they're uh they're just regular people sometimes it kills them because they tell themselves i want to be honest and if i'm honest with myself i can't justify both realities in the same heart and live a true life unless i become an actor or on the other extreme you become disillusioned so this is really the question it's a question in every day's life it's a question about a personality especially it's true with perfectionists perfectionist this kills them what's a perfectionist everything has to be perfect and suddenly you see you're on top of the mountain and an hour later there's nothing happening that acknowledgement is very painful it's very humbling continues he says kadarka he's now going to turn it all around he may and after so he was extremely um the word is not similar he was extremely uh not critical but he was extremely uh emphatic he's never critical but he's the paradox about the contradictions you have to know who you are do you love god whether you love money do you love truth or do you love falsehood do you love depth or do you love superficiality there's paradoxes of synthesizes fiction ms but the cherish of a column is rooted in a place called harire kurdish alien say it also before you start right here that day god will be one and his name will be one we say it every day before you stab us and if you go to a real show they'll give you an oh yeah you ever heard that you grew up with it his name is one now his name is not one what he has now not one name that's nico maria and for the gemara mashani today my name is not one the way i'm written is not the way i'm pronounced utke vof k is not how you pronounce yut kevke we don't say yud kevke we say adna we give a different name it's written one way pronounced a different way we don't even know how it was i'm all pronounced as manhabayas it was pronounced in a different way but then it was hidden well i said love the way i'm written is the way i'll be pronounced what's the concept of this what's the big deal his name is it can't be pronounced the way it's written the way it's pronounced is never an expression of the way it's written written is the way it's on paper pronounced is the way i express it what we're expressing is not that which is written on the parchment there's a fragmentation between the written word and the pronounced word it comes through as a sheath generally is a time of slumber and awareness is somewhat aloof it departs class clilon julie class clearly is an expression in cabola that the fetus in the womb of its mother is recoiled it's rolled up where uh the head is so to speak class the higher organs and limbs are recoiled and rolled up in the lower organs so they're not visible for us during sleep the neshama it says in madrid goes up and gets a new dosage of life from above and there things are circles circles don't have a higher place and a lower place a beginning or an end everything is equal will be the scholarly integrated this there could be two opposite views bashar missile they're both words of the living god rakish there are when the energy comes down through lines not through circles then you have a division you have the right line you have the left line in the circles everything that below will become split up over there is completely integrated and you can absolutely not see any period in history he's introducing here a concept called igulim versus kavan or sometimes it's called yoshi egula means circles yoshi means straight lines a cave is a straight line it's of course symbolic in a circle yeah any way you'll put the circle any position you'll put it it's always exactly the same it's not like if you put it upside down or on the right or in the left it changes in other words the top the bottom the right the left it's all uniform that's what an eagle is a cava line yeah with something that's made up of lines so then it depends on the position you have right you have left you have milo you have manta it represents two stages of reality divine the divine himself is undefined therefore divine energy in its pristine state is in a state of evil a state of eagle means there's absolutely no distinction between things because there's no definition if the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear as is which is pure infinity and since it's pure infinity so there's no division between one reality and another reality because it's all part of the world of egul but our world is based on structure on classifications there's right and is left there's higher and is lower there's normal and is not normal this day and this night everything is based on classifications and that's how a healthy organism functions everything has its role its function its purpose and there is duality this fragmentation you are you and i am in the world of igulim he says there's no milo mata there's no higher and lower everything is part of one reality and there's no distinction however iguala doesn't remain in a golem it comes down through once it comes down through kavim now you have to have a scalpel now you have to have division so he says what happens now is as follows is there any way that we can access igullum down here it's only when we go to sleep only in your sleep can you access the place of egulan because the awareness is absolute is compromised alzheimer's says i'll be s which means i will dress the heaven with darkness the heavens represent the gulab hamilton so then in the time of sleep there's a spark from the world of igulim which is expressed in the dream the dream in your imagination paradox has become one you know why luffy's bashar shambhala mali and him because really in a certain state of reality the paradoxes are one of them in the world of egulan there's no paradox so not a paradox once reality imposes lines on circles now this is opposite i'm sorry you can't co-exist once you hit consciousness which is called you have to graduate from a gulen if not we call you a crazy person once consciousness takes over consciousness is based on structure consciousness is based on division on distinctiveness you have to put things in places if not you can't live everything has context and that's what we call organized people cohesive people normal people structured people there's hierarchies schedules responsibilities duties you place yourself some of your placements everyone has a place and a space and if you start bringing in the other worlds it's absolute chaos we say the role of our dos is so the moment you wake up you have to say goodbye to the world of egulan this is where coven begin it only begins and then it goes it morphs into more concrete and more concrete you have to go to sleep the stalkers are moistened because of the problem of golos it allows you to access something because you have less consciousness so you can actually access something deeper as i miss notes you have a light of the higher url but the only way it comes into our world is it's concealed through what he's saying here it's very deep the kitschy is saying as follows real reality is egulan there's no distinction there's no classification everything is one but god is one but the name is not one name is your name your expression this is how he's written and there's how it's pronounced where it says now what's written and what's pronounced as two separate names it's not the same name because the world we live in is a world of distinctions that's how you live and that's how you have to live and that's what we call a normal consciousness that functions a functional consciousness we always distinguish between a person who's functional and not functional what's the difference everyone has chaos in their life but the question is how much control they have you know how how easy is it for you to put it in the box and not let it come out or how many symptoms do you have of absolute chaos emerging where can chaos emerge only in a dream why on one level we're we're criticizing the dream we're saying you're basically not sober you're not in reality you're dreaming you're dreaming so in australia and new york and it's morning and it's night and it's the same and it's the same reality even though it's not to say on one level on another level he says what's really happening is because you're sleeping so therefore this is talking your level of awareness is is duller it's so to speak to the shaman goes up and you're not completely connected so there's a ray there's a remnants there's a trace of the level of a gulen where there's no distinctions night and day geography space time logic all these things the distinctions don't exist and that's what the dream opens you up to however in a state of consciousness that can't continue because if it does continue the person can't function in a conscious way they can't live in a normal world because we don't live in a world of egula we live in a world of when i fall asleep and my consciousness so to speak goes up a notch which on one level it's a personal because i'm not integrated i cannot respond i'm not responsible i'm in other word loyal but i'm not responsible on the same level you don't make decisions when you're asleep right it's not a good idea to make decisions that's when a person can tune into egulum and that's the secret of the color so even on one level the column is not reality on another level the column is real reality but when you wake up the column stops spiritually speaking what does this mean in a time when everything is seen clearly there's no room for paradoxes this is abu sashem and this is the opposite in a state of gullus where there's a certain form of slumber the person combines paradoxes on one level it's because of immaturity it's because you're not in touch with reality and therefore paradoxes are combined on another level he says it's our way of accessing egulan in an incomplete world in a dark world a gulem are accessed through darkness they're accessed through concealment not through revelation but now we come to the next step in the future your teacher will not be eclipsed khan office lavush a kind of like arbor confess your teacher won't have a con of he won't have a lover the name won't be eclipsed in a sheath it'll be pronounced like it's written he i am behind you suddenly people will realize what happened in ghalos everybody will realize that the kills they experience in dulles which is called the time of sleep was really the dream this was the secret so on one level it becomes because it's gullis and goddess is a time of sheena but because it's a time of shina time of sleep so therefore shiraham allah is they'll be able to look back and define it as what as a column and because it was a column therefore even though the column is painful because it combines paradoxes which seems that you're just living in a delusion the ms is that really you're accessing a space that is beyond paradoxes where paradoxes are completely synthesized we can't even speak about two opposites because the moment you define them as opposites you're imposing the human conscious vocabulary on reality and in golos you have access to a vocabulary that is not defined by vocabulary why not because you're less in touch with truth but because you have an access to a deeper truth so the person who's dreaming [Music] operates in paradoxes one moment i'm on a high the other moment i'm on a low i look in the mirror and i say i'm a crazy or i'm a liar or i'm delusional that's what i am either you this or you this is a passion you're actually experiencing england egulim doesn't have my law mata does not get afraid from paradoxes it's completely not afraid of paradoxes not afraid of contradictions because it's actually a space where there's no contradictions contradictions is created by our dualities and we're uncomfortable in this place and in an opposite place so therefore we either go here we go here unless we're dreaming what happens in gullah says is a paradigm that itself is a paradox because there is a diluted state of spiritual consciousness so on one level it's dark a person is dreaming but just like in sleep because i'm sleeping so therefore i go to a space in which the hierarchy of the world of gili doesn't exist so therefore in my dream i can experience two opposites and i'm at peace with it but then when i wake up i tell myself you can't do that you can't do that why can't you do that because this world doesn't tolerate that reality the dream world of egulum does tolerate that reality but you can't do it in this world unless you're dreaming in the dream world you so to speak get detached from this reality so the dream has no problem with it why does a dream have no problem with it because actually time is that in the dream world it's taking not a paradox it's just this world is like the dictatorship in the sense it says you can't be like this it's either or either it's this or this so therefore you have to make choices so you have to make choices so you go to the lowest common denominator and you say by davening i was a liar and after darwining by breakfast or in business my true self emerged but the embassy is that there's a deeper perspective and the deeper perspective is that what you're experiencing in gallus which is really this paradoxes it's not either or you can't look at it as either or either this is true this is true and since i'm not this i must be this that's not the case so even though we're experiencing as we're experiencing it as a tension because we pit one against the other but the ms what's happening is that in gullis you have a taste of hayinuke of a state where actually paradoxes are not seen as paradoxes anymore because those are words that we impose on our experiences do you understand what drug is saying huh so uh so now i want to ask you so what do you tell yourself so you darwin you had absolutely and then the day continues and suddenly you find yourself being a new person complete opposite what is he trying to say how should you process that information how should you process it according to his heart we know how we process it we process it through guilt we always press it through guilt you see i'm a liar i'm a liar i'm a liar i'm a liar i'm a liar i'm not even going to try that's how we process it saying don't process it that way you're processing it through this either or very powerful stick that you have with this argue this side you're my enemy or my friend he says that whole process has to go you have to process it differently how should you process it logically let's see our logic not logically so what does the person tell himself you're excited you're able to access a deeper reality of yourself this is what it is and therefore that's good that's it this purpose for my fall also exactly we're still a work in private yes it's all part of my journey right yeah and therefore it's really one with what i experienced before now how that translates practically sometimes i have to resist it doesn't mean to embrace everything as holy right suddenly in the office i become a shark and i say oh that's also true now i'm a shark let me kill that's not what he's saying don't give up on yourself right don't give up on yourself don't look at yourself as detached from the divine energy because divine energy looks this way how do you know what divine energy looks like how do you know what it looks like how do you know what god looks like maybe sometimes it doesn't look so idealistic in the world of egulim there's nothing that's detached there's nothing that's disconnected in the world of hierarchies of course this is right this left this is good this is bad this is a low state it's a this is a high state it's a low state it's a very low state this is a horrible state why do you call why are you calling it a horrible state why are you being so judgmental of it judgmentalism of it is what destroys it so you'll say well what do you mean it's gullis it's because it's because i'm in a lower state that saddam doesn't have this he says you're right because sadiq lives in a world of revelation he's in touch with everything and when you're in touch with everything in this world there's a world of structure when you're asleep so the concealment is what allows us access to a much deeper place of reality that's when mashiach comes after gullus it's not that mashiach is you go back to a place before gallus that's not mashiach is you reveal that the goddess is googler you reveal that gullus gave you an access to an energy that you couldn't have without it but now it looks like gullus now it looks like you're sleeping now the way it translates itself is through goals through darkness you're asleep when you're awake you don't do this you can't do it the only way you can do it is when you go to sleep but when you go to sleep what are you accessing exiting a much deeper space of reality what happens in google is that in your consciousness you could access it and you could see what you accessed in dollars in other words mashiach is revealing the energy of golos but in golus it was translated in through pain through a form of darkness you were asleep in other words there's the tension there's the paradox it's because i don't know who i am it's because god is so concealed but really you're tuning into an energy of absolute oneness that's the depth of haying that's why they say i'm gonna tell you about literature of arts but it really it's really uh it's a voice for this verse i've written the brisker of they asked if risky rob was once talking said what's up what's up it's really not a literary fight it's a risk of work more than a little it's a very good voice he said like this he said is there anybody here who you ever had a dream i'm sure most jews you had a dream that you were in the holocaust anybody you were in the concentration camps especially if you read books on the holocaust what the nazis did sometimes people dream about it and you wake up in a concentration camp right you expect your whole family is gone khalil i mean what the jews went through you know what i'm talking about and it's the worst of the worst it's beyond the nightmare it's the worst of the worst you wake up oh thank god i'm in united states you know thank god we're in america right with all of our issues in america global warming thank god i'm an american it takes maybe five minutes you're still trembling you're still seeing the visions of of the ss and their dogs and what happens afterwards an hour late i mean if you're more or less what we would call a functional person you forgot about it maybe maybe tomorrow night's going to come back but you're late you go to work you take a shower you go you do what you got to do you move on the brisker off said what about a person who was in the concentration camps you tell them oh it's time to go to work let's go it's time together anybody who grew up with survivors or grandchildren of survivors knows doesn't work that way there were jews who would scream every night for 50 years the middle of the night some of you know them personally they would scream every night for 50 years what's the difference because the difference is you had a dream and you were in reality it's a difference you were in a column you in reality a column i wake up ten minutes later it never happened it did but in terms of its impact it never happened reality did happen when it didn't had happened the healing by mashiach will be so powerful that the jewish people will be able to extricate themselves from the trauma of gullus as though it was a dream even though it wasn't a dream it was two thousand years of suffering the healing will be so powerful that they'll be able to liberate themselves from the trauma as though it was a color as though it was a dream just like we have a horrible dream and it's crazy and in the dream you died and everyone died and your world came to an end in the dream you're sweating buckets you're hollering you're screaming you're terrified you wake up you jump out of bed you start feeling yourself i'm alive you start checking on your kids right nobody broke into the house the house is not on fire whoa thank god okay and ten minutes later you forgot about it yeah you forgot don't try next kids already hollering they're terrorizing they got to take them to the bus it's all over you don't have time you got to go somebody got to cover the bills so what happened it was a column it says will be that state that's what he said how does that happen how does that happen how does a person heal from trauma in a way that they could look at it to dream and not because we're insensitive that we're not doing insensitivity somebody said i just move on come on i'm talking about that that's why it's only beshover it was it happened but they should be able to liberate themselves so much and not be able to experience it that way so this is a very very profound experience it's an extremely profound experience how can somebody can a person even achieve that it's not a simple thing that's why it says but part of it has to do with the fact what he's saying here that the column essentially the whole goddess is called the column not because it's not real it's very real and it's profoundly real and sometimes it's profoundly painful but the vart is that gullah doesn't take you away from galas gula re-interpret scholars it doesn't take you away from the experience it just gives you an interpretation of the experience and that allows the experience itself to become something that you see in different ways so it's not sad the ghoul is a new beautiful world no it's a new world which usually have to be concealed in our world because we live in a world of structure that's how god wanted it we don't live in a world of ego and we live in a structured world that's how it is i am i and you are you we can't make believe everything is one and oneness really everything is one that's the truth people who live on that level are really living truth but in our world what do we call them call them because we call me suga anything that threatens the hierarchy right but really sometimes you hear people screaming things and they're you know they're thrown out of sugar really they speak the truth right they just say it too much they're unfiltered we have to filter everything in a column you're not filtered you're not filtered you go to that core the way we access unfiltered reality is through difficulty through challenge this is it's an element of sleep you're not you're not fully conscious that's how we access it but in google you'll be able to access it in a cohesive fashion so that the oneness will be able to come out in a revealed way so you'll be able to say and say ah it was a column so melee says don't get so judgmental about yourself that you go from one extreme to another extreme because on one level you could just say you're nothing you're a nobody on another level you could say you're giving that you're given a taste of equality which has to do with the concern of godless just like you don't dream when you're awake you don't dream and you're awake you're not supposed to dream when you're awake i mean people daydream a lot especially if you're in a sheer but it's a survival survival mechanism you're looking back acknowledging growth once upon a time we could only access the gulen when we were homeless yes now look how far we've come yes yes yes so now it finishes now is the last point i just want to finish the last lines now you'll understand why jacob and joseph don't stop dreaming he's getting now into a profound discussion here which we're going to have time right now but he says it says in kabul not even a view with the queen of yours they came to moshe and they said where tame the people who dealt with nadav navi's body became tummy and they couldn't be mac of the carbon pesos nephesh is was superior than him that means joseph had a mildly even over maisha bazaar cast of new year possible god leads the shepherd the flock joseph in other words the jews are called the isis the way our situation is in goloz's we're led through joseph joseph is the dreamer the dreamer is iguala hey nickra ben pirus when yaakov speaks to joseph his deathbed he calls him ben piracious pirates comes from where charm he's a son of charm of appeal of pain after the king but poetry is poiser the typher poiser is somebody who interprets dreams toy for somebody who sews shaman haber he could connect things so poirus is poiser and toy for volcano that's why he can decipher dreams what is joseph's skill in life joseph looks at dreams and he can make sense out of dreams he can decipher dreams he can open up dreams to you in other words we have a state of reality when we're awake we have our state of reality when we're dreaming the state of reality when we're dreaming is a very chaotic state of course this is a hundred years before the whole philosophy of what dreams are freud et cetera everything you want access to people analyze their dreams this is a hundred years before al-qaeda was what people do when they're sleeping you know wake up and say maidani and move on but he's saying dreams are an uh a venue literally into the state of england into a state of absolute oneness which only exists in the unconscious and when it comes out in the real world it's chaotic why is it chaotic because we don't have the lenses to be able to see oneness we look at things classification so now you give me boom boom boom boom boom i'm like oh my god leave me alone i'm out of here find a relationship with somebody else right i can't deal with this why because i for me reality is classifications you start telling me another world it's i go crazy but over there there's no hard doors so what happens we shut it down we go away from it and that's causes a lot a lot of pain and that's the paradoxes of life joseph's ability was to be able to look at the column and to be poison to be able to decipher the to be able to make sense out of the senseless in other words to be able to find harmony in the fragmentation by giving access to the world of vegulum this was his uniqueness and this is as he says elsewhere why his brothers couldn't deal with his dreams the brothers could not appreciate this concept for character they saw it as extremely dangerous as extremely absurd as extremely ridiculous but this was joseph's unique ability in his own life there were so many paradoxes not only not to get derailed from paradoxes but actually to use the paradoxes as a catalyst as a springboard for a different level of harmony which you cannot experience without the paradoxes because this true level of harmony only emerges through paradoxes because in this state of oneness there's absolutely no paradoxes that's why we're doing the metaphors huh that's why we dream in metaphors always this is this this is not the metaphor is i can use this dreams are always in metaphors you'll rarely ever dream of the reality itself because dreams things you know borrow from each other and lend to each other that's what you mean there's no distinctions there's no distinction really what we need is to interpret reality it's not about interpreting the dream well there's a tension today between when you're sleeping and when you're awake and it's a normal tension i can only dream when i'm sleeping when i'm awake i can't dream because consciousness doesn't allow her for it unless you're sleeping you know you're walking you're sleepwalking some people are sleepwalking why people dream more bad dreams than good dreams it depends who some of us dream very sweet dreams but i'll tell you why you'll see an interesting thing you'll see an interesting thing with dreams and that is that uh if you have nightmares if you say that to have nightmares you'll find a very interesting thing 99 of nightmares you never run away completely from your enemy you almost run away you're like behind the door but he opens the door and he shoots and then you wake up it really happens that in the dream you run away and you go on vacation and you're like and i live happily ever after and you wake up doesn't happen it's always he's about to get you and then you wake up you never run away from him why not the answer of course is because the person chasing you in your dream is is you and you can never run away from yourself so in the dream you could never make peace and say okay i got away from it what do you get away from you got away from yourself you can't get away from yourself you are pursuing yourself and your dream your dream is just opening you up to the conflicts that are happening within yourself now here he describes it as a conflict between avas hashem and abu sagesham but that's essentially the conflict between who you are and i could never get away from that because i can never get away i almost get away from it i think i'm going to get away from it but you catch up to yourself because you find yourself and that's the idea so the ah you always wake up that's where you wake up because that's that's the key that's the moment that's what the dream is trying to tell you the dream is time to tell that you are your own worst enemy and the reason you are your own worst enemy is because you cannot accept the different parts of yourself you feel that you have to cut out a certain part of yourself and therefore this part is saying no no i'm here and you won't be able to get away from me i wouldn't say behave the way they should that's already it's a behave the way they should it's just a reflection of where we are in reality but since most of us have inner conflict so therefore our dreams reflect that rather than just uh you know uh i live happily ever after the dream is is a avenue into a deeper reality not to this i have a friend a classmate who was obsessed with dreams all day he came to me the other day and he says you should start getting into your dreams that's what i do so i said the truth is i'm having a hard time still figuring myself out when i'm awake once i master everything that happens when i'm awake then i'll go to the dreams okay but uh but the truth is that dreams you know are a venue into that reality but you have to be able to be poisonous to have a dream as nish to be able to turn a dream into destiny to be able to turn a dream into a blessing that was joseph his dreams caused them every dream he had caused him more pain than the other most people would tell if joseph would go to a therapist he would say joseph stop dreaming don't go to sleep don't go to see his brothers hated him this one hated him yeah every dream the master tara mashin's dream he interprets he ends up in prison fighter but at the end the dreams allow him to become the prime minister of egypt you understand so the column huh also the reality allowed him to do that the brothers pushed him into more reality so so it was kind of uh both they threw him into reality they threw him into reality because of the dreams yeah that also got him to where he needed to be it's the execution huh it's the execution a lot of people dream people that execute execute the dreams i have a dream this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyeshiva.net donate