I Am Not My Thoughts - Likkutei Torah "Shuvah Yisroel" #2

the yeshiva dotnet okay so that were summer stolid um with Bayes page 127 on top of the page it says new should Larissa Shana we started to sugar you surround we're holding the last line on the column you see sama Dalit column - I'm with Bayes or page 127 literally the last line the adata Hayashi voice Oliver the hockey I shall who have a Kim Basha my email while orit's we talk us a night these are the words moisture table a no communicates to the Jewish people and pouches of s hang on weeks before his passing and record it every day and and recited every day in Delano Valhalla says that Krishna is read every day both from the evening at night and in the morning but Chaka Chaka Maha because the unity of Hashem and elokenu hashem who a lichen which that unity is basically the concept of creating the theory of attack diamond it's our void of the jewish people to make a dear Lois burrows Batak Dana a residence for the divine here in the lowest element of reality to transform the darkness into light that avoider of Yiddish amo a lake in which is done now and the results of it will be seen an experience losses that Aveda needs to be done on two levels night and morning which are connected also to heaven and earth Russia Miami mal is one year hood and velar it's me tacos and each one needs to be internalized and experience the ain't re the way is in heaven and the a hideaway it's an earth and that's why you have tradition that night and made a the parenthesis he started to explain the kale Deus a sham the two perceptions know my dilemma the Mamata love my love and now he continues the last line of the page Vahine a commotion Lucia Mayan virus just like in the world there is heaven in earth and thus we say be a doctor KSM UL hakeem Bashar Miami mama let's meet our cars cars beneficial and based penicillin the microcosm is always a mirror of the macrocosm a micro is the human the small macro is the large the global the microcosm the island the atom is a olam cotton is a miniature world it says in madness as I'll say others the deafness and Island cotton z'ha'dum the human being is a miniature universe meaning this is not a small little Vaart that means any phenomenon you encounter in the universe if you want to fix that you have to find that in your life and when you repair that it has an effect on the cosmos ever the human being reflects the world it's not shot there's a world and the person some ways of suspect over there in the world the past success in caelis gamma saw alumnus unbeliever so the ballot Anya teaches the whole world you could find in the heart of man gamma so LM not something limo so there's no phenomenon nature both on earth and even in outer space that doesn't have a reflection in avoider it's almost like the the you know where if you watch the spaceships get launched and satellites get launched and sent out and NASA sits in its centre and controls it with its with its joysticks and computers are you dealing with items with crafts with instruments then I'm not hundreds of miles away and not thousands of miles away with millions and millions and millions of miles away and nonetheless the scientist the astronomer sitting me in the office he gives a crash here a push puts there and it has an effect on what's happening what's happening on the other there other planets on a spiritual level a little a little avoid a little move within a person's life within a person's system within a person's psyche reflects the world in ways that we know and much more in ways that we don't know yet you wanted well you two are also connected you not only connected to my Z also connected to other people connected on a vertical level and on a horizontal level there's the vertical connections and the horizontal connections so when it says shamayim and Eretz he says none of us does heaven on earth it always it always exists in the nefesh odd that existed in the soul of a person and the consciousness of the human soul is connected to the consciousness of the universe and every element every detail of the universe has its counterpart within the human organism physically emotionally psychologically spiritually and therefore there's an interconnectedness and the MS is that itself is a whole this way because if the whole world comes from Africa's comes from our Shama hug after substratum and where we also come from there so that means ultimately everything is one it's manifested diversity and in differentiation and in such such expanses of space and time but essentially it comes from two sub shuttle so therefore that advocacy trickles down into every experience the void of a person is to bring it back to that place of oneness within the differentiation to be able to reveal that one is that harmony while a tiny right so Tanya that the Rambam in the Rambam were masters of harvested sannyas meaning they mastered all the available sciences of their day in terms of medicine biology mathematics cosmology astronomy of course science physics mallet Anya says that all of these commas are called clipper Snyder clipless Naga means we learnt a few times it's a shell but it's a translucent shell translucent means if you know if you have this skill and the wisdom and the perspective you could pierce through the shell and see the divine there she says that's why the Rambam and the Rambam learnt it because in many ways this allows a person to appreciate you disguise and tied in a whole different way because when you really get it you see that every nakulan science every new couldn't in physics every new code in biology every new couldn't astronomy I mean it could the cosmology everything it's all interconnected to the objective of existence and it's all in - it's all a reflection of a divine energy and it all exists within the human soul and the human so ultimately is responsible to bring harmony into the whole world so we're not isolated creatures in the universe we take responsibility for the universe the whole universe is encompassed by us so when you appreciate the university also appreciate yourself and that relationship is a very powerful one now this is this is a whole this is not simple you know it's not simple stuff it gets very multi-layered and multi complex but that's the Nikodim right in time the imperative s so vena cavae she s boy them sam-i-am for art's car freshmen efforts are them based penis a loop in the soul you also have these two concepts from I'm a nervous and therefore on both levels from Miami merits you need the equal of a sham well Kim and that's why we say krishma twice and then because there's the Christian of night and is a Christian of morning and it's not the same Christian is the Christian of Lila does the Christian of urine is the krishna of the law of heaven and is a krishnamurthi care nefes-kula may I begin assailant the soul is basically made up or its it encompasses its cruel enough which is comprised comprised may arbequina salem from four dimensions cleanness means dimensions aspects say ho ma shava de Bourgh o mais c'est hole intelligence awareness cognition thoughts words and actions the Henare say ho Hamish of in finish a Mayan but de Beauvoir my synchronous lyrics to and to the first to represent heaven in the human being and the second to represent earth in a human being faithful and masiva are defined as the heavenly dimension of man say ho and Masha de Bourgh Aneesa are defined as the earthly earthly dimension of the human being she may use suga mama Habib - love wa sallam effort comedy bhava my sir even though mahashiv is also only a garment to the soul that's not the soul just like words and actions are not the salt their garments in which the soul gets dressed up mahashiv is oh so oliver shmakov is not the nefesh and here the following ideas being conveyed one at one aspect of the idea that's being conveyed is this we speak about the nefesh there is the nefesh and is the lavash a nephesh there is the soul and there the garments of the song let's give a Marshall in our own life when we deal with physical garments everybody understands you can't just you can't compare the goof the body of a person to the garments that a person wears even though sometimes we mistake ourselves for our clothes and our clothes for ourselves and for some people the clothes is far more important than the substance of who they are but that's a life in which the l'avorton become more important than the trim me is but that's exactly the point the point is that you could never compare the garments to the essence I'm wearing the suits I could put it on I can take it off but when you're wearing the hand you're wearing the foot you're wearing the face I mean today they have a plastic surgery so you can also take off your nose and put on your nose and reshape your nose and so forth but that's very painful and what I'm going to discuss the benefits or the detriments at the moment but the point is you can't compare Loyola voices made and put on model you're not one with it the goof you know this change and all change is a very painful and difficult process this is a physical must the same is true in the human makeup on a spiritual level this quote what's called nefesh and Lavoisier nefesh nefesh is what the soul is made up of lavash A&F fish are the garments of the soul the garments of the soul are three things MA Chava Deborah my son action words and thoughts you can't compare your words for example to your emotions or to your sale what's the idea Mohammed Ibrahim eisah thoughts words and actions our garments I dress myself up in these garments I express myself through my actions I express myself through the words one can also not speak one can speak one can turn it on one container of one can take off the suit one can change their words one can change their actions and the change of Deborah miser is not a change ostensibly that is as deep as a change in personality to tell the person don't say this or say this do this don't do this sometimes you're not in the mood so it's difficult in that sense but it's not a surgery in the essential makeup of the person so that's why it's called the lavash fish the garment of the soul and you could put on and take off a hundred garments a day if you want then every day you change another garment my shovel would seem that it's not like a low voice but it's really Allah Bush when we think of thoughts speech words we understand it's a lavash stop speaking action yeah my father you never stop thinking you can't stop thinking and when you stop thinking you're gonna think about the fact that you stopped thinking even when you sleep you don't stop thinking it looks like the dreams you never turn off my father you can't you could try to but then you'll think about the fact that you're turning off my shovel or that you're thinking about nothing whatever you're thinking even in what we call mindfulness you try to notice what's going on and you notice and you notice the one who notices the one who's noticing the fact that you're noticing etc etc or all the other forms of meditation and so forth it may be a different type of mother but there's always much tougher nonetheless my java is not the nefesh he says my shovel is a lavash for the message the nefesh dresses itself up in thoughts we often identify ourselves with our thoughts but it's not true there is you and there are your thoughts and the thoughts are literally closed I'm now dressed in these thoughts and I could remove myself from these thoughts I could remove these thoughts from me and change my thoughts not disconnect from your thoughts but remember that the masalas are a lavash their garments every masala is a lavash it's another lavash I put on this shirt I take of this should I put on another shirt for example my filling in Show Rosh real things we can change is how our emotions will respond so we can control our emotions but it seems then that he was taking the thoughts as a given we always have thoughts opposing the control we can control is how we will emote relative no but we always have thoughts but the nature of the thoughts what I'm going to think about that could be my choice I'm always gonna think the question is what I'm going to think about so therefore my Shover is ultimately a lavash just like Bieber I can choose my words you have it even la marshalled if you'll tell the person change on internal emotion or change I tell somebody understand this I want you to understand it I can't force somebody to understand something either you understand Denis you don't understand it on awareness that you have a sale that you have I can't just change it takes work it takes internal work what about Deborah my son yeah yeah yeah exactly yeah it'll wash however I could put on and I can take off yeah yeah yes but it's all the bush that I don't know about but it's still a loveless he wants enough unconscious thoughts are also the version I said yeah it's just the version that we don't know about there's different layers of the ocean dissolution you see the ocean the you know into this unconscious is called untape of us sign want above us but it's a lush and all the Vosges means that they don't define us we sometimes think them ourselves define us just like people think that they're closed to find them yeah it's fuel that some of us fuels everything these are their thoughts and they never go out of those thoughts just like they never change their clothes and they'll never go out without this set of clothes because without these clothes what are they they don't know themselves without these clothes some people if they don't have certain types of clothes or certain watches or certain cars or certain suits they don't feel that they could exist so fascination over we have to that's what happens when the lavash becomes your identity I have no other identity outside of my garments yeah yeah exactly that's the finish but it still olive bush that's what he said even though dipper and myself or others among Chavez for yourself so you would think it's not a lavage and even though my Selva never stops Dibble could stop right I could stop speaking even not even me I know you don't see it often but even me others are so even though you could stop speaking like a lavash so it's taka it's a different type of lavash it's like the undershirt that sticks to your skin but it's still an undershirt it doesn't end therefore it could it can be done you could room you could put on one on you could take it off and put on another yes and yeah and it doesn't define the eye the eye are not the thoughts we think and think and think we all have to be priya constantly processing things constantly thinking right always that's what we do instinctively it's not you don't choose to think even if you're not aware of your thoughts but you're constantly thinking and we are reacting to those thoughts we're all reacting to those thoughts but the eye is not the thoughts the thoughts are closed in which the eye is dressed and the I could distinguish itself from those much of us emotions are manifestation of the thoughts emotions are the manifestations of thoughts of course that's the whole point there's who I am and there's who I think I am and when I mean by I think I am I don't mean who I think I am meaning who I think I am but the I who my thoughts who I think I am now the I that is reflected through my thoughts and for one minute to the next it's often different yeah and the real eye is neither not to distort the not that's courts father they say I fell a my my sir yeah yeah yeah yeah now it's not so easy to do this it's not so easy to distinguish your eye from your thoughts because when we're in a place of thoughts especially when you associate could be a little obsessive and the thoughts are obsessive there's nothing else of course this is me I this I decide they say that London with all its thoughts laborsome yeah yeah they say a mice in hell and one of these Hallam stories there was a Jew from Hamlin who was going home and it was a long train right and they were going all nights he asked the conductor to wake him up at 4:00 in the morning so you should be able to leave at the next stop so he says fine he goes to sleep it was a long long journey and he was the same cabin was a Russian general takes off his clothes the seats from Kalin when he goes to sleep 4:00 in the morning to tuck the wakes up system you stop this coming after the wake up he wakes up it was pitch dark in the cabinet other people were sleeping so by mistake instead of putting on his own clothes he put on the clothes of the Russian general he comes home to tell him he walks into his house dressed up a corruption general his wife sees it as yank of this machine gun you went crazy what happened to you says what happened look at yourself he goes over to the mirror and he looks and he says yeah I always knew that the Russian conductors were Buckland and Muslim assalam you can't trust them she says what happened says he woke up the Russian general instead of me so it's an anecdote but in life it's not always anecdotal because very often that's how people live they look at what they look like and that's what they are and often their whole life is going based on that some people live completely in a superficial shell there's literally nothing else and the moment you want to have a conversation with them that is more substantial that is deeper they shut down they run away or they cut you out because it's gonna bring up some pain it's gonna bring up some some profound some profound experiences that I'm not ready to deal with sometimes people live in cliques and in that click this is what's acceptable this is these are the conversations that are acceptable this is the type of dress that's acceptable and people live in that orbit for many many years and they never even know that they're literally in a cell in a prison and their entire inside had to be shut down and substituted with externalities whatever those externalities are in some cultures it's closed in some cultures it's other types of behaviors certain types of conversations and when somebody gets up and says the emperor has no clothes the emperor has no clothes it's like he's the crazy one he's the crazy one so that's the concept that one always has to distinguish between lavash him and what's inside the lavash like the mikveh is an experience that you couldn't neutralize a lot of that no you can't go to the mixer with Lelouch yeah she may use suga mama shall be finished Lelouch I wanna first remember by myself Michal McCoy my name I saw the clue on this I had this in nefesh on my Scouts you still can't compare myself at the dinner mice why because my job is a low voice but it's a low voice that unites with the soul that understands the f surely is Lysenko bellissimo you can't experience in yourself say hell without some Isis by Ray who card ain't comfortable illuminated a it's like the turtle the turtle whose garment is always connected to it the turtle comes solution minutes on the bush the shell covering the turtle is itself but it's a shell that grows with eternal unlike our love ocean which we add so in the bosom itself you have olive or chamois you should and a lavash on different my shop is also love bush but Silver's that never that never leaves you which makes it very hard to distinguish yourself from it because you're always operating through much other life is experienced in thoughts you can't understand something without using somebody so much other we think but we think in language just like we speak in language everyone thinks in language because thought is AI seus ideas are not about languages the idea is the same in China and France and Russia and in America the music music is a universal language the music that the Japanese man understands are sensitive to I can also be sensory and I don't know Japanese why because music is not communicated in language DeBoer I can't understand your conversation if I don't know your language because there's AI seus Mohnish of it is all soy so this one thinks in Hebrew this one thinks India dish this one thinks in English but everybody thinks in a language you can't think without a line understanding however is not a language facial is not a language say soul is beyond language it's an awareness it's an understanding but for me to communicate that sagal to myself I need letters and for me to communicate it to you I need words which are made up of letters so my shovin deburr are very similar in that both comprised of letters but you can't compare it because this is the process to me and this is the process to you the way I process myself to myself is too much other but it's a processing of the self it's osseous that's why I told the lavash it's not the eye lavash ami you heard he says move sadness it's like connected to you like the turtle though the bushes Harrell doesn't say you know what I don't like the suit of mine I'm getting rid of it we invent that I told you cosmetic surgery facial surgery because we don't like our nose we don't like our eyes yeah you could you could stop speaking you could change yeah yeah sometimes a person could be quiet for seven hours not saying worse a person told me he went for some retreat for three days and nobody says a word 24 hours three days nobody says a word imagine that can be frightening for people huh they can be frightening 54 Jews Jews Jews yeah even a few rabbis were there you know what that brings up you know that the steel chemical machine here right brings up a lot of stuff we don't realize we talk and talk and talk and talk and talk so that's why it's all the bush that I could take off I could take off I'm not doing it now shavon ants that's cool to me of course it's at ruler bush but that's the point because it's all the bush it doesn't define the eye doesn't look like the much yes but even Sumer even Shroomish um bizarre not on there my Shabbos that may be more reflecting of the are more reflective of the art language very good you're right that's why he calls it lavash I'm I saw the clue luminous I said this in my mattress I must callus you're right we can only process and experience our seho through Isis we don't have any other way well that sometimes you have a flash a picture right this books about autistic autistic children autistic people right experience the world in pictures it's a very powerful experience without Isis like a flash of wisdom that's what really customers and it could it right away gets into issues by most of us right away an infant right so an infant still experiences without AI seus but there's still some level of myself a Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya Ya flash my shoppers Express to Isis in ourselves no no my shop is what my shop is made up of letters which make up words thoughts we you'll see you things stopped me quiet and just look at your thoughts and you'll see there's a language there always before there's a language then that's pre leadership that's promotion right sometimes ya mashaykhina am I saying the Froderman a nephesh the a nun a fish miss lobos's Mohamed alabbar item sir madam a voice' Debora mice are called knitted from the soul and the nefesh is not enclosed himself prepared itself in them perpetually continuously only at moments when the person speaks in the person does but they can also be moments of inaction and silence and thus it's called a lavash which is different I could attach it I could connect it to me I could get dressed up in these illusion and also undress myself from these motion the la Haine ich liebe shame Eretz and that's why generally saiful and Machado we put into the category of shaman and debris my so we put into the category of Arts because generally speaking psycho and macabre and Deborah my sir are the two dimensions of shamayim inherits in the nefesh one is the heavenly part and one is the earthly part meaning one is the dimension of the human being visa vie himself for herself and one is the dimension of the human being visa vie their communication to the outside that's why one is called heaven and one is called Eretz one is pinning me and one is hittin one is internal and one is directed towards external I'm on Shabbos also lavash that's what he said but it's all dvash that's me you said with the with the nefesh and since it's music with the nephesh therefore it's part of the shamayim of the person at the Eretz of the purse and therefore it's others Leah so when we speak about Bassam I'm in marble or it's me Takas its article is scarf you miss Huckabee nefesh Mazzello Massa bein beginners remember our Earth's bein the paint finish our mind in infinite series so we speak about via data I measure myself every syllable - mo Ellicott that the person ought to develop their soul Mizell umas from its counterpart subdue and transform from its opposite from Zelo massa it's both in heaven and in earth meaning she you call her Bob Remus Mahad amar some of other to be able to unite all the four dimensions cycle macabre miser to the divine alone Dino chassé whole body bore human law imitated a dice and Hawkman Africa's with the birther bump say ho and of course massive indeed were to be filled with Tyra this the concept of later coming from karma started as say ho but it's also the departed speaking organism isomer foolish for parish Mia and then the second part of Krishna Davidi focuses on miser force after the gun you should gather your grain and in my said this is my sad Dhaka so both in shamayim and Eretz in the person who is how a person deals with their Salem a solver and is how a person refines and works out their de bourree and MYSA and it's two different avoid this a person could develop and focus on their actions they can also refine their words but then there is the heaven in the person which is dealing with their thoughts and that sometimes a little harder because it's again it's more internalized so you could say don't speak like this don't speak these words don't do such an action or do such an action or speak these words that's the Eretz of the person and then there's the my job of the person which is going into their mash of this what types of thoughts they have and then say shil which is their perspectives their awareness on themselves or the universe around them or anything else so in and avoid that each one is that the mash of ax and the deeper and the mice and this a hope should be able to experience that sham who eloquently being a hooded Tata we said before the desire cells that schmeyer all is a higher unity bara shame is a lower unit she says you could eat at all and when you say a sham who Ella Kim it is two concepts who the Tatar the lower unity let's finish Yaakov that's reflected in Yaakov because the octave is a bizarre you'd a curve you'd is a youth and a curve is the the sole of the foot the bottom of the foot you this pianist Hoffman it'll be youth which is a seminal point on the kuda represents the first flash of wisdom in the person called hokhmah which is like a decoder it's a seminal point her name shuttle cleanness a cave is safer moderator but the you doesn't remain above it communicated all the way down to the feet and to the lowest part of the foot the acre the safe Lea siscon fear this happen to be able to subdue and transform all the way down to the acre through the youth behind new fish are dying are the mechanism of karma this is when a person is still in a battle Vince Coffea mishap Kazu trying to subdue and transform sha osmeña Selleck in with Simpson liaison with the prudent he hugging various by vehicles benefit other what happens then is the middle of a lake in which is symptom restriction creating a fragmented world is what prevails in him and it's the primary consciousness in his soul Ellucian mom should finish youth but he brings in you the I knew she loved a viable ikan integrating youth kevorkian aleikum he a viable mayor said that its depositors you'd give up his associated with hokhmah bringing in youth cave of key Intel the kimba's called Chimel Vashem belacan that's yapeth I will assure all is he sorry similar can be Menasha the one quarreling with Jakob says your name is now gonna be is wrong why he sorry sir Emily can be Menasha motto sir Issa means now she says you quarreled and you prevailed with who with elekid shanty Surrey similar Kim they Menasha motto ha sorry presided mean with a subs angels irritations he sri simha like him meaning sheikh fog of our shame i buy optional idiot in the inner struggle the shame of the Kim has been that shame Avaya has become triumphant over similar Ken the I knew she loved similar Kimba olive dollars Mariah naqshi lullaby a belacan but she'll double the kimbap aya not integrating youth came off camera looking but integrating Allah Timothy you'd give up but he was a mile in Medina silicon wat Simpson he's beyond that and then he says me my notion I'm conscious a mismatch dismiss a mother controlled invocation Yaakov fought with le kid and with a notion which are the manifestations of similar Kim the solution of dementia through butcher zelicah needs a little has Braille to say one Mukunda it says in this aayah that Schmeiser all is you hood the alarm bar of shame is you who the Tata there's a higher level of access a lower level what actors are we talking about we adapt I joined by charesse ilaha key jávea PRM o alikum RM is you to cave okay that's oh it's written who Ellicott what does it mean you have to know that you give off keys on the Kim what are you trying to say it's like saying you have to know the ankle is the ankle worker medalist medal punch medal is not the ankle the adapter tell me that God exists with of the adapter Kia Shambhu alikum so if you look in the English Sydenham I'll tell you should know that the Lord is God what does that mean the Lord is not what the Lord is not Trump the Lord is not Queen Elizabeth I mean finding her you should know that the Lord is God okay they couldn't do better so the Lord is God God is the word so ball tiny explains it it's two states of consciousness it's two dimensions of existence one is youth cave off-key one is illusion to bring those two together and realize a sham who Ella Kim that's the void of a person is the void that throughout life that's how one makes a little bit of time which is what he began the mind that avoid that operates on two stages one is making youth cave off Kayla Kim and one is making a leak in Utica vodka it's called Shilov javea Bella Kim and Sheila Vela kimba via show Avaya Bella Kim means javea is integrated into a lickin syllable akimbo vias Allah Kim is integrated into Avaya they meet up but it's from different places one is the krishna of night and one is the krishna of day one is the christian of heaven and one is the krishna of earth one is bash a miami mile and one is a large me tacos Hashem who L the Kim in heaven is Manish my like him and earth dude wait earth makes the ezel than way heaven makes the is the way Yaakov makes the you soon as the way you straw mix the that's why this Krish mat night and is Trish my by day this Krishna the way I experienced in the nighttime and this Krishna the way I experienced at a date on this moment Allah my Allah my Allah my Allah I look down and I see you you look up and you see me we both see each other but it's still different and that's where the Zarya means it's two states of actors two states of unity is the higher state of unity the lowest State of Union one is me the same and wonders wonders with this line where do you see the difference in the names Yaakov is you'd a curve the youth comes into the a curve the a curve is the lowest part of the organism you saw the pus access kisser Lisa Emily Kim name inertia motto you fought you quarreled with God and with men and you prevailed Rashi says he souls in the word sire you became a sire / Ella Kim a ruler a minister a Lord what the practice erisa Yaakov battled ability Manoj Sharma took on this the state where Jakob is Yaakov that's his name that's given him by birth and it remains his name for many many years only many many years ladies already an elderly man suddenly he gets a new name not suddenly but he gets a new name and the new name says that now you're in a different state you're not Yaakov he serese mla Kimbe my tomahto you prevailed over che malakut he says guv our Shamus Shamel alaikum that's not Shilov LF avaiable the commercial Avella Kimba avaya it's not la Kim is integrated into youth K buff gate become so to speak submerged in youth came off cases subsumed right we're the other way she loved you to cave off Kubelik in the UK mouse can become subsumed subsume the chamber can what's the difference of these two penis what's what what are we talking about these are the words what does it mean we'll see talking dick talk and tell them I'll show you in the next year there's two ways in which you'd cave of K and unlike Mr said so these are things that we don't know we don't know this often but our penis today represent these two cleanness of reactive in Islam so one is the a curve is really very dominant and the youth comes into the a curve so this is not a regular a curve it's an inspired hill it's an inspired soul that's an insole as in SOL e also sou L but the emphasis is on a curve where buy yourself a carrot it's the emphasis is rush you sir all's learish my head yeah come you're coming talk it is the morning creation as the orit's the night but it's the birth yeah are you I'm I look after awhile oh yeah yeah that's true that's what oysters brings in my sector breakfast yeah yeah ah yeah yeah yeah yeah Dibble my sir versus echelon my shop ok we'll explain a mission to continue ok good morning everybody we're up to page 128 on top it says Drusilla Shabbos sugar and we're up to save base just give a little Vaart for yesterday we have to and then we'll continue with paddock Bay's Bleen that down there's probably you know a few places into Hillen where it says the word you to cave off okay well it's pronounced Allah Kim familiar I think you haven't capital summer has capital sama tests it says youth came up in a VM a few places it says youth give off okay so usually when we see you say you'd give off gay we don't say you gave off can we say I love dollars no nude aDNA but those few places instead of saying Abney sale the Kim you'd give off key but you sale the Kim so in Kabbalah there's a big sugi about this that sometimes there's something called she love Hawaiian Ella Kim and Shilov le chemin Avaya her values you'd give often instead of saying it come off it says have I often in the my Mario Shilov Ella Kim and you'd give off K means that the you'd give off gains the acre and Alec M is integrated should've means integrated connected now the Kim become subservient here to give off or the other way around ah no it's a whole circuit IRAs all and there are markings are in the Seamus of you to gave up in the Seamus not even getting out to the graphic details of it causes but just in a CUDA that there was to this to I fun and the way it's written and also the way it said in the way it's understood I felt like Kim is part of you to give off Kate give off his part of Ella Kim so sometimes I'll say you'd cave off key but you say look Kim you don't say oh so what's the difference so he explains it the difference in Zoya between you hood they alone you for the Tata the higher unity in the lower unity or the words that we use in this Miami is also Yakov and you saw you take F verses his straw which is lead Rajesh what's the difference he said one is a consciousness with Sri simile convey Menasha you battled with similar kill that sister also do similar convey emotion but that's a higher state but before that is the state of yaacov which is the person is still dealing with the state of a curve naturally not the head but the foot and there's a war there's a muhammad's coffie and hosaka and then meatus le Kim prevails so even though there is shame Xavier but shame Ave is integrated into che Milliken what does this mean I mean these are the ICS he says with some more details what does this mean he began to mind me that the tactless of the work creation was leas lady roberto china to be able to reveal the unity and the cosmos to be able to take the culture naturally the world is a place of concealment naturally when you face yourself you're facing a distortion oil um is Milosh and Hallum it's not a detail in the world it's the definition of the world confronting life means confronting distortion confronting the world means confronting distortion confronting yourself means confronting concealment the natural state of eylem without human initiative and creativity is concealment truth is concealed there's a deeper truth that is not necessarily revealed that's olam any world is characterized by one word hellim the question is how deep the concealment how profound the distortion how twisted how twisted they could be a distortion and they could be a distortion we all know that there is concealment in this concealment there are lies and there are lies Churchill said that during the times of war he said this during the Second World War during times of war the truth is so precious it has to be protected and surrounded by many bodyguards of Lies so the whole world the truth is protected or concealed or obscured by Helen by concealment now in many ways this is not a pessimistic idea it's really an optimistic idea because what it says is that what you see is not what you get and you have to be able to understand that you need the courage to be able to go one step deeper two steps deeper and this begins with yourself often a person has lots of feelings and lots of emotions and lots of in things and lots of experiences and it's very easy just to take them at face value and worship them just embrace them as they are and there is a value to looking at them the way they are but a person needs to know to be able to have the courage to be able to see what is deeper what is behind them and what is at the core and this is the process of the void of transforming oil on into a derivative tournament generally says this is the avoided throughout gamez which produces the world of gula when iron by in year you will see face to face with Russia there are parts that are deeper than myself the eye the eye is deeper than my shaman the very core of the person yeah the eye is enclosed in thoughts the eye gets dressed in force that's all my office and sometimes those thoughts are overwhelming and sometimes those thoughts are obsessive and sometimes those thoughts are completely consuming and sometimes we don't even know that there's an eye outside of those thoughts in other words our eye gets lost like in a mikveh it gets submerged in the thoughts and all there are our thoughts there's no eye but part of that void of a person is to realize that I am enclosed in my thoughts or I contain my thoughts if maybe in a different way a little bit I I hold on to my thoughts but my thoughts are in me they're not me my thought now the thoughts are powerful very powerful and sometimes this thoughts that guide us our whole life and we never even know there's anything outside of those thoughts sometimes we develop certain thoughts and our entire life is really playing out that script it's almost like there's a script and you just play it out with everybody you meet especially with people you're close to just repeats itself again and again this scenario you could predict it right some marriages you could say exactly what's gonna look like today twenty years forty or six years it's always the same exchange just in different words the same conversation they always have many couples for 60 years have the same conversation just different words but it's the same conversation it's his paradigm her paradigm and that's it and it's just a change now it's an argument about the airport then it's about Yom Kippur then it's about soakers then what we're going for four finishers on it what does Elba my son ah I'm saying unless you break the cycle but because the problem is that the I in the MA shava becomes one I don't even know there's anything else so my ma shabbos army and what happens then is I can't even identify that there's a distinct between them the moment you can identify that as a distinction between your eye and your ma shava then you actually can start making choices you could shift the much other there's an eye who is not defined completely by the much other it's not easy doesn't mean it's easy but once there's a low voice I could say ooh maybe I could change my shirts right maybe I could change they say there was a guy an old anecdote he jumped off a building him they were looking for a note to proceed on explanation they saw in his office there was a note and he says I'm sick and tired the same lunch for 50 years same tuna tuna sandwich for 50 years they go to his wife for 50 years you couldn't change you couldn't shame she's I don't know he packed his own lunch first really you could change long you could think you could change the Elan key it's not such a joke it's it's many people's stories you could change one nobody so you could change your monkey welcome to iced yeah you don't have to the same thing for breakfast every day I'm all eggs I'm all croissants will you go for breakfast it's the same thing every day I know oil oil oil oil oil but but that's the point so so it but without that the eye is dipped into the much other and there's nothing else there's only much lava so and I say I'm angry I'm angry at you I hate you that's not sure I don't hate you're not angry are you my thoughts my thoughts are saying that I hate you my thoughts are experiencing a tremendous emotion I got that that's true I'm not denying that we're not denying it for carat it's an interesting thing also it becomes a paradox the more you acknowledge it the more you can separate from it the less you acknowledge it the less you could separate from it the more it defines you you understand what I'm saying this is very important ah what I don't know since when did marriage become the main issue so what I mean is it's it's it's it's it's deep but it's not so deep it's really experiential and that is I'll tell you somebody's feeling angry somebody's feeling very negative whatever their motion is so what do we do what do we good Jews do what are we good people do we tell ourselves we tell us that I shouldn't be feeling this way I shouldn't be feeling this it doesn't make sense and you give explanations why it doesn't make sense that you believe that you think you believe and automatically oh and therefore I don't feel that way but you didn't transform the emotion it's been transformed the thought you told yourself I can't feel that way and it's also painful to feel that way and because it's painful to feel that way I run away from it and I run away from it by going to logic and saying I shouldn't feel that way and therefore I really don't feel that way but if I didn't really transform it which I often don't I'm just trying to run away from pain so it's still there and because it's still there so in a paradoxical way it becomes much more powerful because now that emotion defines my relationship with everybody else if I'm feeling something towards you that emotion becomes a reflection of who you are but if I have the courage to say you know I'm really feeling this way I shouldn't be feeling this way maybe but I'm feeling this way I think I and I own it and it's very painful it's it's very not cachaca but I really feel this way then in a very interesting way it doesn't trap you anymore the more you feel it the less it traps you the more you deny it the more traps the more you feel it you give it its place okay you have a place and it's painful yeah I have all these thoughts was a massive memory sugar you know what I want you to die and I want you to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge and after that the Williamsburg Bridge and then go to the George Washington and tap into z-force timís Argyle Oh all these things must pass the commence customer meant I don't have these emotions but I do so what happens these emotions not only do they define me they trap me because they read they're really the way I experience you however if I can acknowledge it and look at it and contain it and say this is a place in me it has its place and it's painful but it's not me it's not I to lavage because we try to avoid pain because anything that hurts we try to run away from if you could really transform the thought patch Alistair it's a lot of avoider but cold logic usually won't do it because it's a deep stats deep stuff mathematics won't do it nice I'm a dilemma shaman I just get more upset that's a very good thing that you're upset about that I don't see an issue the fact that you're upset that is talking by daven in I think is a there's a worthwhile upsetness what I'm talking here about this our emotional experience about other people you mean you hate the people who speak by domini that's a whole different emotional so that's a very it's a very powerful thing you just said not everybody can do that people start hating the people which of course makes them makes and opossum makes it impossible for them to influence the people but the fact that a certain behavior is wrong and loathe what's that happen in your case in your case some people hate things for other reasons but in your case okay when you were two they gave you a lollipop and ice cream you remember they still do it when do people start running away and avoiding pain we're told is the lollipop ice cream sigh still so you learned that you have to quiet it and we do a lot of things to avoid it we do a lot of things to avoid pain and one of them is to make believe it doesn't exist because it's painful to watch pain it's painful to experience pain it's painful to be in pain the best is to eliminate it to deny that if you can't just cover it up although sometimes it's logical to do that to intercept the tire I don't know wouldn't called the word laziness I think it's a very deep that itself is a deep emotion in a person the emotion to be comfortable to make things nice to make things smooth we want things to be comfortable that also is a deep thought that's also a deep emotion yeah so our logic our logic can help us distinguish between the eye and our thoughts and to be able to work on it in a specific way that's the point the bicycle first days that answer your question okay now in this year hood of Hashem Anneli Kim what's the use of the Vashem Alec Alec Kim is the source of Darkness concealment mythos at Simpson you'd cave of K is the source of his gallows the years of the synthesis of youth gave off gained Allah Kim is washing voice Oliver huh CI Shamu eloquent what rubbish amo la Kim and the ISIS of this mind me that the yesh and the iron are really one the yesh is the reality that I observe yes doesn't necessarily mean ego yes just means to something the reality that I observe it could be ego it can be it could be horrible negative energy could be the spear it could be huge it could be depression it could be laziness whatever it is that I identify as to something in the world or in my life just plain physicality whatever it is is linked to an iron we call it iron up because it's iron it's really the real yes but like we explained with the nail in the mid and the souk hand idea the yesh calls an iron from the I ins perspective the ionization the ashes guard iron that's the kal dais that's the higher level in the lower level that's heaven and earth that's night and day day means the sun is shining you see things clearly night means it's pitch dark and you have to find your way and when you find your way you fall it's pitch dark in a room and you have to find your way out right so what do you do I once heard from the Lubavitch Arriba he said what was the difference of the derrick halima though there is shining him in that arena he said you have a person who's in another room and it's pitch dark pitch dark doesn't mean there's a little candle somewhere or there's a little light somewhere on the street pitch dark means hurricane Irma in those places with this area out nothing and it's dark at night and is arraign and it's thundering and there's no lightning and it's pitch pitch pitch if you ever may be in the Catskills with a black out on the forest you know what it is here in the city even in Muncie it's very hard very hard to have that real darkness the old monster yeah but not the new months generator there's our show here and there's a guy here there's people walking the middle of the night maybe in the old farmland months you had to pitch dark so it's pitch pitch dark and now you have to get out of this room so you start feeling around you fall and you fall again and you get up and then you feel an opening an opening and you who you want to jump through that uppity problem is it's a garbage can it's an opening then another opening it's a washing machine and then another opening but it's a window it's the entry to a window but the seal did windows simple and then after all the mistakes there's are another opening but it's a closet you bump your head into a closet and then after all the trials you find the door and you get out and then sometimes in middle somebody just turns on the light and somebody turns on the light and it's all there so he says there is shining they wrote so back it's because the whole sigga sigga mentalistic it's even hard for us to understand what that means it was complete bright they understood the oh you make I use soy dove every suka very clearly there were some questions and contradictions so they buy foreign did archive art here or they're very short very brief the realm of sometimes in his letters that he answers mummers four five six lines well I'm a moisture signs the Haitian motion etc by that writing them on the contrary you start then you start with a question and then you refute then you fall so you come back so you say can be this so it has to be this it can't be this it has to be this until you see the door all better within the tenoram themselves it's brought that the you saw me and the body was the Gemara says her son had you by my shock and wide Shivani said Tom mood is above all that become with bobble the gaba you shall me has this look good while data here you see by him a lot miss Barajas mr. mennis miss Barajas mr. Maness yeah why did the cavort so this is a muscle for this in Yin by night it's dark by day it's light when you're in the perspective of the eye in solicit ik you see the appeal of the world with lipstick again it's a different life they say about the position of a Nepali that he was uh he had a hard life he was very poor and he had a lot of you sort of position and I either once came to him from the market is the market said he stayed by him just didn't ask him why is they stay after a few days of positions and what brings you here to town she says your Deborah sent me to you just to me Voss Epis I went into the market and I said I have a miserable life so many bad things happen to me I don't know how I could be Pacifica how I can go on this solve so many struggles and challenges mr. market this for this you have to go to my town with the deposition of a Nepali stay by him for a few weeks and you'll see so the position tells him you must have misunderstood my leper he says why so I don't think he sent you to me he said why not I never had a bad day in my life November yeah why because for him the definition of life was to Vegas with Hashem so how could never had a bad day in his life different ways he we had Vegas but he Nevada bad thing and I mean there was nothing in other words the yesh is add-in in the iron that's meet us join me that's Lila is the iron is Adam in the air but the paradigm is yesh and therefore there's a struggle that's the state of Yaakov versus the State of Israel so Yaakov also brings in the youth the shame javea but it's into the acre you sir all is kiss IRISA Melek him he triumphed over the shame at Simpson that's the higher level the higher year hood where le Kim becomes a gatherer of Hawaii they say us about the position that after chakras he would go to his room and he will start speaking and he said to God a bite initial I'll um dine Kinser she is hunger ik and the gap I heard this and he would bring in APIs to eat whatever them scraps of food he had for breakfast after some time the gap I got upset he says you know what let him ask me for the food he asks God for the food Kansai bring him in I'm gonna teach him a lesson tomorrow he'll ask God let God bring the food I'm not bringing any food so the next day the positions Darvin angry boys Michelin like Kim Vallez and he's not bringing he's very happy as soon there was a who's destined till next time has to be don't that's not as early as he's doing this a person knocks on the door and he says I made a pity not been this morning the super finish saw a very smaller I have huge amounts of food so I want to bring hit it I want to bring it in a position for him his family can distribute it to the poor it brings in all the food so they got a said he realized that I'm not giving him the food I have the source to be this lift to bring them the food now a regular person you're gonna stand here today after chakras and say avoid initial a long there's been hungry look so maybe tuck an 18-4 say it works at some point somebody's gonna start bringing in the food but very often you're gonna say it will has I don't know if mom measure pity and I been guys gonna stop and give you food but the pre-shot is that the certain usamos that live in a state we're their reality is really a different reality what do I mean a different reality the depth of reality plays itself out in very vivid and revealed ways so it's not such a struggle that's the pronoun visceral it's also yield hashem elokenu Adela Kim is a dinner in Hawaii and not the Hawaii is a dinner delicately that's the difference between the two states but in every avoid that there is the need for the unity between the inner core and the outer between the inner surface and the outer surface in other words man was sent down to the world to be a revolutionary to be creative to transform the landscape of planet Earth we weren't sent down to the world to be passive observers and bystanders because passive observers just become accomplices to the darkness to the distortions to the concealments d ribbit dr. Nina means you have to create something and that create creation is a transformation of hirtius into oil and it goes through the state of ask a fear and then it's happened what's the difference of a scarfy and his hapa the SKA fears Yaakov and its options you saw its Kavya is the marshal the buys it I gave you before what's this Kavya scarf you means I'm dealing with some real nasty what are we calling in English some real nasty spaghetti okay and I'm dealing with it but instead of becoming enslaved by it I quarantine it I give it it space it doesn't mean I have to define my behavior based on it nor even though I have to define my relationship towards you based on it and on the contrary the fact that I can acknowledge it as I said allows me to quarantine it as long as they don't acknowledge it it actually defines me it owns me it acknowledges me I don't acknowledge it it either you acknowledge it or it acknowledges you one of the two if you don't give it a name it gives you a name you hit have enough if you don't give it a name it gives you a name and your name becomes that your name becomes that I'm the bitter frustrated angry furious abused horrible judged life that's miserable never had a happy day everything in my life was unjust never had a good day nobody ever understood me nobody still understands me you like put it on your car but remember remember the shame I'm ray but shame I'm gonna maybe go Lavoie alone maybe go a long long you could do their whatsapp's it could be the one of the what's up so what you should believe about yourself somebody wants that just because I'm paranoid it doesn't mean the whole world does not against me I'm talking paranoid but everybody hates me now these are thoughts we have very interesting thoughts the challenge is that often we live in a culture where people are now let expressed thoughts and we think that by doing that we create a healthy culture we create disease by that because what happens is when you can't acknowledge it it holds everybody hostage when you can acknowledge it paradoxically you could see that it's a low bush if you don't acknowledge it it's not a lavash it's everything that's what it is so now you are that then you are then and you are that if I can acknowledge it my thoughts are that then it's not you and I can actually distinguish between my thought and me and between my thoughts and my thoughts experience of how I should experience you what with Hashem it starts with Hashem of course with us that's the question starts with a Shem what's a Shila why do you think it would be different whatever it is you're experiencing but say I hate you you're a therapist so I'll give you the advice that you'll give you patience you never tell somebody I hate you you never do that because first of all they will naturally unless they're very very refined and worked out they will become defensive and will be hurt for good reasons you can't expect everybody you know to really be on that level the way to say it is yeah what you said to me what I experienced that what I experienced in my heart was a lot of pain it was very painful for me to hear I felt lonely I feel misunderstood I feel very negative it creates within me a sense of anger a sense of hate don't put it on the other person say the truth put it on yourself not blame yourself but identify what it really is I hate you is not ms it looks like it's ms my thought is telling me that I have to hate you to avoid my pain that's the truth my thoughts I'm trying to avoid the pain that I'm experiencing in this relationship why I'm experiencing that pain that's not for right now call travel from shore delay my thoughts want to help me avoid that how oh I hate this person drop dead they're the worst of all why did I even have a relationship I wish I would have never met this person I'm a sire boom dead cutter I don't need them I'm not interested in them sure right you understand when I say I hate you I'm not saying the MS I know I I think I'm saying that I'm us but I'm not really saying the Animus I hate you do I even know who I am and do I even know who you are I hate you beneath this and I these are you I never learned to I am I never learned who you are I'm B'Elanna in a spin of thoughts for the last 43 years I know who I am somebody the top how many is this is high about the Miami Beach really never color Shiraz oh yeah smelly never a Lila but you understand what I'm saying so when I say I hate you I know I I know you I even had a chance to know you the whole you is experienced by me through my convoluted thoughts that define I in a particular way so much more honest thing is when I hear these words they trigger very very intense thoughts that that feel a lot of hate that's true and if you have an honest friend you could speak that way if you don't have an honest friend you can't speak that way that's true you can't even say that but when we create a culture where people can't talk about these things what happens doesn't go away it just defines us much more defines us much more by acknowledging this you don't become dirty you become clean you understand what I'm saying by acknowledging Liz you don't become filthy you become clean because you could distinguish between the you and this that's the my terrific idea that he's Mossad is that my shove is on the bush wait at the Khazar even my shove is not only dipper mi serum.i Chavez over how do you synthesize what so this is scoff here this is hoppin scoff you stage one Ascar fear means there's nasty stuff going on and have to be careful colorful literally means I have to subdue I have to bend I have to the Gemara hammock like as soon as your sana do we use under Shoshana a Schieffer cough or show for potions a bench eye for a curved show for a straight rifle glycosuria shunted off revolver Mishnah and the murse is what smartest amok like us what's why so much like us so here you see right away that every swatting amana Thomas for as much as Mars over-under Shoshana called the Caius in urged it-it's a Miley the more you Ben that's better the other that says we should Shonda the more you straighten out your - better so our people shot it means some say by dominating you should bend your head or keep your head straight what the ballot tiny explains elsewhere and we looked at us at the end of the previous mindmap that it's two states of perception and then one of them I monument says that it's you who they align you with it at all the higher level of unity is pasha tighty and the lower level or unity is khalifa tighten you have to bend you have to you have to bend your posture you have to curve your perception it's not straight it's talking not straight there's a struggle here why is your a struggle because my perception is screaming - and helen and have to be able to bend it to challenge it to curve it so so scott so when there is real transformation that is we stir all comes and when the rich transformation transformation means that it's not anymore amel comma it's very similar Kim it's not anymore yogurt has us back a vase of the youth is desperately holding on to the hill and trying to deal with the a curve he Sri sumela Kim you prevailed that's what happened that night but too cold now your name goes from from Yaakov the [Music] exactly and that's the next year one is there's a scarf eat that could be a sucker there's never as Hopkin without a scarf in if there's a sapling without a scarf e it's a joke it's like saying oh I don't have any any emotion and I dealt with it already I'm done we tell us a or I shouldn't be feeling that way and if I don't feel that way you're not dealing what you did was you covered it up you cover it it up and that's it you didn't deal with it now deal with it doesn't mean that I have to walk around the streets and scream everything the mantra that I said before about myself that I'm this and I'm this and I'm this but dealing with it me that in an appropriate context especially with a person that I can trust I say look harav can a little covert or whatever the model is I should be able to define what is going on especially in relationships and with Hashem the same thing with our sham the same thing looks in another few minutes I want to learn a few lines in paddock base he makes Eve via our column by epuap named by Andrew how value well a Kim baseball game kipper we say I shall welcome seven times at the end of Yom Kippur Moira Boehner says a sham o alikum once after a salad Oz Hashem you are looking another pasta queer that I am I very seldom esacash a more looking but each time is separate then comes Malacca I love cinnamon you trust you know the story after departures kiss ISA Elio Nov challenges 400 Navy aim of Bali builds amis Bay off by Mount Carmel how the Karma the only time an avi is mockery of a carbon outside of the base on Victor shoot a hose ie Ross saw he brings a carbon outside of the base of Meadows as an award it's the one of the great sources that an avi could change trader a La Cantera temporarily not of a desire but other how long as if it's an avoid that's what a Leo one no he does and he has the Navy and bring a carbon and he brings a carbon they both slaughter a bull he expects from them that their gods will create a fire and burn up the flesh of the bull and they try and they try and they try and Ilyana he says maybe he got a sleeping maybe he's in the bathroom maybe you have to wake him up maybe you have to tickle him but who ain't carve a nine the nation is following of a desert and then a Leo I know these carbon is consumed by a heavenly flame by yarn via our column a hip-hop name I am rue Hashem Oh Alec a Martian well you'd gave off value well look him twice and the sight of this Miami is going to distinguish between moistures are similar Kim and disassembled by moisture it's once and it's twice Y twice they could have said a value alikum now we repeat things because we like repeating things and that's why we repeat things because we like repeating things and I rest my case I don't repeat myself sorry but in Tonasket doesn't work that way you don't stomp Hawk out okay another Shadwell the kid I was by clear sir Titus some weeks ago so the ball kinda did another drop not here I was in another show so uh he was just doing everything up you know that whatever in his memory you know so somebody gives a scheme mockup off a you know why not put an apposite how can I repeat this a ShamWow looking once more by a columbarium roshambo eloquent what's the double so you could say it's about his look you want to make it stronger but we're gonna see that this second - amarela kim characterizes the unique experience of what sugar means and therefore it's a new hashem well the Kim that it's not included in the first XM well the Kim of my should a bit now here there's a law on ghoul Ahava the parenthesis with the buyer McCabe miss Caraga from the Tomas Abbott says Aloha VIN mama call a base partner to understand what's the Chi phone you said before that the taxes of life is a sham Ella Kim what's the base Parliament what's the redundancy what's the Chi full of a sham o alikum that's going to be explored writer in the minor this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot a yeshiva net / donate