Letting in the Divine Light - Rebbetzin Orit Esther Riter

[Music] there's a basic law in the creation and that is comes from the persik of tehilim varaha maava a call massive shams Romana Hashem is compassion Hashem love is at the baseline of all of creation I interpret it this way I don't interpret it that way it feels look good to me it feels not right to me it doesn't feel good it doesn't feel like love to me this feels like hatred to me it doesn't matter the baseline of everything that Hashem gives to us is all raha meme it's all love it's all compassion it's all loving-kindness there's only one place that all of creation is being given the life force from and it all has the only thing in common is that ocean wants to do like eat an egg a liver of all Hashem wants us to experience a hundred percent now listen to this ladies a hundred percent endless endless say it again endless on ik ms pleasure you want to know what chocolate souffle is like out of the oven with whipped cream and a cherry on top go further than that we're talking endless and endless and endless of divine pleasure and guess what why does it not seem foreign to any of us the whole idea of pleasure it's because we've all been there we've all been there we've all tasted it we all know what it's like why because we all came from a place of wholesomeness we all came from this unity within Hashem we all experience the divine light and at one point or another whenever the divine calculation was it was decided in heaven that we needed to come down here and we needed to be separated from that source in light so we're on a kind travel we went down from wholesome to frank fragmentation and our whole journey of life is to go from fragmentation back to wholesomeness that's the whole journey of life the whole journey of life is hollow Hashem I'm Asha Mata I'm a Lego pieces I have one Lego piece here and one Lego piece there and I have a puzzle piece over there and the end piece over there can you put me together already the whole life is all about finding pieces of my soul wherever it may be sometimes it's that shop right and sometimes it's in best market and sometimes everywhere I go and sometimes my my neighbor and something's with the husband that annoys me and sometimes every place I go I need to pick up another piece of my soul and they need to literally put myself together and as I begin to put myself together I experience this endless feeling of joy we call it today empowerment self empowerment what is this empowerment it means coming back to the original power that I was want that I once had inside of me and so all Hashem wants from us he like like a good father like a good mother what do we do with our children we give them everything that we possibly can and then at one point we say honey it's time to move on it's time for you to find yourself it's time for you to take all the things that you learned and build something amazing with your life it's time for me to let go and so Hashem in this space called love for you to find you we experience it as abandonment we experience it possibly as you don't love me anymore why did you send me down here why are you making me go through this but as Sam is saying honey I'm right here I'm just behind the screen okay just just take off the screen clear color of your glasses take out the umbrella whatever you have to do but just know I'm here because you came from me and you're coming back to me I'm just we're just an interim basis here right now right that's that's all that it is and so every time we feel a sense of lacking what are we supposed to do we're not supposed to plop on our couch and say huh this life when is it going to be over countdown right that's not the purpose the purpose is is that every time we feel some sort of momentary lacking in life it's supposed to do only one thing and it's supposed to increase our rot zone our yearning to achieve wholesomeness again after all if I had everything that I wanted boy I wouldn't you know be getting off my couch anytime soon you'd still be finding me in my couch in Ramat pajamas I would not be getting off every time you feel you have everything you're not motivated to do anything so has shams so to speak purposely created this vacuum in life called lacking I'm missing a million dollars in my bank I'm missing a husband who buys me flowers I'm missing a child who listens to me I'm missing I'm missing I'm missing I'm missing all of these little missings is because hashem misses us and Hashem wants us back and in order to get us to want to drive us to to motivate us to push us to essentially find ourselves it's only if I'm uncomfortable after all if everything's going fine and I'm driving 140 an hour and there's no cops on the road and there's no detours and there's no construction I'm driving honey I am not stopping now I could be driving to bear Sheva when I think I want to go to you with Shalom it doesn't matter I'm driving nobody's stopping me so the annoyances of my life those momentarily the momentary setbacks and some of them are quite big are really there in order to bring me to a place that I'm gonna feel so uncomfortable I'm gonna yell out hey what's going on here turned off the lights who turned off the lights I don't see where I'm going I don't I thought it was going I thought it was doing the right thing what happened and so the concept of all the lacking instead of a scratching about it we need to say to us is okay Jim how do you want me to do something you want me to get off of my couch and you want me to try to look for something you want me to get me to to look for something so let's just understand how we get this motivation pumped into us so there's a concept in Cibola that teaches us that on top of every single one of our heads there's literally a sleeve okay think of it as a little funnel from an energy perspective we try to make this simple from an energy perspective scientifically it has been proven that scientists don't like to say God so they call it ID intelligent design I mean they have all these great little gadgets just not to say there's a God and God forbid to be obligated to do something other than party all night and drink whiskey right so they are doing everything they can to just get out of the obligation scene you know we just want to enjoy you know but say say drink be merry have fun for tomorrow you shall die that's the that's the message of the Western world that's a scientist wanted why does essential to live that life but there's one thing that the scientists agree there's so much intelligence in the way that the body ticks and the way the world is run it's not positive 75 trillion cells renewing itself all of the time every 7 years and it's just by fluke that it happened it's not possible and so the scientists are finally realizing there is some sort of intelligence right this intelligence the Kaaba the Kabbalah teaches us this intelligence actually comes from the letter yud the letter yud is the letter of Homer now where is this you'd this Judah is in this pool of light ok up in sham i'ma get a little bit of so Tarek here that's ok voodoo voodoo it's all kosher and there so there's just little good hanging up on top of in Sharm I'm imagine that there's like this pool of lights cuz how do we describe Hashem essence in the sense of Lights and we could talk about that in a minute what that means but essentially if you look at the letter you it from the way you write it in in the kitab Stumm right the Torah this effort or the way they write it the yield looks like this this you know this lot little line and then it has like a little drip right so you could see it almost looks like a funnel we get all of our lights essentially dripped on to our head through so to speak this letter yud the you letter you does this hokhmah this golly divine this aha moment of yes I realize I should have married him after all or whatever it is you know there's this moment of wisdom the wisdom that guides our life comes essentially from this so to speak this letter yud this letter year that sort of drips down so there's this this funnel here on top of her head that's essentially where the sevenish ma that we're heading and treading towards with Matson Tara coming up this is where all of our guidance our ha moments are all of our direction it's all coming from this godly godly light that's sitting right here and it's it's coming it's calming big-time this light this wisdom doesn't stop doesn't ask us permission doesn't say you know do you want some it's just pouring now if our vessel if our crown is not open to this it just spreads out and then you wonder why there's so much Hama that's spread out to the Western world to the Gentile nation because if we don't have a vessel to hold on to this wisdom in this light it just it's there it has to go somewhere so it ends up going and flowing to whoever it is that's willing to take it and sometimes it goes to go and sometimes in fact it is it's it's a known fact that the Baal Shem Tov a Kadosh that lived about three hundred years ago that sound at one point in time he had his disciples around him and he said wow there's an amazing light that's coming down from sham mine for the Jewish people and this is the light of music he said it's the light of music there's a new music a home ah of music that's waiting to come down from Shimon to be given to the Jews why to prepare them for the BET - Mick - and for the songs that the living I'm about to sing once again and so the Jewish people were meant to receive all this amazing gorgeous musical tones but unfortunately our vessels were closed and the funnel kept pouring out this light and we weren't ready to receive it and so it went to the do you know who came out about two hundred and fifty three hundred years ago do you know the music the massive music movement that came out around that time baa Beethoven Mozart classical music came out just around that same time cuz we didn't get it now does that mean that there's some holiness of our s sure their holiness in our essence they say right oh ma begoing - Amin - ABBA going out I mean you believe in the homo the but don't believe in their Torah which means why do you supposed to believe in the the the tour of the you're supposed to take a little bit of it know that there is certainly something there for you because it belonged to us initially it was supposed to come to us anyway it just didn't stay with us so that means they're getting there's some of it in there that really is truthfulness there's a lot of it that's truthfulness right and so essentially this light this love this or end stuff wants to come and permeate every single one of our systems all the time and and it's it's like this constant nudging of come on you've got to do something right don't you I hope you all have this I have it I'm sure I share some with you I mean I have this constant dude come on you got to do something gotta go to America I got to go to Queens gotta go back uh Brielle you got to teach you if huzzah you got to do something there's always this drive that comes from this light wanting so badly to come into you and you have to want to have this light come into you you have to say to yourself I want this light I want to have this light and the mere desire the rut zone which is what really where the ruts and kabura comes in the right zone to want to have this light to take the letters of the word rut zone is spell seen or spells pipeline if you really want it you open up essentially that sleeve the pipeline to allow this light to permeate into your system but what happens if this light doesn't make its way into every crevice every cell every ligament every bone every organ of your body what happens so the cover lap again I go back to the ball of ceramic Adagio teaches a commentary on the on the Zora kadosh and he says he says wherever the light of this wisdom call it you know the light of Hashem of course the healing light efficient wherever it doesn't go in essentially is created something else because there is no such thing as a vacuum in the cosmos there is no such thing as just an empty space there is no empty space because if it was empty and it didn't have a Schams light there would be nothing there so so long as there's exist it has to have a vitalizing force that force is a Shem and so essentially wherever the light doesn't come in what does it say your stuff at Siddiq right they threw him in a bar they threw him in the pit and what does it say what was in the bar and Boo mine there's no water in the bowl there's no water in the pit but what does it say the next the next line after that I've a yes but now Hashim vaca-oom there's no Torah that means what does it teach us there's no tower there but there's snakes and there's scorpions and those kind of EB G bees over over there right things we don't want a things we shoo out of the house and we call the exterminator for right we take the broom out boom right that we it so then other words that we learn from here is that essentially there is no such thing as an empty space where there's no tour where there's no light where there's no kedusha something else comes in and that's the negative so wherever I don't feel the fit in the positive wherever the light of a Shem doesn't enter into my body what essentially is created is a halala an emptiness there's an emptiness and if you look at the word mahalo sickness it has within it the root Hollow so where does sickness stem from from an emptiness of the soul an emptiness in the body in the in the heart in the organ in a cell wherever it is in the body when the energy lines if we want to get you know really technical when there's pockets of lifeless energy then essentially that's where all the negativity starts leeching on and going into right that's that's exactly what is it a disease and bounce begins to be created in the space where God who like was supposed to permeate so there always has to be a filling of something yes so essentially if we look at our lives every space and I could tell you this the the class is not long enough for me to explain to you how I have traced back in my own life that my own Ms has come from an emptiness that I can pinpoint very clearly in my own life and I could see the wisdom of a Shem I could see the godly guidance of why I got my MS I could clearly see where that Hollow where that void in my life began and where I allowed so to speak right it's it's all from a Shem but where it was able to find its place and come in and grow into this you know disease called MS now many of us unfortunately are empty when it comes to these emotions when we have emotions that are very negative in our lives and I can name a bunch of them resentment sorrow disappointment - satisfaction just joint ment anger you name it any negative emotion that finds its spot in my body it could be anger in my liver it could be fear in my kidneys it could be you know anxiety in my stomach right it could be and we'll talk about a couple of different ideas hopefully we'll get get to it by the end of the class any place that there is some sort of a void of this godly energy okay from an emotional or spiritual perspective unfortunately consciously not consciously I like it I don't like it it doesn't matter Hashem is sending us a message you're at that part of your body you did not let me into it and the Tsar could this brings down something very very very strong Gazzara kodos brings down very specifically in the place where godly light does not enter into a certain part of the body it first dries withers away and eventually dies very clearly stated very clearly stated in the Czar Kadosh wherever you don't let her Shem in eventually follows death because hyeme hyeme life is only from a Shem so it makes sense that if there's a part of my body that's dying not functioning imbalanced has the wrong message is not being read correctly it means there's no godly light there because God is all perfect if he's in my space if I'm allowing him in my space everything's functioning properly everything is tick-tocking properly the the livers doing what it's supposed to do those cells everything's moving the blood circulation everything's moving beautifully the Rambam brings if we did everything we were supposed to no none of us would need a doctor of course we're not on that level and I'm not saying wrong we should be on you know we could be on that level but I'm here to say that we have to understand what I'm trying to bring across is one one message is that everything that Hashem does it's Rami if there's something wrong with a part of my body if there's something going on in my body it's because there's something that I'm not doing right to allow godly light into that space and Hashem loves me so much he says to me honey I need to get in there would you please open the door would you please let me in if you let me in if you correct your ways if you allow yourself to go back to that place of wholesomeness if you bring Shalom which is schlemm moot the Shalom the peace why do we why are we always talking about Shalom about unities particularly now during the the forty-nine days of the Omer why are we always talking about Shalom and I Vaseline um and being United with your fellow Jew you're you know with yourself with yourself loving yourself accepting yourself why is it always being emphasized it's because Shalom is Sheila moot Shalom is wholesomeness when I allow myself to become one with someone else there's space and meet allow more godly light from that person in me and I'm doing an exchange of energy I'm giving them some godly light they're giving me some guy they like their God we like could push away darkness inside of me and so Hashem is forcing us to that direction you have to under we have to all understand one thing we are on the path to gula well again I keep going back whether we like it whether we don't when we acknowledge you either we're on the train on the a train the B train the seat it doesn't matter we're all going towards Kula every single one of us those that are out there is simulated don't know they're even Jewish don't know which my /mm yet see lit Coulomb it doesn't matter we're all going there whether baraja meme or big year swim through Torah and mitzvot or through God forbid you serum like Mahalo tan - Amir la femme à la Isla am not on anyone dr. Shobha kava for Ashley Marfa all of our morale amongst all those we mentioned Beth Latimer men we have to understand that there's a message there there's a clearing that needs to happen for the light of mushiya to come and this is all part of the plan so I can either all day long say darn it it's not the way that I want I'm missing I'm missing I'm missing or I could say okay um I see you're knocking on my door you're trying to get into me I need to open up my cell I need to open up my door and what happens is this light wants to come in me and if it doesn't find a way to go in me it's just gonna pour out of me but it's there Hashem is there he's knocking on our doors all the time he wants to come the question is do I have the right zone am i opening up my roots on my will is my desire when I get up in the morning do I have a desire to want to do what's on Hashem do I want to embrace my godliness mission or do I just want I'm planning my next Caribbean vacation which by oh you could take me there if you'd like Caribbean you know we're going and having pina colada what do you wear is my mindset what do I really want for my life and depending on where that is is what allows or doesn't allow god forbid the light to come in and if you look at the word Braja blessings who doesn't want a blessing everybody wants a blessing look at the word bra ha and the bra ha comes from the word how cover to assemble Braja means I'm assembling my life I'm taking the piece that I forgot at the supermarket and I forgot you know by over there and I forgot in this argument and I forgot in my you know when I said something I shouldn't have to my child I'm taking all those little pieces of my life and I'm putting it together and I'm creating wholesomeness and that's when I get baraha from sure maíam that is the true essence of bras we run to obey Him and and we need them and we should go to them but the Braja is essentially in me assembling me it's me accepting me it's me loving me it's me appreciating me it's me assembling myself realizing that I'm on I'm broken right now guess what whether you looked in the mirror or not you think you're all put together we're all broken we're all SH Motta's right I like when I'm in my dumps at moments in my life I say that sham I'm a smarter look at me I'm just a schemata or my next thing I'd say to them and I'll say - I said I'll say did you see me on the floor there can you just like dust me up and put me in and you know just just put me together like here's my nose is there and my eyes are there you know just put me together but I recognize there's I laugh at it but any we should laugh at it but that's the truth we're all a mess we're all a mess but we don't have to be alarmed by it it's okay the whole pathway of life is to make ourselves whole again that's part of life so if anyone thinks they're put together then you know you can come to my house so I'll tell you you I'll show you a little bit of brokenness there how does this brokenness happen if you look at the word hut-hut spelled hut Tet Aleph hut is stands for the word Hacha how do you know the meaning of each letter based on the first time it's mentioned in the Torah so right the first time we see the letter het is the word Hacha Hacha hug prayer mine okay so het means the hush it means there's a blockage I'm talking about the head in the word head right you have had Tet Aleph then the next letter in het is dead Ted stands for Tove for all the goodness of life and the next letter in het is Aleph Aleph is a loofa shel olam it's all Hashem Hashem what is the hut hut means there's a blockage in the goodness of Hashem them the light of Hashem is essentially not coming in to me there's a blockage there in fact just look at the word the letter Hut that's closed from the top there's no opening there's no way for that light to come in and Ted what is a tete-a-tete to shape the Hamim teaches the Ted is shaped like a little womb like Hashem carrying us it's all the goodness of the world it's being cradled it's being caressed it's being loved so all the good is being validated it's being hugged by our Creator and the olive is is or Hashem one of the reasons why we might fall into that pattern of the hat is because the hat also symbolizes Hormel homer which is the material physical existence tat can also symbolize teeth teeth which is the clay and the mud and all with Ryan when we were of a demon mitts Ryan we were doing we were busy with clay and teeth and Haumea that's it actually those are the words depicted of our avodah I voted Paulo are slavery and Mitzrayim and if you look at the word het where's the olive at the end which means that essentially the Hat means the existence where Hashem you're important to me but unfortunately like at the end so we have to know that the whole idea of the hets when there's a transgression we have to change a little bit of the mindset and not always look at it as that there's a God there who's vendetta that wants to get back to us we did something wrong oh he's punishing me all right I'm a bad girl I just deserved to be in the corner I deserve this that's not the case the case is is that if my vessel is not strong enough to receive the light because essentially I locked myself down I have to go through a reversal of a procedure to open myself back up because what's gonna happen if a shun gives me light and I'm not capable of receiving it that's what happened in Ghana didn't by the way what do you think I should've just said a dumb get out of me I don't want to get out of my my guard and I don't want you there that's not what happened he wasn't capable of of inhabiting and dwelling in that space anymore because he would have broken to pieces there would have been no more existence so Hashem protected him it's like wearing glasses with a high UV you know UV coating when you can't look at the Sun so now here's something very very interesting essentially we all have in our minds this knowledge a fashion I think most of us to a large degree or another will say I know I shall of zhh me he cares about me he's doing for my ultimate best I know he's you know he's here with me most of us intellectually don't have an issue most of the time so we forget sometimes okay spiritual amnesia we all have that you know but but for the most part we all remember so essentially if someone's trying to give me something and I don't have a vessel that's proper enough to receive it then essentially what happens is the vessel can break it's like you can't put tons of bricks in a very fine crystal vase everything has its appropriate vessel so Hashem says if your vessel is not refined if you're not ready to receive my light then I don't want it I don't want you to it's gonna actually cause more harm than it will good right essentially that's the whole idea is that we should receive the light at its proper form and we should be receptacles to be able to receive it so what did we say the light comes in from here and it enters into our brain which is why most of the highest concentrated light goes into the brain which is why most of us intellectually don't have a problem accepting the fact that there's a creator because the light is first enters into the mind but look what happens look how Annan anatomically the the body is created after it permeates the whole brain system the eyes the nose the mouth it hits this very constricted restricted space here called the neck anybody have neck issues neck throat right sore throat problems neck problems a lot of people have issues with their neck and their throat why because there's a little guy little guy who we really don't want we really really are not interested in having him invade our privacy in this specific area and he's called Paro and Paro essentially sits on every single one of our necks we're on the or off' if you take the word or f in hebrew it's cause the neck if you take the word or f' and switch the letters around you'll get Paro so essentially power sits right over here and pyro is very busy trying to always move my head don't look over there there's a lot of godly you know it's just a lot of he's always getting me to look around you like when you go to them all right I want know I want that and I want that know that what do you think who do you think is switching your neck around I'll go to Macy's I'll go to Sears I'll go to that either they'll go to that and hot body center its power always getting and all this indecisiveness that we're going through in life should I shouldn't I should go to this job so I got this guy looks good no I like that guy better yeah all right everything is about this and that's all power always changing in fact is this a cute joke the the husband's will say I'm the head of the house and the wife will say yes but I'm the neck I can switch you around wherever I want all right I turn your head wherever it is I want you to look and that's essentially the truth the neck is a very important and vital pathway to get that godly light to get that knowledge and bring it and permeate it into my system in fact is the neck think about the neck you've got your jugular veins you've got the exchange of gases and solids you've got your meeting point between brain stem and spinal column spinal column the whole spine over vertebrae 18 vertebrae is 18 can egged 18 blessings of the Schmo nicely people with back problems check your Schmo nicely see wait how you're doing your Schmo nicely because every single vertebrae represents another one of the Broca's the whole idea of the the neck you know how when you're tense what do you say honey give me a massage if you have a husband who did give me a mess right everyone has tension here everyone has tension here because this is where Perot says he doesn't want us to look he doesn't want us to see doesn't want to expand the vision he wants us like the horse right look straight ahead here and now that's all you've got you don't have anything beyond you ready you're just looking straight ahead you're just going this way I don't want you to see what's here I don't want you to see what's there just look here and that's what power does to us but essentially this is the point where we have to recognize that many times we ourselves choose also to change our direction of what we're looking at so imagine this here the light is now shining on me filming this right and the light becomes too strong this light is Hashem's blessings that let's just say as an allegory Hashem is shining his light on to me right now it's too it's too bright for me what's the response when you see something bright I turned myself around is that light stopping no the light is still coming how am I getting the vitality of that light now from the back do you see why you can't see Hashem face to understand why Hashem is not really clearly showing his face to us because we've chosen to turn our backs on him because the light is too strong we can't we can't take it it's too much when you have something you know warm water is great a little bit too hot don't get me out it's too cold get me yet right it has to be just there Hashem wants to give it to us so that it's just right so that we can take it in if it's too much if it's too little we suffer the question is Hashem knows the quantity of light that we need that were that we need but not all just that we need but that we're capable of taking in and if we're not capable of taking in and Hashem stops it for our own good so that we're not gonna fall apart and that's exactly what he did it with a dumb only son he said you can't stay here if you stay here you won't be able to enjoy anything this would be pure misery for you you know Sun is beautiful but there's only a limit to how much Sun we also want right cold is also view it says everything has to have its meter which is why by the way all of our emotions are cold we don't because everything has to be in proportion everything has to be in its proper space and so essentially how do you let go of this Paro so you have here a beautiful part of you called your mouth meet your mouth what kind of things come out of your mouth let's see well let's just see especially through the next you know 49 days we have to really check to make sure our Lashon Hara is not part of that mouth but the mouth is an amazing deflector of letting go of a lot of the blockages that we could end up here which is why it says in pure chaos daaaad gab and lev ish yes Irina when you have a problem in your heart when you have a worry in your heart yes see Hannah let it go speak with a friend get a machine get a mentor join the rats and labora have a ave ruta it talk about it get it out speak about it of course don't scream it out preferably don't throw dishes at the person while you're talking about it but you know what I mean like deflect it take it out if you allow yourself to essentially take out what it is your feelings and let it go then it doesn't even have a chance to enter into that place and start blocking your heart and it won't get stuck here in your throat for peril to take it and really make a whole big polygon out of it so it's very very important now look at the Sud the secret in the word about the mouth take the word refer and if you divide out the word refer it says pay all in the mouth as you speak you have the ability depending on what comes out of your mouth god forbid it could bring what does it say in the Torah hi I'm Ben Moffat via Bella Sean right so what does it mean it means that here everything is right here what I say how I say it it's important to say it it's not you shouldn't just not say it if you have something to say to your husband's your friends your neighbors your in-laws say it nice they call me right that brings before it's getting it out it's not letting it harbour up into your system it's not letting it sit there and become a mahalo it's not becoming choked up and blocking the light from coming down to the rest this is this is the pathway this is where all that concentrated light gets its chance to finally enter through the nervous system or your sensations all of your consciousness all of your awareness is here it just has to make its way to the rest of your body there is something very beneficial if you come with the right qivana and the right rut zone there is something very special and important that you should say it to the person too even if it's just to say to them you know I love you so much I always say you have to always candy wrapper everything you start off with something good you go for the bang and then you start off again with them and you can really close it back up with something good without anything in life I really love you very much and because I love you very much I wanted to just let you know that was painful for me so the idea is to wrap it in but it has to be let out and that's why V Dewey that's way to feel I it's all about opening up the mouth we think we're doing hash I'm a favor as if he has nothing better to do in his life with so many billions of trillions of people in the world and he has to hear my to feel a it's for me I'm Davin Inge so that I can let go of my guilt and my anger and my sorrow and remind myself that it shuns in charge and so I'm doing it for me I'm allowing my pair to bring in Oh to allow the light to come through it's vet and that's what it says in Monty key at the Bell right how do you put women say to me how do I get to that better mood I mean you're talking about a mood how do I get it I mean I want to join the club I want to turn the Emunah club how do I get there and I say hey Monty key of the Bell speak speak devrait Emunah say if somebody's calling you on the phone they're saying you hi honey how are you say you know what it's really been hard but I know it shims with me say you know what I'm having a really tough day but I know I'm gonna get me through this and in a word of Emunah let your mouth become a source of light and that is then essentially helps for you know the light to continue to trickle down so I want to talk just one more thing about Emunah before I get to some body parts and just try to understand and the reason why I'm doing it it's not so that we could become these analyzing you know personality your eye hurts you what have you been looking at lately your right side oh that's something about that man of yours in your house yeah I'm not them we're not becoming diagnostic crazies here that's not the purpose why their only reason why I'm bringing up some of this and some of this a lot more of this would be in the book God willing that's coming out is just because it's there to teach us there's no flukes in the universe there's no I happen to stub my toe and it happened to be the third toe on the right foot there's something going on on that toe I mean there's everything has a representation there's a reason and when you begin to see the amazing wisdom of Hashem messages coming through your body you're going to embrace Hashem you're gonna run to him you're gonna run to him you're gonna appreciate it and then the Sura will go away take the word sorrow sorrow what does it have in it the word rots running the reason why we have so oft what we have sorrow so we could run to Hashem that's the whole reason there's no there Eliquis said there's no vendetta out there there's no one there out there to get us it's just to wake us up I've said this morning was speaking in wood where and I said to them take the word raah switch the letters around spells air being awake the only reason why I think something is wrong in my life is because I'm sleeping if I just woke up and I cleared my eyes and took the off from my leftover makeup and I'd be able to see things clearly I wouldn't notice anything bad and what is the prophecy of the end of days Ozzy MELAS Hawk Pinoy as I you know keyhole meme that's the ultimate prophecy of the end of days I was sleep yes you were all sleeping are you do you feel asleep now can I wake you up to pull the covers off how annoying is that when you're in the middle of sleeping and someone pulls the covers away from you or the the you know alarm clock goes off where's the snooze button when you need it you know we're all sleeping essentially yes we are all sleeping and all we're gonna do is wake up and realize that and there was no bad I was just asleep I didn't realize I had my all my hashim all of my sensory issues were wrong and what that means is Yaakov is Robin Rosa is not sick and Sarah but Sarah is not sick and nobody is sick and no one has Sarah's and nobody has any problem we're just all sleeping literally we're all sleeping and so it feels like something else is like when you're in the middle of sleep it really feels like you're there and you're in you and it's like oh my gosh I didn't just win the lock oh really like that was a dream I really wanted to happen you know you really feel this is the reality and that's why one of the main important factors in true avodah system is I always say don't live life asleep be awake be attuned to what Hashem is sending you he's knocking on every single one of our doors open up the door see what the messages there's an amazing for you to become an amazing you out of this experience there's there's a lot to be said about this but let me just at least finish by just talking about a couple of different nuances of understandings are you raising your hand okay so there's a couple of steps before you're allowed you're allowed to say so to speak Hashem show me what it is that you want you first have to acknowledge first half the first attack wait wait you're going real real fast banking is a big thing it's not so easy first shift acknowledge it's from a Shem I'd like to see all of us including myself first recognize when that nasai on comes in a moment that's from a Shem that's a that in itself is a very hard the challenge taints your whole brain you don't remember there's a guy usually like your eyes shine like oh yeah that's right it's a shadow I had I could forget silly me right what does it say what is the sin a sin the the Torah depicts the sin as it being a moment of foolishness permeating your mind what is that moment too foolish foolishness spiritual amnesia oh I forgot there's a God that's what makes a sin if I really knew God was here looking at me like all the time I wouldn't be sneaking around trying to do something there was no way I'd be if I know her cameras looking at me I'm like I'm not even trying to duck yeah I'm I'm careful right so it's that moment that we forget so first we have to just recognize it's from Hashem remind ourselves who Hashem is he's my loving God he cares about me he's worrying about me he's trying to get me he's getting me awake right nobody appreciates being woken up but we all got to wake up we got to get to the you know make our coffee in the morning we got to get our pedicures and a manicure is right we've got to do all that great stuff in them or whatever it is we have to get up in the morning nobody likes to be woken up when you're in a nice deep sigh but we have to wake up Hashem is waking us up he says listen your bus stop is coming what do you want to go all the way really to bear Sheva thought you want to go your wish in life he's telling us you got you're going on the wrong path you got to get up you got to keep doing you gotta keep moving got to keep you're gonna keep finding yourself and so essentially that's the old whole entire message over and over again so the whole idea of all of this is to just again to give us a glimpse of an idea of just trying to see a little bit of wisdom I'm not saying to ask for signs but there are certain clear signs that we can associate body mind and soul kind of together okay so here for instance we're gonna look at the idea of breathing issues breathing issues mishima right I go always go back to the Hebrew language cuz all the hoja is found in the leshawna Kodesh mishima is closely connected to neshama what's the difference what's the difference the good what did we say in the beginning of the class what's the hood Omaha Shem a person who has breathing issues is someone who might have to work on his little bit of the home ah maybe learn a little bit more Torah maybe bring a little bit more of God the light that way also it could mean that essentially when someone has breathing issues it could mean again I'm saying always could don't remember this is not an exact science but it could mean that maybe I've given up on wanting - Shama to be part of me breathing is letting in a veal if you look at the word of veal and all what's the difference got the yet again right a veal is air all is light the difference is the you it again so if I'm not allowing a veal if I'm not allowing Brie you know free and fresh air to come into me and into my breathing system then I've essentially not allowed the light the wisdom of light again to come into me so so again that's just something to think about something to contemplate also if you look at the word where the breathing is the lung system right how do you say lungs in Hebrew okay ah if you switch the letters around did we play a lot of Scrabble in my game in my two classes then you spell the word yeah to see essentially when we have issues with our lungs it could be that I'm not seeing things correctly that I might have to work on my the way that I see things in life factors Chinese medicines brings down that lung issues are directly connected to sorrow giving up a certain giving up to such grief in such morning and so the whole idea of a person not breathing is they're not allowing their full potential neshama to come into their Nasima they've given up this godliness this connectedness to to light so so something again to think about bones bones how do you say the word bones in Hebrew that's a moat that's a motto so it's very closely related to the word at Smoot Smoot which means power it means empowerment it means my essence it means the power of my essence bones are white Torah is written on a white scroll the bones in the humming teaches the bones are like the white walls the beams of the home we know that the bones holds up the entire body right what's in the bones bone marrow what's in the bone marrow DNA what's the DNA me right i DNA me my DNA is my DNA it's me it's the real me it's the core me it's Who I am who I believe believe in it's my core beliefs it's my structure of my life people who have bone issues might have to ask themselves what do I really believe in is there a clash in my beliefs is there is there an issue with my so to speak DNA my core the the real essence the foundation of my life where is it steady is it is it is it strong am i strong what's holding me up do I feel someone's breaking me down there's core issues bones are the core issues of a person's life person needs to ask those questions and essentially we're not supposed to go back and just say okay oh my god it my bones all right so I have problems with my core issues or Reid said to me I don't know what she was really saying but she said that that's my it's just so I'm gonna go and ask you a sham can you please just you know I'm willing to work with you here you work with me you know can we just kind of work this out so I don't have any more bone problems especially when it gets really cold out and such like that that's not the issue the idea is again it's not necessary for diagnostic and and healing that's that it can be it isn't it is a try for me as an energy therapist it definitely is a track for me to be able to look more into person's fears and traumas and try to help God willing sort things out that way but for us the idea is is to try to give us a little bit of an hint to talk to his Shemin to appreciate that there's a message in that particular part of my body particular part of my of my life how many times do you find in older the older generation where their bones osteoporosis and they have bone issues they really have given up their core beliefs they start questioning themselves what did I do did I do this right did I be mahant right a lot of that starts coming and accelerating in time so you'll find a lot of things going on in fact as I found for instance one of the things talking about older generation I've personally found a lot of people with the Alzheimer's with the dementia these are people who all their life chose not to remember certain things of their life certain traumas Holocaust what kinds of different memories never wanted to talk about never want it to bring it up in other words the body reads that which we have been telling it for many many many many years the body just sort of coincides and goes along with our emotional beliefs and our emotional stance okay and now that's I'm saying - it's a whole system there's really there's this but they're really getting messages so the hands you've got the right and you've got the left the right side is male energy the left side is female energy so anything in general that has to do with the right side of my body it has to do with some sort of a male energy either I'm having an issue with my own male energy and we all have male energy we'll have a female energy right the male energy and me is the ability to give the ability to be assertive the ability to stand up to be more aggressive in my life right so the whole right side has to do with that male energy it could be a male in my life husband son uncle brother someone male in my life that I'm truly troubled with and having issues with but the hand in itself is all about grasping who do I not want to grasp who do I not want to hold who do I not want to if it's depending on if it's again male or female who do I not want to receive from and who do I not want to give to it's about grasping life it's about hugging who do I not want to hug who do I not want to take into my life who do I push away from my life some a lot of messages again I'm just giving you ideas right the left side is all about female it's all about the female aspect again it could be me but between me and me it could be me between me and my mother me and my sister so it's the idea of receiving right the woman is nook but she receives the man we always think it's the opposite the mother gives and the father right takes it's not the case the male gives the seed the woman receives and uses it and nurtures it and you know builds with it so the male is the giver the woman is the receiver so if there's an issue it with my left side who do I not want to receive in my life who do I do not want to take into my life who do I refuse to have part of my life and who do i fuse maybe to hug and bring into my life so these again just different questions that we might want to ask ourselves mouths we spoke a little bit about the mouth the idea of verbal expression we know that all of this creation was created through words when I have issues with my whole mouth issue my all of the mouth issues speech issues right that some of us have articulating and such what am I not creating what part of my life did I not create do I need to create was their potential somewhere that I didn't create that I didn't use I didn't verb what am I not saying what has been said to me and I held back and I wanted to answer back again just analyzing it from that particular perspective but it's all about creation the mouth is about creation skin a lot of people come to me and tell me that their issues with acne right all kinds of skin issues psoriasis emma's we can say that it's all about the heat in the winter the dries our skin out we could say chocolate oh that I definitely me for sure me everyone knows I love chocolate yes definitely but skin if you look at it skin is all the outer image my skin is that what everyone sees I can't hi you know I can't hide every part of my skin its parts of what we were supposed to hide the skin is about my image to the world what is what do I want to let the world see in me and so what happens is with a lot of these the teenagers that suffer we again we think we have to let go a little the nature I know it's natural for teenage acne and I know that it's just part of you know the process but why because they don't know who they want to show themselves to be they're going through that particular issue in their life at that time they're struggling with their own self-image they're struggling with who do I want to show the world I really am do I even know who I am and I hate to say it but the more acne the mores it's the more Clearasil you're using in your home we need to address maybe that issue with our children and ask them is there a part of you that we need to say you know maybe we need to talk about it maybe you you're finding yourself and maybe it's so impacting in fact as pimples are inflammations right it's when you're so angry that it what is inflammation in general you're so angry that it's literally wants to explode and so it's popping and it wants to come out the image wants to come out and it's just it has no space also you have to understand that skin is basically essentially a downgrade from the light and they speak very quite extensively in this and my god willing in my coming book is the skin is the downgrade of the covering that we had when we were in GaN Eden right we went from ku tonot o with an olive to quit on it o with an iron skin right so essentially it's a downgrade of God's lights and we might have to also ask ourselves why am I not getting enough light from God on to me I'm somehow in the or part instead of the other or part right in the iron instead of with the olive it's also the place where it's the largest organ of the body the skin is the place where we read out all of our toxins in fact is if a person was to close their entire body all of the time a person would die they wouldn't last very long because it's the only essential place of the body that it really allows for the freeing of all the toxins of the body so I need to ask myself what am i holding on to that really wants to come out of me that maybe I'm not letting go depending on where it is in the body that will of course have its significance in terms of the way the toxins are but but I will tell you that having stuff on the skin is actually from my perspective from an energy perspective is actually a good sign because what does it mean it's no longer in its trying to come out it's already made its way to the surface so I'm actually it's easier to scent to a large degree to actually take care of skin issues than it is for you know internal issues so again these are just very like little nuances of pieces you know the main idea of again this whole evening is just for us to understand that there's a whole synergy and a whole synchronization of everything going on in the body and that we need to really embrace what it is that Hashem is sending us and not push it away and not think that we're not worthy the opposite if I am doing something wrong if my best friend knows that I'm heading into a brick wall would I not want her to tell me stop essentially that's what Hashem is doing every single moment that we're getting annoyed Shem is saying stop now I don't want to be stopped because freedom and Western world teaches us freedom live and be free I'll take the fifth I could do what I want it's a free country but essentially we need to sometimes be stopped I want to be told by my loving father that I'm doing something wrong and I have something that I need to fix I want to be told that I mean I don't want to walk around you know it's it's a great to have you know chocolate in the morning but if I have a nice beautiful lipgloss around my lips with chocolate milk after I drank my beautiful cup of chocolate milk I want somebody to tell me that before I go on the interview of my job right and that's what Hashem is doing he's telling us there's something as as schmutz on you we've got to get it out of you and so it's a message to us and as long as we can learn to try to embrace it then we'll we'll be able to really live a much more healthier life and be able to open up the vessel for the light to come in because the light wants to come in and that light is healing that light is Hashem love it's the connectedness that we have with Hashem and it brings back beautiful memories of the time where we were one with him and we at the end of the day that is the true onik is that we remember at one point way back when 5778 years ago we were one with a Shem it's a long time ago but we remember that under very a lot of layers of subconscious memories and and sin and transgressions and rebellious miss and slavery and who knows what we've been through we've all been around the block we're all recyclable welcome to recyclable generation we've all been here quite a few times thousands of times maybe and so after underneath all that there's this clean-cut memory of I remember one Hashem when you were we were Basque I was basking in the divine radiance and we were one and wasn't it so great and you know I really just want to be back there because this is what this is all about it's to find that space in me that I was once connected teshon let's get rid of all the garbage and all the falsity and all them you know the illusions and I just want to be back with us gem I just want to fulfill your will and at the end of the day when you live in that mindset you allow yourself to be totally open to Rutzen Hashem open up your scene or and receive the light and the light knows where to go because what did we say it's intelligent if you open yourself up to the light through your rot zone and all you have to do is say that Shem that's it I'm done I'm done with the nonsense I'm done with the garbage I don't have to wait for Rosh Hashanah now I'm starting now I want you in my life I really really want I don't know even how to do it I don't even know what book to pick up from the show to know how to do it all I'm giving you right now a Shem is this little book of thank you Thank You takuna Chloe I thank you a sham I'm gonna I'm just I just want you in my life I really want you just open yourself up the light knows where to go and knows exactly where the pain is in your head you knows the pain in your stomach knows the pain in your muscle and knows where to go open yourself up to it and there's lotsa Shem we should have to be successful and see a complete complete overturn of Yeshua and Hamad braja Ming de leme better mikdash Mohave I'm a No amen amen BAM there thank you so much [Applause] [Music] [Applause]