Levaya of R' Chaim Tzvi "Chatzi" Katz - Tzom Gedalya 5785 - Oct. 6 2024 - Ben Torah, Singer & Artist

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remember as a young child best of his peers his his learning when never I sat down to learn with him he had a ra in two minutes much quicker than I did learning told me last night that I'm would tell him he doesn't hold the I don't think my father would like this I remember him telling me with SP about it says that if he'd walk by some he could wait for an hour or more he to walk he spoke SP he says he was so for real he was that's and his Hearts came through in the singing everyone knew the sing uplifted the island wherever he went with the singing Somebody told me was a he said it wasn't like he said the I got from them they brought him over the summer to Camp of good in Toronto for see him I heard from someone he heard from the camp director that he said in all the years he's there for years and years in Camp he said never had such a such a night in Camp like I had tonight he was such a he all the years I never had such a night had tremendous his understanding of people was M Beyond had every everyone he understood people his perception of of everything going on and whatever was his his understanding his his perception was M beyond the normal the amount of friends he had was Unreal often I'd call him and tell me AB I call you back later I'm with a friend now I'm with a friend now was like almost a joke by me every night I'm with friends I'm with a friend now I'm with a friend and some many friends I was to know his friends but I just know from every day whatever he was I'm friend going out with a friend I'm talking to I call you back need NE nephews M's beloved Uncle told them you know how to relate to every child he how to raise each each kid and you know how to relate to each one his never did anything had a he called me to ask me told ask as every child he had didn't do asking everyone knows had singing became very popular his favorite jobs were always to have he told me said there's nothing like the energy of singing he said there's nothing like it nothing compare he favored that over the most expensive jobs that he get by big Veer but to play to sing he said that there's nothing like that you became a the I just heard today he was supposed to sing tonight for a gathering for links I thought you can feel for your you know what it was I know it's very difficult for you was I have to ask for not having been able to provide you you a home with the warmth that only a mother can provide I imagine that was Ace for some things that you struggle with that like ask for you for not having done enough for you in other ways another I could have done more [Music] is a tremendous Lord I'd like to say to my daughters if they gave us this it's because he knows you a test knows where a person's holding he gives it to someone who he knows has the for something and if a person brings out his he gets more she gives him an opportunity to bring out CH us you have I say about you should chose you to be the people what me I'd like to give they did was a life changer for him when he came here has became Thea invested tremendous we saw the payers and think about the Investments I'd like to also thank the multitude of friends with such good of friends all the years that was Mish his life the last years was like to also thank the B that were with him over shabas state the whole night last night to you all I also like to thank my brother-in sister andler for providing a home for on a constant basis for many many years he had an Open Door by you always he felt so comfortable by you like a mother for all these years they should you fly for all you did for go join m [Laughter] [Music] die the day that to the great day K rash p look around the best MERS this morning and one person comes to my head pocket you pocket it's a void that is already felt it's a void that we know will never be filled what is this void the void obviously is the best friend the person could have as I as someone who's so sensitive so caring to every single person's needs but 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can't from there's another another another he says that he has he has all those was the opposite extreme he had so many pum not real what we would call pum had so many ways that he could have he could have he recently started his career extremely successful music that's a way he could have left yes he could so many years so many that we don't even know for so many years he had so many ways to pull him and push him off even after a successful career in music a very successful career but it didn't it was he was this is where he was that he with the that he picked was wasn't too often it becomes Li not like that held his his music wasn't an art of music was he was people someone said over similar stories already camped he was recently by in the last day of camp 280 B the the the manager y was saying he never all the years he never saw Z for two and a half hours he had B he said all the that you could sing in his you show that with you don't have to write away from the the whole and and he 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you held suffering with your big heart we were we were all s sely for you we were when you were alive now it reached to this [Laughter] point everyone already said unbelievable things I don't have so many new things to say but I was definitely witness so many times how he fought with himself he could talk one minute as if he's going to listen to his Yara and then and then and then say how he's not going to and he's going to do the opposite because he would find names for it guilty conscience OCD whatever he would call it but bottom line is is that he had a he had a fear like like like likees said he had a fear of of being he had a fear of doing a that definitely came definitely came from his father I remember one time this is probably 10 years ago that uh we were standing in line somewhere some trip or something and uh I don't even remember what I did but he he he he gave me a horrified criticism that I'm making a he he was terrified of making he was terrified of taking money not 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say what you feel every time that he spoke you knew that's what he felt there wasn't I'm telling you this but I feel something else or I'm I'm telling you this because I want to make you feel good but around your behind your back I'm going to say something totally different no no no he said what he meant and he meant what he said and he felt every single word one of the first interactions I had with him was with regards to my v and we were smoing and he says what day you thinking you're going to have your vard and I said I don't know I think it's Sunday and he says please do me do me a favor this say the mid that's happening the mere dinner I really really want to go he says please don't make me choose either your V or going this m so was either your sister or this my and if you're the one I have to choose it didn't want to make me make him choose either and looking across at all the people here people that considered him a true Brother people who felt a connection to you made a choice for us we all are here because you touched us on a way that that can't be put into words and that was what you did you took feelings how gous and you put them into the words I think you gave me first time you sat down and you played for me pre-release a song and we got to one point and he says before I want I want I want to give you something I want to explain to you something he say you're going to laugh at this this canich and those that are here that were involved in it know what I'm talking about he says I had to give had to give leave over with something and he says it was the song it was a [Music] herish and now you chose your mind something been mely sure cuz I don't have anything more to say Hy I'm just be short on behalf the entire Yeshiva on behalf of all your friends that are here something that I know something that I don't know is the reason why you have a big L is a reason why L is in you loved every Bak you loved every younger man you loved every rebi you loved every ship most all you you love Theus they did everything for [Music] you I think I can say I never ever heard one night one not nice thing from your mouth but anyone you knew so many people and you knew a lot of things but you never ever put one someone down I think if you were here right now you are all you want from your friends from Yesa is to do something for you no you didn't like it when people did things for you but at the end of the day I think years we'll never forget you everyone should take something upon themselves something small that they can remember Andi will never be forget forgotten better I know it's late I don't want to hold up the I just want to say a couple of minutes and ask M from the entire music industry as you would say if we didn't do enough or we didn't help you enough or for me personally I spent the whole PES together with the the heart that he had everying there's not one single person that left speaking to him without a smile and he loved singing so much 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