LIFE CHANGING STORY: The violinist

Ancho looked out of the window, out of his room to see a site that he was also familiar with. The city streets that he grew up in years in and years out. But something looked different. First of all, the streets were extremely busy. Plus, they were very mush, very decorated, very beautifully oriented. They were made with lights outside. Flowers were put out. and he didn't know what my he what was the difference between today as opposed to yesterday. After thinking about it for a while, suddenly he realized in his head that maybe it could be and he went out and he took out the he took out the calendar in order to see what day it was and he says yes today is Sunday. He realized that yesterday was Shabbat and that's why things were so quiet. LA yesterday as opposed to today things are moving, people are around, people are going. as he was his hands were shaking as he realized that he's already gotten maybe to an age where he doesn't even remember the difference between Shabbat and he seems to already be starting to forget and be getting what we call the of the sickness of forgetfulness and understanding that there seems to start being a big gap between what he sees and what he remembers what he thinks and what he observes. He started realizing that maybe things are getting a little bit advanced to him and he started saying to himself people are I remember the days when people would come to you and you would decide their salaries. you were a very important person that was that set a very important precedence. But no, no, here it is. You're starting to become elderly. The age is starting to kick in on you and what's going to happen? Why am I so nervous? Why was Anchel so nervous about this? What bothered him about a little bit of his elderly age? Because Angela already knew quite well that there was someone known as Mut and that the late Salem in the door, the people outside when they start realizing that Angel is starting to be forgetful. He was afraid that they would summon Mut in order to come to him. You're probably wondering who is this Mut? Well, Mut is the person that comes and takes away the elderly people and never brings them back again. He takes them to a place where they go and until Mashiach comes and brings them back they remain there for a long time and and Ana was very very afraid of Mut coming away and taking him away from his learning from his oldtime past of work from his family from his wife from his he was a person that was always interested in trying to do Hashem's will but when MTO comes that's all going to come to a close now we have to know that Anchel was a very happy person. He always had a smile on his face. He was a person that was always very positive. But the problem with when a person gets older is sometimes when people get older that smile seems to wither. It seems to slowly disappear. And when a person doesn't have a smile, so then the sima which usually comes hand in hand, the happiness, the glee, the place of satisfaction that a person usually has goes together with that smile. And therefore, Ancha was very scared and afraid because of this pit of zikna, of this el of this older age that the happiness that he was used to would come to an end. Newness, freshness, and awakening is always a good thing for all of us. We're always looking for something new. But for elderly people sometimes newness and freshness is not always so fresh because it usually means that maybe mut is on his way to come and take him to his new place to stay. That was Anchel's way of thinking and fear led to worry and he didn't know what to do except to call his dear and important wife that he loved so much Fa. He went and invited Fuma to be able to come to be able to speak to her and he asked he said you know he has a kabali as a tradition from his house and he knew that always the woman was the address for to be able to get realma you go to the address of your wife and therefore he went to ask her about why the streets are dressed outside so beautifully and b what's going on with my forgetful fulness. Am I already starting to forget everything that I have? So before we continue, we want to explain to you who this FA is. Furma was the wife of Anchel who in the days of Yor had something that we are a little bit less familiar with back then. Back then there was an idea of isha is a woman and a man were goof. They were literally one bond where they wanted to be very much to do the of the other. Her rats was always to be like the rats of her husband to make him happy and always to be able to give him whatever he needed in order to satisfy his uh in order to satisfy his happiness or his curiosity in order to make him okay. These days it's a little bit harder for us to relate to such a phenomenon because of course we are people with opinions with personal interests with our own wants. Of course we all get married but to get to the stage of what we call gof of true love to the stage that from anal it's a little bit sometimes beyond us to understand. But we are a little bit beyond much more intelligent than those people back then. And due to our intelligence, we end up having our own personal opinions which leave us in a little bit of our own state. Not necessarily. But since their relationship was a relationship which was not tully in anything except for each other. So Fumma came and was very happy to come and help her husband to take care of what he was worried about and that was the K of Fuma a very intelligent lady to be able to do. She answered her husband immediately and she told him, "Well, my auntel, let me tell you until now this the sickness of Mahala, the Sar this uh angel that brings in the power of forgetfulness, he hasn't come to the town. You haven't heard about him. You haven't seen him." So, what happened today that yesterday? What should have changed? And I'm going to tell you why in our history we haven't seen this angel known as the angel of forgetfulness. And that is because he only comes when people are worried about him coming. He feeds off of panic and fear and intrepidation and worry. That's what he feeds off of. Now, who's scared of this of this forgetfulness to hit and come into that into town? Of course, it's only the ones who are extremely wealthy who don't want to forget about their money. It's the ones who have a tremendous amount of power who don't want to forget about their position. It's ones who are very important and of a high esteem who don't want people to forget who they are. And because of that fear, suddenly the angel of forgetfulness comes and kicks in. But don't worry, Anchel, we're poor. We don't have that. We don't have the cavod. We don't have the honor. On the contrary, we have a certain amount of yurim, a little of pain and anguish that we've gone through. We have nothing for him to take away. On the contrary, sometimes forgetting is good for us. So in as much as it's good for us, why would he come and encounter our town and try to make us forget? For some people, for what some people is a sickness such as for the rich people, for some people is and for other people will be the raffa. It'll be the medication. It'll be what'll fix us up. Fix us up for us. It's good. And therefore, he has no interest to come to our town where we don't have any people like that around. And therefore, Anchel, don't worry about it. He's not going to come. And just like he hasn't been around in the past, he's not coming right now. Anel stopped and he looked at his wonderful wife and he said he was so happy that gives to people and especially that one of those people is my spouse. He was so happy that she knew exactly how to appease him, how to answer his questions so poignantly, straight to the point and correctly and the great that his wife has. And he again thought a thought that passed by his mind many times that I don't deserve to have such a wonderful woman as my wife. I have no money. I have no power. I'm just a very simple old man. I don't really have it. And here I have such a splendid person to be my spouse. That's what Anchel thought. He was so happy that he really forgot already what he even asked her in the first place. only with a little bit of time when it passed by slowly but surely Anel remembered wait I remembered what I wanted to ask my wife I didn't even remember what she was trying to answer but now he remembers what he really wanted to ask and that is he went back and he asked but why Verma are the streets outside decorated so nicely why did they make all these flowers and lights and a nice entourage outside the streets are awaiting as if France Ysef the Kaiser maybe he's coming to town is the king or someone very important passing by our small littlestut our small little city in order to pass by is that was happening now from couldn't lie to her husband she loved him too much to do such a thing she had to be extremely honest but at the same time it wasn't so easier for her to speak out the words that she was about to speech speak because she knew that one thing will lead to another and one question will lead to another because you have to know Ancho was a curious guy, a good guy, but he had a lot of curiosity and sometimes when a person is very curious and has questions and answers and questions are not always answered, it can lead to something that we know is anger, frustration, irritation. It can lead to someone getting out of his box because he just has to know. Because people who are people who are people who love intelligence, love knowledge, love facts, sometimes they just want to know what they want to know. So Furma went ahead and told her beloved husband, there's a person named Tuvia Gold Turvia Pearlstein who's coming to town and that's why they decorated all the streets. Who's Tulia Pearlstein? Is he a big king? Is he some Kaiser? Is he an apprentice? Is he a prince? What is this person that they're doing so much for him? Is he someone? No. No. He's a Jew who is born a Jew and has always been a Jew. He's not someone of high power and high position. He's someone who is a violinist. He's a violinist. He said as she said those words that he was a violinist, he started noticing Anchela looked on her face and noticed a face that looks like a face when Mut comes to town. It looked to her like she was scared from Mut from the death plague that was happening. He didn't understand why she was so nervous to tell him about this violinist. He said, "What is he? Can you explain to me what's he?" She said, "Well, I'll tell you this violinist is not just a violinist. He's a specialist. He's the number one violinist in the whole entire Poland. In all of Poland, there is no one better than him. He is the top of the land. He's professional. He is chosen. He is the one that goes from place to place. And that's why they clean the streets for him. They organize and prepared for him to come like someone of such a position." uh when s such a position of such an important person deserves to have such an entourage such a such a kabal panim that's why he did anchel started noticing that fa was actually shaking and shivering really her legs wanted to take her out of the room and run as fast as she can but to run out of a room you need to have some type of vehicle to get you out you need to have some type of legs and her legs were moving and shivering so fast that they couldn't move. In addition to the fact that she knew that her husband needed to know this information and because of her understanding of her wonderful husband, she felt that she had to go ahead and deliver the message that he was asking. And she said, even knowing where she was leading herself, I will do like the hand of the daughter of parro of bat parro that she stretched out her hand and left everything else up to reach for. I'll do what I know is I'll have to do what I'm going to do, but after doing that, I hope that I will be in the hands of and he'll be the one that can go ahead and help me. So seeing this fear and interpretation immediately said tell me what is this violinist playing mahuen what does he play what is it that he's playing that gives him all this cavod what makes him so important that was the question that she was afraid of she knew that she got herself into a pickle and she didn't know how to answer her husband she couldn't leave but at the same time she couldn't answer. She started sighing under her breath and he noticed a little bit the side. But in order to avoid him having pain for him grow from from her groaning and from her turning pain, she turned aside. She turned her head to the side so that he would not be able to see her size her side. You might be asking me at this stage, what difference does it make when a person turns to his face to the side and if he's still cons continuing to groan or to make noises, I could still hear you. Well, here's a very important piece of information which we haven't told you yet. And that is that Ancho has been deaf from the day he was born. He's a person whose cap a uh his auditory capabilities have been in have been incapacitated from the day he was born and has never heard a sound in his life. He could only hear her size through her lips. He can only see what she says when she is turned towards him and he's able to read the sign language or her lips at the same time. And that as you already can understand is the problem that from she wanted to explain to him mahu again what is he playing but she push couldn't tell it to him she couldn't tell him the s of the the secret of what lies behind the music and the melody and asal tell us again is just as good as just like when you go ahead and say something sometimes It's better not to say something from a knew by not responding that that's going to put the fault in her place. That's going to put the fault in her lap. But she loved her husband too much to put the fault in his lap. She didn't want it to be his blemish, his m. That's the problem. She was willing to stay quiet and not answer the question and leave it to her peril, to her situation that it'll end up being her fault instead of his. And she was right. In the end of the day, frustrated as Ana was because he realized that she didn't want to tell him and answer his very simple question again. What is he playing? What is he doing that people are giving him so much covet? What is this great thing? He said, "I'm very upset. Why are you doing this to me?" And suddenly Anchel said things that people who love each other don't say to each other. He said, "You've become old and now you already started acting and quiet and not being vocal to me like you're supposed to do." What happened to the tisha that Kazal told us? Tisha that women have to talking and suddenly you're keeping quiet. Do I look like a fool in your eyes? Do you not respect me for who I am? You think that I'm just I'm foolish just because I don't have any auditory capabilities, just because I'm deaf. I don't need you. I don't need the statements that you tell me. Stop having pity on me and stop speaking to me in the way that you're speaking. I will have nothing of it. I'm going to go to the concert. You're gonna see I'm going to the concert with that violinist Tuvia Pearlstein and I'm gonna come back and tell you exactly what he is playing. And with that he walked out of the house. His wonderful wife from all the way. And as we all know tell us person should be always careful from oppressing your wife because when you end up giving tears to her danger comes into the house. As Anchel stepped out of the house, he went and immediately went to wait in line by the ticket booth to buy tickets for the concert for the great ch for the great trivia pearl scene that was coming to town. He went over and he was waiting in line and everybody in line started whispering one to the next. What is Anel, the deaf person have to do at a concert? Someone should explain to them maybe there's a play coming to town soon. You could go watch a play, but what can you do at a concert? What? What? What is he doing here? He's going and buying tickets. This is absolutely foolish. What is he doing? But don't worry. I think you were worried that maybe Anchel is overhearing everything that they said. Everybody knew to turn their faces one to the next and not to face Anchel so that they couldn't so that he couldn't read their lips. And he never heard the words that was being interacted between one and the next. Anchel after buying his tickets, he w he walked through the ticket gates and he went through the gates. They were all handing out some type of pamphlets in the beginning. Everybody was taking their seats on the benches in the arena, the small arena in the town that was located over there. And he sat down. He couldn't help but notice the beautiful different lights that were all around. the special lights to have a light almost a hundred years ago was a tremendous uh tremendous facility. There was something very extra. Nobody had lights in their private houses. And here it was in this special place. They were able to have these very special colored lights with a nice screen in the background. And then everything went dark and suddenly entered the great Tovia Pearlstein, the violinist, the greatest one in Poland. Everyone stood up and all started clapping. Anchel following the crowd did the same thing. Everyone sat down and he and this is what Anchel noticed. He saw a beautiful wooden casing with gold wrappings around it that he opened up and removed from the beautiful casing what we know as a violin. He took a long rod known as a bow that was that was there. He put of course the violin under his chin and suddenly Anchel notice he started sharpening the bow on top of the violin. He was watching him sharpen and sharpen and sharpen just like Moshe the knife sharpener in the city was sharpening. Now Mosha the sharp knife sharpener in the city was no one special. No one ever decorated the the city for him and no one ever bought tickets to watch him sharpen knives. and he's watching Tobia Pearlstein sharpen this wooden contraption and trying to figure out what is he doing? What is this thing? He started realizing that it could be this guy is what we call a farce. He was a faker. He's someone that goes ahead and takes money from people for doing not much more than just sharpening his bow. And he was starting to get a little bit frustrated. Out of pure boredom, he decided to look around to the side to the crowd to see if they were as frustrated as he was. And he started looking at people and there were tears dripping from the eyes of many, many of the people listening to what was going on as if Mut was coming to town. He knows that face. That's a face that looks as if you're almost on death. As if Mut is on his way. and he couldn't understand what stands in front of this contraption that is causing people to cry. Maybe he realized, "Oh, I know what the shot is." Maybe it's because they realize that they were taken advantage of. They paid a lot of money for nothing and everyone's crying and upset about the situation that they're in, just like me. Could be. He waited a few more minutes and eventually he went back and started looking at people's faces. And guess what? People were smiling. People were happy. People were even waving a little bit their hands to and fro to be able to look at that. And he said, "Maybe I I I I just don't know what this is." Before they're crying and now they're happy. What is going on here? Is there something rish can't figure this out? Until eventually after an hour and a half, the whole entire shebang was over. People stood up with a standing ovation. People were screaming encore, encore in Yiddish. And then the lights went out and Tubia Goldstein, Turia Pearlstein went to the back of the stage and all the stadium exited out the front door. Incredible. Everybody exited except for one person, Ancho. He stayed there bewildered, confused, and still realizing I can't go back to Furma because I don't know Mahuman again. What is this man playing? He realized that he was stuck and didn't know what to do. He said, "I have no choice but I'm going to go back behind the curtain and try to see if I can meet this person, this violinist." He went behind the scene in the behind the curtain over there and he saw Turbio Pearlstein there sitting, you know, a star behind there all by himself. His whole forehead was full of sweat. He was, you know, wiping his brows away and he was trying to polish his violin at the same time and taking care of what he needs to do. when he was drinking a cup of water with the same hand that he was playing the violin just a few minutes before. Tubia looks at Anel. He looked at him and he said, "New Adoni, new sir, how did you like my spiel? Did you have ho? Did you enjoy it? How was it? It was nice. Did you get out of it?" Now, let me be frank. Anchel is a very straight person. He never lies. when things have to be said, he says it like it needs to be said. He's not going to fake and be a Rami. And he realized that this person took a lot of money and didn't do very much to deserve that money. Not much more than Moshe the knife sharpener does in the city. He really wanted to tell him off for doing such a thing. But he decided to introduce himself by seeing this. He said, "Look, sir, I have to tell you something. I am a person that yes, I've been deaf from the day I've been born. I don't have any auditory capabilities, but I do want to tell you I'm normal like everyone else. I'm a very intelligent person. I'm very smart and no one can pull a fast one on me. I have a lot of cognitive capabilities. I'm very smart. You should know. Just because I can hear doesn't mean that I'm not smart. And maybe you can go ahead and tell me what this wooden contraption, this piece of wood that you're carrying over here did that caused all these people to go ahead and cry during this this concert, during this whole time that caused all these people to pay so much money to be able to come and watch while you sharpen while you sharpen your fiddle. Can you please explain to me what what was going on? He says, "Look, I'm not asking to make you feel bad and I'll leave to make you feel like something I'm saying anything wrong. Just listen. I have a wife in my house. Her name is FA and I promised her that I'm going to come back and explain to what does this person play?" Because, as you know, a husband has to have some covenant in his house. He has to he has to have honor and respect in his house. And the only way by having honor and respect is by respecting one's spouse, respecting one's wife. And when there's no respect between a husband and her wife, then there's no house. And when there's no house, there's no life. I have nothing else to to understand more than that. And therefore, it's very important for me to be able to report to her ma again. What are you playing? Before we continue, I will tell you one important piece that is said over here in this story. And that is a violinist at least back in the days of your I don't know if this applies nowadays and I doubt it does. A violinist wears his heart instead of inside his jacket on his sleeve literally. That's really what they play. They play their violin because their heart is out on their sleeve. It's out on their hands. And that's how they're able to touch audiences. Especially someone as great as Pearlstein. He was able to get out to people because his heart was out for the people and because he loved the people and therefore he connected to his music for real, not just for the income. Suddenly when he heard this story, this heart that was standing on the edge of his hands melted. It melted so deep that he didn't know how to answer the question Mahuman again. And he realized that even though I am the best violinist in Poland, I am praised everywhere that I walk, I know all the secrets of the violin, but I could not answer Anchel. He could not answer Anchel. What lies behind the music that he was playing? Is it the pitch? Is it the octave, the strings, the notes? How am I going to explain to him with my words? What goes on? He suddenly took on the same pose. Pearlstein took on the same pose as Fumma did this morning. As Froma did this morning, he had the same problem and he wasn't able to respond to Anel, the answer to the ever the ever benown question that he was asking him. And he told him exactly what I said to you even though I know so much and I know all the secrets of the kora of the violin. I've been through it all, but I can't answer you. And I'll tell you, it's not because I don't want to answer you, but he told him because it just seems to be that when a person is not able to hear, when he's not able to utilize his cockia or the hammer, the anvil that lies within your ear, I cannot explain to you the words of a niggon. It's just not going to go. I don't have a way to explain it. Ancho realized he reached a dead end. He realized that he's not going to be able to report to Furma what he promised he was going to go back to do. And he started thinking in his mind, maybe he's going to have to go report to Mut. Maybe it's time for me to go to Mut. My age has gotten to me. My covet is not there anymore. It's time for me to go. He looked down in despair, not knowing what to do, ready to turn around and walk away. and he didn't notice that Pearlstein was smiling. Now, why didn't he notice? Cuz he wasn't looking at him until Tubia tapped him on the shoulder. He tapped Anchel on the shoulder and he told him, "Anel, Anel, listen to me. I told you that I can't explain to you all the power of the niggan, but I didn't tell you one important thing." And that is why is it not allowed for me to give you a present? It should be okay to do that. But before I do that, I want to tell you one thing that is very important to me. I'm not going to leave you without anything. And I'm going to report to you something important. But before I do, I want to tell you something. I want you to realize that a violinist's whole entire life lies inside of his violin. Everything that he lives for and his heart lies in the violin. Everybody else's nama, their soul is in their breath or nishima, their soul. But by me, my soul and my lifeline lies within the violin. Especially someone as a as specialist as me, especially someone who's on the level that I am. So maybe I can go ahead and respond to your question and answer to your question, Mah again. What is he playing by giving you my violin? I will give you this violin because I want to tell you something because I realize that I can't respond to you and answer you to you. I can't give you an answer about what I'm playing. I realize that maybe really I just can't play anymore. Maybe my capabilities of playing a violin is not functional anymore and it's not for me to do it anymore. Because if I understood the real sod again of maybe I would be able to explain it to you somehow. Anchel couldn't believe what he was saying what he was hearing. Slowly but surely Pearl's team took out the violin out of the case. He with a choking voice, tears dripping from his eyes, went over and handed over the violin to Anchel as a present saying that now you can go ahead and report to Furma that you know the sort of the violin. Tell her I know what he's playing and show her the violin of Pearl and Pearl who was the greatest player in Poland. It's impossible and the words fall off of the page to start describing to you the sim the gal the incredible happiness and satisfaction that Anchel had at that moment. He couldn't believe what Pearlstein was doing. He bent over and kissed the hands of Pearlines knowing that in those hands lies his heart. not even realizing at the time that he did it that he actually gave Kawak he gave strength back to Tuvia to be able to yes go back and play again because now that he went and kissed his hands he gave him back the appreciation the understanding that he cares about him very much and understands who he was and Pearlstein had now the capabilities yes to go back and play but the problem is a violinist cannot play without a violin if he doesn't have one, it's not going to work. There's something called a zeu cheni. Sometimes you get married a second time. His zeu gre was his first marriage of course was this violin. This violin which was so close and dear to him but pearlstein went but uh but that violin was no longer with him. Instead, Anchel took it and left, not really appreciating the device as much as we as as could be appreciated, and went out of the door, walking as fast as he could to Fuma to show her the answer to the question. Mahu again, what is he playing? Everybody in the city was up in a roar in a tommo. People saw him carrying the famous fiddle, the famous violin of Pearl, and everybody was trying to ask him, "What's this? What's going on? How'd this happen? What could it be? But Anchel didn't talk to anyone because he was devoted in dedicating to get to Froma to be able to show his beloved exactly the answer to this important question on his way. Just like when Alicia sent Geazi his servant to go and he gave him the stick of the resurrection of the dead and he told him, "Don't talk to anyone on the way. Go straight and resurrect to the person that I'm telling you to go and resurrect." that Gazi was not allowed to stop on the way and if he did and he did he got cursed but he was dedicated Anchel to go ahead to his FMA and go ahead and show what happened. He knocked on the door went inside while she was washing the dishes and he told her from I have a surprise for you. Guess what? Yes, Anchoa. What is it? While she was in the middle of washing the dishes, he says I spoke to the great violinist and he showed me Mahumin again. He showed me what he plays. She turned around and she couldn't believe what she saw. It was Pearlstein's Tvia Pearlstein's violin in the hands of her dear husband Ancho. She couldn't believe it. She knew exactly what would happen. She understood the whole story because as we said, Fuma was a very intelligent lady. She was very picat very very intelligent with a beayer with a power of depth of understanding and she knew exactly what went on. But not only did she understand the whole story what went on she realized that Pearlstein just gave his whole shama his life over to Anchel just for the sake of doing the same thing that she didn't want to do to make him disappointed and sad and to come out in a place where he would not have any future. She had tears in her eyes and she was lacking breath. She actually started gasping for breath. She couldn't believe what she was seeing. Ancho looks at his wife. He sees what she's going. He looks at this fiddle. He looks at this violin, this piece of wood. And again, he wonders what is in this piece of wood that makes everyone cry. He looks upside down on top. What makes everybody crazy about this piece of wood? This casing. This What's going on? I can't figure this out. Again, bewildered. He's not understanding what's happening. Now, of course, Fuma, as they say, doesn't want to let the cat of the bag. She doesn't want to exaggerate or bring out any more questions because it would just raise more curiosity. And therefore, she left it as is the situation. Because like we said before the people who love each other they have the same dot and she wanted to leave it in a state of appreciation. His curiosity will not pull him anywhere else and he will think at least that he received an answer to Mah again to what he actually is playing even though obviously we all know that maybe completely he did not receive an answer. She gave him to eat and then eventually they went to sleep the two of them and she noticed after about an hour that he was tossing and turning and tossing and turning and as the der is for people who care about one another when the spouse can't sleep then she couldn't sleep either. She opened a candle. She lit a candle and she said, "Anchel, what is it? What is it? What's bothering you, Anchel? What's wrong?" He said, "I'm so happy I finally have been able to figure out Ma again. I've been able to figure out what he's playing. You answered all my questions about why the city has become so decorated, but I still can't figure out why he carries this violin in such an important casing that you only would carry a baby inside of. He cradles it with such aminity, with such love and passion. Why is it Fuma, please tell me what it is that lies inside of this piece of wood that is so powerful that nobody's explaining to me, so sort of to speak. FA, as we said before, was a very intelligent lady and she knew that it was enough just for him to get it off his chest. She stayed quiet and then eventually because of her being quiet, Anchel fell asleep. And when Ancho fell asleep, Fuma also fell asleep. Also the balmto concluded this mushel which is brought by Levy and he was this mush is what David meant in all the nations you shall listen right before the giving of the nation as we all know it was announced to all the nations gamb My mouth is going to speak in it will speak about but I will open with a violin my message my mush what I am about to tell you a a melody unlike other things that we can listen with our brain can only be heard with the ears. Someone whose ears are not functional cannot hear a melody. It doesn't matter how intelligent or smart you are. In the end of the day that person, no matter how great the musician and how intelligent the person will never understand unfortunately what the power of a melody is says the baltov also when we have our questions about when we have our questions about about things that puts in this world the difficulties the good the bad why this person why not that why that person this why this happened to me why this person that happened to them why each one deserved his So on that he says the says the melody of of divine providence and individual providence that lies that lies in the power of the violin. It could be that that our ears are a little bit deaf as the says over there. I'll try to open my ears and listen because only the ears will be able to understand the power of what lies behind what lies behind the idea of but not always does everybody know. Pearlstey knew the secret of the niggan and Furma knew the secret of the niggan. But Anchel, as great a person as he was, as sweet a person as he was, and as much as he wanted to know and as intelligent as a person he was, he still was not able to hear the Not always are we able to know what is all about and why this happens. And not because as the expression goes, sometimes it falls on deaf ears. Sometimes we're not able to hear. as the over there continues. Sometimes we're a person. We're very important, but we're similar to we don't always we're not always able to see what we need to be able to see what we're capable of seeing. And what causes a little bit of the deafness that goes in our ears? What is the deafening sound that blocks out the power of? It's when we're surrounded by this world. When we're succumb to this world, when we give into things in this world, when we're so surrounded by the gashmi in this world, suddenly we can't end up being able to see what is going on around. There's only one key that is able to open up our ears to be able to listen and that is the precious precious precious Tory that a bar gave us. When pearlstein pearlstein gave over that kor he was giving over his life. When who gave us his he gave over everything the world the purpose of creation everything that we're here for the everything all the ideas the concepts the all the cababalistic ideas and all the reasons of why within the great Torah which he gives us that is around the corner if they would look into the Torah and understand as the target rights over there they would understand what is the future they would Understand as we have a part you know it goes through a partial part about all the difficulties that we go and what's the idea of cuz through the of we can come to a deeper understanding about the we can understand a little bit more the ways of hashem now of course we still have our deaf ears and until the time of msiach we will never have all the answers to our questions we all know that is obvious but it doesn't mean that we can't hold the violin Hold the violin, play it, live it, and we might be able to connect it. Get rid of the static and all the noise outside in that world. Just like Anchel and his beloved wife Fuma, were so connected. One is the goof, one is the body, and one is the nama. One is a representation of our physical body, one is our sha. The more you're able to put the goof and the shama together, the more you're able to remove the physical desires that we're always chasing and stop running around and chasing left and right that everything that the world has to offer, the physical world has to offer. You're able to bond with your f from the an angel and firm are able to bond together. And when you have a love like that, it's unbeatable. Everything is there. And you're wondering how what's the answer to all the questions? You look at this wooden contraption and go, "What is this? I don't understand. What's the beauty? Why does it make people cry? Why does it make people smile? What lies behind this incredible contraption?" But slowly but surely, if we remove the deafening sounds that are in our ears, we take the Torah, the beautiful that gave us from his hands that that was everything to him. Slowly but surely, the answers start becoming revealed. we start becoming more connected. That's why we find people who have no no connection to at all. They hate like we know said when he was he wanted to bite them. And now we're surrounded unfortunately with people that can't stand. You know why? Because they look at these people with a piece of wood. They don't appreciate the that they're praying. They don't realize that these people are the best violinist in Poland. They don't realize the beauty of the niggan that they're playing, the beauty of the melody, the sound, the music that can mamish make a heart whimper. It can make a person melt into the sound of the melody. We're the only ones that do understand it, utilize it, take it, and appreciate the of for what it's really made out of.