Likutei Moharan Shiur in preparation for Rosh Hashanah with Rav Nachman Fried

Let's go into the words and open your hearts. Ask me. Now the reb goes in and tells us another step. The >> can you do me a favor? I need something to drink. >> Anything water, salt, whatever. You're not eating says we have to always hold on to this of it's not something okay I did that's it. I have to always be in this. Why? [Applause] Who could say that I purified myself from my my sin? Even in the moment when you're doing and you're saying and even this I can't say with a cleansed heart without any motive. Why? Think about it. >> Why? One second. We all said do. We say you didn't do what the saying. What does it mean? So I want to give you an example few examples maybe [Music] first of all we're talking about when a person is doing where he theb says in a different we said it last week that he feels what does it mean the pain of my sins What does it mean? I'm feeling the pain of myself. >> I have to meet my shame. >> When I'm saying I'm not saying just Okay, everybody. It's lip service. We'll see soon. You just you're saying the words, but you know why? It's the time of year. It's the appropriate time of year. It's the day of judgment. till now you're not really judging me. You're not but now I'm in court and I good year. So I know I got to clean up my act. So I say but I'm not going into the infection. I'm not being the far my one of the components of children even according to Rama is that I have to be I have to confess what am I confessing I'm confessing according to the I have to go into the details the details the details of the why to meet my shame the reason why I need to go there. So while I'm going there, many things happen. I don't know about you, but this happened to me thousands of times. >> Even when I had there was a place that I was leaving in my head. I don't want to do this, but I know myself. I'm going to do this again. So I have I don't want to do that. I'm never doing this. I'm never never. Please help me. I never want to do this again. I'm never going to do this again. I really don't want to do this again. And even while I'm saying it, I know in my head that I'm going to do this again. >> So there's a there's it's not labor. It's not 100%. Number one. Number two is and everybody also has this place but we did and with we got away from that a we're not anymore with that >> but while I was doing chuva I had an ulterior motive I want to do chuvo because I want paros I'm doing chuvo because I want something from you. I'm going through sickness. Somebody's sick. This is sick. So, I'm doing it with a if I do, you're going to that's with a says what's you need two things. Has to be authentic, real. I really mean it and I'm really in this place of of of of I I'm never doing this again and without any condom motive. The only reason why I'm I'm I'm sorry is because I violated you. I don't need you to give me anything. Just accept my children. Accept my children. So the only way for me to get to that place is by going through shame. the more I accept shame because you can't it's not such an easy thing to accept even if you're quiet about it takes time to accept it's take it's a process I have a why say should be the opposite should be because it's easier to be quiet than it is to accept the is accept Quiet for the moment. But accepting it is saying no. That means you want to get to chuva. Chuva means to returning to where returning to the and you distance yourself from because you deny. So now you have to meet. So you have to be in your head prepared at all moments of the time. If shame should come to me, I'm accepting. Please help me that no matter what shame I'm going to get today from myself, for my wife, for my children, from this, I am ready to accept you. That's from the different that I don't want your I don't want the I don't want the I don't want the that's from you but from the from from the people's okay so now the Reb is telling us so that means that I always have to be doing chuva because who says my cha was good even in the moment of after the soon as the wears off you walk away that's already that there's space already that's who could not I'm pure from my sin who from what he says from his saying there's no it's who can say such a thing Right? >> So says that I always have now I did chuva but the chuva wasn't 100% because it can't be 100%. So now I have to do chuva on the ch that I did because the chuva wasn't good enough. So I on the what I said I now have to say on the post I was saying before you you you gave me lip service. You me with your lip but the rabb is going to touch beautiful one. Because even when you with your lips alone, you already took off from and you now got so it's interesting how he gives you as he's knocking you as he's knocking you gives you a pick up but his heart is far from him. Now, so that's one type of person. One type of person has to do because who says now there's another type of person the person knows and I have no ulterior motives and I mean He still asked why when he did the first time he did it according to the way he was massing him and the but now he did chuva so he got closer to so now he's massing the on a bigger level so now on the level that He now got to the chuva that he did yesterday is not a good chuva because he's now ming on a bigger level. So now he has to do chuva on his previous cha in order to to do chuva on his present level of his that even though I was massing you till now I was with such limitations. It was with such simp from you. So am I with my he has to do on his first because he was he he brought down he brought down the the bigness of Hashem into his peanut brain into his Shabas is when it's all going to be by the way is the same assh backward and there's opposing toe is shabas brings it a few different tones that shabas is the of shabas is the power of chum shabas is the time return. Why? Because even the Bria returns everything in the Bria is working and you know that everything that happened in every one of days of we say so Sunday's power of is the power of medations on every Sunday and the power of Monday of Shen is on every and The power of shabas is the power that's over here. What was the power of shabas? That there was no everything stopped. So what happened when everything stopped? It went it went back. It returned back to my before my everything was nothing was happen. So shabas itself the mahus of shabas is the mus of chabas is returning back to its place. That's what is going to be in the next world. Everybody asks what, right? Don't you everybody says the question, what's going to be in the afterlife? You know, when we all get cleansed and hopefully don't have to go to get but even if we have to go to get it should only be then what happens? Then what happens? You're getting das more and more and how much work you did in this world. That's how much das and elevation you're getting. But you're going to be in such awesomeness of spirituality, such awesomeness of of that that we're all going to be in shame. How come we didn't work harder so we could get more? because more and more it's endless because you you're to feel such shame on your smallalness in in in the in the big picture of the of the godless says the rebel and everyone's going to know me from the smallest to the biggest every time I get a new the Reb is really mish giving us the playbook here of how the world how it's going to work. We're holding now and is the time of I am to my beloved and my beloved is to me is not on his chair and he's now with us like the Reb says he's with us the whole time. So we have this ability now to do and the Reb is telling you the exact prescription. First thing is and how do you do that shame and and talk to and say I'm sorry I didn't mean it and I'm never doing it again and I promise you this what I did last time and I'm not doing it. It's not just for and it's not just for some this time I mean it and I'm going to do this for the rest of my life. This is I'm talking I'm being all like and then I don't stop. I continuously do chuva. I know I told you yesterday or I told you this morning I did chuva. I I realized it wasn't it wasn't good. Let me do it again. I want to do chuva on the chuva that I did and like and you start taking layer off and layer off and layer of ego and you start to and you're able to get now accept more shame and more shame and more shame and the more you go into this place of accepting your shame then you start coming to a place of you start being massing in a bigger way you starting seeing in a whole different way and now when you start to see in that way you look back and yesterday you say who that's what I thought of you yesterday and now I come to a higher Madrid and I'm peeling off all the layers of until I'm coming to more and more and more let's try to get through this thing in four Everybody, anybody who says, let's just read before the and he confesses on it. It's as if he's being. So now let's read it. How am I? How do I through this process? The first that he did that's the [Applause] and after that now he's and he's doing so now I got but now when I do The light that is tired in this world will be frozen and easy when I'm going to be to another in godliness. I'm going to do when I come. I'm going to see what I did in this world. I'm going to be so full of shame. is the first reason. We say one quiet. There is no such a thing as everybody. They're going to show us the video, you know, the video of our lives, that shameful video, the the video of shame. So in short, I don't think we got next week, by the way. The next piece is the most I think the most fascinating piece of the whole time which the Reb teaches this Reb just so you know teaches how to be an expert. You ever heard this yet language? The expert and you read this expert fall and yeshivas didn't talk about fall and if somebody falls in the next piece is going to tell you teach us how to become an expert and and not just tell you you have you know something you're going to fall and you need to fall and you need to become an expert just like you need to be expert climber you need to become an expert of fall that's the the next piece so I just conclude with one last thing I said today is that this understanding of meeting shame in order to let go of my it's the only way this is there's no it's not a >> it's a mechanics I need to face shame to let go of ego. If I don't face humiliation either from myself or from others, then I cannot let go of it's going to come somewhere else. It's I cannot let go of it. I can't let go of the So,