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thank you [Music] foreign [Music] oh yeah [Music] oh yes die and die and I am um [Music] foreign mm-hmm okay good morning everybody and welcome thank you for joining us this morning if anybody would like a cup of coffee or tea or water you have in the back with some fruits or cookies please treat yourself there's one soy sheet that's on the Bima right you put on the Bima okay if you didn't get this one page one side and the source sheets are posted always on the yeshiva.net so you can download it there as well okay um just before we begin just I'll announce that of course this week is schwooz so first of all next week we have a class next Tuesday it's not working um okay we'll just raise the voice so next week Tuesday baser Hashem we have a class as well 9 30 a.m right here and on schwuest night [Music] night we will also have our regular sheer intent gimmel right here in the back 10th gimmel here behind 24 Shea Road and it begins at one o'clock a.m for men and women everybody is invited the second day of shuis which is on Shabbos Shabbos afternoon 6 30 PM that will also be a class and a lecture in tent gimmel also for men and women that's here in the back on 24 Shea so schwuest night Thursday night at 1 or Friday morning at one and Shabbos afternoon the second day 6 30 pm just putting my phone on airplane mode so we don't have any disturbances so today's class is dedicated Feldman in loving memory of her father and his father-in-law Isaac Ben Avi popek yard site 11th yard site on the fifth day of Sivan air of schmuss to heinous he'd be an eternal source of light and blessing and inspiration to his children and the entire family but Claudia Israel and um thank you very very much today we're going to explore what would seem like a very very technical argument with really little practical relevance and even conceptual relevance it would seem almost about a tiny detail it'll even be difficult to understand why we would argue about that but Jews of course know how to argue about everything and yet upon deeper reflection it really opens up Vistas to a very profound and extremely relevant and life-changing ideas let's begin since we read the series the reading of the terror on the first day of schlewis is The Ten Commandments Israel and the medrus actually says something fascinating and that is that Hashem told the Jewish people as you read the story of Martin Taylor of Sinai every single year on show us it's like a re-experience a reenactment of that very experience the first time it says the first time by Martin Terror the murderer said that if Hashem said if even one Jew was missing a child an infant a woman a man he would have not been able to give the terror because everyone is an indispensable component in the cosmic Symphony so it's a fascinating emergency even if one person was missing you would think a little baby or what's the relevance of it but somehow everything is missing the whole the picture is not there it can't happen and therefore by Martin Taylor every single person had to be there as it says in Madrid even The Souls of the garim the people who would later convert their souls were also there not just the souls of all the Jewish people but even those who at that time were not Jewish and even later they would only become Jewish they were also there and so the Madrid says and each year Hashem says you can read we're going to reenact the very experience so when the reading on the first day of shuis after shakras when they read the title we read parishes and we read the story and that's why there's a minute by many and I remember growing up the laboratory we used to always urge everyone to come here that Sarah sadibris come to Schulte to hear that Sarah said ibris the first day of shrew was even babies and infants men and women because of the power that it says in Madrid that this is literally the re-experience of Martin Terrace so therefore every Jew deserves and belongs to be there so on this on the first possuk of Matan Terra there's a fascinating and very perplexing and seemingly enigmatic argument how does the whole story of Martin Terror begin the giving of The Terror at sun and it begins with the possic this is parashas yistro Numbers chapter 20 verse 1. Hashem spoke all these words to say and then he begins the first saying is I am Hashem your God by the way it's interesting which translated as the Ten Commandments but it's not really the Hebrew name for it so serious right we call it if we call that serious a Mitzvah is Ten Commandments is a conversation de Bur it's just a very very interesting to point out because a commandment could sometimes feel like it's aloof it's it's distant people don't like being commanded things yeah I know I don't because I command you huh a lot of our translations are based on other cultures that translated the Bible into Hebrew and they gave it names and the name stuck like the tree of knowledge being an apple yeah apple makes phones not trees the phones could be as bad as the eight sadas no question but maybe that's the source somehow knew that what apple is going to produce is going to confuse a lot a lot of people could be but it's not so simple I'm saying a lot of things my shed horns you know current airplane Maisha my Shad horns Etc not all translations are completely accurate and then he begins the ten sayings the ten connections the first one I am God The God Who took care of the Egypt and then the second one you shouldn't have any other gods etc etc all the way till the 10th our sages always attentive to nuance right away felt the difficulty in the first Posse and the difficulty is the word Lamar by adabriel Kim is called Lamar Lamar is a very common word in Hamish it constantly says Lamar why does it say Lamer Hashem is talking to my not for himself it's not just a conversation with Maisha it's a Lamar to be said right and yet there's the teachers always translate I don't know if it's an accurate translation but that's what many of us grew up with again you're not pointing out you're not pointing out okay he's speaking to moisture to share it Lamar it should be said to others that is that is sensible when it comes to every other Mitzvah in Hamish where Hashem speaks to Moshe and Moshe is the teacher who's going to transmit it to the Jewish people but that would not apply to this because here he's not saying it to Maisha to say it over to the people it's fact Maisha is not even mentioned here the whole point of the event that Sinai was all the people were present directly they heard it in fact as the rambam points out and many other great Jewish philosophers and others that the great uniqueness of Judaism over every other faith in the history of humanity is every single other faith is about a few an individual or at most a few people who experienced a divine revelation and then they transmitted it to many people who accepted it who believed it and embraced it and internalized it and you're talking about literally we know about today uh 12 000 religions most people could only name a few but there are around 12 000 religions throughout history there were many more and all of them begin with a story of one person who had a vision who Heard a Voice who experienced God whether it's in Christianity whether it's in Islam Muhammad whether it's in Utah the Mormons Joseph Smith or the Buddha whatever it may be thousands of years ago hundreds of years ago one person who then taught it and said this is what I saw and a person with a lot of Charisma or wisdom or some power can influence lots of people by definition you could never know if it's completely authentic or somebody just had an imagination somebody made it up somebody fabricated and so forth the uniqueness of matter is that as the homage claims every single Jew experienced it not much should have been every single Jew if I come to you all of you and I say last night I had a dream that God told me that all of you should give me all your money okay well at least half of your money fifty percent it didn't happen but now you could choose to believe me you could say I'm a charlatan I'm a thief I'm weird I'm a sugar I'm insane maybe if I have enough of Charisma and Gift of Gab maybe you'll choose to believe me but you could say he's lying he's not lying maybe he had the imagination maybe he's going through something who knows I have somebody good to see maybe he needs some vitamin D Vitamin B vitamin C some zinc whatever but uh what if I tell you all that last night you had a dream everyone here had a dream XYZ now you know for sure that I'm lying because I'm talking about you the only religion that makes that claim not moishes or you so was the Jewish people why did no other religion make such a claim that millions of people were there and saw it it's a very nice story it's a beautiful Story the answer is to make such a claim it has to happen because if I'm telling three billion people you were there they right away know I'm a charlatan I'm a liar I'm a thug I once saw there was one it was a branch of Hinduism that also claims a similar idea that there were a million people at the Revelation but then they add one more cloth and that is they all died afterwards besides one person so you're back to square one where everybody died beside one person and it's a fascinating thing because if somebody wrote the Khmer if somebody fabricated let's call them uh George let's call them Maisha Jefferson or Maisha Washington whoever this uh Maisha was who fabricated a very interesting document with a story that lohia will end if it never happened and he comes to the people and he sells it what's the first question I'm going to ask him first I'm going to ask him as it says that there were three million Jews here who were commanded to tell this to their children and promised that it would never cease and it would never stop so where where are all these people oh uh why would you write something that right away shows that you're a lawyer just say it's me nobody ever saw it nobody ever knew it it's a much easier way to sell a story so this this aspect of Martin Toyota is not just a little detail it's essential it's essential to the entire understanding of Judaism it's clear what I'm saying it's a very very interesting concept because you have no other religion in history that ever made such a claim and we could understand why I don't blame them it doesn't make sense to make such a kind to make such a claim you're taking a very very very big risk I'm writing a book and writing something that's really proving that I'm about a lot of things in total like that if a person is writing it you want to make sure that it's going to be as believable as possible in the sense of not making promises that you and I know you're not going to be able to deliver for example there's a promise there that if Jews keep shemitah there's going to be an extra blessing on the sixth year that will provide enough grain for year six for year seven for year eight and sometimes for year nine unless you're in charge on the weather and on global warming and on climate change unless you're really in charge you don't make such promises I'm not going to tell you that if you do what I want right I'm gonna give you enough grief how do I know and what if it's not raining I mean these are these are things you got to be very very careful to say a person what somebody Promises of ram avino right you're just a little guy you don't even have a child he's 75 years old he's infertile his his wife is infertile they never had a child they can't have a child and you're saying oh by the way a great nation is going to come from you and all the people on Earth are going to be blessed by you really this is like a promise of course you look three and a half four thousand years later and more than a third of humanity considers itself spiritual ears besides all of the biological layers of ramadino or a promise like comparison you'll be scattered all over the world but you're never going to be eradicated like thousands of years ago you're going to say that the Roman Empire has gone the Egyptian Empire has gone that Syrian Empire is gone the Babylonian Empire is gone the Byzantine Empire is gone the Greek Empire is gone they were much larger and bigger than the Jewish people they're all gone they're all in Wikipedia thousands of years ago to promise a little nation that will never be obliterated you got to be crazy because you're proving that you're just making up things so these are different things you see in the Torah that if I was writing it or moisha Jefferson was writing it or again from Washington was writing it or whatever the name is Right Miriam Adam I mean okay now I actually use a real name but uh okay let's do Miriam Washington was writing it I would be very very careful to at least make it plausible so if all the Jewish people were there certainly of that generation in a physical level besides the cells what's the Lamer by the chemist the word doesn't have an understanding so that's the question so you could say tell it to your children but according to the Madrid spirit that all the nishamas were there and even then right so that would be the question of limb so hazal picked up on this and the truth is to other Generations there's different interpretations in the madrish one of the most authoritative and earliest texts of the oral tradition is called the mahilta the mahila was authored by Rabbi Ishmael it was authored by Rabbi shmal and this is one of the earliest earliest texts and in the Hilton this question is addressed and the tanoium the sages interpreted it in a very original way Lamar is not to be repeated to others but actually to give feedback God was asking for feedback Lamar I want to hear what you have to say this is not a monologue it's a dialogue a monologue means I talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and nobody says anything some people like it that way Lamer I want you to say something like tell me if you like what I'm saying tell me if you don't like what I'm saying I want to hear as we call it feedback I want a response that's the labor now the question is what was the so the Jews gave a response what was the nature of the response so the Torah doesn't say it explicitly it's all intimated in the word Lamar what the response was on this of course there's an argument that we responded there's no argument labor you got to say something what we said oh this is not so simple and who argues about this two of the greatest sages in Jewish has two of some of the great two of the greatest stages in Jewish history two of the greatest you'll see in your second Source Matilda Lamer malamed this teaches ushmael the words here are very succinct and accurate ribi schmal says this teaches us the Jewish people said al-hain on yes they said yes the Allah and no on no love they said no meaning the tenacery the ten sayings include positive instructions and negative ones for example you should remember the day of Shabbos to sanctify it number four zakira Shoppers that's a positive thing number five respect your father and mother cabbages as a positive thing the first one I am the God your God who has taken you out of Egypt is a positive thing but then there is also negative injunctions for example don't murder her don't be don't know an injunction against adultery right Lois don't tell us don't covet other peoples other people's lives other people's properties other people's possessions don't make an image of God don't have other gods number three don't swear God's name in vain says the feedback varied alhain on things that Hashem was saying to do to engage in what did they say they said yeah well of course he wanted feedback so they said of course we're in we love Shabbos when Hashem said Lord don't murder they said of course not love not never never gonna murder or steal or kidnap or Etc that's ribish so the feedback varied love foreign on the positive things they said yeah and on the negative things they also said yeah meaning when Hashem said respect that your father and mother they said of course and when he said don't murder they said of course excellent question aren't they saying exactly the same thing what's the difference if I tell my childhood never crossed the street without tati holding your hand do you understand and he says yes or never cross the street he says of course I won't cross the street without holding your hand it's the same thing both are saying they agreed it's not like Kirby Akiva says God said don't steal they said yeah we will steal that's not what it means laughs exactly that's the question it seems like the argument is completely about semantics what's the difference if you tell me I'm going to do what you say I'm going to do I'm going to do what you're asking me to do yes right if you ask your husband and I please don't lock the door because somebody is coming in later when they say I'm not going to lock the door or yes of course you're saying the same thing but they're arguing about it and who's arguing about the Bismillah so again at first glance if somebody doesn't read into it it looks like you just we just really have to argue about anything you can argue about turn it into an argument that Mom is saying the same thing simply a question of expression of semantics with absolutely apparently no substantial the difference or differentiation between that's number one number two why did these two people argue about it what's the connection said this position said the other position number three [Music] this is an interesting question you have to think about this for a moment but entirely everything is very precise including the words of the Tanaya they did not repeat themselves if it was unnecessary meaning an expression is meticulous it's precise it's not superfluous it's not excessive every word has within it meaning when Rabbi Akiva gives his opinion he's arguing but about what part is he arguing only about one piece he agrees with on the positive things they said yes right Al Hayne Hayne they both agree what's his argument with only on the negative ones so why did rabi Akiva repeat al-hain Hain that he agrees with he should have just said Allah in other words the first part there's no argument about is repeating that seems unnecessary says love so what should be Akiva say I love osahane right he's not disagreeing with he's repeating what he said so you say What's the difference he's just repeating his entire position but if that's not the argument so it's obviously small within this area why does he have to repeat the name when on the Hane they absolutely agree so that's not rabi akiva's contribution the truth is that this argument between them is a very profound argument not only is it not about semantics it's an argument that takes us into a very deep reflection about many experiences in life and not just many experiences like but probably the totality of how one experiences life in order to understand this we're going to discuss and go through a few stories about to be a keeper these are a selection of many there's so many stories and insights and teachings of rabi Akiva that are scattered throughout Michigan literally so much because everybody akiva's unique status and position remember Rabbi Akiva was a person who didn't learn until 40 years old was a child of converts so he came from non-jews his grandfather and grandmother were not Jewish even as being a Jew he was completely illiterate till the age of 40. he was a Shepherd a very nice and simple Shepherd to the point that his future father-in-law kalba savua when he heard that his daughter suggested to every Akiva to get married to get to marry that they should marry each other he completely banned her and excommunicated her and his son-in-law from wealth from his wealth because he was one of the wealthiest Jews so they became completely alienated from him and they lived in horrific poverty for many years who sacrificed this foreign sent him to learn for 12 years and then another 12 years he comes back with 24 000 students and he tells them famously that gemara says in Silvis page 62 it's all hers and then the 24 000 students ultimately perish in a famous pandemic which is one of the reasons for the morning during the spirit time and rabi Akiva goes to the South and he starts over again with five students foreign and he literally begins with these five and they're the ones who transmit the whole oral tradition from Maria Keva and that's where the gamara says in Sanhedrin page the whole tradition that we have comes so it'll be Akiva occupies a tremendous Place one of the greatest places in the whole history of Thailand of Jewish history ultimately his end would be tragic it would be killed by the Romans whereby Akiva supported the barkah Revolt which broke out 60 years after the destruction of the second basea mikdish the second base was destroyed in the year 70 after the Common Era and the Barca staged the revolt against the Roman Empire in the year 162 or 163 I'm sorry 132 after the Common Era so that's literally 60 years 62 years after the Quran supported him supported him tremendously even saying that he has all the signs of being mashiach who will liberated Jews from the Romans and it made sense the first gullus was for 60 years the second one is also for the first one was seven years and the second one is 60 years and change unfortunately Barca was killed the Revolt was crushed even though it was extremely successful for a few years he began building the third base and he minted coins and he uh regained independence of yerushalayim for a long time and I think two Legions of the Roman troops were eradicated which was unheard of in the Roman Empire was extremely extremely successful but then the Revolt was crushed Ruby Akiva was also murdered by the Romans so there's a few stories I want to point out from Rabbi Akiva as we delve into this argument seemingly such a simple argument and yet an extremely profound one upon deeper reflection so if you'll take a look down the page it's a few paragraphs down this is a famous story in talmud Marcus page 24. shoes the great sages of the time went up to yerushalayim and they came to mount scopus they all rent their garments and the reason is because from this mountain they could see they have a vision of the Hara bias of the Temple Mount and they see the destruction of the best so they all rent they all tear their garments they come to the harabayas they continue their journey and they come to actual Temple Mount and they see a fox coming out from the place where the holy of holies once stood now remember these are people who lived through they were there at the end of the second base so this wasn't just a story that they read about or heard about from azada some of them were actually there or were there right after so it was very very um tangible the loss was extremely it was immediate it was tangible it was very concrete it was right there in front of their eyes it wasn't just Nostalgia based on what you heard from previous generations so when they see a fox coming out of the place that they knew this was with the kadesha Kardashian actually stood they all started crying it overtakes them and ribiakiva starts laughing you answer a question with another question you don't just answer a question so when they say why are you laughing he says well why are you cry so they say they explained they knew why they're crying they say this is a place that the terrorist says review must even Azar a Israel or a levy or a Cayenne outside of the kind goddel who goes in here in the wrong time or if you're not a kind God will ever you must the energy is too intense a person can't survive and now foxes are running around in this place we shouldn't weep you're asking us why we're crying that's the most natural thing to do to be able to see such destruction to be able to recognize and observe the contrast the radical the overwhelming feeling is one you can't escape you know from the highest of the highs to the lowest of the lows you see what the abyss looks like so they're crying so he says I don't know this that's why I'm laughing that's a reason to laugh that now the foxes are roaming in the basement even knows that he has to explain himself so he goes on a long explanation and the point of his explanation is that yashaya says God says I have two loyal witnesses there was a prophet named Uriah Uriah there was another Prophet named foreign why does Hashem call them two witnesses what's the connection lived in different Generations Uriah was a prophet in the first base was a prophet in the beginning of the second baseman part of the team the beginning of the anshik necessary that's a whole different generation why are you making them two witnesses two witnesses work together explains that there's a profound meaning here why because urea gave a prophecy and it's in the book of mikha The Book of Micah chapter Zion will be plowed like a field in other words the Great Sea and the great Jerusalem you see it's going to be plowed by a echo field that's the prophecy of URI you gave a different Prophecy in the book of sari says one day the elders males and females kaneman skynas will stroll and celebrate in the streets of yerushalaya says yeshaya says these are two witnesses two witnesses depend on each other so he says as long as the prophecy of urea was not fulfilled I was afraid that the prophecy of scaria won't be fulfilled but now that I see the prophecy of a real fulfilled because where do foxes hang out they hang out in forests and in jungles and in Open Fields right sometimes you can even see a fox in Muncie in certain place especially a few years ago before all the houses came up now that I see that foxes come out here in other words it was plowed like a field now I know that the second prophecy will be fulfilled too oh yes canisberg have a social life take a look the last two lines of this Source he says it beautifully Rebecca's words now that the first prophecy was fulfilled it's knowing that the second one will be fulfilled and the Gomorrah concludes in very moving words this is the language that they said Akiva you have comforted us comforted us that's what the sages reply to be Akiva when he explained this to them why he was quelling why he was matzahic why he was laughing when he saw the foxes come out now here's the obvious question the other tanayam didn't believe in the prophecy that one day your shalayim will be rebuilt it's one of the fundamentals of Jewish faith we said he was not the only one who believed and even himself if he wouldn't have seen the sea and plowed into a like a field he didn't believe that the Navy and were right obviously he did and the other new the other time I also believed it what is it that created the distinction between Rabbi Akiva and the other tanayam that they cried and he left let's go to the next Story the next story is these are famous stories but here you have the sources it's an it's an Aramaic Rebecca was traveling came to a city Bo shpizzi was looking for a hotel which busy he was looking for a host using he wanted to be a guest he was looking for a house to take him in a motel six a better breakfast somebody to take him in nobody would give him a place to sleep that's pretty frustrating right you come to a place and you're looking for a little nobody would give him a place um Marshall what does he say called the Avid whatever God does is for the good it must be good for me not to have a place in the city so what does he do he goes until he goes into the field he goes into the forest and that's where he camps out at night what do you do you go out and you find a place to camp out he had as we know a chicken a rooster he had a donkey and he had a candle so what happens USA zika the wind comes and extinguishes the flame it wasn't easy to lie to can they didn't just have matches and he could relight and even if he had a way the wind was just blowing it out then a cat came and killed a rooster killed the roosters right a cat came and again made Cyrus not to the goat now to the now not to the goat hunt God did this what time it was a it was a rooster no you still have a donkey this was new as well apparently it was a real forest and there was real Wildlife wasn't just a little fake forest in the Catskills where you build a fire and this was a real Forest Area a lion came and took the Donkey he repeats his Mantra whatever Hashem does is for the good that night the gemara says guys an army came in from the enemy and abducted the people living in the city Akiva turned to his students he was with an Entourage of students and he says the last line you see we were all saved because we didn't have a place to sleep in the city nobody gave us a place you were saved of course if there would have been a candle burning they would have known they would have recognized that people are here if the rooster would have made noise or the donkey would have made noise again we would have been found so this is all good we were saved this is the second story and then there's a third story and this is the story of rabi akiva's last moments this is also in Khalif and this is the story that the Roman Empire made a decree that nobody should learn Torah they want to do completely uproot every Last Vestige of Judaism a man named papos benuehood the surabi Akiva was not just teaching he was gathering large communities large masses of people and teaching and ultimately Akiva and they imprisoned and then the gemara describes they took out the Christmas death it was a time of kriyashma which means it was early in the morning because the time of krishma is Before Sunrise so this was very early in the morning the Romans were torturing and they were calming his flesh with iron Combs he was accepting the oak of the Kingdom of Heaven the students were there the Romans turned us into a spectacle they did it in caesaria according to Saudi aradis this was on Yom Kippur a day before Yom Kippur umidum said Khan how much how much can you do how long can you do this for meaning rabi Akiva as he's experiencing this he's saying Shema and the talmudum couldn't understand this means like is there a limit to your to your faith like at Khan you know how can you how can you say Israel now this was their question this is what they're asking about these moments what does he say to them imagine that he has the presence of mind to respond to them and he doesn't just tell them one word he tells them something he remains a teacher to the last moment my whole life I was pained by the verse you should love God with all your soul which means even if you have to give up your soul and I always said when will I be able to fulfill this Mitzvah now that I have an opportunity you don't want you want me not to fulfill this moment this is something I aspired for to be able to give up my soul and now that I have the opportunity you just want me to let it go he prolonged and his soul left his body by the word your soul exited the physical world the physical embodiment these are three stories about Rebecca the first one him laughing when the facts comes out the second one is when he's thrown out of a city and then he loses all of his possessions the candle the donkey the rooster again he remains completely positive and the third one in the most painful moment of his life he's saying Shuman explains to a student his students that kaliyamai my whole life I thought must yeah according to khazal he was a very he was very old he was 120. which means he lived a very long very long and extremely productive life but the tomb of them couldn't understand how he's responding this way so he said what he said these stories give us a little insight to begin to dissect the argument between how the Jews responded to Martin says they said yes on some things and knowing other things said they said yes and everything it's not a if it was an issue of semantics they wouldn't argue it's not like they didn't have what to do they said let's argue about something else because there's really another question here we have an expression what was was to argue about something that happened thousands of years ago with no relevance today is futile it's just an argument just to say no argument this is something that happened thousands of years ago if you're arguing about how many candles you have to light the first night of Hanukkah like this I understand you're arguing about when is the time of kriya in the morning I understand you're arguing about how many tits is to have I understand you're arguing which you're arguing about something that happened 3335 years ago that's exact that's not repeated again what's the point so you have to say that they're not arguing about a fact that happened that's irrelevant they're arguing about a theme a message the reason they're arguing about this is because it represents two different ashkafas two different perspectives says on the positive they said yes on the negative they said no Rabbi Akiva says on everything they said yes because this is really a question of how the Jewish people accepted and internalized the aceres adibris the ten sayings which would become a paradigm and an archetype for all of the 630 Mitzvahs rebu shmal said their experience of it was a personal one and a subjective one in terms of how I how they appreciated and understood the value of a mitzvah you should remember Shabbos it's not just they said yeah we're going to do it the yes was an internal yes we appreciate it we celebrate it we get it of course yes it was an enthusiastic resounding yes wasn't just yes I'll do it it was a yes that came from the very core of their being their every fiber of their being screamed out yes it was something that their body and their soul and their mind and their nervous system every sin you every cell in their body said yes this is the right thing it's like when your body exclaims yes this is good that's the yes when they heard Lois don't murder every fiber of their being exclaimed no they can feel the repulsion of it the the toxicity of it the Venom the evil the negativity of course I run away from this like it says you know I have a rats limits in our life when somebody is is in touch with their truest needs so there's something that's positive you run to it I embrace it there's something that's negative I I sense and I feel it what do I do fed this is not for me I stay away I create borders I create boundaries that's the love the lava is describing their vivid understanding and appreciation of how poisonous this is and this is a very critical component that a person should be able to have that awareness that Clarity what is yes and what is no what is Hain and what is love literally we have a story a famous story in gamara masaka Shabbos that there was a non-jew who came to shamai and he said teach me the whole Torah while I'm standing on one foot it's the Shabbos page 31 the Flaming so shamai says he had a stick a contractor stick that was used for Real Estate to measure plots and properties and he pushed them away he threw him away he basically said out so he came to hello and he said teach me the whole Judaism on one foot so hello said no problem how much time do you have he said six seconds he said you got it I'll do it in four I'll do it in four seconds and he said six words how long does that take whatever you dislike to be done to you don't do it anybody else treat other people the way you would like to be treated speak to other people the way you would like to be spoken to relate to other people the way you would like to be related to that's the whole time everything else is commentary go study the commentary at first glance it looks like shama had no patience don't come to me and say teach me the whole Duty isn't when you're standing on one foot go to Harvard Medical School and say teach me everything about there is to know about medicine in the next 25 seconds get out people are researching biology for four thousand years in 20 seconds you're going to teach me everything there is to know about cosmology about science about physics about psychology philosophy and math and algebra and engineering and geology it's also disrespectful people are sitting for years to study something in one in 20 seconds hello we see as the quintessence of a Kind altazed who had patience and he was very calm and he was very cool and he was very Collective and he was very sensitive and he said no problem the problem is that shamai says in Prickly of is the first chapter we just learned before shruz you should greet every person nicely shama is the one who said that the most important things to know about the sages is they did not ever believe that you could say one thing and do the opposite hypocrisy has no place in a life of Terror do as I say and not as I do there was a professor in Cambridge University his name was Bertrand Russell he died not long ago an old man he was a very smart man a philosopher an atheist and he was caught doing not such my symptoms in terms of relationships a lot of scandals and he taught ethics so one of his students says Professor Russell how do you teach ethics when it's quite well known that you're not the most ethical human being he looked at a student and he said I also teach trigonometry I also teach algebra and I'm not a circle I have to be a circle to teach about circles that's what he said he was arguing I can teach things I don't believe in I could teach things I don't practice I'm teaching it I mastered it and you describe that has no place because it's actually the teaching is also flawed even the teaching is flawed shamai says greet everybody with a pleasant face so this guy comes and says teach me Judaism in six seconds and 20. how long could you stand on one foot I know depends if you're a ballerina but how how long can a person stand on one foot let's say 30 seconds if a person is an athlete in a few minutes but not for very long even people who are trained their entire lives okay you could do it teach me the whole title so shama could say listen listen my dear human being maybe you mean well but this is a very serious Jews have been studying Terror for four thousand years for three thousand years and shama is time was two thousand years it's not something for 20 seconds one of the explanations in this is that shama actually was not throwing him away shame Was preparing him for Hillary shamai was teaching him something very very profound shambai was giving him the First Foundation of Taylor Taylor is based on Hain and based on love foreign every relationship has a yes but has a no somebody who can say no also can't say yes somebody says I'm going to go to the gym two hours a day I want to lose weight I want to look perfect but afterwards apaya pizza before that babka and cheesecake I want both but then I'm going to it's not going to work every positive relationship needs to include protecting yourself from the negative influences that will undermine that relationship somebody says proposes and says I want to be married to I want to love it but my options remain open if there's no exclusivity in the relationship it undermines the positivity of the relationship in other words for it to be real and enduring there also has to be a laugh if a life of meaning means I embrace positive things this is a lifestyle that I'm embraced I also have to be able to say love this is something that does not belong to me this is something that I must protect myself from this is something that is toxic and poisonous when people become pure when they purify themselves when they work on themselves they right away know some relationships you get deeper into and some relationships it's time to uh pull the plug I should be nice to every person but there are relationships that I can cultivate and really celebrate and our relationships and relationships that deplete me relationships that teach me how bad I am relationships that are toxic and contaminating a person has to be able to say love and it's not about saying it's the inner experience this is something that builds me and this is something that demolishes me this is something that builds my Holiness and goodness this is an atmosphere where where this Purity with this this is an atmosphere where there's unfortunately toxicity says the experience about the title was so real al-hain hey foreign this is we this is so this is this is alien for me when shamai taught this to him now we can go to hella and he'll tell him the positive treat other people like you want to be treated gave him the foundation if I have a new house and the house is filthy you don't bring in the new furniture until you bring in a cleaning crew to clean out the filth people make that mistake they bring in all the everything but the third is still here you got to clean out the dirt and then bring in the furniture if there's a horrible you got a gut the place in order to build a new house I don't want a gut if you don't want a gut there's going to be leaks there's going to be problems I want to work with what is very nice if you could but if there's mold s so this is what shama was teaching him you won the whole Title One the first thing you're gonna have to learn how to push away things if you want to build yourself there's going to have to be things Docker for you that you push away now we could come to Hillel and teach him the teach him the positive because the title is based on two things they already had that experience because they were focusing on the impact on the internal response of the Jew to these particular Mitzvahs this is a hand this is a laugh able and says that's true but there was something even deeper that happened and that is everything was hained they weren't focusing on what's being said they were focusing on who's saying it if you're focused on what's being said is a big big no and cabinet is a big big yes Rebecca Cuba says they were focusing on who was saying it not on what was being said not the what but the who Serbia Akiva said everything was Hain everything was yes by the positive ones they said even the negative ones what was the experiencing the experience was this is what you want hey yes that was the focus there's a beautiful Posse it's a very emotional possible when David's son of Shalom rebelled against him as we discussed in the previous year with who went rebelled against his father David and David was forced to leave the palace in jerushalayim and Escape for his life because of Shalom came with his people and David would have been killed so he ran away from your shalaya as he ran away from yerushalayim so the qayam was speaking to him you know about his about his faith if he's ever going to come back and David amalek says to him in the Navy he says it's a small base Rebellion uh so about David tells of Shalom David tells the kai and his close friend he says if Hashem wants me to come back to the throne and go back to your shall I am I'm in and then he says if Hashem says I don't want you to be here anymore he needs to say my name in other words says I'm not particular exactly how it's going to work out I'm a conduit how can David say this because David it says until it says you can testify that I remain completely silent I'm like the soul of a gummel of a suckling infant being held in its mother's bosom when a mother is traveling with her baby her infant the mother could be traveling East or West South North the mother could go here could go on one flight another flight go from country to Country if you would be able to speak to the infant and you last the infant where were you all this time did you go with Mommy to your shalam did you go with Mommy to London did you go with Mommy to China he said I don't know I was just with my mother foreign between the positive and the negative is in the software it's how my avoid expresses itself but in terms of the hardware it's the same thing this is what you want yes hey they didn't see the distinction here you're involved with positive things here running away from negative things that's all a distinction when you're talking about your own experience of it in terms of the software in terms of the core I'm fulfilling your desire now you want me to be involved in this is Iranian if now it's the opposite thing also in any hand it's positive it's similar to the famous story about the two brothers reposition they were two students of the Margaret of Ms Rich two of the great Hasidic Masters the Rebecca the author of his brothers they say a story they would do gullus they would go around from City to City they wouldn't sleep in one place more than one night anyway somebody informed upon them and they were thrown into a dungeon there were two saintly Brothers over there in that prison cell you'll forgive me this is the 1700s there was no bathroom they had a a bucket in the corner of the room and that's what the prisoners use to tend to their needs so you can imagine the nature of the fragrance that pervaded the cell to put it mildly it came the morning and the absolutions is crying so you said like it said why are you crying so he said similar answer he says I Daven every day in a place where there's a horrible odor and when you're in the present of extra you wouldn't be present of this type of fertilizer out of respect comparison so they're from crying the first time I won't be able to Daven because of the horrible smell so reposition so this is the first time for everything so why are you crying he says how can I have a day without the Avenue davening is a time that I connect to the soul of the world to my inner soul to the core of reality is a time when I become one with Oneness when I become aligned with the core of all of existence with the Ultimate Reality which is Hashem isbara and this is the first time I don't have that relationship I'm like alone in the world scattered frazzled so their position he says I don't understand you who says you don't have a relationship today the same God who wants you to dive in every day says clearly that when there's a horrible odor it's a place where there's filth you're not supposed to dhava so today you're not governing to fulfill hashem's will by fulfilling hashem's will you build a relationship with them so every day you have a relationship with Hashem through davening and today you'll have a relationship who says it's not a relationship it's a different type of relationship I didn't think of it so instead of crying he starts singing So within a few minutes they were dancing so imagine us seeing you have two brothers in a prison cell dancing away and the guy the Gentiles saw that they all joy in the dance and in five minutes it looked like simchastaira or put him in the prison cell the prison Warden hears the commotion he goes in he says everybody is dancing because that's because it's lebedic you would think it's a wedding he's very annoyed he calls over one of their inmates and he says what's the what's the simcha what's the joy so as usual he says the Jews are guilty they instigated the whole thing they always guilty so he says why are they dancing he says I don't know some mystical reason just tell me right now why are they dancing or I'll put you in solitary confinement so he points to the bucket in fear he points to the bucket in the court he says that's why they're dancing so the prison one and says could anybody explain to me how that bucket makes people dance so he says they explained that the bucket allowed them to experience a new relationship with their God there was a pre-bucket relationship and there's a post-bucket relationship and because of the post-bucket relationship that's a new relationship it got them into ecstasy and they're dancing away he says really I will teach those Jews a lesson and what does he do picks up the bucket and throws it out of their cell brother now you can start the ovening what was the message there's a very petite message the relationship is always present the question is not if there's a relationship the question is simply the format of the relationship here sometimes the relationship is through davony and sometimes Hashem says today I don't want you dominate breaks the Lucas to save the Jewish people Hashem says sometimes I want the whole Lucas and sometimes I want Africa the broken Lucas it's all part of a relationship sometimes the relationship looks one way sometimes the relationship looks other way in another different way sometimes the relationship is expressed in a positive relationship I'm engaging with something that is Holy and amazing and beautiful and sacred and divine and Transcendent that's ain't sometimes it's Love sometimes I'm faced with an opportunity where I'm dealing with something that is toxic negative poisonous says don't focus on the what only focus on the who there's a connection here this is you're you are now sent here to fulfill this Mission through this don't get obsessed and caught up in the particular issue ask not what God can do for you ask what you can do for God if this is what's necessary at this moment so it says hey not anything else focuses on the connection on the opportunity for connection the opportunity for connection is in every nikuda sometimes it's through engagement sometimes through disengagement sometimes it's through going sometimes it's not going sometimes it's through pain things that are positive and sometimes it's through dealing with something that's negative whatever I have to do there but it's also a hand it's also a yes this is my mission now how I connect to my true mission to my true purpose to my God to Hashanah let's take it a step deeper it's not just an argument about how I feel about it am I focusing on the software the hardware am I focusing on what I'm doing or I'm focusing on what has that effect that Hashem is asking me to do it which we could understand very well in a relationship it's a very powerful idea sometimes there's a very deep relationship between two people so it's no different what you ask me you can ask me to do something you can ask me not to do something you can ask me to go here you can ask me to go there if I'm focusing on the actual acts I say oh this is great this is not great what if I'm focusing on the relationship it's hey yes yes this is a yes and this is a yes if this is what you want I'm in I'm yes there's also something deeper and that is how they view the negative itself how they viewed the love itself it says Hashem came down on harsina it says he told Maisha to go up this means two things happened God comes down and Humanity ascends and in that process your question is what becomes the most powerful element according to the bismal Hashem according to my Accord ing to be small it's Hashem coming down according to be Akiva it's the human being going up it's not just physically coming down or going up we're talking about spiritually two paradigms coming down means that godliness comes down to become tangible and internalizing The Human Experience going up means that the human being ascends to see things from the Divine perspective and that's why rabi schmal says the focus is from The Human Experience so this is positive this is negative says he sees it from the Divine this is hashem's will this is hashem's will like today he wants to some days he wants you to Daven the same God wants you not to love it you could celebrate that as much as you celebrate anything else when you see it from that perspective But Here We Come To The Next Step and that is how they see the very essence of negativity to say this briefly because it's a profound idea the gemara says that there's three things that Hashem regrets every day and one of them is the eight Sahara he regrets the Yates the evil inclination and there's Apostle he said oh you see I'm the one who's guilty in creating all these messes and all the negativity because I created the question is I don't understand so I understand I do something I make a mistake I regret what I did huh and you stop first of all if Hashem is so is so regretful why did he make it and if he made it and he decided it's really bad idea so how didn't he realize it and if he did realize it so he did it anyway so obviously there's a purpose and if something happened and he said you know this is a really bad idea so take it away you regret it and then you don't take it away so how much if I regress I'm really sorry about what I did and then I do it the next day and then I say I'm sorry again and then I do it the next day how sorry am I we all know what that means I'm sorry but here we go again flip service what do you say Miss Garrett the answer to this is a very profound answer and that is he created it because he wanted to create it obviously he thought it serves a purpose what purpose does it serve understanding that he regrets it that's the purpose that it serves and I'll explain what I mean everything in the world exists because Hashem wants it to exist that's its energy God's will translates into energy he wants therefore it is in other words and that's what makes the energy that it should exist if they ate Sahara its whole purpose is to tell you to go against hashem's will so how can it exist it's existing because of hashem's will so Hashem wants it to exist and that's what makes everything exist the chemistry of everything in the world is the Divine will that it should exist that is its battery that is its engine but if the whole very existence of it is to compel a person to influence a person to go against the Creator's will so there's a paradox here because how do you live the oxygen that everything has is the Divine will that it should live so the eight Sahara lives off the Divine will it should be what's its whole purpose its whole purpose is to take people away from that Divine will so that's a very fascinating Paradox in the yetzahara so this is what the gemara is saying Hashem creates it and he says I regret that I created it that regret is what defines the chemistry of the eight Sahara it's something that Hashem wants and he could say I regret that in other words the very fact that he says I regret regret it makes it a reality doesn't have a reality pre-creation is only Hashem have a reality Hashem says I'm creating something what is it that I'm creating something that I don't like something that I'm regretting so the very nature of its existence is that God wants God wants something I'm creating what is it that I'm creating I'm creating something that I don't want the fact that he says I don't want this that itself is a relationship think about a person something that I'm disconnected to I don't want they don't not want if you say I don't want something there's a relationship here right if something makes you queasy and you don't feel good about it there's obviously relationship it triggers you when somebody is triggered by somebody they have some connection it's not a positive connection but it's a connection so the very fact that God says something triggers me that makes it exist that makes that gives it its energy that gives it its oxygen pre-creation it didn't trigger didn't exist it says in madrish that Hashem built worlds he built worlds before this world he destroyed them he said these I like and these I don't like onions these I like these I don't like the very fact that he said I don't like this that is its oxygen because he confers existence on it even negative existence the very fact I say this is something I don't like this is something that does not sit well with me this is something that defies me oh it's something that defies me it has substance somebody triggers you they do something right they have something when you really say oh I really don't care and you get upset of course you care if you wouldn't care you wouldn't get upset I I try to make believe I don't care but of course I care the very fact that you say I don't like something means that there is something here that you don't like so how does negativity live if everything lives from Hashem so how can negativity live how can I have an existence how can something that's antithetical to Divine Holiness have existence it's also created from Hashem but if everything lives because of hashem's want then hashem's desire it's an expression of Hashem so how could there be a matseus in the world a reality in the world that it's very identity is what antithetical to Godliness and what's giving it its identity godliness so Hashem is giving it oxygen and what is it doing with that oxygen it's Defiance of God and yet that is also is Godly so the shot is that essentially [Music] what negativity really is it's powerful it comes from God but what is its very substance it's very substances that Hashem says I don't want it that's what it really is in other words it creates a reality in the world that on its own it doesn't really have anything even when God creates it what is he creating he's creating something that ultimately doesn't have real power doesn't have real energy so what's its purpose its purpose is only to challenge and stimulate the human being to be able to overcome it to be able to transform it to be able to eradicate it to be able to sublimate it here comes the difference on the positive they said hey on the negative they said love goes to a deeper Place ribiakiva didn't see love Rebecca saw on everything what's the Divine Purpose inside of it because that is also being created by Hashanah Hashem is creating something that he says I don't want so if you look at the outside of it it's negative inside there's also a spark of Holiness what is that spark of Holiness that spark of Holiness is that God put something here that its entire purpose is to be able to create some type of resistance that you should overcome that you should transform that you should eradicate and therefore it doesn't really have any substance of negativity it's all another way another opportunity in which to fulfill God's will so when you look at love when you look at anything negative in the world you could see two things when you look at it from the perspective of Hashem came down the way it sees from our experience this is positive this is negative when you look at it from the perspective there was an opportunity to go up could you see it from the Divine perspective when the Divine looks at it what does he see he sees something that was created completely through Holiness if it was created completely through holiness so what's giving it oxygen Holiness is giving it oxygen and yet what is it at the surface at the surface is the opposite of Holiness says alive in the lab they also saw the hate what they saw was not negativity in and of itself they could see the Divine Purpose and perspective in the negativity that it's all there in order to be able to bring out something positive in a person's life to be able to create a life in which the relationship is real and authentic in which I overcome this negativity whatever this negativity may be so I could look at it from the outside it's live you look at it from a deeper perspective From hashem's perspective see in the love he says it's not our love love it's alive the love is also ahead and this is what you see in these stories they come and they see a fox coming out of the holy of holies what do they see they see Corbin they also believed in the but right now they see a fox coming out of the holy of holies so you cry the fact that one day there'll be Redemption beautiful but right now we're crying that makes a lot of sense there's haynheim and there's love laugh there's things you laugh about there's things you cry about and says no I love him he didn't see love he saw him in the facts coming out of holy of holies what did he see he saw it as a springboard as a catalyst as a testifier that is that's why he uses the nivu of Zion would be plowed like a field unfortunately there's a lot of Prophecies of Doom in the Naveen why does he choose this one because plowing is a very interesting phenomenon if somebody plows a field at the ones at the surface what are they doing they're breaking it up they're destroying it like demolishing a house what are you destroying my house for the tractors are coming and literally taking apart your house stop destroying my field stop destroying my house but anybody who understands the deeper element what is plowing plowing is making it fertile if you don't plow and you plant the seeds nothing is going to grow by shaking it up by breaking it up by destroying it demolishing it you can actually create a fertile field so maybe I keep as a Sia in southern it's not that he believed in the future they'll be the ghoula they also believe that in the plowing he saw the growth not because he didn't understand what's happening he didn't understand that this is Corbin I love Hain when he saw the negative he saw in it the Divine Purpose the Divine spark in it and what's the Divine spark even in that it's not that the evil should be powerful that's why all evil ultimately Fades away it has no power of Eternity even the strongest empires of Evil by definition they're all temporary why like the navi says everything will wither like grass or divided why is that the answer is because what is the power of evil the power of evil can't be Eternal and can't be absolute because its entire power is God's desire that it shouldn't be and everything lives off Hashem says I don't want don't want this so its power is in Kabbalah so this is an expression ra is Heather evil in its core is non-existent look it's non-existent really and it's core it's non-existence it looks like it exists very powerful and it has tremendous power communism for 70 years was an evil empire that ruled the world talk about raw Mother's Day called malchus but at its core if you get down to the DNA look at it and you'll see it's whole it's holy because this is Hashem wanting it what does he want he says this I don't want so it's very oxygen is that it has no oxygen you understand what I'm saying it's oxygen is that it has no oxygen it lives over the fact that it has no life it fakes it that's its life because everything comes from Hashem so how does it live says this I don't want but he says I don't want so that itself is a reality Hashem is giving something power saying this I don't want the fact that he says I don't want that's this oxygen because if he would really if he wouldn't even say I don't want it then it wouldn't exist the fact that he could say expressive this I don't want also there's a this that you don't want there's already a relationship you just created something you just gave it thinking it to you just gave it significantly you just gave it life that's what it means he regrets the itsahara that's part that's its creation I'm creating something I say I really hate this I hate this so on one hand it exists if God hates it it must exist what's its existence that it doesn't exist its existence is Hashem says it's not me another it's not real so ultimately it's going to fade away its whole purpose is to be able to create a catalyst and a springboard for transformation for choice for human creativity for a person cleaning out the negative from the positive so we can have power but ultimately it fades away there's no real substance to it all evil will clip it's a cover-up and therefore ultimately it doesn't have eternity ultimately the more truth gets revealed it just goes away it doesn't have real power it doesn't have real substance people who have real Vision even when it seems powerful they don't get affected by it so w shmall focuses on the experience of man dude I love love and says [Music] what do you mean is the facts coming out of the holy of holies he sees it from the Divine Purpose from the Divine perspective so therefore it's Hain he doesn't see the love he sees the hate he sees the purpose that God created it which is the plowing that is a preparation it's a springboard for the Redemption and then in the last story what happens the Romans take him out to be killed it's the worst love in history the worst negativity in history and he's saying what were they so surprised they never heard of a Jew and a lot there were Jews not on the level of much lower than their last moments they said Daniel Pearl was married to a non-jew was abducted by Ice by ISIS you remember and they videoed his last moments and he said I'm a Jew the talmudim looked at the beginning what did they think lost to zamuna that moment oh I'm not Jewish anymore everything was a mistake yeah because it was a holy Jew he said shamaya songs last moments what the talmudium were saying we're asking was something much deeper they saw that the Akiva felt the Shema yes in the experience they said at Khan come on this is a proof that God is not one if God was one how could the Romans do this that's what they asked at Khan it we see from your face that you're experiencing this as part of a God that doesn't make sense answered Rebecca said every day when I said I always ask myself when will I be able to fulfill this Mitzvah now I have an opportunity of a full dismissal you want I shouldn't fulfill it what was he telling them what he was saying was what I see in this experience as an opportunity to love God with all my soul he didn't see the love he saw the hand even in the most negative dark experiences he saw his mission and his opportunity to become close to truth to authenticity I do so much negativity in the world he saw in the laugh the opportunity the invitation to fulfill a Mitzvah after this that's what he saw his soul went out in eichhardt his soul went out in the experience of not just the word everything was one our love is also said so we even when a Jew is disengaging voice search of holistic and of life doesn't see this is evil and I'm staying away from it sees in everything that won us even the negativity he sees it well my Sharma lay from the perspective of the Divine The Godly spark that animates it and vivifies it and gives it existence because the only way it could exist is because Hashem wants to do this but what is this existing something that's defying God something that Hashem says I don't want and that itself is his existence so he saw what's the Divine opportunity here what's the Divine Mission here what is Hashem wand here he didn't see it as a separate realm there's light in this Darkness he saw everything is light some things look like light and some things you have to reveal the light in it that's it he didn't see light and darkness everything is light some things the light is apparent and some things the light is so deep it's so concealed I the one who has to reveal it Libby schmal was born or Drew he wasn't only born or Drew he was a client not only that some say he was the coming it's a question if it's the same to be small if it was a grandson a son a grandson was he a kind in the basement was it the Next Generation certainly he was a coin from the family of kayanam good Island the job of a Kion is they grow they grow up as Jews they live as Jews they come from experience was the exact opposite Rebecca came from non-jews the Gomorrah sentence the arch enemy of the Jewish people came from Sister one of the worst enemies of the Jewish people that was if you take a look in the third Source was the son from The Great and his father Joseph was or Garrett said that he was a conference he was a convert so two things as a convert and as a son of converts he needed to find godliness in places that abhishma didn't have to find it he went down into those places he started off his family started off as non-jews ultimately the genes of sisra and from there he came to holiness he found a spark of Hashem in the lowest of places but now to the other side the rambam writes there's a convert his name was Roberta and he complained to the Rahman how he's mistreated by the Jews in the community because he's a girl and there was a rabbi who said not nice things to him so their album says the only justification I could find for that Rabbi is that he was drunk and he should fast to be misaka what he did and then the rambam says all Jews Trace their lineage to avram agair doesn't raise their leadership they may come from avram through asab or through Ishmael they may come from Yitzhak through but not the Yakov or they may come generally from a different family maybe from one of terraq's other kids or from another families from other nations that spread after Nayak so he says okay can't say I'm a band of ramitsakiakov he says a girl that traces his or her lineage directly directly to Asha directly and that's why the rambam says the good murder says like a newborn child even if he's 40 50 she's 60 years old when they converts like a newborn child who's Tatia Mommy and the answer is biologically they have a father and mother but spiritually directly a child of Hashem because you'll be Akiva was a bengarian and because himself was about truva so his entire life came from the lowest of the low and he reached the highest of the high survey akiva's life was a life of complete Transcendence directly to the divine so he saw everything from that perspective so on the negative he said hey it's an opportunity for a relationship and even when there's negative in the world he saw hay and he saw the Divine perspective and here you see it in an extraordinary way there's an argument argue in dozens and dozens and dozens of places maybe hundreds throughout the talmud and there's a line that pervades dozens and dozens of their arguments do you see it from a human perspective or from a Divine perspective Hashem came down Maisha went up there was a synthesis so there was integration the question is what becomes more emphasized in both are real experiences we have to make space for both one of the interesting arguments you have it in your source is when there's a repetition in Hamish you don't have to deduce any new laws God speaks in the language of people people repeat themselves God doesn't repeat himself if he repeats himself it's to teach you Allah what's the argument again we have to argue about everything you see the depth here says Hashem speaks in the language of people he came down Rebecca says no we got to go up he doesn't speak in the language the binayadam could become divine here we come to an extraordinary fascinating interpretation Australia was one of the greatest capitalists in Jewish history was killed in the 1648 pogramsky forces the kazakhs you heard of xerious he was in Pullman Ukraine gimmel of and sure they killed absolutions are extraordinaries for him and he has an unbelievable realm as the end of parches look at it because this had to come through because I don't know a human being could come up with this on his own it says in swarim it says it says in it says in Zion were reincarnated into the Assad the ten people the 10 sages killed by the Romans we know the story we said on him of the Roman Emperor called in the sages and he said what's the punishment for for abducting a child a Jew and selling him and they said death and he said who was punished for abducting Yosef and selling him as a slave you should take responsibility for that the Roman Emperor said and it says were an actual Reincarnation of the tension their souls came into these ten people and to be small it says went up to heaven and he wanted to find out if this is a real decree and they said it is and these ten great sages were killed and the one of them was wow there's a question if it's the same way small like this one or was a Zeda of his or different that's a separate question but everybody says was one of the ten so they're not very big questionnaire how many brothers saw the Joseph nine roving wasn't there Benjamin was home Joseph was the victim there were 12 Brothers three are guns you have nine question so the arizo asked this question and he says that when the shottam did it they wanted a minion who did they take number 10 Hashem they were so convinced that this is what God write this is what God wants they said come join us Asha and they even made a harem a ban against anybody revealing the story and telling the story and foreign and Hashem agreed because he wanted the ice of salt for different reasons he wanted Joseph ultimately to become the prime minister of Egypt and save the world they did it for their reasons God did it for his reasons but they joined forces says the tenth one represented Hashem foreign explained every s in Hamish every ass in Hamish he explained what it means in English you don't have the word s in the beginning God created heaven and earth or the Heaven and the Earth what's us say that in English you won't find it in the translation respect the the your father the what does it mean explained every s and then he quit because he came to Apostle conversation you should fear God so who does it include the other s's you could say cabinets includes your older brother your older sister you fear God and who else should you fear president so he said I quit I made a mistake actually the year of Hashem applies say this why did Sunni not say it because Rabbi Akiva was teaching what a real-time is somebody who's egoless and completely one with God a conduit for Hashem so the fear of the time is not a fear of a person who has an ego who could manipulate you it is Hashem because of his complete Bittle and selflessness was an embodiment of that so he could say yes so he represented Hashem in the tenth kams of and take a look at this person I told you this had to be said but I know it would be hard for a regular human brain to come up with this there's a din called means that everyone I have new animals that are born in my farm whether sheep or goats or or cows so 10 I give my I bring to your shalaya and you offer it as a carbon and you can eat it together with friends and family and relatives and poor people the Gamora says 120 000 sheep that were born a year so my baby would have been twelve thousand ten percent so it says that you had a door and you let every animal go down and you counted one two three five six seven eight nine and the tenth he said this is my sir this is Holy and then one two three four everyone passed by and then this with a stick and you you counted one two three four and then the tenth became kadish that's the past focuses on every plastic has layers and layers of meaning so take a look at this passage you see the how much literally all the mice all the ten percent of your cattle and your sheep whatever goes under the scepter because you stand with the Stick of the tenth should be holy for Hashem now take a look at this now look very clearly's interpretation it's going to be a Russia Davis it's going to be an acronym listen are going to be an acronym okay now listen very carefully huh it is it is the fourth the fourth the fourth Source from the top because you see one two three four five five lines from the top because look clearly I'm gonna say it fast and I'll repeat it slow the cooler it's an acronym the coulomb I'm sorry Vietnam [Applause] again let everybody know why did Akiva die the one who was a shepherd of cattle and flock sheep rabi Akiva we learned before was a Shepherd for many years that was his vocation why did he die only nine brothers killed Joseph you see how he reads it is answers the past question mark answer the buzzer yavoi all the other nine that were over that passed away each one represented one of the nine yeah he's sacred for God he represented God's roles Joseph so here you see when you say that the ten guys and sorry who's the 10th they were Sinners and they had atonement you see even Hashem needed atonement when we see pain in the world it's not always oh he sinned he got killed he got tortured he got hurt even Hashem is the one taking a capari hair really I thought God runs the world he's the one who makes the Mitzvahs it's like the gemara says in Hulen page 60 God diminished the moon and he says make an atonement from me that I diminish the moon every year they brought a goat and it says for Hashem sin how does Hashem sin I know I could sin how does Hashem sin if he did it he probably wants to do it like we spoke before when he creates the eight Sahara he's creating something that he regrets so if you create his only regrets don't do it that itself is what I want I want something that I don't want because the whole purpose is it should ultimately be eliminated through the human creativity and through the human effort so that's the that's the the song looks at Target says what does he see in the negative it's negative stay away ribiakiva says it's an opportunity to connect it's God's will be small looks at darkness in the world he says unfortunately this is dark Fox is coming out is a time to cry and there's a space for that that is what the human feels that's opinion because when a person starts their spiritual growth you have to have clear boundaries this is good this is not good this is positive this is negative just stay away from this don't know stay away from ribi Akiva teaches a deeper level of consciousness it's just an opportunity to connect it's true it's what he wants for me at this moment today he wants me to dive in today wants me not to laugh the same relationship it's not focusing on my experience it's focusing on what is rottenness deeper when he sees the evil in the world what does he see he sees the spark of Holiness that's even animating that level of Darkness ultimately there's some Divinity there what's the purpose of it the purpose is just to bring to a deeper level of light to a deeper level for me what's happening now amidstv I'm giving my soul to God that's what he saw he saw complete Oneness in every single moment and here we see in the last Source the rambam starts off the mishna Torah so the last story zombie starts off the mission today is whole safer the realm starts off one of the most beautiful Allah the center of Judea the essence of Judaism the foundation could you say the third of Allah if you say that is rambams Immaculate words the foundation of Foundations the pillar of wisdoms is to know that there's a maturation there's a first primary existence and he brings into existence every existence and anything that exists from Heaven to Earth and in between did not emerge only from the truth of his existence beautifully said this is the foundation of Foundations and the pillar of wisdoms comes around them in the next and throws us on interesting curveball and if you're gonna entertain the idea that he's non-existent there's no God Amen nothing else can exist so people ask on their ambam is that exactly the seed you got to plant the opening of the whole mission idea that there's no God what do you have to mention it it's not true by the way if you're looking at me and you think that I'm a squirrel you should realize that if I was a squirrel I'm not a squirrel foreign but the truth is even if you want to say yes want to address those people there are atheists in the world but the truth is he said it in the first if he said that everything in the world exists from this existence so obviously what does that mean if not for this existence nothing else would exist and people who want to say that even with existence it doesn't prove God it happens anyway not answering their question and he says one of the explanations of depression that I'm saying something very deep he puts in the word if you would think that he is non-existent in Hebrew you could have said is talking about when you look at reality and you see things in which you can't see his existence you look at certain things you hear he's not not that there's no God he's saying something much deeper in certain things who the he that exists here he's not matsei this is too dark this is too negative this is above my pay grade this is not this is this is off says even the most difficult of situations if it exists is because he's here because every nakuda in life and reality is existing only because of the rats and the Divine energy the question is what's the nature of its existence if it's something that Hashem wants it has real existence it has Eternal existence because he's invested in it if it's something that exists because he doesn't want its existence essentially is frail it's superficial it's transitional it's temporary because what is its existence that he doesn't want it but it exists because he wants it to exist God is not here this is a part of life where God is not present the rambam says what do we call it [Music] it's going to come back because it's going to be revealed the nitsuts of Holiness even in the lowest of things so even the David you're going to see it's existing only because of the nitroats of kadusha that's animating it I don't see love even in the who is what did he see even there's Rome in the Roman Empire what did he see even hear what he saw was giving me an opportunity to fulfill the Mitzvah after this even here he saw that he saw the Oneness now you understand whether Akiva repeats I asked you why does he repeat he agrees to Rabbi Akiva because even the Hain is not like Rabbi Aqib is not only are you with small on the love he's just arguing on the hand whenever Ishmael says you say on hey what he means is positive things it's positive you feel positive so you say yes what does he mean that it's hashem's will so even the Hain is a different hand there'll be Small's hand is a Hane because if it's a positive experience it's a positive appearance that everything is in accord of hand of Oneness and practically it's an opportunity to fulfill hashem's will so of course yes yes I'm gonna do what you want love it's something negative so saying what you want and here comes the very powerful relevance of Robert akiva's message to us sometimes in life I think we can all relate to this we're faced with things that are not our first choice let's put it mildly [Music] I'll go back to my famous examples that you all know sometimes you have a child and all you hear about this child is I just made up a song I want him in my family as my son-in-law and then there's another child all you hear is what love no no no no no no no no it's like a boy told me that he was thrown out of ten yeshivas I said wow you got to go into the Guinea's Book of World Records 10. I said but why so many he looked at me he said because everybody wants me I'm like I like that I love him sometimes there's a person one love one love one but then the same is two in our own life there are experiences in life you could say hey name yes yes more more more and then there's love this is one negative and another negative and another negative and another negative and to say that they're just the same says it's two different experiences this is a Hain and this is a laugh and he says the ability for a person to be able to look at love and say this is osahen and what does it mean that this is also hey that if this is my journey if this is my mission to be able to embrace this person to be able to love this child to be able to build up this child even though it's fraught with such a with so many obstacles and it's a completely different journey and some people will say love wrong wrong Journey and the person has the ability to say no this is Hain and it's with the same simcha with the same joy that I'm going to do everything else because I'm not focusing on what my child can do for me ask not what your child can do for you ask what you can do for your child if the question is what my child can do for me you're disappointing me if the question is what I can do for my child this child needs much more so I'm going to be more present I'm going to be more fun I'm going to be more enthusiastic I'm going to be more connected I this one says it's live and this one says Love by me it's not love Italian Rebecca says this is who knows what your mission is if this is what Hashem wants I should break the Lucas I'll break if he wants me not to come back to us to lose my kingship I don't work for myself it's not about my ego I work for Hashem if this is my mission he named it this is my aim I do it with the same if he wants me not to dive in today I'll do it with the same Joy like davony it's a whole different experience you're in a dungeon You're In A Cell it smells I don't see a smell I see Hayne I also don't see smells we smell smells foreign to import the message a woman wrote me a message and she says she goes to Sharon before she was and everybody says how you have to explain how you have to fill the house with Toyota and that's a beautiful message to fill the house with Tyler of learning a target with conversations of time but gently describes to me her house and she has children struggling terribly emotionally and struggling with yiddishkite and if she mentions Torah she alienates them so she has to fill her house with things that will allow her children to stay in the house and stay close turned she says my shop is stable does not have deviator and I sit there and before us and I say this doesn't relate to me so now I'm talking to you hope you're listening and says there's a much deeper form of Martin Taylor one form of Martin title is the way it looks on the outside this is negative this is positive and says it's a deeper relationship with Taira Taira doesn't always look the same way for all people it doesn't make sense apparently how should you end something with Torah right how does it end breaking the Lucas wow great climax they both lived 120. and my also grew up among non-jews among Egyptians and this connects to our Shear before pesach remember said 50 Marcus remember the fifth level that even the fifth level can go into Exile or maybe Akiva redeems that level too that's the hiddish and therefore no Darkness eclipses him he's not afraid of any level of Darkness so abiakiva says there's a concept sometimes I have to be busy doing things that seem to be loved it's not what I should be doing it's not how I should prepare for schmoo is it's love why am I doing this the answer is if this is the schlichus that Hashem put you on him comes from the word he named me hey yes I'm here means I'm here I'm here I'm not running away I'm not disassociating I'm not even getting upset at you I'll do it with a smile and then go to my room and say wow you're such a sick kid because kids know what's happening inside the room it's a really Nanny it's a real name and the real reason is because the second idea of Akiva looks at situations and he sees you're making a mistake when you think this is light and this is Darkness it's far deeper than anybody imagines sometimes you think here God is not present for God to be present it has to look Godly it has to look holy it has to look sacred sorry Hashem is not here this is a place of bad this is a place of darkness comes around him and says that's a superficial perspective it makes we understand it we empathize with it we could feel it we understand that but that's the human limited perspective there's a deeper perspective whereby Akiva says even the deepest love is a form of hand it's an opportunity to fulfill your mission and not only that deep down from this there's going to be a growth that nobody can ever imagine you see a fox Rebecca says I'm already laughing now if you would look at it you would say recover doesn't care everybody is smashing the scene everybody is sobbing and he's standing there and laughing nobody's thought they're crying and he's on his phone reading a joke you ever see that happening there's a hopper they're singing people are crying and there's a guy on the phone and he's laughing you don't look at other people doing good there's a bridge the baby is crying you're like oh I never use then this guy is texting he's watching why why clipping crying I mean laughing so my clip not his cushion but there's also other clips you would think they're all crying or they keep his laughing so what what do most people think he doesn't care he reminded himself a joke that he heard this morning in Show the truth is it's the opposite [Music] it's not even if it didn't care everyone was more connected with the reality they're seeing destruction Arabia Akiva says there's no ultimate destruction in God's world there's a knit suits in everything there's Divinity and everything it's hidden it's dark doesn't feel good it's painful but this is even here prohibited it made something else similar that's permissible for example it says no blood liver yes and liver tastes like blood that's why cashewing liver is much harder no marrying your sister-in-law but there's a leverage marriage where they do marriage it does marry the system he says no Pig no Hazard but the shibuted there's another type of fish that tastes like especially today you go to sushi and they have already amputations of you ever see these Sushi menus crab matlabster I never tasted the originals but some say it's very good stuff so now they have imitations of everything but the gemara says this that everything there's an imitation that's permitted what's the point the point is that everything that's permissible on another level there's a permissible element there there's a spark there it's a very deep idea so to me it's forbidden like the it says there's an inner inner spark even now it's expressed in the fact that something similar is permitted surabi Akiva says even what you're looking at which is a very dark experience you should just know even if I may not always be able to feel it or understand it like rabi Akiva felt it on understand it but you should know that there's a Hain in this love and because there's a hate in this love it's not the end of the story so don't just look at the foxes and say my life is destroyed our life has destroyed our family is destroyed our future is destroyed this foxes that's what there is that's what the Baltimore said not from that sorry will be helped me men are from the Surah itself you'll be helped and then he said sorry the word Sarah is the same letters like Sayo which means a window Sara means narrowed Tsar distressed like sorrow is a problem a challenge opens up a new window the plowing of the field makes the field fertile for galula for Redemption he didn't see two things so when I'm confronting Darkness whatever it might be internal emotional physical psychological my own history my past my present my future son a loved one or whatever the situation is each person in their own life my my life is being plowed my field is being plowed there's foxes all over the place I don't like foxes some people like foxes I don't I have nothing against them as long as they stay away and why shawalem why they see foxes the gemara says in breakfast said this that foxes are the slowest of animals you know the story Papas menudo said why are you teaching Titus he said the famous Story the fish are in the ocean you remember and the facts said come out let's live in peace said foxes you're supposed to be the wisest the shrewdest of animals because foxes you know foxes they attack their prey without them noticing even the last second no other animal knows how to do that even cheetahs and lionesses they're great hunters but at the last moment the gazelle sees and they run foxes outsmart their prey till the last second so he says you're the wise you're stupid even in the ocean we don't know if we're going to live outside of the ocean Ruby Akiva said this so now come together Rebecca is the one who sees the foxes what does it mean the fox is coming out of this is even a deeper tragedy represents wisdom what's coming out of the holy of holies wisdom if you see a person going out of the holies and who's going out of the holy of holies a boar new but sometimes you see it's the facts leaving the holy of holies in other words it's the wisest and the brightest and the deepest and the most sensitive that's who's leaving the holy of holies this is a whole different level of crying this is a whole different level of pain so of course they cry comes Rebecca and says in the depth of this experience I'm telling you there's a plowing that shakes up a system but makes it fertile for real growth and when it becomes fertile for real growth it's the beginning of ideation so we come back now the arguments not only is it not about semantics it's a fundamental debate about the entire approach of a person to Terror to Mitzvahs to the relationship with life that expresses itself in so many different ways and ultimately we say because talking from The Human Experience where we do see a fox and we weep where there is pain a person can't always say I'm not going to be achieve everything is one because as we often say the way out of pain is sometimes through pain if I just deny and repress it's not always healthy doesn't mean I'm on the level of amazing it means I'm just disassociated or disconnected so bishmall says there is The Human Experience Hashem comes down into The Human Experience and then Kiva teaches us the human being was given the opportunity to ascend and to experience life from the experience of Oneness have a beautiful week and a good night we missed you last week not good oh she's an exercise with her kids yeah yeah yeah thank you I appreciate it I appreciate just to remind you again the first night of schwas just a second please next week there is a class Tuesday 9 30 a.m please tell your friends or relatives and again the night of shuis will be here in 10 gimmel at 1am Thursday Friday morning and Shabbos afternoon 6 30 everybody is invited have a beautiful meaningful inspiring and joyous yamtuff yes of course no worries we'll miss you and look at that I never noticed it before the menorah yes this minute yeah see how your eyes get opened up yeah you're very welcome Israel where you going next week I just of course you're welcome what does your phone do which name