Living With Emunah (Part 299) - Raise Your Voice

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your hand if you're not yet in the global Community he'll come over he'll help you out we got a few emails and then we got some Torah texts and uh there are Source sheets over here if you'd like to follow inside first a very heavy very uh a very powerful email hi Rabbi Gober in an email you may not want to share it's very dark but I want to write it anyway I have permission to share this we've all heard stories about how someone missed a plane that ended up crashing or didn't get the job they wanted that turned out to be the company which everyone was killed in the World Trade Center 911 my story of amuna has no such happy ending and I guess the biggest lesson in amuna comes when things don't work out almost 51 years ago my father-in-law and mother-in-law set out to walk to sh together on a shabas morning not long after they left the house my mother-in-law had to go back to the house for some important reason and the departure for sh was delayed but by no more than five minutes on the way to sh as they were walking on a sidewalk up a hill a car ran a red light and smashed into another car the second car ricocheted on the sidewalk and struck my father-in-law killing him just milliseconds before he was struck he managed to push his wife away she lived despite every bone on the right side of her body having been broken she often thought that if she hadn't had to go back to the house they would have been five minutes further up the hill far away from that car crash but she was a woman of almost surreal amuna she never once questioned Hashem never once questioned why she was widowed at the age of 45 never once questioned all the medical issues she had for the rest of her life many of which stem from the injury she sustained that day never once questioned some years later why she had to bury her only son instead she constantly focused on what she did have a family who adored and respected her children grandchildren and great-grandchildren all of whom had continued to walk to sh to be sh Mitzvah to be good people she was a role model to our whole family of acceptance hm's will seeing the good rather than focusing on the negative of deep and pure amuna her first name was Esther the child named after her EST MTZ inherited her strength in her deep amuna she also never questioned like her namesake she accepted hashem's will and had deep and pure almost surreal amuna these are examples of auna tested and tested again of two people who passed those tests with flying colors it's difficult to follow the example of these two exceptional people it is a work in progress I told you very powerful very difficult the author of this email is herself an incredible example of amuna and beloved and wonderful and inspiring and amazing we're grateful to her for writing it and giving us permission to share it and again the amuna emails of people for whom it doesn't end the way we want doesn't have happily ever after but nevertheless lean into that amuna and understand is very very very powerful and deeply deeply appreciated by us I'll share one other email and then we'll get into the text together this one a little bit lighter dear Abbi Goldberg excited to share my first amuna email I think I have the format down please modify if I don't follow your regular edits thank you so much for hosting me two weeks ago blah blah blah blah blah and me some much to me he writes blah blah blah blah blah so far so good in early January I was invited by the rabbitson into a singles event in Boer Aton from December through March I'm historically in busy season so my immediate reaction was that I'm going I'm not going to attend the week leading up to the shabbaton the reiton followed up again and I decided I would press my luck on a standby ticket the night before the flight I scoured all Delta's flights from the guardian and JFK to both foror West pal was President's weekend and it didn't look promising I decided to take my chances and book to 7: a.m. from the Guardia for lale Friday morning for those not familiar with a buddy pass ticket a park airlines offer to employees friends and family at a discounted rate the only catch is you have to show up to the gate to see if there's a seat on the plane the range of my experience is span from sitting first class to Israel to getting kicked off the plane 10 10 minutes before takeoff because a full Revenue passenger showed upwalk of shame I was fully aware that there were no guarantees with this ticket after getting to bed around 1:30 a.m. Thursday night set my alarm from 4:45 a.m. I was at the airport an hour later at 6:00 a.m. there were seven seats remaining and I was number eight security lines were long and the Clock Was ticking 6:20 a.m. two seats remaining and I number three on standby I was at gate 81 the guardian of Fort Lauderdale and gate 82 was flying to West Palm at the exact same time as I was running back and forth between the gates to see which would be a better option I was thinking about the previous sh you had given how gdam are common any state we talk about equinity calmness just going with the flow life's an adventure see where Hashem is taking us next Just go with it it was hard to relate but I smiled at the notion that it wasn't really in my control as I ran back to my original gate to check on the flight I was met by an extremely abrasive ticketing agent who was not in a helpful mood to say the least at 6:49 a.m. barash they called my name they asked anyone on the standby list to walk up to the plane but not to board as they would assign seats someone else working at the airline asked us if we had seats yet another standby passenger looked at their phone and saw they were assigned a seat so I proceeded to do the same the same aggressive ticketing agent called my name and announced one C which I knew was first class the exact same moment I looked at my phone and blurted out no 29a which was clearly coach and I clearly just bit my tongue immediately I realized my mistake and so did the agent the man looked at me with a Sinister grin pointed at me and repeated the words I had just spoken 29a needless to say the situation was upsetting I the ominous feeling that I was experiencing onshore anti-Semitism not in Europe and the Guardia here in New York there was nothing I could do about it perhaps I was just extra sensitive after October 7th not to be misconstrued that my troubles by traveling for leisure in any way are comparable to the situation as I made my way to the seat I said Hashem I don't see the good in this right now but obviously you do in other words the agent was about to award him first class when he looked up and saw who it was he changed him and put him in the back 29a coach I thanked hasm for getting a seat on the plane at all but the palpable frustration overshadowed part of the excitement due to the Heat of the Moment I realized I forgot to look at the ticking agent's name to report the incident and not above being a carar when the situation calls for it the expression resentment is like drinking poison hoping it will hurt someone else popped in my head so I asked hasm take a Revenge not for me but for his covo about 20 minutes after takeoff I got up to use the restroom nothing worse than a window seat on a plane the person sitting next to me wearing a keepa fell asleep and the aisle seat was empty at the time I climbed over the armrest to get out out and back in the passenger assigned the aisle seat was also returning to their seat and said wow it's a good thing we're all Jews in this row that you can get away with that I smiled as I did not expect that response he didn't look Jewish based on his attire we struck up a conversation and he asked me if I was about to put on Fillin as he saw me taking it out of my napsack I mustered up the courage and asked him if he wanted to put on fill and to my surprise he smiled and said sure I can't began to tell you what that felt like I watched this man put an Fillin place an airline napkin on his head to make a braa wrap his Fillin in Davin for his father-in-law's 70th birthday party in Florida to go well it was the sweetest Revenge while that ticking agent thought he was punishing me Hashem clearly orchestrated this and the answer to Mya was revealed shortly thereafter for so many reasons I love taking these standby tickets one the price two there's always a good story to follow and three I always walk away feeling like Hashem is giving me a nod so many aspects of our lives are on standby Health financial success the war in Israel so manyas feel like they're stuck just waiting at the gate for me this was a classic archetype or frustration the time I said to Hashem would you rather me have the first class seat and Dav Bas now I have to go put my out over the overhead compartment climb over people out of my seat sit in a place for shim I would do such a good job if you gave me this job this promotion this sh this lot in life 29a in my humble opinion turned out to be a much better seat than one C it was a good reminder and a great way to go into a of shabas to close I will co-mingle my compliments to you with your other half which will hopefully force you to have to read it out loud thank you for the years of amuna ammunition through the Doran life lessons May the sh continue blah blah blah the warmth Hospitality intricate level of DEA went into that chabus and single shabbaton was undeniable and the impression that it left was indelible with much gratitude Anonymous okay I'll tell you one more not an email but we experienced y I had a wedding in New York on Sunday a dear friend of ours and of the Amun our dear friend Ben we'll call him Ben the sadic uh insisted on picking us up and taking us around we had to go through Brooklyn which meant I had to bring my passport and get a visa to go through uh to go through Brooklyn and we stopped we want to go see a special uh visit and parking is not always easy in Brooklyn if you haven't been to Brooklyn some say I did not make this up and I don't say it but some say that BRS stands for the Brooklyn Recovery Society not mine don't blame me save the angry email just repeating what the people from Brooklyn say but anyway parking is very very hard to find in Brooklyn but I want to tell you why Ben is Ben had sadic I love Ben because when spots opened up for us just when we needed them which was amazing on a very time tight line on a very tight timeline that's not when Ben said it was a micro amuna moment Hashem is amazing it's when we were about to pull out each time and somebody saw that and got so excited that they were gonna find a spot that Ben said isn't it amazing to give someone their amuna moment that person circling or looking or waiting or desperate to find the parking spot and that's what makes Ben amazing it was such a radical paradigm shift from waiting for our amuna moments to getting excited to give someone else their amuna moment like I have to leave right now not doing it for them but from their perspective this empty spot is going to be there Hashem revealing himself to them isn't it amazing to get to take part in to be a part of someone else's amuna moment that's what makes Ben fantastic that and he actually has a sweatshirt with my face on it which is ridiculous my wife is trying to confiscate it from him so in any case I'm Gonna Save for next time an incredible article that came across my desk I'll just read the title to you for next week I'm sorry to have to announce that my cancer situation has developed not necessarily to my advantage this is an article by a a young person a way too young person but who is focused on the good and finding God even in their challenge I'll save it for you next week what you have in front of you myv myv and again please speak to Jeffrey during the she after the she we welcome and invite and need your support we have a $50,000 matching we're at 100,000 our goal is 200,000 some generous 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metaphor and there's a big debate do we even translate or read it art scroll was controversial to some when art scroll if you look in your if you look in your M your P if you look in an art scroll tanak you will see they do not literally they do not translate sh literally why because kazal told us that it was never meant to be understood literally the literal translation which if you know Hebrew well you can't help but have at your fingertips I always think to myself even young children in Israel open a tanak and read and they understand exactly the sort of graphic physical descriptions that are being offered you can't avoid the literal translation if you speak Hebrew fluently but artso translates it metaphorically because that is the only way it was meant to be interpreted some thought that this you know classic Arts girl move it's wrong can't leave mikra but of salich entirely agreed he didn't agree with art scroll his opinion preceded art scroll but the RV entirely agreed that it's only meant to be understood metaphorically allegorically and indeed to translate it literally is to distort the actual meaning of Shir so even though it reads like a love story and it reads as this beautiful courtship and this longing and this waiting and this Mitch Match it's not till deep into Shir that the do and the ray finally find each other finally find each other we call it the ultimate love story and you'd think that it begins with this romantic love at first sight smooth sailing set The Wedding Date everything's amazing standing at the happily ever after it's not the do and the r it is these two individuals who fall in love and yet they're mismatched they're mistimed they can't get their act together he comes knocking on the door desperate for her attention she can't get out of bed she comes out dancing in the fields and he is only peering between the cracks of the f it's not the time the time is not right they're constantly missing each other and it's only it's only later and if we understand this metaphorically sh is really telling us that amuna is not linear and amuna is not easy and Amun is not perfect but Amun is a series of ups and downs of of finding our moment and it's not a simple Faith but it takes work and it takes effort so why is it the holy of holies the ultimate metaphor that our relationship with Hashem is likened to two people in love romance and and electricity and the love between a man and a woman the answer is we have many metaphors for our relationship with Hashem in tanak in the Torah the one hand God is our father we are as children God is also our master and we are his servant God is a king and we are his subjects and there's also the metaphor of the husband and wife the man and the woman who are in Love of All Those metaphors in fact it's not that we have a world that has husbands and wives and parents and children and kings and subjects and Masters and slaves so then we say oh that's so interesting we have all those relationships let's apply them to God it's the opposite says God looked into the Torah and then created the world so he said I want I want them to relate to me but I'm I'm omnipotent I'm infinite I'm perfect I'm Eternal how will they relate to me they're finite they're fallible so I know I have to create a world that has relationships that can then serve as a metaphor so the whole reason that there is a world that has a notion of parents and children which God could have conceived a world that operated differently but the whole reason that there's a world that is designed and built on the notion that there are parents and children is so that as parents we can relate to God's love for us as children we can relate to what it means to be a child of God so each of the relationships and metaphors are there to serve us to be able to connect to him in those different ways so which is the ideal which is the ideal when we are at our best when we're at our highest level which is the ideal to relate to God as a master and subject and a master and servant a king and subject a parent and child a husband and wife that's what the Mish means the highest level it is that love it is that yearning it is that longing it is that attraction it is that romance that's what it means the ram writes the ra writes that that's what is that there is an insatiable lust and desire and thirst to know God to know God we can't know God physically we know God intellectually emotionally we know him through his diary the Torah we know him through his world Swiss Alps biology chemistry physics but we use that same word knowledge to describe the ultimate connection with a person in Torah in Biblical Hebrew there is no word for for intimacy the intimate connection of a husband and wife is called knowledge is to know the other person to know them biblically because what it means that relationship and that physical intimate connection is supposed to be singular and exclusive and shared only with that one person in such a way that one is exposing themselves quite literally and gaining a familiarity and a connection and an intimate connection with the other that is exclusively shared between them and that's what that's what intimacy means intimacy is exclusive singular not shared not available not accessible to the world but something that's why we're living in a world that I don't want to digress but there's such a struggle for intimate connection today failures of marriages and there failures of other relationships because when there's no Paras we're reading now about the mishk the Mish was designed with the utensils and blocking covering the Kesh and the holy of holies was a Paras was a curtain salich writes that the Paras we have to have a holy of holies of our life which is not revealed and accessible that we don't post on social media that we don't stream on our phone while sitting at carpool in front of our steering wheel we don't have to share every thought every emotion every experience if we share everything with the world then nothing is held back nothing is private nothing is personal nothing is exclusive that means intimacy intimacy is not just physical intimacy is emotional if I tell my girlfriends everything I tell you if I share with my buddies everything I say to you then you're just my roommate you you we just have a business relationship it has to be there are things I tell you I confide in you I make myself vulnerable to you that I wouldn't and I don't tell anyone else in the world so physical intimacy emotional intimacy they go together and they're all about intimacy they're about having a Paras they're about having a curtain that protects our KES and our KES that there's that which we share with the whole world the there's that the E EZ is e they are the parts of our lives that we share with the whole world so post if you want whatever dessert you had who car post if you want whatever occasion you're marking but experiences thoughts emotions that are personal that are private the more exclusive we share the more meaningful they are the more intimate the yield the relationship will be with the person that we shared it with too and when a person walks around undressed in any state physically connected to anyone sharing every emotional naked emotionally to the whole world then then they can't have an intimate connection with anyone that's the result and the more that we have a par there's a curtain is that which I Shar there that which I hold back physically emotionally spiritually then the more the emot the intimate connections that we can have including with Hashem so our connection to Hashem the the intimate the knowledge the Ra's description of Love of hem is that a person will feel a an insatiable thirst an appetite a lust a desire a drive a TAA to know Hashem not to know him intimately physically to know him intimately through knowledge Hashem says here's my diary called the Torah that's your access to know me intimately and the more that we also let God in as if he needs our help he knows everything anyway but the more that we let him in so we say to Hashem we talk to Hashem not just in the sitter outside the sitter as I always say you can't talk to Hashem with the sitter if you never talk to him without it you won't talk to God well in sh if you never talk to him outside of sh so the more that outside of SCH are not from the sitter we're talking to Hashem and we're telling him our dreams and our feels and our disappointments and our failures and our hopes and our aspirations and we're we're intimately investing in him in ways maybe we don't with anyone else because he knows anyway and asking him for help in struggles that maybe nobody else on the whole planet knows then we left with a really intimate connection with hasem that's that's knowledge that's that's oh that was just the parenthesis okay so the says me hear your voice a crisis a struggle a challenging time is the medium it's the driver that pushes us to dive into god is perfect and infinite he has no needs but he chooses to depict himself to us through anthropomorphic terms meaning in ways we can relate and identify God doesn't have an outstretched arm God doesn't get angry he doesn't have nostrils that flare he doesn't have emotions he's infinite omnipotent he's God but yet he chooses to describe himself in these ways because that is what we relate to so God Miss he desires and he Longs and looks forward to artos meaning as parents let's go to the other metaphor not husband and wife as parents is there nothing better than when your child's name comes up on the caller ID I mean it may depend on their age and stage of life it could have to do with your wallet you know or their debit card or what's not left on it but particularly adult child married child a child in life who is not calling necessarily because at that moment they need something sign me out of school give me your credit card you know buy me this thing on Amazon not that not that non-married children don't also are only call for that reason or not that married children don't also call for those reasons but when you see your it's the greatest thing in the world when your child reaches out when your child calls you when your child is ready to tell you and unburden themselves and and invest in the relationship by telling you in sort of an intimate way this is a struggle here's something I'm working on here's something I'm going through and can you help me mommy ABA I'm telling you I'm turning to you I'm telling not a lot of people feels the same way he's he loves he Longs for he waits for our daving when we turn to him we say that's nice but let me also tell you what's really going on let me tell you where I need your help let me tell you what I'm frustrated what I'm angry what I'm grateful for let me tell you what I'm struggling with I can't tell anyone else in the world nobody else understands me but you made me you created me you designed me and I can I tell you what I'm struggling with with shame where I fail and come up short with hope how I hope to change and with yearning why I need your help can I tell you Hashem can I tell you and lean into you during a crisis that there's no one and nothing else in the world that can save me but you and I need you I need you says what our rabbis the Jewish people were enclosed on three sides three sides the walls were caving in namely the Egyptians were in Pursuit the sea blocked them in front the animals the wild animals were all over the desert there was nowhere to go there was nowhere to [Music] turn that Sarah the crisis the situation is not the goal the goal of the situation is that God wakes us up he jars us he startles us he moves us think about how October 7th was and is an enormous disruption to our lives it was a disruptor the question is what do we do with it co was a disruptor and we made all kinds of promises and as soon as Co was over we went right back weddings are the way they were and the people who for the first time in their lives had to make pesak at home and never did before said you know this was the nicest pesak yet I'm gonna do this forever until next pesak and so many other examples of what you know the time in our homes and with our families this was amazing and I'm gonna keep it up until we didn't there are disruptions disruptions come into our lives and they break up the momentum that was carrying us forward the question is what do we do with that disruption during the disruption DAV from the depths of our being during the disruption it's obvious that we need him but then the disruption ends and where are we then are we still turning to him surrendering to him submitting to him leaning on him focused on him or do we forget him do we forget those promises and do we move on why does he send these disruptions to wake us up and to be mindful and thoughtful and analytical in evaluating our lives and what we want to adjust or change or pivot and adopt into our lives that's the reason but so Jewish people left and they're out of Egypt 210 Years of Slavery subjugation suffering 210 years of Oppression and persecution Hashem makes 10 plagues gets them out and he wants to hear from them he wants them to say something so he asked to wake them up and say hey hello that was me I'm here I did it because I want to take you to the mountain and I want to give you my diary and I want to take this relationship to the next level because I'm going to lift that mountain over your head it's going to be a hi I want to get engaged and I want to get married but before we can get married we need to work a little bit on our communication I would love to hear from you I want you to confide in me I want you to trust me I want you to let me in I want you to expose yourself to me talk to me but how is he going to get them to do that with a big fat disruption and you know what that disruption is being closed in on three sides the walls of three sides closing in and how did they respond that's the the dove in the crack of the of the rock says let me hear your voice you're barely holding on you're in the Clift of the rock you feel like you're gonna fall and plummet let me hear your voice let me hear and this is what what turned to the of the during the war and he said this is what we need to know in this crisis we can't mail in our daving don't just unload a bunch of words don't just recite a liturgy and a template realize you're talking to the almighty you're begging you're beseeching you're pleading he is the one he is the only one he does it through his holy Messengers our IDF soldiers are his holy holy holy heroic Messengers that's who he's doing it through that's who he's doing it through but it's him and only him only him we were and I were in our satellite beus West for chabas which is housed in the Kiva high school and in the lobby in the entrance of the beautiful School the posters of the hostages are hanging the ones who are home they're removed and it says returned tragically ones we've learned lost their lives but you know I haven't seen those posters in those faces in a while I just haven't come across them and it disrupted me it startled me I stopped while walking by them on chabas and I just looked at some of their faces and I thought to myself it's five months they're underground they're tortured they're assaulted they're abused us the denied medicine deprived food who knows the conditions they're living in how if we really looked into the face the bias baby we're talking children elderly and if we really look at those pictures and we contemplate and think about what is still happening every minute every hour every day we can't let fatigue set in doin can't become root or stale tah hilum can't become someone else's problem to recite it has to disrupt us every time there has to be an outrage and the outrage channeled into turning to the only one who can bring them home now again the shinb and the mosad and the soldiers and the security forces and the leadership who have the courage to say go do it of course Hashem will orchestrated through Heroes giborim whom we are so indebted to but all the plan and all of the attempts and all the training can't and won't work the opportunity won't present itself unless he says so so we must with a enormous sense of outrage channeled into pleading with Hashem not bring them home but let them go let us rescue them let them out a tragedy and a crisis the bedside of a sick child can cause someone to say where are you and I don't believe in you and I'm out of here or to lean in and say I got some issues with you we're gonna have to talk later but right now in addition to the doctors and the experts you are the one who can I need you we need you there is no one else the reason or part of the reason or what we can get out of the reason is the connection with Hashem to lean in through that to ask ourselves and to ask hasem in every crisis and situation essentially what he's saying is not only get me out of this but what can I get out of this not only get me out of this but what can I get out of this and every crisis what we can get out of it is a more intimate relationship with hem said the same thing why were our matriarchs baren they struggled to conceive these are the most righteous women if anyone deserved to be rewarded with conceiving easily with fertility it should have been these women and if anyone who would be worthy mothers who would transmit to the Next Generation and raise the greatest children it would be these women so they are the greatest candidates for conceiving easily and yet they all struggle to conceive and our rabbis wonder why and they conclude it's not a punishment for these women it's because says their they heartfelt heartfelt authentic genuine real radical filos are what he's waiting for what this world needs and what will inspire and motivate and what will elicit it will be the pain of infertility he's so when in a crisis if all we say is get me out of this then we're missing the point of the crisis it's not only also but not only get me out of this it's what can I get out of this how can I lean in and come closer to you how can I Surrender and submit to you how can I recognize you're in charge you're in control this is you what's the way out these hostages how are they coming home we've been waiting five months for the inbi rescue to wake up to that news we got a miracle there was nothing short of a miracle if you read the account of the hostages that were rescued those way too few it was miraculous courageous and miraculous but we're waiting five months every day every hour every minute we're waiting and one can't help but come to the conclusion that there is only only you hasem there's no one to lean on but you so we're gonna get closer on the wall to lean on it because when we try to lean on the wall we're standing in the middle of the room we fall flat on our face and if we want to lean on a we have to be close to him and near him because if you try to lean on him but you're not standing near him you fall flat on your face we have to fight we have to Advocate we have to donate we have to supply we have to vote we have to write letters we have to do all of those things but all of those things are only mediums that Hashem says you do your part which one will work he'll decide but he's the one who will Green Light he will greenl it the same way the shin the mad and the d f and the border patrol all came to the Prime Minister and said we think we have a plan to go in and rescue those hostages but if he says too risky we're not doing it it doesn't happen we are doing all of our hisas butm is the one who has to greenl it whether it will work or not whether it will yield the results or not whether it will be effective or not it's all up to Hashem so the most important part of our repertoire the most important part of our toolbox of all the things that we are doing out of outrage because we look into the faces of these hostages and it cannot be and it cannot continue is it has to be to lean on Hashem to turn to him to talk to him more authentically than ever before I don't just mean add daving to your day I also mean that of course but I'm talking about outside the sitter I'm talking about between the lines of the I mean from the bottom of your heart to picture the faces of the hostages to think about our soldiers our boys you know friend of mine a good friend of mine I know for many years and I went to Yeshiva with his nephew was among the seven soldiers who yesterday or two days ago were attacked and were severely injured so when you see the news a soldier was injured you don't say well thank God he wasn't killed the casualties were only or there weren't any today just injuries I want to tell you what injury means injury means for this soldier that his surgery was successful but he lost one leg above the knee one leg below the knee lost one hand and the thumb on the other hand and I want you to picture the rest of the life of this young man who lost a whole leg part of his other leg a hand and a thumb and that buried somewhere buried somewhere at the end of the website is a soldier was injured that's what these thousand thousands and thousands when we talk about our injured that's what we're talking about we're injured that's what we're talking about and you want to know I24 news.tv has the number of injured every day wounded is up to 14,490 so when we talk about injured 14,400 we're talking about thousands and thousands like this young man that pleased Davin for him to get his Hebrew name that's what it means to be injured that's what his life is like now if that doesn't make you daving from the depth of your being if that doesn't make you outraged to want to personally pick up a gun and go into Gaza I don't know what would and that's no fatigue can set in that's where we're holding that's what we have to do that's what this is war is still going on right now it can't get old don't stop don't slow down it can't for the soldiers and it can't for us and what was saying not in a peace time and not in a time of of prosperity but he was saying in the Yum Kipper War which is as dire as it is now and he turned to the mirror and he turned to all of us and he said that the tus of what we're going through is is to realize is waiting to hear our voice and right as we finish right now everyone's invited to stay we're gonna say to and I'm saying this and it's not just for B hyperbole to try to guilt you into staying we don't know which person taking on one more per ofum is going to save the leg of which Soldier we don't know he's waiting to hear our voice that it matters to us that we care enough to stay for three more minutes and say to him also to write a letter to wherever we need to write follow your status that day you'll find out where you should write your letter and direct your outrage also donate dig deeper give even more also all the other things that we do but we don't know which extra chapter of tah hilum that we take on we don't know which our CS our our angst our pain when we see that headline when we see that number go up it should never go up again we don't know how that will translate to hasem our father hearing it and saying enough I'm ready it's over I'm ready to finally take care of this and give closure to this war so that's what we're going for that's this is on us this is on us this is our part these are our front lines fatigue can't set in we have to keep going we'll pick up with the rest of this piece he took us out of Egypt for this we'll talk about this because it will lead us into to this is what it's all about when we go through these times it's not only about you know the soldiers and the military and the anti-semites and the and the cancel it's also what about the that's that's following all this down here but there's something going on up here and that's where we need to live is not only down here we need to live up here as well please if you haven't yet BRS online.org Global should be a day filled with Botto