Maamar Mekoshesh 5713 #4: Try to Understand, but Remain in Flow With the Infinite

Foreign speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech. [Music] Okay. Huh. Yeah. [Music] I love coming up. [Music] We're good to go. Okay. Beautiful. Welcome everybody. A month of victory. Real victory. Huh? Amen. Amen. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Amen. So in the middle of the you have a midbar where they found the wood chopper of the ofl 1953. We're in the middle of the fifth chapter of the mimer in these copies. It's on page eight. It's middle of page eight. The middle of Hey. Huh? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. There's copies on the BIM if anybody wants the shorts on the bim. You could take Yeah. Today's class is graciously dedicated by Ley Kaplan in honor of all the pained souls seeking healing. May they find comfort and consolation. Yes. Amen. And thank you very much. That's a very very meaningful dedication. and relevant to so many of us. I also want to say that is Shabas I'm here Shabas is giml the 32nd the 31st yard side of the rebber so Shabas afternoon in the house of Rab M which is like a 10-minute walk from here 10 15 minute walk from here there is a uh he's made he has Barash a big residence there'll be a big Fabangan and Shaludus 6:45 M by him followed by Fabangan everybody is invited it's for men and women. Huh? Followed by Maidv. That's this Shabas Hashem at 6:45 in his home. We'll post uh there's a shortcut from here that's pretty fast from Rabbi Ratenberg's show is just like uh I think like six seven minutes. So we'll post a shortcut on the WhatsApp group. So whoever wants to come, you're invited to come. this shop this afternoon 6:45 M followed by uh Fabrean and Mos home everybody's invited okay so we we learned I think three sham on the mimer it's very very deep mimer and uh like every mimer I'm middle of shei I'm not going to go through the whole mime that we learned now even a summation because it's going to be the whole sh everybody could hear it whoever wants to hear it and retrieve it it's on the yeshiva.net connect with the source sheets but just to understand the heim the continuation and the sequence of ideas and the flow the m began with the story at the end of parish the famous story of the mash it's a strange story it comes like out of nowhere the Jews are in the midb and suddenly there's somebody who's desecrating shabas the word that's used is mkish it's a very strange word It's not a regular word. And how do you know it's not a regular word? Because you see the there's a huge argument. What happened? Everybody has a different opinion. One opinion is he was chopping wood. He had an axe or other instrument and he was chopping wood. Basically, he was cutting down a tree which is forbidden on chapas kit. You're not allowed to harvest of any form. Another explanation is he was actually carrying the wood. is a public domain thousands millions of Jews and he was carrying wood on Shabas not in if you walk and you carry four cubits in around six feet between six and 8 feet it's a violation of shabas another opinion is he was gathering wood he took wood and logs and he made piles out of them bundles out of them which is another probition on shabas it's called mame it's three for it's 39 one is you're not let it carry from public domain to private domain from private domain to public domain in a public domain walk for another is harvesting another malik is m is not harvesting if you have apples that fell off your tree and you take you make piles out of it right you take stalks of wheat and you make bundles out of it alum sheav that's mhammed it's a separate it's a separate malik Which one was it? You look different. Everybody has different interpretations. But the dean nominator is that it was a shabas connected to connected to to wood connected to trees etc. The zak though comes and says it's a whole different thing. Zya says Mkish means he was compare he was he was comparing trees he tes mish from the word heish it's a very interesting idea heish means when you compare one thing to another thing in g it's brought a lot the word is hekish to compare juxtapose compare was he was comparing trees he wanted to know if he should make his kitchen from maple wood the mahogany wood so he was comparing the two trees for his balabus to know which wood will be better. So the z says and is there the tree of life there's the tree of knowledge from the original garden of kava and he was mish and the words is laid the asra to know which one is greater that's what he was doing mkishates Make is also to bang. Yeah. Which he's saying banging on the wood. Seeing uh which one is going to endure more. Yeah. Yeah. Like people come they bang the wood. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. People sometimes before they build with wood they take the wood they slam it down. They want to see not a Yeah. Could be also. And also according to the literal interpretation that he cut the trees he's also banging mish makkesh is to bang. He was knocking on the tree to to to fell to fell the tree to to detach the wood. But this of course it's not the literal interpretation. But what's the idea here? Why was he doing it? What was the point? How is it connected to the literal interpretation? What's the meaning of this? Why is the penalty so serious? That was the beginning of the m for this. He said, you have to understand whatas. Of course, whenever you want to understand these things, you got to go back to the beginning. What's so everybody knows it says in that there's a tree of life and there's a tree of das a tree of knowledge of good and and bad. But it's interesting that the translates the definition of this tree it's a tree of that gives d that whoever eats from this tree knows how to separate like knows how to be mafish how to separate between good and bish means in Aramaic bish is evil negativity buchin a person this gives you das to separate between good and bad. If so, the asks this eight is a blessing. This is what you want to give every child in the world. You want to give every leader in the world. You want to give every person in the world. Let everybody eat from this tree to have this awareness and know the difference between good and evil. Wow. That's what you hope for all the people that are close to you. You hope for yourself that you know the difference as he puts it. Um The whole the whole purpose of is to be able to separate between to make those like we say indah to be able to separate on every in every aspect in your mind in your heart in your behavior. This is the whole not only is it not a sin, it would seem like a blessing. You should be rewarded for this type of uh consumption and this is what the tig translates. So from here you see that itself is not raadas itself is an of kadusha as he puts it. It's badreas. It's in the world of kadusha. And that's why when you eat it, you separate between good and not good. So that's already a big big idea, a very powerful idea. And this explains why it's in Ganeden. Ganeden is a place that's not so you remember it's allergen is allergic to it's a place that's not doesn't tolerate. That's why to get into Ganeden, a person has to be clean. Can't go into Ganeden with my dirty laundry. It's just it's not going to work. It doesn't attach. It doesn't it doesn't allow it. The ganaden is a place of clarity. There's certain things in life. There's certain spaces. Ganed represents a space that you can't experience. It in a a place of shea. It's just not going to happen. You have to remove all the shea. Reminds me of a story. Tell me an interesting story. I heard it from he knew apparently he knew who the person was. He didn't say a name. He said there was once a baker. apparently or whatever is connected to he went on to the labba probably in the 1960s he remembered the story and the reb asked him a question about his life and he answered so he said the rebba told him from gay two sheer So go out, remove your garments of falsehood and when you're ready, you can come back in. So you have used to call already used to call and before ganed it's brought in kabal panu says ganed is not just a space ganed is a state of consciousness right ganed is also here is also here so ganed is a space that doesn't tolerate clip it doesn't tolerate coverups it just doesn't it doesn't go there it it buzz es, you know, the fire alarm goes off. You know, you say something uh it's the ultimate lie detector just doesn't work. It's it's it's it's it's you know, go somewhere else, you know, go to the United Nations and then preach, you know, become a writer for the New York Times and then you can say what you want. It just the whole betas of Ganaden is not it spits you out. You can't live there unless I'm completely clean. That's why to get into Ganeden one needs to go through a process. The fact is lives comfortably in ganed he's there he grows Adam can eat from him. So from this is that's interesting from his not the says that you separate. So why what do we have against the a big mitzvah the is that from the which is through many through many developments and evolutions they can come out an but nonetheless through which means through many developments through an evolution called which is a chain in which things develop one from another the result can be negative creativity and that's why for the eight there was severe consequences negative consequences for Adam and all of their descendants and the entire world and so forth. This is about a strange thing. What do you mean it's kadusha? But you're saying from it what happens from many evolutions that could be of how does that work? If it's in a madre of kadusha, it's a madre of kadusha right that needs a lot of explanation. In other words, and it's an in it's idea in life. Sometimes something in a particular space, it's fine. But what comes out of it can be negative. Even though this particular thing right now, it seems innocent and pure and it's expressing itself in an innocent innocent way. But you have to understand the potentiality. What is at the seed? What is at the seat of this? So this is really how the mimemer what the mimemer is developing and for this he begins a whole long explanation which started in civ gimmel and the way he puts it is that there's two tracks there's two streams there's two pathways in avoid sasha it's a very uh interesting beginning of an explanation it's not just a detail there's two different ways in avoida and these two paths go through the whole mimer And he says that these two paths exist in avoid in every aspect of it. They exist in the emotional world. They exist in the hisbus the contemplation awareness and meditation that brings the avoid and they even exist in the spheris in the divine attributes and qualities and characteristics that are the source of the source of this. So it's like really two states, two streams. The way he defines it is literally a within limitations and finitness and a beyond limitations and finitness. And the point is the way to artic one way to articulate it is it's really a very it's a very deep question in the person himself and that is am I stuck and I'm using the word stuck or better better it could be stuck am I do I exist do I operate from a consciousness of finitness of course my own finitness my own limitation which seems to make sense We're all limited people. We're mortal. We're frail. People who think they're infinite, uh, you know, it could be dangerous if you're you think you're a bird and you jump off a tree, you may end up like the Moses. I think both. I'm I'm invested in a consciousness of of limitedness and therefore my entire my relationship with myself with others with Hashem with Yiddish is in that path of Allah and that's where I remain I remain so I may peek out I may connect we're talking here we're talking we're talking we'll see but it's I'm only in touch with myself as a limited creature and therefore all my work and my interactions and my relationships come from that space. That's the paradigm. That's the foundation upon which everything is built. There's a different which means a person recognizes that even though my soul comes into a body which is physical and limited and that's important to understand and recognize but that's the journey. It's not the essence. The journey is to work through hbala not to become mu. We're we're limited because our infinite souls were sent into a place of finitness, not because they're essentially finite. And it's a it's a difference of extremes. In one, my consciousness is a consciousness of infinity of a but it's not infinity the way it exists in a world of infinity. It's a that was sent on a that was sent on a very very intense mission into a world where infinity doesn't even seem to exist. A world that's completely about finitness and ego in which basically I dedicate my life to protect myself. Huh? Yeah. Mamish setting up an embassy in uh Yeah. Setting up an embassy. Yeah. In a very very foreign culture and maybe enemy culture. And then your children already don't know that sometimes that they're not that they're they think they're part of that. Right? The truth of life is that the soul is infinite. But it comes into a space where it can easily completely exper I'm talking experientially not be in touch with who it is. On the contrary, it takes on all of the properties and all of the all of the the garments of finitness and that becomes my identity. I don't even know anything else. That's the level of consciousness I'm in touch with. Now of course each one of these levels has you know very very many aspects to it and many gradations but this is the nuda in many ways the idea of finitness is that I remain constrained I remain confined in a box that box is called ego ego doesn't necessarily mean I'm an arrogant disgusting obnoxious person as we often say ego could sometimes look like insecurity. It's also ego. It's a different type of ego. Both are easing God out. It means I'm not an expression of infinity. Here I'm very small and here I'm very big. But it's the same thing. I'm out of sync. Here everybody should have ramanus on me because I'm the number one loser of society or the number one victim of society. And here I have ramanus on anybody. Everybody else because I'm superior to everybody. I'm all the first ego used to be the the the big ego used to be very popular. Today there's a the other ego is more popular and it's not it's not it's not it's not a question of blame it's it's a question of energy where the person really is how I'm experiencing life and in every aspect this comes out and he brings a lot of examples you have it the way you d the way you give the way you help people yeah he gives an examples person he does a checklist The first guy does the checklist. Everything is fine. He divins. He checklist pays up his debt. I paid up my debt as they say in Yiddish. I'm done. I'll see you when I have to see you for now. It's I did my job. The same is true with the same is true with it's from a space of scarcity. As he says, it's a place of scarcity. The same is true even in emotions. Now he went through the whole system of different types of different types of there's a love but in the love it's it's good for me and then there's love it's it's really good. I could really see you if I see only myself because I'm I'm in touch only with my finitness. So I could connect to you in a way that it suits me, it fits me. It lifts me up. Which right now may be a beautiful thing. But in a year from now or a month from now or sometimes an hour from now, you may be in a different place. There may be a better distraction and suddenly my love changes. The same is true with fear. He said, right? This fear of punishment and fear of sin. Fear of punishment is what it's going to do to me. Fear of sin is that much worse than what it's going to do to me. The Indian Betsim is is is not good. Yeah. Huh? What? What do you mean? Yeah. And then he went deeper. The way it's the his that brings to the herish there's that that's in lush that you can grasp and there's the that's one person is looking always to control. I want to have some form of control even over God. I want to understand the picture. Huh? Yeah. And and you do what you need. And and the truth is there's a there's so there's so much in the world that we could can appreciate and comprehend but it could become a trap. I remain stuck there becomes the parameter like we spoke at length means that there's things that are in our different versus a person who knows that the real bliss the real experiences in complete surrender because real surrender means that I'm a channel for infinity that's what surrender means surrender not from weakness from strength there is surrender from weakness because I I'm so finite and I'm so scared and then the surrender on the contrary. You're not afraid to surrender everything because what's going to show up is your truth. You don't have to protect anything. When you don't have to protect anything, it means you have something that can't be obliterated. So you don't have to protect it. You don't have to be defensive. [Music] If somebody tells me something and it pokes me in such a powerful way and it triggers me so much, it's always a question of what what just happened. You know, how was the balloon punctured so easily? How fragile is it? It's extremely fragile. And a person has to be able to be aware of that. So right now, I may be inspired. I may have love to you. I may have awe. I may have reverence. But he said essentially it's vulnerable because it's capturing things in a way that makes sense to me and work for my system today but tomorrow there could be a lot of distraction. There could be something else that comes up that captures me or hijacks me in a different way. And he went deeper and deeper and deeper. You go through the m even there's different levels of mach and so on and so forth. And then he discussed that all of these different levels exist even in the he spoke the way it's in the way it's in the way it's all the mas and from this came the conclusion in that the of a person when it's always been which means I'm not ready to crack open the nut. I'm not ready to crack open the shell. I should say somebody told me yesterday that there was abset there was a there was there was a Ra who was eulogizing somebody at Alva he didn't have the best English he meant well so he wanted to bring out to the even though the goof died the is still here the nish is not is not dead is so he tells the he says the husk was cracked and removed, but the nut is still here. Yeah. And some said good gaz. Yeah. Right. So when I just said cracking the nut, I remembered this. I don't want to be cracked open. I want I want the nut, but I want the nut in the shell. I want it in my mid of it's not recognizing your own infinity which means that you're a channel for Hashem's infinity because that's what it means your own infinity it's not your own infinity is never your own infinity is the one thing that I can't own the moment I try to hijack it and make it mine it's not infinite it's gimm infinity doesn't lend itself to be hijacked to be controlled the moment you control it it's not it it's that which fits in so this is a very very uh deep shift of consciousness When a person goes from a space of I'm finite and therefore I have to make God finite and therefore my relationships are finite and therefore my emotions are finite and therefore what I relate to and what I think about are things that my finite my finitness can relate to. So I remain small, safe and in control and protect it. And I peek out from my shell very very carefully with tremendous vigilance to make sure that the nut doesn't get cracked. the nut doesn't escape and nobody cracks the nut to so somehow make me fragile and vulnerable and in danger and I could live that way and even my is protected by that and I could go and if I'm a successful person in business and if I have maybe a good head and I'm successful in learning I can even look in the mirror and say this is a success story huh is good. Yeah. And if all the kids make it through the system, then your mish can already write your own poman whatever. The halal is not enough for you. Huh? Yeah. Yeah. realm begins means that the person has the it's the courage it's tremendous courage to be able to crack open the shell and actually experience real freedom. That's freedom. Because what freedom really means is freedom to be who you really are. And that's the only real path to bliss and to the the the antithesis of anxiety is when the person is aligned. When the person is what we call in English in flow in flow of what? In flow of reality. Reality is not finite. Reality is infinite. Infinite reality is sometimes expressed through logical formulas. this bina this d it's one of the spheres of hashem no question and sometimes it's a and it's a tremendous gift to use when appropriate but an equally tremendous gift is to say now this is not your domain this is now now we're going to go through a doorway that you can't go through right it says in time difference of and a is never afraid of if a is afraid of It's it's probably stupid. It's probably stupid to believe it. Look for a different thing to believe in. Am is not afraid of it's not does it's not the same frequency. Seah can take you to a certain space like can take you till the door till the thresh of the door and then tells you I can't go any further. I would love to but I can't. I have my walls. I have my limitations. I can't take you anywhere else. I could take you to where I can take you. This is my this is how I roll. This is my identity. You can't ask a horse to come with you to a concert and appreciate the concert or come with you to an art gallery and appreciate the art. You have to know what the horse is and who he is. Doesn't have the kushim for it. Doesn't have the kum for it. Seel can experience things that are logical. You can't eat cake with your brain. You could think about cake but it's not called you eat cake with your taste buds. Yeah. You can't live with your brain either. You can't live with your brain. It's not a way to live. You use your brain when I need to use my brain in order to be able to do those things in life which my brain is good for. But then surrenders that surrender doesn't come because I'm afraid of it. It's because it reached its peak everybody according to their capacity. And now you're ready to go to something much deeper. And that's what amuna really means. Amuna is the art, the experience of surrendering the finite self, thinking that my finite self is the way I'm going to live, is going to control life. When the finite self is really just a channel in order to experience life and of course the parad funny paradox is that when we do that, our finite self becomes much more enhanced, much more successful because it's not anywhere. It's not operating from a place of fear and protecting itself. It's operating from a place of expansiveness. So actually your mind is far more successful. It reaches much deeper places. That's the paradox. By knowing its limitations, it actually becomes a channel for something higher. It's much more successful. It's in sync. It's not competing with reality. It's channeling reality. You always have to ask yourself, am I fighting reality or am I channeling reality? in the present moment. Yeah. It's always it's full presence. It's full full presence. Surrender. Surrender. Yeah. And you can feel it in your body. There's a certain bliss that that goes that literally fills the muscles of a person when a person can experience that because what happens then is this is actually a deeper consciousness. the consciousness of Hashem, the consciousness of oneness that fills the person's life. So my brain is a channel for it. It's not a trap. My heart is a channel for it. It's not a trap. My work, my thoughts, my words, my behaviors become channels. They become rather than prisons. And therefore, I'm not afraid to go away from them when I need to. I'm not stuck. If my brain is a trap or my heart is a trap, so then I'm stuck there and if you're going to threaten it, I'll kill you. I I'll I'll run away from you or I'll attack. You know either either you know what with all the all the different trauma responses you have fight you have flight you have freeze you have fawn what are all these responses there's very very serious danger to my system these are system that's god made to protect us there's serious dangers to my system and therefore either I fight or flight I run or I freeze I numb down or I fawn I just become a people's pleaser the four fs so in a moment of physical danger these are mechanisms that God created. If there's a lion in the room, yeah. If you're shimber, fight. And if you're not shimag, flight. And if sometimes you got to freeze, you got to freeze. And if you got to f, you got to f. But if that becomes my entire lifestyle, that's my response time. I don't even have another. I don't choose it anymore. That is my response. That's a classic example in neuroscience of what it means to be in the ultimate mid of a that's where I operate from. It's it's exhausting. And relations are danger. Relationships are dangerous. Sometimes that translates into a person's life 24/7. Every person who walks into the room, there's a there's there's there's there's a fire alarm that goes off. I mean, those who do this work know how it's very deep this and it's not a person's choice. I'm just saying this is one way it expresses itself in a very very practical way that sometimes a person's entire life is in it. It's it's called relational wounds. my relational wounding. My my my my there's a terrible wound in my relationship and it translates into all relationships. To be completely completely comfortable in relationships is a very very freeing experience but it's the only way you can experience the bliss of a relationship. Even people with children their children come they're uptight subconsciously. They're not trying to be they're good people. The wife comes in you for sure uptight. The shria comes in forget about it. You're done. Flight. Flight. Yeah. Huh? Yeah. Not my trigger either. Nobody's trigger. Yeah. Is a link. Yeah. That he brings in the idea of Kool that sh was always but there were times Bash shocked the shocked everybody. Bash said no B is but now we're lenient. How does Basham come to become lenient? Because he wasn't stuck in guru was a channel. It wasn't a trap but it was of it's a channel. It's not a trap. He's not stuck in he's not fixed there. Sometimes Bi says this the say became stringent. Bashami became lenient in different. What did that show a flexibility? Why is there a flexibility? because I'm not stuck in that place. I'm open to truth. Now, usually his soul is gur. So, this is how he pascates. You have to be true to your life force and energy. The way BMI saw the world was through the prism of threw it through the prism of the rainbow has many colors. Hashem, but because it's divine, it's not a trap. It's a channel. And therefore, B says, you know what? In this area, we have to be completely lenient. Really? Yeah. He surprised everybody. He wasn't stuck there. It wasn't like this is who I am. You like me, you don't like me. Go find somebody else. There was no, it wasn't confrontational. It wasn't aggressive. Why? Cuz he wasn't protecting anything. You understand the difference? If I'm busy protecting my little shell and now you're puncturing it, I'm not going to change my position. This is where I am. I I operate from a place of of deep stubbornness and insecurity and really pain and fear. You know, it's like when adults become children because this is what I said because this is what I said. Why? Why? Tati doesn't make sense. Cuz this is what said but it doesn't make sense. Now it's God. What do you want? Huh? But it does it doesn't make sense what you're doing. You're just having a hard day, right? You're just having a hard day, which is fine. Just go eat. Mommy made a beautiful dinner. Go eat. [Laughter] And then they put it. You're having a hard day. Fine. I understand you're having a hard day. When we have a hard day, we get into a very very uh uptight place. The ultimate development. That's where I'm operating from. And you're not pushing all my buttons. Okay. So, go breathe, go do 30 push-ups, go to the gym, go eat dinner, go do something, go run around the block. But that's always in life. I'm just it for exists on so many different levels. But this is the concept was hard because when a person goes into this space and we all go into this space because of the challenges of life, you know, it it's very easy to remain there. It's like you you operate from there and that becomes our reality and everything is seen through that reality. And the iss that in love and it's also that way that it's a love of love is a there's a superficiality to it. Only my finitness can love you, which means because it's working for me. The moment you're having a difficult day, my relationship is high. Like I told you last time, sometimes in relationships, there's husbands if they're not being complimented, they don't know how to love because like you're not there for me. They don't know how to really be there. Can you really just see the other person, see their goodness, as he puts it, there's an aa because you're good for me or because you're good. But then he's and this is very very important. Even when a person is in a state of consciousness that the only love they can feel is that it's good for me. But they have to know those were the last lines. We'll see one two three four five six seven lines from the bottom. upon him. I may sometimes be in a state where yeah I am a yeah I like you because it's it's what it's for me but the person needs to know at least that the main thing is that it's and then you won't fall from this love. You won't run into something else tomorrow because it's more enticing. awareness. Yeah. Yeah. It's a very deep energetic awareness. Yeah. But means no. In other words, he knows the MS. I may not feel it right now. That's that's fine. It's okay. It's okay. Yeah. To give a simple example, we have it. Let's say a person uh gets very very upset at one of their children and they're simply feeling anger. They could say, "I'm not I'm not." But they are, right? They're feeling. And maybe there's a part of them that wants to scream. But there's a deeper part that you know right now that you know you love this child. You know, you would die for this child. And and you know that screaming will only only hurt this child and create a terrible terrible rupture that you're going to regret in two hours for your life for for for 20 years you're going to regret it. And therefore what do you say? You say, "Yeah, my body just got scared and overwhelmed and anxious." Okay. So it's literally I have a child inside of me throwing a tantrum. So what do you do when your child throws a tantrum? You throw him out of the house. What happens when your 2-year-old is throwing a tantrum? You come, you pick them up and you say yanka tatis tatis ail ice cream aby ice cream. We have vanilla ice cream. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's danger, danger. There's lions everywhere. And what do you do? You calm them down. Sometimes it takes an hour, sometimes it takes three hours, sometimes it takes five minutes. Depends how good the ice cream is. It's literally what we do to ourselves. That's what that's what means in time. mean it means you bring in the police and the mass and the with the hammer on the left means you tell your love there's a mommy here there's a tat here you're good don't worry you feel you're you're going crazy I understand you want to scream you want to break windows get out of my house I'm not making a bitzvah for you a father tell his son I'm not going to make a bitzah for you brilliant six seconds later he regretted what he said but what does his son remember that his father was capable of thinking that he's not taking up a mitzvah and the father is a nice guy. He lost it. People lose it. I get it. The part of me that's very undeveloped and effus is a scared animal and it gets scared and anxious and you're overwhelming me and you're driving me crazy. So yeah, I say stupid things that I regret unconscious basically. Yeah, you go offline. You become unconscious. The Gmorra says in in what does that mean? A person doesn't sin unless they become a ru they become crazy. Yeah. There's a spirit of insanity that takes over for a few minutes. There is you're not you're not play you're not with a full deck of cards. If you were your full presence, full energy, you you knew who you were. You knew exactly where you're you felt your life was. Of course, you wouldn't do that. You were offline. You were unconscious. You were asleep. The way it is to check in and know. So that's what he says to check in. So I could say that's what it means. Pimis means there's a deeper part that's looking for a deeper relationship. Right now I may not be feeling it and experience it consciously. Okay fine. So this is now your is that your blev was sent into a place of and I'm operating from a place of finitness. Can I have compassion for that experience for that journey know who I really really am and lean into that? So as he puts it here in love, it means that what I'm really looking for is that I know it's it's really good. So now tomorrow if my only love is it's feeling good for me, tomorrow someone else feels better. That's what happens constantly in relationships. Today you're excited. Tomorrow somebody else is more exciting. Once you see the other person for who they are, you see them for real and you see that it's so then tomorrow you won't be by something else cuz that something else doesn't have that. Yeah. On a very basic level maybe on a lower level on a very basic level if my love is about a distraction from my pain. You're distracting me from my pain. So then tomorrow there may be a better distraction. So I'm going to go to that distraction. If the love is coming from a place of expansiveness, I know my infinity and therefore I want to connect to you from that space, not to distract me from my pain, but from my space of of of bliss, of power, of goodness. And it's your goodness that's so attracting me, that's so dear to me. That's going to be tomorrow also. and someone else that may be distracting me that's not going to have that power and as he puts it here in a hashem is when the avatar is it's working for me it's good and that's there is okay and tomorrow the azor can take over there's other very exciting things in life they're fake news but fake news is powerful fake news could continue for 5,000 years fake news doesn't mean it's not there it's fake but it's there clip is fake but it's Here they say there was on somebody came into and uh it's a very interesting story. I read this years ago and he said something to and said this is this is a lie that you're saying. So you say that you should say such a I should say such a big lie. You know lies you say small lies. You don't say such a big lies. Right. So he point they say he pointed out the window at the corner there was a cloister there was a church I don't know they had the Greek Orthodox whatever the branch of Christianity they had then in in in white Russia bel the late 1700s so uh he says just because things are big it doesn't mean they're not lies it's a huge it was I guess it was a very fancy metifice You don't define truth and falsehood by how big it is and how impressive it is. The fact that it's so impressive could only be a sign that it's a it's a more successful sheer. Yeah. So when we say something is fake news doesn't mean it's not beautiful and it's not powerful and it's not attractive but it's still fake. The only thing that's going to be is only the moment you get that it's liberating. It's like okay stop searching there's not you're not you could breathe a whole life I mean but my life my life my life my life my life who lifest where you running I'm looking for good stuff but it's als All is one. The sun is one son. The rays of the sun are endless. The sun is shining into my house. The sun is shining into his house. The sun is shining into your house right now. And everyone experiences the sun in their way based on their window, based on their experience, based on the size of the room, based on the size of the window, based on where they're positioned. The garra says it's a son told how many do you have whoever there's 10 Jews the comes so there's 10 Jews here so the there's 10 Jews in the tent so the is there there's 10 Jews in another tent is there and there's another thousand places or million places so how many do you have 20 million 30 million 40 million we don't have so many Jews but whatever it is 5 million 1 million in. So beam Leo said yeah how many sons how how many sons do you know there's one son and how many houses does it come into endless so the experience may be different and the flow is different and the fidis and all that but it's essentially they'll all have the same properties if it's coming from the from the same sun and that's even the sun which is a physical being we're not talking about the source of the sun I'm just giving a mushel even from the sun is a is a is a mugbul. It's a pretty impressive guy, but he's still a mugbul. I mean, he's impressive and he's big and he's unbelievable and we we're thankful for the son that Hashem created, but it's a was created. He created the maidus. You understand what I'm saying? But it all has a common denominator. It's from the sun. It's going to have different properties that it expresses, but it's all going to be properties that express the sun. And that's why could be in a big but it's a shim and therefore this kil you never say had a bad day he's stubborn today and he's going to disagree just to be disagreeable. You know when you get into a fight and you continue the fight just to continue the fight. Your whole system knows that it's stupid but it's it's it's a you understand it's it's it's it's simply I'm protecting myself. I'm I can't get off my high horse. I don't I I don't have a way of getting down the tree. So, you like dig a you know you dig yourself your own grave and you beat it deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper. People do this to themselves and it's hard cuz you like breathe, relax. You're you're afraid. You're just afraid. It makes sense. There's a 2-year-old that's frightened. Okay, he's throwing a tantrum. But you have a soul. It wasn't hurt. It knows exactly the truth. Bring it into the picture. Bring mommy into the room and let mommy calm down the child. That's people think in Tanya it says means a dictator that the tells the Yeah. Do stop feeling and you make believe you're not feeling. That's not what means. Charlott like said by y who are shallot. Ysef wasn't a dictator. Ysef didn't tell the Egyptians they don't exist. He fed them. A real Charlotte we think of Charlotte you know Fidel Castro and and and and Kmeni you know these these dictator terror these tyrants a shalott yf wasn't a dictator he cared for the Egyptians he fed them he saved them means is like a leader a mentor like a parent in the home a parent in the home is not a dictator a parent in the home is present a parent home can assuage the fears of the children it can it can calm from panic and hysteria. The le gets hysterical. It goes into panic. I'm afraid. Yeah, I'm anxious. I'm overwhelmed. You just said something. You're freaking me out. I don't know what to do. And the mak is like a parent, like a healthy parent. But what if the parent himself is a child? So now it's a child against another child. You know when fathers fight with their nine-year-old, it's like a nine-year-old fighting a three-year-old. The father just became three. He's looking for the nine-year-old for validation. The nine-year-old is not giving him validation. So the three-year-old in a big body is fighting the nine-year-old, the nine-year-old knows it. And that's why the moment the nine-year-old becomes 14 or 15, 16 and goes to gym and suddenly has muscles bigger than his father. Yeah. The game is over. Your whole kayak over me was that you were a dictator. Now you're not a dictator anymore. Have a good day. It's hard for people to give to give up this identity because sometimes this is what protected me my entire life and this exists on so many different levels but this is the and that's why the the the even when I'm in a place of whatever that means in my life but the this is when you know that and you're connected to that even if I'm not experiencing it that's powerful That means that even when you're in there is a link. What did you say before about the saying there's a link to what's made the link? You're not detached. You realize that this is where I am right now. But you don't pull out the plug and make the god. You remain connected to that space. So you have a way back. And even at this moment you're connected to something. Even when you know that right now I can't experience it fully and that's fine but because of that tomorrow you won't run away to another avatara and in ao if hashem is just right now it feels good tomorrow is something else that feels better it could be a piece of cake it could be some covet it could be some validation it could be some addiction it could be fear anxiety whatever I run to in life when you know that it's then tomorrow don't you won't run to the because you know that this you're going to lose only is something that's essentially good. It's not going to change and you can trust it. You can rely on it. It's going to be there. Doesn't get obliterated by somebody's mood. It will remain. It's it's it's steady. It's real. It's eternal. It's a reference point that keeps you anchored not to run away and not to get hijacked by other forces by alien forces. Those are the words. So for this there won't be a competition. There's no competitor. Nobody could say tomorrow. We know you're not. Either you're a reflection of elus and then you're elus and if you're aim you're it's not it's fake news it's clip and the whole definition of clip is that you're hiding the truth that's your power if that's your power you're never going to be able to compete with you'll compete as long as I remain in kipa and I don't look through it and I want to remain there that's your power that's it the moment things start opening up and unraveling it's uh it's over the whole the whole game is So this is very important that even when I'm in there's a link to it's so powerful because not always can a person be in a state where you're free where you're where you're infinite consciousness. Yeah, there are those moments but here he's saying no I'm not in infinite I'm in very finite consciousness. I'm in an ego place. I'm in a haba space. Yeah. I see myself as as I'm small and finite. And therefore, what I see you, I see you as me. I see what you do for me. Yeah. That's why I like you. That's why I love you. Huh? But don't remain disconnected. Don't disconnect from the idea from the truth that it's also that Yeah. the more I can acknowledge that and and and therefore make space for a deeper reality, even if I'm not fully embodying that deeper reality, I can trust it. And that will prove itself to be so powerful because it endures. It maintains the connection. It maintains the relationship. It doesn't it doesn't get lost tomorrow. Nobody will hijack it. I won't get hijacked. And that's the deepest thing. But it's a paradox because to be connected to be in that space most of the time most likely you need to be silent because you need to be connected once you speak it's already you're addressing you're addressing the big question that asked when Hashem asked to become his messenger his words were I am not a man of words. So Dr. Reb explains what did he mean? It's not just a physical it's not a physical impediment. He was talking about something much deeper. He was speaking about the moment you go into the world of words. It's not anymore a place of surrender and alignment. It's putting it into words. It's now communicating. That's a very very deep challenge. extremely deep because by definition it's going away from that space. There's an expression in when something is busy emitting let's say emitting blood it can't absorb. When something is busy absorbing it can't emit. So brings this as an unbelievable example. When you're busy emitting you can't absorb. Mosha says I can't emit because I'm always absorbing. I'm always absorbing. I'm always lamela. So I can't be pilot. The moment you go into a posture of of speaking now you're pilot. You can't be blaya. Blaya by definition is b. That's how you're a channel for that's why he refused it again and again and again and again and again. He says I don't speak. I don't do this. I mean I come from water. Fish don't even make sounds. Animals don't speak but they make sounds. Fish don't even make sounds. Oh, and then said me, who do you think made the mouthb says that could come into Roso? He's beyond he's beyond and therefore I can come into I want you to speak. I don't want somebody else to speak. They say there was once aided the fifth asked him to go somewhere to be a so he says no no is a sensitive thing. So the Reb says to him, "Who do you want me to send?" Somebody who's not scared. Of course, I need to only you because you're scared, right? Says he tells, "You think I need other people to speak? I need you to speak. I don't need other people to speak." I had a great great uncle, his name was. So he once said he said that uh he said every Jew can do chuva. The only group of Jews that can't do chuva are danum speakers. Why? He says every at some point he hears he sees something and he gets for a few minutes but he gets so he does say a yeah he sees a galdic. What's his thought? It's galdic for the next Russia. Amazing for my next speech. He says the only person who can do so once told this to me about me. Somebody once told this to me that you should know that whatever. So what did I tell him? I told it's galdic for my next Russia. It's galdic for my next Russia. Right? But there's a truth to it. You understand? There's a truth to it. And when we're talking here even about an honest person, we're not talking here about an inauthentic person's didn't have a problem with that. He was authentic. The problem was words themselves. But that's exactly the point. When the words become disconnected from and from mid and from then you're right, then the words become traps rather than channels. You say you can state connected and flow. Yeah. When the words themselves become channels like we learned when the violin is playing the music, the violin doesn't develop an ego. The violinist develops an ego but not the violin. When the violinist becomes like the violin, then there's what to hear. The mag of mis says when the violinist becomes like the violin, then you have what to hear. Huh? Unbelievable. Yeah, usually it's translated open my lips. In other words, help me talk. No, you open the lips. You do the work. I'm standing. I'm silent. You open the lips and talk. You want to use my lips? So the way is say my mouth is going to utter your praise. Says from the word giddim giddim are veins arteries. My mouth yag will become a g a channel for your experience for your praise. I'm just like that's like a blood artery. The artery doesn't create the blood. The artery doesn't control the blood. The artery knows don't control the blood. You're going to make clots. Remain open. Remain open. Open. When an artery clots, we know what happens. Right? Spiritually is the same thing. Open, open, open. Those are different types of words. There's words that are self-conscious. And even if they're not self-conscious, they're still containers that limit in one form or another. And then there's the man who said he has a whole the book of words. For a man who had no words, he ended up speaking a lot, but it was different types of words. But we have to be aware of that challenge because words ultimately are a world in which everything is articulated. And that's why those who do speak need to spend much more time in silence. Because the more silence, the more the words can actually be words that you want to listen to. The less silence, the more the words are just, you know. Huh? Yeah. So to be in but to have that link is a critical component. He continues the second to the last line. [Music] And the same is true in it's all one. We remember in godliness the way it's manifested in the world. It's the God that we can appreciate. We can somewhat understand. the God that comes through science and mathematics and physics and cosmology and astronomy and geology and biology and really every nikud of the world and through [Music] and the you saw that this was their focus the hashem that's manifested in the world the one that we could look at that we can so to speak contain somewhat and it's als it's you take it through you take it through garments of comprehension. So that's kadusha. The whole point here is that all this is kadusha but it's still eight. It's all kadusha. The ais hashem where I'm loving hashem it's inspiring me. It's not clip. It's not rather the person is doing good things. He's learning and giving stuck. All but it's it's still it's gaden but from it could come out ultimately see here too of but nonetheless if it's only there's a stuckness there it's basically I'm in a in a deep way I'm trying to to have a relationship with a god that I could control at least with my brain fit him into the box systems. That's why they're those control comprehend. The need to comprehend is a subtle form of control. That's not going to sit so well with you. Now, the brain doesn't like what I just said. So we're going to we're going to give a little comfort to the brain that's going to throw a tantrum now cuz because right Jews the brain what do you mean the brain no so the brain gets hysterical when we say this need to comprehend is the need to control and that means that we can't even fully comprehend because we're trying to protect ourselves real comprehension is he says you always have to have you have to have your is just serving a purpose to be able to channel that which intellect could channel. That's it. I think we need to comprehend there's a way to get to which is much more refined. So that's the question. If the comes from it's stemming it's flowing from so then the is serving as a channel like we spoke about words when the becomes the beginning and the end of the reality it becomes another prison. And the reason a person does that is because it keeps me safe in really what real awareness and intelligence is. When intelligence completely realizes when intelligence realizes that intelligence is forgive me the stupidest thing you can introduce in order to experience reality. Once you get that and you surrender to that now you can actually have a little intelligence because now the intelligence becomes a channel rather than an a rather than a prison the ultimate knowledge is that I don't know you see being stupid and not to try it's actually cannot get you to the you're right but from a place from a place of very deep humility and therefore I'm completely comfortable with surrender I'm completely comfortable I'm completely comfortable with not understanding. In fact, to not understand makes more sense than to understand because to not understand means that logic is a created being. Not not understanding is not a contradiction to be connected opposite. Yeah. And not there's not understanding from a from a immature place. It's a prerequisite in a way to be Exactly. Exactly. There's two types of ignorance. There's ignorance, you know, cuz I'm a couch potato. I sit on my couch and I'm on my phone all day. I'm ignorant. Right? There's an ignorance that is the deepest form of enlightenment. The deepest form of enlightenment is the ignorance. It's ignorance that comes after all the knowledge. There's a real ignorance that comes from the knowledge. The knowledge even helps it. So whenever there's says there's always something there's a there is not is the way it's consolidated is flow to something transcendent and he said when you're always connected to there won't be a there won't be the clipper won't get nurture from it just like we learned before when you know in a that It's you won't be hijacked the next day. Here too represents seeing is more like hearing. The says in seeing bina is hearing and in seeing nobody will be able to contradict you. You can't compare seeing to hearing. Why? Beautiful words. When you hear something, even if you comprehended it, you understood it, it made perfectly sense, now somebody will bring you proofs that it was wrong, the story is wrong, it's going to weaken it a little bit. And once this proofs are very potent, it will completely destroy it. You're gone. You're done. You let let it go. You know, you start building doubt, doubt, doubt, doubt, doubt. And then you're like, "Okay, this this is the final nail in the coffin and I'm done with this ama with this stupid stupid faith I had. I was brainwashed." It builds, it builds, it builds. Somebody gives you makabes. It's like in a wrestling match, you know, knock out. There's no return. First, you're fighting, you're wrestling. No, I still want to hold on. It happens to people when they change. When they change in life, they're fighting back, fighting back, fighting back. And then at some point it's like checkmate. You know the game is over. The chess game is over. You lost. That's when it's in a state of when I see something. So now you have you have good questions. You could prove and it's a major major you have. He says it's not nea. It's not like I'm struggling. I know. I was in Brazil last week. Right. Now you could prove to me right you could prove to me you could show me on my passport it's not there fine you have questions this question that question you could say by I saw him I saw him in the store it's not naya when you hear something you hear one thing you can contradict and even if you comprehend it okay with my logic today I comprehended it you know all of science and how does it evolve there's theories that were considered sacred absolute 100 years later it's like a jokeistellian philosophy for 200 thousand years was the holy grail of science and philosophy and then it becomes you know obsolete Isaac Newton was new Newtonian physics then came Einstein boom upends everything then comes quantum mechanics upends and that's how it works because in theory that's how that's what real real science could say this is a theory that we can postulate today based on the variables and research we have today and it's an openness to be able to learn new things there's going to be new data new discovery new technology we see things today that we never saw. So of course you have to be open to that. That's the healthy process of be there's something called so just like in a physical life I saw I saw the event I saw it. So you could tell me that I'm crazy that I suffer from insanity and I have psychosis and I'm a delusional person. Okay. You could tell it to me. Yeah. So, we know somebody could bring you a thousand dyas that you're not here now. They could bring you rayas and maybe they have good das. I don't know. They saw you in a store. They there's a there's a you have a receipt from a gas station. You in the gas station. Maybe you have an answer. You lost your credit card. I don't know. Maybe you have an answer. You don't have an answer. It's not naya. Say you don't have an answer. I see a receipt with your name on the gas station. Okay. [Music] I'll just say okay. I know what happened. It's it's not it's a diff it's a different frequency just like there's different frequ It's a different frequency of reality. Your is a different if I answer if I answer question no because you're vulnerable. Tomorrow somebody will ask another question. Bridge is here. The guy said, "I don't know. Look right here." He said, "What do I need to look? I figured it out." Yeah. What's it what does it mean in a person's life? What does it mean? I know that we're we we become suspicious of these ideas because people read, you know, people this one saw this and this one saw that and this one saw that. So, so that's why in our culture, right, that has been, you know, religion has been around thousands of years. So, the culture of enlightenment said just rely on logic and with logic, you'll know that it's true and you'll figure it out. And there's a power to that because when people just talk about what they saw, it could be so subjective. So that's where bina is important where is important. The tragedy of that is when you detach from then you lose actually the real experience of life. The real experience of life is in your ear, is not in shm. You need schmia to make sure that you're not delusional because sometimes a person could be so stuck in their own delusions that they just they saw. They saw you know I saw God over my bed last night and he told me that you should all give me your money this morning. Okay. I saw so the Mus says when you see there's no arguing. Everybody should give me all their money. You have he said I shouldn't take less than 30,000. See right fine I saw she said this is aligner. So that's why we contrast it with bina with but we're not talking about that obviously you have to that always has to be dealt with because it could be hijacked by either a lunatic or a con artist right and that's where science became so dismissive of religion. It's like oh you saw God you speak to God. We don't do that. We study what is in front of us with the data that we could put into a lab. And if it's not provable by a lab, it does not exist. What's the opposite tragedy of that? The opposite tragedy of that is you stop experiencing reality. Everything is measured. Everything is measured by a lab. God doesn't fit into the lab. He doesn't exist. Boom. If they open, then they see on that level of reality that something is If your beina is open, it's not a prison. So there's always an element of and then you suddenly see that it's really all infinite and there's an infinity that's flowing through and our mind is just grasping a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction. You could say that another billion times of reality. And the deeper you go into reality, the more the mind wants to shut down in order to experience it. There was a physicist who wrote not long ago. He said that in 50 years when you're going to want to talk about physics, you're not going to read mathematical equations. You're going to go into a room or go outside, close your eyes, meditate in pure silence, open yourself up to infinity, and that's how you'll understand physics. His point was it's reaching a place where the world speaks of mystery much more than intelligence. That's what realma means. It's deeper than bin. It's deeper than it's seeing it. What does seeing mean in the soul? We're not talking about seeing with the eyes. Seeing means there's an energetic experience of something that is reality that will never ever be disproven. How do you know that you're feeling something? How do you know? How do you know that you exist? Can you prove to me that I don't exist? Yeah, you could bring. Trust me, there's that I don't exist. This galdic is that you don't exist. Huh? Actually, and on a level of logic, I don't know who's right. It's very, very confusing. It's a crazy world we live in, right? How do I know that I'm feeling something? How do I know that I'm sitting on this chair? And there's an answer to that. And it's a very maybe a stupid answer, but it's not stupid at all because this is the basis of life. And the answer is I know. Because I am I know. I know that I'm sitting on this chair. I know that I exist. I'm I know. And I know what I'm feeling. You know, you can argue with me from today till tomorrow. That's what you know, husbands do it with their wife. They argue with their wife, but she shouldn't feel that way. You ever do that? You shouldn't feel brilliant. You're a brilliant man. of you know of a health of titan bankers bankers the point is when the same is true when it comes to the is it's not a contradiction to logic but it's a place where you go from logic from defining things into a place of seeing things it's a glued you're glued to it you're attached to it and there's a silence there it's not toys. It's not concepts anymore. But physicists in a way, the true physicist will see today, you're right because they go so deep into the matter electron try to what it is. One thing they know that if the parameters of that thing change in a in a 10 power of 20, yeah, just a little bit, the whole life disintegrates. So we live in a universe where everything is so measured. Yeah. That it's by by by mistake cannot be. Yeah. So if a physicist is true to discovery, they would know their right. You're right. But most of the people are not true to their discoveries. If if if my science becomes about ego and I'm true to myself more than to science, I'm looking for my own conclusions that I like more than the ultimate truth. Then se becomes a trap instead of a channel realm. In other words, he says so that he says in all his even when it's his and it's but not to disconnect it from just like we spoke about that the shouldn't be disconnected from the because from that there won't be a here from this is there won't be a Let's finish the paragraph. So when you see something, all the questions are not neg. What are you going to say? You say you're right, but I see it. The is that he sees what's going to be born. What's the understand that's not somebody can show you and prove to you that if you do this today this will be the consequence tomorrow that's not aim is that you see today you see today what's going to happen in two years in two months and two hours and two weeks as a result of me engaging in this conversation and this text conversation going to this website going to this computer doing this not doing this. You see the mitzvah and you see the you see it. You see it. A person smokes, takes nicotine into their brain. You can give them a bunch of explanations, but they actually see they see the consequence. 10 years I I've taken this food. I see the consequence. Not today. I see. Not right now. It's good. It's kishmak. It's a whole different experience. It's what happens when it's you can't argue with it anymore. explanations. Yeah. Whatever things happen and this once it's like it's right now it's here. It's a different experience. Nobody will be able to contradict it. Nobody you won't nobody will be able to cap on and take you away from it. Why? Because it's a very very deep intimate connection. I see it. Yeah, this this comes from a lot of self-confidence because if there's no if I have no confidence, I doubt everything I see. I can't trust anything and certainly can't trust myself. There's a very deep element of trust here. Now, you have to know that be is important because as I told you, the could be a delusional escape. It's like I see things and I because I don't want to be here. I just I see I see I see I see I see there was a his name was at UCLA for many many years. So I once asked him you know he was he was involved in the 60s and 70s he was there. So I once asked them what when I give lectures sometimes secular audiences in the past or people Harry Har Krishna and Jews for Jay you know can get up and start debating and and saying what they saw and whatever today it's already not so popular but so he says what you do is when somebody starts preaching that they you know Yoshka told them this and they have a message so he says you listen and then you look at them and you stare in their eyes for 30 seconds without saying a word and then you say last night. God told me not to talk to you. That's it. Boom. God told me not to talk to you. Okay, that's it. You know, you're done. You're free. So, you always need the contrast and the sobriety of and to be able to challenge yourself, right? Because my shouldn't be coming from a place of escapism. Yeah. And then it's a d then it's a danger. Then it's a danger. You could become like a you know a lot of dangerous people use their they saw and that's it. You can't argue with them. It's a very very dangerous thing. This is what could creates cults and creates people who are dependent and people who are sick and people who give up their liberty and emancipation and they surrender completely and they could be terribly used and manipulated. That's what you mean. So this must come from a very very deep place. If a person is not like we said before a is not afraid of comes after it's not of course it's and you could be calculated and rational and so forth but then there's an attachment with it that comes to the of it's an attachment it's a different type of attachment it's an energetic connection where you experience it so vividly and so viscerally that nothing can take you away from it. It's like there's nothing that come just like we learned before with the only thing that's you know that the experience of this is so real that yeah you can have a lot of questions but it just can't take you away from this. It's a very very deep energetic experience. It's what a real relationship with Hashem means. The Reb said in a mimer what's a mun is a thing that a question doesn't weaken it and an answer doesn't make it better. That's a very powerful idea. If my relationship with Hashem is based on a question will weaken it and an answer will make it better and a better answer will make it even better and a good answer will say okay now I'm good. And it's a beautiful thing but that's the frequency of bin. It's the frequency of Shia. I heard a story and now there's this version, that version. Oh, you have a much better version. I'm God. I'm good. I can go back to sleep. I can put on film today. I'm good. I'm not a hypocrite. I'm not a mishugan. I'm not an occult. Fine. I could be a a religious Jew and continue to keep Shabas. And there's something to it. There's something to it. But essentially, it's a vulnerable space in the fact that it's based on rayas. And it's an important thing because people who make fun of this, right, it can also fall prey to people who brainwash them, right? What's the cult and that cult? Somebody once asked me came over to me. He said, "How do I know I'm not in a cult?" He wants to know how he could know that he's not an occult. Oh, very good. So I told him, "Who said you're not an occult?" Maybe you are. So he says, "Really?" I said, "It's a good question, but let me tell you, it's a good question, but let me tell you, the first sign of people who are an occult is they stop asking these questions. They stop asking these questions. How I know I'm not an occult." You understand? Because you can't afford these types of questions. I don't ask. You don't ask that question? Of course not. There was a there was a I had a an old friend. and he's already and he fell into a cult. We were in yeshiva together. It was a tragic story and this is when I was like 8 19 18 and I would talk to him a lot and um at some point he stopped talking to me. He said I can't talk to you anymore. I said why? So he said that the cult leader was in Philadelphia told him that he shouldn't talk to me anymore. I said why? says explained to him that I'm just too confu I'm too confused and too in denial of reality and therefore it's a waste of time and it's just going to disturb my own life. So I said maybe he's afraid that I'm going to ask you a good question that's going to disprove it. He said no no no that can't be. And that was it. And that was it. You understand? The moment you stop asking that question you have to ask yourself why did I stop asking that question? real amun is never afraid of questions. It's not afraid of it. The Rambam wasn't afraid of questions. The Vil Nagon wasn't afraid of questions. Rashi wasn't afraid of questions. Afraid of answers. Not afraid of question. Not afraid of answers. There's a frequency of that you need to respect. It's part of God's frequencies. The electromagnetic spectrum emits many different frequencies of light and depends on your you pick up different frequencies. Theina picks up the frequency of and it's a beautiful frequency and here there's questions and answers and debates and more and then there's something else that's deeper than that and it's not competing with that that's called and that comes from by definition is it fits into my and it's important to cherish that because if not I could just be hijacked by anybody they saw they saw is only healthy when it follows when it when It's higher than bina. Not when it's lower than bina. Not when it's threatened by bina. When a moon is afraid of it's just intellectual laziness or foolishness. When it graduates it it it will it cherishes and appreciates it as another frequency of truth but a frequency of truth not a trap of ego. Your is the difference. The moment you see the future, it's already a whole different nobody can't you can't grab the person away from it. There won't be a contradiction. So just like we spoke in that even when a place of I should have that it's the same as in the produces the like the said that all the two tracks exist in the that even when it should be open to the fact of which is But he says I can understand the but because I understand the so it's not a visceral reality. Yeah. If somebody's punching me right now in my face and hurting me and bruising me, I know that I don't want to stay here. I know it. I Well, I feel it. When the can see the like right now, he's being punched in the nose. He's being hurt. It's it's a it's a no-brainer. You're not going to stay here. Nobody goes into a hospital to become sick. Here, let me become sick and go into a hospital. The problem is it's it's no it's going to be in 10 years. It's going to be in I don't see it now. They have saves in the future. So there's always arguments, right? You'll ask most people, what's the most important thing for you in your life? What's the most important thing for you in life? Where does health that you should be able to have health come in? And people will say number one, number two, number three. I mean, it's top things. Certainly more important than work, certainly more important than money. You'll see how much time. So you would expect that the time that people dedicate to their own health, emotional health, physical health should be disproportionate to anything else. Usually it's much less. It's not a ste. The answer is because it's of yeah that's what I am. Right now there's something else going on right now there's a good kdish. What do you want? There's a kdish. What do you want? Fine. In other words, I'm not in touch with who I am. is he sees it. He's always in touch with it. I could see the consequence and then there won't be a it's very hard for the from it. That's what he says. It's of the same is true with when it's of that I'm learning it's and it's but I'm open to which is an element of which is not it's like seeing something again it's not contradicted by but it's it's an attachment to it. It's a dus. It's like when you see something, you experience it in such a real real real way. How how how you going to be hijacked tomorrow? Somebody will bring you a beautiful ra. You'll have questions. We have painful questions in life on God, right? Why this happens, that happens, that happens. We don't have answers to these questions. What does it do to a ma? It's very very difficult when a person appreciates that a relationship is not about logic. There's a there's a deep deep surrender to something beyond beyond. It doesn't take away the pain. It doesn't take away the question, but it doesn't affect the relationship. Sometimes it makes it even stronger because reality is beyond logic. [Music] Okay, I'm going to wish everybody a beautiful day. Basm will uh finish the mimer ber. I thought we'll finish the mimer today, but will finish the mimer next week Monday morning and um everybody should have an amazing day and an inspiring day, a meaningful day. aesh a good kaidesh kaidesh of victory and redemption and uh I announced at the beginning for those who are in the area shab this afternoon bas will be a big faban and sudes licious in the house of our dear friend mos which is not a far walk from here we'll post the directions as a shortcut from here and we'll post it on our group 645 m by him and then in his house giml Thomas the of the and everybody should have a beautiful day and with everything. lawyer. Lawyer can't challenge. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's not the is not aid to it's deeper than if if if if that's the question. If my is threatened by you start asking I go crazy that's that's that's dangerous. If it's so MS don't worry don't worry a question is not going to destroy it. It's not going to destroy it. When people get so afraid of question like whoa what's going to happen is not afraid of questions. He just knows that questions and answers will keep me in a certain box which is good which is nice but it's not going to connect you with the energy itself is connects you it's curiosity it's openness it's a different require surrender and paradoxically the shia will be much deeper because the shia will be open to things that are higher When when when has the bina is much greater because it's more expansive. It's not protecting itself. But for the connected to is connected to this delusion. to ask when you ask that question. It's a good sign. It's a good sign. It's a beginning. Seven Birwood Lane. Seven Birwood Lane. YF Mus from Rabbi Ratenberg's Shul there's a shortcut. It's pretty fast from there. How far is this far? No, it's the beginning of Montabella. From Rabbi Ratenburg is probably 6 minutes, 8 minutes, maybe 10 minutes. The beginning. Okay. 6:45 he's doing and then we'll belicious. Okay. If I don't come, we'll miss you. Don't worry.