Orchos Chaim of the Rosh #34 - Magnify Your Sins and Hashem's Chesed, Not Your Mitzvos

this torah class is brought to you by torahanytime.com okay good afternoon everyone we continue in the rush we're up to ois lamid dalid to diminish to lower in your eyes your good actions and to magnify one's sins so what does this mean that not only is it good to diminish one's good deeds in their eyes but it's also yashar too it's also just to the reason it's just to says rav goldberg is a person is biased the person is prejudiced toward himself and naturally a person would magnify and elevate his good deeds and therefore not only is it good to do this it's also just because otherwise one will have a out of proportion perception of one's good deeds uh the guru in mishlai writes imperative that wants a friend this way the friend will give rebuke but not only give rebuke but will also um the friend will also magnify the friend will will magnify the averroes that a person uh did so that's another reason to uh to offer to have a good friend one second i lost um okay so that's an important thing that a person should uh make small the person's mitt's voice there are many milos of the highest level of is not to give credit to oneself but ki yikdan hakoba innov that a person's good deeds should be small in one's eyes vis-a-vis what he's obligated to do and therefore a person should serve hashem modestly and not seek kavod for his good deeds and not seek any teferes for his actions interesting if goldberg brings a story about ravisser zalman meltzer this is almond meltzer was a go in hagaoinem both in torah and in the way he worked on midos and one of his tamidim report that one time in ravisser zalman asked for a pen and the talmud thought maybe mr zalman thought you can if he forgot it was basically mr zalman said i i i didn't forget it's kalamata i know it's khalamoid but it's uh for me it's i need a pen and he explained afterwards that very often many people come to visit him on khalamot and as as human nature sometimes a person passes judgment on others and he sometimes will think about the other person's deficiency and therefore he prepares for himself a paper that says basically think look at your own faults before you see someone else's faults and that would remind him before he passed the judgment on someone else he would he would first be critical of himself in other words and that would humble him and not pass judgment and he forgot to prepare this piece of paper and therefore for him writing this on the piece of paper this message that basically look at yourself would uh help him keep humble and it was together then um rev goldberg is with saying the rabbino and the shari chuva that one of the ingredients of chuva is the aga worry being concerned maybe a person is falling short in his obligation of chuva in the tsar and the bitterness and the fasting and then all the various responsibilities that a person may have in the realm of chuva so it is good and it is yashar to minimize one's good deeds in their own eyes and on the other hand to magnify one's averroes and to magnify the kindness of akadeshwar meaning one should never think that yeah the ubuntu owes me a lot or i do so many good deeds and hashem's kindness to me is okay basically commensurate with my good actions but in a person's mind that person should feel that the kindness hashem showers him with is overwhelming is well beyond and above what a person truly deserves robham kenyawski in his parish on the rash hassam or khoisav he quotes musas where it says a person shouldn't think yeah the the kindness hashem did is from my good deeds he owes it to me and this is what yaakov avinu says in this week's parashat he did not feel that he's roy for the khasal democracy rabbino yoino writes in um that one of the important myeloids that are given over in what is called the mitsus assay is the myla of remembering the hesed of and being this buoyant on it like it says the zakat is called and it says it says and ravino likewise writes in gimmel that whatever difficulties and troubles a person has in life one should not say well uh yeah i have much more troubles than i deserve one should feel and one should say that whatever difficulties a person has it is much less than what they deserve meets their average i mean their deficiency in other words whatever difficulty a person has in life a person should think you know what they're getting off easy really if they would get what they deserve it could be a lot worse and then the rush ends off this line very um the rash says you should magnify the colors on a person in other words one should elevate it that it's much more than a person deserves and whatever difficulties are much less than they deserve from the one who fashioned you in the womb of your mother vinoy sin from the one who gives you your food at the right time and if a person does these three things namely to diminish in one's eyes your masthem tauvim and increase and magnify the severity of one's sins and to magnify the faster when a person realizes that whatever mitzvos a person did are basically measly and the tremendous question hashem does for a person and how many how many aveiros we've committed in your performance of one's mitsvice now what's the connection why after these three pieces of advice of diminishing one's good deeds in one's eyes and magnifying one's sins and magnifying the hustle of hashem this it seems will cause a person to avoid serving hashem condition to get reward you see if every mitzvah we do is is amazing in our eyes and we feel we're very deserving of reward because of it that will motivate us to serve hashem on condition to get reward but if we do not magnify the good deeds that we did and whatever hashem does for us we feel is more than we deserve so we realize that whatever goodness we have in this world it's not because we did mitzvos it's just from the this will help us avoid serving him on condition to receive reward okay so we'll continue here tomorrow islamic hey at least for this week we'll stick with this schedule and uh we'll see if it works okay everyone have a wonderful night called tov you've just experienced another torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com