Part 91: Asking Hashem – What Do You Think?

okay good morning want to thank our sponsors for the Amun class this morning Orland in memory of the Beloved daughter Miriam eser and Asher and beam Jacobs in appreciation of the class says here from listeners from New York oh wow thank you in New York hopefully you're staying warm wow an Applause for the listeners in New York Anda benisa Shana who should have a speedy and painless recovery we are in the middle of studying a piece by R we're in Al the great Mas is Al which about and the relationship between effort and and amuna and we've been discussing and we've talked about it many times in many contexts this balance the tension between when do I sit back and say it's on hashem's hands and when do I take my initiative and say I'm in control and the attitude and philosophy that we're meant to live with which is ding like it's all up to him but act as if it's all up to you it's not a contradiction it's not a contradiction when we work when we make our initiative when we take action we do it we don't do it halfly we don't do it half-heartedly we do it with all of ourselves as if it all depends on us but at the same time when we're doing at the same time when we're ready to accept the consequences of the results of whatever it is we're working towards we do so with the acceptance that it is all up to it's all up to Hashem okay so we are p z it has been so long since we met I don't even remember what we're talking about oh I remember what we're talking about no no I remember I remember now okay R developed the following fantastic idea okay I'm just looking at this course forner R was developing the idea of Adam in ganen man in the Garden of Eden whose punishment for listening to his wife was that that he had to work B goes against yesterday what I said I I had to make up for yesterday he has to go work in order to in order to derive income in order to sustain himself man has to go exert effort man has to go work this is the CLA if you remembera developed the idea that rather than everything intermingled and rather than everything synthesized as one good and bad but now man had to live Discerning there's nothing more Discerning than when you extract this food from the ground you have to take the good from the bad and that's if you look at the top paragraph let's just review it as we summarize and transition into this week man essentially the whole Lifestyle the whole design of the world was changed that now man had to work in order to derive an income put man in a very difficult challenging circumstance on the one hand when we work hard and when we succeed we derive great joy great satisfaction great fulfillment from it so let's say you brilliantly knew last week to short the market and you were ahead of everyone else you were a uh you were a reader you were a prophet you Pressly decided I'm going to short the market so when you made a ton of money last week because you shorted the market so you have a right to say you know what that feels pretty good everyone else was going along everyone thought there was a small correction it's going to come back the end of the year it's going to bounce back but I knew it wasn't I knew it was going to plummet the bottom would come out and so I'm pretty proud of my thinking and I'm proud of my courage and my guts to pull the trigger on the one hand right on the one hand there's a pleasure there's a satisfaction that comes from the success of our effort you get kapov means more literally you know if I'm a ditch digger if I'm a water carrier if I'm the sweat of my brow if I work very hard and I I see the results of my hard work you know sometimes one can be envious of people who work with their hands they more immediately see the results you watch the workers who are putting on a new roof next door building the house or the extension and you see that you know last month that wasn't there and now there's a room there wasn't a roof now there's a roof there's a there's a certain pleasure satisfaction when you see you worked hard on something and there it is I succeeded says you would prefer even a smaller quantity but as the result of your artwor than if someone gifts you a lot more because the fact that we put in the effort we have had the initiative it took Insight time energy resource that is all investment in it that yields a sweetness that we derive from it I think last time when we spoke about this we talked about ressler's the notion that love is the result of giving not getting parents love children more than children love parents so when we make an effort we talked about the PK says three people exempt from war plant a Vineyard build a home marry a woman a woman is not like a grape or or a house but what it means is there three examples where you gave a piece of yourself you invested you built a bridge from yourself to something else and you didn't yet reap the benefit of it so that individual is exempt from war so to over here is describing the sweetness the danger is you look and you say huh God creates I create he built the world I built the house God smart I'm smart I need to I need to short the market look how much money I made and you can start to think that you're in control that you're in charge but the truth is that a strong wind can knock down your house and the truth is that you can bet or predict incorrectly on the market and lose your pants the truth is is in charge so in Gish wasn't challenged with this tension he knew he wasn't in control how did he know cuz he went to an all you can e Buffet he had everything handed to him Gan Aiden was just there was no effort there was no work there was no initiative there was no income so true he lost out on the satisfaction of working but he also didn't have the tension with thinking the arrogance of confusing that he was in control he knew he forfeited his control to Hashem gave us he gave a new lifestyle which would help repair and correct the mistake that he made so this is our mission this is our challenge to go through every day in other words we shouldn't say oh there's this horrific philosophical conundrum that has no solution I told you what told me you know is is ker and iser but you mix the two you get B he says don't think of it that way think of it as this is me the has gave this to us as our challenge that I stop and I think and I contemplate and I struggle with what am I supposed to be doing right now so this is our mission this is our Challenge and it comes up every single day now it doesn't come up every day like it's five o'clock should I go home because I put in enough work and it's up to Hashem now or should I work harder because it's up to me I don't think people think about it in that way maybe we should but we think about it all the time and I'll give you a simple example that when it happened I knew I wanted to share it in this she all my stories come from flying and traveling so so I flew back from I was in Israel last week for a couple days for a magnificent wedding and I flew back on a flight from Israel through Newark Airport here so for whatever reason when the flight was made it was like the most miserable challenging time to fly of the entire year in anticipation of this wonderful week so when I when the when the flight was originally made it was done it was united through Newark and it was Newark to Miami now for Lord Dale and West Palm weren't options the second half that flight had to be through to Miami they couldn't change it for whatever reason and it was with a fairly long layover so I knew when the moment I landed in Newark I would run to the desk and see if at that point they could try to get me onto another flight so I ran to a first of all it was aggravating I'm not going to take time all learn Tor with you but it was aggravating because when we landed I had my eye on this we land at like 5 and there was a 605 flight to Fort lale that was what I had my eye on I had no luggage let me run see if they can switch me to that but of course we sat at the gate for like half an hour after a 14-hour flight before we got off the plane Hashem it's all up to you it's no problem for whatever reason Hashem wants me to be sitting sitting at I can't tell you what the shear does for me you think I give the shear for you I give the she I give the shear for me because because I preach about this weekly how could I not live it so I'm in these circumstances where I'm ready to lose my cool I have no choice but to breathe deep and say okay a't no milado it's up to in fact I texted like 10 times in a row M to my wife so F I got off ran to the gate guy at the gate couldn't get on the 605 there was another flight to Fort lale every flight was not only booked but was oversold with waiting lists so I said you got to get me on this fort Lord one no I can't there's nothing it open there's a seat I'm switching you then he looks up and he says uhoh so what's uh oh he said I took you off the Miami one so I can switch you to the for one but by the time I got back to the for screen the seat's now gone so now you're on no flight was at my house I had seen my family all week I wanted to be home for shabas wherever you want me whatever you want from me this isn't my control there's nothing I can do okay then he looked up he said okay good got it back open I got you on you're on the fort Lord oh I was so happy I was so proud I took initiative I took I went to the desk I I saw his name tag used his name was very friendly got him to put in the extra effort and he for flight I was so proud of myself that now I'd get home earlier and have less of a drive home when I landed I'd see my family I'd get a decent night's sleep brilliant initiative human initiative right not so brilliant because as I walked away from his desk I got the text alert your flight to Fort Lauderdale has been delayed I'll fast forward because I want to get back to our learning but I'll just fast forward that my flight to fale took off after the flight from Miami landed landed landed I walked into my house at 400 a.m. so what's my point my point is as I was sitting there waiting for that new flight which by the way as we got to the gate cuz the incoming flight finally arrived and we're finally about to board at 12:15 they said actually nobody could board cuz the engineers need to go on the mechanics because there's a mechanical problem and I was okay aod Mado a I had a lot of aod Mado that night a Mado so why am I sharing all this right now because I sat there saying to myself did I do the right thing by trying to outsmart the system and go to Fort lale or maybe Hashem knew what he was doing originally when he made the ticket booked to Miami because knows what he's doing and I was meant to go to Miami I would have been home in bed sound asleep true a little bit more of a drive home but home asleep not 4:00 a.m. and I was second guessing did I take the initiative was that the mistake these are the moments in I don't have an answer because if it would have worked out the I'd say I'm such a genius everyone else so passive thinks it's up to hasem wanted me to take the initiative and go get on the four Lord so you only know after the fact whether what you did was right or wrong you don't get to see it ahead of time you only learn it in retrospect my point is it's really complicated it's really complicated I'm still stuck not knowing should I have gotten there and said I don't know why I'm on the Miami but that's where Hashem put me so leave it don't be such a knocker you got to walk up there and switch your flight that's where Hashem wanted you on the Miami leave it should I have done that did I make a mistake did I do this to myself by taking over initiative and trying to change something or should I have said Miami is inconvenient but clearly it made no sense so it must have been from Hashem for a reason I don't know I don't know nor do I know how it will influence the next time I have to make this same decision but I'll tell you what's good and healthy is that I'm thinking about that yeah that's what's healthy and that's the result of of our learning together is to be thinking about that tension so that tension exists in every which way how much initiative and how much do I sit back and say that's from Hashem when do I say I need to be assertive I need to influence I need to assert myself and when do I say I'm not sure why it's this way it's not the idea way I'd want it but this is from Hashem and I don't have a clear answer there are no clear parameters every situation is different every person is different every circumstance is different but the one parameter I'm trying to provide is to be thinking about it in that way not to always take over initiative not to be such a knocker is trying to manipulate every situation and think you're in control and think you can you know Bob and weave and and change every situation in life and you're in control of everything and on the other hand not to be so pass that you're AER and Ace and stepped on and taken advantage of and you walk through life where the whole world walks on you because you think it's a moon but really it's a cop out you're just you have no self-esteem and you're insecure and it can't be either extreme our mission is to find that balance and it's a mission says R but that's by Design Theon is trying to teach us how do we live with the satisfaction of our accomplishment but also never thinking it's up to us is that our destiny posten is to live this life of tension between when is it my initiative excuse me and when is it and when is it up to hasem May let's go back to learning to I have more travel stories but another time so now we have to contemplate and think about what is the aod the good of the aod to inject into all of our activities and our actions how much is too much and how much is enough how much do I have to take initiative because I'm responsible I have to take extreme ownership over my life and how much extreme ownership means I did what was reasonable but now I have to let go and let God says know in all of your ways says there the following quote in every action means every action every activity everything you're about to do you're going to the gym you're going shopping you're making a potato cooko you're about to short the market you're going long on the market you're about to be a lawyer a doctor a Raba whatever you're doing in life you're interacting with your children with their teachers whatever you're doing in life wherever you're going You're making your plane ticket you're switching your plane ticket whatever you're doing what it means no in all your paths and all your Journeys and all your ways who know him there is an invitation for him to be by your side let me put it to you differently what the Toto wants from us is that when you're walking by that when you're walking to the counter coming off the Israel segment to say Hashem what do you think should I try to switch to leave it in Miami he is your companion he is our friend he is our mate he is our spouse he is our parent he's with us everywhere we go so instead of running the same way that if you're traveling with someone you're close to a family member a close friend you'd say no what should we do what do you think should we try to switch it should we leave it what do you think you would think it out and think it through with that Confidant companion friend family member K is all of that and more so wherever we're going and whatever we're doing think it out with him you know where I learned that from this pastor it's an Evangelical Pastor who we work with on pro Israel things actually we're going to be pleased God in January Ambassador David Freeman is going to come speak and we're doing it in conjunction with his his pro-israel his pro-israel group so some I've been with him where we're trying to decide about something that we're working on and he'll say yeah I've said this before he'll say let's pray on it let's ask God that that's it true you're like what that's weird and then you're like wow that's actually what we're supposed to be doing and you got that from us that comes from us so means pray on it everything you're doing pray on it I don't mean you know you have to like spread out a carpet kneel down I don't mean you have to stop and say words and I don't mean they have to look up and make hand gestures but I mean the same way you would turn to your friend your family your companion you'd say no what do you think should try to switch the flight should we leave it what do you think what do you think we should do what do you think about the stock market should go long should go short what do you think here's what I'm thinking what do you think means everywhere you go and everything you do ask Hashem what do you think what do you think bring it now sometimes you may even hear him I don't mean literally then you need to get that checked out but I mean you may hear him that something will become clear there'll be a sign something will become clear something will unfold let you say thank you you weigh in I take it that that means leave it or I take it that means do it most often you won't hear him but nevertheless the act of inviting him into the conversation is valuable how many friends do we have where we talk out something with them where they actually offered us zero value they said nothing that actually was a value but the fact that they were the the the ear that allowed us to talk out the issue was of inestimable value it was incredible value because they enabled us to talk it out and we trusted them to talk it out we trusted that they had no bias had no ulterior motive that they weren't judging us that they were good listeners and that's an amazing value to us in its own right so that's live life that Hashem is that friend Confidant spouse family member who you could talk out anything with and talk it out with him and even though he may or may not talk back in a way you can hear but just talking it out well first of all it is contributing to closing the relationship with him because you feel much closer to the person that you've talked it out with even if they didn't say anything that was of Great Value but you've trusted them you confided in them you talked it out with them they were there for you they gave the time they were a good listener you feel closer so that's how we feel closer to Hashem but more than that more than that we've involved him we have satisfied this tension that we're supposed to be living with between between effort Free Will and and on the other hand in Every Act ask put your hope in him your trust in him ask him for help and success because the result is not in your hands result is not in your hands now by the way just as aide I'll tell you my mistake there are apps now where you can check flights where you can see the incoming flight I was in the whole half hour at the gate correct the whole flight at the gate I should have been on while I was sitting at that gate waiting to get off I should have been looking at that app to see the fort laudale Miami which plane is here which one is delayed coming in total amateur move I'm embarrassed but now now I know it doesn't it's no excuse no excuse no excuse no excuse G agent should have known anti-semite he should have known but it was a total amateur move on my part an amateur move on my part but now here's where kick in also which is there's no looking back I could have spent the 5 hour delay beating myself up but the now kick in that says my brain was suspended it was an amateur move clearly that was from Hashem that I acted like an idiot right in other words for whatever reason I was me I won't make the mistake again but also for whatever reason that was meant to be you know when we do something that even that that's also part of the tension well what do you mean do I blame hasem now but that was my initiative but maybe Hashem intervened to have me that initiative because that brought about the result that really came from hem these are questions that have no answers that will just give you a migraine but it's good to think about them it's good to be thinking about them because that's how we again work out the amuna muscle that's how we feed the amuna the amuna appetite that's how we grow the yunas to be thinking about to be thinking about these things so but it's really really important to never look back to be able to say I'm looking forward I'm not going to beat myself up because this at some point even when it was your own mistake you have to say I'm going to learn from it going forward but I'm not going to beat myself up and I'm not going to marinate and stew in that mistake I'm not going to perseverate What's The Word in that mistake because then what that's that's like equally I've I've forfeited the to the point that I'm I'm beating myself up so says this is an extension of the Trust on with all your heart so you have we've talked about this you got big talkers lip service people they subscribe to every on WhatsApp and email and shear and they've got bumper stickers and they've got little all over their house and everything they say is and they're big amuna all day long shuckling to and then they go to business where they're ruthless and they act like it all depends on them or they lose their cool because they're angry at what someone else did without realizing it's from hasem says you can have a lot of Amun as lip service you could have amuna in the abstract in theory but it's lacking in every action that's why it says it's an amazing inide of why is there have the redundancy first it says trust in hm with all your heart then it says know hasem in all of your ways why the redundancy because you can have a break between the two you could trust in Hashem in your heart but that trust in your heart never comes out to your hands it never comes out to your actions it never comes out poo to the reality and the choices that you make so if someone sits you down and says are you a m do you have I'm the biggest M I have so much you never saw someone with so much can imagine how much I have I have the most in my heart good so why did you lose your cool in traffic and why are you ruthless when it comes to business and why did you yell at your kid because the thing turned out whatever when it really it was from hasem you could have it all in your heart you could have it all in theory but does it filter down does it make its way from the heart to the hands to the actions to it hold an amazing Insight from so some people look at hem for the big things right so if there's an enormous hasem bring World Peace hasem I've got to cross the sea I've got to do some enormous task and I know I can't do it without you some enormous I'm just going to say hell Mary pass but that's probably inap inappropriate context but some enormous Wishful things big project where it's unlikely to succeed so then they can turn to hem for that but again when it comes to the little things they forget to turn to and to mention if you really think you know what I'm going to give you a petty stupid example whether this potato cougar comes out well or not is up to Hashem I can put in all the ingredients and I put in the oven for the right amount of time and I heated the oil before i p ped into the potatoes I could do all the things right use all the little tricks of the trade but whether it works out or not up to hasem so you understand I mean you read the you know if you read the reitan Maus book or reitan kvki book you see that they live the part that's inspiring to me is every potato cooko came with a little let the potato cooko work out let there be no traffic let this flow let me find the right words Hashem let this difficult conversation go smoothly Hashem let this business deal succeed Hashem everything everything Hashem I'm putting on my pants let me not trip and bang my nose Hashem let me okay let's not we don't have to debilitate ourselves by going crazy but the person a little certainly when it comes to big things let's pray on it let's ask he's my companion new hasm what do you think trying to decide a big thing where should I send my kids to school where should I send my kids to Camp how should I punish my child if I'm conern how should I reward my child what should I do about do we ever stop and say no hasm what do you think what do you think let me talk with you I want to feel like you're in this room with me you're in the room parent teacher conferences should be parent teacher Hashem in every conference IEM you're in the room you're in the conversation so there are people who all the is in their heart and it never comes out to the world of action at all we saw that when we studied the K who talked about the businessman who's in sh shuckling like a mad man saying from a cloth and the TOs over his and he's got the long he's got all the he's doing all the schools and all the tricks and then he leaves the sh and he becomes a new person he goes to business where because he's got a competitor he's ruthlessly trying to destroy the competitor and said the such a person has no because you would realize K wants you to be a zillionaire you'll be a zillionaire with 100 competitors and if you have a you walk across the street to the competitor and you say welcome to town MA opening your store do you need any help can I help you you want to know the names or numbers of any of my distributors or advertisers or how can I help you that's an extreme example but if you really have a you're to help your competitors because you realize your success is from Hashem so the there described the people who have crazy amuna in their heart when push comes to sh when the rubber meets the road there's no there's no whatsoever so that's one extreme then you have the people who have a lot of am when it comes to the big things oh Hashem make world peace hasem I have a friend who's very sick and I need you and only you but when it comes to their own lives and their own decisions and their own things and their own success then there's no Hashem the real Mission says this is all raaa gr lived in the lived in the uh 12th century I think medal comment on first is the in all of your heart trust inem good it's in your heart you've worked it out you're not an atheist you're not an agnostic you don't think we're here by chance you don't think we're here good you've worked it out it's in it's in your heart you really believe there's a first cause there's a greater being there's a you really believe there's a Hashem good that's the first step the second step is now is that coming out in your life do you confide in him is he in the room is he part of the conversation do you pray to him do you thank him for the big things and for the Small Things the potato C says this ins of is clear it doesn't need to be elaborated or elucidated but let me add to it the Insight of also a medieval commentary who in his writes the following a person has to just like when it comes to life or death we know it's not in our hands we understand when it comes to the big thing right we understand the couple struggling with infertility understand that they're ding from the depths of their heart he said Rael right they're ding from the depths of their heart they know I went to the fertility lab and I spent $40,000 and I took the shots and I did everything but whether we can have a healthy child is up to hashm they know it and the person on the other side who has some loved one in an end of life situation in hospice or or who's in a terminal situation knows they're ding to Hashem will there be another hour will there be another day will there be another month when it com comes to we know and we pray and we feel but what about the other things the Small Things what about our food and our clothing and our apartment do we understand also that that too is from Hashem it's not just the big enormous things life or death so if somebody says to you hey I love your dress where'd you get it what should be your answer from Hashem not Nordstroms or Lord and tayor or Marshals or wherever you go shopping Target I don't know wherever you go shopping where you get I understand so you can tell them afterwards where'd you get the dress it's from Hashem oh Hashem allowed me to get it at whatever the house the apartment the house the apartment the food again I'm not telling you to be a weirdo among your friends but I'm sayings do it if your friends all do it you're not a weirdo and we can introduce all of us doing this because what an incredible level but says again it's not internal it's not theoretical it shouldn't just be in the heart it's got to be and it shouldn't just be in action when it comes to the things that clearly we all concede we have no part of life and death we can all clearly concede that we don't control but what about the things we think we do control our money our food you know and so on and so forth someone compliment say thank you Hashem helped me make it he was in the kitchen with me help me make it somebody compliments you on the Dr thank you Hashem helped me write it he was in my office when I was writing AA and I asked him for helping helping me write it somebody compliments you on the legal case you closed or the surgery you successfully performed thank you hashm was in the operating room Hashem was in the courtroom in the boardroom with me Hashem helped me invest in the stock not just when it comes to the enormous things and not just in our heart he says just like the farmer you understand the Torah was designed as part of an agricultural system and the farmer lives with this and he can't avoid it because the farmer knows that they depend on the rain the weather they depend on avoiding the pestilence and the hurricane and the tsunami and the earthquake every single day they live with that they could never confuse now yet do they put backbreaking labor to PW plow and to plant and to harvest and the wi all the 11 steps getting from planting wheat to eating bread so the farmer deserves to take pride in the backbreaking labor of the wonderful Harvest that they that they yielded this year but the farmer lives with that satisfaction every day knowing that it's from Hashem and just because we've become a non-agricultural society doesn't mean that any less we should be thinking feeling his presence in every aspect of our lives and our success so we have to stop taking credit stop getting overjoy or too much satisfaction But realize that there's a partnership in everything we do there's a part partnership and there a news flesh we are the junior partner not the senior partner we think we did the heavy lifting we spent the most time we risk the most money whatever we're doing in life we are the junior partner we are the junior partner the one who determines success is the Reon Shalom he is the senior partner wow what an effort says if you combine this and this they're both talking about that tension between effort and initiative on the one hand and trust in hasm on the other we have to find the balance of the two they have to complement one another put in our effort and derive the satisfaction from it but at the same time we have to at the same time turn to Hashem and realize he is the he is the senior partner that's say we take a year off seventh year the farmer says you know what this year I'm going to have zero income I'm not working at all it doesn't belong to me at all and I'm going to rely on on the one hand we're commanded you can't just sit back on your couch you can't sit at home and say entitlement Hashem is going to provide Hashem is going to provide I was uh somebody texted me from from New York area and uh asking for advice they have a child who uh they say went off the Der but not losing from Kai went off the Derk by going in the opposite direction now just wants to sit and learn doesn't want to work and so on and so forth doesn't see the value of working ask for advice I said let me ask you a question do you pay for their cell phone and their they have your credit card and are you buying their clothing yeah I said and I said did you challenge them that they need to work because they need an income that you're not prepared to to support them yes but their answer is Hashem will provide Hashem will provide so they're changing the whole trajectory in the track of their life because hasem will provide I said good I'll tell you how you educate them very quickly turn off their cell phone call the cell phone company and say you're not paying the bill and take away the credit card you're no longer paying that bill and if you're paying for the car and the registration of the guest and the insurance take the car back and do and and you can give a very overnight lesson about whether Hashem is providing or not Hashem does provide to those who you know the biggest schoa is for parasa is to have a job that's the biggest schoola there is for parnasa Hashem will provide we have to take our initiative and we have to get the job so on the one hand we're not in the ganen anymore that young man wants to think he's in ganeden but Adam is out of ganeden we were expelled we were exiled that that that horse is out of the gate whatever the expression is that's over Adam's out of ganen this kid could want to get back into ganen and there are communities of such kids who want to get back into ganen Hashem will provide but this is is a pretty religious Rabbi there's a we are commanded to make an effort when it comes to oura but so we make the effort but then we shouldn't trust in it our our responsibility is to make the effort but then not to trust in it it's kind of paradoxical two opposites in one idea it's paradoxical I'm supposed to on the one hand believe that I'm obligated to make an effort but at the same time accept that the success may or may not come from my effort I've shared this many times before also that my brother-in-law is a lawyer in Israel tells me all the time that whenever he tries to network to bring in business for his legal practice he always always finds that when he exerts the effort to network he takes the initiative to be a rain maker he's able to bring in business and it's almost always not business from the effort that he made so I fly in New York and set up 10 meetings and I'll get back to Israel and none of those 10 meetings led to anything but 10 other people called him of old business he did or someone else knew recommended him and he sees the correlation between the initiative he's taking and the results he's getting and that he needs to take Initiative for hasem to provide results but that's where the correlation stops the initiative actually is not what's bringing the results that's exactly what R is describing here it's exactly what he's describing hasem says to take initiative don't sit back fatalistically don't sit back with a sense of entitlement like I'm going to provide you have to take initiative we're outside G we have to take initiative that's our job but at the same time then we have to stop and realize whether I'll have success or not will not come from my initiative Shem can make the success come from somewhere else alt together they can make the initiative fail and flop right on its face the is to do if I really trust that hm will provide but hem says that the way to get it is through then I have to do my I gave you this example last time or two times ago that the person I still think they haven't collected their $ 1.5 billion lottery winnings they have the ticket so in other words there's a billion half dollars waiting for a family that will change their family forever and ever that they can use to change the world in enormous ways but they don't have the money yet why they can't find the ticket because you got to turn the ticket you got to turn the ticket in order to get it you just I use this no I used it in another context about Fila it's the same thing is true here turning in the ticket is the initiative you have to have that hm's giving you the $ 1.5 billion dollar but if you don't turn on the ticket he can't give it to you he has it and he's ready to give it and he wants to give it but he doesn't give it the access the key to getting it the key literally and figuratively is hisas this guy with the ticket so why doesn't he say why do I have to bring you in the ticket just transfer the money to my account I won I won I sit at home on my couch I got the winning numbers so just transfer the money to my account why are me the money why do I have to turn in the ticket what's the answer the winnings areai for you you have to do theas that's what my brother-in-law is saying I know new business is waiting for me the cost of getting that new business is networking and taking some initiative will that initiative be that which brings in the new business maybe maybe not but the cost of bringing in new business is taking initiative so that's what he's saying the is saying this is the it's amazing the a of is what do you mean is the oppos no it's not if you understand that designed the world after we left G then you understand that is not the opposite of it is part and parcel is turning in the ticket the opposite of receiving the winnings it is the means to receive the winnings so the way to to draw from the of what hasem has in store for us is by showing that initiative you need to have a k to get the BR correct it's the CLE to accept it the vessel accept it to realize that everything depends and relies entirely and exclusively on his will and the way to access his will is to show him that we're willing to take and we're willing to make an effort as well all right mem will pick up from here next week wow