Pesach Sheni - A 24 hour opportunity to live... - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] we want to dedicate this class toel Ben should have immediate recovery in and tomorrow is and excuse me tonight tonight yes tonight and tomorrow is p and we want to talk a little bit about what it means and not less important to mention that tonight is also the hilula the yard of R Balan and although there is some opinions that say that tonight is not really his Zula just that the sages wanted his day of passing or the commemorating of the day will be close to rabish Shimon barai who was a good friend of his and they were both students of RAB AKA then they made it close to to Shimon but nevertheless this is when we commemorate the day of the passing of R Balan who's a very very special Sage we're not going to learn about to him about today about him but just that you know another good reason to celebrate but we're celebrating the day that is called P sh a second PES which in itself arouses a very big question what's so different about P that it has a second one why don't we have a p and why don't we have auk why why this holiday has to get a second chance so first of all the the simple explanation of p as it says in the Torah that whoever was impure at the time when they had to sacrifice the sacrifice of PES or they were far away on a journey and they can't they couldn't do the sacrifice this is called Corban P the sacrifice of PES which is a very serious sacrifice that it's so serious that if Shalom somebody does not do this sacrifice this is one of the one of the 36 sins in the Torah that the severity of it falls under the category of K in thought you have 36 34 are negative two are positive the two that are positive is circumcision it's a positive Mitzvah that if a person doesn't do circumcision circumcising the child is basically is not doing a positive Mitzvah but the severity of it is so serious that the result will be coret correct means when the soul gets chopped off the second one isban p is the sacrifice of P all the rest all the all the rest of the 34 are negative eating on P eating onip desecrating Shabbat all the Forbidden relations eating from the holy sacrifices Kim doing things like SE and and all that these the sins that cover in the butb P the sacrifice of p is a positive Mitzvah and it's a serious serious Mitzvah to a point that the Torah comes and says if you miss the Opportunity by being impure at the time if a person had leprosy then he couldn't give the Corban or if somebody was out on the road it was on a journey so the Torah comes and says okay we'll give you a second chance this is the general idea of p and that's one of the reasons why all the other holidays don't have a second chance because there's no such a MIT that if you didn't reach home to light kanuka candles then you need to light it again you missed it you missed it that's it it's not such a I mean it's a good Mitzvah it's a beautiful Mitzvah it's not a Mitzvah from the Torah and it's definitely not a Mitzvah that Shalom if I fail then then the severity is correct same with the Suka even though it's a Mitzvah say but the severity if I don't do it is not that severe here it says in the Torah that a group of people came to moso and they said hey that's not fair we didn't get to do this Mitzvah I was impure I was away on the road I wasn't in the State of Mind of doing it that's not fair so when M went to consult says okay you know give them a next chance that's it so the basic explanation of P Shen is coming to affirm to us that there's always a second chance hasem is always accepting us when we regret what we did and he's accepting our chuva this is quoting a from the book of that he says the prophet says that hem is not going to leave anybody behind he's going to give you enough opportunities to do what you need to do and P comes to signifies that there's always a second chance Hashem was always going to accept my apology he's always going to accept my Chua just do an action so this is a general idea of P which in itself is a very deep concept to understand that I can I messed up no problem nothing happened we read that every Friday on that we read on the fourth verse of the psalm we read meaning that get up rush off all the dirt and move on nothing happened so you failed big deal most people if they shom fail it can cause them to fall into depression or sadness or they fall into despair now that's it I messed up I can't do it anymore I I I I I'm I I I I lost it so to say so the entire holidays comes to teach me no no no nothing nothing happened as R from says why you falling into despair nothing happened it's the that creates the situation for you to think that you messed up really sometimes the the bad actions that I do or if I do sins or if I do all sort of things the will come and present it like it I'm a lost case or will come and tell me look at you you're a loser look at the sin you just did why are you pretending what could you did this today you have the to show up in a this morning the is going to ride on the wave and start presenting the situation and distort the situation or I will come to do a certain Mitzvah and the is going to tell me what are you pretending but you're so fake yesterday you did this and that the day before you lied the day before you say now you're pretending to be so religious don't pretend to be religious but that's just the yet coming to present the situation to make me feel like I'm a failure sometimes the process of me achieving something is to fail many times and that's something we don't understand and you know you gave you last week a beautiful analogy Karen you gave an analogy with a bus going backwards and forward there's another bus by the way and I'm going to have to share with you Karen's analogy is that we have a very sharp curve here and the buses all the time get stuck here especially now with the scaffolding on this building sometimes they get stuck here for an hour and they go back forward back forward this guy look at him he bumped into the wall already I I'm with one eye I'm one I'm looking at you one ey I'm looking at if he's going to do damages to my wall he's backing he's going backwards and forward already 20 times probably 50 times Karen gave a beautiful analogy that sometimes in order to go through a tight or narrow P path you have to go back forward G forward back forward till you align yourself to be able to go through sometimes the bad acts that we do the sins the bad thoughts whatever it is that's part of the plan I have to go through it Tak an example now look at this wall we're covering the wall now with bricks you see what the guy did he made holes in the walls those holes were not there these holes are in order to put the glue you know he made only the first level but now he's going to come today I told him not to disturb US during the class he's going to come later and continue it but in order for the glue to grab good he had to chop these holes in the walls he came and and started banging the wall I was like what are you doing I told you to fix the wall why are you breaking the wall he's like no the glue has to grab real good so I have to make holes now the glue is going to grab the wall real good now I can put the tiles so in essence one might say you just damaged my wall I paid you now a lot of money to fix the wall not to damage the wall and he says listen don't show a Jew a halfway job yeah you have to wait till the end that's the process and in order for the to fix something you have to damage a little bit before a very extreme example look at a root canal person Shalom has a root canal I don't wish it to anyone and the doctor has to shave your tooth and he drills in the tooth he has to ruin the tooth to get to the root and then he has to drill in the root and then he has to pull all the nerves out of it I'm we're not going to go into descriptions here but look how much destruction the dentist has to do to get to the to the root of the tooth to pull this microscopic nerve that causes all the problems and then he has to seal it all and then he crowns it and then he fixes everything and all looks good this comes to teach you something very simple in creation that sometimes in order to fix you have to damage you have to create a certain damage it looks on the surface like a damage but it's not it's proud of the process and this is a perfect example maybe we should later on take a picture of it for the viewers to see this is a perfect example go to the other room in the back we're fixing one of the walls the whole wall is broken down and again same idea in order to fix you have to make some type of a problem a blemish so a lot of the times we will be pushed so to say to do a sin and you like I didn't want to get into this situation how many times you've been pushed into a situation now you have to now say or lie or you go into an argument and you're like I don't want to be in this argument why is this person pulling me into the argument right now so sometimes I'm being pushed to do certain things not too long ago somebody H text me and he told me listen I couldn't text you when it actually happened but I was driving to a Shabbat meal in Manhattan and I left queens and there was so much traffic I got stuck on the way and now what should I do I'm on the bridge should I leave the car on the bridge I can leave the car on the bridge he's like I didn't know what to do he asked me after the fact but I told him first of all you know how long before Shabbat did you leave he like 3 hours I mean this is like a 45 minute drive I went 3s hours in advance so I said okay this is a perfect example for you to see that you did everything in your power but caused you to get stuck on a bridge on Shabbat so you had to desecrate Shabbat so first of all don't be so hard on yourself because it's not in your hands not wasn't in your control you didn't say now I'm going to deliberately desecrate Shabbat you did everything in your power to leave early and you just got stuck in traffic so the the point to take from that that sometime the Kosh puts me in situations he will put me in a situation that will cause me to sin now the yet will jump on the opportunity right away and be like Oh see you're Wicked person you just sin don't pretend to be so religious now you can let everything go you did one little thing now okay you already did a little sin okay so you can eat in McDonald's and and you can do this and this right now you already SE anyways I'm already already already go dirty let me get dirty all the way but that's just the illusion that the comes the point is that sometimes I'm forced to sin that's the the divine plan and it's in order for me to climb up it's in either for me to see something sometimes in order to see where I'm holding I have to be placed in a very low place to realize where I am and to realize that I have to change so the whole concept of p is to come to teach me that there's no never a lost case I can always try again and I can always fix what I damaged now this is the general idea of P but that's already been taught and it was explained I want to touch something different is that Nissan Nissan is when the first p is and the second p is in so we see already from that that we s to say celebrating two PES but one of them is coming from the side of Nissan which is controlled by the attribute of and the other and the other P the p is coming in which that is being controlled by the attribute of G so I have two motions you see how many backwards and forth he's going he has a big ton this driver so you never know maybe he'll shave a you know the building on the other side has a lot of scars mirrors air conditioners Windows just look at the window on the right side the building where thing already half of a food was shaved off the building the pass are experiencing now this is really Inc so see this is the to comes and tells us that sometimes in life you're stuck sometimes in life you will be stuck like this bus that is stuck there right now this is not the only one he's not that he's a bad driver every driver depending on the length of the bus of course but you know in The Old City you see a lot but here especially but look see how hasem Works we're talking about P Shen we talking about Second Chances and hasm is giving us right in front of us an analogy to understand that sometime in life you're stuck doesn't matter how many times you'll go backwards and forth you are stuck and you're going to be stuck there till Hashem decides that you're out of being stuck all he requires from you is the backwards and forwards and the backwards and forth he it seems like he's going to make it now look how Hashem is teaching us you know this is a Sign by the way that you learn the Tor lishma if you ever heard of the term that you have to learn Torah for its sake and a lot of people ask me what does it mean to learn the Torah for its sake when you see live an example of what you learn it means that you're learning the Torah of lishma that hasem is showing you what you learn learning right in front of your face so we're in a very good place means that our our learning is in a very high level that Hashem says here what you're learning I'm showing it to you live in front of you so you can apply the learning into our physical life so our life runs into situations that I'm stuck that I'm stuck in a narrow path and I can't go through now I fall into depression I fall into despair I give up I get angry I get frustrated but Hashem is telling me what are you talking about I put you in this Narrow Path right now just go backwards and forth and backwards and forth that's it that's the name of the game so same thing with PES Shen I have the same idea is the PES and then backwards and forth the backwards and forth and I have here's another one good luck we should stand there and sell tickets so the first P comes inan thean is is in the control of the mid of and the next p comes in the month of Y which is controlled by the middle of G which in the months of Nissan there was a lot of so they were able to go out of their slavery like that it just kindness hasem just pulled them out in the S the the month of Y we are required to apply the G the severity the the where we cut the separation and I'll tell you what I mean the reason why on P sh the people could were not able to to sacrifice is either they were far away on a journey or they were impure now it's referring to now to an impurity that we call it a they had a certain impurity they could not perform the Mitzvah now what does it mean the impurity of death to matm right now we are all have this impurity of death of tat met the baby just comes out to the world the doctor touches the baby right away tat met we all have this Tuma on us this impurity it will only be changed very soon mhia is going to come the first sacrifice mashia is going to have to do is going to be the red heer he's going to take the red heer the the mitvah is to burn it to ashes you take the ashes you mix it in in certain amount of water and you sprinkle the water on Whoever has tat the purity of dead of death and then that's it no T much met anymore so very soon mashia is going to come and that's the the prophet Isaiah says the Masia is going to be able to remove the power of impurity from the world suddenly we're all going to wake up we're going to start hugging each other we're going to start apologizing to each other oh I love you so much I'm sorry that I talk about you all the time and therefore there's not going to be any more death there's not going to be any more impurity there's not going to be any more anger and and despair that's why we're waiting for mashiach to come already but till then we are in a state of impurity which is considered the worst type of impurity toat met because we touched a dead body and toat met is is can be moved by touching by that's it that just touch and that's it so since we don't have bet mikdash for close to 2,000 years then we don't have a red heer we don't have the the the water that can be sprinkled by a priest so we're all in that's it that's why we have a from here till Chicago that's why we have all these that's why we have all these desires that are forbidden that's why we we we find it hard to serve AEM it's not our fault so this T is the most severest impurity there are many types of impurities can be T when a woman has her cycle she has an impurity doesn't mean she's dirty she it's a certain spiritual impurity a certain spiritual State one goes to the mik that's it no more there's all sorts of different types of T of impurity but the severe one is called tumat besides that I can get it just by being touched by somebody who was in the presence of a dead body but how do I fall into this level of impurity is when I feed the cpot with my sins if I now lie then I fed my K my Holiness I gave it to the kipa that's why the kipa is called M the cipa is called M why because it's pulling me in to a place of impurity I now do certain negative act I lie I cheat I I I do anything in that respect or I don't do a certain Mitzvah or I do a severe sin then I will fall into the kipa till I do CH now my my life force is in the kipa is controlled by the kipa the kipa is the opposition of Holiness it's it's it's a it's a compared to a husk to a negative energy that's controlling now my it's holding my money so to say it's like in the real world if you owe money to a certain government office or to another bank they possess your money they do a levy on your money they take your money they go into your bank account and put a a lean on your money this is the same idea it's your money pay your debt we'll give it back to you same here I do a sin I take my my Godly life and I give it to the kipa now it's in the possession of somebody else till I do cha I do cha I'll get it back but till then I'm pulled into the I'm considered dead this is this T this impurity now p is the time that allows me not to be dead spiritually because I can be very religious we spoke about it in the class before that I can perform Mitzvah all day long and I can be three times a day in the synagogue and have a long beard and put fing on me and learn Tor and do all the mitv but then I lie so I go out into the world and I lie to somebody in one shot all my mitv they get suned into a domain that doesn't belong to me one lie you know toly the same toly or I I said I'm talking about basic things that we do every day I'm not talking about now bowing to an idol talking about a basic thing I go and lie this is a severe sin you're not have to lie not allowed to cheat not allow to steal and we constantly we do gazel every day we're failing in gazel just because we don't know what it means gel gazel means that you take something that would doesn't belong to you without permission it's not stealing stealing is coming in the at at night when nobody noticed and you sneak into the house and you take something out this is stealing or many other ways gazel is that you're taking something from somebody that doesn't belong to you and without their permission and without their knowledge that you took it from them and we're failing in gel a lot we spoke about it in one of the previous classes you go now into a a restaurant and you take those little bags of ketchup that don't belong to you this is gazel it's not yours when you eating in the restaurant and you ordered your French fries and they give you the the ketchup you can use it but you're not allowed to go to the C put your hand into the ketchups and go away and to say in 3 days I I need to have a ketchup this is gazel not too long ago if you see behind you the station with a tea not too long ago I'm sitting here somebody comes with two hands like that takes maybe 40 bags of tea and he goes and I'm like what are you doing he's like no I for me to have I told him not that I care you can take 50 but this is gazel because this is here for you to come and make a cup of tea not to pack up to have tea for the next two weeks this is gazel because you didn't steal from me you did it in front of my face and but it's not there for you to stack up on your tea this is here for you to come you want to drink 50 Cups of Tea a day you can sit on the pot if you want and drink tea all day long this is it for you but you can't come and stack up your home with bags of teas not that I mine it's I was just I was telling him I'm caring about you you this is gazel that you take something doesn't belong to you and it's not for the cause of where you are sometimes you know the pizza store they give you pizza and they put on the pizza all the toppings or whatever and they give it to you that's not gazel you know to walk into the store and start picking you know there was a lady here if you remember her that she said that she wants St in a 7-Eleven and she bought drinks but she knew on their picnic they're going to have hot dogs and she needed ketchup and she took from the 7even left the bags of ketchup told her that's gazm cuz you were planning on something it's two days later you the fact that you if you bought a drink there you're allowed to take a straw you're allowed to take a cup you can take 50 cups if you ask if you ask and the owner tells you go and take then you asked but in most cases the person in the counter is not the owner he can't tell you he can tell you take whatever you want he's a employee but if you ask the owner and you tell them can I take some napkins yeah you know somebody asked me a not too long ago you go to a hotel in the hotel they put shampoos now if I'm taking all these shampoos is that Guin now if you're in the hotel and you paid for the room and you're taking a shower you can use 500 of them it's not gazel you're in the hotel but to take from the trolley you know how the room service they have the charlee you can take from that and go home that's gazel now if you went to the lobby and you told them can I take a few shampoos home I love that shampoo and they tell you yes then they give you permission but you can't go like this and say oh well I paid them $500 for my stay the the shampoo cost dollar doesn't matter if it costs a cent so we're totally sidetracked but gizzle is a very severe thing and it's important to learn all about it because we fail in gazel a lot gazel is a very severe sin we not to do gazel so we constantly fail in very random things that we don't even notice here A Lie Here We cheat here here we slander somebody here we take something so I'm not blaming anybody I'm not judging anyone I'm just state that we are human and we do all of things that are not 100% kosher what it does that is it takes my my life force and puts it into the kipa that's it now I have to redeem it I have to take it out as long as it's in the kipa I'm considered spiritually dead in a death level p is the time that I'm able to reverse it to reverse the state not to be dead anymore to be alive first PES it took me out of slavery out of my limitation into Freedom the second PES comes to change the state of where I am so P sh is a very powerful time even though we're not required to do anything I mean we eat matah tonight some people read some pieces of the hagada that's it that's what we do we don't do a big celebration but this is the time that we need to focus on that now what will really cause me to fall into that level I mean we know that it says that a person sins only because a comes into him it's not our fault that a a spirit of foolishness possessed me for one second it caused me to sin basically we're we're Shaking All responsibility off us it's not wasn't me a foolish Spirit came into my mind and caus me to to Z but we're not trying to blame anybody we're trying to find Solutions and the reason why I will fall into such a place is from one one motion that I do and it's that I'm not being loyal to myself when I'm not being loyal to myself then I will fall into that level and being loyal to myself means to lie to myself to be honest with myself to be straightforward I mean it's one thing that you lie to somebody else that's that's that's prohibited but we lie to ourselves all the time I make up all sorts of excuses and when a person lies to themselves then they put themselves in that place that I'm not loyal to myself if I lie to you if you're my partner right now and I lie to you I'm not loyal to you if I lie to my wife and she told me to do something and I told her whatever excuse I'm not loyal to her basically when I lie to somebody I'm not loyal to him and lying is a very severe thing and unfortunately people don't take the concept of lying seriously and I keep repeating it in many different lectures how severe it is the the fact of lying and if one wants to work on at least one good mid on them is to work on the mid that is called being truthful and it's not easy I know there are many situations people says listen I have to say a lie you don't have to there's no such a thing it doesn't say in the that you have to say a lie you are permitted to say a lie when it's a time of somebody can Shalom die you're allowed to say a lie you know also permits you to a little bit distort the reality when it comes to schom so you're allowed to a little bit bend the ends but in most cases it's just not say something just prevent from saying not to to to invent a lie lying is very very bad and people who lie to themselves all the time eventually they lie to everybody around them and I know people don't like being rebuked too much but I constantly say when a person is very focused on the Meda of a of truth then he's called is it says that's what it's talking about it's talking about the is a met it's all about truth it's nothing but the truth if you work on yourself that every word that comes out of your mouth is truth yes sometimes it's not you it's not going to be the best situation somebody gives you something to eat it tells you how's the food so what are you going to say it's horrible so sometimes better to say I don't like it excuse me for sh B you can lie but again it's yeah but again you when it says you're allowed to lie for Shalom is you you miss a detail you don't start coming and developing lies that's there's a very big difference between not talking or saying something that is you know how's the soup instead of saying it's disgusting says the chicken is very good whatever it is the point is when it comes to shalom you're allowed to manipulate a little thing to change a little thing and in some extreme situation maybe withhold the truth but to start developing lies that's a different problem already so in general any person needs to work on their Med of when a person constantly is running after the truth then by default his entire actions are pure I told you so many times that in one time many years ago I came back on y Kip after a day of fasting the whole day I wasn't home there's no point of coming home from the shore there's nothing going on at home so after 24 hours I come home the kids go to sleep and my wife and me are sitting and having a nice cup of tea and then I tell her what's your what's your resolution for the year and she says I decided this I decided that and and then she told me what's your resolution what's your and I said I decided not to lie anymore and she was very surprised she was like you you don't lie and I tell her I do I lie all the time I lie to you I lie to you I lie to Hashem and I lied to myself and she couldn't understand what I'm talking about and I told her listen if I say that I don't lie then I'm lying so so I decided not to lie anymore so I because if I say oh I don't lie you're a liar you you do lie you just lie today and you lied yesterday you lied the day before so there are different levels in lying you know that exaggerating is lying so you come and tell a story and you want to sound like a hero and you add a few details that's lying according to that's lying a white lie I don't even know who invented the color why can't it be a pink pink light I mean what is it's different grades if it's a blue light then it's a more severe light if it's a white light it's not that bad I mean I don't even know who came up with that a lie is a lie even when you exaggerate that's considered a lie according to so I told my wife I'm decided to stop lying and I made myself a uh uh something to practice I had a little notebook and every time that I would lie I would write down 12:15 I said like this and like that 132 I said this and that and I was honest with myself because it's very easy to lie and say no that's not a lie and then I would come at the end of the day when I said and I found out that the notebook was pretty pretty full an example of a not a real but a a lie that is not a real lie everything is a lie okay no a lie your wife would say you don't lie so what would be a lie she she just meant that I I came across as a very honest person so a lie that is that one would say is not a lie you're late for a meeting somebody will tell you why were you late I'm waiting here for 20 minutes no we said we we we're going to meet at 1:15 no we said at 1 you know that we said no but we said 1115 you just don't want to say that you were lazy or you woke up late or it took you 20 minutes to decide which dress you're going to wear you arguing we didn't say 130 we said one that's a lie you know even sometimes it's basic things you want to return something to the store it was damaged it wasn't damaged I say you don't want it and how many times you come with a receipt listen H it's it was open no it wasn't just said that you don't want it so sometimes and again I'm giving you basic examples and and you know you sitting in a restaurant somebody you bring get your dish you eat it disgusting and you come and say listen it's cold it's not cold just say I don't like it can you replace it I don't like this dish so again I can give you now 5,000 examples you have to be honest with yourself that before you talk you filter your sentence and you say is it really the truth what I'm about to say and you have to make a judgment if it's 100% truth or not now again I know the situation that somebody's going to give you a meal and going to tell you no how's the soup and you like it's disgusting it's horrible so what are you going to say you're going to tell that person it's horrible so again sometimes it's better to finish with something quick and not to drag it because yes sometimes it's embarrassing to say on the spot listen I don't like it I don't want to but if you say oh I love it now every time you're going to go to Vis another person you getting that soup and he but you love it so much and after 100 times like I can't stand the soup already and that person says a whole 10 years you're telling me you like the soap so you a lie unfortunately procreates you say one lie it has to develop the second lie lies have Generations you cannot say one lie once you made the first lie you already have to think of the backup lie because because you have to back up the first one now what happens is after 3 four generations you don't remember what you said oh my gosh what did I tell him I don't remember what I said so to start with it it's it's a bad thing and I made myself this note book that I would write every time and I found out that I'm dishonest let's use a nicer word dishonest many times lying is a harsh word people say oh you're calling me a liar now so it was very very important to me to make sure that every word that comes out of my mouth is truth because a I don't want to lie I'm made in the image of Hashem Hashem doesn't lie hem says this is the truth this is the reality I'm sorry I'm sorry you don't like it that's the reality deal with it and when you make yourself live by the rule that it's only about a then you first stop lying to other people and you also build yourself a reputation this is an honest person now of course it has to be done the right way just not going to walk in the street and you're going to start telling people you're ugly you're horrible you're disgusting you're not going to come and say that sometimes not saying something is that's consider lying it's just you hold back but the most important thing is you want to get to a point that you don't lie to yourself if you allow yourself to lie to everybody you're going to lie to Hashem like as if Hashem doesn't know and mainly you lie to yourself and that's what you don't want to reach the place that puts me in this pure in this place of impurity of this tat met is that I lie to myself and this is called that I'm not loyal to myself and I make up all these ideas in my mind and that's what I want to prevent I do not want to get to this point because if I lie to myself I would lose my my I would lose myself and so many times you can catch yourself saying who am I fooling what am I pretending but I'm fooling myself what kind of a level do I reach that I had I have to lie to myself who am I fooling now outside on the street you behave a certain way and then you come home and you behave a completely different way and some people that's totally fine for them and some people says who am I fooling or outside I'm pretending that I'm so religious and inside in the home I do whatever I want who am I fooling I'm only foing myself so I know sometimes hearing harsh words is not the funnest thing but the point is that I want to refine myself I want to climb to a much higher level and I want to resemble my Creator Hashem tells me I want you to resemble me we just now learned in the par last week says to you be holy I'm holy resemble me following my footsteps I don't lie you don't lie now you know what's the most annoying thing is that usually what you do it backlashes at you if you lie all the time then your kids are going to lie to you and you're telling them why are you lying to me I'm your father you you planted the seed why you and kids think that they're smarter than you so they lie to your face and you're like listen I was once 8 years old too I know all the tricks I know you're lying to me no and it just reflects on you you you you are basically shining on everything and it reflects back at you and it's the the most annoying thing that you C catch somebody that lies to you what are you talking about you told me a no no I told you B can go out of out of your mind and that's just a reflection of yourself so enough with the the point is that I want to reach to a high level in order for me to reach to a high level I have to be Pure Clean and AIT truth as they say in America the truth will set you free and the more you practice being loyal to yourself the higher you can grow the concept of PES is going out of my limitation is going into a much higher spiritual level in P it happens free why because it comes from theid of it's just given to me on P I have to initiate I have to put down my foot down this is where it comes from gor I have to lead gab to over come my desire to be less loyal to myself I will wake up in the morning my will tell me listen make get up make it to the minion and I will start lying to myself no I can make it to the next minion I can I can pray at home I prayed yesterday I'll just do something quick today and I'm giving you one example out of many how many times you in the kitchen you something fails you mess something up and you're like nobody saw he put it aside and at the end of the day say who am I lying to it's it's my my own kitchen I'm feeding myself so in order for me to go into my spiritual freedom is I have to go out of my limitation p is the time that I'm able to really take on myself the right decisions when it comes to changes in my Purity in my tahar Purity in my thoughts Purity in my speech Purity in my actions some people their entire life is good but the thoughts are not pure all day long junk going on in the mind some people it's their speech some people I know many people not too long ago I sat with somebody a very religious individual very learned very God-fearing person somebody said something and he you know answered with a very not nice word and I was like woo where did that come from and he's like I don't know sometimes our speech is impure something falls on you instead of saying ouch you will say a not nice word why say I or don't say anything sometimes our our speech is even impure I want to get to a point that I'm pure because the reason why I wasn't able to sacrifice the first Corban PES I was I was impure or whatever it means since we don't sacrifice now the sacrifices of PES but I still want to get to the place of of this Purity and the way to do it is to be loyal to myself I have to think twice before I say something before I do something before I I I think of anything and to be honest is it the real is it the right thing to do is it the right thing to say is it the right action to do and the concept of this repetition and in the time of PES is a very supicious time to to to take these decisions the decision to take on myself a good decision what's called that anything that has to do with Purity and mainly to concentrate on the fact that I don't want to be again in that level of this impurity now what did they came out of when they in MIT when they came out of Egypt they came out of they were suned into idol worship to Z and the concept of PES is going out of my a and I'm also even though I don't buy to Idols I do things that are considered aod idol worship in Hebrew is it doesn't mean that I bow to Idols rather it means it's foreign to me it's not something that it's in my my vocabulary so I constantly fail in aod I can worship my money worship my car worship my iPhone 7 whatever it is all day long I'm I'm attached to something this is this is a form of idol worship so p is the time to an know all that so it's not St for whatever reason that are sages and mainly the Torah comes and says this is going to be the only holiday that gets a second chance there's no there's no only P to emphasize that my entire motion yeah I will have to go backwards and forward but that's part of the system and the way to get to win it can only be done with G not with that it's given to me G I have to initiate something and mainly comes from the word to lead to overcome the part that I need to be loyal to myself should have a beautiful yum we don't have to do much you can eat some matah make a meal and eat matah like I told you some people have the custom that they read a few parts of the ha and I other than that we just need to focus on the day it's a very special day to focus on where do I need to refine myself what can I take on myself a certain decision that in three four things in my life I'm going to add extra Purity if it's a man then okay I'm going to start going to the Mikvah every day if it's a woman okay I'm going to be more more cautious when it comes to when I go out of the bathroom or when I touch my hair when I touch my shoes or whatever it is you add on yourself these little things that add Purity t that to balance it out and of course to make the real account in yourself where am I not being loyal to myself why am I not being loyal to somebody else that I need to maybe come and admit and to reach to a level that I need to be I want to be a m that's when I came to that level I said I want to be a 100% truth I don't want to come to a point that late at night when I have to look at the mirror saying you're a liar why did you lie to that person why did you lie to that person why did you lie to that person I don't want to I don't want to have that in my domain I don't want to have this impurity in me that I'm not 100% honest that's my own desire it's not lying to you or you it's lying even to myself don't lie to I rather be they say in Hebrew put it on the table sometimes it's not the most comfortable thing to say the truth finish with it don't drag it too much sometimes you know saying the truth on the spot it sets you free doesn't get you into this turbulence of lies and what did I say and I don't remember and then you get caught lying oh the embarrassment she lied to me I don't want to talk to her who needs this headache and in general this boils down to the same thing it's Purity it's is having this Purity in you that I say I want to be like my Creator Shem doesn't lie to me Shem doesn't say listen if you're going to put filling on I'm going to give you hem says this is this is what you're going to do this is what you're going to get that's it no foil Sticks no wish wash so that's the level I want to reach that's going out of my MIT that I'm free like they say in America the truth will set you free I want to be free I don't want to be owing anybody explanations why did you say this why did you say that why you now go follow everything better to say it straight to the face cut it short and when you live like that you you gain an extra level of Purity that does allow us to go out of our limitations that I'm able to face everything I don't have to ignore the phone call when it calls and I see the call already I don't want to answer him why have to I don't remember what I said to the last week so should have a beautiful can light a candle foress if you have the time you can go to his Kev it's very close uh not a long drive a very special sadik yeah and he Tiberia exactly and there's a famous story just to say something in his Merit that uh his sister-in-law got jailed by the the the police there whever it was and he came to the guard to bail her out and he came with a very large amount so to do p to get his sister-in-law his wife's sister out and he came to so to say bribe the guard now he told the the guard here's the fine to pay and here's extra money for you to get her out so the guard said listen I can get in trouble for that so he says listen don't worry anytime you're going to get in trouble or you're about to get in trouble just say a certain verse and and say t May mention my name and you will be fine exactly and he tried it and the thing is that this guard said if I'm going to be caught saying that I released your sister-in-law they're going to throw me to the dogs the dogs are going to that's the punishment so he says okay try it so they threw a stick or a or stone at the dogs and the dog started barking and going all crazy and he said and the dog stopped so he's like oh the trick worked so he let his sister-in-law out and later on the guard got caught and he was about H he got judged and there were about to hang him cuz he let the prisoner go and he remembered that there that verse so he kept saying the verse and they couldn't hang him the Rope got ripped the thing broke everything they couldn't hang him and the the the whoever was in charge they come and tells him what's going on here how come we can't kill you you have some type of a witchcraft what are you doing here so he says I'm mentioning a name of a certain Jewish sage and and they wanted to know what was the power of this verse of this Sage so this is the story anyways this is the story in thear but R May says every time that you're going to mention my name in in in the connection I mean this is called because he saysa you know it says that the does a a connection on the names of theik but after they're passed away from this world that but then only when theic leaves the world and rabi may did it while he was alive and rabi may says every time you're going to mention my name you know we say in the Merit what does it mean in his Merit not that I'm taking his Merit is that I'm thinking I the Merit of thinking how holy he was that allows me to get my help and my salvation and up until today there are many people that they're fanatic they they have a pushka to his fun this big remedy when you lose something you put money in the of when you lose something when something bad happens up until today people are very some people are fanatic about Balan he was a very special Sage that that said on in himself when you need help you call my name I will come and help you so we want to take advantage of this suspicious day again it doesn't matter there is an opinion that says it's not his y of the but that doesn't matter that's the day that we celebrate and if you can make it out witha go visit him if not then light a candle for the the Merit of R Balan and put some money in it very very powerful and you can learn maybe something about it maybe a story but it's a very supicious day even though there's not much that we do and we don't do a meal we don't do any certain prayer but it is an asici time to to take to consideration and say where where can I make myself a little bit better where can I be a little bit more loyal to myself and loyal to my Creator and add some extra level of am and Purity into my life this should lead us to the to reach to our freedom of the real p and if each and every one of us will work a little bit on their mid of their attribute of then I can guarantee to you this will definitely hasten the G the Redemption should come much faster as AEM doesn't like the opposite of Truth with our little acts we should see the ultimate truth and that will reveal the coming of mashia that we will gain the red heer that we should be not in the level of to much met anymore should happen very very soon in our day have a beautiful beautiful [Music]