Praying for the Return of Hashem's Favor Shaarei Teshuva 1:41 & 42 with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] shari truva khabar for women of course that's women live online on our on our zoo call but uh everyone's welcome to watch before we begin we want to make a special mention for refusal ema for repinto and i'm going to say unfortunately also that rabbi twersk is also very ill at the moment his name is avraham yoshua so we're praying hopefully in the in the merit of whatever torah we're learning now and it'll continue with the people watching these videos that uh they amongst all the children of israel will have a complete uh refuha a complete healing so today's classes thank you today's classes we're dealing with paragraphs 41 and 42. i'll tell you what they're going to cover uh so we're going to start the 15th principle which is really three paragraphs but we're only going to deal with the first two we're talking about praying for mercy and atonement it's kind of a continuation of what we spoke about last week so if you missed it go back and watch it and we're going to talk about how prayer also we're going to pray for a return of hashem's favor okay whatever that means we'll find out when we get to that chapter but those are the headings of the discussion for today so we're on page 96 for those who are using the same book paragraph 41 begins kamisha this is the beginning of the 15th principle so as we had discussed before a certain verse which we're going to deal quite at length again and that's in hoshaya or you pronounce it hosea 14 3 we spoke about the idea of taking words with yourselves and return to the lord so we talked about confession be doing as well as prayer as the rest of the verse continues and then you say to the lord you shall forgive all iniquity and teach us the good way and let us render for bulls the offering of our lips so having spoken about that last week we're talking now about to feel more in depth prayer how important is it to actually make this request this it's com it's coming from a desire right and it's coming out on our lips but it starts with the desire so the person who's doing truva he should pray to hashem to beg and beg for mercy that god should forgive all of your sins okay as we said and i just quoted the verse in hosea 14 3. now when it's said take for yourselves words and return to hashem this is confession and then the latter part the the word imru ilove speak unto him right that he should forgive all of our sins the kaktov and take goodness accept goodness great now what does it mean kaktov so the explanation the perish of kakhtov is kha they were asking hashem to accept the good deeds that we have done now it's very interesting because this um this comment is that the pentanent that's us we should pray with that whatever misses we had um that we had already done should be accepted favorably by hashems and this is what we're going to talk about i'm going to just give you a little bit of a background imagine every time you do any action let's talk about misfits you're creating positive energy you're creating angels and these angels we call them defending angels in other words when we eventually will meet our maker and face the great i don't use the word terrible i don't mean terrible awesome day of judgment for ourselves personally that just the fact that these angels exist i don't even think they have to open their mouths even though they're defending angels the fact that you created them and they exist that's good enough they're called defending angels they just stand there god sees them he knows what they are he knows you created them to your good acts so they're called defending angels now we'll call it energy you call it light but it's through the misses you create this light or you create this energy you create this defending angel guess what i don't want to say it but i have to the opposite is also true when god forbid one fails to do a mitzvah or violates right through the violation of mitzvahs we also create energy negative energy these are called our accusing angels okay and they don't have to open their mouths either on this great and terrible awesome judgment day the very fact that they exist means you created them through your actions now when somebody does many mitzvahs and then unfortunately let's say violates a few what happens to those good angels that we already created so try to use your imagination maybe you don't have to use your imagination maybe it's very real to you there's a dimming of that energy right there's a diminishing of that energy it's not disappearing entirely and what we're going to talk about tonight is how to get that back right through the truva process through prayer through begging hashem to accept your truva because we'll we'll get to it i don't want to jump ahead too much but basically we're going to ask hashem that's right in chapter 42 paragraph 42 especially to accept the favor um that it should be acceptable to him the trooper that we're doing that should reignite some of the ain't the energy that was already created from previous mitzvahs that unfortunately we ourselves have dimmed okay so we're asking hashem to accept the good deeds that we have done i started reading number three yeah okay that is the pendant that individual must pray that whatever misses he did should be accept accepted favorably by hashem now on the surface there's this prayer seems odd why should one need to pray for the acceptance of his mitzvahs and why is it part of the process of truma so robina yoda will now dis uh begin to just explain the matter okay so let's move on actually says in the gemara the rabbis have said al vera mitzvah this is in the gemara the oral torah what does it mean that in navera the word it's a verb with the mem causative ki boy or right is to extinguish so it causes to dim let's say it doesn't really totally extinguish i know that's what he has translated here but let's see and what does it cause to dis extinguish the mitzvah and he i'll just use his words right he says the transgression extinguishes the light of the mitzvah so i don't think it totally extinguishes as we'll see but it dims it he doesn't have the word in hebrew light of mitzvah but that's what a mitzvah does it ignites energy light we discussed this also last week about the infusing the the light that will be used this energy that will be used in the resurrection of the dead for each one of our limbs let's go on when one is actually in the process of doing repentance properly yet so yes the sins will be atoned for the hit mitzvah and i'll maybe translate as the reigniting awakening the word is to awaken the merit of the mitzvah meaning it reignites that original energy okay that had dimmed because of the sin and now it's coming back and that's what we should pray for the ear ne ra right so that the light of every mitzvah will shine forth and i just want to use a verse in proverbs 6 23 as an example that we should understand okay now this is written by king solomon but king solomon had a great teacher right his own father king david anyway it says in proverbs 6 23 for a commandment is a candle near me ner mitzvah for the candle is a mitzvah the the translations a commandment is a can is the commandment itself is a light a candle and the torah is light the torah or so this this is a tradition that goes way back to all the way back to mount sinai there's nothing new in the tanakh whatever we have as part of what we call the naveen the prophets and the writings it's called oral torah it's rabbinic judaism okay for those people that have a disgust or a distaste for rabbinic judaism i hate to tell you you're reading the scriptures the only reason that the scripture has any authorities because we kept it alive and made the decision that this was in it i say we i'm talking about the sanhedrin the ancient connected godola what we're talking about the beginning of the second temple period is when it was decided by the rabbis what was and what wasn't part of the oral torah and the oral torah i'm saying that the part the prophets and the writings is an explanation of the five books there's nothing new nothing new it's already says in the five books itself in deuteronomy that no prophet can reveal to you anything new that your fathers had not known otherwise he's a false prophet okay so whatever king david king solomon are going to reveal to us through psalms and and and proverbs is something that is part of we call traditional cyanatic revelation of judaism so he goes on to say ah now even though its light had not been bright before he dechuva in other words when the person sinned the light somewhat diminished so here he says the prophet there admonishes that when the penitent individual prays for the forgiveness of sins he should also pray that his good deeds be accepted now we have a whole bunch of verses in the little paragraph down here and i think they're very pertinent to get like a concept of what's going on now i'll read some of the ver some of the verses in hebrew show you parts of it because i think it's it's good for everyone to become familiar did we skip anything no okay so let's go like this so the rambam in hookah if you want to find it it's in chapter seven uh uh seven he wants you to know how advantageous truth is so yesterday when the person had sinned the person became distanced from hashem there was right if we describe it like this that positive mitzvahs in general bring you closer to hashem that we'll call negative mitzvahs means don'ts by violating the don'ts we're like inserting we're somehow creating a space inserting a space creating a distance between us and hashem and by even violating the positive mitzvas we're not taking advantage of the opportunity to come close to hashem and you can see this clearly in isaiah chapter 59 verse 2. is that what i have here your sins have separated between you and your god and in hebrew of it's the sin itself this is the prophet your iniquities were separated between you and your god how clear can it be how clear can it be ma of the separation in fact rashi says there that they cause for you that he hid his face from you so this is measure for measure right when you do a sin the result is this separation so based on that you have to cry out the person cries out and his prayers are not going to be answered necessarily as it says in chapter 1 verse 15 of isaiah as it says even when you prayed i did not hear in hebrew gom ki tarbut to feel even though you increased your prayer you cried out even more a nano hashem did not hear um okay so basically you performed your missiles they were basically thrown back in your face look at isaiah chapter 1 verse 12. when you come to a beer appear before me who requested this of you to trample my courts you think hashem is happy you think hashem is happy when you're coming to see my face who who requested this roy meis khazari to just come into hashem's temple right when we do the kerban node when we make these offerings hashem's not interested in the offerings of course he told you to do it and you have to do it but he wants your heart we speak about this all the time it's the humility it's the it's the it's becoming real with with what you've done so hashem's not interested in just doing wrote but today so after the person did chuva he's now attached to the how do we know look in deuteronomy chapter 4 verse 4 we know right right but you who cleave to the lord your god are alive all of you this day when you're doing hashem's will that's called the vegas hashem that's called clinging or attachment so go he cries out and then his prayer would be answered immediately as it says in isaiah 65 verse 24 sorry um the part of the verse he wants us to see it will be before they call i will already answer when does that take place when we're right with hashem and it will be when they have ye not yet called that i will answer and yet when they are still speaking that i will hearken while they're still speaking or before the words even came out i am listening i'm already hearing so therefore when one performs mitzvahs they are accepted graciously and joyously that's provided they're already in the process of doing shuvo or have done truva now it says in koheles chapter nine verse seven cohes's ecclesiastes it says for god has already accepted your deeds um hashem has already accepted what you've done and furthermore in heaven they actually desire his misses in malachi that is the last of the prophets by the way that's ezra my angel and then the offerings of yehuda new shalom shall be pleasant to the lord as in the days of old and former years provided we do all the truth we need to do we ask hashem and this is what we said this is what we add to our prayers the arab hashem yehuda you shall lie right we asked for it to be as in the days of old um the last point i think is important also that rabbini yonah states here in in the next segment dependent person must pray fervently for his missiles to find favor with the chef which i told you we're going to get into in paragraph 42. and i think i should read this as well commentators note that hashem great accepts graciously not only the mitzvahs that a person performs right now rather once a person has done chuva even the mitzes he performed while he was a sinner our gracious are accepted graciously this is consistent with remaining yoga's words that the power of a mitzvah can be revived through chuva but the important thing is we have to ask for it hashem wants the prayers of the righteous and don't make any assumptions and we're going to talk about this as we go on it's it's a beautiful way that it's expressed here now we're still now 97 the last few lines of the actual text it actually there's a verse in job chapter eight verse six it says so let me um yo job was experiencing all kinds of hardships anybody's familiar with the text understands that and he has some good friends he has some friends that are you know bothered theologically and philosophically why is this righteous person suffering you know and it would come upon your mind that maybe he really sinned privately maybe there is something that he didn't do properly that this is coming upon him and the friends expressed this and they sent me maybe there's some there's still some truly you should do but anyway so one of his friends bildad said to him if you are pure and upright those are the words we just saw in zach the ashar atar so then the assumption is he will now revive for you and make your whole make make whole your charitable house in other words if you just do chuva if you make your deeds proper then everything will come back to normal so the rabbi said in breishit rabbah in the in the midrash notice it doesn't say if you have been pure but rather right now in other words doesn't say if you were but right now if you are pure and straight what does that mean you know okay shasita truva you you send in the past but now you're the trooper and so the following merit would be yours meaning that god will now revive for you as we spoke about that if you had done mitzvahs and then you did some sins so those mitzvahs the light or the power or the energy of those missiles are diminished and now you did chuva assuming that that would be revived for you right so now after you've done chuva hashem will revive for you all the merit the merit of all the child actually did before to us this is a very interesting idea that an echo but it's basically and the fact that your house was wide open you job you were about you were like abraham you opened up your house because the word echo even by abraham if you go to let's just find genesis chapter 1 33 it says about abraham he planted a national tree in bersheva and he called there in the name of the lord what is a national treat what is it so important to know that he planted an eshel tree so basically aleph shin lamin olive is achilla shinishtiya and the llama there's different opinions within the the the llama could stand for it could be livia that he escorted his guests so he fed them and he gave them what to drink and lina or levi either he gave them a place to sleep or he gave them an escort so they wouldn't get lost or they felt comfortable on the way out so that is what job was full of hesit when it says there that they mentioned that your house was wide open for guests and you planted a national tree of hospitality commotion mr now it also says in ch and we're still in job chapter 31 verse 31 verse 32. you know eov actually was a big balches as he himself said i just mentioned that in 3132 it says over here did i copy them okay i don't have it here but we'll just basically um that i opened my doors to the street that is what himself says so you notice that that's he how he was he opened his his doors to the people in the street the cod so what was bilat this friend of you trying to tell him what was the message you know you were a charitable person before your repentance from your sins okay your charitable acts did not protect you from any affliction now once you did repentance and your transgression would become erased so your ears there was this reviving of the merit the sheila's that's when he said that's why he says that your he god will make your make whole your charitable house you'll be able to have what the the mitzvah's back that you did earlier in full so the comment here says the merit of the misses you did with your open house will be whole that will and they'll protect you from affliction this was a rebuttal of eu's complaint that a person with good deeds like him should not have been afflicted you know job is wondering i don't understand why this is happening to me and his friend is offering him a suggestion that the protective power of his mitzvahs were weakened by his sins but if he only would do chuva they would be revived right so it's interesting what's happening here we're learning right again there's nothing new we're learning through the navy through the writings uh how to do truva and this is something that this friend suggested to job that if you do trivia through the process of judah and you have to pray for it as we'll soon see that this will help reignite the life the the light of those mitzvahs that serve to protect you we discussed this in the past that misses protect a person okay so now we're going to go back to the verse in hoshea at the end of that verse it mentioned and let our lips substitute for bulls now there are different kinds of sin offerings now some of them are personal perhaps happens to be that the bull is used when the sanhedrin made a wrong determination and people had sinned and now the the responsibility for the people sin rely are sitting on the shoulders of the sanhedrin are the leaders and the leaders bring the bulls so interestingly enough that we're asking that our lips substitute for the bulls meaning the highest level of sin because that would be a group or public or you know collective sin that would be a high level sin so we're asking that our lips substitute the bowls that are used for this atonement of the highest level so let me explain he says we're asking that our confession be considered like the khattas the sin offerings that happen to consist of bulls in order to find favor for us before you he mentions specifically bulls as opposed to sheeps or goats that was brought into the innermost part and how you mozzie its blood was sprinkled sprinkled on the perocus the curtain that separated the holies and on the golden altar that's on the inside this was brought to the innermost chamber all right there's a long uh comment i kind of summed it up basically um okay let's move on now we're on 42. so let me maybe we'll just sum up what we just learned right we talked about how that prayer is actually part of the trouba process and we saw it through through job we saw it through king david we thought we saw it through um king solomon now why in other words what power and impact does that prayer have and that's where we're now going to uh discuss in in paragraph 42. for those on the same page we're on page 99 in the same book vote furthermore the the baltimore the pentagon person should pray towards hashem that he should wipe away clean away erase for him his willful sins like a thick cloud and his transgressions like a cloud shi pots when you're asking that that relationship should be like it originally was without all of the i called grime or you know the the dirt the things that came between you and hashem okay you want to have favor to that you're asking hashem to accept you positively and be responsive to your prayers as if you never sinned now the truth is if you do truth out of fear you're you're this is probably what's talking about your sins will be wiped clean but if you do chew out of love not only your sins won't be wiped clean which might sound horrible but they're actually turned into mixes which is quite remarkable it's an amazing concept that if if you spent god forbid whatever amount of time or money or energy and creating those negative energies as we talked about and one does chuva right so they're not just wiped clean as other religions might tell you and maybe that's true for the non-jew maybe it is they're just quite clean but for the jew it's something very different they actually turn into mitzvahs they're transformed because of the favor right when you're about shuv about truth you're gonna pray that hashem accepts your truva you're gonna desire you don't just sit there and make an assumption okay i'm not gonna do it again that's it i'm clean no you really love hashem and you feel bad about how and we don't really affect hashem but as if we affected hashem and we certainly affected ourselves and how bad that is but if you love hashem you feel as if you affected him as if okay i make sure to say those words he's not really affected but in casitas we we do use those those types of language and we're going to talk about it in a very real sense god forbid when somebody affects their wife could be the husband right let's say the spouse we're going to get into a very interesting storyline and how it plays a part try to imagine your partner that you hurt or harmed your partner okay so let's continue elihu so job had another friend ali who so the idea of praying for hashem's favor is in accordance with the words recorded in the rest of job chapter 33 verse 26 he says yet elo kai the year seyu he prays intensely to god and he accepts him with favor what does that mean that the the the person who is actually and endured affliction like job did and he wants to gain full atonement this is the advice that alihu gave him to pray intensely to god that god should accept you with favor i think this is worthwhile reading number three romanian explains later on even after a person does chuva certain sins are not completely wiped away unless he endures affliction now i don't want to get too much into this but i want to make sure we have these ideas clear number one there are certain sins that chuva works for no problem and that alone is good enough sometimes there's certain sins that truva is not enough to completely work but something else has to happen okay it could be i'll just give like could be a corbett could be could be a um what was i thinking sorry yom kippur the day of yom kippur that that still has to pass through the calendar year it could be called pains or afflictions or troubles or challenges that one has to go through and there are some that only death will atone for so there's different levels of besides truva for other other types of sins let's say more severe sins okay knowing that that the sins may not be completely away completely wiped away unless you endure affliction he's like a person who's been seriously ill took strong medicines to cure the illness but you still have to endure the painful process of rehabilitation there's still rehabilitation period in order to regain complete health and function ali who declares that even after the person did chuva he also suffers affliction so that his sin has been completely forgiven and he must pray to hashem to accept him with favor now i'll give you the good news that rambam says that just sticking your hand into your pocket for your maybe your pocketbook and i know my wife's pocketbook it's very hard for her to find anything i think she has quite a bunch of stuff in there anyway uh can you imagine putting your hand into your pocket or pocketbook to come out with the exact change and it's not there um you're short you have to go digging more that's good that that is you serem that could be the pains and the afflictions so don't think that it has to be some horrible tragic you know it could be a stubbing of a toe it could be something that you do and you're embarrassed uh slightly embarrassed okay so biz hashem through the more trouble you do and the more you ask hashem to accept it the the easier the afflictions could be okay where are we at here we are so now we're on page 100 in the middle you know through this prayer why is the prayer necessary so it's possible that a person's sin has been forgiven now that's through the true process now what could be is you don't you're not well you're not knowledge enough you might not even have been aware that you sinned that's going to be a problem right because that means you're not going to do trigger so then for sure you have to go through the afflictions but let's go on the nifta mini usuri may call gezera and it could be you did shruva you're forgiven and that you've been redeemed from having to suffer anything else or from any other kind of harsh decree they aim the shame but you know what hashem might not be interested in that type of relationship and whatever else you do may not be so acceptable to hashem success so basically what does a righteous person desire they want more than anything else is to be forgiven to elicit favor fake wrath hashem in order to turn over and make sure that that relationship is back to the way it was it's all about the relationship the he should desire the relationship with them that you want god's a relation to have that relationship to desire the relationship with you right by listening this favor one gains a true and eternal life and the great light that encompasses all pleasures now we're going to go through a couple verses but before that i want to read this little story not a story but as i mentioned we have another safer by rabbi asher bharach walked um webright and he wrote it and he's on the year by that channel and and he writes a little bit of about a relationship that one would have i'm going to use the the the the words here because he's talking about like a male female relationship you know husband and wife and i just have to find it okay so for us married people we understand this let's say god forbid the husband did something not so nice a wife may forgive her husband she might forgive him for badly hurting her feelings and she may do nothing in retaliation she's forgiven him right but she might not show him the same love she had previously showered him with at least until he does something to make it up for her could be flowers could be jewelry could be a vacation i don't know just maybe some nice words okay on his part until he achieves the state of love once more he himself will not be satisfied we're talking about you know the the relationship that a man has with god right a woman has with god it's that it's like a relationship they have with their spouse there's no way around it and you know try to imagine hashem is not human right he's not flesh and blood doesn't have the emotions but we are told to relate as if it was so we want to have that relationship and we have to feel that we have to beg for favor we want so we can do actions we can do things anyway on his part meaning on the husband's part in this case until he achieves the state of love once more he will not be satisfied so he'll go out and he'll make sure to really pacify is that the word plague kate his wife as this state is unbearable to someone who truly loves their spouse and this is i think a nice analogy it's just an analogy okay i think that was very good so now let's go into psalms chapter 30 verse 6. all my papers together here for his wrath last but a moment life results from his favor so that's the important part is life results from his faith we're looking for that life we're looking for the connection to life so in hebrew sono the word sono life results from his favor it also says again in psalms chapter 80 verse 20 oh lord god of host return us cause your countenance to shine and we will be saved hashem elo came to the venue so we're asking hashem we're begging hashem to return his countenance his happy face back towards us and our sages said in the midrash on this verse we don't want anything but this is all we desire is to have the illumination of god's face indian herzog mean that's his favor that means when we talk about his countenance shining upon us we're talking about his favor so there is a commentary here before we get to it uh uh okay so let's go down to this comment down below what does it mean that we're looking for his favorite so there's an idea in isaiah chapter 44 it's actually verse 22. it's a mistake it's verse 22. but he says at the beginning of this segment romanian expressed this prayer as an entreaty you know a a begging a prayer by the sinner to hashem right to wipe away his willful sins like fog like the cloud like this dark cloud and the transgressions like a cloud with this expression rabbinion paraphrases isaiah chapter 44 verse 22. god says through the prophet i erased your transgressions like a thick cloud and like a cloud i have erased your sins return to me for i have redeemed you okay so basically meaning actually he says this idea is alluded to in the shimon eshray in the prayer that we say on yom kippur by paraphrase paraphrasing that rabbini yonah indicates the goal of our children prayer on yom keeper is not merely to gain atonement it's not that we're just experiencing yom kippur for the sake of atonement but to actually find favor before hashem as if we had never sinned as if it never took place rebellion explicitly states that the sinners should look forward to yom kippur as the day on which he can find favor before hashem so as to merit this idea of khaim biritsono this life resulting from his favor it's so amazing you know as a child perhaps one has a certain outlook on yom kippur what a pain i can't believe it i have to spend the whole day standing up in synagogue i can't eat i can't do certain things okay obviously as a child it you know without a proper um hashgaffer without a proper upbringing in the worldview i can understand that because that was me i was not brought up religious and i'm sure many of those who were not religious it was not the the greatest day of the year but can you imagine now that we've already experienced for ourselves what it is to be about what it is to experience truva and we're we're just so energized by it that we're not even hungry right we can stand the whole day and uh and just be elevated to the point that we just feel that god is smiling down on us right that he's accepted our trouba okay let's go on we're on page 101 halfway through and we are saying like this alkane tyra better feel a david the ace of self at the time that he did he says in psalms 51 4 he says wash me thoroughly of my iniquity and purify me of my sin very nice wash me thoroughly and then he wants us to look he wants to explain this he additionally pray that what he wanted to have this fabrics accept favorable acceptance by god meaning that he prayed that hashem should find favor in him as he did prior to the sin now in the 13 attributes of mercy which god revealed to moses when you have sinned when the people have sinned this is what they should do right hashem hashem the name god is the 13 of them 13 prince 13 names 13 principles of 13 attributes of mercy but the first two are the same word yud kevath kevath how can it be what does it mean hashem hashem so as many explain the hashem is be the first one is before you sin and the second name of hashem is after you sin that he's the same god of mercy prior to your sin and after your sin he explains a little bit of a nuanced difference differently he says like this what did king david say now look at verse 13. in other words we're still in chapter 51. remember 51 is dealing with david's chuva for the sin with bachelor and it's really verse 13 okay do not cast me away from before you and do not take your holy spirit away from me if anybody wants to go back to the very first uh of our series i think whether it's uh we're on the 21st cheer ready i sang this song i'm gonna do everyone the favor and not sing it right but it is my favorite song um okay so do not cast me away from your presence do not take and do not take your holy spirit from me ah hurricane is paulie the umar now look in verse 14 right where are we uh is that the part yeah restore to me the joy of your salvation and this is what king david is praying for hashem basically these are prayers that hashem's miracles and his salvations should constantly be present with dovin so the god's spirit should be just as it's hard to translate because you use the word and that we said means success but he means it that the success that the spirit of god should be on him as it was from the very beginning meaning totally wiped clean as if it never happened ah came and then afterwards meaning in the same verse and with a spirit of generosity sustain me what does that mean that i've been made small because i've humbled myself i i'm like nothing compared to my because of my transgressions and i'm no longer worthy of your i don't know your grace your miracles your care concern your involvement hilagosa or for the power of your holy arm to be revealed over me through your salvation the nasa avon and even if in your kindness you end up forgiving me for all of my transgressions for my sinful transgression and enoch he still didn't feel that it was like from the very beginning right i'm not worthy of being loved and favorably accepted you by you pro like i was prior to my sin in earlier times of the barua nadiva ni but nevertheless i'm begging of you with the spirit of generosity to sustain me he aim kate's there's no end there's no limit to your generosity and your goodness now rebellion digresses now to explain how this interpretation fits with the actual text of the verse now this is a little bit grammatical right now in other words i don't know how much we're going to get through this because i am not a bucky i'm not an expert on grammar but the word it doesn't say uva ruach it says so there's a bet missing and he gives another example of um in genesis 27 37 so the very fact that the bet is missing it actually means meaning if the bet was there would mean and with the spirit but it's not and with the spirit and so what does it mean so he's explaining now robina yonah cites another verse that echoes david's final remark the same way the prophet jose in chapter 14 verse 5 he says that basically the puzzle says will i will heal their disobedience i will love them with generosity what does that mean that i will heal their disobedience i will love them with generosity this is what david was asking for the idea of is i will love them with generosity as the following canaan manchester umar just like david asked ruach nadiva that's what he was he was asking that god should re restore a spirit and have a spirit of generosity that will sustain him now unfortunately we're not going to go into paragraph 43 which is really the finishing touch of everything we spoke about but that's what time doesn't allow but um bizarre to shim next week we will go through and 43. there were some other ideas i just wanted to make mention of just to get the idea in this last part that a batshuba feels yeah i mean they're they're the fact that they're about shootings they're aware that they sent right and they're aware they're they're more aware that they they caused a distance in their relationship okay so the idea is that they're constantly and there's nothing wrong with this to constantly yearn for that in in into intimate relationship with the kurdish morocco i mean what like think about aaron a cohen aron who never really sinned right forget the fact he was not involved with the sin of the golden calf for those who you know but um the very fact that he wasn't really responsible and at the time of the naseem the the princes bringing the korbanos on the first of nisan until the 12th of nisan each one of the tribes brought for the altar which do you find atonement for the levine were not asked to bring and they weren't supposed to bring and yet he felt very bad because he wanted he just wanted to come close to hashem he was such a sadique he was so righteous and yet he felt there's something missing i they're all coming close to hashem what about me he's not really a sinner but i would put him in the category of about shuvah because he had the same desire the same energy what is it about a balchuma they want that relationship they felt them black they know what it means not to have hashem in their life and so aaron who never really felt that but saw other people coming close he felt the absence of the ability to come close to hashem and he begged for it and that that's what it's about that is a very powerful a powerful thing so what we want is a restoration of that relationship and a return to the favored status um i mean david and malik really really sums it up and so let me just read what he mentions over here i mentioned this book here the righteous person is unsatisfied with a peaceable arrangement with his creator this is the idea behind that husband who yeah he might have offended his wife and she may have forgiven him but there's some lack in total trust and favor and he has to do something to make up for that so the the righteous person is constantly yearning for the affection of hashem that he had experienced before so he davens for it constantly why not even king david right he beseeched hashem not to cast him away this is even after the chuva or let's say as you're doing true how's that as you're doing chuva for sure after why not if he was worried about being rejected from hashem after one sin it's clear the repentance alone does not automatically restore the relationship that one had with hashem but one must specifically pray for the return of that closeness i have one more point here i want to make so yearning for such closeness and favor is generally considered to be the realm of the truly righteous and pious among us however about shuba must pray for this closeness as part of his true process again the principles of chuva when sincerely implemented enable one who is sin to radically transform his relationship with god the rambam himself spells it out he says yesterday the sinner was despised by hashem now after truva and seeking divine favor he is beloved precious a close and dear companion to hashem so bazrat hashem we should reach this level we should be you know have this consciousness constantly i know you know i have some modern orthodox friends they think there's a little fanatical idea this how can anybody live like this well this is what we aspire to okay so know that believe it feel it do it and we'll see you all next week so i'm gonna just take some questions online and then [Music] is