Pre-Shavuos Farbrengen | Rabbi Shais Taub & Eli Marcus

We are live. Okay. Shami 321 motion. All of your video and audio needs muting the feedback. Okay. What? What? Yeah, it's good. Okay. Rebelli, take us away. What do you want to start with? Start with a niggan. Start with a niggan. Okay. Start with a niggan out of Chabas. I don't know why but people this niggan became associated with Friday night. Yeah. [Music] A small cup of wine he holds in his hand. Yeah. [Music] D. Oh la. [Music] I [Music] am lie. [Music] I did lie. That's beautiful. Allie, thank you. You brought your guitar. You usually bring your keyboard, but this is more of a We have to improvise. Uh, I'll change it up. I thought it's cuz like the summer summer vibes guitar. Sure. Yeah. Should start a little fire. No, outside. Maybe later we'll go outside. We could light up the fire pit. We have the this gorgeous uh outside in the back, but then we got to be quiet because we don't want to wake up the neighbors. Yeah. What time is the curfew? Sound curfew. Uh yeah, we're gonna find out. I think we're you know, you know the old joke, the guy who comes over from Europe and he finds his lansman uh in New York and the tenement in the lower east side. He says, "Uh, they're sitting and they're having a glass of tea and catching up." And he says, "You know, it's getting really late." Says to Mish, "It's getting really late. I wonder what time it is. Uh, you have a clock." And said, "No, I don't have a clock." But what do I have? You know the jokes. Yeah. Aerifer. How do you tell the time with a sche sticks his head out? Waits a second. Who's a crazy idiot blowing a shifer at 11:33 p.m.? 11:33 p.m. Yeah. By the way, that that that joke is an anac my punchline, the way I delivered it was an anacronism because nobody in the era that that joke takes place and it says 11:33 because that's pure digital. Absolutely. Like Yeah. Nobody said, "Yeah." Anyways, we have a beautiful crowd here. Bashem real life in person. Real food. crackers, herring, pickles, diet coke, Sprite. The mashka is on the way. My son is on the bringing the mashka. So I'll haveimashem having a real life physical experience. This is not this is not uh AI. How can we prove to the people watching at home it's not AI? Is there a um AI shabolith? You know, you're familiar with this shabith. Shabolith is an English word which actually comes from a Hebrew biblical Hebrew word shibilis or shibilis. Yeah. Yeah. What is Yeah. Very good. Yeah. What is shiblet? It is a type of grain. But what is the context in where this word was used? you know, there was a civil war between tribes and um one tribe had an accent where they could not I think it was the tribe of Beny where they could not pronounce the shin. They pronounced it as a sin. So when they would, you know, they're all Jews, so they all look the same. So how would you identify who was a member of which tribe? You would say say the word and you would say. Yeah. Oh, that's it. and it would out him. So that shibilith or shabolith um is an English word originally from the biblical Hebrew and it means a word that is used to distinguish who is from the inroup and who is not. Sort of like a password a code word kind of thing last week dedicated so much to the word. Oh really? Okay. So that's where they got it from. At any rate, it is schlacious hagabala the three days of preparation for mat tora. We are getting ready for mat tora. And [Music] uh what is matra? What is the inion of matra? As the medish says, there was once a king and he made a decree that the residents of Rome shall not go down to Syria and the residents of Syria shall not go up to Rome. And then one day he lifted the travel ban and everyone could go wherever they wanted. And uh what's the nimshell? What's the analog? That when God created the world, God the king said that the spiritual and physical realms are two separate plains of reality. Never the twin shall meet. And that when Torah was given there was an an eradication or nullification of this decree where the physical and the spiritual could finally co-mingle and that is the novelty the revolutionary quality of matrao that it became possible the concept of a of a mitzvah that we should be able to take a physical object a mundane object and sanctify it by using it to do a mitzvah and not just objects, but our bodies and our and our and our animal souls and everything that's mundane, everything that's not yet holy, we can make it holy by using it to serve Hashem. So that's what we are getting ready for. We're getting ready for it to happen all over again every year. Mountain Toyota happens again. Jewish time is cyclical. Cyclical like a spiral, like a an an upward spiral staircase. So we come around again to mountain tra but on a higher level than ever before. So we're getting ready again to experience the melding of the physical and spiritual and the power that each individual has to affect that change. Okay. So is this interesting so far? Well yeah relatively. Yeah. Yeah. Creating the foundation. This is you know exactly what I'm doing. That is correct. We're creating the foundation. We're establishing some basic uh knowledge before we venture into the Very good. You've worked with me before, so you know my my style. Yeah, that's true. Um so you know the famous story about um when the alterb was in prison. So he was visited by one of the government officials, a non-Jew obviously. And this particular non-Jew was wellversed in not only in the Bible as they call it, but apparently in rabbitic literature as well as the story uh indicates the this this non-Jewish government official comes to the alterba and he asks him what does it mean in Genesis when God asks Adam Ayaka where are you? Um surely uh God knew where he was. God is omnisient. So the alterb said well he didn't want to startle him and uh this non-Jewish government official says yeah that's what Rashi says. So apparently he was aware of that. Um the way the Reb told us is so uh the alterb says before I answer you do you believe that the Torah is true in all times in all places for every individual? And this was a thoughtful person. So he thought for a minute before answering and he said yes I do. Now before the alterba even answered, he was very happy to hear that because he knew that one of the reasons he was on trial was because Tyra alashshm was on trial in the in the heavenly court. And one of the basic teachings of Sham is that Tyra is eternal in a very specific personal sense that everything inra is true at all times in all places for every single person. So being that alter knew he was being tried because of the fact that this non-Jewish government official apparently personally agreed with that basic concept of that that that was a that seemed to be a good sign. Okay. But why did the alterba ask this clarifying question first before he gave his answer? I mean it seems from the story apparently the alterba wanted to know whether the guy felt this way or not because perhaps if the guy would have said no I I don't think that Torah is always true in every case in every time in every place every person then the alter might not have answered the same way it seems that was you know in speaking it's called know your audience so the alter was trying to read the room figure out who his audience was so the guy says yes I do believe that the alba says fine so very good so Ayaka when hashem says to to Adam where are you doesn't mean Adam the first man I mean it does that's literally what happened but the eternal meaning is Hashem says to the Adam to the person which is the name for every human being where are you not physically where are you located where are you up to in your life in your progress in your journey take stock of yourself look at yourself evaluate evaluate yourself what have you accomplished what more do you need to accomplish and everybody has to be able at all times to take stock and to ask themselves what would I answer Hashem at this moment where am I where am I up to at any rate the point is that it's one of the foundational concepts of of is that everything in is personal and present and now so when we say that we're commemorating mountain we're not just celebrating a national event something that happened Yes, it happened in the presence of 600,000 heads of household and their families. It happened in front of the entire nation. In fact, we know if one Jew had not been present at Mount, it would not have happened. It was per se in front of the entire nation. Yes, we know that. But at the same time also, it's a very personal thing, extremely personal. In fact, the Reb once described how the reason why the first of the ten commandments is I am the Lord your God. Ala in in Hebrew is the singular form of the of the pronoun the possessive pronoun your not plural but al God is speaking to the individual Jew and saying I am the Lord your personal God and the Reb said even a little child even a little baby who was present at mountain Tyra Hashem was saying to that baby I am your personal God. So, Mountain Toyota isn't just this national event. It's not just this larger than-l life event, although it it certainly is that as well because it's probably the biggest thing that ever happened in reality. Um, but it's also a an intimate personal experience and it didn't just happen the first time, it happens every time. So, it's personal, it's present. We are in the in the days of preparation. We're getting ready to experience something um very powerful in our in our lives. Like Ayaka, wherever you're up to so far, wherever you're up to in your journey, something massive is about to shift. And we know the nature of the shift. It has to do with, we said, what mountain Toya represents. It represents the ability or the new ability to join the spiritual and the material. So we know what's about to happen for each and every one of us individually in a in just a few days is a new infusion of a new ability to bring harmony between spiritual and physical and and I use specifically the word harmony because that's really the concept. The concept is what we call tiferas in spherois and it's specifically connected to this time of year. As we know refers to this month as the third month. The first month is the month of the the exodus of second month is the third month is and tora was given specifically in the third month because three represents the harmonization of opposites. You have thesis, antithesis, synthesis. One represents a point. Two represents a counterpoint. Sometimes even they seem unsustainable as a contradiction until the third statement of fact comes in and is. It's a bigger truth that is able to contain both of these seemingly um mutually exclusive opposites. But when you have the point of view of Schlishi, it's able to harmonize the two opposite points. So in our case we have the point of there's nothing but God. We have the point of Hashem created a heaven and an earth. He created creation. So how can they both be true and we have we have a third point of view which harmonizes them and says they can both be true at the same time that there's nothing but God and God created the world. But how can they both be true? Because as we learn in which we're about to uh begin in the in the daily we're making a infallah in so there we will learn how there's no contradict no contradiction between the ideas that there's nothing but hashem and that there's a world because the world is an extension of hashem nothing but hashem is absolute in its reality and everything that exists is an extension of hashem's absolute reality. So, but this is philosophical. What do I mean? Uh when I say we are about to personally experience mountain ta it means that whatever seeming conflict we may think there is between body and soul uh um all these conflicts that we think we are suffering from. The truth is Hashem gave us a toyo which is the toyo brings shalom. Shalom means reconciliation, wholeness between seemingly mutually exclus exclusive opposites. So all of that conflict is about to be resolved and we're about to find out how we don't have to exclude any part of ourselves. We don't have to ignore any aspect of the self because everything can be used. not only can be used must be used to serve Hashem that there's no part of us that's too low that cannot and should not be incorporated into our aashem meaning to say that when Hashem harmonized the higher and the lower realms that's not just in the macro that's in the micro the harmonization of the higher and the lower means in me in my higher and lower realms what are the higher and lower realms the loftier parts of me the spiritual part the altruistic part the godly part then there's the lower realms the the the you know that's the dichotomy that's the paradox of a person like we're saying is alf is alfum dum is blood bag of blood and bones and which one is the is he the the godly being or is he dumb is he bunch of boiling blood and the answer is yes he's both he's bothi is the kayak to find harmony to find shalom to find peace between these different aspects of self. So that's what's about to happen. It's already happening. It's all the the the process has been engaged. You know, the roller coaster is clink clink clinking up the up the track and uh about to go for a ride, a new ride on a higher level than ever before. So that's exciting. Anyways, I wanted to be ready for that. I wanted to get ready for my new level of harmonization of my higher and lower selves. I said, "Well, how could I get ready for it?" And I and like what should I do? So, I said, "Well, you know, how about we make a little faban?" Because a fabbran is also harmonization of the higher and the lower, right? We put out the pickles that's for the lower. I mean, I don't want to insult anyone, but okay. We speak a little dra to the higher, but they need we need both. We need both. And we harmonize them both. And arguably the pickles for the nephas is more important than the divider for the nefalikis because neakis is already from. So yeah. So I said how are we how am I going to get ready for my personal mountain? I said I'm going to make a little fabin. I said well you know I don't want to just hear myself talk the whole time. So I'm going to call Ellie. Ellie's going to sing and I'll be able to do chuva while Ellie sing. Do you know that's what happens while you sing? I do chuva. Yeah. Yeah I do. Not every song. No. It's great. I love it. I love it. I love it. You know, some people perform, other people they they sing from the heart and you can hear that Kia Schaefer between the chuva between the right. The the silent confession. That's right. Ally, what's a song that we could do chuva with that we could really like introspective like soulful like you know? I think uh is that No, no, no, no. You said it already. You got to do it. But this is connected to SA. We have to explain the connection. Okay. You want to do it. I know. I only saying that. It's tangentially related to SA. It's not tangentially. That's Kim Thomas. It's connected to the deb coming to America. Okay. Which happened in SA. You can tell the whole Go ahead. 1941. Go ahead. 1941. Wait, we have to back up and tell about first. Okay. Start wherever you want. Celebrating uh the yard side of the balant. When's the yard side of the bal on sh now? Is it the first day or the second day? I don't I knew you would ask that. Okay. I don't it it is our mido is it's the first day. The other pand say it was the second day. I said the palisher they say it was the ones who say they say it was the we say it was. Yeah. Yeah. And by the way, do Malik Yartite is also Schwarz. Was it the first day or the second day of Schwarz? Could only be the first day because he lived in Israel. And yet and yet and yet wrap your head around this. David is Zion because in those days the months is not on a date. It's on the end of counting. So, um, yeah, I guess there was, uh, one last day of Ear or of Nissan and, uh, so was that, would that make sense? And then ended up a day later on Zion. Extra day. Extra day. An extra No, if there would have been an extra day, then it would have come earlier. 29 29. If there would be 29 and 29 a year, and then you would end up with the 50th day being on Zion. So that's probably what happened. But today Zven is the second day of shre right. But in David Malik and when he passed away the year he passed away Zven was the only day of sh there's only one day not two days. What day of the week was it when David Malik passed away? Very good. How do we know David Malik knew he's going to pass away on a Shabas? So every time he survived the Shabas he would celebrate Malava Mala. That's the origins of Malava Mala. That is correct. Very good. Right. Because they Yeah. Right. I made it. I made it. Yeah. Very good. Excellent. Okay. So, site. So uh we'll get to the negim of the bash of soon but one of the bash was of that we've talked about many times the mag and he was the he was the head of the nigim at the bshtov's table and I may have touh turn it over for the story about he couldn't make it for yont for Rashashana for when did he when did he compose this niggan some Y he wanted to be by the BMT right right so he made a niggan and [Music] uh fasting sorry to express his yearning is right that he couldn't be with for fast forward to the histoalus of the of the bash on the first day of shu on the first day of shu and he said that whoever will sing this niggan with aus of chuva speaking of chuva um that the bashm of whichever whichever uh level of ganaden he's in he'll come and he'll listen and uh do whatever he can to help this individual and uh I was just reading that the rashab said that in this niggan you can you can sense the bump through this uh this niggan even though the bump was not the composer. Correct. But Mikl was the composer. So now fast forward to 1941. Okay. Uh there was a there's two versions of this making. There's remember that remember do you do you I yes learn it later later. Um shout out to David and even in the times of the Marash it was a discussion which is the correct and then the if I'm not mistaken established this is the correct right so when the came to but when he established the correct we should just mention that technology was not at a point where it was recorded correct so there was it was established there was a correct way of singing it but you had to memorize it from someone who heard the official version. Yeah. So they come to uh the freed comes to America and the freed asks that they should sing the n of organ of and nobody kind of knew the this should explain this the first the I think the freed said when my comes he'll he knows it nobody knew the proper way to sing it right so York so so that the the the fed came in 1940 tasin the became alf over a year later. So the firstb was at then the wanted again nobody could start it. The Eb who was very low-key like unassuming especially in the presence of his father-in-law was asked by the faban and to teach niggan. So here's the niggan. Wait um no there's more. There's more. Yeah because I learned this from you. I remember you told me this once. So the deba sing the niggan. There's no recording of the deba singing it. Um, how do we eventually get the correct version of recording of it? Yeah, I learned that from you. So, right, I just read something that uh maybe another disputes it. Yeah, there's always anyway, don't let that stand in the way of a good story. So, there was a named Darkin lived in Artis in the 40s after leaving Russia. He came to New York in 1949 to see the Vika and one version that I heard is that the Reb recorded him or asked him to record this niggan another something that I just read I'm confusing two different stories is that he that someone gave this recording of Mharen to the as anyway the point is recorded in 1949 singing the quote unquote correct version of uh of this of and it was later uh I forget which volume of they came to the Reb they said we have eight tracks or whatever full we need we're missing two tracks of that but to fill the length of an LP yeah right the old days they had this an LP at vinyl certain amount of time so they had about 80% this is before iTunes but we yeah shortly before Mhm. And the Reb opened his drawer and took out the recording of it and said, "Use this for the uh the final final track." Yeah. Two tracks. So is it that this niggan and another niggan that uh it's acappella, right? If I remember correctly. Yeah. Yeah. No compliment. Now you know have the whole story. So this is the nan of [Music] See sea soul songs season two. Yeah. One. Yeah. Season two. Yeah. [Music] I damn. [Music] Now lad. [Music] I loo. [Music] Oh lad. [Music] Oh [Music] yet mama. [Music] More moto. [Music] You know, you [Music] It loo. [Music] You [Music] know, you know, oh you lad [Music] Oh, a lad [Music] a singing powerful. Yeah, you mentioned the bump, you mentioned Malik should also mention the mentioned many times especially in the last years how is connected with the personalities of Misha is David Misha is Misha Rabenu. Why is he connected to because he's connected to because this it's his yard site as we mentioned also his yard site and the pointed out that is an acronym immediately that Mashiach should come immediately. The question is though, why is it out of order chronologically? Because um should be Mosa in chronologically should be Misha David is you say well then it ruins the acronym but that's a cynical answer. Um it's plotting a course. We're starting from Misha Misha. our people came into being when we really became who we are when we became the Jewish people was when Toyota was given that's when everything changed the nature of reality changed our identity changed so the whole mission began from that moment from Misha when Misha received the Tyra it ends I don't mean end in a bad way that culminates comes to fruition with Messiah who is called Mashiach Ben David or sometimes called David himself David Malcasha. So Moshe is the beginning. David Malcasha is the goal. Won't call it the end. I'll call it the goal. And the means to the goal, the way we accomplish the goal is through Israel bal that as we know the bal had an alias and a shame. He had an out- of- body experience. He went to Ganeden. He met the soul of Msiach in Ghana and he asked the famous question. Ceue up the song by Ellie. Ellie get ready. Get ready. Get ready. This is a good tie. He asked me, "When is the master coming? When is Mashiach going to come to the world?" And Mashiach answered famously when your wellsp springsings wellsprings um are spread out all over all over. So the way to bring msiach is through the dissemination of the teachings of the bal which is so that's that's to get from the beginning of our people to David the means is La. [Music] Ju lie. laome. [Music] Go [Music] see my go. [Music] Oh my. Yeah. [Music] May I [Music] You shy. [Music] I brought a toy prop since I was uh mentioning Sivven when the Rabb and the Rabbitson came to America 1941. on. So, I brought a little prop here. This actually was from downstairs on my desk in the studio. This whole word studios downstairs. That's in the restricted uh authorized personnel only area, but uh I grabbed this. I brought this up here. I bought this globe because um it spins on two axes. Usually globes just spin this way. Um but this one also spins this way. It spins both ways. So the reason I got it is because what you can do is see you're you're probably used to seeing a globe with the north pole on the top which is very arbitrary. Like why should the north pole um be the top? What what about is the top? It's not the top is the top. What does it mean it's the top? It means that anywhere you leave from on the face of the earth and you go to from that place you're going up. That's why we call it aliyah. Aliyah, you're going up to so is the top. That's the top right there. Okay. And if you have the top, so you have a top hemisphere. Normally, I know we're we're very conditioned. We're very very brainwashed through Western education to think of northern hemisphere, southern hemisphere, equator, all that stuff. Okay? I mean, that's a model. It's okay. It's it's not untrue, but it's not for us at least. It's certainly not the most important model. Uh most important model is you have on the top. Everything that's on the same side of the earth as called Elon, the top hemisphere. Everything that's on the reverse side is called the the the underside of the lower hemisphere. So the rabbis spoke about this idea that when he and the rabbitson came from Europe. Um Reba was born in Ukraine in Nikolav and he grew up uh in uh Dip Petrovk and he lived in in Berlin. He lived in Paris. Uh the the By the way, where did the Rabbson ship leave port from? Portugal. Portugal. Very good. Lisbon. Portugal. What was the name of the the boat? Serpenta. Anyways, um that stuff is all the top hemisphere. That's all top hemisphere stuff. And in fact, really like all of Jewish history in the diaspora until very very recently took place in the top hemisphere because whether your ancestors left and went to Lithuania or Morocco or Yemen or Poland, it's still all the top hemisphere. It's all up here. Okay? But when the Rabbitson left Europe, they went across the ocean, they came down to New York. New York is in the lower hemisphere. I know that we say Australia is down under. But that Australia is only down under if you put the north on the top then the south is on the bottom. That's not accurate. Really from the Jewish model, America is just as much down under as Australia. Australia also is down remains down under but different part of down under. Um, so the concept is as the Reba explained it, leverage. Leverage is when you get up underneath something and you lift the whole thing from the bottom. It's actually it's a concept from the alterb in the alterb is discussing the concept of you read us in the shama. Why does a soul even have to come into a body? What a terrible thing to have to happen to a soul. I mean, think about what a soul is. And think about what embodiment does to it. It's torture. It's absolute torture. And and and and nevertheless, we see that apparently God thinks it's a good idea because he keeps doing it, keeps putting souls in bodies. Uh you know what the two guys in one says you know says you know seeing how difficult life is I think it would be really better never to have been born the other says yeah mishy but how many guys you actually know who are that lucky one out of a thousand. How many guys you know were lucky enough never to have been born. Everyone I ever met they they were born. So um the soul comes down to a body and it's it's a urea. It's coming down not physically. We're not talking in a spatial model of up and down. We mean up and down meaning higher realms lower realms more refined and transparent and uh those are the higher realms and then the lower realms are opaque where you see creation instead of creator. Um so the soul comes down into the body and experiences this concealment concealment within a concealment like a like a double bag. That's what it is because the nephilikis is inside of the nefamish bomb is and then bam is a bit in the goof. Think about how frustrating that is. Yeah. So yeah. Yeah. It's very frustrating and and think about the soul like up in heaven what it was experiencing. It's basking in rays of godliness and then it comes down here that gets completely drowned out by this really brash like yucky physical stimuli like the the noise and the you know the humidity and people are breathing too loud at the next table. you know, the kind of and it's very annoying and distracting. The tag in the back of your shirt sensory issues, all that stuff. So, the soul comes into a body, it's really it's aggravating. It's very uh it's not fun. But why does it do it? Because of a thing called leverage. that when you get up underneath something, the alterba says you can lift a building, a whole building, if you get up underneath it. Now, if you grab the top of the building and lift, you cannot lift the building. You'll break off the top. But if you get underneath the building, you have leverage. You can lift the whole building from the bottom. So the soul as much as it's pained by coming into a body, it does this in order to elevate all worlds. The only place where you can elevate all worlds is the lowest world. So sim similarly in the lowest world itself in the physical realm itself there are further gradations of higher and lower. Higher means the place where the holy land is and everything in its radius and lower means the opposite of that the opposite side. So the Ebba said that his coming to New York was to start a new phase of getting up underneath from the bottom engaging the world from the bottom up and lifting and that's the only way to bring Messiah. To bring Msiah you have to engage things from the bottom. From the bottom doesn't just mean geographically the lower hemisphere. But it also means everything that represents culturally, you know, the language and the style and the the mentality of the lower hemisphere. It's very very different. I mean, maybe it's so ubiquitous to us because we're so Americanized that we don't even realize how different it is, but it is very different. And yet Msiah can only come if the Jewish people get down into the trenches into the the lower hemisphere and all of its trappings and everything that that that entails and work within that. So I was talking about before this idea of sivven the three harmonization peace scholum integration synthesis between higher and lower. What this means is that you cannot cut off a part of yourself, ignore a part of yourself, exclude exclude a part of yourself because it's too low, it's too crass, it's too mundane. That's like trying to lift the building by grabbing the top and pulling. You just break off the top and then the bottom remains behind. We have to engage and address all parts of ourselves. The physicality, the the body, the body and and the way the body is wired, the nervous system, the the the the lowest parts of ourselves that don't even really respond to words. You can't even talk to them because they they they don't they don't operate on a on a on a level of intellect. You can't you can't tell the body. Explain. It's like explain something to a 2-year-old. Like stop crying. It's okay. Like but no, I'm I'm scared. I'm cold. I'm wet. I'm hungry. Tired. Whatever. Can't you can't the words don't mean it. What you have to do is just hold the 2-year-old. Just hold the two. Comfort the 2-year-old. Sh just calm that their nervous system. Stroke their back. And and to alchem is really this idea or one of the main ideas of tobashemptive is to find that part of us our our lowest self our most physical self and embrace it and comfort it and soothe it and bring it aboard bring it into a hashem instead of excluding it and and and and judging it as as unworthy. So really this is this is I I mentioned this is what matira is because mtoyra is the fusion of higher and lower and that that's happening to each and every one of us in in in microcosm. So the fusion of higher and lower means our holy self, you know, the nefalakius and our lower self, our traumas and our our body and our physical wiring and our sensory processing issues and the fact that uh somebody can't pay attention because it's too hot and he's wondering where's the air conditioning and all that stuff. You know, if you were truly spiritual, you just sit here and you say, "Oh, someone's speaking." And what do I care that I'm a little bit hot? And you certainly wouldn't notice the pickle, and you certainly wouldn't notice uh the jalapeno flavored uh salmon or whatever that is. Um but but here's the deal. Hashem did give you a body. He did put your soul into a body. And he does want you to have that part of you because to bring Messiah to to to express Hashem's infinity, the infinite cannot be relegated only to the spiritual. The infinite has to express itself in the most finite thing which is the physical. So that's what we're doing. We're preparing ourselves in the whole world for wholeness, for shalom, for peace, completion, integration, synthesis by getting down to the lowest realm and and meeting it and and and being aware of it. It doesn't mean being slept down to it and following it and letting the nejamas run your life. God forbid that's a disaster. But what it does mean is finding out what your nebamas is all about. What's wrong with it? Why is it the way that it is? Why is it resistant to what it's resistant to? Why is it afraid of what it's afraid of? What happened to it? What what what do you need to do to make the Nevas more comfortable to to feel more soothed and more regulated so it can be more receptive to its job, which is ultimately the Nevas is a really super important job. It's to power the body so the body can do mitzvah. And the Nevalikis can't do that. Neelikis doesn't do mitzvah on its own. hangs out in heaven, enjoys the Pink Floyd laser light show. It's a reference I always use. Nobody gets it and we're going to keep on using it. Growing up in Chicago, there was the at the Adler Planetarium, somebody watching this, if you're watching this on YouTube and you get this reference, just please write in the comments that you get the in the chat that you get this reference and I'm going to send you a prize that to be determined what that prize is. Okay. How will I know who you are? That's a good question. Um, you're going to have to email [email protected]. You're going to send an email to infossalwords.org. So, they had a thing called the Pink Floyd laser light show at Adler Planetarium. And basically that's where I never did this, God forbid, but like teenagers would go and they would like they would take chemicals to enhance the experience. And this was I don't even know if it's a real thing or an urban myth, but like that was considered like I'm like in the 80s. This was like the ultimate like amazing experience. Take acid and go to the Adler planetarium and watch the Pink Floyd laser light show. So that became embedded in my mind as like the most indulgent type of escapism. And so whenever I think about the soul being comfortable in heaven and experiencing all the gilim, I think about yeah take acid and go to Adler planetary and watch Pink Floyd laser light show. Come on, we got to get to work. Get down into a body and do some mitzvah. Do some serious work down here. So by coming down to the lower hemisphere, the Reb started a new phase of dealing with the low stuff. Um you know the old world model is very much I hope it's okay to say this but to ignore the lower stuff. Like if a kid for instance doesn't want to do something and so in the old world model, the old school style, the old country, kid says, "But I don't want to." And what's the answer? First of all, he doesn't even dare say it. But if he says it, who cares? We don't care. That's very top down. That's above to below. In the lower hemisphere, the kid says, "But I don't want to." Doesn't mean he doesn't have to. Just cuz he doesn't want to, he still has to. But maybe as a parent, I can be curious. Hm. What about why doesn't he want to? Maybe there's something I I can help him with. Maybe instead of just forcing him to do it, which I could. I'm bigger than him. I I mean, until your kids are a certain size, you can basically physically force them to do stuff. And you could just do it. You just force them to do it. Now, what have you gained? Well, what you've gained is you dominated your child. You turn your back, you walk away. I promise you, not only they do not continue doing the thing you just forced them to do, they may even do the opposite. Didn't become part of them. You overrode their will top down. So that's the old style. The new style is kid doesn't want to do something. doesn't again just in case anyone include accuses me of being woke or whatever that terrible thing is. God forbid. Um I'm not saying because a kid doesn't want to do something that they don't have to do it. What I'm saying is if a kid doesn't want to do something, maybe as a parent you can find out why. What's the resistance coming from? And if I could work with you and help you to overcome it, then you know what's happened? Instead of just forcing you to do to do it once while I'm forcing you, I helped you to actually overcome it. And now you can do it even when I'm not watching you. In fact, you could do it even when I don't ask you to do it. You'll do it on your own because you overcame that resistance. That's what in microcosm means. It means that instead of just saying ignore your lower parts, ignore your body, ignore your your your your wiring and just override it and force through it, power through it, which is the old world style. Means let's talk about it. Doesn't mean you're exempt from doing what you need to do. You still have to get up and go diving. You still have to say tell them shabasim. You still I mean yeah yeah you still have to do these things but can we work with you? Can we work with you? Can we find out who you are? What's your story? What happened to you? How's your embodiment been been going till now? And and let's actually include your body in this whole this whole journey over here. That's what means. There's a famous uh story that Herman uh oh I never thought about this. Herman Woke. Oh no. So Herman Woke was a great American author, Puliter Prizewinning author. You know the covered coveted Pulitzer Prize, right? I saw a great line in uh in egress the Reba's letters actually there was a father whose daughter got engaged and the Reba was telling him that he needs to speak to her about the birds and the bees from a Jewish perspective like either he has to do it or he has to find a teacher to talk to her but he has to speak to her about intimate life as a married woman but from a halic perspective and so that was I don't want to like get too off point because now I I'm about to tell you the Herman woke story, but um I thought of it because I said Herman woke won the pulit surprise. So So the Reb says to this father, don't give me that Bonum stuff that yeden are says that Jews are that means compassionate. Bisha means bashful or reserved, modest. Um and generous, philanthropic. So the says people love to say, "Oh, I can't speak to my kids, my students about intimacy because so it's very interesting what the deba says. He says um the two of the three qualities actually uh are from and one's from is a from a because a was aid. So the kindest thing is from came later. So it's interesting Zeba says the whole Bishonam thing the whole modesty thing only came at the time of mira therefore it only is pertinent if it's not opposing tora. So if you pull out the Bonam card to exempt you from teaching any area of Tory because you're squeamish about it that's the opposite of the whole concept of why the Bishonus was given to us. So basically the dev is telling this u this guy you got to teach your daughter hire someone find someone but you got to teach her about you know uh intimate life. So this is why I brought it up though. So the Reba says, "In today's day and age, everybody's so open about everything. Everyone's so open. In fact, the more open they are, the more extolled they are." And then like a parenthesis that Eva said, is this a I don't remember if it's a Hebrew or a Yiddish letter, but it's it's Hebrew or Yiddish. It's not English. I'm translating liberally right now. that ever says that that's what uh and if they write a book and they put in prus pitus means like how would you translate it Ellie they know they know you know what you remind me of when you say they know they know there was a famous Supreme Court case forget who it was Google it but they asked it was an obscenity case it was about obscene material so they were trying to define what's obscenity like how do you define it like what's the gather you know so one of famous quote from one of the Supreme Court justices he says pornography when I see it should I say it on the mic pornography but I know it when I see it who was it was Oliver Wendel Holmes very good Oliver Wendel Holmes yeah I can't I cannot define it but I know it when I see it okay So um I know it when I see it. At any rate, so what? No, no, no, no. This is still this is a parenthesis within a parenthesis. So the Reb says that when if someone writes a book today, if he fills it with pits, then everyone loves the book. They say he's a genius. And the more there's priz. So the devil says we could say maybe Toss pritos malian prizes or prizes. Malian priz Yeah. Yeah. That if he'll write a book full of pritos, they'll give him prizes. Okay. Pizzas and prizes. Yeah. Yeah. So, yeah. Just remember that we're live streaming, by the way. Yeah. Yeah. So Herman Woke was a Pulitzer Prizewinning author, very very successful author. And I'm not saying that Mitsad gain Yankee Jewish pride. Um he really was one of the most successful, critically acclaimed, commercially successful authors of the 20th century. And it happened to be he was a he was a Shabas observant Jewish entire life. He grew up I think in the Bronx and it was in a time when very very few American Jewish families were Shimemer Shabas. It was extremely rare. Even the so-called Orthodox at that time were not really so observant. It was a very difficult time. Um coming down to the lower hemisphere a lot of Yiddish kite was lost or given up unfortunately. Um so he Herman woke grew up Shabas observant. He remained shabas observant his entire life. Um, and so he was like this rare truly orthodox Jew who was a real American and successful in American culture to the extent of probably being one of the most like archetypically American authors of the 20th century. So he met the Rebe he actually he was on the Reb's 70th birthday. So Nixon, who was president at the time, gave he had to give somebody the presidential birthday greetings to bring to the Reba. So Herman Woke was the one who was given that job and so he brought the Reba his the presidential uh birthday wishes. At any rate, so Herman Woke is speaking to the Reb and the Reb is talking about his agenda for American jewelry and this religious revival that the Reba has planned out. And this is in the 70s. So, you know, this is 20 years after the Reba started. Uh, you know, the Reb took over officially the title of Reb. So, there's still a lot to be done, but there was still that there was already much that had been accomplished. had established a lot of the outreach and the the campaigns the um so at any rate so Herman woke is meeting with the and he's saying um with all due respect you know the is coming from the old world you know the is from uh Eastern Europe and Herman Woke is an American boy grew up in the Bronx he knows he he was in the American army like he knows this culture He's He's from here. The Reb is an immigrant. He's He doesn't know the territory. He's new. So So Herman W says, "Lav, with all due respect, like I know the American Jews. I grew up with I am one of them. Do you really think that you can tell American Jews to do anything?" And that says, "No, no, you cannot tell American Jews to do anything, but you can teach them to do everything." And I think that is the encapsulation of the top-down authoritarian model of religion or of parenting or of whatever is I can make you do whatever I need to make you do. I'll break you if I have to. What'll happen afterwards? Not my business. The American style is not I don't want to break you. I don't want to force you. I want to educate you. I want to work with you. And if there's any resistance in you, let's work through it. Let's work together. Let's figure out what it is and overcome it. And then when I remove myself, it's not that you're going to go running wild because now the the teacher left the classroom. you're going to continue to behave like a mench because it's really you. It wasn't imposed upon you. It was nurtured and brought out of you from from bottom up. That's what is and and it's not just parenting and education. It it's and outreach and and rabbis. It's all that too. It's also our relationship with ourselves. You can power through it and ignore your body, ignore your your nebamis and and and just be a good boy and do what you're supposed to do. And I'm not saying no. Sometimes willpower is the only tool in our spiritual toolkit that works at that moment. I'm not saying never to do it. What I'm saying is that can't be the only tool. And once in a while, you do have to figure out if the if the animal soul and the body are resisting for whatever reason, or maybe it's a maybe it's a good reason, maybe somebody ruined some aspect of Yiddish kite for you. Should you ignore it or should you address it and work through it? Get over it, get beyond it. means that we're going to acknowledge whatever it is that's going on inside of us, even the lower stuff, and we'll deal with it. It can all be dealt with. It can all be dealt with. We don't have to shy away from it. We don't have to be bashim and pretend it doesn't exist. Before this faban, we had the young Jewish professionals here from Manhattan. Kabad, young Jewish professionals from Manhattan. And uh somebody asked me a question. It was questions. It was like uh difficult questions. That was the themes, difficult questions. So the question, one of the questions was how come there's some crazy stories in the Bible like um well coming up to so like the book of Ruth. So you have Russ and Boyas and if you know that story it's a little bit racy. It's uh yeah it's at least at least PJ13 probably. Yeah probably Rated if you really understand what's what it I mean depends which before you read. So I know when I see it. So um or like but but and so the the young woman asking the question says but David Malik comes ultimately from that union and she says and in fact you go back further you heard you again mashia comes from that union. So she's saying we have like all these like questionable pitus. We have this like you know not such uh it's uh whatever doesn't appear to be so wholesome and yet uh that's where Msiah comes from. And she said a really good line which I'm not going to repeat on the live stream but she said a really good line. Um, at any rate, so I I said to her, but that's exactly the point of Mashiach. Mashiach isn't it's not about refining the spiritual. Spiritual is already refined. Mashiach is when the earth becomes holier than heaven to the point where souls come back to bodies. Souls who are in Ghanaen right now will take a U-turn and come back into bodies. Mason, the resurrection, one of the 13 principles of faith because the physical will be so refined. And in order to refine the physical, we got to deal with the physical and we have to deal with the lower levels uh aspects of ourselves. And yeah, since the this the primary wound that was inflicted in the human psyche from the time of the sin of the tree of knowledge was in this area of intimacy and that's where the healing has to take place. And healing that area is precisely what brings Msiah. And if you want to bring Mashiah and avoid all that aspect of of human nature and pretend it doesn't exist, that's that's that's not that we we deal with all this stuff. And obviously in a in a in a modest way, in a in a non-exhibitionistic way, you have to have to use your common sense, but we don't have to shy away from anything. We don't have to be afraid of anything. That's that's the harmony. That's the shalom. Ellie, what do you what do you think musically right now? What are you feeling? Is anything speaking to you? Anything? There is. There is. Yeah. Really? Could you explain it or you just want to do it and we should figure out the connection? I think it's self self-explanatory. Okay. I'm excited. [Music] We are [Music] so [Music] Let's check it. [Music] So we are [Music] I'm looking in the live chat and seeing if anybody knew the reference. Somebody wrote in the chat 11 p.m. sound curfew. [Music] in Hayden Planet Planetarium in New York City, too. No, no, that's an interesting information. Yeah, fun fact. There's another Negan. I don't know. I not sure if I can sing it, but there's a recording from 19 like 1912. Oh, wow. 1912, 1913 and the Barragovski collection of a Y in Ukraine. Is that supposed to be Was it was a uh No, it's not so known. What does that mean? Veraggovski was a uh I forget the term but some kind ofologist uh who uh collected Jewish music traveled all around Ukraine and and Russia and the pale of settlement I think and recorded people singing. Mhm. And uh one of the that he recorded is this [Music] something. [Music] Remember the tune exactly? Yeah. You know it. If if I know it. Oh, wow. So the word why for what reason? Why doesn't the sha come below? Right. Migraama from a high peak to a low pit. I think that's something that descent for the sake of a subsequent greater ascent very similar to yeah same same concept it's it's in its origin probably probably sounds it has that tom you know the words at least I won't speak for the musically if it has you know it's your area but the lingo is definitely lingo Yeah, sure. Yeah. Really clear. Okay. So, I have struggle. Yeah. Everyday human experience. Yeah. What are we saying? Are we are going down like no just right now will solve your mental health issues? about like okay you have problems but just take you out let's not even go out so much how to build money and don yeah for sure it's the most important thing struggling with your struggling with your struggling with finances, right? So, is it just there's a spiritual overlay? It sounds like you really want to there really want there seems okay. So, what should I do? So, I'm convinced a little bit. Le let's talk about like before we describe what it looks like to do it right, let's talk about what happens when you don't do it right. Not because you ne necessarily did anything wrong, but you just didn't do anything. You didn't you didn't know it was a thing. very common that somebody will wake up one day, 40 years old, 50 years old, 60 years old, and they did everything they were supposed to do, went through the motions, um, and all of a sudden they're questioning like, "What is this all about? Do I even care about this? Does this mean anything to me? Am I living a lie?" I'm talking about Yiddish kite. It's always like very shocking, tragic to me when that happens. And I've had many people tell me they've had that kind of experience. And and you know, you think to yourself, you're 40, you're 50, you're 60. And the these are people where it's like they're they're waking up one day and realizing, I'm so divorced from whatever my true self may be. Like I don't even think I don't even feel like it's me. I don't even feel like this is my life. I'm looking back at my life like I don't even feel like I was there. Like how does that even happen? How does that even happen? Um and some of these people crash and burn. Other people just keep forcing themselves along the way they've been forcing themselves because there's too much to lose now. What are they supposed to do? You know, the they have grandchildren. It's not just like not just like stay married for the kids. This is more like the grandchildren, great grandchildren. What are you supposed to do? Um, so how did that even happen? Or another example of this where someone will have uh like an upheav an upheaval in their life, something some acute trauma, some some disaster, crisis, whatever. and it knocks them out of their rhythm and all of a sudden everything falls apart. Like how is it possible that I I understand they experience something big, a loss or whatever it is, but one event should all of a sudden topple the whole structure. What I'm saying is they built a life, they built an identity, a way of doing things, and all of a sudden one thing happens and it's like everything falls apart. How is your life that you built so fragile that any event, even a big event, but one event could just topple the whole thing? So, what those examples are are people who never engaged their full self. They did what they're supposed to do. They were able to get the reaction that they wanted to get from the people usually starting with your parents and then other authority figures and it worked. They got the reactions they wanted. They were rewarded. Um not talking about spiritual reward. I'm saying the social rewards they played the part. Um and they never asked themselves. In fact, not only they never asked themselves, they scoffed at the question of, "Do I like this? Do I not like this? Is this me? Is this natural to me? Um, does this speak to my talents? Is this is this a challenge for me?" And that they never had that experience. They never actually allowed themselves the honesty to say, "I loathe saying to him." It's a very rare person who will say that. And I'll tell you why. And I'm saying it. I'm saying it. Um I loathe saying very few people will say that. And I'll tell you why. Because the people who do say shabas say don't loathe it. The people who would loathe it don't say it. Very few people who find it miserable. It they find it grueling and they still do it. So to have that self-awareness that something is hard for you. I I I I'll give you another example very common example where um usually a a parent will call me about a bach. Usually the baka is not the one who calls. Usually a parent will call. And uh it's okay. Don't worry. You can walk in front of the camera. What's the worst gonna happen? They're gonna find out there's people here. It's okay. It's okay. Actually, it's better for me. So I don't look like I'm speaking to myself. It's okay. Yeah. Can you show you show the No, it's fine. It's fine. This is all spontaneous. It's a natural not a controlled set over here where it's not uh not Hollywood. [Laughter] Um, so a a father or mother will call and say, "I got a problem." It's a very common call. I have this like if I would answer my phone more, it would be even more, but at least once a week. I I generally answer my phone when I'm in the car because that's when I can talk. Um, that's why I have a lot of those uh red light tickets. Also, by the way, the camera tickets. Yeah. Oh, camera tickets. At least $1,000 a month in camera tickets. Very serious. Very serious. That's the New York tax. Um, by the way, I say that's why punishment doesn't work. Extrinsic motivators don't work. I did. Okay. All right. Well, I'm consistent because I'm I believe it. So, they'll Yeah. So the the a the parent will call up and they'll say um my kid's going to get thrown out of yeshiva because um can't get up doesn't wake up and uh he's uh now he's home. They told him don't come back. Now he's home. And now when he's home he's uh now he really doesn't get up. Now he's up all night and it's like, okay, I'm not here to talk about how a yeshiva should be run. I couldn't run one. I'm in awe of anyone who even attempts to run one. I'm saying I'm going to say something that sound like I'm making a joke. I'm not making a joke. I couldn't run one poorly. So I certainly don't judge people who run them poorly. I don't. I really don't. It sounds like I'm being snideed. I'm not. Someone who runs a yeshiva poorly, I couldn't run it poorly. Okay. Okay. So, I'm all right. I am not giving any criticism. All right. Um, what is interesting to me though, Isela is back. H. Okay. You have the little uh Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's fine. Just established. Yeah. Just a minute ago, we established it's okay to walk in front of the camera. So it's like okay set aside the fact that yeshiva has to have rules and has to have structure and anything that involves large groups of people has to have certain regulations to keep things orderly. But it's like, why are we pretending that somebody who biologically is inclined to be awake at night and not to be so chipper early in the morning? Why pretending that that's a moral issue? Like why why is that a sign of not caring about God? It it's it's it's the attitude of like look, we don't care what your story is. We don't care how Hashem himself wired your mind and your body. This is what we're doing. Do it. And if you don't, then that's it. We have no way to accommodate. And again, I'm not judging because I I I I don't know how they would honestly how they would do it in in in practice in actual practice how how they would operate such what I'm saying is that the bal is 300 years ago already the bal told us 300 years ago already that we have to address the animal that when the donkey is crushing under its load you should help the donkey the And the materiality, the body, the donkey means the body. Help it. Because before the BMP, there were people who are like, "If I break my body, good. Good. I'll get rid of it. It's been causing me too much trouble. I'll break it. That's good." Bel said, "Don't break it. Don't break your body." So you have somebody who clearly what I'm saying is don't call it precile when it's not precile because when you tell someone that they're a pyric oil they begin to believe you. When you label something that is a issue of the body and you make it a moral issue, then they believe you. And then what happens, you know, I I am a mo like say once upon a time was a title that implied a certain level. Not just everybody is called button. You have to really be on the level. But today, who's anyone who claims the title and I'm not saying that as a lament. I'm not saying what has become with the title. Anyone who wants to call himself gets to be one. I'm saying it as as a truth, as a fact. Today, yeah. Who's an artist? Anyone who calls himself calls himself an artist. Exactly. Correct. And and and therefore, what is the stupidest thing that you could do? Go to a studio. What? Go to a studio and rehear. Are you any kind of artist? Why don't you go rent a studio and rehearse and get yourself practice and get yourself a gig instead of being down here ruining the day for everybody? End of the day for everybody. It's one of the most mo one of the most important places in North America. Who are you? You any any kind of artist? Anyone know who you are? If anyone knows, I went to NYU film school and I earned the right to say it. Sucker. I went to I went to New York NYU film school. San Francisco Academy of the Arts. You're never going to be anything. So, anybody who knows this reference, please uh write in the comments what Douglas Levenson maybe. Well, um so is today anyone who calls himself one, anyone who claims the title. So therefore, what's the stupidest thing that anyone could ever do is to inform someone who's claimed the title that they've done so unrightfully. You just killed you murdered that person. You murdered them. If a guy comes into Zal and thinks he's and he's wearing Crocs and you tell him you're wearing Crocs, you just murdered him because he'll believe you. he'll believe you. And now because he didn't even know what he was doing was not and you just took the title away from him. Okay. So I guess I'm not. So there goes Rambam. There goes and eventually really who says what's what's in place to to stop this descent until it goes into basic shabas. And why not? It is an absolute spiritual murder to tell someone that they are not because by doing so you you you you force them to identify with their lower self. We all have a lower self. We all have a that's capable of every a you know the story of uh Rabbi Dr. Tski all of a sham that uh Shia had tosski Abraham Jski. So he had to take some type of a test in the hospital, some type of personality test. Anyways, the question was are you capable of murder? So he wrote yes. So they took him aside and they were like we need to talk to you because you said you're capable of murder. Like that's a red flag. Like you can't be like working in a hospital. You're capable of murder. So he's like, I I am. Yeah, I answer it. I am capable this. Well, why do you think you're capable of murder? Like what? And why are you judging yourself that way? So he says, uh because Tito says don't murder. And Tito is speaking to me. So if it tells me not to do it, it wouldn't tell me not to do it if it's not something that I need to be told. Don't need to be told. So obviously, yeah, I'm capable of doing it. Okay. So that's a healthy adult who knows he's not a murderer. But when you take someone aside and you say to him, "By the way, you are your lower desires. You are that part of you that wants unh wholesome things. That's you. That's your identity. Why would you do that? We all have that part of us. We all have a yates. But teaches us not to identify with it." That is not who I really am. Who am I really? Like the Reb always would quote the the Rambam in hilis in the laws of divorce about the guy that they beat him up to give a get and how could it be they beat him up? They forced him and a get has to has has to be by the the husband's free will. So the says it is his free will because if it's a case where mandates he has to give the get. So every yid wants to do what Tito says and the fact that he's not doing it is yet a hut is in the way. So we remove his yates from him so he can do what he really wants to do. We're not making him do what he doesn't want to do. We're helping him to do what he really wants to do. Then I would always bring that as an example of you are meaning your identity is your higher self. So when somebody is using a title like Shabbak or whatever title and is doing so because they're identifying with what's holy, what's a higher standard and then you come to them and say, "No, let me point out this part of you, this aspect of you that that that proves that you're not. No, that's not what you are. You just murdered that person." Unless hopefully they will know not to believe you. But that's very rare because usually the scenario is you have an adult speaking to a child person in authority speaking to someone who's under his authority. And so the child just hears it, listens, accepts it. Okay, I guess I got the memo. I guess you're right. And if you don't if if you think I'm exaggerating, then I can tell you at least a hundred examples that I personally know of children who were spiritually murdered this way. So I'm not my point is not to go on a rant about this topic. My point was you ask what is what does it mean to address the lower part? To address the lower part means that instead of pretending that the model of excellence is the person who can successfully compartmentalize himself to the point where I don't even have that part of me. It doesn't even exist. Tyus I never heard of them. Never happened. Never even hap. No never. I was never even triggered. I never even noticed. That's yeah that's called success. There's a whole book by the alterb called safer shall bane in him about a guy who has ty and the alterba describes it. He says he has he he has ty has all of the and and you know what he overcomes it. And not only he doesn't do it in my he doesn't speak that way what they call locker room talk. He doesn't think that way meaning fantasizing not willful thinking that could pop up in his mind but he'll he'll be he'll push it away. He won't allow himself to dwell on it, but doesn't mean that he doesn't notice. It doesn't mean that he doesn't have that inclination. But when we pretend that holiness is a guy who basically takes that whole aspect of human nature, which we all know we have from the and you put it in a box, you you lock it shut with with with 20 padlocks and pretend it doesn't exist. Who who are you helping? And then what happens? That's the guy when he's 40, 50, 60, calls me and says, "My whole life's been a lie." Well, it hasn't been a lie. I happen to be a God-fearing Jew, religious Jew. I believe that living a Froom life is a good thing. I don't think you should regret that you lived that way. I think what you should regret is that you didn't live that in an integrated way. That the way that you did it was by chopping off a whole part of yourself, ignoring it, ignoring it, hoping it would not rear its head. And then finally when something happened where it did express itself, you didn't even know what to do with it. I swore in front of some students. So not kids, adults, but they were like really really upset about it. So I'm not going to say exactly where when this happened and I'm not going to do it now because we're being recorded and I can just see the people on WhatsApp taking the clip. And so they asked me about it like you know and you know I thought about it and I said and I said I I'm sorry for like offending or shocking you know I I really am but I don't regret speaking that way and and I'll tell you what and and and I I could be corrected. I've learned things in my life. I've found out that I've been wrong about things. So I don't mind finding I'm wrong about this. But this is the truth as I understand it today. So I said um all the great mashiam used to have a a dirty mouth. It's just a fact. I mean the archetype of it was zanas. He he was known as being speaking very grub. In fact it was known that a lot of people could not handle his feans in Neville. He he would he would take mashka and he would speak very grub. What what is grub? You know Russian curse words. and and a lot of people were sensitive and they would leave. They couldn't take it. They were like they would leave and uh it was like sort of a vetting process and then he would you know get down in Ferbrang with whoever was left. Um but there's a there's a reason for this. There's a book called the spirituality of imperfection by Ernest Curts. I'm not recommending people go out and buy it because even though it has BMP of stories in it, it has stories from other religions and I don't think that a Jew needs to read stories from other religions. I but um Ernest Curts was a scholar of the history of Alcoholics Anonymous. He wrote a famous book called Not God about the spirituality of recovery. Um and uh I was in touch with him. He used to call me to verify uh stories. When he had a newisha story, he wanted to make sure it was a real one. He would he would call me up. And um so in the spirituality of imperfection, which again I'm not telling you to go out and read it. Um but uh one of the areas that he explores is uh is profanity and how there's a there's a link between real spiritual work and profanity. And I was speaking to him about and I said, you know, again, I I'm record I'm being recorded. So out of sensitivity and respect for people who are listening who would lose respect for me, I'm obviously I I'm monitoring and filtering. I'm always monitoring and filtering. I mean, obviously like not in a deceitful way, but more like in a respectful way. Obviously, you have to respect the people you're communicating with. So, but you know the truth is there is it's it's not a bug, it's a feature. The use of the strategic use, not the gratuitous use, but the strategic use of profanity, potty humor, scatological reference and all as part of a va because if you can't go to that place, if we can't go to of the microcosm of the self, so what are you doing? You you you you're preaching to the converted. It's like you want to talk to the nef about God. That's what it already wants. It wants God. You need to speak to you need to speak to the animal soul about God. And you have to speak the Nevas in a language that it understands. And sometimes you have to drop a few choice peppery expressions so that the animal soul uh understands how you're speaking. So what I'm saying is, you know, what does it look like? What it looks like is that not and again you have to have say because some people are so exhibitionistic the minute you tell them that they should be vulnerable they're like oh you know be really vulnerable. No you're you're you're you're being titilating. You're you're being an exhibitionist. You're you're you're like you're you're intentionally provoking people's voyerism. Like that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about vulnerability in the sense of just be real. Just be real. Like the Mashia always claimed that out of fab and the Mashia says, "I'm just speaking to myself. I'm just speaking to myself." Okay, then really speak to yourself. Speak to your nephas the way you really speak to your mamas. And if you'll think about it, all of the real Mashiam, the effective ones, the ones who actually have Talmid long after they leave yeshiva, people who actually as adults will come to this person and and ask them real questions of marriage and parenting and and business and and how to do chova when you mess up. Those guys all had a certain rough around the edges quality always. They weren't the flying in the sky mofot. They were the the guys who were who were real. So means to be able to discuss spirituality in in in in not shy away from not be shocked, not be approved or like the Reba said in the letter that I mentioned earlier, not be Kate said earlier could basically the reverse also a single event. Yeah, certainly. Yeah. Yeah. One event could create an upheaval. I saw a letter of the debi like that. Actually, I was sitting a half a block from here. I was sitting in the in the trailer on Francis Lewis Boulevard with a young man and a young woman who were hostages in Gaza and who were freed by Hashem. And um we spoke about a lot of things, but one of the things we spoke about is there's a letter from the Reb and he writes about when somebody has something really negative happen in their life, it shakes them up. Um but you could also be shaken up by something positive. It was interesting because I was speaking to them and I was talking about Messiah. I said, "When Mashiach comes, everything's going to be perfect." And they said, "So interesting." So this young woman who had spent hundreds of days as a hostage in Gaza, she says, "Um, but if we won't have troubles anymore, how will we grow?" Okay. Like, so I said, "It's interesting you say that." And I showed her the letter. I actually had the letter on me. um that EBA says that an upheaval will definitely because she was someone who had zero Jewish education unfortunately and then when she came out of her hostage situation she became spiritually thirsty so she said if we don't have negative experiences how will we grow so I showed her this letter from the rabbi that said that it could be from a positive experience you can have something that's inordinately positive can also shake up your life in a good way. No, no, it happens to you. No, there's no way to trigger it. It happens to you, which is why it's not a prescription because you don't control it. It either happens or it doesn't happen. You can't make it happen. Can't make it happen. which is why it's not the regular course of a thanks for coming. You came just for the Fbrangan or you were at the aisle and you heard there was a Fabangan. Oh, this is your hakan is for the aisle. Very good. Very good. So when you walk out, look at the picture, not that picture, but on the other side of the wall, the picture of the Rebea coming out of the aisle. If you look behind the Rebea, you can see the houses on Francis Lewis Boulevard, and you can see the corner of 228th and Francis Lewis. You can see as you're not, you don't see this house, but you see the street. So when you're coming in from the street, the picture of the EBA has that street in the picture. That's why it was chosen. It was strategically placed there. Thanks for coming. You hear Ben Rifka. When you buy the Reb, I'll text it to you right now. I'm going to text it to you. [Laughter] Scatological. Megan. How's it go? No. How's it go? Who's got that one? That one? Not that one. [Music] No. Anybody? Oh, this one or from Al Morazzo? [Music] You don't know it. We're going to learn it. We're going to learn it. Yeah. I don't know it. If I would have prepared, I would have known that we've gone into this territory. What? No. As of Yeah, it's a good question. I guess so. Come out here and make the bra. What? Okay, we have to find out. But for sure I found out not to put a mazuza there. And there's a also there's it's less of a shila but upstairs that little sink area before the half bath. Also not to put a [Music] muza. Yeah. [Music] Yeah. I [Music] am Maya. Yeah. [Music] Yeah. Yeah. [Music] May the kingom [Music] and [Music] sing yeah. [Music] Yeah. [Music] Oh yeah. I mean she No [Music] secret me. [Music] Yeah. Yeah. [Music] There's a story that Ellie reminded me of recently. I'm not going to get into the whole background why it came up. It was a discussion Ellie and I were having about something. It doesn't matter. None of your beeswax. Yeah. Oh, Ellie Marcus. The story is doesn't matter why it came up. Okay. It's confidential. At any rate, um the story is like this. It's not such a story, but the punch line is a heck of a punch line. uh came to um the alterb and after he left the alterb said that certain talid should escort the kiner at least part of the way and one of the who went to escort him was Klitsker. So, Rabin was a big muscul in his understanding of and uh he appreciated depth and obviously alterba was known for kabad. He was he started kabad which is depth but the khalin I guess he felt like he was impressed with rabin and he wanted to attract him and so he told him very deep satra deep secrets of tyra which were very very alluring enthralling um and it was like this whole trip many days and in fact at one point they even they spent chabas together. Um there's a part of the story where the horses got lost. Yammen said, "I'm lost. I don't know. I don't recognize this area." And the Kalina said, "Don't worry about it." Then he let go of the res and the horses perfectly brought them to the place where they were supposed to go and which was a mifus. It was a a miracle and and the kalina was doing various different muffs and different miracles. So he was showing miracles and he was teaching deep tyra and that Abin Yammen was was impressed. He was duly impressed with this and that that was the point. That was the intention was to impress him. At any rate what was basically happening is that the kalin was trying to get to become his and I think at one point even just asked him straight up. And so Raben says to the kiner, let's see if I can Sarah Ellie's going to help me. The master is a master but not mine. The lad is a lad. The boy is a boy but not yours. Which basically means you are a reb. You're a legitimate rabbi. You're not a faker, not a fake reb. Just pause my musker about fake rebas. The divra satarov had a special disdain for charlatans. What? What? No, he had a special disdain for paleer rabb that's what he referred to them as um who were like fakers. So somebody asked him once but we see that they give brahas and people go to these guys and comes true. So he says, "I'll tell you a story. Once upon a time, the treasurer of the king got a bill for a hotel. And he Oh, That's what aid means. Means somebody who expresses loyalty to a Reb. So he says, I I I'm I'm aass. I am such a person who's given myself over into such a relationship, but I'm not yours, not giving myself over to you. So, thank you, Ellie, for reminding me, making me think of that story. Can you say the punch line nicely because you you you say it much nicer. You say the whole line. I think I think you said it very well. No, I did not. I said, "So, you say it so much nicer. Are you sure you're from California? Really? California boy, you speak like that. Google that was uh very impressive. So, Hillary said that if Then when he wanted to give a marshall for the intimate relationship between and instead of writing it about a romantic relationship between a husband and a wife, he would have written respect of his kash that needs to be spoken about. You know speaking of and getting down and dirty. I think we have to understand that a rebassid relationship is an intimate relationship. It's intimate in many ways. Intimate in the sense that you can tell the rebba anything. When people come here to the soulward's house, a lot of times we have groups come here to prepare for going into the which the said is it's a one-on-one meeting with the reb. And people ask, "What should I write?" And I tell them, you know, the stuff that you're afraid to tell your therapist, yeah, that stuff, that stuff is what you should write. And at the end, you tear it up because it's nobody else's business. So, it's an intimate relationship in the sense that, you know, you can tell the deba everything, mamish, everything. It's also intimate in the sense that it inherently needs to be monogamous. If you understand it as a marriage, as a romantic relationship, then you understand why it needs to be monogamous. And therefore, you know, Rabin told the carer like I'm a I I was gonna say I'm a married man, but really in the m be like a married woman because like in Hashem is the husband, the yen are the are the wife. And there's a reason why one is called masculine, one is called feminine. It's about mashia, giver and recipient. Um but yeah, I'm a married woman. Like leave me alone, please. You're a wonderful guy. you've got a lot of qualities, but I'm I'm in I'm in an exclusive relationship and it's, you know, it's not appreciated. I So, meeting with a Rebus one-on-one, that's an intimate thing. meeting somebody one on- one in the deepest possible way from your to your to to the and uh it's not something to be taken lightly and I'm not trying to scare people off and I'm not trying to make people feel um I don't know less than or judged but I do want you to consider something. I want you to consider that we're talking about marriage here and marriage is serious and there are many people who are inspired by the deba which is wonderful. many people [Music] who make it a point to incorporate in their in their yiddish kite various teachings of the rabba or initiatives of the rabbi and that that's that's very good. Um and then there's being aid and and being aass means getting married and getting married is kadusha which means separate that you are separating yourself from the rest of the world and you are exclusively connecting yourself to this one person and I think it's an important aspect of his that we need to speak about and it should be understood why people would be hesitant to go to other rebas or and not because I'm saying that they're fake. No, told the car you're a legitimate you're the real deal. In fact, maybe fake if he didn't think the kina was a real rabbit. Okay, whatever. Fine. Then we're just stam we're playing a game. But he said, "No, you are a real rabbit. You are. And that's why I have to be on guard and protect my intimate relationship, you know. Yeah. What's the Yeah. I don't know. I don't know. Especially the way I'm telling it really makes it sound so out of pocket. He's a real. Yeah. Who knows? I don't know. Maybe was testing him, you know. Who knows? But Binyan said the right thing. That's what aid should say. Not just what he should say. It's how he should feel. So, you know, it's I don't know. I'm self censoring because I'm cognizant of the fact that I'm speaking on a live stream. So be careful whatsApp clips go out. But um you know what I want to say? No, we could leave it for we'll leave it for more will be revealed. No, we don't have to say At least not all at once. Yeah, Ellie, you know what I'm talking about. Uh, Zusha Manipoli, the real Zusha. You said you have uh from uh from the mizuch mag. Yeah. You told me you have from the misuch. There are there are I don't have you don't give me didn't give me advanced warning. There are there are well This takes the the whole and you know trying to bring it into the musical conversation. Speaking of whatever, we're sticking to uh my impression was we're going to stick to Kabad in this uh particular broadcast. Um there are nunim that are attributed to the Mag of Mitch, but they are not uh part of the Kabad uh repertoire and the Kabad cannon of songs. Um tell me there's a lot of a lot of other from um some say that Ben is a composition of the um which I'm sure there's other of the there's the [Music] thelav is He was heal of the talking about um but put his hand to put his hand on them's hearts. Since then, he's had a Yeah. No free lunch. Yeah, we have [Music] D la d [Music] Dh. Oh yeah. [Music] Oh [Music] yeah. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. I am I am [Music] I d [Music] D [Music] oh yeah my [Music] Oh my. Oh yeah. [Music] Oh [Music] yeah. Oh yeah. La. [Music] No, no, no. Not running. There's only one shu [Music] for uniquely. The shoes. [Music] am. [Music] foreign dehyd. [Music] They don't see no sh [Music] It's a good one. It's good name. Didn't do my homework yet. You feel ready for Ellie? No. What more do you need to do? You have a plan? You know the story the guy went into this? He told the um I know I'm going to live long. So the Reba said, "How do you know you're going to live long?" So the guy says, "Because I have a bra from your father-in-law, that I'm going to be uh Shamayim. I'm going to be god-fearing." And I figure that the pacus is going, I'm going to live long. That's how long it's going to take. So that laughed. And then after laughing, that said, "And what's the plan?" So the guy says, "Listen, there's a lot of things maybe not 100% consistent, but which he says, I heard from your father-in-law that I never miss." So that said, "Sounds like a plan." Yeah, keep it up. What's going on? You don't want to be recorded. You want to sing a song for us? It's a rare opportunity. Your wife will like it. She'll watch the replay. So, you don't want to sing a niggan for us? I've I've I didn't sing tonight, but I've I've sung, you know, and I'm not not a good singer. What? Where have you been? What's going on downstairs? Really? Why? What was done? Okay, great. The tables are excellent. You s bought the tables today. the 18-inch wide tables that are conducive to the double rows for the Fbrangans Galdic exclusive and shut the live off. Um, I don't know. When Shamay wants to go home, I'm going to shut the live off. He's devoted. I'm sure he won't cry if we shut the live off. If we shut the live off and go out back, will you light a fire? The fire pit is totally rained out, by the way. But I have a fresh log in my car. I've been driving around with it in my car for two weeks. No, I have one. I have an extra log. Yes, an extra log. Yeah, like real hippies. Guitar around the fire like a bunch of hippies. Guitar around the fire, tie-dyed shirts, Pink Floyd, laser light show. I think Ellie was in the middle. Tell us his plan. How to get ready for Mountain Toyota. Yeah, about my plan. Yeah. Um, it's a big plan. Um, maybe this will be like the the culmination. Like Ellie's going to tell us how he's getting ready for Mountain Tit and then everyone else can have their own. They don't have to do what you're doing. Take a few more. Uh, you're glad I put that couch there now, aren't you? Yeah. Unfortunately, that's Yeah, 100%. No problem. Get um Yeah, no problem. Okay, no problem. So, um I do I I didn't buy a Rambam yet. I don't have a Mishna. Um it's going to take up too much room if I get the English set. the partisan donated. Yeah, it's called festival feces foned on their faces. never said. So in the Rambam says perk V chapter 6 law 18. Mymonity says that anyone who celebrates the holiday and he locks his courtyard and he does not include the disenfranchised then uh that's not called simas that's called simaso that's not celebrating the holiday that's celebrating his stomach self-indulgence self-indulgence as mali says what is pedig base puk Gimmel quote perish the dong of your festivals I will smear on your faces. One time when man was a kid right after Yamiff this there was a sewer backup in the basement in Crown Street between Brooklyn and Kingston. There was a father and man and his brothers helped his father to unclog the backed up sewer and instead of hiring a rotorooer guy. Yeah. And as you were doing it he said this is pes the feces of your festivals. And this left such an impression and now in giving on. Yeah. So uh you can give anywhere to any worthy cause. We want to make it super easy for you. And you can go to CSS.org. What is it? CSSY.org. org cssy.org and give a few bucks. Only is only when you when it's shared with others. So, what's your plan to get ready for? Uh oh. So, I was learning a a my last minute. Don't wait last minute. It's it's it's insulting when no later than what's shabas. You have to invite people to your shabas to your yumptiff table. Yeah. The disenfranchised guys not going to wait for your invitation. Do it now. cssy.org. Yes. So you're learning a mimer. Yeah. That is also Yeah. Uh the first was I forget secondh sitting back there. He's editing video while we're on a live stream. We have a whole studio in the basement just for video production. Go to a studio and rehearse instead of coming down here and ruining the end of the night for everybody. This is one of the most important places in North America. It is as I was saying about the Yeah. see this perspective and uh have to go buy some cheesecakes. Albony Bakery has them for $14.99 thanks to Shirley Clapman. Big shout out. And um yeah, take a little nap out of shores so we can stay up uh say tick. saying you get a nap on ede of so you can stay up late and I'm going to attempt I don't think it's will be successful but sounds like good planning you have the last uh negan for us last niggan last niggan last niggan I was looking for the story about we talked about something going before uh from there's can't remember the story the punch line of the story is uh something to along the lines of why do you want to see an an ali saying to him Somebody was trying to speak in the window of saying him and the caught him and said something like that. Anybody complaining a couple stories together? I did. I tried it. Made up a fake story. Uh that's I don't think it's from uh probably brought in somewhere anyway. So the um when he would say would sing that's why a lot of the that come from the are from so there's nunim there's there's so one of them that uh that I learned recently is kat from um sorry. Yeah, I don't know where the Yeah, it is a little odd, but um goes like this. [Music] Elohim. Eloh. [Music] That's the That's new. Where did you discover this? From David Harwoods. David Harwoods. It's in his collection of Lonim. Baldin. Wow. How How do I never know about that? Good stuff. Okay. You have anything else like bottled up in you that you need to share? You want to express? No, I think we uh covered it all. What do you think is the most neon? I have a I have a vote. I have a suggestion. I don't know if you'll agree, but it's definitely worthy of the discussion. The biggest attack I would argue is big Gdala Goombber. Why? Because he wants to help help raise a building. No, because it's so American. the words, the song, the attitude of it. It's if you would take Labavich from uh Yeah. And by the way, it it is a Maveller creation. Oh, really? Yeah. Yeah. Who's a consmate American? Wow. Um Yeah. Now, I don't know if it qualifies as a nigun, but you know, it has that CGI uh gravitas, you know, certain status. Big Goober was speaking once I think on JJ Hakart site and talking about how dumman he was when JJ would fabang and use baseball metaphors to teach about right. So JJ Hart would would fabang and uh he would he would say I think I I remember Meller saying that JJ said one time we're going to knock the out of the park and he thought that was so cool like this is this is where it's [Laughter] at. Yeah. What else is in that genre of real real dedication? Is it okay to say that I don't like the Israeli songs? You know what I mean by that? like oh t actually. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Explain taking the values of the French Revolution and reclaiming it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's that's a that's that's a good vote. That's a good vote. But it's still Katic Elen. It's still European. It's still old country. But it's very Yeah, you're you're you're on the right track with that. Definitely. The in Russia used to take push like Soviet marches and make them into like a Soviet march made. So why can't we take like sitcom theme songs and make a I've asked if I should sing it. What the elements Russian culture has has values. I'm Mich. What are you calling acidic value? See, I would argue nefish of the of the Kazaks and you know, so you're romanticizing the old school and I'm saying that but that's precisely what I'm saying that when people equate Russian culture with sides that's ever fought against that. Can I can I say that? Am I allowed to say that? like that ever so clearly surrounded himself with fresh blood with Americans and like and suffered for it by the way and and caught a lot of flack from Kabad because the Rebu was like it was this is like we don't need people who you know what the how you know the Russians used to say stuff like they still say it their fab when when Napoleon would go invade and then he would have a river without a bridge bridge. They would march the soldiers into the river and they would drown and die and their corpses would pile up until the soldiers could walk on their corpses like romantis. What was this death cult like the American which is the ultimate which is the is what are you marching in a river killing yourself? Don't die. live. Live what's the ultimate ble the old school style of B is become nothing garnished and if you forget that you're garnished the mashia will remind you of garnished the American style is you're a king go out move to a town conquer the world baby not because it's you cuz what you represent you represent the king. The ultimate is that's the ultim that's you don't have to nullify yourself. Get rid of yourself. Pretend you're untalented. Pretend that you don't have a personality. To the contrary, whatever you have, whatever personality and talent and whatever, so use it. So use it. So use it. And that's Mashiach. Msiah is using every aspect of ourselves, not sequestering or isolating parts of ourselves because it's not holy. To the contrary, the parts you that are unholy need to be elevated. Make them holy. Make it holy. That's why we say yes. Whatever it is you're using. feels like you're using a nonholy thing currently in a holy way but the undercurrent is actually unholy. My son is the one who bought the bison okay. So it's like okay it's excusable right right like we're going to go we're going to do at the Super Bowl. Exactly. Right. It's like which came first? Do you wanted to go on with time today and then you figured out the Super Bowl is the place to do it or you wanted to go to the Super Bowl and you need a ticket quote unquote okay with that because over there at least you did with but here like like you know eating the pickle you know okay I need a song and it was done in a holy way but underlying theme was not wasn't right when That's I I ch the ego this way, but it's still me. It's still my ego. When a person dies, what he does is he takes all the unmanageable parts of himself and he solves that problem really fast. Like that's the ultimate solution. It's the ultimate solution. That's it. Now you're dead. That's it. Everything. There's no more no more ego. got rid of it. It's like uh what do you call it? Swatting a fly with a shotgun. You know, I think that's the metaphor. Messiah means that there's no part of the world that's left unholy that it's all used. It's all transformed. There is such a thing as gimmus and that can never be elevated. And therefore okay there is that but most of ourselves I mean most of ourselves is redeemable and not only it's redeemable meaning you can redeem it you must that's what Msiah is. So you tell me it's like we figured out ways of incorporating these lower aspects of ourselves and but at the end of the day it remains what it is. Well that's golus. Golus is at the end of the day golas remains golas and like the said so many times what's ga ga redemption. Ga which means exile with with an alf. Alf is alfum. Hashem is the master of the world. Taking all the stuff of the world and introducing or exposing revealing the godly intention. So if you say that, you know, really this stuff is garbage, but I figured out an excuse how to use it in officially way for, you know, for now. That's not that's not and and and frankly implies a certain hispous funvelt meaning you are intimidated by the world. You do see it's formidable and you therefore feel that you can never permanently overcome it. Whereas we're supposed to feel that the whole world can and must be channeled in a holy way. What's going on? You s fire's ready? Really? You lit the fire. It It was There is a log in my car. You lit the the wet stuff. Is it smoking like crazy? Okay, it's in a box. In the back seat. There's a box in the back seat. Okay, the fire's out back. All right, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, children of all ages. Thank you, Ellie. We're gonna adjourn. We're gonna go outside. Sha, you could cut the the live stream.