Rabbi Dr Abraham Twerski On Personal Connection

I suppose in some ways I'm at a disadvantage to address the question of how I feel connected to God because coming from a Hasidic family in coming from a rabbinic Hasidic family where there's so many so many instances there's so many stories of clear near miraculous occurrences that I'm just that's part of what I grew into I grew up into and uh I got in my mother's milk right so that that happened with my connection with God but here and there I have picked up indications of people who have connections with God that I envied and then I realized that there are people who've related to God in a different way than I do I'm at the Koto right and I'm praying I'm saying the Psalms with as much feeling as I could muster and I see that they're bringing someone down to the wall a blind man uh he's a safari with these thin little features and the the little payout and they bring them down to the wall and of course he can't see the wall so he feels the wall you know he's feeling history on his fingertips you know kisses the wall and then he starts off talking to God I couldn't make everything make out everything he's same with he's talking a million miles an hour and he's talking to God I'm talking about and abruptly he stops and he says oh I told you that yesterday right and I said hey he's praying much more than I am but he knows that he talks to God yesterday and that got hurt and there's no sense in repeating it right I realized that was a a a a a kind of prayer right uh there are times when I remember I was at one Retreat where a woman was said to me I walked past the services today and I saw you were praying and I stood there and I felt so bad because I don't know anything about prayer and I wanted to do something I wanted to pray but I didn't know how and I said wait a minute Bernice the way you look at it is I was praying and you were not praying right you want to look at it from God's perspective God sees me coming into the synagogue and he said oh oh here comes torski again what does he want this time every time he comes in he says God give me this God give me this God give me this but then he looked at you and he says I look at my child Bernice she's standing out there she wants to kind of get close to me she doesn't know how right now tell me whose prayer was better my prayer that I verbalized or your silent prayer so there's things like this that happens to begin to realize what kind of connection a person can have with God