Rav Gav Friedman - Chanukah: Elevate Your Inner Light

Welcome everyone to tonight's very special year. We have the renowned Rafa Freeman. Let's give him a round of applause. He's joining us today. A very special evening. People are wondering how do they how can they prepare for Khan? Got to go to the newest supermarket and get the jelly donuts, their lotas, their their gel. But of course, what greater way can they prepare than than getting some words of inspiration, get the right perspective for for for the great days of Khan that are right upon us. And of course, we have a great topic tonight of elevate your inner light. And of course, we want to thank the sponsors for tonight. It's being dedicated for the success of the David of Sabanov and Khara families. Of course, these are great families in the community who hashem do so much. And we wish the the families continued for all the great work they do for the community. Amen. And of course want to thank of course near Morai for partnering and hashem. 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So of course if anyone has any friend everyone thinks for a second they know of a neighbor friend co-orker and they can share that light to them they can help give them a Jewish education of course let them reach out to Kazak and um of course we um we have a special topic tonight about elevate your inner light but if you think about it you would think Kaneka is a uh is a military victory. So, so why are we celebrating with the with the light with candles? Really, it's a military victory. That's the real story of it was the the Mcabes, this small ar small group of of of people and they go defeated this massive powerhouse of an army. So why why are why is and then what happens? This is a technical difficulty that they they couldn't find the the oil and it last instead of one night it lasted longer. Wh why is that the holiday that that we remember? So Charlie once said an amazing insight. He said he said he said you know why? Because as Jews we we we we don't we don't go out and go fight others. Um we go out and we have to defend oursel of course but we as Jews we go out and we have to we we we we go in proactive approach and sharing the light. And that's that that's what each of us in our own life. How am I gonna bring light to my life, to my family, to my community, to the Jewish world at large? And Hashem, somebody who's doing that for tens of thousands of people, as you can tell from a cold night outside, and there's not so much parking in the area. And um they're they're here because they want to hear the light and and and share the light and and hear that light from our dear friends. Let's give a round of applause to renowned speaker Ralph Goffreyman. [applause] So why is it that we're saying over here that you have to have eight days? This is one of the most famous questions that's asked answers to this question. The one that I've heard repeated most often is the fact that the the fact that the fire burns is also a miracle. We we're used things so we think it's normal but it's really not normal. It's just a strange thing. Why should it be that plus that equals a miracle? We get you to get used to it. Therefore, it becomes what it is. However, we got to make sure that we understand. So therefore miracle because the unexpected it's going to burn and even the things. So we have to recognize Hashem is giving us good things every day of our life. And if you're experienced something bad in your life and you say everything's bad, it's just terrible. This is bad. It's okay. You you're allowed to say I'm experiencing something bad. It's it doesn't feel so good. I just have one challenge for you and that is why don't you also mention something good. You could speak at the bad speak at the it's like this is a bad thing is happening to me. Okay, but is there something good? Nothing good. Nothing good. Nothing really like nothing. Nothing. Do you Do you Do you hear me? Can you hear me? Yes, I can hear you. Is that a good thing that you could hear me? Yes or no? >> Is that a good thing? Yes or no? Yeah, >> that's an amazing thing. At least somebody agrees. It's a good thing. They can hear something. Can you see? Can you taste? Sometimes you don't want to taste certain things, but can you taste? It's an amazing thing. It's incredible. It's true. Right now, I'm going through something which is painful, but there's also a lot of good out there. So, that's just one thing. Just counteract. Let's recognize that. Let's recognize the fact that even if I'm going through something hard, in the midst, even in the midst of the most painful things, Even their names are there's no guitar, but I'd play for you because I'm good. Real good. But anyway, but I'm here speaking for a reason. So, let's uh let's stick to the speaking. So, so here's the deal. Even in the bad is good. Okay. But I want to share with you a story which is really good. I want to share with you really good, but it was really bad. But it's so good. This story is so good. But it was really bad. And the story goes like this. I'm going to take you back to Sisma EV. This past year, Sukkot started on a Monday night. Is that correct? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I see. Oh, that How did you know that? >> Wasn't that moment? >> Yeah. Okay, good. I see. Usually what happens is they're impressive. Did you build the sukat this? Is that I don't know how you do that. I'll tell you why I'm impressed because women generally remember I have to cook after whatever I know what it men are like what's the code but what happened is they go ahead it was on a Monday night Sunday night in Israel I have the zak to live in the holy land of Israel I live in Israel I'm anyway so there I am I'm living in Israel and in the back of my home I have what's called aer I have a little Little what do you call it? >> Sure. Courtyard. >> What do you call this grass there? It's still a courtyard. >> A field. An orchard. [laughter] I know. I'm going to go with that. I have an orchard in my yard. In my yard. I think it's called a yard. Anyway, a yard. That's the word. Okay. So, I have a yard in my orchard. In my courtyard. Anyway, in the back of my house is an area that's open, relatively speaking. And uh that's where I'm going to build my suka. Fantastic. Now remember, sukot is Monday night. It's Sunday afternoon. And uh I know everyone's thinking yom kipur right after you have to build it, whatever. And I did. I built it. But I didn't build everything because I didn't have everything because I wanted to add that year. And I didn't have enough stuff. So I put up whatever I put up. I didn't put up this, which really is a fine. I didn't build the fine. It's fine. The point is I start to build the suka, you know, I'm starting to do it. My son helped me in the first night and then and then it's coming Sunday afternoon and my uh two littlest boys are helping me build the suka. My six-year-old, my nine-year-old. And this is how it goes. Behind my house in my orchard, there is a bunch of steps and then you have the open area. But there's actually if you go down you can make a left and go down again. And in that area is the everything falls there. Garbage is never clean place that I happen to leave all year round. Whatever is there it stays there. That's all it is in the bottom in the back in the bottom. It is what it is in the back of the wagon of the in the back of of my house. So anyway, what was one of the things I left there? the crashim the boards the kashimar beams thank you that go across the suka you see suka again the tabernacle anyway so I have the pentecost and as I have I have the beams that go across the hut and uh okay but they're all sitting on the bottom and so has to place them because they're very long so we're going to put them on sitting over there So, my two boys are helping me out. And by the way, I knew this was a mistake. I knew it was a mistake. Like that. Why? Because they're little. And these pieces of wood, they're not exactly fresh good pieces of wood, solid. They're full of splinters. The whole thing is like there's this there's random nails in them. Whatever. He's like, I don't know what's on them. They're sitting out there. So my my boys are like helping. But I gave them gloves. So one was wearing like winter gloves. I was wearing like some worker man glove. It's like it's a funny thing. And so I'm standing on the top part, they're in the bottom. They're handing me these beams. I would take them, put them on top, and that was it. You know, child labor, but I didn't pay them. So there's no child labor. It's just child abuse. [snorts] And uh and they're going they're handing me the things and I'm putting it up and handing and putting up handing putting up. And then suddenly my nine-year-old boy starts screaming. And by the way, I just want to play out what happened. I knew exactly what happened. What happened? What would you expect to have happened? >> A splinter. Now, not just any splinter. I already had it in my head. It's like a thick like a splinter. And it was deeply Hello. >> Oh my goodness. And it's deeply embedded. I mean deeply embedded to the point that it's never coming out ever. It's one of those splinters that you have forever. It's like the lead piece of pencil from when you were a kid. Am I the only one that has that in my every part of my hand? Number two pencil. Number one never made it. So what happened is he has this he has a splinter so far and I I I could picture it. I'm like great. I know what I have to do now. I this is so frustrating like I this is the help that I need you know like this is like 10 steps back you know one step forward 12 steps back I know I jumped too but so I'm thinking like what and not only that I know what I'm going to have to do I'm going to have to go find tweezers I'm not going to be able to find them by the time I find them they're not going to be sharp enough I'm going to have to sharpen them on some rock and then you have to get alcohol and whatever and then I'm going to say okay come here let me do it he's going to be like here my finger and I'm be like okay this is all going in my head you know I don't know if you guys also have these visions. I am a prophet and I'm watching these things go on. I'm going to have to go ahead. I'm going to have to hold him. He's going to be like, "It's okay. Go ahead, father. I trust you." And then and then I'm going to start and he's like, "No." And I'm going to be like, "Yes." He's going TO BE LIKE, "NO." AND BE LIKE, "YOU KNOW WHAT? FINE. Just keep the splinter in your finger." He's going to be like, "FINE." I'M LIKE, "NO, COME BACK HERE." Am no trauma. Anyone? And so, so he goes ahead. I figure I'm going to hold him down. I'm going to get it's not going to get in. I was going to pierce this. I'm going to get my wife's going to be like, "Stop it. Don't do that." And be like, "I love him. It's for him." Anyway, so I come over to him and this is that was all everything I just told you was like one second in my brain. I come over to him and I go, "What's the what's wrong?" He's like, "My finger is kill like I heard, but what's going on?" He's like, "My finger is killing me." So I said, "What? What? Show me what's wrong. Show me." And I know what I'm going to see already. really deeply spent time to get up the tweeze after the twe scream really crazy but the alcohol is going to go I'm going to do it and he goes in he goes look ah and he holds out his finger and I look at his finger and uh and there was nothing there nothing [snorts] no splinter no cut no like nail no no no no no no no like hepatitis like there was nothing I couldn't even see hepatitis nothing. And I'm thinking like, what's going on here? There's nothing here. But he's he's really freaking out. And he can't even stand still. He's like, it hurts so much. I'm like, okay, what's the issue? He's like, it's right here. I said, where's it hurt? He goes, here. Here. And then he go and then he goes then he goes like this. He's like, it's here. It hurts right here. I go, okay, where? You see here? And he goes, now it hurts here. It hurts like here. Here. I was like, oh, here. Okay, good. Let me check over there. And and I'm like, "What's going on here?" So my 16-year-old boy, he goes, "Call an ambulance." So I was like, "Okay, ambulance. What is it? My son's finger hurts. Why? I don't know. We'll be right over." Like, "What is that?" I'm like, "Hold on. We're not going to just call the ambulance." You know, this is at 5:30 p.m. Sunday. Boom. So I That worked out nice. So I was like, "Okay, [snorts] what what what's going on here? Let me check it out." And and my son's like, "Call an ambulance." I'm like, "Hold on to the ambulance one second. Let's go inside. I'll wash off his finger." And it's like, "What do we do? What do we do when someone's in pain?" It's the weirdest thing that people do. You're in pain. Here, take some water. Would you like water? Do you need water? I I remember when I was uh it wasn't that long ago, but it was actually that long. It was 2018, 19, whatever it is. I was playing basketball. I know you're all looking at me thinking, "You're probably really good." And you're right. You're right. I am. At least I was. And I was playing. I'm not like really really good. I'm better at guitar, but I'm saying but I'm I'm good. [snorts] And uh and I was playing and I was running to a corner to to to defend. Someone's in the corner. He hits us three. Game over. I run and I take a step. And when I took a step, I stopped, but my knee decided to keep going. And I was like, "Please don't go." And it said, "Yes, I will go." And it left. And whatever I ended up tearing some stuff, a lot of letters. I don't know if you know the alphabet. I learned the alphabet from my knee. A lot of CL's like a PCL, an MCL, an ACL, a meniscus, like a lot of stuff. The patella was okay. It was a major contusion of the tibia and the fibia. That was the most painful. I was in pain, ship pain. Unbelievable. I don't know why I'm telling you the story. Oh yeah. So anyway, the major thing was I tore through my ACL. Anyone speak Hebrew? Any Anyone speak a little Hebrew? No. Nobody. Not really. Okay. A little bit. Yeah. Um, how do you say how do you say filament? >> Go ahead. Fil filament. You don't speak Hebrew. Okay. Anyway, I'm kidding. That's my new word. I didn't even think why I thought of that word. Anyway, but this is this is crazy. I'm reading the results of the I'm reading the results of the MRI. I got an MRI. First, I got a I got it. By the way, this is a story and a story. Stay with me now. I I got the uh what do you call that thing? X-ray. X-ray doesn't show anything. X-ray is just if it's broken or not broken. Didn't come back broken. So, I was like, "Okay, this is crazy." I got an MRI. Of course, it takes like six months and $45 million and connections and you get the money back and you go back in time and you do it again. So, I I I uh ended up getting the results and I read the results and it said as follows. Get ready. Here we go. For those who speak a little Hebrew, the results said like this. Kufin. What's Kufra? >> Ka. You can call it Kra if you'd like. Ka ready for pay attention. Me sud [snorts] bet [laughter] me sabak yud bet yud >> I know it's orchard isn't it broken around >> yeah broken around >> misiv not and I'm reading this word. I have no idea what's going on. I call up my cousin who also had an issue with his knee, but he's Israeli and I say, "Mayor, I I can't read this." He goes, he goes, "Read what?" And I show it to him and he starts laughing. He's like, "What do you mean you can't read that?" I'm like, "I can't read it." He goes, "Why can't you read it?" I said, "Well, I can read it. I just know what it's saying." He said, "You're thinking in the wrong language." >> Ker massive. >> You know what massive means? >> Massive. That's the Israeli system for you. Ker >> massivi massive tear. It was 100% torn. Craziness. said, "Have surgery." But but here was here's the deal. Surgery's not right away. And the major issue is the ACL. Now, let me tell you what an ACL is. ACL is a big strong rubber band. That's what it is. And it allows you to go from left, it goes from side to side. If you have a torn ACL, you can walk forwards and backwards, but as soon as you turn, you'll have zero support and you'll literally fall to the floor. That's what happened to me many times over the weeks until I finally was able to get surgery. And I was walking once into the old city of Yu Medical. There I was. And as I was walking, I'm walking with one of my rabbis and he's walking a little too quick for me cuz even though he's much older than me, but he's I can't I just can't really walk. And I felt awkward. You know, it's like this awkward thing. You look with this big rabbi. I'm going to say I'm like, "Slow down." So, you know, I'm saying I'm I'm young. I'm 25. I'm like I'm I've coach maybe I was a little older and I was like let me let me do this and I'm walking and as we get to steps I took one step down and then I felt it going. I said knee please not here not in front of the rabbi and my knee went [laughter] and it just buckled. It went and I fell down the staircase. I'm I'm in the old city going down the steps like right next to this schwarma place, you know, like on the way to a if anyone knows what I'm talking about. I'm not saying you should eat there or not eat there. I'm not whatever. I'm just saying it's there. Anyway, so I thought maybe you should, maybe you shouldn't. I don't know. Ask your own rabbis. But I felt on the staircase. I'm lying on the floor. I was so embar I'm embarrassed. I'm very embarrassed. I know you're thinking why? But I was. And the rabbi looks at me. He's like, "Oh my. Can I get you water? I was like, exactly what I need. Why didn't I think of that? What's wrong with these orthopedic surgeons? Just give me water. And it was just like a crazy, oh my goodness. So, here he goes, my son. He's freaking out with his finger. I'm not going to give him the drink. I'll wash off his hand. Maybe there's something wrong with his hand. I bring him to the kitchen. It's 5:32. We go there and I'm I'm washing off his finger. And I'm saying, "Where does it hurt?" He's like, "Yeah, it's here. It's here." And then I look at his face and I see he starts foaming from the mouth. He's foaming. Foam is coming out of his mouth. Like, what does that remind you of? >> Guess I'm nervous to ask what it reminds people of. It was like different things. But is this rabies or something? Something's going on here. This is messed up. So I said, "Okay, I I think I know what this is now." Not that I knew what it was, but I think I know the category of what it is. Something must have happened to him. So my son's like, "Call an ambulance." I'm like, "We went through this already. Just give me a second." I went downstairs. is I went back to where he was standing and I saw the last beam of wood that he was holding and I went to the end of the beam of wood and I slowly lifted it up and comes running out a scorpion. Scorpion comes running out. Now at this point everyone always asks, "I didn't know there were scorpions in Israel." Neither did I until it was. I actually did know. I actually did know there were scorpions in Israel. The reason I knew there were scorpions is is because I volunteered for an organization called Main Deon. And one of the things we learned over there is that there are 22 different species of scorpions that are found in Israel. [snorts] 22 different species. The most dangerous of them is a yellow scorpion. The scorpion was yellow and I punched that kifer right in the face. When I saw that thing running, I was a little nervous to actually get close cuz if it stings me, it also be a bit of a problem. But I went ahead and I and I even made that noise like twice. Then I stepped on that kifer and I killed it. I killed it. And uh and I came in. Like I was like, "Okay, now let's call an ambulance." Really, I shouldn't have called an ambulance. I should have just got in my car and driven cuz we live relatively close to the hospital. I could be in the hospital from my house where I live. I live in a place called Gatsa Fat in French Hill Sophia Mount Scopus. in order to get to the hospital from where I live. If you drive legally, but if you drive illegally, I could be there for sure in 30 seconds. Like actually, like I I live very close, but legally it would take legally take like 3, four, five minutes. Lights and one-way streets, whatever. So, I ended up waiting for the ambulance. They first we called and then a bunch of guys came. medics came very quick and so one of my one of my buddies is his name who works for Mada he said what happened I said the scorpion he said where's the scorpion I said in the back he goes to the back and uh he finds it it was you know was lying there like it was like that I put chalk like around it you know put up tape and the whole thing and uh he ends up he comes back in the kitchen with the scorpion he put it in a bag and he said bring it to the hospital cuz they have to know in order you get this uh you have to know what to what to give. What do you give in order to you know depending on what the scorpion is. So at that time now he's losing his mind and the ambulance say ask him what does it feel 1 to 10 what's the pain what would you say someone's like 1 to 10 and you're flipping out what would you say 1 to 10 >> you guys are so [clears throat] good I'd be like a billion you know so my son though because he's little and he listens to instructions he's like 10 10 I was like 10 10 forget he's turning red starts to turn red he's going crazy. One of the guys in the ambulance, like the the Mad guy, he put a glove on the arm to create a tourniquet to stop that should have more venom going in. Anyway, we get to the place and this is like the this is like honestly the craziest thing. We we walk into the into the emergency room and they look at him. They're like, "Okay, the kid's 9 years old, scorpion bite, whatever." He's like, "Honey, was a scorpion bite?" And I'm like, "This is how we know." You know what I'm saying? It's just like unless it was a coincidence that he touched that area and then the scorpion came out and he's like I didn't do nothing. I didn't do nothing. I was minding my own business, you know. First of all, he wasn't talking anymore cuz I punched that clip in the face. But the point is I brought it in. Okay. They're like, "Go to the nurses station and get checked in." And I was like, "Are you is that like what?" And but you can't it's a problem. You can't really fight with them. You start fighting with them, they're going to throw you out the whole security thing. So they're like, "Go to the thing." And I was like, "Okay." We start going up. He's getting redder and redder. And then he starts throwing up. Just starts throwing up. And he's not throwing up anything. Now, so what are the signs of poison? Well, I don't know. Maybe freaking out. That's one of them. Throwing up, turning red, fever, high blood pressure, high heart rate, which we didn't really know yet. But then they looked at him like, "Okay, let's bring him bring him back in." And I was like, "Oh, that's a good idea." Now, I walk in, there's myself, my wife, she drove up, my kids, a bunch of my older kids came and uh then my wife heard something that was not good for her to hear. The head doctor says, "Put him on the bed. Put him on the bed for uh CP for um CPR for the defiill. hook them up to a defibrill. Now, let me explain to you what a defibrill is. Defi is for dead people. And that's if the heart stops, then you start the heart again with a defibrill. This is now this is getting my wife, she's like, I what? Like, no, don't put him there. Like, yes, you got to put him there. And she's like, I'm going to faint. So, then the nurse goes, you lie down. She's like, I'm out of here. And my wife left us. And uh she left. Totally left the room. could not handle this. She walked out, my son went with her, whatever it is, and I stayed inside and they hooked him up. What's the uh heart rate? What would you say is a heart rate of a child of 9 years old? So nine nine years old is tricky because 9 years old is the turnover. From one month until 9 years old is one heart rate. Somewhere between somewhere between 80 and 120. Once you go above nine until the end of time, it's somewhere between 60 and 100. So his heart rate maximum should have been 120 maximum and really since he was already nine turning 10 it should be around 100. Now this is known as a resting heart rate. That means if you're not running or going anywhere just staying still it should be 100. So his heart rate was at 150. That was a resting heart rate. That's not a normal number. Then they took his blood pressure. Blood pressure. This is a little more tricky. This is where this separates to see who really knows what they're talking about. And this is actually a clinical number. Most don't know this. You know, an average what should be a 9-year-old's systolic. That would be the top number. I'll give you the average of an adult would be 120 over 80. Okay? Could be 110 over 70, right? A minimum of 60 on the on the diastolic a maximum of 90. And then we have 90 to 120. [snorts] So a child of that age maximum should be about 100. Really 98. if you want to be like exact but about 100 that should be his blood pressure. That means how much pressure is the heart shooting out the blood. So he should be 100 as resting blood pressure was at 165 which means his heart was pumping over time [snorts] going crazy. And I'm looking at these numbers and I know these numbers. I've worked on the ambulance. I know what's going on. And I'm watching this and uh he's going so crazy that he goes to the doctor and the doctor comes over. He says, "Put me to sleep. Put me to sleep. Put me to sleep. I can't. It's too much. Put me to sleep. Put me to sleep." And the doctor, the doctor says, looks at me and then I look at him and we have a conversation. Now, this conversation never happened. But it was a conversation of eyes of two grown men looking at each other. And he said to me, "Should I do it? Should I put him out?" And I said, "I'm not a doctor." And he said, "Yes, I'm familiar." I said, "Then why are you asking me?" He said, "I think I'm going to put him out." And I said, "Okay." That was our eyes. That was it. That was an eye discussion. and he decides to give him anyone from California, if you're from California, I want to make you feel at home. So they gave him fentinel. So anyway, which I don't know if you're familiar with what that is. I mean, you know what I'm talking about. Family business. It is what it is. Home sweet home. You're like, why did I say where I'm from anyway? Fentinel. They actually g fentinol. He he was just going he's losing his mind. Then they gave him another drug, then another thing or whatever. But the one thing they should have given him that they weren't giving him was >> water. [laughter] Water. SOMEONE QUICK. WHAT ARE THESE EVEN DOCTORS? The answer is an orchard of water. What should they have given? They should have given him something called Well, he had venom in him. >> Antivenenom. In Hebrew, it's a tough word. Antivenenom. Give him give him the antivenenom. Okay, not so simple. They didn't give it. they weren't giving it to him. That's a great question. So the question was why not? And by the way, I wondered the same thing. And I even wondered it aloud. And this was not an eye conversation. I go give him the antivenenom. And then they kept saying, "We're not, you know, that that doctor is some guy in charge. The one who's in charge, he was there." [snorts] And he's like, "No, no, no, not yet. Not yet." And then he kept now I'm watching my son and he starts to like he's he's like freaking out. that he starts to like his eyes start like rolling back. He's like going out and I was like, "No, no, no, no." And I keep saying his name and saying his name and saying his name like, "No, it's okay. Stay with me." And say his name, why? And then he starts hallucinating. He starts fighting with his siblings that are not in the room. There were other siblings there. He did not fight with any sibling that were there. only the siblings that were not in the room. And he's like, "Give me the blanket." I was like, "Here's the blanket." He's like, "No." And he starts yelling at the younger, he says his younger brother's name, "Give me the blanket." And he's like, I'm like, "Okay." Like I I I start like playing out like I'm the kid. He's like, and then he would like pause like, "Huh?" I'm like, "Here's the blanket." He's like, "Give it to me now." He's going nuts. And then he starts going out and then coming back. Then he starts jumping up and then he ripped the IV out and then I have to put the IV back in and then the doctor's holding his like you have to hold him down. You have to keep him. Okay. He's freaking out and I go I'm like, "Okay, I need I mean like I'm not a doctor, but maybe we should give him some water and then venom." No, no, no, no, no, no. I'm the doctor. I said, "I know that part, but maybe you should do that." And he's like, "No, not yet." I'm wondering what's going on. So, finally, one of them tells me, "It's not so simple. So, a kid has venom. You have antivenenom. You think that that's everything. Sometimes the ramifications of the antivenenom can be worse than the actual venom." Now, that depends on age, weight, how much, stage, and what there's a lot of stuff that goes into this. Obviously, you have to know how tall he is and what his weight is and and there's a lot that goes a lot of factors, but he's like and I'm like, "Okay, listen. I Yeah, I hear that. You're saying it could be there's going to be bad things that happen." I just I'm not like, "Well, there are bad things happening right now." Like, it's possible there'll be other ones. She in this case if you understand maybe something bad will happen but right now something bad is happening and he's like I said we went through this already you are the doctor I am not the doctor but what are you I said is it possible that like really he needs to get it in a certain amount of time he goes no I said but what if it is possible he's like I'm the doctor okay I'm stuck I'm stuck and then I look and then I look at his And I take out my [clears throat] flashlight, which I have on my phone, which you don't, but I do. Yeah. [snorts] Anyway, I take out my flashlight to check his pupils. Now, why am I checking his pupils? Cuz I noticed something right away. I was like, I noticed as he closed his eyes and opened his eyes and closed his eyes and opened his eyes. Something interesting. What's the thing that I noticed? Yeah, you guys have hitting the button also. Anyway, so so what I noticed, hold on one second. We were right there was doing a flashlight. None of that. All right. Anyway, [snorts] so he goes ahead. I noticed that his pupils, that's the black part of the eye right in the middle, they weren't changing size. This is one of the one of the main things which you're going to see if someone god forbid has a head injury. If there's a head injury or poison, these are these are two things that are going to impact. That's called pearl. P E A R R L that is pupils are equal and round react to light. That's what you want to look for and make sure there's no god forbid head injury. As you ever see the doctors like let me check over there. You're like what are you doing? Right? It's checking the pupils to make sure they're reacting to the light. When there's no light when it's very dark the pupils get very big. They become bigger. As the light comes in they become smaller. That's why you'll notice if you want to play a little game you can look at it yourselves. Have the person next to you close their eyes even for 10 seconds and open and watch the middle of their eye. You'll see it becomes smaller. So I'm doing that and then the nurse goes, "What are you doing? What are you doing?" I said, "Nothing." Like, "What's your background?" I'm like, "I don't nothing. [snorts] Why?" They, "What do you know?" I'm like, "Okay, I worked on an ambulance." Like, "Okay, we'll do the tests over here." I said, "Okay." Then they did a flashlight. They go, "His pupils aren't reacting." I'm like, "Oh, yes. We've established that together." And then he starts his body starts atrophing and there's you see his body going in. It was a very very scary thing to see. And he's losing consciousness and he's going out and I'm going back and forth. Finally, I'm skipping parts on purpose. I'm going to come back to them in a minute. Finally, I go to the doctor. I'm like I'm like, "Okay, I'm talking to my son. I'm talking to Doug." And then I get up. I was saying something which I'm going to tell you in a minute. Then I come back up and I look at his eyes. One eye is facing that way. One eye is facing the other way. His body's going like this. His heart rate's through the roof. His blood pressure is crazy. Everything's being monitored. Everything's crazy. So I go to the doctor. I'm like, [snorts] it's a delicate balance of not getting thrown out because they could call security on me and they could chuck me because they have to do what's best for the patient. And the other part of the balance is that they'll do what's best for the patient. So I said, "If Shu would lie, maybe you could just look at him. Just look. Just look at his eyes. And if you tell me everything's okay, then I will then, oh, then just look at his eyes." So the guy says to me, "What are you freaking out for?" We're going to give him the antivenenom. So I was like, "You could have told me this." Like, "What are you whatever?" He's like, "I need all." I was like, "Okay, you're the doctor." They go, "Now antivenenom. Now we have the problem." What's the problem? How long does it take to give antivenenom? So in movies, it's like, "Get it. He's good." [snorts] He had to take four different vials, which each one takes a half an hour. You can't just shoot it in. You could, but you're risking a lot of damage. It has to be put in a drip. They put in a machine and they put it in a drip. Then it comes in slowly. What they actually ended up doing was 30 minutes, 30 minutes, 15 minutes, 15 minutes. They rushed it because they saw they really started to start pushing it. When they finally finished, that's when the numbers started stabilizing. Everybody started stabilizing. Like shocker. You know what I'm saying? You give the medicine and it works. It's crazy. So anyway, fast forward, we end up he ends up going. Now, the crazy thing is he doesn't remember this part at all. My son doesn't remember it. He remembers everything that would happen before ambulance getting there, but once he once he was on fentanyl, like that was it, you know, and once [snorts] he started going downhill, that was it. He didn't even know what was going on. Then at the end of all this, this is already three hours later, he uh he starts they take him to the ICU and they end up so what happened. It's Sunday. I just want to tell you something. I don't know everyone here and I just know when I hear people tell stories like this, I don't understand for the life of me how it's possible that they could say a story like this without losing themselves emotionally. If I would be watching someone else telling the story, I'd be like so emotional about this. I'd be get I'd be crying and not let him sing you would be whatever. I get [snorts] emotional at these things. So, I'll tell you why I'm not. I got a phone call a few days before I was asked in my neighborhood if I can come give a class on Sukkot on about the holiday of Sukkot in my neighborhood. Can I give a sh? I said, "Yeah, no problem. I can give a shore. Bro, totally forgot about it. Nothing to do with anything. I just totally forgot about it the whole thing. [snorts] Then this whole craziness happens. And when the craziness happens on Sunday night, he gets to the hospital. He ends up stabilized. I'm with him. I slept with him in the hospital that night. The next day, I'm getting ready for sukot is finishing up the suka. Even though no one's walking into that suka anymore because who knows if that guy's buddies are around. [snorts] But uh let's get the suka. I get a phone call. Hey, I'm just calling to remind you about the shior that you're going to be giving in a few days. You know that one guy in the neighborhood that doesn't know what's going on? There's always that one guy. Like everybody knew what was happening. This is the one guy. He's like, "Hey, you ready for the shi or coat?" I'm like, I mean, my son's in the ICU like he almost died. He's like, "Oh, oh my goodness. Are you going to give this your or not?" Like, what's going to be? And I was like, "No, I took a little poetic license here if you're watching cuz he's actually a really good guy." But he but he he was like, "Yeah, okay." I said, "Listen, things did stabilize. If they end up better, then you know, okay, that'll come. It should be a for him. It should be good. Whatever. But we won't know because it's going to be already, right? So, it's going to be Monday night, right?" No, no, sorry. Tuesday night. Yeah. Monday Tuesday night was the only time I was supposed to give it for the Benl it's going to be there and the B say will be there so it's going to be the end of the holiday for one the beginning of the second holiday for the other and I'll speak but you won't know until I'm there you'll come I won't things did stabilize and I ended up saying to my wife you know maybe I should go give a shior for I didn't even tell my wife like it's scheduled you know I'm like maybe I should give a sh for what do you think you know she's like yeah it's a good idea you know if I would have been like I have a sh like are you a do you what? We're in a hospital. How'd you get that in here? Anyway, point is I was like, "No, we're forced out." She's like, "Yeah, good idea." Again, a little poetic question here also. But the point is, I end up going rumors are going all over the place. What are the rumors? The rumors are like I'm walking down the steps. Someone's like, "How big with the scorpion? How big?" I was like, "What do you mean?" He's like, "I heard that the scorpion was as big as your shoe." I was like, "What kind of Teenage Mutant Ninja Scorpion is this?" Like, "What do you think?" [laughter] Like, even a big scorpion is going to be like, you know, whatever. You think it's a size 13? Whatever. It's a big shoe. It's a big shoe. It is what it is. You So the guy, the guy, I don't know. I was like, "No." So, I started my speech. I said, "I just want everyone here. I totally forget I'm even speaking. I don't even know what I'm going to talk about. Okay." you know, something like that, you know, see the montage and hugs you and the thing. I'm like, you said the year last year and the year before and the year before and the year before and the year before. I'm like, stop listening. So, he goes ahead and all the guys like, we don't anyway. Anyway, so so he goes and I get up there. I said, listen, I just want to start off. I I heard that there a lot of rumors. The scorpion people were wondering how big it was. Well, I'll tell you. I was like, you ain't you ain't never seen a scorpion like this. It was like I know it was small. And I said, I just wanted to thank it. Now, some people actually didn't know it was going on because it's a day before Yomov. They didn't know. And uh so I said, I just I really want to thank a lot of people here who were who were praying, you know, who were dabbing for and then I lost it. Just lost it. I couldn't talk. So I just want to thank you for I was trying to say for praying for my son, but I said for praying for [laughter] that's [clears throat] how it came out. like it's like up and down and I just I just put my hand on my head and there are people that knew they're like whoa and the people that didn't know they were like is this a shior for sukot like what's going on here is this a sukot shior I think I'm the wrong shior it was like a but people and I was like that for a good 30 seconds now 30 seconds might not sound like a My watch is dead. I just realized it's not even moving. Anyway, so we would have been here for a much longer time. >> Yeah, it's dead. Anyway, if there's any watch people, please afterwards see me. Okay, so uh yeah, you're a watch person. Okay, [snorts] so so is the Rolex, please. Thank you. So he goes and and and 30 seconds and then finally I didn't even know what to say. I was like and I was trying to find I want to say what I was picturing. I was trying to I've never fallen through ice on a lake. But that's [snorts] what I pictured. I pictured like I fell through a lake and I'm looking for the hole to get out. Like where's the hole? That's I was so emotional like just find the hole. Stop crying. You know you're a man. Oh man bear. You know today is my bar mitzvah. And then finally I'm just like anyways Sukkot is about and I went into a different topic and then I continued talking and I went into whatever and then again it got to the point where you know I get to I did I did a lot of crying like I did a lot of public crying like awkward awkward awkward [snorts] public crying in front of random people that still didn't even know what was going on. So that's the reason I was able to get through it. Right now I'm only able to do it because I spoke about it. If I had not I spoken about forget about it. I would not be able to survive this. Anyway, we go upstairs a Sunday night. Fast forward, we end up staying in the hospital. Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. This is Sukkot. I said this is like we're just just starting. And uh and we did shifts. We live very close. So, 15 minute walk. So, um I actually I don't remember. I I I know how many paces. I actually counted the paces like as I was because what else are you gonna do? It's Yamov. I couldn't. Anyway, I slept in the bed with him. I didn't do it the first night. I slept like on a chair like that, you know. I felt like the scorpion, you know, after I [snorts] I slept on the chair. The next day, I come to visit my wife swap to me. She's lying in the bed with my son. I'm like, "What are you doing in the bed?" She's like, "Well, he's nine. He's tiny. Like, what's that?" I'm like, "I can sleep in the She's like, "Where'd you sleep last night?" I'm like, "In the bed." Like, of course. You know. Anyway, that night I moved my my son to the chair and I uh hooked myself up, you know, to the monitor and they're like, "What's going on?" He's like a seems like a different age bracket going on there. Anyway, no, [snorts] I'm kidding. I didn't whatever. I had him next to me. I woke up like cuz like he kept moving and the wires kept going like around my neck. It was like so it was wonderful time. Anyway, the next day they come back with blood results. So now it's like the blood stuff. And there was one particular number that they were looking at. It's called tropodine. It was supposed to be like 20. It was at over 6,000. There was another number that was supposed to be 0.2. It ended up being almost a thousand. We're talking about numbers were just literally through the roof. My sister-in-law is a cardiologist. She lives in in in Canada and we're calling back and forth and she's just she's like telling exactly what to get, who to do, what to uh whatever. Fast forward Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. They let him out Wednesday, thank God. And on Thursday night, still sukkot, we had a sudata in my suka. And when I told the story, I'm like, "Now, if everyone please look down at your feet because this is where it happened." And uh and thank the good Lord, Hashem, it's not a small thing. There's there's so many nim here. I didn't even start with them yet. Let me explain to you what was going on. First of all, when they finally gave the doses, the doctor then walked out into the hallway and my wife who had abandoned us who was in the hallway, she overheard the doctor saying she called up another they called another hospital called Hadasa in Karim. Hadasa in Karim is the big hospital in you have Shahit Sedek which is also big but not as big. And then you have which is a small hospital relatively speaking. So I've heard them calling at Karum. We just ran out of vials for antivenenom. We just gave this kid the last vials. We need you to send over some from Adasum because we have to restock. And the doctors in Adasa in Karum said we don't have any. We're out. I just want you to understand when we're getting in the ambulance, the ambulance driver said, "So, which hospital do you want to go to?" Standard for those who really don't know much, we'll say because that's the biggest one and they have like very professional stuff going on there. If we would have gone to Inky, I think it would have been a very different story than we are right now. Turns out that the hospital we were in Harim is the hospital to go to because it's the closest to the desert and that's generally where scorpions will be found. not usually in your back uh kum vineyard. So [snorts] what happens? The fact that we went to the hospital right there itself number one was a nace a miracle that we went there. The fact that they had any left and they had exactly the amount that he needed was a miracle. The fact that they didn't have it the other one unbelievable. Then there was a rumor during the week that they didn't even have a chariotic. They were out. They end up it takes time. You have to it's called milking. You have to milk a snake to get the venom to create the antivenenom. It's not a simple process. And also someone suggested I think it cost about $10,000 per vial like of uh of venom. So it might be a reason also. But of course medicine they're altruistic and there's no money involved. But it's possible there's money involved. So that could also be. Now here's the thing. That doctor that was there was not just any doctor. That doctor's specialty is venom. that's what he does. And not only that, they said that if he hadn't been in the hospital, they wouldn't be able to do anything without his permission. They would have to call him. He's the doctor that's necessary in [snorts] order to be able to go ahead and to do something over there. Now, as I'm trying to get him to listen to me, like he's not listening and I'm getting whatever. I'm freaking out a little bit. What's happening over here? Let's rewind to the whole story. as he's going through this hard time here. I'm thinking to myself, and I can't tell you the story now because it's way too long, but another story that happened to another one of my kids a few years earlier. And because of that story, I remember a bit of a failure. What was the failure? The failure was that I didn't see the good in the situation as it was bad. Meaning to say what? It's easy when everything's going good to say thank you, God. Easy. What's difficult when things are bad to say thank you God. What does that mean? Thank you God. I don't know anything. All I know is that you know. That's the bottom line. [snorts] I know that you know. And this is hard for me. You know as as human beings we like to know. We like to understand. We like to be in control. And sometimes it's very hard to just let go and let go. Sometimes it's very hard to let go and let God. Sometimes it's very hard to do that league. Sometimes it's very hard to do such a thing. It's hard and to say thank you to God even in the midst of the of the hardships. Now my daughter She was sitting next to me. I turned to her I said she I want you to know something because I've spoken to I said I want you to know just listen carefully. I want you as a witness. Thank you Hashem for this challenge. In the middle of the challenge not later not before not whatever in the midst of the craziness heart rate and craziness I said thank you Hashem. Thank you. But can we like change it like a little, you know? Thank you. I'm not I don't understand, but like I really would like it to be different than this. [snorts] I'm trying to think what's going on. Please something. Now, I was telling Robbie right before the class. I'm a numbers guy. I like numbers. Why that is probably not having friends as a child, but I like numbers. And uh and and I'm good with numbers. Not numbers doesn't have to mean I'm good with like 4745 times 25.7. No, what I mean is I I know dates and phone numbers and whatever. I I call my friends. I mean, whoever's watching this, if I missed it, I'm sorry, but I'm actually very good at calling my friends on their birthdays. I don't have Facebook. That's for old people. But I've been saying, but I don't I don't I never had that. I'm one of the old people. I never had it. I don't have on my calendar people's things. I just remember I just remember their birthdays. I know people's phone numbers. I I I'm from an era when you used to remember these things and and I still I think they're important to me. [snorts] So about about a week ago is maybe more now. I my watch doesn't work. On December 4th, I turned to my wife and I was like, I know this date. I don't know what is this date. I don't know this date. And then she says to me, "Happy anniversary." I'm kidding. I'm kidding. [laughter] That was earlier in the year. And so I said, "I know this date, December 4th. What is December 4th?" And I can't I just can't remember. I know December 6th because December 6th is my half birthday. I know my half birthday. Happy birthday. >> Thank you everyone. Thank you so much. I'd like half of the money you were going to give me for anyway. I know December 4th is something. What's December 4th? I couldn't remember. I don't Okay, I'll let it go. A few days later, I remembered. Robbie and I were talking a year ago on December 4th and he told me about a shar that Rabbi Eli Mansour gave and I said, "What's this year?" And it was about Alenu the alu shab. And I was like, "Okay, let me hear." I was busy painting a ceiling cuz as I do and I'm pretty good at painting ceilings. I'm pretty good. I got not as good as guitar but uh but I'm good. I'm painting a ceiling. I'll listen to Mansor Alenu. Amazing shear. If if you didn't hear this year, listen to it. If you heard it, listen again. There are shir that we hear in our life that have an impact on us. Most of them are few and far between. How many times you hear a sh like, "Oh, it's really good." You know, you walk out, you forget it, you move on with life. [snorts] But there are some shirim that we all hear that like we remember them. This shior on December 4th of last year, I don't know when it was given. Oh, it was given before Shana because it says like it's like something before. But this shior that was given I guess in September, I listened to on December 4th. This year is a sure that I have thought about every single day. Not like I forgot some days. Every there's not one day I missed. Every single day since I heard this year, I've thought about this year and I've implemented what he said and I think about it three times a day during a called and the of [snorts] is such a powerful prayer. It is upon us to go and praise the Lord, the master of all. You didn't make us like them. You made it like me. And you look through this prayer. It's powerful. It's action-packed, intense. And I'm going through this prayer and I'm thinking how amazing, how was incredible. And as I'm going through it, then he says this one point. Listen to what he says. I'm just quoting Rabbi Eli Mansur. I didn't see this inside. So I I trust him on this. He says the following idea. It's actually something which I didn't even realize at the time. I had heard from says this also but not the same similar enough in the s and he writes he quotes I believe the and he says the following at the end of the first paragraph of Elena we say the following words. You shall not place it into your heart. You should know today God he is the power [snorts] on the heavens above and on the land below. without there's no one else in the heavens and in the ground in the mountains will crumble [singing] but we see that in the heavens and on below an ovado there's nothing but god says say say say say say say say say say say say say say say say say say say say says Rab Mansour that there's a a special sigula what I'm about to tell you right now is incredibly powerful When you say the words, he's the one who's upstairs in charge. He's in charge down here. You're supposed to get into yourself, into your kid, into your essence. There's no one but God. No one but God. No one but God. No one but God. And when you get that into your essence, pause. The next paragraph starts with the word al therefore. Or if you're smart, it's But before you say that, think about there's nothing but God. There's nothing but God. There's nothing but God. And then say the words, which means therefore. And at that moment stop and think of anything that you need. Doesn't matter what it is. You need something stop and ask money um health b you need you need something in your life. Stop focus but really focus. Not not like okay there's no one in the world that can do anything to help me or hurt me but God. That's it. God's the only one who can do anything. Then say al and then pray for whatever you want. May I'm quoting it is tried and tested that you're going to be answered. I just want to tell you when I heard that on December 4th last year since then it's been a whole year. Since then, September 4th, 2024. Since then, I've had a number of circumstances in my life which I can't go into because they're too personal. And when I say too personal, I mean they involve other people. So, it's not fair to me to disclose it. But I've had a number of circumstances from health to schooling to also another health situation uh that came out to be and I say this I mean miracles. Miracles. Impossible. it's going to work out. Worked out for sure. There's a medical problem. Got better. I'm talking about craziness. So, as I'm sitting by my son and I'm talking to him, I'm like, "Come back. No, wake up. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up." I then thought to myself, "Wait a minute. We know and we learn from the story of Yakov and Yoseph that the Sham's presence is found by the head of a sick person. So I said, why am I talking to my son who does not even conscious? I'm right by the head of my son. That means Hashem is right here. Let me speak to Hashem. So I said, Hashem, can you can you please do something about this? Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I'm going to take this. I have to learn, but I got to change. And by the way, they say when something happens to a child, when they're under the age of bar mitzvah, that it usually has nothing to do with the child. It's actually it's a message for the parents. And I'm thinking, what did my wife do? Anyway, [snorts] so I'm by the head and I said, "Hashem, please, please. He said, the doctor's not even listening to me. Please help me. And I said, I said ain't old. There's no one that can help him. The doctors can't help him. The medicine can't help him. Nothing can help him but you. And then I said, I sat up. I looked at his eyes. They're opposite directions. Went backwards. And then I said to the doctor, "Can you please look at him?" He goes, "What do you mean we're giving him the antenna and I was like, "Oh my goodness, I could have really saved some time if I would have said Alena in the beginning." But at the moment when I said, "There's no one but that's when I realized, wow, you got everything. I got to stop pushing. There's so much. You're in control here." And I don't know was in charge. And even the doctors if they they're not the ones who can't do anything. Not even the medicine's going to help if not for you. And they gave it to him. There were no side effects from that. And the end was unbelievable. But I'll tell you what else I thought about. Anybody here who's learned any in their life ever would have had the same thought. When you hear about a scorpion, what goes to your mind? >> The story of Yoseph Sadik. when he was in the pit. That's this week's para by the way, the pit was empty. There's no water. But what was there? There were snakes and scorpions that were there. And [snorts] I was like, "Oh my goodness." And then I realized snakes and scorpions, this is too much to go into in depth. They can't do anything to you unless it's coming directly from Hashem. Which means that this is some direct message for my wife uh for us. This is something we're meant to going to take for ourselves to realize what's going on. And you know what else I thought about? What did the suka represent? >> The ana cavo, the clouds of glory. When the Jews traveled through the desert, the clouds of glory protected them from what? >> Scorpions. >> Wow. >> And I was like, what is going on here? Isn't supposed to protect him? And then I realized it is. And that's actually what protected him. When my son got out of the hospital, he came over to me one night. He goes, Tati, I go, "What?" He goes, "Don't you know that the suka is supposed to protect from scorpions? And I was like, "Oh no, he's going off the der." I'm like, "What? What's going to happen now?" So I'm like, "Yeah, yeah, yeah. What were you thinking?" He goes, "Too bad it was the day before Sukkot, right?" I was like, "Hey, I was thinking the same thing." Unbelievable. Snakes and scorpions. And that's the very thing that was going on with Sukkot. And that's the whole concept. Which fast forwards us to now to the idea of Kanuka. And that's idea of snakes and scorpions. Understand that Hashem runs the world, everything. And the whole message really of what is the message of suka? When you go into a suka, what's the message? It's crazy. What do you think that's going to protect you? How many people here have ever been in a place where it's dangerous and you think, "If only I had a suka with me." And it's known to be the thing that's going to protect you. [snorts] This is this is the protection for kali the sukas. Please no mister just take my money. Don't take my life. Where is the suka when I need one? It doesn't happen. The answer is but you know what? When you're in suka, you look up and you see there's nothing there. Then you realize there's only Hashem. That's the concept of recognizing realize the fact that Hashem is I had to go falsetto. had to okay that was not a false okay anyway [snorts] the point is to really come and recognize that Hashem runs everything and then once we realize that then we can appreciate what's now we can give thanks and praise to your great name because I recognize the miracles I recognize that anal without there's nothing I recognize the fact You're the one that protects everything. And the more that we get that, the more that we realize that, the deeper it becomes. And that's where on we're supposed to recognize that go through the days of stopping taking time when you look at the stop and think, what am I appreciative for? What do I have? You could see the fire. You could hear it crackling. It probably get far back if you could hear crackling because it's usually just like a candle. But unbelievable. You can feel the warmth of it. Amazing. Unbelievable. So, my friends, what we're going to do right now is a quick recap of everything we did and if one point and then I'm going to run. Here we go. So, [snorts] we started off in the beginning in the beginning being that we know what happened on Sunday afternoon 5:30 p.m. No, don't. Yes, please. No, please. Don't do that. I'm trying to help him. No, you're not. Stop it. You're hurting him. No, I'm not. Get into there. Go check it over there. This unbelievable happen. My finger. It hurts over here. Now, what does it mean by here? Cuz the venom was spreading. But I had no idea what it was. And then what happens? He starts foaming at the mouth. And let me go check it out. Lift it up. Punch that cover. Bam. Bam. The ant wife thing comes put in the back. Take it with you and go home there. Really? Hospital? No. Go get checked with the nurse thing and say, "Come on back. We'd love to have you." Put him on the CPR thing. What? No. I'm out. done right 150 165 things going through the roof 6,250,000 supposed to be 20 besides the fact that me said you have the echo cardiogram was coming up all messed up as well and you have to go back the second time got messed up again and go back three months later I got better I recognize unbelievable thing what's going on there go but don't lose opportunity sure listen I need to win this over here thank you Hashem for what's going on however [laughter] and when now we think I put my head next I'm at the head of the time is over there please I'm going to do Thank you so much. No December 4, 2024 coming together is going to change everything. I told the miracles the miracles happen on this thing over there. How does that happen? Unbeliev fantastic. The yellow scorpion of all the things that should be in that moment of that thing over there of Yseph. It's I think it's for the parents came to work on something. I learned from this going back and forth and recognize this is what was occurring then I get up and I go and speak get through the ice get through the ice get through the ice so suck right then we go think once the whole idea what is sukot all about what's sukkot it's not just sukot to think about for the entire year but that's where we got the power to realize that every holiday has its power that power is to realize amuna to really connect to such an idea and to realize the fact that hem is running the world for anomal you're the only that can change anything all of a sudden I he goes like well we're giving him the anti What's the problem? Happens to be that same the doctor the number one that could have done it. There was no anti vetam hospitals going on over he was moved over there and he was at the right time in the right place. No all nim what's going on I can sleep on the bed with him on the side chair. It's an amazing thing that was happening to recognize the whole therefore we bring a carbon to now pizza would have been very expensive for you to have all that. So eat the ch and that's the carbon to right to say thank you Hashem be part of this incredible niece and miracle. He went back a month later had another sorry it came back went back a month later and he had a uh another one it's called echo cardiogram and it came back good it was wasn't good in the first couple of them it came back good and regular you know beautiful delicious boy back to building sukas and doing everything it has to happen over there amazing but once we understand that then we can get the kanuka you can only get the kanuka once a person has actually stopped have them process and thought about what's going on. Then we can get to we can go and thank we can praise. We can say we can't thank you enough. We can't thank you enough. We can't even we can't even stop there. So if I lived a thousand years, if I lived a million years, there never ever be time enough for all the things you've done for us to thank you and to praise you for all the good things that you do for us all the time. The [snorts] of Hashem is unbelievable. It's incredible. And the reason I tell the story is to bring out the concept of what sukot is all the way coming to recognize that every one of us should stop and process his ideas. Lighting a candle is a miracle. Getting able to hear something in a miracle. Our entire lives are miracles. Maybe it's worthwhile that we stop and think about that. Now I implore of you to use this a because let it be a stepping stone to really delve deeper into that connection. There's no one that can help you. Nobody. The only that could help you. Nobody can help us but Hashem. And when a person gets that recognition, then therefore I have hope. I have hope in you, Hashem. That is everything's going to work out. Things are going to work out the way that we want them to. It's going to come out to be positive. It's going to be incredible. And it should end. Every one of us needs everyone needs aid just but only one, right? anyone who could have parasa. People like that twice, right? And she got we should get our jobs and we should have good relationships and we should have good food and we should have good times and we should have an amazing life. Should help us all to be able to come to recognize that. Take advantage of these opportunities. Don't let it pass up. There's a few more days. Stop the process. Take out a paper. Start writing a list. Every day we should be writing a small list. Something one take a few minutes by the candle lighting. What am I thankful for? And then not just write it afterwards. Say, "Hashem, I want to thank you for A B C F then E." Always skip the E and then go to it afterwards. You don't have to, but you're welcome to if you'd like. Okay. I want to thank everyone for coming tonight and and please, there's a lot of chunk and take it home and make a doggy bag. I get that.