Shaarei Teshuva 1:23 & 24 (25) with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] welcome everybody once again to the chaborah for the shahree chuva we were just talking before we went on air how important it is right with all that's going on in the world and this is nothing new the truth be told every generation every year right we say that they're out to get us right so like on on pesach night right this is what they want to do they want to destroy us so this is nothing new but we should hopefully bizrat hashem in our generation now we should try to do truth properly because this is what god wants and then the truth will be revealed and that's what we've been saying for the last three thousand four hundred years okay so here we are once again in the charity tonight we are talking about paragraphs 23 and 24. i don't think we're going to we may get to a little bit of 25 and that would evenly break uh next week into 25 the rest 25 26-27 i want to mention as we mentioned every time before we begin that we're praying for the for shalem of ropinto his hebrew name is yushiyahu yosef benzikri so we're davening and we're praying we're also learning in the merit that he should have a complete and speedily speedily uh recovery okay so we're starting what called the seventh principle of chuva and um i i if you're just tuning in for the first time go back to the beginning and you'll find out there's really three main principles to trouba but the rabbina yona who is the author of the safer that we're discussing we're still in char olive and but we're in paragraph 23 right now and breaks it down into 20 i'll call them sub categories of those original three that's how you could look at it or they are i don't want to say higher and beyond but they're more like he breaks it down okay he's really breaking it down into deeper levels where you can reach a higher level of truth okay that's the bottom line we want to try to do and accomplish our repentance in the most pristine and perfect way tonight he will be this today he'll be discussing um chapter 15 of psalms a lot and not only tonight but we're going to go on with it the idea of chapter 15 into next week as well because that king david wrote that as part of his experience of truva and we can learn so much from king david the holy messiah right the soul of the meshiach so here we go so we start off for those who are following in our book it's on page 56 uh chapter paragraph 23. the seventh principle is like this it deals with um i'm going to call it but he calls it [Music] what does that mean what do these words mean means to submit to have humility and to experience humbleness okay so if you were wrestling right and one guy was on top of the other so the person on the bottom says uncle right he gives up that's crying i need mahnia i surrender that that's the concept surrender okay so we'll call it submission or humility he's going to use the word humility a lot so let's use his term so this i have to put it closer to my face the shift loot okay is lowliness right along the israeli coastline that's called the shephelah right we're up in the hills in jerusalem and as you go down down down through the chemist it's called the shephelah the lowlands okay but in this term we're talking about he translated wholehearted humility and lowliness this is going to be what we're going to discuss today and that's the seventh principle because anyone who recognizes kolhamak here at the bow row yodel anyone that knows hashem anyone that realizes and recognizes his creator would would know what kama haider al-divrei the negra mi erko what does that mean how severe right to what extent you when someone transgresses the words of hashem right his commands shock means to be bent over or dejected and again the word shafail to be low and the negra right out of the 6 13 commandments one of them is do not add to the torah and do not diminish do not take away that is referring to diminishing your own value in other words when you realize how great hashem is and what you did in terms of your transgression remember the word o there in in a negative sense means to to transgress and of the vera is the transgression itself like the word aver yardain means the trans jordan right on the other side that's on the negative side on the positive side we are called ibreem right we are called hebrews the word hebrew comes from this idea that we transported ourselves right abraham crossed over from a land or not just the land but the land represented um pollution and um you know falsehoods and sheck air this idol worshiping society that he lived in and he crossed over to the land of truth to land of israel where things are clear so that's why we're called hebrews so the word over can be used in negative or positive sense okay so anyway so how how much this transgression of of of hashem's words and commands creates such an inf right we are with you should realize how inferior inferior and lowly you are and how diminished your value is now i want to stress over and over again there has to be a healthy aspect to this right because if it's overdone then it's no longer healthy it's paralyzing and god forbid even worse so this it has to be a healthy sense and here we have some verses the first verse is in psalms 15 4. so again i mentioned if you read through the whole chapter you'll see this is king david's confession and involvement of trouba of regret and his conviction not to commit the sin again but in 15 4 it says that's really the part of the verse he wants us to see a base person is despised in his own eyes meaning this is the way it should be you should right have this idea of debasing yourself in your own eyes having feeling repulsive to a certain extent and i want to stop here for the comment because we're not talking about evil people now we're talking about someone who owes in the process of of chuva in fact the person is already considered righteous at this point that king david was righteous and the verse describes the attitude of a righteous person although he has many good deeds he always seems sees himself as obligated to do even more right come on this the bar where is your bar where is your you know they call it a a moral compass right is it just to be a regular person remember who you are you are part of the chosen people right you god chose you with such love and you are a prince you are an ambassador okay you're the chosen people anyway he always sees himself as obligated to do even more right you want to be as a servant of god you want to be you know we were not regular servants by the way we were in egypt we didn't just belong we didn't belong at all to the people we worked for in truth be told we were royal slaves we were slaves of pharaoh why were we slaves of pharaoh do you remember joseph he when he saved all the good stuff all the the food for seven years and then when we had the when they had the drought and the famine the egyptians came and they actually sold their entire homes they sold everything just for food so everything belonged to pharaoh and so forth when we became slaves we were not slaves to the individual we worked in their homes but we were slaves of pharaoh because that got us ready that we prepared the way that we should be slaves to the almighty so we were royal slaves from the very beginning and we were we stayed royal slaves and we became ruler slaves to hashem so we have to set our bar a little bit higher than we think right we have to know who we really are uh who we are let's say potential who we could be anyway so since he judges himself the person who is a righteous person he's he's judging himself as deficient in the service of hashem and he views himself as contemptible and repulsive again i said this has to be in a healthy way that anybody should give up any hope surely this degree of self-negation is expected of a person who is actually sinned against hashem so we're talking about there is no person that's so righteous that doesn't sin so you have to have this balance you have to know who you are your holy soul and god brought you into the world and he gave you all these tests with the yetzer which we call the satan and the satan is basically telling you can overcome him he's he's letting you know the truth be told i gave a shirt i think it was last thursday night so you can look it listen to it i'll put it as a link you know what i'll put as a link below in the description box and we talk about the power of prayer and how you can overturn actually what i mentioned was that the satan carries a pitchfork right all the pictures all the so the pitchfork is the same word as eter which is the word used for prayer and that was what yitzhak and um and rifga they were praying yitzhak was praying that his wife get pregnant and hashem heard his prayer so this is a little bit deeper than tonight we're not going to i don't want to spend any time on it so i suggest you go to the description box click on the link and hear that share okay so that's the first thing he mentions now and he also now brings in a verse from job and it's job 15 16. so surely one who is an abominable abominable and impure so this is how kiaf okay so these these words are referring to as surely he is loathsome and tainted and the rest of the verse a man who drinks crookedness like water so we're coming from a point that all our souls we're created righteous right we're created pure okay so we have a standing chance and of course we make mistakes along the way and there's a way to to fix this and that's what this class is all about jeremiah 6 30. now the word is refused to look like refused silver but it's refuse of silver meaning with the the dross this the scum that when you boil the the silver to cleanse it right so there's like this dross this drudge stuff that comes to the top so this is um this is how you have to look at it they're called rejected silver meaning chronic so chronic sinners are like silver that is so tainted with dross that the the owner abandons hope of refining it of course you should never get to that point but you should feel that there's a point of possible like you know you just do it again you went too far right you should feel that this if you continue on this path this is like what they call like the path that has no return so that's how one should feel and i think like in the 12-step programs you know like when someone hits rock bottom the only way that they're ever going to come back up is if they truly really feel even if they never hit what i guess it's objectively rock bottom there's no such thing it's subjectively and they actually feel and i think this this concept we're talking about tonight is so useful as a word because it means powerless right when you recognize that you're absolutely powerless right over the yeats of hurrah then you where's your help going to come it can only come from hashem right because if you think you're going to do it do you have the power to do it you're surely mistaken and we'll see surely why that is alkane therefore once you realize when one realize you've sinned and you want to do trouble properly you have to humble yourself and you should be lowly in your own eyes now this is only going to really happen is you've realized how great god is it's almost like i don't know see-saw i don't know there's a sim symbiotic relationship to how low you are that might be true but it's only healthy when you realize you're creating the image of god how high he is and what he expects of you and that you actually have the ability to get there so of course there's no reason to give up hope now david oliver shalom king david in psalms 51 19. what did he do vaduto right the prophet nathan came to him and when he had confessed his sin he said i have sinned now at the end of his words and i mentioned it's which means like this that the sacrifices of god what is what does god really want the sacrifices of god really are the broken spirit this is what we're offering up to hashem he's the only one that's going to fix it and really the only way he reacts to us in the most i'm going to say positive way he's going to lift us out of the trash heap right he's going to lift us out of the dust and the dirt but we it's up to us to really feel it again the only way we're going to feel is we know where the bar is and how high and mighty hashem is and remember he created us in his image so once we get to that point of i'll say honesty of really truly understanding how powerless we are and that the only being that we can rely on is hashem there's hope as we'll continue the the second part of the verse is that a heart broken and humbled oh god you will not despise right this idea of this broken heart and again is more than just humbled it's it's broken god will not despise this is a fact you know this is what god wants not only will he not despise it this is what he desires the word really means low he's translating as a humble spirit so the broken spirit it's not just broken and not it cannot be put together again whether there was a humpty dumpty right no this can be this can be mended and and fixed and uplifted this is what hashem would do so what do we actually learn from this that the word is it's actually prime it's actually the main principle of truva having this kind of humility is without this you really don't have the highest level of true if you just have simple hara simple regret yes fine you did true but that's only in the lowest level and he mentions that the entire psalm 51 is a firm foundation that psalm 51 is musad mossad it's a firm foundation for the whole concept subject of truva now i'm going to read this comment down below david's repentance for the incident with batsheva was so complete that he became the prototype of a balchuva think about it's not just david i mean even um yehuda right there's certain aspects of certain people but david was the ultimate in being about i want to tell you did he even sin he for him it was a sin for king david it was a sin for any of us it might not have even been a sin and the gemura explains why i'll just shortly tell you that over to you king david didn't his sin was not with batsheva his sin was with her husband okay she was legally divorced she was legally divorced because whenever the men went out to war they always wrote a ketub uh they wrote a get a a book a a how would you say it in english a um a safer crisis a book of separation a a document of separation they were legally divorced and and or and her husband defied the king he defied the king and what did he do king david wanted to come back and he said no i'm going to be very patriotic and stay on the front line when you defy the king you're you're you're high of mita you can be put to death what king david did not do which he should have done was had the sanhedrin judge him and kill him now basically he was guilty for defying the king but king david sent him to the front lines okay when we say that this the sin surrounding bachelor that's what really referring to okay and but anyway what what happened here he sinned so that what it almost like he didn't have free will in the process almost like it had to be so that we can all learn what it is to do truva and he's teaching us the lesson and i mentioned yehuda because did you think yehuda wanted to sleep with his daughter-in-law right she was a widow but nevertheless and he actually had the obligation to either marry her offer to make sure she got married um it's called a boom marriage right the liveright marriage and nevertheless he ended up sleeping with her how did that come to be the measure speaks about how the sutton was involved and tricked him and pushed him and it's like a crazy story like you couldn't even it's beyond description right you couldn't even believe it same two here i guess we were talking about earlier with the whole uh with the whole uh political situation nobody can write such a script and this is where the messiah comes from right it starts with ruth right where did ruth come from from lot and his two daughters right she is a product of this relationship that we're talking about the messiah for god's sake right comes through ruth lope and his two daughters ruth and boz which is a strange enough story in itself and then you have yehuda all right strange story right and then of course you have down here right not in that order and then you have king david it's crazy right okay so i'm just in the middle of this note therefore many of robina yonah's principles of truth are based on david's description of his own repentance in psalm 51. indeed the sages teach us it's a gemura vodasara 4b that david should have have been prevented by heaven for committing such a misdeed in other words if you're righteous hashem actually protects you he helps you already go on the way you want to be you want to be pure you want to be a pure soul hashem will lead you in that way so it should never have even happened he merited divine protection from sin but heaven allowed him to commit it in order that he should teach sinners the proper way of juva it's amazing david is there is described in scripture later on meaning the man who established eminence which means that he established the enemy eminence of truva he's the king of juva right what a holy soul king david was okay so we have a lot to learn from him and that's why so many i think it's the most popular book of the entire torah that's read daily by so many people not just jews i mean these holy women are speaking it on the on the buses they're reading you go on any bus in jerusalem i guess in israel maybe any jewish neighborhood you see the women sitting with the helm no matter where they are what they're doing waiting in line and um they're saying in the in the real tongue you know the holy tongue in the lash and the kurdish and you have non-jews also they open up psalms and they get such inspiration such inspiration i think that's probably also a lot of the songs in their churches right are based on the psalms it's a very it's it's king david had this right that we say the mashiach is supposed to relate to all mankind okay this shouldn't become surprising to anybody right this is part of the reason that he comes from such a dubious uh heritage from and his two wives and you didn't write ruth and boaz and king david's like the the meshiach will be able to relate to every downtrodden right brokenhearted person and he does right through the soul it's the same soul as king david and also by the way it's also moshe's soul but okay we're not going to go there right now okay so we just read that verse and this idea now hashem this is the most exhilarating idea tonight you have to understand that it's through humbling oneself that you find the word is called favor yet it means appeasement it means forgiveness it means love it means an unbelievable involvement in relationship right it's through this humbling yourself that you're able to connect with hashem let's see isaiah 66 2. all these my hand made and with all these have become says the lord but to this one i will look to one poor and of crushed spirit who hastens to do my biddings so in hebrew the part he wants us to look is regarding this abit i will look towards the poor now it just doesn't mean poor could mean afflicted one and the brokenness crushed of spirit the charade al-divari right who's charade for the word kharadi right to be trembling to be he says hastens meaning quick to to do god's to fulfill god's word my devari my word so what is god interested in here he goes god wants god desires and will lift that broken spirited person now this is where it gets a little confusing he's going to bring down right away two verses in uh isaiah 57 and then he's going to discuss another two verses uh three verses so it's all consecutive so we'll try our best to read them consecutively but i will have to point out the words that he is going to choose to focus on so in isaiah 57 14 through 15 those are the two verses we'll start with and then we'll go to sixteen seventeen and eighteen so in isaiah 57 right it looks like this va amar solu solu panu derek pave pave clear the road meaning he will say someone will say pave tape clear the road remove the obstacle from my people's path what's the obstacle the sin kikomar the exalted and uplifted one odd who dwells forever the kadoshima holy is his name maroon the who i abide in exaltedness and holiness i will dwell and the one who is lowly and shattered in spirit uh to revive to revive the spirit of the lowly need and to revive the heart of the the shattered i mean this is pretty heavy now what do we learn from this again if you really meditate on these verses you'll see that this brokenheartedness this um this real low spirit what's called humility is one of the main principles of truva and that's what the prophet is trying to remind the people of bali so too the rest of chapter 57 is dealing with bali truth as well but a lake to shoot up people who are masters of repentance and you can re see that in in verses 16 through 18. right i'm not going to call forever he says nor will i be eternally wrathful this is hashem speaking when the spirit from before me aches and the souls i made he goes on because of his sinful thievery i became angry and struck him now the the words in the hebrew which we didn't see exactly but it says at the end uh when i see his ways i will heal him and guide him that's how the those verses end against verse 18. okay verse 18 says these words so what does it mean his ways when i see his ways it's what does god see he sees the he sees the humility that was just discussed in the previous verses that's what god sees this is when he will heal him what does it mean that god will heal him well let's just continue on commotion it also says we saw in verse 15 i am with shattered and lowly spears what does that mean the root halleth right we saw the word we all love chocolate milk chocolate is sweet and there's par of chocolate which is bitter right mirror moreover it's the bitter bitterness of the heart as it says back in verse 16 yeah is aching okay when the spirit before me aches and the opening of opening clause of the verse was when i see remember when i see his ways of humility and remorse that's how we're supposed to read it the arpeggio then i will heal him i will heal him what does healing mean god will forgive spiritually spiritually heal him he will spiritually heal him by forgiving the person's sins as a proof to that in hoshi that's hosea and chapter 14 verse 5 the same word of herpa which means i will heal means from there not behaving properly i will hear their disobedience i will heal heal their disobedience and in isaiah chapter 6 verse 10 this is a long verse but he only quotes part of it so let's go through the verse this people's heart is becoming fat and his ears are becoming heavy and his eyes are becoming sealed lest he see with his eyes and here with his ears and his heart understand and he repented and be healed so i did want to read something here lest he see with his eyes they intended not to hearken to the words of the prophets and for they fear lest his words please them and they will understand with their heart and return to me and this will be their cure meaning once you have this understanding of the heart you have the you're really in touch with your heart that's where the healing begins okay so this is um there's a lot of wellness videos out there a lot of people discuss how how you could uh be really in touch with your heart and have self-forgiveness right it's it's not just about self-forgiveness it's true you need to have that um but it's about the process that we we discussed here and having this broken heart is i think why do you think they come up with these ideas because it's true right because you are creating the image of god you have to be part of this forgiving as well but it starts with knowing who you are and knowing who hashem is having this broken heartedness and moving on and hashem will heal you and not only that hashem will eat not he will he will also guide you as the verse in in um did we say this already um yeah isaiah that was what we just read isaiah 6 10 the very last words wherever near veneer pillow right now you will return but i'm gonna even i'm gonna heal you um looking for the word for guidance where did we see that one second um how come i'm not finding it he says is i don't know why i don't see it but maybe because we saw it before in one of the earlier verses so god said i will guide him meaning this is very important because basically as a rahu al-aziz god will actually guide you he'll protect you he will assist you in forsaking the sin oh every morning we pray and we ask hashem to keep us away from evil evil neighbors and and test with evil people and if we really mean it when we say it i guarantee you there will be a um heavenly assistance in making sure that happens and as a result right god's going to help you overcome your own yatsuhara but this is only coming through humility right if you think you're going to do it on your own you're far from you need a lot of help basically in your head and your heart because you're far from any kind of truth i'll just read his words again i will help him overcome his yetzer hara thus we see that through humility along with remorse for sins a penance in person gates gains favor in hashem's eyes and merits his assistance god will assist you in carrying out the proper chuva i don't know where that message was [Music] we're going to get to it on that's right version 25 how much we need hashem's help to overcome the etoro now he brings down in prophet joel chapter 2 verse 12 which will also look at 13. the yoel all over shalom um the prophet said even now says hashem return all the way to me because of him with all your heart um right through fasting and crying and with eulogy here translates lamentation but what does it say right afterwards it says the karo levatham the albig and on and on and on rend your hearts rend your hearts not your clothes i'm not interested in you ripping your clothes to pieces i'm not even interested in your in your in your fast really i'm interested in your rending your heart not your garments and you should return to hashem and then it says afterwards and return to me with all your heart and then it says also it repeats it the karaoke this idea even after you do trouba you have to rend your heart you understand there's this humility okay i did truva but what do you do you just get up back on your feet and your everything is like back to normal no he repeats the demand for repentance saying rend your hearts and this is called this is really what submission this realization it's powerlessness it's not just once upon a time i was powerless it's a constant state even after truva knowing that you are powerless this rendering of the heart is nothing other than developing the trait of humility joel mentions it after return after you already returned you have to have this humility you know is it even possible after a person returned with all his heart they hit karen and he already did all the processes of truva which he had we call that regret and he gave up doing the sin though dona ram lava yet maybe he still has this haughtiness the ancient vatos lama you know what his repentance is nowhere near near complete without yeah this is what god wants and we will see it later on that about walking humbly with our god hashem tonight we'll still get to it but he continues to say we find in the torah the matsinu the torah if you go to chapter in deuteronomy chapter 30 verse 2. he says this is the general call for doing truth so just know god actually requested this you he says the shaft hashem you should return he wants you to return to the lord your god the shamath and listen meaning absorb listen to his voice follow the dictates of the torah listen to the whole verse and you will return to the lord your god but it's a command form and all with all your heart and with all your soul and you will listen to his voice according to all that i am commanding you this day you and your children now that's the we'll call that the general but then he goes on he says happiness that's all nice and good when the call talks about the general uh derek mccloud but if you talk about the defraud the torah actually does specify to have this type of submission humility in leviticus 26 41 then i too will retreat we'll treat them as happenstance in other words if we don't look at god running the world that everything happens because of him if we think it's just happening as happenstance random right if god says i'm going to treat them the same way and bring them back into the land of their enemies so if we're in exile if then their clogged heart becomes humbled through the suffering through the human the god will huma humiliate us and through our own sufferings we will gain appeasement for their iniquity in other words that's how we actually will find part of the process of chuva through becoming down down lowly biz hashem will actually be able to feel it in our heart and then we can be uplifted and return back to the land i remember this rash is pretty pretty interesting but before we go into that into this rashi this idea that god actually goes into exile with us when we're crying out in exile are we doing it because of us oh god i'm suffering what about god isn't he suffering so to speak it says that he goes into exile with us don't we want god take god out of exile don't we want god out of heaven of course we do that's why it's called hashem for the jew to be in exile is a desecration of god's name and when we return he returns with us and that's a kid hashem and that's another reason i'm not going to go to politics that's a need another reason why every from jew every orthodox jew every observant jew should be praying for the right candidate to get in to help us of course it's up to us but there is a certain blame on asav on the gentiles on the destruction of the temple and they can participate there is a redemption for them okay to also participate so i told you who should you vote for the least corrupt number one i think that's quite obvious i guess for some and the other idea is if you can imagine in your mind like a guy like cyrus someone who would have said a candidate who would say i'm going to build the temple or i'm going to give money or i'm going to give my labor laborers i have a company that builds i you know and if you can imagine one of the candidates saying i want to build i would like to build the temple he's the candidate you should vote for okay so i don't know how many candidates there were that would say that i think there was one okay and still is let's go i think this rashi is excellent just to let us go to the bottom then their sufferings will gain appeasement for their iniquity means that they will gain atonement for their iniquity through their sufferings that's what it means over here so we see that we yeah so we read that that was in vaika 2641 um so basically basically he says this is in vaikara this is in the matrix that discusses it all talks about uh doing truva this this verse we just read 2641 now we're on paragraph 24. okay it's not long and there's no reverses but when we get to 25 we will deal with mika which god says i just want to read the verse now when israel asks israel asks what shall i approach hashem with what shall i approach hashem humble myself before god on high shall i approach him with ola offerings or with calves of the first year will hashem be appeased by thousands of rams or tens of thousands of streams of oil shall i give over my firstborn to atone for my defiance or the fruit of my belly for the sin of my soul we're going to find out what that means mizrat hashem so let's go through 24 and then we'll begin 25 and explain that verse so the says and you should know kimalo's there are many levels of this aspect called humility and he wrote other books one of them was called the the gates of humility and he says if you read that with god's help you well he'll be able to put together the book and the explanation over there the madrid the highest level is part of the process of truth the most advanced level of humiliation or humbling yourself is actually it's an obligatory part of chuva shiyagi hashem that one would increase and constantly build upon and enhance their service of hashem yatmo and never take credit for himself or themselves hashem that one should never ever take credit for themselves he should view everything that he does as insignificant in comparison to what he's obligated to do in the service of hashem god has only given to you from even before you were born and how could you ever repay him you think he owes you something you your whole life is spent in song and simcha and joy for everything and gratitude for everything he's given you you think he owes you something listen to this idea when a person has a very large debt to his fellow and he makes a tiny payment you're going to feel proud oh my god i owe 100 000 and i paid 10 cents that's like what are you talking about he doesn't feel proud in fact he feels humbled similarly when one recognized how much he owes hashem he's used his own divine service as utterly inadequate so only when you have clarity who you are and who hashem is you realize you have a lot of work to do how much service to hashem set that bar very high the other idea i want to bring down is going to be in the next comment but let's get there first therefore alkane when a person repents he should humble himself and serve god with modesty unpretentiously meaning anonymous now i understand in those 12-step program it's called whatever it is gamblers overreaders were anonymous because there are no leaders you don't need anybody sticking their head out and saying i'm the man right nobody is more pretentious than anybody else you shouldn't honor you shouldn't desire honor or for for all of your great deeds that you did velobe case to pharaohs you shouldn't seek people's attention or try to get praiseworthy accomplishments but rather he should conceal from them i mean other people's knowledge to the best their ability whatever great accomplishments you have why why do you have to shout it out to the world right it's it's it's going to take away it's it's it's an amazing statement that he makes in the comment he should not only avoid seeking honor or acclaim but should actually do the opposite by concealing his good deeds from people and avoiding attention if this is not anonymous i don't know what is in this matter one demonstrates that he is serving hashem purely for his sake you're not serving for your own sake you're serving for god's sake with no motive other than to obey his command this is the ultimate form of humbling oneself before hakurasu it's um you know look sometimes you get pushed in the corner and people want to know like bali truva people who came or converts everyone everyone wants to know their story there's a time and a place right if you're a great orator and you can turn so many people on then you'll find a way in your humility to to take the people up for the invitation to share that right but otherwise you know you share with individuals who you feel you can help right you can relate to because you're using it not for your sake to build yourself up using it strictly to give them hope and to build them up that if they knew where you had come from and where you are today they too would find hope and a belief that they can get you know well recovered uh a spiritual life a spiritual guide to this way of life and they could find it in you and that's the reason to share there's no other reason to share now we're going to start uh we're only going to begin uh paragraph 25. i love we're talking about the prophet miha uh in in how to serve hashem this is also serving hashem with modesty is part of one of the main principles of chuva and it says in michael now we're going to go through uh chapter 6 verses 6 and 7. and the truth is because they didn't go through it all the way there's more verses in michael but we're not going to get to them tonight and okay so let's stick with what he has here as i read the verse already it says like this with what shall i come before the lord now the word is bow but like bow before the most high god. hashem how am i going to move forward how should i move forward towards hashem right i'm going to bow i will bend over that's how i'm going to come what should i do all these outward things like bring burnt offerings right no that's not what god's interested in perush the explanation is as follows the the prophets beginning with these questions how shall i approach god to express these thanks for all his kindness he granted to me it was already mentioned earlier on in verses four and five that's okay in verses four and five um with with the next phrase the prophet means to ask additionally how should i humble myself before god on high and atone for my many sins so it's the the his care elokai ma rome la horos ula hodea you know what i have yeah okay we have a few more lines i made a note where i'm supposed to stop so we're still on it okay so it was mentioned god on high why does it say god on high right how shall i humble myself before god on high and how extremely submissive and humble person ought to be having defied this how we began the sheer if you realize you defied you transgress the will of the one who is elevated above all creation and after having read these raised these two questions so the prophet michael then elaborates on this matter you know in regard to the first question he says [Music] right he asked the question was that shall i approach hashem with all offerings or with their calves of the first year will hashem be appeased by thousands of rams or with tens of thousands of streams of oil this means that if i would approach him with all these offerings as a gesture of appreciation for his many kindnesses would that suffice would that ever be enough shall i give over my firstborn to atone for my defiance or the fruit of my belly for the transgression of my soul so this comes to elaborate the second question how should i humble myself that's the greatest question how am i supposed to humble myself before god on high and this is what it means when he says shall i give over my firstborn in order to show my humility and submis submissiveness for my many sins and to show that i recognize the severity of my defiance it's really about knowing that i defied the word of god for it would be fitting for me to give over my firstborn that's how much you have to be willing to like avraham avinu to give over my firstborn as an offering but not obviously he didn't do it and this is not in reference to that i'm just saying in order you have to be willing to give up your own children to atone for your defiance kirav since it's a very great and severe okay the prophet continues in this name shall i give over the fruit of my belly to atone for the transgression of my soul that's the first born the fruit of my belly so he mentions here what does it mean my firstborn he mentions my firstborn is atoned for his defiance as the fruit of my belly meaning just an ordinary child as the atonement for his transgressions because the word defiance which is pesha refers to a sin that's committed out of rebellion now we know the different rebellion and a accidental in unintentional sin and that obviously an intentional sin which is out of rebellion is certainly worse than a what we call a the word hat which is a transgression that was unintentional now that's where we're going to stop here but i want to mention in terms of outreach right it's a very harsh thing that i'm about to say but when we were learning smith one of the rebellion said to us when some someone asked when do you know you're ready to go out and and um you know have people at your table they're not so religious not so observant how do you know maybe they're gonna have an effect on your children maybe they're gonna have an effect on your table so he said when you're ready to sacrifice your children meaning what meaning that when it's so more important to carry the message when it's more important for you to be a a role model and you know this is the most important thing because this is what we were decreed with the jewish people were decreed to be the teachers they were to greed decree to be the ambassadors of god when you're ready to do the job and come hella high water right when you're ready to do the job and willing to sacrifice your cherished items to do the job then you're ready then you can handle it until then and you have any fear or worry you're not ready you're not ready so i i hope and pray that every single jew right is trying to find the tools to make their lives true in terms of the service of god how you do that part of it is through humility even after you do chuva right even after you follow the the lessons that we spoke about up until now to have a certain sense of humility now i probably don't i'm probably not even close to having it right i wish i'm working on it so um hopefully that with the tools that we have at our hand and with hashem's help and a lot of prayer we'll start making increments right slowly slowly and be willing to serve hashem on a higher level right setting the bar higher knowing how far we have to go knowing how far we are and using the rest of the tools which we're only on we're only on page like 50 of some like several hundred pages so misrat hashem we'll see you next week have a great life and uh any comments put them in the description box below and we look forward to seeing you next week 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