Some Parts of Your Sin — the Core of the Craving Behind It — You Need to Embrace

the yeshiva dotnet good morning everybody 122 eight lines from the top we're at the words of off me the line starts buried in safe one two three four five six seven one two three four five six eight lines from the top one twenty two the first column some olive column three and top Bethesda Drusilla Shoshanna middle of the Maya and Miguel Camejo welding after the period kanava off me half me Shane die - yo Furcal load of Cabaye mask mask doulas real evamist ain't safe but a homage even somebody till now is talking about somebody who's searching who's questing for intimacy with the divine which is beyond time because there's some recognition of that truth but even somebody that his das is not the offer meaning his level of perception is not so refined to be able to experience connection or the desire for connection because of an appreciation of the doulas v remember since Abraham Amish of the truth the exaltedness the realness of ain't safe mama SH Rock the motivation is something else should sire lima claim over shia he's being distressed by his place and his time a very different experience huh yeah it's not it's not that I'm enthralled by truth it's just that I'm not enthralled by what I have it's distressing me my place my time shanem chakra how heavily has man he is being drawn after the vanities of the time I never saw this expression before so that's why I'm hesitating here or bhai Sushma Yahoo sir there's an interesting expression just looking they have foot motorists the back they have my Merkel established looking who they have some olive get moon okay the exits at much reduction Charlie McCay mu hydrogen emission factor heavily Osman bhai sure Sh'ma Yahoo sir sounds like if interested his name is covered by darkness o makki air query she flew sir he recognizes his value nee recognizes humbleness with NASA lives a bane of Nimbus Mach machine Akira diamond novel and he becomes disgusted with his lifestyle or with his actions because he realizes that his behavior could be defined as could be called ramen Nouveau which means it's toxic it's negative it's disgraceful so it's not shot we're speaking before but Shiva Cod Malayalam somebody who recognizes the truth of ain't safe and wants to connect to he doesn't want to invest everything in a moment which has been higher band it's here it's not here but once that wants to connect to the truth he says even somebody that's not it's not that it's just that he finds no place in his time in this place he's distressed by it there's something bothering him yeah dissatisfied yeah him calls I mean however I mean there's probably many different manifestations in Cole's ma Akash Emmaus yes sometimes you see they're missing sometimes you see the shaker yeah one of the two sometimes you see the MS and sometimes you don't see their miss you're not capable you just see the shake it does - yeah did something discontent this is this a discontent in Casa Mia Cara Maria's bhai of chiasma the less the fact that there is a certain rejection of high of of his life of Calle has man the life in the time NIM shackle of male of Irma Mela Hassad asha so this itself is powerful to draw forth the grace of God Lee is bagillion inside brother crucial in Iife ouchless of my lemon Ozma to experience a revelation of the anus of that is beyond espoused list and beyond time key god allah kiya ha Casa della because the kya of the Casa Dalian of the vine Casa despair is great to miss passion I ain't cats verticals there's no end to it in other words there's no place or person and doesn't reach oka Maya Maya demand Makunga viola Malcolm Thomas mired in the metaphor the Gemara compares to water that water will travel from the highest place and the water doesn't say no no this is too low it will go to the lowest place and my aim is always a metaphor parable for the spiritual energy of Cassatt so you said God will clarify so that's my and my M goes to the lowest places were added up it's much deeper than this but Malcolm shanem emerge from him escape some UI sir the most gathering of the water will be in the lowest place not on the highs lies lies it may pass but ultimately the water will look to concentrate then the lowest possible crevice or a pool or or cavity or sister and whatever it is and over there it's gonna be miss Cabot so we're gonna see the most water you're gonna see the most water become normal seeing that itself that itself is gonna say caucus adalian NIM chuckle miss Barcia DAF kaboom Economo the metaphor for this spiritually is that the Hesed of above comes and it's expressed and it's extended and expands precisely it not only goes also to the lowest place it goes precisely the lowest place to I know it's part of it it's one one one way of it yeah but this is not true it's always me Layla because he's still right there's this content yes yes yes yeah the hi nobody xuxa what's the miss Basha - kaboom Akiyama the hind of a Michou shuffle somebody who feels humility the NIV separate a venomous and becomes what he's involved in it becomes embarrassing it becomes disgusting so that itself you the person thinks he's the mayor's detached place is the most mahkum nominees the lowest places is no that's the place where the mine reaches that creates the openness for LA Milam and Osman for that which is truth I he feel so disconnected it's not that there's episode yearning an appreciation of ain't sir that's Lamar Lemon Ozma and it's just there's a tremendous discontent with the place and the time I'm in I don't know where I want to be but I know that this I don't like and it frustrates him it sniff is a pain of it's disgusting in my eyes he says so it looks like there's no no maíam can come they says no maíam goes daf kalamaki mama it goes precisely into that person space maya main boy well we spoke to Shabaab that Joseph had water he had the tears of his father hollowfy a little vocally he had the tears of his father say he had water it's a different type of water ah sorry Madiba very naked sorry - right it was just planting with tears so he was all sad water you have to have water yeah without water there's no growth deceit shrivels up the Gallia's penis has interaction him ain't a knife and el army shoots artists like acid Baraka Moniz furthermore it's not just the maíam it also goes to the lowest place and precisely the lowest place but the truth is kindness and compassion applies to somebody who needs kindness and compassion if you don't need kindness and compassion then you don't need the terms Casa de Ramona's or commercial an example quite an interesting metaphor misho toughest by bassist Erdem somebody is imprisoned he's incarcerated in a yahuwah's develops awesome he can't go to from door to door and ask people to help him he can't go for people to meals he's in prison miss Eyre have festered virus Moniz Beliebers Bonet Adam Olaf so in people's hearts there's aroused the kindness and a compassion actually movie and I left him a mozilla-based I myself you don't say well wait till you come to my house and then I'll give you a meal no no no you go to the prison why because he's completely stuck he can't can leave prison a person can't leave prison that's what prison means us a base our serum as a place where you're tied a sir means tied right you can't leave so there's there are Manas and the hearts of a person to go bring it to him he says columella the same is true the way it's down here it's because it's a reflection of above but I said alien shanem shush may love a man mela Adam should sirloin Mareeba machine its phase bomb I see her go vanishes actually yes puts me psychic mildly sparsh at Malibu she saw him hooli the high of a number in of Missouri redeemable milah H&M shekel of high in bahasa demo Milam a mocker a high in Versailles yeah I am ain't say Baraka mom's the hearse Absalom was Tatsu so the same is true l'm ila that even though the person is not coming out of prison he doesn't even know that there's a reality out of prison it's not what we spoke before yesterday but the true who he speaks about the closer nefesh to UM could deliver that his MO yes but hey has man he doesn't want the dagger that's already uh that's already a deep their hair that's already a very profound recognition it's not there what he knows is that this is something wrong it's it's it's um it's me it's it's me is for me I don't like it person sometimes has that feeling they don't know what they just don't know that they know this is not the place this is distressful this is a prison I'm stuck I'm not in a good place I may not even understand why I may not even know my destination I just know here I have to get out of sole authority the person is in a mahkum normal he says don't think the water doesn't get if I carrot most of the water goes there because that creates an openness a lack of ego a lack of arrogance a lack of place in C and smugness he says and further that's what the Casa de Ralph mm is you say kindness and compassion is that there's a need for kindness and compassion the person who's in prison yes he needs the kindness and the compassion that's what it's for if he could come so then you don't need him ready so much present around him him he could come and get it for himself he can't come and get it for himself he stuck that's what being stuck means so you don't take it personal and you say oh when you get out of your stuckness then I'll help you I can't I can't help myself that's where I am so what does it mean to be enough person of Casa de inoculum to realize that to discover that and to be able to say let me go and reach out to be able to help the person ultimately get out in other words you you have to know when kindness kindness can also be misplaced and raft room could be misplaced when somebody could walk and you say let me carry you then I'm displacing you but when somebody can to walk when somebody's tied down when somebody is locked up that's where Casa there after him commit so he says the same is true with the hesed Elliott that when a person feels that distress that he's in the prison of his animal soul and he wants to get out of the lavash and solute of the dirty unclean garments and he says high of a numb high and be enough he doesn't feel that his life is a life it's not a worth that's not a worthwhile life there's something off about it she says that itself is my Eider document mom isla to receive a flow of real high and from ain't safe which mom which comes from even the place that's beyond time and it's nemesis may a lover mamela meaning he doesn't Korean does not connect it to that place it comes down ghazal this is the trapped in the parsec me Cal Camejo pasa can me show that he started the Miami miquel commotion I say oven for over no passion subpoenas caleb can ask asset kale represents custard he brought that the PAS success until them Hess at Cal Cal hey I'm so kale represents hasn't but here we say me Cal come - well trap Michalka Martha the aina asset a year confessor Delia in Thomas patiently aim cats verticals there's no cursor that will be like the facet of a Shem which comes infinitely merrily my Milas from the highest place may early in safer home Amish from the light of infinity ad madre guess at the flames from murcia gosh was until the lowest levels in the physical world of action oaxaca a Jewish mother mature a tsunami my struggle forgotten to give life spiritual life to respond to the spirit of the humble people who are feel imprisoned in the prison of their material material goof material body and this is the meek Hale Carmichael where's the acid like your hazard what's the meek he'll come on the disgusted is Miss sparsity said in the beginning of the mine where it extends infinitely from ain't safe to the lowest place like my am which is here to do malcolm Guevara lahmacun Lama it's possible there will be speaks here about the person feels humble and you can have somebody who using the exact same situation no it's not the same that's what he's saying there's just a certain element of NIMH severe enough that sees Marsy's law he feels he doesn't think he's in prison he doesn't cry out he feels that he's in prison I can't come to the me I can't come to you so then you'll come to me because you have said you have Rock'em I say I can't I can't go I don't I I don't know how would it go this is where I am I'm stuck so what happens now she says that then you're not stuck the moment I recognize that I'm stuck so then I'm talking not stuck even though at such a moment you feel completely stuck that's the issue he says yes that's the point you feel stuck so you already not stuck because because you search desert there's a yearning there's a frustration you could try this out in life this is a real this is a real thing whenever you stuck you'll see this is true this is true may I in may I in yet there's a long paren the long brackets here but we'll go after the brackets download Kate said you mean his Gallic acid alien mail in safe barackobama baal-teshuva show your toxic mail in say the tackle is but how in the world does this communication does this fusion happen from aiding safe mama SH and he keeps on saying mama SH because we're talking about alien stuff that's beyond man beyond distortions in the ball jouvert who apparently was so far to the extreme how this dis fusion happen LZ Amira Navi and this is the Prophet Mitte continues Michalka Micah no say of involving our passion you're noisy oven and your Ovid our passion which is going to explain what those words mean o beauty and explanation is the Hindi but Gomorrah is applicator and commodities a fascinating argument on my nose the oven Omar Omar kovash oven one says noise say oven and one says kovachev and Gomorrah my secretary Shoshanna defuse IANA Morales there's a very fascinating argument at first glance it's a very difficult argument to understand the Gomorrah discusses there it says one of the agreement with the Sirocco members we say our shamash I'm Kirikou McConnell Erica pie merav hazard morale Carson means that there is an abundance of acid like Meralco said he's one of great asset so the Gomorrah says the Ralph Cossa disease Matt the club a facet that he he tries to push everything towards faster towards kindness so there's two to two opinions one is the opinion of a bilious I want is the opinion of your BAC bit of canina one says how does he do it koi fish oven and the other one says noisy oven and each one has a possum we say in Misha we stayed by touchless Wed Michalka Micah no say oven were over R partial shares na colossal I have so glad that boy Yasha fira camino y bush a vine si know many people said those are saying them and the carbon is before dominated by inertial oil I'm after dark ADA in men in the sky so this pasta has also brought everyday yet every every morning when they stack them yasubo shoving his say no the sash LaHood silicone caulk Atossa that's the opinion who says hashem style is he's kovash oven kovash yes Bush of Anna same kovash will explain what that means in a moment the other one says no no that's not what he does he does noisy oven we say indeed give me this her actual ma'am okay later come I'm gonna have chasm has no successor do I love him no say oven so it's two different expressions in the Tanakh and bite risky Caesar the expression is noisy oven in Mesa the expression is koi fish of anticipation of an essay no and this is an argument in the Gemara with what a sham does to Navi here says in misha both because it says Michalka mica no say of involving a pastor lady says yes much of anything Inga merits a mark like us which one he does the way them afar sham explained this I've been a phenomenal and other is shown M is and this is where it becomes our people shock that becomes very very strange because it seems like just an argument about semantics the first opinion says koifish kovash means you concur but here it means you suppress you squeeze on it you squeeze on it right like kovash is you squeeze squeeze it so basically here it means you suppress at kovachev subdue it noisy oven means ah yeah we shall yeah yeah yeah there's a mission in McCoys many of also have the mimicking national surveillance to say there's a mission at the end it says over there that mcvish are a movement add aden kovash a fill the Havilah AIT's a my fellow Havilah condom there she spoke arm i am the arid vertigo so koifish means you you you push down you push down if the mikvahs too shallow so the Mishna says I'm Aquarius at the end of where is a chapter 7 that you its name of mera dard and so what you need is you need a water to be able to to be elevated so you should be able to fit your body in or whatever you have to put in this is just over shuffle is overlaid some are filling over the country so far my you could bring bundles of lumber or reads and kovash you you press it down in the water she spoke our mind the water should be bloated it should be elevated in one spot that you can go down the time so one opinion says kovash of it basically it's like hashem steps on the sin and he suppresses it he subdues it and the mela you're good and the other one says no noisy oven he lifts up the sin was friend he lifts up the sin there's a scale and the question is which side is going to win the sins or the mitzvahs so right so maybe the distance are gonna go down so what does he do now say oven he picks up the scale of the sins so mailed of the the mitzvahs go down and they outweigh this since that's noisy oven so koi fish uh-huh he makes the sins lighter he lifts up the scale Isaiah the students may be heavy so they may be this is what Rashi says intimate secretary Shoshanna so they may be equal to the mitzvahs or maybe even heavier in other words they have a more weight the way a scale works huh so yes it goes like this so to speak he cheats he takes his hand nobody sees noisy of and he lifts it up and I lay the mitzvos the mitzvahs go down that's one opinion another that's called nice a oven he picks it up nice it means to pick up like he sees around like a master he picking up kovash oven is the opposite kovachev it means he doesn't pick up this since he take the sins and he throws them down he sort of speak steps on them suppresses them subdues them and that's how they disappear there you switch over now say no that's like passionately you throw it into the ocean it's not a anymore would you put it you threw it into the ocean you cast it down and it disappears from Rachid smarsh me that kovash oven is is is also with the scale that Clara Chava means the other way that I Shem Hashem presses down the mitzvos kovash oven as he presses down the mistress so Mel the mitzvahs become heavier but then the lost and clay version oven is mush but that the oven is closed kovash oven means that darkness he suppresses and noisy oven means he picks up the scale of the virus at first glance when you see such agamotto what are they arguing about what are they arguing if he takes his foot and he steps on the cinder his hands and he picks up the scale so what are the same thing the biggest peddlers in a shear Ashley's mom is the same thing what's the difference if I push this side down and I pick this side up it's the same result if you ever scale you have two things and I want one side to be heavier so what's the difference if I push this up so I don't let it go down or I push the other way down like do we have to argue about everything but that's what they're arguing about no C oven or koi fish oven he picks up the scale he pushes down the scale it seems like Muhammad semantics and to say that some of our greatest sages this is what they argued about they want to understand if Hashem does this aurash understand what's the difference is this an argument in theme it's an argument and language socrata Bala Tonya this is a very very deep argument it's not it's a it's it's it could seem superficial and even a little strange but it's extremely profound the truth is he says should a MMS both are saying Anna could of truth but they're talking about two completely different ideas and this is his analysis of the Gemara he may subside a half love a fellow the explanation the difference of kovash oven and I see of he named my sohe Veda Asher Yassa Adam lastly Baracus McCallum it releases a bittle Mitzvah Cersei who are a gawah the action of a Nevada that a person does Loctite to sin in any of the Mitzvah slices this 365 Mitzvah slices so any of them a person does which is a hat orbital mitzvah Sesay another type of sin is he doesn't do something whether it's any of the three hundred and sixty five minutes as I said but it's a bit tall it's they're not doing oven mitts versus a ragam or that action that action of sin or transgression or lack of it is rag umber it's immoral that's wrong it's absolutely negative that's one side of it off but there's another side of it and he says there are gum would in other words it's not it's not negotiable it's rag gum what it's ragam it's real wrong it's not good it's bad absolute ah and he says he has to say this cause Chris could because of intro to the next piece Akiyama Sava with vada Masuda but the inner drive that's craving that particular thing oh yeah mom shakily boy lavato mitzvos si or that inner drive that's causing it's causing your heart to bheemavaram it's visesa not to do a mitzvah Hina Haku Yahoo that drive that inner core that which is behind the action after Malibu's Baraka more even though this Korea is manifested meaning it's fueling something that's wrong absolutely wrong Macomb became a Micaiah exec at MIT so that's why this inner drive behind it the passion behind that itself is not a set meaning Shirey Clackamas Avenue shove a baby Easter been better because the koihime sava the power of craving is identical if it comes to something permissible or comes to something forbidden the same Koya hammam Chesley boy and the same is true the power that takes his heart away from doing something it's a power that's the same Korea how mom says Liberty would be to take him away from something positive or to take him away from something negative Ella Shaheed Takuya humus avec okok action is labrum I saw a vada ajita skaia hammam shook olive action in shock loss mm its possessor in this case the person's koihime Sava he took to the point that it manifested its enclosed it's fueling um our Nevada or he took the courier to take over the power that that takes away his heart from a mistress si I vomit South Korea Thomas alibi a boy but the curry hummus of itself the drive behind it Harish because ER laughs will evolve Amina cuts Ellicott Samia Verrel Sasha in this class itself he has the ability to transform it from one extreme to another extreme from a toxic love to the love of God commercial custom that's the meaning of the positive behalf there's a Shambhala Castle bacala vodka so the Mishna says in my seconds brushes McAuliffe of your whole heart not half-yard means be Schnee it's Erica she gamma it's a hurry or shove lava Sasha how can I be mission a it's Erica with both the eight serves even the eight Zahra because you have to recognize the courier thomas alva the chaos that is behind behind the craving and that's your shovel a visage that could come back there could be transformed to have a session what does this mean Chiquita he gravitated he reclined he - he moved erected Chiquita ah heater Sun a year by Shabbos yeah hot is an area he steer'd he harnessed the chaos on Masada it's a question of harnessing that's the word it's not a question so there's two elements when you're looking at the action that somebody did the action is a wrong action but now you have to ask yourself one step deep we have to go one step deeper what is behind it even more than intent what is behind it what is behind it on every level which goes very deep on a conscious level and even on a subconscious level but even on a conscious level there's the Koya kama Sava there's the power of the craving there is what I want in terms of the of the of the actual manifestation of the Tyva but then there is what I really want and I believe that this is going to satisfy me with I mean you could say that way the customer service basically the Khoya the energy that is behind the Taizo that is inside the timer so you have the courier right now dressed up in this tie but this is how it's being manifested but if you could strip away the Tiber from the kayak the caius is not evil the class is looking for something it has some yearning it has a void that's looking for something it became harnessed and expressed through this Avera or through the lack of doing this Mitzvah somehow not doing this Mitzvah is doing something for me whatever it is or doing this survey de is doing something for me so from the perspective of the mice itself as he says it's ragam or it's bad the perspective of Korea Thomas Alva the clarify Mustapha got dressed up in bad it got harnessed into negativity but that was a harness that was weird was directed that was Danice how it's being utilized where it's being transported the Karaka masala itself is not raw on the contrary the same courier Mustafa could be flipped around and can become a tremendous drive for positivity and a tremendous drive for goodness ah so why does it come out negative you know answer ah that would not arguing he said that before he said the case nobody had desired the Mises at our gamma we're talking to Claire Shama Sava let's give a Marshall Oh be a little clearer I mean this emotion this is true about every single action so any any any Aveda you look at you could see this either Marshall is the initial you have this you have this constantly constantly in a person's life you have it even in the most extreme situations and certainly not extreme and oh you always have these situations it's all commit it's connected to that it's it's connected to that it could be connected yeah it's all it's all the same Nikola he doesn't mean that the clay earth is equal that somebody's talking about he's talking about the same color humus Alva that you're using for is sir is the same customer Saba that would be used for heta yeah yeah there's a famous there's a famous line we spoke about it a few days ago whereby an event that but I don't want to if it's true also in extreme situations but it's true also not extreme situations that addiction is not the problem addiction is the solution it's very easy to point fingers and say that's the problem but then you're not gonna fix the problem because that's not the problem that's the solution you understand the alcohol is not the problem the alcohol is the solution how avoid alcohol was the problem then it would be pretty simple the alcohol is the crazy dysfunctional absurd immoral and toxic solution for a problem it's a wrong solution it's a bad solution it works temporarily it works very out of that call I just hope that your scientific inventions don't work as well they work a little better abyssal vodka you put into the Machine abyssal muttaqun Sergey nazzer it's a flop sister Islamic would get me pay Adam market rohnke yeah this declares my death Monica Bissell mosh game yeah so so the solution may be short-term and may be disastrous because it fries your brain it takes you out of reality it brings you know where it doesn't help you but you have to identify the kiya hummus a ver I'm not looking for alcohol I'm looking for love looking for love is a bad thing a guy I may have met I met a guy his marriage fell apart and his business fell apart all the same time could be they were dependent on each other like one guy said he got the voice because of somebody said what do you mean you're an atheist and your wife is an atheist he said yeah but she worships money and I don't got it you know I mean so was religion I don't know if the two were dependent do they just happen to be together whatever yeah so now a person is in a lot of pain they don't have a job and they don't have a marriage yeah and the loss it's tremendous pain what do you do with that pain the person is desperately looking for something to hold on you know a shipwreck the Titanic goes down monoliths lawn and the person's life you're looking for anything you're looking for a straw to hold on to you're looking for a tube you're looking for a lifeboat right now there's different options in life there are live boats that you can hold on to but they're not easy to find then you have to work on that but there's a live boat that's available right there it's called addiction whatever that is this one it's a computer and this one it's another I did it can even be addiction to looking for that don't look so destructive but it's an addiction what does it mean is an addiction it's not taking you to the place you want to be because you're not identifying the Karaka Mustafa you're ignoring the kayaker Mustafa you're suppressing the kaya Kamisama you're distracting yourself from what you're looking for that's the difference what's the difference between a healthy productive life and an unhealthy destructive life the pain is the same the search is the same but am I actually doing things to promote that search to find love I need love I need connection I need hope but that's not either that that if I can identify that that's the problem the addiction that's the solution that's not the problem you get what I'm saying this is sure about everything a person does the ballot on you says there's no evade in the world that doesn't have a cure sama-sama epazote star you're looking for something you may know it you may not know it you may be so much in denial that you're not ready to know you harnessed it through this action somehow you feel yeah he speaks or Bittle Mitzvah says if I don't do this if I don't do this I'll be better off I'll be happier how many people leave go you disguise because it's causing them too many problem I don't need it if I go away from this if I get rid of it I'll be a happier person it's it's filling a void that's filling some kya kama soffits filling a void it's filling some type of yearning I have some needs for some attachment some connection koakuma Sava means the in the internal yeah the internal makeup of what this person is what this person is craving what this person is yearning for what this person is desiring for that's what you have to look at ya then a shove of it so we have a very interesting paradox I could look at somebody doing something terrible and I could see two things if I look at it from with simple glasses what do I see I just see now that's what I see if I put on up it's a little deeper glasses what do I see the same act the same act and act is not good what do I see I see somebody starving for a hug I see somebody starving for love I see somebody's starving for validation I see somebody starving for some healing for some hope for some attachment that's not a bad thing that's a very beautiful thing sadly he or she does not know how to feed that how to satisfy and how to promote it how to get that only through this way that's what he says heater he took the Karaka mustafa and he directed it into this and it's usually easier this way cuz it's fast it's instant it doesn't require vulnerability it's a good distraction huh it's a quick fix it sometimes cheap that's not gonna end up cheap but it's a quick fix right the microwave generation we like things hot and fast huh quick fix yeah and then tomorrow breaks so you fix it again and what the problem is because your distraction was only a distraction it wasn't a real solution so it's never gonna be enough because that's not what you're looking for you say you're looking for that that's not what you're looking for if that's not what you're looking for it's gonna disappoint you so what are you gonna do tomorrow you'll take a little more because you tell yourself Oh yesterday I didn't have enough the problem is the next day it's still not gonna satisfy you because you were never looking for that so you're gonna do a little more a little more a little more a little more and then at some point you stop recognizing yourself you don't even know who you are you're just like a robot huh the Mauryan I am the Moose do I shall Yakov offer very deep he's gonna say he's gonna speak about that now the magician Margot says this the Mario nyan brings mighty fire was chasing him kept on saying to him come with me and he saw the most be honest rock above I'm really looking for Tavares I'm looking really looking for beauty so what do I have to go to PT first wife of the Hakata Yakov is the source of Tavares he saw the image of Yakov wasn't stomach so the image of Yakov the image of Yakov allowed him to identify what he was really looking for and go there now in the midst of the addiction it's very hard to do this because you're trapped you're in base our solar huh so I'm trapped you know something just-just-just I need cause I don't have gas at the moment when you trapped your trap you're just in a trap but when the person could go back a little bit and look and reflect on it this is the key for all real growth there buys it fresh taste first taste get ah this is what every teenager has to understand this is it this is it he's not getting it at all because he wasn't looking for that the Koya come in Salva is not looking for that Vader that's this point the Clackamas Sava is harness being used with our Vader it's not looking for the availa it's the same class I'm Mustafa could be the most powerful tool for growth for productivity for goodness for godliness that's Patrat vamps are similar cables all above kobish made Cerreta how could you love God with th the horizontal a it's our depends how you understand that yet Sahara if you're looking at the hrs action those actions gotta go but he's looking for something there's something he's searching for that can be revamp there can be reoriented if you just strip it from the outer live awesome you can reorient it into the greatest force for good but you have to be able to identify that kaio-sama sava who good good questions she says what 78 start over yet Sahara it's an excellent question excellent question and the answer is the difference between them on one level is as absolute as it gets and on another level no difference at all on one level it's the greatest difference there's a gulf that abyss separates between them on one level and another level there's no difference at all yeah and both are very true and one has to be very careful because there are those who love to romanticize the eighths of Horus there were those people and individuals and streams based on these ideas and the eighth Sahara suddenly becomes just one big romantic see after that's why that's why the ballot Anya that's why you can you see the Emmis of it first he says demise is a rag or more and I emphasized a few times why did he got gamma in other words don't use this mind mare to start playing games and saying yes house gets out there was a big macabre above ROM abulafia so he writes that tau2 cave off okay you're the hey okay he writes it is Yeats ur hitori v8 Sahara you came off I know you look at it and you don't understand it if you don't understand it but okay great so every eight say Harden is originally it came okay fine I should give up okay and it brings a person to undesirable places and it's not true they can is it's not true it's not true it uses fancy spiritual language but it's not true so the ballot Anya's gonna explain that this is the Pratt and Gomorrah noisy oven and kovash oven does God step on the sin or does he lift up the sin depends which part of the sin you're talking about there's the part of that Veda that you have to uplift it's really a pollute you have to uplift it nicely and then there's the part that you have to step on first taste does the Clare come a Sava of it that you uplift on the contrary you have to embrace that you have to look what it is don't get rid of that don't sit on throw that away look at it you want to know what it is identify it because that will bring you to great places as he says that could become alpha section why because you'll ultimately find that the only solution to your problem is God truth reality ain't Serb that's the solution your computer's your alcohols your your games are not gonna be solutions because they're not real they're not salutely they're called a Vytas Aras what does if I deserted me alright there's our two basic what's why why is either Scot against of a designer what do we have so against but my designer basically means something that represents to you what you're looking for but it's a fake you're looking for a relationship with truth you need love you need attachment you need to feel the meaning of your life the value of your life right we're gonna get that cause but on Finn let's manage to do cissexism was a gimmick I am I mean an addiction we're gonna find that we're gonna find it on on certain websites you're gonna find it I'm not on my DS Shiva does not fear maybe he'll find you let him I'm a look at the title fine we gonna find we gonna find them in a piece of cake you'll find it yeah mark Karl Marx said religious religion is the opium for the masses right so obviously he meant it in a derogatory way but the point has to be understood am I looking for and religion could by the way be also on addiction we all know that right you could use God also is an addiction person once told me that he became a mulch over cuz he's OCD and he realized the best lifestyle for OCD is is a halacha lifestyle commonness of lana kinder first taste the whole my mood is that ain't safe is not time it's low my lemon Osman the finishes did it but I started to bring it into smart the moment you start worshipping the clock you're not in touch with reality it's important to be a Masuda Zaman is man time is time but time can also be an everything can be an a very disordered to say it a little even even God could be another disorder first a Steven God could be enough it's your guard that you create and that becomes another disorder addictions don't necessarily mean that which they call on the websites addictions dictions could be very deep things so this person is angry at his wife this person is angry at his children right he bursts out he's hollering it's not easy for the wife or the children or if the wife is screaming at the husband but the rebind shel olam yeah and this man is saying you have to look at two things you have to look at the outburst you also have to look at something else this father is going through a lot this poor man he does not express himself nobody taught him he's looking for something he's looking all anger is a cut most anger is a cover-up they call it in psychology a secondary emotion secondary emotion means you're not angry you're in pain of course you're angry but the anger is just the it's a lavash huh it's a manifestation you feel alone call a car you stare the Rambam says it's one of the sources of the Rambam and zohar because we don't have it in Gemara color call your skill over the vedas our anger is like idolatry why why who doesn't get angry I mean present company excluded the rest I'm only concept someone we should ask the Brazil the stencil in the business people get angry people get angry color kill over the void is honor what you went and you schmutz us cuz he got angry yeah the truth is is a very deep void about Latanya says color cuz killer with of a deserter why do people get angry the anger is telling me something anger is basically if I could get in touch with the Cuyahoga Sava there's something that's freaking me out to something that's I feel abandoned I feel alone I feel betrayed I feel detached if you can go deeper if you can't go deeper you can but if you can go deeper you'll see that the chaos behind the anger behind the outburst is a very innocent yearning and if you would understand that Hashem is with you right now then you wouldn't have to direct it in that way you would be able to direct it towards that which you need to be fixed to something hurting you you can address the hurt you don't have to get angry instead anger is a cover-up for a comma Sava that's basically based on the fact that I feel very very alone and what's a fighter's art of it is art it means that you don't believe that I Shem is with you right now at every moment giving you everything you need and giving you the ultimate power to be able to confront everything in life there's nothing in your life you can't look at and look at the action and look at the kyocho Mustafa what does it mean a life of a curse a life of kaduche it means that the kiya comma Sava and your actions are working in sync with each other what's Laster Caravela how the harmonica Mustafa is not a Nevada that's his point this it's only use of the kaio-sama savasana Veda the external curl of ah the manifestation of it even the craving right there's guys all I need is to go to this in this place but that's not the case I Mustafa that's the reversion of the curl summer summer you're talking about the feeling the conscious desire that yeah but that's also not the case I myself if you'll go deeper you will find that the case of Mustafa is not evil it's here to take you to the right place that's what it's here for but I don't hear the language I don't know how to translate it it's called lost in translation you understand the Karaka Mustafa has a language it's a very subtle language and if you don't hear it or you hear the wrong messengers it's like static you know static the courier Mustafa is not the color Mustafa is really here to take you to good places when you don't give in to the external craving you get to know what you really want and you give in to who you really are the more I give in to the external craving the more I'm becoming myself because I'm actually telling the customer Sabah I don't care about you all I want is I want to distract myself from you so the Karaka Mustafa goes more and more into hiding people think if I fulfill my tithe I'm doing this cubes of snoc I'm helping myself I'm not helping myself I'm actually betraying myself because what I'm telling my kayak I miss avez I couldn't care less who you are all I want is you should shut your stupid mouth how do I get you to shut your mouth by feeding a distraction I get distracted so now you're quiet for 10 minutes you quiet that's it it's like your baby is crying yeah just shut your mouth you want a gadget take a gadget do you want a phone take a phone you want a tablet take a tablet you want a TV take a TV it's frying your brain who cares I just want you to shut your mouth you understand so that that same thing the inner child is the cursor myself it's the same thing it's not different but I don't want you you driving me crazy you're distracting me so what do I want you to do I want you to be quiet how do I get you to be quiet whatever it is how do I get my career Commissar with be quiet another chocolate doughnut but it's not enough we'll do another one what do a third want huh some of us struggle with that too there's different struggles in life the food is also an addiction but yo-yo ma ki Carmina you typhus so it's not like oh you're doing the the gifts to smash you being now you're actually you're not allowing yourself to hear yourself and every time you do it you hear yourself less and less and less and less by actually not running to that place I get frustrated I'm like I need it I need it I'm not distracting myself so you know what happens after a while you start hearing the music and that's very powerful when you start hearing it then you could start nurturing it ah and then you build a relationship with it to the point that you become one and the kaio-sama Sava and you you're working together a whole time this is called a life that's well lived everything that we speak about also free Mooser and all that you can hear it from a negative place you can hear it also from a much deeper place all discipline of halacha is not intended to crush people's cravings people think God wants them wants everybody to be miserable you want this no this no no no no no no no nothing you're miserable Baruch Hashem now you'll get a llama bah it's a very distorted way of understanding in discredits Punk Firecat without forever is teaching or serious four-carat I want to get in touch with you kaya come the Sabbath that's what I'm looking for I don't want you to get distracted from who you are I want you to get in touch with your real kaya kama Sava so there could be a holistic life it's a it's an opposite it's an opposite in the hood this corner understands huh Tove my ID Malick I'm obviously it's ahora Tove murid the Magister ABBA ah is it okay to say that until now whatever land in life was part of my defeat here it was until it happened but once it happened okay was the divine plan and now I have a chance to clean it again well the Indian of clear and you dear this is the connection to Zaman on the Meyer lemon Ozma really in other words real true ver we say true over transform sins into mitzvahs how how can a sin become a mitzvah so the ohmic of it is that since chuhwa takes you to a place where zoom on becomes condensed and crunched and of our however acid are one point yeah so therefore the past is not the past so just like if I was last week in air too strong I wasn't but if I was last weekend they're too strong you were you couldn't go back they even though you left nobody says you can't go back there you left I left and I can go back that's how space works I left this room and I can come back this is mom really is not very different time we think of the time left you could never come back that's without ruler in ain't safe when you go to a higher world and especially when you attain cephalo my Luminas mom's mom becomes like mahkum just like I can go back and revisit Israel I can revisit a past time cuz it's not past it's very very powerful that's what sugar caramel allah means sugar takes you to a place that's the nakid of the main maneuver takes you to a place that's called malayalam beyond the tyranny of time what's the tyranny of time for father god it's over not done the gomorrah says a mooc the mimosa batarians a steps awesome evolved how do we know a mooc the most remote area so the gomorrah says there's no chronological order how you know you know it from pace of shape cuz Pasha's Bamidbar speaks about the radish ear when Hashem said to moisture to count the Jews partials bollocky speaks about his tradition is so that means what's later is really earlier why is the source of a MOOC the motion photography so shiny so I once heard from the lab me he said cuz that's what Pesach shame is what Spacek Shanee face of shame is we don't believe us if our fallen life is lost a MOOC the mimosa potato those are the thing in tighter this is the past it's too late that's it we're gone a MOOC the most obatala if trader becomes lamella - man there's a MOOC the boom loser hi what do you mean its partners by Midway already holding restraint this year and parshas violation you go back to rich tradition is how to get back there is not just chronologically it's not written in order it's it's not doesn't live in the world were ordered to find everything so what does the Balch overdue he goes back he redefines his sin retroactively here's a mitzvah how because when you lift up Takaya comma Sava no you say our vine when you embrace the kayak I'm a Sava what do you realize you realize that the motivation for your sin was what wasn't bad what was the motivation you were really looking for the Vegas you just didn't know how you didn't know how to hear that you couldn't hear that or maybe you're here to be you didn't know how to do it so you just went to this place whether it's on a Veda that you did or it's a bit calm it's visesa everything as a comma Sava not only action also in action dr. everett here says it's not just our Mitzvah slice it's also Bittle Mitzvah sesor even when I don't do something I'm looking for something there's two types of things people do what they do and what they don't do they also do that right the fact that I sit on my couch and do nothing is also I'm also choosing I'm also choosing I'm also looking for something that's why I'm not gonna do this I'm not going to do this why cuz I'm looking for something and in my perception this is how I'm going to get it so when you're noise say alright so then the can become redefined but for that you need lamella manaus mom kovash is something else we'll see tomorrow base Russia there's two parts of that Veda the kaya Thomas Alva is nicer the vein itself kovash Loveman threaten of them that's the heart and that's the truth yeah yeah yeah yeah the two work together that's what he just named ms it snapshot it's nicely what Hashem goes like this he goes like this it's a game no this too in Yanam there's the part of that veda that you have to lift up that you have to embrace you have to elevate don't get rid of it it's a good thing there's a part of that Veda they have to look at take it embrace it lift it up for carrot and when you'll elevate it you'll see that it's not the right story if it looked like a rabbit it's not right if you but you have to be it nice say you have to put it under the divine microscope and then you'll see it's not bad no because really what the person is looking for is not to rise not draw their eyes just a distraction it's the way it was harnessed it's the way it was implemented you could look at this constantly and everything it's very hard to do yeah you see your child behaving in a certain way right we always judge the action and it's important to look at the action we're not disregarding the action it's important to look at the action but if you only look at the action you're failing to see the person what's behind it what's behind and he made himself not now sometimes he made no buts so he may not know I was energy strong once so there was a big urge a religious therapist this he told me that that a child he was a child came to see him and this child was a brilliant head but he made sure to fail every test in school every single test he failed and his father was going crazy so he met this boy and he asked his boy why do you fail every single test he said I'll tell you one my father you have to know him he needs his to be perfect he needs a scar to be perfect he needs his house to be perfect and he needs his kids to be perfect and not not I'm not one of his cars and computers first aced I'm not one of his cars and computers no that's it this kid will say something very deep I'm not part of his experiments he needs a perfect life everything should be you know check to be a beautiful beautiful artistic dining room here my kids can come in and she'll look at my knock-offs look at my job they have enough tallied up sir enough telling up shits there was once walking to the mikveh in the morning and there was a horse in the middle of several brothers walking with his whole entourage mythology options it was a very short man and a frail man he would walk fast and there was disgusting walking as I with his royal garments the math on him and the families and everybody's working so but I've thought it up she'd say runs off because on the way to the mikveh runs over he says to the costume it's my language today and he runs away if finished now you look at this boy you'll just say he wants to do bad he wants to do bad huh is it Ishta nishta listen it's very good well I just want to correct what the be activists said if telegrams they ran over and said me I not is finished and I think they ran after him to understand what they what he meant and he said you're walking as though the whole world belongs to you I just wanted to say that I don't belong to you my martyred similar here right me and Gotha below in other words the point is if you look at this child you could just dismiss his actions just a troublemaker he wants to do bad maybe he doesn't want to do bad maybe he wants to be treated with a little dignity maybe he just doesn't want to be seen as a pawn of his father's perfection well isn't that something true right yeah very beautiful and yellow - yellow chair doll oh yeah some people say in the world of Education there's no such a thing your child doesn't want to succeed who doesn't want to succeed he doesn't feel he could succeed but that's not so easy to see what would it mean come on what would they tell what they tell you okay then what did I say that but but but it's so true who you know somebody in life you know anybody in this room who doesn't want to succeed you wake up in the morning and say I really want to have a miserable unsuccessful life I mean I'm talking about you know I'm not the one somebody who's affected by an illness a regular person I don't know what regular means anymore but but confuse the bother look we're adults so wouldn't you were so suddenly at some age you want it every person wants to succeed sometimes I don't know how to succeed if I don't know how to succeed so what do I do so I go to every Schwarz er every distracting thing in the world to be able to not succeed but at least to be able to distract myself from the pain of not succeeding there's no child that doesn't want to succeed there's no boss who doesn't want to succeed there's no girl doesn't want to succeed do what they have to do they have the tools to succeed and your tools are not my tools so you say but what I mean to say it's a hard eh so Horace says don't succeed so the ballot Anya teaches us the it's a hundred is not so black and white the first ending it's a hurry and that starts transforming it's a harder how do you transform you it's a harder what do you mean you transform I it sort of wants to do bad things what am i transforming he says no no no no no no no ue8 so Horace says it wants to do bad things it says I know that it says but if you could take the right lens and go a little deeper you'll see that vow after session allocation could be but Oliver kobish nights are at the very core that's taking you to what seemed like such bad places and they are negative places that's very clear if you reorient it can be seen completely in a different light yes how does that boy yes good nice it's a problem how does he do it response doesn't see it how did you get out well hopefully hopefully I don't know what happened at the end of the story hopefully hopefully the father could be made aware of it and if he's open to it there could be a lot of growth if he's not open to it so so nobody is stuck nobody is stuck we don't believe that people are stuck we're not stuck there's a difficulty there's a challenge but it's not stuck right huh the moment we learned before right the moment you say I'm stuck you're ready not so stuck because people will come what does he say when somebody said I can't go anywhere they'll bring him food right there's a moment you say I'm stuck God says I'm here no problem if you stuck I'm here that's the problem it's a murder to cavort in the moment the moment you say I'm stuck I'm in prison arm says no problem breakfast lunch dinner time fi based problem is if you say you're not stuck fee not stuck no go get yourself if you stuck is she good the stuff they can support a Yid ones came to the cops carrier be didn't have par no sir he didn't have money so he said why don't they have money I'm such a smart man this disease crime Yankel is an idiot and he's a lot of money I'm much smarter than him he says was listed as a puzzle think I have this Loyola curcumin welcome smart people don't got bread you're smart you don't have bread she's lab I know the process but why taco why talkin do brilliant people like me not have to love him he says partially burnisher loyal I'm tell us how come I'm like you you're so smart figure it out your friend your friend doesn't think you slice it God says I'll figure it out for you the business a crisis welcome here so figure it out so when you start to sing good when you it's a good one huh huh as it was said that the more person in sham sharra betoken nishan legume really in other words that's the Vaart so when they when a person recognizes that I'm stuck in a good way in a good way yeah today is do Castelo today's il is the birthday of the Baal Shem Tov and the ballot Anya also both of them yeah stifles giveth look who came in your course also the wind blew and men as a powerful stuff powerful stuff everything is relative everything is what is it called moral relativism you can't say anything is wrong abortion is not nothing right right you're right that's the challenge in today's day that in order to reorient Makar Mustafa have to acknowledge that there are destructive behaviors and if I can't acknowledge that right right it's just shrimp right right but I think even in this world we could I think most people have their honors they can acknowledge that at least certain patterns and behaviors are not producing results that they themselves would agree will lead to a meaningful life quietly the consortium agree on your right in the world of moral relativism it's very hard to even discuss this because because yeah I'm an addict alcohol so who says that's bad although I would say that there's quite a few things that many people could just acknowledge objectively but it's not leading them to functional places in terms of productivity in terms of well-being in terms of serenity like there's this which is why there's such a self-help plethora of everyone you see the military both illogical are right because they'll say what's your dominant thirty minutes a day you waste your time thirty minutes he's so productive to make you more successful yeah but I'm saying almost everybody ecologist today the value of meditation and introspection and and composure and calmness and connecting to something that's beyond the here and now and the stress of of the computer and the office I mean these are things that are the experimentation of it you see the results the benefits it's like arguing against eating healthy or arguing against exercise you could argue theoretically against anything you can also say what's the value of living longer I mean there's no value or who to something it's my new you know once you go into that place post modernity modernity say you can it's good to prolong the life but it's not good to prolong to death and a tsunami an economy I know that we're not gonna agree with everything but this is quite a lot of things that one can benefit least see what's better for a marriage what's better for a relationship what's better for well-being what's better for tranquility when you're 14 and 15 you may just want to have fun you're not even thinking about these things but usually when a person that's a little older and a little more objective there are certain things that you could turn to a person's own feeling and say is this really making you the person you want to be forget logic really ultimately they have to experience that and actually quote on the sagas I'll be able to it's like a string theory you'll be able to tune in chuckle there's work hot spot right so that's the so and power generation being so a mystic and exposed to many things and see a bunch of them will talk back to me so he is not in that meditation state where he actually can tune to that melody and until he's there you cannot explain to him nothing that she can be possibly right yeah so yeah you're quite right now by Moses first test yes yes time adviser yeah no I'm saying you're right it was on a level it's never gonna get there because you miss this in space in a world where there's no toy and rice saying mission causes things in a person's life stations it's either Tiburon and the expert there in New York and you accept that framework and then basically okay you choose between good and bad so then you have basically clear fast but you have to define that framework and accept that framework to begin with such massive initial you basically yeah you do it and then we understand that the ultimate is you have to give them the tools to tune in and how we can get in this tools that's where education is so important quema controvert enough elevators yes four versus the son of Ariston pnina's gan economization Nevada Fred Nevada Vader look at the Tyler was Bala Tonya saying vasudevay that's her boss cut off intelafone yes sir the two Magica Kalyn okay I have Moses Kentucky's I'm a problem okay this so the vision that comes out into the world against that college bar yes so close what I have because behind the I retreat like everything you need boundaries ah based on the boundaries will be but karleusa oh can we guide yeah you need red light and green light you right okay the open ice hockey Akama Sava they also had need love so Vanessa Kirsch on the song this class is brought to you by the yeshiva net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate