The Baal HaTanya Speaks to Addicts - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

the yeshiva.net [Music] i asked the isaac to copy you did it to copy too short my martin from the balayala from the balatanya they come from a safer called which means the brief the short the concise discourses of the altitude of the balatanya the truth is they're short in quantity but each one can be learned for a few days or a few weeks but uh i didn't know if we'll be able to do both they're both short but i thought maybe we'll be able to do both we'll see so you have the copies we'll start with the first one i'm not gonna so much business i'm not gonna stop and focus on each letter and each line each word even though you could but more to be tough is the a little bit of the uh the light the energy that the balla tanya is conveying in this mine now it's interesting they weren't very into shave of him but there's one moment of the balatini about one moment and this is it and even in this thing and you see a certain approach that i thought was very apropos for many of us in in life she starts off with him shaving him is an acronym of schmoyes according to the according to the capitalists these weeks are conducive to repair all blemishes that are connected to the bris on every level as he starts off indian tickle of gambris it's weeks that are conducive to repair all blemishes that are connected to the place and the areas of the bris in every person's life the meaning by many mukabalam and by many siddhim and by many eden is that they fast during these weeks during schweiz through trauma they fast some people are up at night they say special fillers they learn special things so it's in in certain cahills it's a whole uh of him as a whole matzah it's a whole situation brings it in it comes from from big people so that the balatang here is going to give his perspective on this concept so he says he's he changes the subject it starts with partial schmoys the question is why does it start schmoys by the burning bush he sends moisture by the burning bush to go to the jewish people so moshe says they're going to ask me when i come to the jewish people they're going to ask me mash what's his name you you say i'm going to come and say that hashem sent me to you so they say what's his name what should i say to them says tell them i will be who i will be tell them the one who i will be sent sent me to you that's what that's what my that's what hashem tells the balatanya says he doesn't understand mushroom is coming and he's telling them that hashem near eli that god appeared to me they're going to want to simmen they're going to want to believe it so everybody anybody can come and say people have done it right that god appeared to them that god communicated to them he's going to say hashem nirei so these are going to want they're going to want to have a sim and how do we know it's you so uh so hashem says that's what it means what's his name not stam what's his name how do you know it's his name they want to have a simmons so what are you going to say the word i will be how does that answer the question and also why didn't he say the main name yut kevke what's the name the main name of hashem is the concept the explanation is the best advice to anybody who wants the fear of god to touch his heart and he wants to walk before hashem with truthfulness and with innocence with wholesomeness zaha derek this is the way that the light of hashem can dwell in him this is the way this is the aids he's going to get back to the questions a person should think in his heart i believe suffolk there's no question without a doubt a person should realize that constantly there's a part of him that's in egypt a part of him that is locked up and confined in egypt his mind his heart his addictions his habits instinct instincts a whole day are capable of craving things that are unhealthy unwholesome destructive because he's in egypt he should he should realize that don't deny it don't repress it don't try to think that the way you're going to connect to god is because you don't have any issues you don't have any baggage he says that's not gonna be the death the derrick is to realize that all day 24 hours a day with any trigger somebody looks at you the wrong way and work yeah somebody sends you the wrong text yeah it's all there with one trigger all the issues all the issues emerge why if it can happen with a trigger means it was there it means it was just waiting it's not even a beer that was hibernating in a cave it's not hibernating it's out there if with one trigger any moment of the day you can get zapped into anger or depression or despair or sadness or melancholy or or frustration or whatever it is that means that a whole day you're in egypt once you realize this that you really realize it and therefore you're not surprised that clown o'clock you shouldn't get upset greater this itself can get put you in a depression fine so you're a piece of garbage you're dirty you're doing it except that you don't know him i believe but he should tell himself emma's chicano it's true i can't expect anything else in a moment's notice i can end up in the spiritual psychological emotional abyss malama laity akane why should it why is he surprised why shouldn't it be this way means that every all the layers that exist in the person whether it's his body his aids or his animal soul his trauma whatever we want to call it today or whatever names you want to call it why shouldn't it be this way why does he expect anything else ah however there's something else yaakov the passage says in parishes his nation is a part of hashem yaakov is the rope of his inheritance so he says the jew is also a soul that's a piece of hashem i lift up my soul and in him i desire with his mitzvahs and his laws and to connect in his trailer even if the person really doesn't have a way of understanding him at all he has no way of grasping the divine mccomacon he doesn't know he doesn't have to know a reason for the liberus of the libya means the rats in haleiwa in aramaic means will desire passion lib is the heart he doesn't even know a reason for the passion that he has in his heart you know why it's actually not his own it's not coming because of his bright intelligence not because of his righteousness says that he is a piece of ellicott and since he's a piece of hell because he's a piece of godliness so every single moment he craves to connect to the source from which he was taken when you say helic apart we don't mean physically it's a concept just like you'll say a child is part of a mother doesn't mean that it means that the child essentially begins with the father and mother with the seed with the egg and then the child becomes something separate but because it's essentially one the child always has a relationship with parents so he says in him so it's not the shot that he's righteous or he's brilliant to he understands the mathias is that there's a major the core of him is divine so it craves to go back to its source to be one with its source because when a person realizes all of this which what's all of this both of these components not to be surprised by the fact that there's a part of me that at any moment can end up in mitzray why why not why not why should i expect otherwise there's a bunch of issues my external layers a whole day that's where they are and therefore any moment they could be zapped into that on the other level a person should realize it's completely not a contradiction to the fact that he's a helicopter he's a piece of hashem and therefore he remains connected and he has a use of the library may not even understand anything about and he doesn't even know the reason why but that's the fact that he hasn't used the libya as a rating and it's not his own it's not because of his genius or because of his righteousness it's because of the helicopter and when he realizes all of this the is from below creates an arousal from above the emotion that a person has triggers or responds by hashem that hashem's love to the jewish people gets triggered even if he finds no reason why he should love this particular person or these people it's completely irrelevant just like by the person he says i don't have to understand why i love god i don't need it should make sense because if he tries to make sense the paradoxes are too much one minute he's a basket case one minute he seems filthy and lowly and he's in there anybody relates to this one minute he's mummish in the head and suddenly another minute you're talking to him about god come on decide who you are and stop with all these lies and paradoxes other dubis does others does so some people deny that this ever happens to them they have to repress it they have to crush them no it's not me so their whole life they're busy convincing themselves that everything they're feeling is not real and it's just having a bad day they didn't eat they ate too much this in other words they're spending most of the time denying what exists she says no if you can accept that and accept that that's very real and accept that with that very moment and in that very relationship and in that very reality you're also a stickler of course and that's where you have a rooster to live and it doesn't have to make sense to you if you'll start with your ration now you have all the reasons to be down you have all the reasons to be dirty of all the reasons to be moral but what should you do god put himself into you so there's a part of you that craves truth craves god so he says what that does hashem the same thing your love to him doesn't have to be i'll be saying he'll say his love to you doesn't have to be say absolutely if my love is motivated by a reason his love is also for that reason is also by a reason upon him the face you show the water is the face the water shows back to you the face i show the mirror the mirror reflects back to me so the love that i show to hashem or to the other person is the love that i receive back so when my love is based on a reason so the love in return is also based on a reason when i realize the love doesn't have to have a reason it doesn't have to be rational i can have a lot of questions on it but it is i bring out the same type of love i love this drew for no reason i just love him you know why because we're one but this is what we mean whenever we say hashem is the god of avraham this avoid is not coming from the human being's profound perception because actually no thought can grasp him so once you're relying on das or no thought can actually grasp his reality and say ah i get it. this is the state of avram who represented absolute love it doesn't have to be mathematical so alike means the god of avraham the ali kay i connect through avram beyond seiko and that's why his love to me is the same love it's reflected of this reflects my love when it says the first time it says pocket he remembered sarah so when it says when by by by moshe after he asks hashem for his name hashem says go gather the jewish people and tell them hashem appeared to me and he said yes i remember you parkway and hashem says they'll listen to you surah she says why are they going to listen to you they already heard from yaakov and joseph that the one who's going to redeem them is going to use the word pakadati because when yaakov passed away he said ali kim pakka give god will remember will remember you and take out my bones so when jews had a cinnamon when they hear pakoi pakadati i remember they know oh this is good yaakov said it yourself said it if moshe is going to come and say that you can have if jacob knows it and joseph knows it and all the jews know it so there could be a ghana also knows right like the old question you don't blow shay foreign to confuse the satan everybody knows we don't blow shahi fit to confuse the suck the only one who doesn't know is the sutton he hasn't figured it out a few thousand years he really he can't look in the calendar and see when rosh hashanah is he really thinks what with tish above now stupid who are you fooling you okay he needs shot we say confusing to sutton who's the sultan he's such an idiot everybody knows all the jews know you say pocket picadi it's a good sign so you got a charlatan who learns pocket picada t right you know the people sometimes who collect and they're not honest they learn a few key phrases they you know they give the brachas and schulz they go around some of them are loved africa jewish even you learn the phrases you learn the phrases and you instigate to get that guy big deal moisture could have gone and learned pocket pakadati sapela the kerashii the pocket pakadati that's it two words how hard is it says no it doesn't mean the words pakit pakality is a message she had a baby at the age of 90 it's not exactly rational to have a baby it represents a type of connection that is not necessarily rational it doesn't have to make sense this is what i want this is what i want this is who i am so you'll say why why explain it to me like my level i made it you'll say why you'll have a reason you don't have a reason this is who i am this is what i want so you say yeah but yesterday you were like this it doesn't make sense good questions but this is who i am a jew is a helicopter i 10 minutes ago i yesterday has the fight he says i know we know about everything else in you that's not a kiddish learn to expect it and even honor the fact that it exists in you but understand it's a completely not a contradiction to the fact that you have a wrought sin that's completely beyond the time this is who you are this is the cloud that jews had they heard it from joseph negoland they're going to be redeemed from the dimension of pakistan in other words it wasn't the words pakistan they had the uh they told that this this is god's what's going to allow them to be liberated because without this you'll look at themselves and they'll say we're slaves we meant we're meant to be slaves this is what happens constantly a person looks in the mirror and says i'm meant to be miserable i'm meant to be a slave vahraya and you have probably 3 000 stories to back it up right with your background and your situation and everything you went through you're not a slave you're a free person was this a joke were you joking what do they say they say the rabbi and the priest and the minister walked into a bar so the bartender looked at him and said what's this a joke right so you come in and you decided you're going to liberate yourself you're joking you know it when things go down south when things go bad so oh this is already expected failing of course my life is not supposed to work my life is not supposed to work if it works it's a hit or sometimes you see somebody and surely looks happy you want to know what he's on if he's miserable hashem you're miserable let's be miserable together my life is not supposed to work i'm not supposed to be success i'm not supposed to have a good marriage and i suppose a relationship with my children not supposed to have arch i'm not supposed to be powerful i'm not supposed to be gorgeous i'm not supposed to be potent i'm not supposed to be successful not me i'm supposed to be a slave um what was the semen that joseph told them what's pocket pakadati by shampaka dasara it's the concept of pakhoid is remembering that comes to avraham and sorry alike of ram out of absolute love that it's beyond any rational calculation unconditional love beautiful you've been at the urim long enough very good all right let's meet you're learning hello so when mushroom says hashem appeared to me it's not a question if you believe the guy is uh honest or not honest the shot is to internalize it to be a person could say i'm a sleek of hashem you could believe him but it doesn't do anything to you you don't find god in his words that's the vart because he's coming with daas and asaga rakbasha um his pocket it wouldn't work what it comes from is that they realize that there's a deliberate it doesn't have to fit in in a perfect puzzle and everything makes sense and rational so the person could accept the fact and make plays for the fact that right now if i'm just looking at one part of myself i am absolutely in egypt and i'm gonna stay there and it's gonna come back an hour later and a day later and i shouldn't expect anything else don't try to repress it don't try to deny it you know why because if you try the night and repress it all you're doing is you're causing it to emerge in different places it leaks out here and it leaks out there and you have to invest most of your energy in making believe that it doesn't exist or you have to invest most of your energy in eliminating the pain from the fact that this does exist and it's so painful and you have to numb the pain but what if you can accept it and you can accept it with all the pain i'm in egypt i don't know if the denial of the wrath might have to repress it i don't have to distract myself from the pain and i also don't need this to turn me into a slave because that very moment is to live and not because i'm not because i'm a sadiq not because i'm refined not because i understand not because i'm righteous because i'm a piece of god that's the i'm a piece of him the peace of him and every peace goes back to its tradition it wants its shitish and both exist simultaneously that's what yaakov and yosef told them this is going to be your gula and that's the key words pacquiao hashem said they'll hear that message they'll know they'll hear godliness they'll be able to connect to it they'll be able to relate to it he's talking about the spiritual ghoulis mitsuram which always comes together with the physical ghoulism so when he says what's your name hashem says which means you have he creates from the word hoya however you have a yeah he brings existence into the world brings existence it makes all the worlds be and every creature in the world comprehends it has a source it has a creator and it's it nullifies itself in the presence of its creator that's what avaya is the understanding and the awareness that a person has that the whole world is divine the challenge is this is all very nice when the person is in gulas mitsuram he sees nothing is divine all he sees is filth and dirt and slavery and subjugation and problems so when moishe says they're going to ask me what's his name how do we relate to this god you start talking to them about utk redefining their perspective on themselves and existence it may not be able to go in what they need to hear is pocket pakadati what is that name that name is alef hey judeh i know you're in the dumps and i'm there with you hey i'm there oh yeah i will be there with you i'm there that's all i asked you should just know in there i'm there with you and therefore at any moment you could come up says when a person realizes and starts behaving this way who taken up gambis this is how you're misakin everything connected to the bris all challenges in this area why is you have a home this is where you belong when you're thrown away from it you fall away from it you become detached from yourself from your true self how does that happen that's essentially what a life of dysfunction is a life of sin a life that's unhealthy a life of deception and especially it happens in cambridge are the intimate parts of life which have tremendous tremendous powers and appeals and a person over there can get so stuck in momentary distractions that give them pleasure and that's what we do to numb our pain that we're separated when i'm separated from myself it's very painful so what do i do i need numbers so you have a number called food you have a number called alcohol not the one here on the table by the khadalatevas but the concept you have numbers called gam you have a lot of numbers i'm not going to go out to kireichla i'm not going to go through every single number the biggest number is issues that are connected to the bris because of its power in kedusha therefore it also has a power of numbness so what does it do it more and more detaches the person from themselves what's chuva mesh of nashville you got to bring back the source to the soul to the source here's the issue when a person for years has become completely separated from their core through blemishing the bris you talk to them about returning they don't even know where to begin they're so far they have become such victims to this particular addiction they don't even know where to begin so therefore he says the whole thing they all give up on themselves it just never happens they run here they run there they run to this place that place this cave with this tick on this dylan they have as ghoul as ghoul as ghoulis every why does it make them mummy jewish because you're not dealing with the core he says if you can internalize this he's not coming and explaining reasonably and rationally that he's a good holy person he can accept he can accept all the pieces all the negativity all the lowliness he still has rooster delivers not his as long as it has to be his then who am i i'm this i'm this i'm a knife i'm not a knife the fact that he can accept that hashem put into him rooster the liber it's like almost he says you know i would love to sin i'll be hanished i would love to be not jewish it would be an amazing experience i get it i can accept that ain't a shalom it's not his god planted himself into him says vidyala maven when a person could realize this he'll realize he was never a knightful if he's tucker looking only on himself avadhi is a knife if he understands that where does jewishness begin it begins in the libra it begins in the pocket it begins accept everything that exists in you vanish this paul don't lie don't deny don't run create a container for it and realize that there's something inside of you that is larger than all of that and that's the ultimate tikkun and that's why it begins in parish mice which begins the ghoulish mitzrayim how through the words pocket pakada te ala ke of ram mashmoi what's the name the name is ekashareka i'll tell you a story about the ballet lula that's connected with this theme when you hear the story at first glance it seems it's a little s it's like what's the point but really this is the point is a profound point there was somebody once sitting in front of the tamartaderk was the grandson of the balatanya his daughter's son whose mother was a daughter of the balatanya rabbits and dwight raleigh she died for her father she died very young for her father so myself and somebody was sitting in front of the tamarik and he said he wants to tell him a story about his zeda she says that there was once a jew who wanted to give the belatania a gift so what did he give him he gave him a zilban a silver um snuff tobacco box and it was kessaf tsarov it was beautiful refined expensive pure silver and it was made for tobacco to be able to you know to schmeck you know what jews do you takes it from him and he says afterwards he says in yiddish he says in guru versus nishkim baltaiva there's one limb in the whole body that's innocent the nose the nose doesn't have major addictions nobody ever comes to school and says last night i sinned with my nose it was amazing the eyes the ears now there's other parts of the gulf the noses yeah and there's a reason for it it's prone in cabala sasuke says because in the ghetto it says that she saw the fruit so the eyes she listened to the snake so the ears she took the fruit so touch she tasted it doesn't say she smelled it so the raya remains from priyatsadas that's why matsuri shabbos we go out to the weekdays from shabbos through smell through summer that's why you'll see that the nose is not too corruptable i mean if you really try you could you could get involved with your nose also i'm gonna i'm not gonna start giving you ideas but but if you're desperate there's things you could do with your nose awesome some interesting things too but naturally it's to the about time you said there's one avid there's one limb what's his name what if he starts smelling he's going to start dealing with smackdown so he tells him so you said took the cover of the of the box at upgrading the deckle he broke off the cover and he used it as a mirror for his tv to be able to make sure that it's between his eyes that's the story so that's interrupted this man when he said yes they broke the cover [Music] on my grandfather wasn't capable of breaking not himself not other people and not even a box a silver box a silver object a lifeless object element the box probably had a hinge the hinge connected the cover the lid to the box so the zeida he took out the thread the hinge that connected the two so they were separated so you could use it through a mirror that's the mice guy was the poor guy was telling a story a stupid schmeck topic box broke off big deal not an issue of baltastras he didn't destroy it he used it fulfilling so it's not a problem of balthasas he broke it in this you have mcaulkel al-minas lasakin it has a kavanagh of tikkun soyamanas it's used for productive purpose so what's the problem and then he starts giving our whole mice he didn't break himself he didn't break others he was talking about breaking himself he's talking about us tobacco box so the rabbit the laboratory never once told over the story i said there's a story as i'll do something was saying something very profound what's villain what's the phil if you look at sukhana on your arm you dedicate your heart to hashem you put filling on your head you dedicate your mind shiva love how do you make somebody subjugate shibut shiba means avec avec how do you do it of course it has to come through breaking you have to break the person the person has to break himself you have to break your nature break your character break your personality and then you can become a godly person if you remain who you are you'll be here people who break themselves have to break everybody else too people who don't break themselves they don't break others too not even a diamond wouldn't even break a box lmi sometimes you have a hinge that connects you to something and therefore you can't fly what you have to do is you have to separate the cord that you should be able to soar and you shouldn't remain stuck and bound in shackles to the things that are connecting you that's not called breaking that's called liberating yourself it's never about shivering it's never about breaking the moment you hear yiddish kite that breaks you it's not yiddish guys if you come out of a conversation with a teacher with a parent with a rebbe you come out of a conversation and you feel broken you feel damaged that's not judaism ah either sky challenges you it's not to break you want to remove the thread that's holding you down and not letting you be free that you should be able to turn it into philip say even fill in with the shiba dala it doesn't come through it comes by understanding that sometimes if i don't challenge myself myself is not myself i'm completely bound up in chains to something so you have to remove the hinges to be able to free yourself up like a like a a a bird its wings are tied its wings are clipped you have to untie you have to remove the bondage so that that the bird can soar you're breaking it or you're actually liberating it you're freeing it that's why you said this is the side one of the assailants of teachings of the bansham and teach that in yiddishkai there's never there's no breaking you never break you don't break yourself you don't break your spouse you don't break your children you don't break you don't have to break people on the contrary you make people wholesome you make them realize their wholesomeness sometimes what you see in safari will use the word shredder what is it not to break it's to remove the so that the person the person should be able to uh the person should be able to store the person should be able to fly hey [Music] my a how do i experience how do i convey to them the experience of hashem the experience not the information now believe me i'm a great talk i'm a great scholar how do i liberate them how do i liberate them i understand that but it's a simple thing these days like for example someone might look at me and be like you don't wear the dogs how could you have anything to do with hashem and it's like a it's a thought from the outside but that's not judgmental fine that's a person judging you but they want it for themselves oh they asked him yeah i'm looking for the name you say what's his name okay i want to identify him i want to be able to to know him the name is how we ignore somebody rather if i don't know a name how do i relate to him we relate to people through the name tell me his name i want to be able to relate he's explaining it on a spiritual level not that they were not that he was scared they're going to think he's a liar that he's just making up a story that's he's going on a deeper level they knew this is an honest man they weren't they wouldn't doubt martial they also knew who he was his brother was iron his father was amrum he didn't come from a vacuum but vomiting so that's not for me yeah that's already a set this is not about him this is about them they're gonna say we can't relate to you you're not god's messenger for us you may be god's messenger but not for me you can't be might ever you can't be my rebbe you don't have a message for me you're a good guy you're a holy guy but uh the hostage with me you don't have anything with me so it's all true it's like he was like okay i want to help you all different this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyeshiva.net donate