The Greeks Said Everything Is Logic; The Jews Said Everything Is Love

we began in last year the mayamer of alhanissim vallaporcon valaguras of top shinhoff tess of the lava chair and we're hopped to if base the second paragraph the second section the focus of our class was that when our sages instituted hanukkah and they wrote to the prayers for hanukkah they described the miracle of chanukah as one of bimei mates is when the assyrian greeks stood up against the jewish people and they compelled them to forget your tithe and to violate the laws of your will and the rabbi dissects those words why does it say to make them forget all said no to make them forget you're tired the same is true in the next description it should have said aloha vera maha mitzvahs to make them violate the mitzvahs in fact if you read the history of chanukah you have it in se for hamakabim the book of the maccabees and other places where the chanukah story is recorded there were many mitzvahs that were outlawed and that the jews were forced to violate could have said but he says explains he bases this on a minor of his father-in-law and then develops it further that the ivannim actually the greeks many of them if we talk about greek culture and greek philosophy many of them were great intellectuals which is why hellenism was so attractive and appealing for so many jews because this was not just a group of barbarians even though especially looking back today at some of their practices they were quite barbaric but relative to the ancient pagan world the hellenist hellenistic culture came with the promise of progress an enlightenment and a tremendous focus on philosophy on the human mind the human mind was seen as the great zenith of existence they worshipped the great athlete the perfect beautiful aesthetical physique and body and the great mind the great philosopher the body and the mind just had something to it it has something to it aesthetics yoifi beauty you know what the magala amukus writes fascinating thing he says that the joseph joseph is begumatory antiochus the numerical value of yosef is the same like antijacuz and it's the same like melekhi oven the king of greece because they you'll soon see the context because they claim that yosef kavajakhal was the first hellenist jew learned from joseph he was integrated he wasn't a old stettle de keith he was ah he wasn't a parochial isolated man in a cocoon he was a renaissance man he spoke egyptian he ran the economy of egypt he dressed egyptian an egyptian garb learn from learn from joseph antiochus and malachi oven the word yavan is the same letters like the oven as greece with the same letters like no beauty nun viewed beauty the focus was on aesthetical beauty and an intellectual beauty remember that the greeks produced before chanukah some of the greatest philosophers that would inform humanity for thousands of years socrates socrates student plato plato student aristotle who was a tutor of alexander the great as a child and this is years before hanukkah remember that greece would create beautiful architecture art history they were the writer of history plays tragedies literature hammer etc and this was very appealing to many jews because jews had a great culture and a focus on the finer elements of life so this was very promising it was enthralling it was really a lethal attack against judaism i once read an article in the new york times about chanuke and the writer says he said i don't know why they celebrate hanukkah it was the victory of primitive fundamentalists against greek enlightenment he says what's the victory of khan why is it a celebration he says they were primitive zealots and they were fighting greek enlightenment yeah when i was reading it it was not easy to digest i don't know what greek enlightenment is when you're torturing mothers they would take mothers who had babies and gave them a bris and kill the mother with the baby i'm not going to describe how they killed them i don't know what's so enlightened about that what's so enlightening about torturing jews and what's so enlightening about murdering a mother and her seven children because they refuse to bow down to your idol so if that's enlightenment god protect us from enlightenment i'm laughing it's not so funny you know it's there were elements that were very appealing but certain elements in in greek culture and ethics it's not the subject of today's class but you can read about it we're grotesque beyond and we owe it to the judaic values that the west has emancipated itself from those behaviors including including that if a child is born and physically imperfect you let them die including the fact that elderly the moment you decide that they're not useful you leave them somewhere and you let them die pedophilia aristotle right the pedophilia is a wonderful thing that's what he says so it's important to put that info to you know not to start romanticizing greek culture and spartan life etc but there was a tremendous focus on intellect tremendous and therefore that ebba says taita they don't have a problem with tita why can't our university have a department of judaic myths or judaic faith or toyota they were fine they translated it into greek the septuagint to itself as an intellectual experiment as an intellectual exercise wonderful and if you even write a doctrine on it will publicize it maybe you'll even get the nobel prize even mitzvah she says many of the mitzvos are rational they would agree with the mitzvahs not all of them but many of them are rational he says you have the ada's the testimonials also rational that's why it says what bothered them with the the super rational mitzvahs those that don't fit in to the structure of the human mind what bothered them is the absoluteness of terror that is divine wisdom that is the is the will of the creator of the world the one who originates all of the wisdom the turner what bothered them with the khukem what bothered them was they have no problem with toyota as an intellectual exercise some brilliant ideas but i'm fine with that then it ever says it's even deeper if this was it they should have wrote such a beautiful insight i know the word beautiful is really uh works here because of the context the ivonneum or at least the inner greek can agree with hookum as well they can embrace hukham as well why because they can understand that some things are beyond my intellect today raufshanamiya diochema only a fool will say that i know everything fine maybe i don't understand that there's a reason i just don't understand it i'll understand that tomorrow in other words people can appreciate great intellectuals can appreciate the fact that they don't know everything even if they they believe that intellect is finite it's infinite in other words that everything is logic fine but my logic is certainly limited i still have places to grow so therefore in principle i can accept hook him as long as we'll investigate this and we'll try to figure out the reason but it has to be be based on a premise of reason so therefore even the greek inside of me could say you know what i'm an intellectual and i can understand that there are things that i still don't understand yet and therefore i'll accept it i'll accept the kaiko so either super rational it's super rational today but we'll figure out the reason somewhere there must be a reason i mean you guys are not stupid you guys are not crazy right so i want to understand the intelligence of it maybe not today okay i'll do it in a year and i'll accept it now furthermore furthermore that's even if you believe that everything is logic everything is larger but i don't have all the logic i don't have all the data newton believed that if you give them all the data in the world you could predict everything but we don't have access to all the datas i have to accept certain things okay but i can debate them tomorrow when i figure out that your premises were erroneous furthermore an intelligent person even grasps that logic itself is not everything logic itself requires certain premises that are illogical in order for logic to justify so he says okay i'll give in to that that they will agree what bothered them was the reason i do a hike is because not because of seiko but because of its rats because it's god's inner intimate will as long as you give me intelligent justification from a rational perspective i'll agree to toyota and i'll agree to hook him of course i'll agree to mashbatman what's bothering me is what's bothering me is just completely transcending cycle infinitely not just it transcends my cycle today or we need some foundation to have say to give sexual context you need to do some premises but that it's a relationship with something that it completely transcends logic and intellect and as i explained it's not that logic and intellect don't exist mitzvahs are the source of rationality and logic and many of them most of it is garbed and enclothed in logic but those are the facades those are the garments though the lavusham it's not the essence it's not the core they wanted to take away from the jews stop saying that it's learned it's intellectually brilliant and you can be dazzled by its brilliance and get stuck in its analysis and and the truth is it's hashem you're learning today but as long as i'm only learning tara and i'm completely consumed by its brilliance and its intricacy and that's where i remain that's it that's where i remain that what happens then i have not emancipated myself from the greek influence inside of me i remain a victim to the ivani i remain a victim to the ivani from the word noi foreign so somebody asked yesterday on the in the comments so why are there so many reasons for mitzvos and the rambam also says if you can give a reason give a reason and the rambam has a safe american avocado and in the third section he tries to explain most of the mitzvos and throughout the world throughout history many sfardim explained the rationale behind so many mitzvahs told of this very day and we do it in many classes so the balatanya writes about this in tanya nigeria sacred section 29. he says of course there are many mitzvahs for reasons but that's not the essence of the mitzvah the essence of the mitzvah is that it's in hashem it's the will of hashem that transcends any structure of intellect or logic because logic itself was created by the divine and therefore the god himself transcends logic infinitely however afterwards hashem chose that many mitzvahs should assume the garb of intellect but the intellectual justification of the mitzvos and even the intellectual dimension of toyota is a garb it's a levush in which the core of toyota and mitzvahs are dressed up and what is the core the core is the essence of hashem which is not defined by logic and i gave the long metaphor about marriage and relationships that you could listen to in last class i think it could be helpful when somebody says i'm going to have a relationship with you but the relationship is based on what i understand i have to understand everything explain my dear wife my dear husband explain it to me logically and then i can have a relationship but then i can accept it and even when i go to therapy and i'm mature and i say okay i'll do what you want but i want to really understand why you did not hit the spot you did not hit the jackpot you're not getting the point that's why the gomorrah says the madrid says hashem says i have engraved these laws you do not have permission to think after them so literally the world says what's means is you know what to think about it and everybody says no you now let it think after it what does it mean it's not talking about somebody who says i'll think about it if i understand it i'll do it no somebody who says i'll do it anyway but i want to understand it and he says you miss the point you'll do it but you want to understand you're not getting the point you're stuck in the philosophy of yava you're stuck in the idea of understanding let it appeal to my logic you don't have a relationship with the core energy that transcends and this was the opposition of the ivana so the balatonia says they're in tanya even when the mitzvahs and clothe themselves in a reason don't define it as a reason and that's what there's a good argument about mecia of doris thomas when there's a mitzvah can we expound on the reason and make allah is based on the reason so many of the sages say no the third doesn't give a reason leave it as is and don't start applying the reason and then deducing from that new laws if sherman says darius's time with the qra you can expound the reason of the passage and even when there is a reason and even when the reason that toyota gives explicitly even when what's the argument this is the argument according to one of you lloyda's time in the crowd because the essence of the mitzvos is not based on reason rip shimon says no that the hashem's will is garbed and assumes a reason even then it's not the essence and even when turner gives us a reason or others farim give us a reasons firearm of turner dalton says that's not the ultimate reason it's a certain aspect of the rationale that was revealed to us even in the world of reason itself there are layers and layers and layers and layers and it's really a reflection of the human soul because that there are reasons for many things we do in our lives there are logical reasons but to say that that is the core of it that's not the core of it as discussed yesterday and even that which we understand there's only one layer of reason there's deeper and deeper and it's a place where you're transcendent completely there's an intriguing madrid in the beginning of today that the greeks told the jewish people i want we want you to write down on the horn of an ox that you don't have a part in the god of israel in fact when the sages want to describe the darkness that befell the jewish people through the evonum through the greeks this is their description what did they do they told the jews right down on the horn of a knox that you don't have a part in the god of israel as he says in footnote 11 this is discussed in madras raba beresha's parasha base right in the first past the second passage of it so he says so the matter says do you say there is you have the gullus of egypt and the gullies of bubble and you have the the goddess of the gulles of uh of babel babylonia and then you have the gullies of persia and then you have the khalphim the greeks they brought darkness because they told the jews kiswa we want you to write this on the horn of a nak so you have it in benediction parachute based parsha design parsham why did they say write it on the horn of an ox why not write it on paparaz why not write it on parchment why not write it on the bark why not write it on other substances why did they say write it on the horn of an ox it's a very strange expression a horn of an ox the commentators struggle with this some even want to go so far as saying that the horn of an ox was sometimes used as a baby bottle like we have today a baby bottle they used to use the horn of a knock so in other words it was a very common instrument that was used in homes so they said write it on the horn of an ox in other words we want you to engrave this everywhere even on the bottles that your babies use to drink that you that you give your babies to drink with that's how much we want this notion this new ethos to be engraved in your lives write down on the baby bottles that you don't have a part god forbid in the lake surah but it's a very it's an interesting interpretation but it's somewhat difficult to say that's what the sages mean it sounds like somehow the evonum had something with the horn of an ox what did they have with the horn of an ox what's the connection of writing on the horn of an ox that you don't have a pardon god of israel to the idea that we say in alanis and what they wanted is they wanted to make the jews forget your turner and to violate the laws of your will and as we said the focus is reached not just also have a basis in seikol the focus is the russian they couldn't get their brains around the fact that toyota mitzvahs is rats and beyonce the toyota mitras is pure infinity of ellicos ain't safe and that even the intellect of toyota that's not the core of torah it's the garb of terror the core of torah is infinity and these were there's two ways of learning tita there's learning to that even when i'm learning and studying and analyzing the intellect and the pilgrim and the kiris and the dharam and the khalois and the mahalak and the schnitt and the governor and the hafts and the schneiden and the pile and the paul and the nifla and the taitsa and the mojos and together it's all there and you want to rack your brain and use your brain and dice analyze with your brain and be typhus and grasp it and cup it and develop it and that's all of us for ainseif it's a conduit for the infinity of ellicos and when you learn siddhis constantly you see this you see every sugi in gemara every mitzvah in rambam every mahalakanasi and toysvilus in rajab ramban ushana do so much cycle there dude so many intellectual paradigms and intellectual processes and and it's it's powerful it's profound it's brilliant and it's it's infinite in its brilliance but you see that every nekuda every idea is really a conduit it's a laversh for ainsof for pure infinity which is beyonce the same is true with mitzvos even when the mitzvahs have a beautiful explanation and they're enriching and they're satisfying and they're gratifying the nakuda of the mitzvahs what's the connection between that and writing on the horn of an ox that you don't have and more at length in the safer uh which is the mammarium of the satellite the grand s and he sees the face of the lion on the right he sees the face of the eagle the face of man on the left he sees the face of an ox pne says and the tsumaksa canara that when we spoke about we speak about the greeks we have to understand that the consciousness that exists often within the nations of the world and within the aspect of the nations that can be in the jew khalsa because receives its energy from the face of the ox but what do we mean in the face of the axe which aspect of the axe to carry the horns because the horns represents the external aspect of the ax itself we find halachus of being susceptible of receiving impurities the relationship of the horns and the hooves to the very substance of the meat of the animal is less even than the hide and what he's referring to probably is doesn't say clearly which allah is referring to but probably is referring to the we know that for for food to impart impurity if a food is impure this was extremely relevant in the time of the baby if a piece of bread or another food is impurity let's say a dead a dead mole or a dead weasel that mouse fell on it so it becomes impure we learned this at length and we were learning which now they're learning in the shirim of daviyami one of the hardest sections in gemara the end of the first period of massachusetts all the many of the laws of two men there are purity and impurity so if the eiffel becomes tame it can impart tumor to others but it has to be the size of a cabeza it has to be the size of an egg the volume of an egg what if you have the meat of an animal and it's less than a kebaza it's less but together with the high together with the skin it makes up that volume it's fine it's it's it imparts tumma and the reason is because the hide combines to the meat that's what the mishna says in in hulu and the image says you know what else could combine the hooves can combine and the horns can combine but rashi and tyson's both say over there and the rambam brings it and he'll cyclopedic dallas that there's two parts of the horns there is the part of the horn that's very soft because it's connected to the roots in fact if you cut it over there it will it will be bleeding but then there's the higher part of the horns the majority of the horns that are not really connected in any way to the meat and that of course cannot combine with the meat so when we say the hooves the hooves you have the entire hooves and they hide the entire hide when it comes to the horns they're very different than the skin so what do we see that ebba says that the skin is considered much more even though the skin is not the animal itself it's the heart it's the epidermis it's the covering of the animal but nonetheless it's closer it's more panemias it's closely more hierarchically it's more associated with the animal even than the horns so he says that the relationship of the carniem to the main aspect of the shirt is less than the earth less than the because it's only the part and the root the root of the carnarium where it would bleed if you cut it not the top that if you cut it there's no blood visel the greeks told the jews we want you to write on the horn of an ox hainu tsushigami israel yakabulum this was a metaphor hazal here spiritually speaking are conveying a profound metaphor what the ivana were saying the ivana was saying is go to hitsanius go to the horns start receiving your energy from the external facade of god not from the inner core nishamas israel the neshama of the jew is essentially rooted in the intimate premise of hashem we say in bereishis he blew into adam's nostrils a soul of life the whole creation is described as god's speech the neshama is described as god blowing inhaling what's the difference so the zayar says somebody who blows blows from the innards when i speak the energy that's being conveyed is a more that's being expressed is more external and that's why a person can go on talking for a long long time sometimes to the dismay of the listeners when an mc1 stood up and he introduced somebody and he says the following speaker doesn't need an introduction he needs an ending i can speak and speak and speak and speak look who's talking right what about blowing you have a tried blowing blow you blow the chauffeur how long can the kia be even at kia igbola at some point you're going to get exhausted because the exertion of blowing is far more than talking so the zaya says it's coming from your insides it's like a person when a person is screaming for example it's not like talking right it takes up much more energy a person is blowing it's from like your inside your inner heels until the blood rushes to the brain the face of the baltic air becomes red so blowing comes from the panemias what does it mean hashem blew in on a shaman to adam it means that he gave adam his pinemius the neshama is sensitive not to the kitsune is the whole world is godly energy the dna of the universe is divine energy and the most fascinating thing is that judaism always taught that the world is made up of god's words only literally only in the last 60 70 years and since the 1950s did secret science come to describe all living organisms as basically a sequence of letters because the genome the dna is defined in science as letters obviously the word letters is a euphemism it doesn't exactly have the letters that we're used to it but they define it as letters and a sequence of letters like a program's code and all of the living organisms are using the same dictionary it's one of the fascinating things of korea of the world right all living organisms are using exactly the same dictionary mamas from the banana to the chimpanzee from the human being to any bush they're all using the same dictionary because really the world is divine dna it's the dna that's organized by hashem and beneath the dna that we can pick up with our instruments you have the spiritual dna of divine energy but that's all called the dibur so the greeks were enthralled by science they were enthralled by physics because it's incredible it's amazing they came to the jew and they said mitzvahs yeah but the externals yeah but the externals take the horns the horns are very powerful the horns are majestic we'll soon see about the horns but the horns are the critcinus of the animal they're the external element of the animal they're not the premiers what was this a marshall this was a martial in the mir cover you have paneer sure but they want the karen neshama see sure all are rooted in the penemius i want the paneers i want the truth i want the inner core i want the inner energy not just the external silence of it is tells the jewish people at the end of his life in paris that his nation is part of hashem he says that israel is a helicopter that hashem is a reflection of utkavafke as he describes over there at length that the very identity of the soul reflects utkavovka and therefore the neshamas israel are not only rooted in the karen and the horn which is more external to the animal even more external than the hyde which is also external but they're rooted in the preliminaries and of course when it comes to toyota mitzvahs i'm not only typhus the logic of it i'm looking for the premiums of it and what's the beginning of it is that it's ain't so if it's all the course it's not about that which i could wrap my brain around and reduce it to the experience of my own logical structures and what does this mean in a relationship imagine somebody says i want a relationship with you but i only want a relationship with your horns i like your horns i'll hold on to your horns and i'll lead you by your horns or you lead me by your horns i want only with your horns maybe i'll give in for the ear for the skin but your core no no i'm not ready for that so the greeks say stay with the kid chinese and why do they want to stay with the kids because when you stay with the kitsinius you don't have to give up your ego when you stay with the kitsonis you don't have to have a real relationship when you stay only on the outside so then everything could be on your terms you're not really opening yourself up to the truth of infinity so therefore what do you need that for your whole relationship with god is too dramatic it's too exaggerated yes because it's not words it's the the inner breath in other words the soul senses the inner core of god that's the neshama that's what it is it has no choice that's what an hashem is on hashem experiences the inner core of hashem that is a hashem that is what it means to have a soul you say you have a soul that's what the soul is the soul's antennas detect not just the external energy that's manifested within the science of creation which in itself by the way is infinite but even more than that it senses what is divine breath in other words it's that which comes as explained in tanya in the second chapter at length he gives it the metaphor of a child and a parent a parent can create a lot of things including art which is beautiful you have a parent who's an artist a father mother an artist and they create a beautiful piece of art and it could sell maybe for 10 million dollars it may be in 100 years for 50 million dollars but you can't compare that to the relationship with their child this is a product of their talent of their brilliance the child coming from their dna from their genes their chromosomes are and spiritually the child is it's the core of the father and the mother it's the course the polymes even though the child becomes separate becomes a separate person their summit comes down to this world it's within a body but what is it it's the core of a lacus the evonum say you're too dramatic about it you're too you're too intense this relationship is too deep stick to the stick to the horns stick to the carnia of course which one of the jews is described as the horn of an axe you remember what does yaakov tell ya deathbed which is always read right after hanukkah what does he tell you of [Music] moshe compares joseph to the show to the axe and then he speaks about carne aim kind of the horns you see joseph is antiochus joseph is he's the first one who wrote on the horn of the ox that he doesn't want this bella that's why he says hey like don't be a helicopter enjoy the world enjoy the world from a distance be a spectator jesus you can't be expected or you're a player once you feel truth you're a player imagine somebody gets married saying i want a relationship with you but only to your with your external self don't go don't give me the intimacy i'm not giving you my intimacy you don't give me your intimacy okay once you sense what a relationship is you can't go there it's too diminished it's too it's too restricted once you hear the music there's no going back once you taste your soul what are you supposed to do make believe it's not there once you experience infinity there's no going back as long as you don't experience infinity you could remain stuck in your cocoon sometimes your whole life i could be a good you and i learn and i do the mitzvos but i never touched the music of infinity so i could remain there and i'm comfortable i can even become smug and judgmental and complacent but once you touch the helicopter beyond the horns so then it picks up a different relationship what is this in life in a person's life it's the same thing we spoke for example in relation with a husband and a wife or your relationship with any person who's close to you so i only want to do what i can understand with my logic what's happening you're reducing the relationship to a very external place within yourself and the part of the other person as well it's the kids my externalities focusing on your externalities it's like a relationship that is very superficial you know you have sometimes acquaintances and they don't know you you don't know them they judge you based on your superficial self you judge them based on their superficial self and that's where it remains the problem is when you're married to each other it becomes very frustrating and depressing when you can't go a step deeper so therefore when somebody says i only appreciate that which i can understand within you and even if i'm going to be committing myself to that which i don't understand but i have to ultimately understand the intelligence of it the intellect of it what are we doing we're stripping ourselves from the ability to touch the other person's core which is beyond sale as explained in yet in the previous year at length we are depriving ourselves from that ability we're limiting in a very we're sitting in a very restricted place in fact many people create logical structures around everything in their life in order to protect themselves from the pulse of life i don't want to touch the meat of life i only want to touch the horns i don't want to get dirty with the experience of life it's maybe too painful for me so therefore i become super logical and rational as a protective space to be and it's a very safe place because i believe that with rationality i can control everything i know what's coming i know what i have to deal with i understand everything the only problem is at some point i'm not alive anymore i'm not in so to speak i'm not in touch with the deeper elements of life i'm not open to the mystery to the infinity of life i'm not open to the mystery and infinity of my spouse i'm not open to the mystery and infinity of myself i'm not open to the mystery and infinity of my children i'm not open to the mystery and infinity of god and of the world and that's the ivani inside of me the greek inside of me who wants control they had the human being's brain as the zenith of existence he was the crown the crowning reality of creation there's nothing above me and then i am in control but really what is it it's kaiser the medium says the greeks it's dark you stay in the dark you don't see the real light they call themselves enlightened but it's really the epitome of darkness because the worst light is the light that makes believe it gives you vision as helen keller once said the only thing that's worse than not having eyesight is not having vision you hear about it the only thing that's worse than not having eyesight is not having vision and helen keller understood a thing or two about ice about not having eyesight and having vision she said once i read she wrote that somebody was went on a hike in the forest they went on a hike and they came back to her so helen keller asks this person this acquaintance and this friend knew how was it they said it was fine he said was exciting that was boring did you see or hear anything they said no helen keller said you went on a hike in the forest and you didn't see and hear anything he didn't see it or anything how dead can you be so this is the kissful of him it's a relationship only with the katani it's not what the polymers it's my brain needs to wrap itself around everything and therefore i can't get everything i can't even begin to get to the core of your reality and you see it so much in relationships when i cannot make space for your infinity and you cannot make space for my infinity and the reason i can't do it for you is because i can't do it for myself i can create space for it the moment you can create space for that which you don't understand in a genuine way you open yourself up to a deeper dimension in relationships this sentence i think captures one of the main truths being conveyed let's learn for another five minutes uh what does this mean what explanation of this the way it applies to a person's life in terms of s now we understand the whole war of the jews against the ivana the war of the jews against the evonum was defined by two words mysterious nephesh we say it in alanis you have delivered the many in the hands of the few and the strong in the hands of the weak in other words this was not a conventional battle between two sides that were proportionally balanced and equal and one side one no the entire initiative of the kashmir to defeat the syrian greek army was super rational it was based on a conviction and a faith and a resilience that transcended the statistics that logic demands in other words if you go statistically you say this is a battle that you cannot win stop it quit quit while you're ahead surrender the kashmir did not and that was the uniqueness of animals the greeks were strong they were weak the greeks were many you had maybe 50 000 troops first a few dozen and then a few hundred at most maybe a few thousand jews imagine a person is wrestling and you're wrestling it's a ratio of one to fifty it's impossible to win we once spoke about niseko and yeshua the different stages of chanukah chuoys nissim nephlias this was an s this was a miracle but the nest begins in their attitude their whole avoid that he says was one based on mesidis nephesh what does mesidis nephesh mean literally mysterious leverage means to give your soul here we're explaining the siddhis nephesh in its truest sense it never means to dedicate your soul in other words that the relationship is one in which i don't live only in my limited brain in which i can go above my brains i can go above my logic in other words i can open myself up to my own infinity which is rooted in god's infinity why was this necessary because this was the only thing that will allow them to defeat the ivana in other words what does it mean that the jews fought against the yvonne it means that they found within themselves a whole different experience of life and of judaism the exact opposite of what the ivana taught the euvonim thought judaism that is rooted in logic and intellect in which my brain can wrap itself around everything and i can understand it that they didn't mind what bothered them was that that they couldn't deal with taylor i'm good mitzvahs i'm fine i told you we're going to have a university a whole divinity it's going to be called the jewish divinity department and they'll learn everything in today and they'll do the mitzvahs too as why not it's cultural it's interesting stuff and some are good some are logical what bothered them was the terrorists what did they do they went to the other extreme the euvonim said even the you should do because there is rationality to them some of the hukum have glimpses of rationality or as we said earlier even if i don't understand today i'll understand tomorrow or i can understand that there are certain premises that i have to accept in order to be able to work within a logical structure they wanted that even the should be justified by my own intellect what was the war against the ivana listen to this that even the bottom even the part of yiddishkai that is absolutely logical they should perform not only because my logic says that it makes sense they should perform it because it's in hashem that's beyond so you see from one side it went to the other side they wanted that even the hook even that which speaks about rutsen should also be minimized and reduced to the structures to the limited structures of my brain so what did the jews do they did the exact opposite even they misspotted even those mitzvahs that are logical their focus was committing yourself to them performing them not because of the logic of it recognizing that the logic is only a facade even though it makes a lot of sense why certainly all the mitzvahs that are rash very rational mitzvahs that many societies would develop on their own mitzvos rational rational mitzvahs that our own healthy minds would conceive of even those mitzvahs they did with the passion and with the conviction and with the awareness that this is the pure intimate infinite will of god in other words even those mitzvahs that are so heavily garbed in the facade of logic they broke through the facade and they touched the infinity of the mitzvahs they were always in a relationship with infinity and that's what mysteriousness means i could live in a place of my irrational brain everything has to be understood and structured and defined by my logic and my structures which is usually an escape from the reality of life we usually do it when there's pain because we want to be in control and i can live in that space and then i have a lot of stress and anxiety from things in life that i can't control and all the curveballs that come my way that i'm not ready for because my brain has not been adjusted to it so what i do is i deny it denial i get angry i start bargaining and it's all based on the fact that i gotta fit it into some structure that's one way of living that's the evonum and even my yiddish guide becomes that way everything is this toilet there's mitzvahs is dirt and i do shabbos and i can even do the para duma and i can also have a milk inflation size of the kitchen i'm good i'm a good jew but the greek still lives inside of me i am a victim to the superficiality of hellenistic culture in the sense that i am not ready to open myself up to the infinity of a relationship because i don't believe in my own infinity what is mercedes nephesh mysterious nephesh is the courage every day to transcend the limits of my brain not because the brain is bad it's not bad we love the brain and we love thoughts and we love ideas and we love structures even this mime is very very structured but it's a conduit for infinity don't get stuck there the brain has to be used very often you have to be rational you're making a business decision be rational and you're learning a piece of commodity you have to use your brain to understand it and even to understand this we're using our brain to understand it but use it as a conduit when rationality needs to play a major role if somebody's stuck in delusions or somebody's stuck in a cult or somebody feels that judaism is completely unintelligent you have to use the rational elements of course in a relationship there's a lot that you have to use your rationality for you're planning a trip together or you want to buy a house or you want to move somewhere or you're choosing a vacation we use our segal but don't limit your life there it's a conduit it's a facilitator you don't say but our relationship is only based on what we can understand how limited how how pathetic how pitiful mr snefesh means i open myself up to infinity in other words i give over my nephesh my soul my soul is my core i i put into the relationship i'm not limiting the relationship to my own orbit which is small and very limited because the truth is my orbit is not limited my orbit is infinite so this was the war of the jews against the evonym it didn't start on the military battlefield it started in the soul the evonym said even should not be with it should be based on cycle it's the jew said and even meshbot will be ritsy nacha that even the mistress of mishpotem one should observe like him even the comprehensible mitzvahs that i do understand should have the same purity like the mitzvah it should have the same intensity of the religion even though i understand it why because i'm not getting stuck in the understanding element i manage to hold on to the connection with you and with the core of you which is beyond logic should be performed with the same pleasure and the same the light and the same geshmaq the same flavor like mitzvahs that are irrational so it's both ways in other words all the mitzvahs become one even the mitzvahs of mishpot i do with the experience of hukim in other words with a connection to the pure intimacy of god beyond logic and conversely so the mashpatra become like him and the khu can become like the mishpathm even the hook in which you would say are more what's the word more pressure burdensome because i don't really get it i really understand what's the point who needs it i have the same schmuck and hook him like i have a mishpot just like a mitzvah that i find amazing or beautiful or enriching and i would never give it up because it's geshmaq some people don't have such mitrals but many people have mitzvahs that they really find themselves there so you would say mishpatimar geshmaq but hook him you don't find yourself there it's like okay you do it you do it you got to do it you're afraid not to do it you want reward you educated this way you just do it then again you're missing the point the mesh bottom you do like the hook him and the hook and you do with the same geshmaq like the meshpata what's the geshmaq the geshmaq is the relationship of it and then the person has the ability that the rational soul can communicate this even to the animal soul that she's also engaged in it she also enjoys the hokey okay um it's explained that in every mitzvah there are two meditations there are two kavanas that accompany the mitzvah one is the kavana parathas the individual intentions and meditations that exist in each mitzvah as an individual mitzvah based on the theme of that mitzvah every mitzvah has its unique message its unique kavanagh the unique purpose of this myths and what it's trying to accomplish in yourself and in the world but then there is a general meditation which is generic for all the mitzvahs what is that the relationship with hashem's essence and that's the bracha we see both in the blessing before every mitzvah i'm about to put on phil and what do i say barakata the last two words are unique to twilight sometimes it's the villain sometimes it's sometimes it's afrashes sometimes it's mitzvah or ishmael scheifer but that's the end of the blessing what about the introductory words he sanctified us so he betrothed us through his mitzvahs and he commanded us and then we discuss what that preparation is equal and uniform for all the mitzvahs that what what am i doing i'm going to go i'm now engaging in something something that the divine creator instructed us he instructed me he commanded me this is something that includes all mitzvos mishpatim ades hokem the rational one the super rational ones even the most rational ones i'm engaged here in the fulfillment of hashem's rats and this is what he wants this is what he told me to do this is the husband and the wife sharing with other things this is what i want this is who i am you may understand it you may not understand it even that which you understand is only a garb and even that which i understand is only a garb even the person themselves who understands their will it's not as deep as the will itself it's the garb of the will that's the kavanagh clovis and every mitchell that's the concept called kabbalah what's kabbalah means i'm in a relationship with you i'm in a relationship with your essence how is that expressed today it's expressed in one way tomorrow may be expressed in the opposite way today it's bottom tomorrow it's ada's the next day it's it's not defined by the nature of the mitzvah it's defined by the essence of the relationship which will be manifested in many different mitzvahs some i'll understand with my mind and somehow understand less with my mind so i understand a little bit some i won't understand today some i won't understand that's fine and then there is the individual kavanagh of every mitzvah the kavanaugh protest so when we make a bracha we prepare and we engage in this awareness this is a mindful an act of mindfulness really tuning in to what i am about to do and that gives it a whole different flavor a whole different geshmak because you're being opened up to this type of relationship the balatanya says in peric told the jews who were going to entertain israel to reach ma twice a day which he tells them to read at night and in the morning and whoever didn't say shema today yet and he didn't have him yet make sure to say shema before the time is up so he said to do twice a day who is he saying it to to the generation that's going interesting because he says this is safe at dwarim at the end of the 40 years right before he passed away the last few weeks and what is the beginning of krishna to accept upon you the kingdom of heaven with mysterious nephesh with all your soul asks them at that point god will instill fear in all your enemies so that the conquest will be smooth and easy so what are they what does they have to tell them about messier snappers they have to be ready for self-sacrifice they didn't need self-sacrifice he told them he promised them over there in particular right there the next parties that your fear and your dread god will inculcate within all of the enemies and therefore nobody is going to stand up like you seats even nobody's going to stand up before you so what do you need self-sacrifice it's an easy conquest that's what moishna beno tells them right after that so why twice a day do i have to commit myself to sacrifice my soul for you why if you're in a time of war in a time of conflict you make a vow i'm going to give my soul but it's it's going to be peaceful it's very peaceful so the balatanya says he says something very very powerful and this is the point even in peaceful days you have to remember the nakuda of messier's nephesh in other words life has so many challenges and life has so many temptations and life has so much brokenness that a person always has to remember and i have to do this every single day once in the morning and once in the evening i have to remember where my so my deepest commitment lies what really matters to me what are my innermost values you'll say but it's peaceful times but even in peaceful times there are the enemies within there is the toxicity within there's the trauma within and there are all the temptations and challenges from a world around me what allows a person to be able to remain connected to the deepest forms of their relation to the deepest relationships that they have with themselves and with their loved ones and with hashem it's remembering this messiness never ever define the relationship only in an external fashion and reduce it to your brains but remember your bahal nafshakha remember that you are a piece of infinity and remember that your soul is rooted there that's who you really are that's your polymeous your khelik your relationship with god is not just a brainy one your relationship with god is at your core it's at your essence it's at your soul and therefore don't go so you don't understand everything don't be a victim of your brain again we love brains i don't want that people should misunderstand this somebody wrote to me a whole email we're an intellectual people you think that ever didn't know they were intellectual people of course we're an intellectual people but what makes us such an intellectual people that we're not stuck in the trappings of intellect because when you're stuck in the trappings of intellect you're not so intellectual anymore ultimately you lose your relationships you don't have to be a victim of your limited brain so i don't understand your relationship is deeper that's what mysteriousness means but seriousness in a very practical way even in the most peaceful times is the concept of trust i don't have to control the relationship the relationship is safe you're seeing you're soothed you're secure in the relationship you're good you don't have to define it intellectually you're good what what what does it mean that a your child has a good relationship with you you have a good relationship with your spouse what does it mean it means that if somebody asks you somebody you really love somebody who loves you asks you how you're feeling you could just say how you're feeling even if it doesn't make sense and they make space for it they don't need you to say well i'm not feeling well i'm i'm not in a good mood why i don't know oh so stop it you don't do that i can make space for all parts of you in other words this relationship can be trusted so you say i don't understand what's happening this is happening that's happening and you feel god has abandoned you the relationship is safe it's intact you don't have to be afraid of it you don't have to feel that if you don't understand something it means you're not being protected what does david malek say even when i walk in the valley of the shadow of death i'm not afraid because you're with me i'm not afraid this relationship is good it's safe it's wholesome mysteriousness means you could surrender your soul you don't have to be in control i love being in control because i'm afraid if i'm in control then i own the relationship he says it's bigger than that maeshrabenu says you could surrender your soul you could surrender your soul because it will not fall into the abyss it will fall into the divine embrace so therefore you don't have to be afraid that you're going to lose everything so but i don't understand this but the relationship is more powerful than understanding you create space for your loved ones even in those aspects that you don't understand they create that space for you same is true in our relationship with life in a relationship with hashem our relationship is even in the mystery so i don't understand so god is inviting me into a relationship where i don't understand him and where i can open myself up to those places where i don't understand myself that's what ideas i could i could i could surrender my soul i could be comfortable in surrendering i don't have to hold on to it i don't have to hold on to it tight i don't have to define it i don't have to control it i don't have to sculpture it and make sure it's experiencing certain parts of life i could surrender it to the infinite mystery of life that's the malhama of the jews against the evanum they say and the jew says the exact opposite even the logical toyota is terror and even the logical mitzvous because ultimately the mesh bottom and the hook can become one this concludes if gimbal of the mimer hashem tomorrow thursday morning 7 30 a.m araf hanukkah will complete this mimer for chanukah nissim so they say right on the horn of the ox karen asher they want the jews to stay connected to the karen husher and they blame joseph they say joseph was the first person of course they don't understand that by yourself it was the exact opposite joseph didn't start with the horns the ice have started with the panemius and he brought it into the kasainis it's very different joseph was not a confused soul joseph was an integrated and wholesome soul joseph was not afraid of his emotions joseph was somebody who integrated the diversity and saw it all as an expression of oneness so the exercise today is what's the exercise today that his eyes today is if i can have mysterious nephesh what does mysteriousness mean barak hashem we're living in the united states of america in 2020 not like the jews in the times of the unnamed we're going to light hanukkah candles by israel hashem in peace and tranquility even though we have our challenges and we have our dangers and we have our anti-semites roaming the world quite with a lot of chutzpah but still you can't compare the blessings that the jewish people have today to the challenges of previous generations in terms of persecution even though we have seen recently in recent years an uprising anti-semitism which is horrific and scary but nonetheless we were given the opportunity in our generation to practice yiddish in freedom and liberty in ways that were unimagined in previous generations but mysterious nephesh doesn't only mean i give my soul that i'm ready to die sometimes living with mercedes-nefesh can be also difficult it can also be challenging it's a different type of challenge the exercise is can i really surrender my soul today to infinity to the infinite embrace of hashem do i have to hold on to it do i have to control it or can i allow my soul to be surrendered to the infinite love and embrace of god that i don't have to understand everything i don't have to reduce it to my intellectual capacity but i can really allow myself to be open to the divine mystery of life and trust in the relationship trust that i give over my salt hashem he won't abuse it he'll embrace it he'll caress it and i'll have alignment with who i really am so that's our exercise for today my dear friends and for tonight and it's a good exercise every day as he says that's why we say shema twice a day what's shema shema is this moment with all my soul what does that mean there were times in history it meant that jews had to make the ultimate choice and it's unbelievable what they did unbelievable that's why we're all here but in our times what it means for each and every one of us is i could be sitting in the comforts of my own home or the comforts of my own office or the comforts of my own backyard when i say krishna i want to really be able to open myself up and surrender everything within me including my expectations and my traumas and my fears and my insecurities and my need to survive and control to the absolute infinite love that's available in the depths of life and in the depths of the relationships of relationships i wish you all my dear brothers and sisters a beautiful uplifting inspiring wholesome integrated day see you tomorrow 7 30 a.m let me take a question or two how does one really do this how does one really engage in this act how do you get to this place so that's why he says that's the concept of kriya shema in other words it starts with a firm decision and resolution that no matter what my day brings i will live with the perspective of my infinity and hashem's infinity and then all can change i think so very often it's really a decision it's a commitment it's a it's an inner you discover that value in you and that conviction in you that i know a lot of things can happen today things that i expect and things that i can't expect things that i understand and things that i can't understand things that maybe shatter so many of my expectations and dreams but i'm going to live with the perspective of my infinity i'm not going to reduce life to my expectations and i'm going to live from the perspective of hashem's infinity and then actually you'll have a beautiful day because you'll see it in a different light you'll see it in a different perspective now there is often pain that you have to accept here because the transition from the ivany model to the divine model is a painful transition and that's where i have to release it with tears i have to i have to acknowledge what we call grief i have to acknowledge that i'm transitioning and this is so important always i always emphasized especially recently the compassion that's necessary when you make transitions and you have to have that it's called mira do not step into this with a place of judgment and cruelty to yourself you have to step into this with a space of compassion which means the fact that i may not be ready for it is tough it's difficult the mimer is challenging us to make a paradigm shift that's painful if my personal trainer comes and says i really want you to lift in ways that you never lifted or run in ways that you never ran or exert yourself in ways that you never exerted yourself or my chiropractor is ready to really crack that back in ways that it was never cracked before in order to allow the chios to flow down from the brain all the way down the spine you see the bar and i'm a good student i heard it once and i got it the key is to flow down right that crack and you know you you become uptight and what does the chiropractor tell you relax relax relax my camera like you have to have compassion relax relax relax you idiot that's what you relax you it's compassion compassion you've been living i've been living in the greek model in the ivani model i'm going away from it but it has to be done with sensitivity to appreciate the contrast and there's a pain there there's a pain there there's a fear there that's why moshe has to tell the jewish people don't be afraid don't be afraid god is going to be with you they always want to run back to egypt right stockholm syndrome battered woman syndra i want to go back to egypt i want to go back to the familiar place where i know the misery much better than going into the unknown so there's a very important need to acknowledge that drama to acknowledge the difficulty of that transition i know this is a lot of questions i didn't uh i didn't do yet but we'll get to it bazer hashem tomorrow morning we're going to learn 7 30 am and i hope basic hashem that will be able to finish the mimer at least finish it on one level everybody have a beautiful beautiful anatsloja de kade brachavats by the way yesterday's women's class was based on this mimer i took the mimer and i tried to develop it so if you want to understand it a little more you could listen to yesterday's women women's class on the yeshiva.net which is titled stop trying to understand your life i wrote that title yesterday at uh one o'clock in the morning because i wasn't understanding anything look somebody asks a question is this connected to bittoken is this connected to bitarchan i think it's very much connected to batacan what is is creating a space of trust that i am a creator i'm not a victim right we say good video think good and it will be good in other words i'm not just a victim of reality i'm an active partner in reality and that's the trust the trust is i'm not this nebuchase who's being run by all these random or divine forces and i'm just being schlepped by the thunderstorms and by the tsunamis of life and by the hurricanes and i could just sit and you know surrender but is much deeper than surrender there's surrender that comes from weakness there's surrender that comes from strength it's recognizing that you are divine you are a partner with hashem you are an aspect of infinity so you tell hashem let's go with this together i'm surrendering my need to be limited and i'm going into your infinity and let's go together and plow through plow through life with courage faith and most importantly joy remember my dear friends today whoever you meet instead of looking to them as a source for you to receive love you become a source of love you become an ambassador of love and light and hope and healing to all the people you meet and i congratulate all ambassadors in training i also congratulate all junior ambassadors for those who already graduated training and already into junior ambassadors even though this we never graduate everybody have a beautiful day an animal is not a person but people sometimes have deep you know kellov is kool-aid lave right man's best friend it's a different type of course it's not the same it's not the same you