Torah Ohr Va'era "Vayidaber" #4 | How Do You Know If You Understand Chassidus?

[Music] okay thank you good morning everybody please download your source sheets or open up your source sheets on the yeshiva.net the will continue now inside um uh so [Music] i [Music] my everybody good morning to one and all thank you all for joining us this special morning pai alef the first day of shevat 5 7 81 january 14th so just before we begin a few little announcements tonight the azer hashem 9 30 p.m i will be there will be an interesting program i'll be interviewed by uh the jewish platform my friend rabbi baruch i this will be tonight streamed live on the yeshiva.net 9 30 p.m um it's a interview an interactive interview with yours truly with me again that's this thursday night 9 30. you could see it live on the yeshiva.net or watch the replay but azer hashem sunday morning we will have our live class at 9 30 am continuing the fourth segment of basilagani topshin khafalaf pasillagani 5721 the special mimer of by the laboratory set 60 years ago friday night yuchabat and we 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or to watch it live let's continue now the mimer inside you recall what we have been talking about if not you could learn the previous shiurim we already did three shoot them on this mayama vaidhava lakim he spoke at length the difference of elokim and havaya really they're one but from our perception and experience there are these two streams of consciousness elokim plurality havaya oneness a la kim is the only name of hashem that changes according to the individual ani hashem right we don't say in the plural singular i'm your god alaikim is always about you you alike why because a la kim presents the personal experience of hashem the individual experience of energy of consciousness that every single never every single created being has in its own unique distinct way and no person can be compared to somebody else there's the flow of divinity that vibrates through your being your dna your existence your soul your mind your brain everything which means every person has his or her three hundred and ten universes as dalton rabbis discussed that's ali kipp that's the ray and the ray of the could be you know sub differentiated it's differentiated into diverse categories and not just diverse infinitely diverse categories and subcategories and sub subcategories amazing the ear la cano remember that's the godless of eli kim havaya represents the actos pre the differentiation the sherish of everything the root of everything where it's all completely one for my mother could come many children i remember at the funeral of my grandmother she passed away 12 years ago in her 90s she was 94. and i was looking around in the cemetery as they interred her into the earth it was raining it was friday before close to shabbos it was from the short of fridays it was the month of shivat and my grandmother was at that time at least short and frail and whenever i remember her she was she was a short lady and and relatively frail so to speak even though internally quite strong and then i looked around and i saw hundreds of descendants that came to say goodbye and bid farewell to their mother grandmother great-grandmother or great-great-grandmother at that moment as i shed a tear i also was marveling at the fact of what came from one woman all from one woman and her husband of course it's extraordinary when you when you come face to face like how did that happen like where did all these people come from and diverse people literally hundreds i'm not exaggerating can i inherit kanye she was a holy woman a very righteous woman so it all comes from one but then it becomes differentiated you know so the mother sees it all as one she remembers when it was still in her womb even before it was in her womb but then it becomes differentiated into separateness i'm just giving this muscle to understand this duality and the bellatania said and this was the the final piece of last week of last year that the experience of emotions always come from eli kim you can only get to the ab of hashem s um is my experience of the divine i'm in love i'm an or this means there's something of you that i'm experiencing that's triggering this love or this reverence of this or this inspiration this desire to be close with this feeling of of absolute i'm awestruck in your presence that's can only be done when hawaii is filtered through the channel of allah by dabria don't think it's different ali kim is all an aspect of hashem and ni hashem ultimately eli kim comes from hawaii and brings you to hawaii and there has to be the yiku to remember the oneness of a via nalike as dr ebb explained and we discussed in the previous shoot let's now continue inside if you have the title area of the source sheets it's page 112 or in the toyota 8 it's column 3. the paragraph started we're middle of the page the line starts [Music] after he explained that the ability to be able to have meadows to be able to have an emotional experience for aerial avraham jacques which represent the three meters love or and compassion empathy and that ability to be able to experience the error to be able to experience the divine to be able to i showed up i revealed myself which means to be able to experience hashem either through the channel of love and awe and compassion is only through vaidhavilla kim al-maishway mera lovani hashem through the yearhood of havaya continues that all the love that we experience from below its primary purpose is to be able to reach a space where we should experience the divine love which is far more fundamental in other words there is the love that i can experience from my own initiative but that pales in comparison to the love that hashem gives me and to the all that hashem gives me some recovery that the others with america with the chariot the chariot for hashem what does this mean that to the love that comes from above in other words you have that that i a person can really try to arouse and create from their own initiative from their own life's experience and that's amazing but it's only a preparation for the ava that comes from above that's a whole different experience in other words there is the emotions that i can create from within myself which is powerful but that's always limited to my own experience to my own understanding and then there's when hashem shares with you the ava when he when there's there's a glow there's a rady there's a revelation of ava that comes from above that has an infinite quality to it okay says continuously traveled from a lower space to a higher deeper space until he came to hanegba hanega literally means the negev which is south however he touches deeper and deeper to allow himself to experience the divine love shatthishra love malmo allowing himself to be a mir cover to be a chariot to be a vehicle that hashem's love should rest upon him like a royheev on the merkava arajev is the rider markov is the chariot which carries the rider for example somebody is horse riding somebody's a horse rider so he is the royche and the horse is so to speak the vehicle like the car the channel the chariot right sometimes you're sitting on the coach and the wagon that's called mercover a chariot the wagon that's my cover right so avraham of inuha of a saint in america to be able to experience the divine love like the rider riding on the horse the rider riding on the chariot on the merkava and the makov is just a conduit just a channel so this is already a whole different type of ava it's not just my experience it's that i am a channel to experience the divine love the divine love to me god's love to me and therefore my my love to him that's the gift of avalyan avivir and that's what hanegaba is nagba is considered love because it's the right side the passage says in tehillim pay tests suffering suffering is the north yemen the right is called the dharam south nagpa why is it the right because from the east misra from where the sun rises right so south is on the right and north is on the left right if i'm facing miserable this is misra for example i'm looking in your direction this way if this is the e so then this will be negev dharam which is the south and this will be itself which is the north of course from the west will be the opposite so therefore nagba is called yemen because when you're facing the east south is on the right and the right is associated with the with the climate in the south this says we have a principle that arousal from below creates an arousal from above is in order for there to be the flow from the love above the infinite love above you need avoid of a person you need arousal from below the question is how can this infinite love dwell and be manifested within the finite human being how can that be what can allow this love that's so powerful that's so infinitely intense coming from me cerusa de la ela from above which is ain't safe how can it dwell and be manifested in the soul of a person which is finite a person has created yeshmiah in the alzheimer's that's why the pasta continues the kale shin dala dude there's a new name introduced after avaya and eli kim he introduces shindala dude which is i'll say um he told his world enough that the universe was expanding expanding expanding expanding would have expanded ada infinitum until asham said slow down it's a fascinating teaching of the sages thousands of years ago because of the you probably know the theory of the expanding universe so what does this mean there's something called shaddai hashem um i die he told this world enough don't expand too much what does this mean spiritually mr palatana says this kill shaddai is the link between the avalyan the aerial of ramalitsukval yak i will appear to have roman meaning i will appear in your love and in your own in your compassion how does that happen through when we speak about his world he told his world enough what's his world the posix says in tehillah that interpos what does it mean literally the world is built through kindness through love love is the foundation of the world it's the structure of life which is a very very powerful passage that love is the glue of life it's the essence of life the world is built through love that's the fuel of life love relationships connections connection on a deeper level a llama represents god's love because the world is based on love so ilama his world represents hashem's love um i die means he tells his world he tells his love enough you have to channel yourself to be able to be experienced in the human soul you can't be too intense and too overwhelming that a person will not be able to experience it opius what does it mean the world is built with hasset ibon binyan the same is true with hassan it has to be built leah's never biased that the neshama should be able to dwell there so alum doesn't just mean that the world was built with god's love with god's of course it means that too hashem built the world through love but then it should have said even itself is built the quest itself not just the oil is built through oil itself has to become opinion it has to become a place where you could live love is a place where you can reside if the love is infinite i can't live there my soul can't live there for my saltability you can't live in an infinite home you need a body as a structure that your soul feels safe in it is the love of hashem to you is so infinite that it's impossible that the soul can dwell in it the love is so beyond limitation it's inside and to experience that love for me to be experienced hashem's love to me and to be able to experience my love to him it's in scythe so the soul can't live in that home it's not a place where i could live you know you come into a house you got lost you need to have a house that suits you that somehow fits you even though a house doesn't have to be according to your size we learned about the house being macrophagic but nonetheless for my soul to live in that ava i can't it's ain't safe there has to be some sum the love has to go through some filters some restrictions for it to become an islam what does it mean for it to become an island for there to be a concealment island comes in the word helen concealment a concealment of the ordained serve so that the love can actually become a home which is a structure and that only comes from the configuration of bricks which we said is the configuration of letters you remember two sprigs build two words isis are called avonem bottem are homes that are built from a combination of bricks in other words it has to come through isis so allah represents the fact that hashem restricts and channels and filters and condenses and compresses the infinite love so that it should be able to dwell in the human soul and the human soul should be able to dwell in it i should be able to become a chariot to be able to experience hashem's love that experience requires many many tims chest it has to be built and this means it has to be concealed it has to be filtered it has to go through oil in order for it to become opinion through letters which letters represent the differentiation of an idea through some remember we spoke about the idea itself transcends letters and then the letters represent the filters through which the idea is condensed and then every soul can experience this love you can't compare it to the love the way it is in its pristine essence in atsmus that's the you have to be able to know how to flow in a way that is suitable to the soul for allah now we understand the 310 worlds hashem is going to bequeath everything 310 worlds shin yood is the same letters like yesh there is i in which means nothingness which means no thingness and there's yesh which means somethingness commercial cost of yesh is because of the numerous restrictions and the descent of divine energy through many levels the infinite love of hashem can be communicated in a state of yesh in other words that the souls can receive it and absorb it and bask in its radiance hashem is going to give that sadiq ah that's what he's going to give them you know what he's going to bequeath them more than anything else the gift of love the ability to be able to experience the love the love of the world the love of hashem to us and to me and the love that we have tasha that's the ultimate experience the experience of the love of the connection that's usually you explain the passage he's going to be i'm going to bequeath to my friends to those who love me i'm going to give them many worlds he says no that is what he gives. he gives love because they allow themselves to open themselves up to the love through their own away and they can become and recover like avraham avenue to the divine love this revelation is called islamists why because the world is built through love and because this love has to go through concealment for me to be able to experience it so he's going to give every tzaddik oil world worlds means concealment the love is going to be concealed and that's why it's called a yeash shin yud 310 which is the age the ava has to come from a state of i into a state of yesh so i should be able to live with it i should be able to live in it and it should be able to live inside of me if it's iron if it's nothingness i can't experience it because we are created from intjs so we only know about the yesh we experience everything through yeash not through so that's why the love has to become a love of yesh forza in other words restrict the love then i can appear to avraham it's a kenyak of meaning i can appear in the middles of a person with the divine love and the divine awe which is always the primary emotion far deeper than your own emotion it's the emotion that you get as a gift from heaven [Music] you says what the pussac is saying is not just if you listen to the mitzvos that hashem gives you to love him can you allow yourself to experience the love of god to you the love of usher have you ever experienced unconditional love in your life have you ever experienced what it means to be loved if you haven't experienced what it means to be loved it's very hard to experience this because we don't even know the vocabulary we don't know the experience we don't know the sensation this is not cliches this is not words this is a very very deep transformative moment can you really feel love do you allow yourself to feel love you know sometimes it takes a lot of work some of us have too many fences too much resistance to be able to feel the love iron you understand what i'm saying is not just saying god says to love to open yourself up to the love can you open yourself up to the love you know sometimes we see it with people somebody can love you very deeply but i'm not open not open to it and therefore i actually accuse them of butting into my business of breaching bowed trees the love becomes traumatic because i don't know how to receive it this is very very powerful stuff and that's why it should have said you should love god says in hebrew there's something called paul yuetse paella means it's not which means as he says the most important thing is to open yourself up via haftas to open yourself up to the divine love that's why the words that's used is not the word that represents human action but rather the human risk human being becoming a recipient via hafta la ahava this is what paella says means that the main purpose is to be able to open yourself up to the divine love for whom this is what the posix says in malachi the last prophet malachi parikh al of pasek base hashem says i love you i have to ask him i love you this is the foundation this is the main love the main love is to be able to open yourself up to the divine love to you and that divine love is constant that divine love is absolute and that divine love is unwavering but there's so much static there's so much interference to be able to experience that especially if i haven't experienced this type of love as a child so i don't even know what it's like for you with both of your inclinations sahara because when you have only a limited love that comes from your own initiative then it's a hurricane opposite once you experience the haftas once you open yourself up to the ava of hashem then he says you know what happens the heart melts away like doing like like wax you ever saw butter that melts in a frying pan or wax that melts in a frying pan completely melts away from the love such a powerful love the atari also melts on arousing your own love and your own or your own experience from below you go deeper and deeper into yourself once krishna comes this is already a deeper state of consciousness you open yourself up to the ava from hashem and then it's and then it's open yourself up to that love that's why before krishma what do we say ahavas that's the love of hashem that's the blessing that they instituted right before krishna and the word love says in that bracha seven times if i'm not mistaken today by davening you'll take a look ah i believe the word the verb love is mentioned seven times in the blessing it starts with ava it ends with ava but when you say today or avaraba you could stop take a deep breath meditate get stuck on those words and allow yourself to experience hashem's love to you even though they're static in my life and there's stress and there's anxiety and there's things that are bothering me and i have a lot of responsibilities and duties but can i really really go into that deepest place and say avas or if you want to follow the ashkenazic no you could say avaraba but that's not so relevant if it's avas ilam or but we learned entire earth focuses you love us with eternal love avas islam or avaraba with abundant love because there's no satisfaction so therefore when i could say avas oil then i can really open myself up to the oneness of shema and then but now the altar ever continues [Music] this is all to experience the experience of love and awe which is already havaya being filtered through elokim as he explained before that he came here to shamayim creation is a convergence a partnership of shame avaya and shemalakim because havaya which is oneness undefined infinity is filtered through elokim through differentiation you remember through isis so they could be any experience of love or or aval [Music] itself in its pristine purity pre it coming and being revealed and communicated and filtered through the mid-eyes in other words havaya which is the source and the root of all existence and it's the source of life loin i died lamb this could not be experienced naidayti means das das is intimacy it could can't be experienced in the soul because of a cerusal assata because the arousal from below so the aniha of the utkevke the obvious experience what do we mean the others it's a metaphor the utkevke that you experience in your middays came through a symptom through a concealment that's why it's differentiated to each saddik but shmi havaya the name of yudkevkay beyond restriction beyond even coming through shame allah kim this can't be experienced because it can't come from me seriously from the arousal of below because my experience is always in the zivas itself is experienced because as we say in the blessings before mitzvahs he betrothed us or he he sanctity fight us through his mitzvos hashem in other words hashem does all the mitzvahs it's his mitzvahs when i do a mitzvah i'm being i'm becoming connected with his mitzvah it's his mitzvahs it's his own will the talmud and the mission says emperor was saying in the morning learning of torah is equivalent to everything because it's his mitzvah and it's his title the source of torah is lamaylah my legs deeper deeper deeper in hashem's essence so when i connect to termitres what am i connecting i'm connecting to hashem himself this is his own inner intimate self that's the value of the power of terror and mitzvos in other words it's not only the filtered light that comes into the world which allows for the consciousness of the created being it's not even the ziva shrima that comes into are his own even when he's alone beyond the world's allah say pre-creationist terror amateurs that's why it says in ecclesiastes in the beginning what is the advantage for a person with all the toil that he toils under the sun says desire shinier eyes tighter is different because the toilet is beyond the sun in other words kahelas is lamenting and saying people work and work and work everything that we do under the sun meaning on this planet earth it's it's mortal it's futile it doesn't last it's transient you know take it easy don't take yourself and your work so seriously so the desire says that's the work under the sun but the um the toil of tyra this is above the sun what does it mean literally it means above the sun meaning above our planet and even above outer space above the sun it comes from a higher place says dalton but what does this mean petersen as we said in the beginning of the mimer hashem eli kim is the sun and the shield so literally it's explained that hashem and eli kim gives the light and gives protection although it says no shemesh is hashem hawaii el kim is mugging just like the sun needs a sheath a shield to protect us from its intensive heat and electricity and warmth to be able to filter it that's what ziva the ray of the skin is as explained in the beginning of the maya so everything is everything in the world everything in life the highest level of consciousness comes from the shemesh which is hawaii coming through the mughal which is alakad and all of our toil is all my spiritual work and physical work even the work of merkava the work of the medias that we explained before it's all it's all from the flow of the sun that comes through the mughal which is hawaii being united with alicia but the zodiac says this is it's beyond havaya coming through elokim because the shemesh always comes to a mugging but this is shimsha this is from hashem himself hashem's pure oneness upon him face to face what does it mean punishment face to face there was no live worship no simpson no channel no filter no eliquid no mugging it's not to shemesh the way it's coming through the manga it's face to face upon the peninus of hashem and that's why it says the beginning of a series we're going to run there is anointing before hashem before the to something called beyond names beyond even utkevke which is being communicated through ala kim beyond the of elohim anointing the core of infinity itself that's even beyond the description of infinity this was given by matantara that the soul has a hergish has a connection as a relationship with the core of insight itself through torah and mitzvos that's the shmi havaya yudkevkay in its own loin i daity lamb this could not be experienced in das which allows them to experience avenue and even allows them to become a mere cover for hashems ava which is infinite and deep but it goes through shindala dude as he said it goes through halem the purishmeil and i died and we understand why because the whole definition of existence is ali kim differentiation identity even the deepest spiritual identity of bitter of being amer cover to ava and yira but in order to be able to experience avenue there's some type of mitziya some type of identity some type of reality even the most spiritual and sublime and holy reality of merkava to open yourself up to the divine love but that's already a filter then there's something called shmi hawaii the pure pure essence the pure core the pure infinity the reality of all reality hashem pre all differentiation but what does this mean in a person's life what does this mean very abstract words powerful words what does this mean now comes to the last paragraph of the mimer where he also answers the questions in the beginning of the mimer and he says this paragraph is very very profound and very intense i'm going to say it i'm going to speak a little fast and explain it briefly because i want you to get the full picture relatively speaking but this is something that we have to review and hazard and think about it and breathe it in and live with it and apply it in order for this to be communicated by martin taylor what's this shmi havaya the essence of hashem himself priyelikim so to speak that this should be able to be communicated there had to first be histalcus histalcus lamila means that the divine light had to depart and ascend upwards what does this mean foreign very briefly there's an expression in zayar called mati mati you know what mati means mati means he arrives he touches he comes mata in aramaic is he arrived king mata allah when he came to having a more often mati means he touches he comes but he doesn't arrive he arrives and he doesn't arrive he touches you and he doesn't touch you like it says about the the eagle kanesha yoyo kino al goizolov like a eagle arouses its nest he hovers over the young the young birds the young eagle eagles the chicks the eagle is so big and frightening so rashid says he touches but he doesn't touch he comes close because he wants to wake them up he wants to say i'm here but he doesn't touch them too much because it can be overwhelming and it can it can frighten them and they can even hurt them ashara this is also expressed in the passage which refers to the angelic beings but also to the divine energy rats overshadow rats of means ratsay it runs it ascends like ratsay from the word rats or rat sound and then with shave it returns there is this dual relationship of mativalai mati shruv is mutti i come i touch you i come to you and then right away mati and then mati and loimati what what is this a game and it's expressed biologically in our heartbeat the heartbeat right there's the expansiveness excuse me expansiveness and then there's the restrictiveness that allows the blood to be released that's the roxy and the scheife it's expressed in our breath we inhale [Music] and then we exhale the hispastus why is it why is our heartbeat and our source of life our oxygen operating with these two levels because on every level of existence the divine energy operates in two states ratsoy what's the explanation this is very very very deep stuff so i'm gonna i'm gonna i'm gonna say i'm gonna say it because and i know if you don't get it fully that's fine because i also don't get it fully but as always we start the journey and you know you learn more you get to understand a little more and a little more and a little more and you never understand it fully don't worry it's always mativa mati motive mati are incredible words it means as much as you get you'll never get mati ellicos touches you and then velaimati and that's how you know you're dealing with ms how do you know you're dealing with ms you can't completely grasp it and contain it and limit it it's not going to be ms ms is always rooted in infinity and whenever you're touching infinity it's going to be mativa matida hast the hezvas how do you know it's ms how do you know you you know people come and they tasted a lot of things they went to a lot of places how do you know you hit the jackpot [Laughter] if it's mativa mati if it's not mativa mati you should be suspicious if it's only shaiv it's not the lacus if it's only ratso it's not a lacus if it's only rotsai which means you go higher and higher and higher there's no resolution there's no premiums there's no embracing of the self it's only ratsoy it's not a lucas if it's only shave it's also not a lacus if it's only multi it's not a lucas if it's only light mate it's not a lookus there is always attention why muti means i touch you i connect to you which means i go into your experience but the moment i go into your experience the moment we connect i can't detach from the source of infinity so therefore loimati so now there's a razi i go back to the source but the kavanaugh is not just to run away it's to come back so now there's a shuv and then there's a ratsu again and that brings me back to shrove and the shoe brings me back to razor again that's the process of motivation the earth comes into the cayley but if the earth is to become too comfortable in the cayley it loses the uh it loses the insight so the ur runs away from the kali but if there runs away from the cayley what's the purpose you have to go back goes back but if you get comfortable in the caylee so then you lose the infinity so you go back that's why alakuz it could be frustrating if you don't understand motivation if you understand motivation it's not frustrating then it's essential and that's why human biology is also that way with our breath we inhale and we exhale and the heartbeat restricts and expands this is all the same process because for the life force to be the life force the way it has to be it has to be rooted in infinity but that infinite life force must enclose itself and manifest itself within the containers of the human organism on the other hand if it becomes completely comfortable there then it severs its lifeline so therefore there has to be the ratsay and then there has to be the shuv says and every shiv creates a deeper ratsa and the deeper rats he creates then a deeper shoot and the deeper shoot creates a deeper ratsa and it's it's a never ending process because you're dealing with ain't saif mativa mati and that's why how do you know you how do you know your typhus siddhas how do you know your typhus siddhas how do you know you understand any of this always mativa mati always the moment it's like okay i got it i'm done you put it in a lid you put a cover on it and you put it in your pantry you weren't typhus you weren't typing this that's why it's hard for some people because they want a shallow shooter's toyota that they should be able to put into the bosom and say i got it i'm going to face it and that's it but this is safe and urine safe is always mativa imati it touches you and then it becomes elusive creating tension and then it touches you and it creates resolution and then there's a new rot and a new yearning and it's in that tension and that duality that you find oneness with the truth and and a lot of a lot of us don't like that you know give me a shallow sugars contained give me a good vart it's going to lift me up i'm going to like it i'm going to enjoy it which is wonderful which is beautiful but altareby says here that ella coos is motiva limati it i love the words right mati succumbed once accompanished it arrived but it never arrived it arrived it's here it came you came to me but you didn't come to me in other words you affirm me and then you negate me what's the purpose the shoe allows me to affirm myself and the razor causes me to transcend myself and al-trebba says that the deeper the shove the deeper the rats and you have to understand what that means the more you're going to experience the shoe of it means that the erotic was much deeper why because i could make peace with a certain level of divine energy i make peace with it right but if there is to be now a deeper shrove which means a deeper ghillie of a lacus it means the razor had to be much deeper the example for this is the famous martial the miami that we learned from the pillow the teacher is giving a share and the student grasps it but then the teacher has a brilliant new idea that's amazing and he has to be quiet and stop the class to get the new idea to give it to the student that moment of silence the student is not getting anything because there is a higher state of consciousness that is being born that is going to be communicated into him so i may experience one level of shuff but then hashem wants me to be able to experience a much deeper light an infinite light so what happens so this light now has to go back up and go into a deeper place of infinity and then come back to me because if the light stays within me or even goes up a little bit it's not allowing me to get the plymouth so the deeper the histalcos the deeper it goes up the deeper the loimati the pow more powerful the mutti now i don't want you to think this is like abstract titus here this is one of the most practical ideas in life whenever you experience a moment of darkness of confusion of bewilderment what is it really it's lai mati and you know what the laymati accomplishes that you should be able to be a much deeper mati from my old awareness to morph into a new awareness my old awareness has to surrender i cannot remain as is in my seer because that container cannot contain the infinite energy so my container breaks and i'm confused and i don't know what's going on with me the the earth went away from me so the kali is left empty why because now it's time for me to open myself up to a higher form of energy so that the shroove is going to be a whole higher level of shoot because the it was a higher level of ratsu so that says for there to be smee havaya for there to be the ghillie of utkavaki of atsumosa in cyber martin tower the old highest had to go away because the old heels that was being channeled into the world through the others it was amazing it was powerful but that obstructs the higher infinite energy of utk it's a filter it's limited it's like you're living in a beautiful home but it's a small home if you want to live in a bigger home you have to break down the walls the lawyer you have to break down the walls and then you don't have a home you have nothing you have an empty space you ever did renovation but what does that do it opens up the space for a new home i'm just giving a metaphor in life i thought everything was comfortable and i had control over my life and then boom right a curveball comes and shatters my dreams and expectations what happens now either i can go into depression he says no this is mativa mati the earth went up to a much much deeper place where you don't have a saggy you don't have a thesis so mainly you fall apart your brain can't make sense of it but if you open yourself up to that loimati the mati will now be a new mati the mati will be a whole different level of shruff and he explains it'll be another few minutes if the positive says says until the man halal that hashem is wrong he's exalted over all the allah all of the pagan philosophies in life and all forms of idolatry in life which means all forms of arrogance and alienation from hashem they get their flow from hashem's exaltedness fascinating types because hashem is so wrong he's so exalted he's so big therefore everybody can get light from him because he's infinite he's above he's so above so from his raymond most everybody could get life from him there's no discrimination there's no dissection process there's no beeru it is exalted everybody can receive their flow of energy even if they're not ready to be aligned with alakus mika kenu who's like our god hamagbi lasheva samashpili when he's so high that he can also come down hamashbeeli he humbles himself to see and then it's hashema keno then to be communicated below dependent on the work of the people who live here who are mamshak this avoid who are mom is comes down the motto here it depends on our work if maya voider creates a kali for infinity i'm sure amman shahilicos if not not but that's how much speedly leer is if ellicott is to be communicated below but if it stays above in the source infinity in other words it doesn't come down it doesn't have to be revealed below then everybody could receive from mac if everybody could receive from plymouth only kadusha can receive in other words practically speaking it means as follows you know you can have a relationship let's say with a rebbe and it's mac if you know you come to the tisch you sing a couple of songs you give a wittle you give a couple of dollars and then everybody can have a relationship it's not a big deal because there's no real allegiance but if it's to be a relationship with ponemius if it's an internal relationship where i really dedicate my life to you dedicate your life to me then there has to be allegiance then i have to surrender something it's like you know you have a friend and you get married right there's different friendships friendship you know we meet once a year we hang out we chill out but a marriage is very different the marriage is pretending yes and here not everybody is ready for that relationship when hashem is everybody can receive why not you come for the challenge you come for the kugel you come for god's google what's the big deal yeah as mckenna starring in the cougar narendra kuggle but when it's you're dealing with panemias you're dealing with for a lacus to come down in a real way this can't be an it can you can't be an over divided zodia you can be an arrogant yes for this there has to be bittel yeah commercial cosmetics says these are the kings that reigned in the land of adam before there was a mother for the jewish people so this explains that this represents the malacca that are there before there was a king among the jews this represents the energy of where the light was deeper than the klim and there everybody can get things because they don't have to internalize it but ultimately taihu died tell you on that mountain came down hatred to idolatry what does this mean one level it means it created anti-semitism from the word cena it created the jealousy of the jewish people says when the flow to the worlds came from romamus came from divine exaltedness then there's no sinner to idolatry there's no sinner to hubris there's no hatred to clip it to negativity you know why because from the hamachi if everybody could be part of the party everything could be tolerated but by mata and tyra there was the gili of ainsaif infinity is now communicated and experienced return on mitzvos now you're the sinallah now there's certain things i can't tolerate in other words when you have a real and you don't have a real relationship when the relationship is more superficial it's more all-encompassing it's just general there's no differentiation then it can allow for stupidity and for folly but once the relationship becomes real and authentic now even small things are not tolerated not because you're picky but because it's real because if we're really committed to each other then you can't be fake again a very powerful martial is in a marriage you know before marriage i don't care if you're flirting if you're playing around because there's no real allegiance you see this when you see this with hasidim you have a huss it it's just you know it's a party line it's part of a malava malk it's part of a party so big deal it's not it's it doesn't negate certain aspects of your life you can be riddled rattled with contradictions it's fine but once the relationship is panemia's dick so now you have to ask yourself why is this in your life how can it be it can't co-exist sinai is the higher shayardal of sinaloa certain things have to go certain things have to be negated well why did you do this why is there godless mitzrayim why are you afflicting the people hashem gives this whole long speech dalton said it doesn't seem connected to the question but now we understand what he's telling him is i appear to have ramachav but there was no shemihavaya utkavafke in its pure essence was not experienced in the world now i want we indict him he continues i want you have to have das in the eye in hawaii for you i want that your internal experience should be the experience of ultimate truth i want that value should become your eloquent pre martin hawaii was filtered through eloquent it was restricted through eloquent it's the sun being communicated through the ray but then we say there's something la elam and shimsha higher than the sun the idytem in the containers of creation consciousness is having through a look him and even if you reach the deepest place of consciousness it's avaya through a look him but i wanted vedaitam kia that you should be able to align yourself and become one with atsumus with the essence with the pure undefined infinity and that should become your eliquid your alikim your consciousness your fuel your inner experience should be should be true absolute infinitive this is yakov's philly remember when he ran away from asav he said havayah should be for me elohim literally it means god should be my god so what's him says yaakov was davening that my eliquim should be havaya usually my ali kim is a little filtered finite energy that i could contain in other words my relationship with you is based on me my relationship with my spouse is based on my perception of my spouse my relationship with my children is based on my perception i want that my experience of you should be you i wonder my experience of you should be but for there to be this revelation of havaya in this state biprinazu that hawaii itself should be able to be revealed first you need the ratsu mati the khiyus had to go up and depart from the caleb go to a much deeper place and what happens then and when the thieves goes up now all the nations and even the egyptians can receive the energy now they all come for the feast now they all come for the party once the lacus is not the epinemius once it's make if everybody becomes part of the party so what happens then so now the um it's not seen anymore asylum remember how you seen where does sinner come from because a la costa comes with a premieres when the relationship is real you have to reject certain things what's kedushin what does this say australia kula al-makir shh that's to be boundaries you can't be married to your husband and married to your wife and be married to everybody else also sorry you can't have two fathers you can't have two mothers who are you connected to who are you but that's only premiums mark if you can be everywhere and everything but it's not real it's not internalized harcina asylum when the field goes up ram and it has to go up in order to bring out the whole new shaymavaya so now it's very different life changes ramal the egyptians can become powerful it seems like they can be subjugate god's people is commensurate with the revelation of ellicos by matantara was exactly the departure the ascent of ellicos in the exile and the ruling of the egyptians over the jews for 210 years because remember the shuv that follows the ratso is always commendable with the ratsay if you want the shuv to be a much deeper shroof to be able to experience a much deeper level of aim so if the iratsi is much deeper because it's loimati to a far higher place so the histalcus is always commensurate with the shruff that comes afterwards and the ship that comes afterwards is always beneath of the histalkus that meet the kinetic media the shrub and so relative to the gilly that had to be by matantayra was the departure of the khiyus that allowed for the galos of the jewish people in mitzrayim for which begins with rome the gullis is long which is all rotsi see how the alternate is what's the goddess is long it's all abhinav hashem is not here snapchat it's not a night mulvaney it's just a state the of ratsu in a state of aliyah in a state of rats mati and because it's loimati we experience it as galas we experience it as concealment because the air is going into the deepest deepest deepest place so the person is elevated to that place but i don't have the revel i don't have the kalem for it i don't have the way to capture it and that's why the golis now is much longer than the galas of mitzrayim because he says because the shuv of yamasa mashiach is the ultimate shuv where divine oneness is completely manifested and revealed in the world even in the guphagashmi when mashiach comes the physical is divine like we learned many times about the hammer the chimer so the golos is the is a very deep rotsu but yes it says because when mashiach comes the pasic says in yeshaya chapter 52 we're going to see i in ba'ayan which means eye to eye with god what does it mean to see eye to eye with god by martin taylor we didn't see eye tai matander it says we heard what is usually being seen we heard what is seen and we saw what is heard we heard what you see and we saw what you hear in other words it was still a concept of shy meme you heard what is being seen by mata by mashiach pure eye and by and eye to eye complete complete oneness that even the physical body itself will be able to experience the divine oneness just like the soul by matantara it's still something that affects the neshama but the physical world remains a physical world meshiach is the absolute oneness of everything that shuv of mashiach necessitated a ratsoy that is so much deeper and so much longer so that in his days this my mirror is tough 1805 says that's why the rothsay of this galas is longer than goddess mitsuram because the shuv of mashiach which is much deeper than matan which was not i and it was i think now by now tough shin payal of the ratsoy was long enough and we're ready for the shove we're ready for the show of the rats it was long enough we're now ready for the show but this is how a person has to understand what the goalless is godless is not a a a a mistake or it's just a punishment you're bad so i'm going to punish you no godless is the breaking down of the structures because we're being tuned in and initiated into the ultimate infinite light which warrants and invites me to go out of all of the familiar structures you might to there's apostle can tell him you might too call myse all the institutions of the world will crumble talk about that today the famous institutions of the world will crumble what's the shot so the maharal says and this is the idea for there to be a new infinite light the old system has to crumble because the old system can't contain infinity because everything is limited in the old system so the old system has to go in order to be able to open yourself up to a new system what does this mean in my life i may be in a comfort zone but i'm stuck in my comfort zone and then when i get a curveball and my comfort zone is shattered that's gullus but it's not really that i was shattered it's god is opening me up to infinity and because i'm not ready for infinity so therefore it's painful because i'm losing my hold on my life but really i'm being opened up to a much higher state of living to a much truer state of living i'm being introduced to authenticity so the old institutions falter and that's the ratsay that allows for the deeper shove and he finishes the last few lines of africa the first state that we spoke about prima tantara havaya unified with ali kim being expressed in a person's midais avraham loving hashem with all your hearts serving in because the heart is considered the abode of the medici of a person's emotions experiences sensations muscle but is the experience in your entire soul it's not just experience of love in my heart it's rather the entire soul becomes a conduit for divinity it's beyond the individual experience that's the bahamas my cognitive faculties become a conduit for divine wisdom my thoughts for divine thought my words for hashem's words commission hashem says in yeshaya i will place my words in your mouth udvari ashur sam another expression in yeshaya the my words that i placed in your mouth the shechina spoke through the throat of maisha says i will give you rain i will give you rain he's giving you rain moishes was a conduit for hashem hashem speaks through masha when he says aye it's hashem because he's just a conduit vanilla mishna with a bearish bifida is a save from maggot may sharon from rabbi yosef cairo the best joseph he had a maggie a spiritual angel who revealed himself to him and told him kabbalah and he wrote a savior called magdamesharim this is the author of the sulcanar so the expression is he says to the base yosef i am the mishnah that speaks through your mouth in other words i am the mission i am the divine energy the divine wisdom vades and then the person speaks it as a conduit for hashem so that is now applying these two states of consciousness to our lives today with this and that is the experience of hashem in my heart which is my experience of love of connection of awe of reverence of passion which is amazing which is incredible that's primate but it exists today because everything exists today and then there's bachol your whole nephesh which means my whole eye becomes a conduit for pure divine energy which transcends the differentiation of experience this is where my eye melts away in the pure infinity of havaya ushmi havaya and this is where my mind is a channel for god's mind and my thoughts for hashem's thoughts and my words for hashem's words maishraben was spoken he knew hashem is speaking through him that's the truth hashem is speaking through me hashem is thinking through me but for this i have to open myself up to become that complete channel aniha mishna with the bears when yut kevka itself is revealed there's nothing outside of that so then the avoid of a person becomes in sync with this reality there's no mathias outside of hashem so then what's my learning my learning is hashem so to speak learning my learning is hashem learning my words of hashem's words through me that's what the malach told the best when you're learning the mishnais it's not you're learning the meshnias it's the mishna that's speaking through you your mouth is just the mouthpiece of the mishnah it's the conduit for the mishna shechini because when there's complete alignment there's no eye outside of yutakewa that's why after bachol this bachelor and then there's the ava in my heart that's that my whole nephesh my whole self goes back to that place of oneness where there is no reality outside of a night mulvade so then the person's learning and the person's life is one in which i am just a channel for divine energy the divine flows through you that's why he says and then right away vid you should speak those words what does it mean you should speak not just you should say the words means you should become the deeper hashem's deeper should flow through you because there is complete oneness and every rat say in life is there to create that deeper and this concludes at least one dimension of the mime of a era of the maya mavidabab and i wish you all a a day filled with mati and loimati and a deeper mate and a deeper laymati but that all the loy matis should at last come into the mati so they could be the ultimate shuv of yamasa mashiach of ayanba in yeru have a beautiful day and a meaningful day and an inspiring day tonight 9 30 p.m we have a special program i'm being interviewed on the jewish platform network it will also stream live on the yeshiva.net 9 30 pm tonight you may enjoy it it's more of a schmacka light for bringing in conversation and uh sunday morning we have our 9 30 class in basilagani 1961 tafsin ghafal of sunday morning 9 30. it's going to be live in my home for those who want to participate please let me know you could participate live it will also stream on the yeshiva.net sunday 9 30. of course next monday we will continue learning we're going to be learning the maya terraria parish's boy about sva ice and next mitsura shabbos january 23rd yuccevat the yard site of the rebel rayats they'll be a big malava malka beautiful ambiance music and a special evening of inspiration and unity and love in the medium i wish you a beautiful day an extraordinary month a good new shabbos afraid and a day and month filled with light and good health and love and oneness and truth you could speak about you could speak you have to unmute yourself you could you could speak about it [Music] yeah she was uh um i don't really want to give out all my cutouts you have a lot of knackers from all the kinder lucky about balance it's not one is negative one is positive one is tension and one is resolution one challenges me one challenges me to go to a deeper place to go out of my comfort zone to go out of my box and then i make peace with it and i internalize it and i embrace it and then i go to yet a deeper place of reality our children usually do this to us our children do it to us they don't let us remain stuck in our old perception of yiddishkeit since you had this host to become a balchuva you really had to go through this you had to really challenge yourself to grow to a deeper place that's russo and there's pain in that there's a pain because i have to peel the layers i have to go out of my my comfort zone i have to do things that i'm not used to i have to open myself up to a more infinite truth that's razor and then the shoe is where i have to internalize it it has to become part of me it can't just remain elusive i have to grow into it and then there's a deeper rock so although says for there to be a deeper shoe of course to be more revealed there always has to be a deeper like right like the the more you pull back the arrow the more you pull back the arrow right the further it can strike the further it can hit the more you go backwards the faster you can run so the deeper the air goes into ratsoy right when it gets unleashed back it goes to a deeper shoe it's it's it's that lacus becomes more revealed more internalized more real and the deeper it goes up the more you experience a higher level of reality so when somebody is really faced i mean it's not so easy to say this but when somebody is really faced with a very difficult challenge what dalton would tell them is that this is a preparation for a much more powerful shove in other words god is inviting you to touch infinity and therefore everything you're familiar with is being challenged so this shouldn't be said lightly but that was the answer to maisha lamar islam what are you doing and hashem says this is not a mistake the gullis mitsurayam is not a mistake michael says what are you doing why are you torturing the people what do you want let's let them go free don't tell me you're going to set them free and then it becomes worse and his answer is that what what i want to be able to give them is hashem ultimate truth and the concealment they're experiencing now is the light departing from the world and going up to a much deeper place of reality so that when it comes back down they're going to be able to be one with the ultimate ms what does this mean in our life in our life it means that when i'm facing a situation where my systems are breaking down my comfort zone is being shattered those palaces those mansions that i constructed in my life are being attacked they're coming under destruction it's not working right person may experience it in their marriage their relationship with themselves with hashem with their children with their friends with their job whatever it may be the adversity the challenge i'm facing i could look at it and say oh god forgot about me or abandoned me threw me under the bus or the al-tirab is telling us hashem is telling martial no no no it's very very painful but i want you to know that i'm here with you and it's ultimately all about a relationship and it's ultimately all about love and what i want to ask of you is not to deny the pain and not to repress the pain but just to open yourself up to a much deeper reality in your life and in the lives of your loved ones could be accompanied with pain of course that's a yearning is there's a yearning i'm i'm challenged to go higher to go out of my vessels out of my calum and then shuv is returning loimati is ratsuri and mati is shoved making it work practicality bringing it down calmness serenity you can't always be in the state of of of of longing rats is longing rats is dreaming rats is pleading grazie is beseeching rats is wondering ratso is being startled ratsu is overwhelming and then schumer's and now let's let's turn it into a system and then i want to get comfortable i want to retire so he says no if it's a lacos it's going to be a deeper outside that's what the gemara says at the end of broadcast the real talmud has no menu not in this world not in the next world yeah this is the end of massachusetts the end of the first massachusetts it's not a curse they never relax they're workaholics that's not a good thing you have to relax you have to be able to celebrate life in-la menuha means they never get stuck in the quagmire they never get paralyzed by their comfort zones they're always open to the vibes of infinity but the shave that's going to be revealed by mashiach is the ultimate unity of ayinba'a in yeru because hashem is infinite it will always be ratsey and shayfe but it's going to be a different type of rats in a different type of within the messianic reality we do so there is a state of mashiach where ultimately there's complete menuha the razia and the show have become one that's that's about yeah but as we said the altitude says that the whole goalless is about ratsu by now there's been a lot of rats in enough rats so everybody is ready for the shoe for the gilly of mashiach and the ghoul of the pile in a revealed way that we should be able to see it with our eyes experiencing with our heart that the world should be able to experience that moment of complete and true redemption the light ascends and i feel i could feel very lost and the mitsram can have the rulership the mates are in me rules that rules the show rules the day the mitsuram in me is the boss that's what it looks like because maya lakus has departed has ascended remember this is all the stories of galas mitsuram are not just physical stories they're also metaphors of what's happening in our life the parade inside of me the egypt the egyptian the mitzrayim inside of me rules it dominates it controls i'm subjugated the jew is subjugated because it's before harshinai ramal goes up and now all the crocodiles are parting all the hyenas come for the feast the head counselor went away okay kevin of course gullis is the deepest opportunity gullah says the opportunity to go into the loimati to go into the ratsoy gullis is the longing to the infinite it's the deepest opportunity and mashiach is the revelation of the ratsi that we touched in gallus mashiach is not something separate meshiach is the revelation of what we touched in ghalos it's the revelation of the truth of golos it's how the razor is internalized within the human experience of course not a little bit a lot that's what it means to live with a gool of consciousness to live with the goal of consciousness is to be able to see in the razory the preparation for shave to be able to help the to be able to see the loimati as a prelude to mati always a balance always a balance and once i master one level of shave i go to a deeper level of ratsay and a deeper level of shove which brings me to a deeper state of ratsi to a deeper shave until yom shakuli shabbosha and when you're open to this flow to this rhythm it's like a symphony it's like a song it goes up and it goes down there's moments of tension and moments of resolution right so in life we get dumbfounded and confused and frustrated but it's really imagine it like a symphony imagine it like a ballad it's all part of one song a shira la shamba it's one song it's not separate songs the razer and the shiv are part of one this is the of life very good they have menucha they have menuha about the fact that england the in la minucha is with serenity and with pleasure it's with surrendering with pleasure because it's vacant it's vacant with hashem when you have vegas with hashem there's a serenity because you're aligned you're aligned with the source and because the source fluctuates between rothsie and shiv you also fluctuate it's like a heartbeat right when we see on the monitor the flat heart we know what that means right so the heartbeat means you're in touch with life so when you're in vegas with ain't so if you have razia and sheriff not because you're distraught or you're disturbed or you're torn but because you dance to the rhythm of the divine energy that vibrates through the universe and that rhythm is one of rothsay and shiv tension and resolution transcendence and internalization going out of my comfort zone to long and urine for that which is beyond my present paradigms and then internalizing it and making it my own which only allows me to open myself up to yet a deeper ballad of infinity and this type of flux in your life can be very serene you become comfortable with being uncomfortable you're tranquil about the absence of tranquility you're serene about the fact that there is no paralysis because it's not torture it's rather the excitement and the fluctuation that comes with the vibe of life with the rhythm of life it's like a ballad okay in other words the limitation to be able to allow the ahava to be experienced in yesh shinyu does yesh and dalit is the dai dai dai yenu dai dai yeno 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