Torah Or Moshe Yedaber #2 | How Do We Make Peace with an Inauthentic Life?

Okay, good morning everybody. Welcome. So we began last time last year page 135 on top it says in the Hebrew it's column two we did the first two uh chapters right? Yeah. >> Okay. Today's class is dedicated by Arin and Miriam Landi as for their children Bor Aha Manim Fagi and all the blessings. Thank you very much. Okay, so let's summarize the main point that we learned. The mime begins on the it's a m from and it focuses on the words right before it says there was the blast the voice the sound of the was getting stronger and stronger coming from mount si will speak and hashem answers him in his voice and the gur explains brings Hashem responds in the voice of Mosha. In fact, the Gmorrah says this in a very interesting place. It speaks about a teacher and in the olden days every teacher had a matur the rav the reb who would teach who would share and then there was the matur the one who would translate it to the crowd to the audience. This was with Katy because people didn't understand. answer there was a murman who would uh who would uh explain and she heard him different things that would they would teach. So the garra says over there that the murman how do you know that the murman should not raise his voice higher than the one who spoke and the answer is that means he didn't go higher than the of answers he responds is respond you answer like you answer so answering is you're responding so it's fascinating that is called is like the Torament and Mosha is the source and alim responds in Mosha in the voice of Mosha not higher than the voice of Mosha and that's a source for the for every so this is how the starts the question is that the is very ambiguous what did Mosha say and what was Hashem answer it you have but the first two Hashem spoke directly wasn't Moshe everybody heard it from Hashem himself not for Mosha Raenu. The other commandments or the rest of the Tyra that came through Moshe, it was only Mosha speaking. Hashem spoke to Moshe and Moshe said it. Here we have something new in that happened here. Moshe spoke and Alikim answered him and in his but the doesn't say what was that again the first two they heard directly from Hashem. There was no Mosha. the other ones and the rest of they heard from but it was no was just so this is a very difficult how you understand the struggle with this has and argues with Rashi Rashi he says it's talking about the other commandments where Mosha spoke and Hashem helped him raise his voice like he helped him in his speech yeah argues with this but it's a difficult because it's not so clear what is this and the second question is The whole story is written in the past tense. It happened. And here this these words are only in the future present or future. So in order to understand this he brought these used to say to make a special celebration for him because if not for this day that caused me to be who I am there's many there's many Joe's many Joe manys many jacks or joe's orphs in the marketplace. So the duk is that he focuses on hay. doesn't say if not for he says love if not for this day he focuses on the day not on what happened on the day but on this day is like connected to the day and of course he also focuses on his name he could have said there's a lot of people in the marketplace it's almost like the name says to understand this is that we know that was the before learned and learned and yakov learned and was given over to their children and the Gmorra says that a observed the whole before it was given even of so however you explain that but the mitz is the reality of and even mitzvah were there before matra what's then the kdish of matra so you could say quantity a lot more people and there's a commitment it's not just voluntary so that's all true but fundamentally is it just the same thing that was just given to more people and they made a commitment to it or there was a fundamental by So this here the M starts explaining a whole in first he explains the first two chapters about and then afterwards the next piece he goes into what happened by matra what was the main he understood deep down and not just understood with his mind, but he he experienced it. That ultimately creation must be about the fusion between the infinite and the finite. Because Hashem, the creator, is completely beyond any description, any definition, any reality that we can define in any finite terms. And yet all of creation is about definition and description and identity and limitation. And Abramovu basically he tried to heal the rupture and understood that the whole point is to bring all the fragmentation into oneness and that's what he embodied. We explained so far from the alterb is given an is given was it's not just he understood this is how he embodied it means he became a channel that the infinite should flow through the finite and that's a revolutionary idea because as he puts it the whole idea of hashem's names seven names that are not erased the seven names that you're not allowed to erase the idea of a name which is the source of the seven midas is a name is only used in terms of somebody else when somebody else calls you. Yeah. In other words, the name represents how you're known or how you're defined or how you're experienced by somebody outside of you. Yeah. In terms of your own internal consciousness, the name is like it's just an external thing. It's like let's say you were living yourself that having a name not having a name would would not make a difference in that. So when you say Hashem's name it means that in what we call the highest levels of consciousness are all a name. It's just the way begins to be experienced by something outside of it because he himself is beyond any mid. So even any form of of the most highest form of consciousness of awareness of love of kindness and the most spiritual spiritual qualities are all names and this is the source of all the midas because that itself is only from a name and this this fusion is created through mitzvah that's the whole idea of observing mitzvah that the mitzvah is actually a channel the person's presence and the mitzvah becomes a channel for this fusion, for embodying the infinite in the finite that the human being of Ramavu accesses and and and and and creates that connection between the and identity like he said the mitzvah of the mitzvah of channel and so forth and did this as he said because of his humility. Soon he channels the humility of the athe to also be compressed into finitness because of his kindness. Every one of his qualities becomes a mirror that channels the a into the world. That's what lives with. And that's the idea of observing all the mitzvah. It's not that he did all the mitzvah like we do. Most of the mitzvah were not applicable then. You know the physical mitzvah and all the structures which have to do with mit and a lot of other things that didn't exist then. But what it means is that Abrau lived in a way that his energy was constantly channeling the energy of the infinite through him through his being through his existence. But really where was it experienced mostly even though he had an impact on the world it was mostly as he puts it in which means in the deeper frequencies of his identity and reality for example that's why it says he observed my mitzvah. Hashem says he did the mitzvah that I do. What are the mitzvah that he does? So he gave an example of hashem being he visits the sick. What's visits the sick that in even the highest worlds there's a love sick for love was love sick because even of the highest levels of consciousness feel their inadequacy the ultimate truth. So they're sick. They're yearning. And means when there's a gill it soothes the sick. And that was soothe the sick love. But this represented all of the mitzvah. And he gives an example of different mitzvah which is all that there should be a deeper gile revelation of in the higher worlds in the human being's inner consciousness to be able to embody that. And that's Arainu's life. And he was the person who begin to be began to initiate initiate this process not to not to become seduced by the veneer of kipa of shells of husks of darkness even of finitness but to be able to constantly align it with align the world of pira the world of fragmentation with the world of Akus. Yet in the lowest world in the world of pod he says over there it's his main avoid was in the means as he puts it he was he was mshik light in the deeper dimensions of existence where there's still there's still there's still and that's where he brought in the light but as he said in the end of the last chapter then there is something called the world of fragmentation the the world of fragmentation and the world of fragmentation he says this was the of that should be able to connect with the not just of the higher worlds but of the person living down here and that's where the mitzvah become physical mitzvah they become physical mitzvah it's not just embodying a higher energy but the physical mitzvah that's what happens by matra that's what he's going to start explaining to come down. Let's see who is the says in this is of after Kana had a child and she brought him to the Mishkan and there's the whole we read it on it's the beginning of so Kana says literally it means Hashem is God is a god of perceptions means mindsets. So de means opinions, views. So literally the mafar say that hashem knows everybody's day is. He knows what everybody's thinking. He knows everybody's mindsets. He knows everybody's internal experiences. You can't hide from him. That's the literal most basic interpretation. Kale deis hashem. Kale hash kale is god. deis. He's made up of all the deis, meaning he contains all of the literally means to him. He uh huh? Yeah. Alice is like all the mice and all the schemes of people. He's aware of all of it. is based on a hold demis is not one it's one it says in deis is two there's two deis not but deis means two like you say there's two and means twoasm is consists of two deas The two deises literally the higher unity and the lower unity. It says that the first is the higher unity and so is kale includes two days. There's the day of and it's two separate separate days. Not just two separate days, two contradictory days. What do we mean? Is is my mat means it's a view from above towards below. You know, you're standing on the peak of uh the Himalayas or Mount Everest or you go to the Swiss Alps, I don't know, 5,000 uh feet in the Swiss or whatever. And you look downwards. Yeah. Mata means, you know, you go on the plane and you go up and you look down at the buildings, you look at the cars on the highway, right? That's called That's not this, but it's giving a mushel. That's all very relative, but you're looking from mila downwards. That's and what happens then he says from that perspective the lower you go the more the more like nothing means it's like nothing it's not doesn't say it's because Hashem created it but the more the lower you go the lession the less substantial the less real the less concrete, the less mitious the higher you go is more real, more being the says it's last mission that they're going to give all the every time you're going to get 310 worlds. So the I'm going to be to my beloved ones yes. So what does that mean? that what's called the the spiritual ecstasy of that's called yesh is you're down here and you're looking up you're also looking up you're not looking down being down and looking down that's not you're looking up but you're looking up and then here it's from something from nothing. Whatever is lower is more and it's experienced by the eyes of flesh as something real, something separate and felt. Experienced and what is higher and even higher. It's not seen. It's not felt. It's not experienced. It's not comprehended. So, so the paradigm changes. Whatever is higher is yes. Whatever is lower is the more high the more the more low the more. No, it's so the higher you go, the more ayat. Even higher, more ay. High. The lower you go, more even lower, more yesesh. That's the difference. Yeah. perspective and exper experiential perspective not just uh not just a philosophical perspective. What does this mean? [snorts] >> Yeah. We talk about creation, we say it's so the source is called, right? Something from nothing. It's a [snorts] strange expression. The world comes from Hashem. So you say why are you calling him nothing? [laughter] Not nothing. So there's different explanations. What what that's the expression in the beginning of Bes says and that's this the language used in most of the so because from this perspective of creation the higher you go the more it's defined as and the if you go high it's real where it's exactly the opposite. What does this mean? You want to ask something? >> What do you mean? >> Huh? That's why it's >> Yeah. So, so, so what is the give an example for this? Today we have actually pretty uh interesting examples for this. Huh. From the world. Yeah. In other words, if I'm looking at this table. Yeah. Thousands of years, they didn't know that there's a mat is called electricity. You couldn't see it with your eyes. You still can't see it. I can't see electric. I could see the results of electricity. Talking in a mic, etc. There's a video. We see the results. But to see electron, to see electricity with your physical eyes, we didn't have the ability. They didn't know there's such a thing called germs. Where where's germs? You see germs anywhere? They didn't know there's something called viruses. They didn't know there's something called bacteria. They didn't know about it. It's not anybody's fault. You need tools. And therefore infectious diseases all that right all [snorts] these types of germs this is you're talking about literally a kadesh of the last 150 years. So the earth humanity exists 5,786 years. People don't realize that in the last 150 years, right? The transformations that happened as a result of not that these things were invented. They weren't invented. They were always there. They were discovered. Sound waves. Every word you say, yeah, it goes to Australia. But who could pick that up? And then suddenly there was that revolution. So what happened? What happened was we created the tools. Hashem allowed human the human mind to find the tools to be able to detect deeper levels of reality. Yeah. Now, if you ask a question, okay, what is what is more important? What has the biggest impact on people's lives, on people's bodies, on the world? Things that you see or things that you don't see? What do you think? The invisible forces or the visible forces? They're invisible in your body. What is more invisible is far more important than that which is visible. [laughter] Your DNA, your cells. I don't see my cells. I see the outer layer of what happens as a result of the cells. Yeah. You talk about atomic energy, right? The atom bomb splitting the atom. Yeah. You talk about the power and the impact of the most invisible forces. That's where reality is really shaped and happens. And if you go deeper and deeper and deeper and you get more to the core, less visible, less visible, much more impactful, much more powerful because it's invisible. Yeah. And yet from the perspective of the outside, it may I don't even know that it exists. I may never know that it exists. Right. So I'm calling it because in my my retina, my eye doesn't process this reality. It doesn't exist. If somebody would have there was the doctor his name was Simmel Weiss in Vienna and he's the one there were a lot a lot of uh women say the 1800s you know the stories a lot of women dying after birth and nobody [snorts] could figure out the mystery the women chose to give birth in the street than to go into the hospital was crazy numbers one in four was ridiculous it was this like 1850 1860 and semlice said the doctors are killing them now to say that a doctor is killing the patients, right? That's that's that's heresy. That's the worst of precursors to speak against doctors. [laughter] The garra says because the garra knew that. But uh but about doctors, [laughter] the holy grail doctors, doctors are the saviors of humanity till they have arrogance. It's only the best of doctors that goes to ghann doesn't go to if you if you think you're the best of doctors then you belong in gan because the arrogance you know I don't know what's about we're not going to go there >> minduh mind reader also [laughter] >> I'm not a mind reader just have my own mind [laughter] so uh so uh what's it called so said that the doctors are dealing with corpses And they come to the mothers to help them give birth and their hands are full of infections from the from the dead people and that's what they give to the to the mothers and they declared him you know the story they declared him a muga and they put him into an institution an asylum where he died he died over there 10 20 years later they discovered he was right and the reason doctors are washing their hands all day or wearing gloves is because of Okay, a classic example. And today it would be a joke to argue with this. Of course, your hands are filled with this hor these horrible germs that you're infecting these mothers with. I'm just giving an example. The same is true with all of reality. I look at the table. There's a table here. What is this? A piece of wood. Nothing else. Suddenly, you bring a microscope. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. There's a movable. There's a moving universe here. Even in the tip of a needle, in the tip of a pencil, you have not millions of atoms, not billions of atoms, not trillions of atoms, sectillions of atoms. It's like one with with I don't know 16 zeros, 20 zeros, all what in the point of the pencil and the point of the needle and they're moving in crazy speed with perfect harmony. You have the nucleus of the atom and then you have the [clears throat] part that circles it and that's is what holds matter together and that's what holds the whole universe together. Somebody said, Sugar I don't know what you're talking about. This is a dead cover. So who's right? Who's right? And what's more important? Which is the more important the outer or the inner? Where is it really happening? So this is where the beginning of spiritual all development mental emotional spiritual is understanding this that what makes something a yesesh in our world is not is not the truth what makes something a yesesh in our world is what we experience as reality which is fine that's normal that that's how we live yeah this is a table I mean that's how the world goes around if If I look at a carpet that I'm selling you, I'm not selling you carpet. I'm selling you Adams. Right? So, it's not a carpet. I'm selling you a bunch of atoms. I'm not selling you tissues. I'm selling you Adams. You know what happens to the market? I'm not selling you a house. I'm selling you Adams. Okay? I'll buy these atoms for free. I'll take a soup. [snorts] >> The fact that the carpet is red and therefore people like it is only because our eyes could all interpret the color red. And if there was another color that our eyes can't interpret, it's iron. And you can't sell that. it's not going to work. So, we all agree to lie together and that's fine. As long as we're all in fiction together, it works. That's not a mistake. That's how it is because that's the Caleb that we have. But everybody understands the moment you have deeper instruments, yesterday's yesesh becomes today's ay. When you're looking at it from the deepest perspective, on the contrary, the more people see, the less significant it is. That's just the way reality is condensed and limited to the to the finite vessels that we can grasp. So how much does that describe reality? It's important for our world because that's our consensus. That's how we communicate. But understanding reality, this is the process. So this is how it works in the more the more yesesh the more tangible I can hold this. This is real. Nobody's going to argue this is not real. Yeah. The moment you start talking about emotions, it's less real, right? More abstract things, more transcendental things. I don't even know what you're talking about. Now we argue our whole life. A piece of steak is real. French fries is real. Ketchup is even more real. Toxic and real. It's real. It's real. This is real. The more yesesh, the more yesh is real. The mean the mata, the more mata, right? [snorts] The more divorce from energy, the it's it's more real. Now you want to start talking about looking up. Okay, it's ion. Why is it ayin? Because doesn't exist. Even if you could prove to me that it exists. Fine, I'll believe you. I won't believe you. There's no there's no in it. It's not morgish. It's not experience. It's not embodied. Higher higher. And if you go really high, then it's mish and it becomes completely iron. Is exact opposite. You're starting you're looking down. Now you look and you say, "Okay, that's pretty like what is that?" Basically all of our physicality all of physicality somebody once said and this is not an idea in religion this an idea in science that you know 99.9% of an atom is empty space so he said if you actually wanted to take the entire earth that which is real that which is substance the entire planet would fit in to your carry-on suitcase just think about that all the the real material what is substance of the entire planet because 99.9% of an atom is empty space. So if you took everything the whole world, the whole planet, the whole earth would fit into a carry-on suitcase. In fact, the gun is anmeab. They used to say now go live like that. Say the whole I have the whole world in a carry-on suitcase. But it it it it gives it gives a perspective. There was a big phys. used to say that he won the Nobel Prize. He's like the father of uh of quantum physics. So he once said that we used to think that um consciousness is a derivative of matter. Today we know that matter is a derivative of consciousness. Right? What does that mean? In other words, matter is reality. And then you figure out how you feel about it. Today's the opposite. Today, you know, no, matter is a derivative of consciousness. put on a different set of glasses and you have a different matter. The whole matter is just a formulation of reality based on my consciousness and my consciousness is defined by my consciousness. Now, because we have a similar frequency, so we can all agree that this is a tissue box. But the moment you go into a different state of consciousness, everything changes. And if you go deeper and deeper and deeper, what was yesterday is the biggest yash becomes completely iron. It's also true emotionally when people go into deeper places of themselves. Yeah. Like what was so important it's like almost it it fizzles away. It's like thin air. It like a grain of sand. Like my whole life I was fixed on a grain of sand and from this I built my whole life and then you look I'm like oh whoa that's mish. Why? You went into a deeper space. Yesterday was the exact opposite. this was everything and other things were like completely abstracted. I didn't have access to it. So that's what is saying this is two levels in is also but it's down looking upward. So is more [laughter] real completely ion. Why? cuz I I have no shas to it and theoretically I can say yeah this is the source but fine I don't know about the source I know about me I'm judging everything from me so the more lata the more yesesh this is a real nobody's going to argue that this cup doesn't exist nobody argues I mean in some philosophical schools they'll argue that it doesn't exist but they'll all drink coffee while they're arguing from the cup they'll just explain it doesn't really exist but now give me my coffee, [laughter] right? When everybody argues, they don't really exist until you trigger them and then suddenly they exist. But this professor is sitting and saying nothing really exists and then you argue with him, right? The the look of disdain suddenly he doesn't mish believe that he doesn't exist. And this is even part of development, right? If you take a tell a child, you give a child two choices. You give a child a toy or you give them a check and on the check is $100,000. Which one do you think he's going to take? He's going to take the toy. Either toy is 50 cents and this is $100,000. But it's a boring piece of paper. So he's What is he looking at? He's right. What's more interesting for me to play with? A little fire truck is better than a stupid piece of paper that has a few words on it. He's right. But that's a very good example for this. In in the world of the child, this is much more fascinating. I could play with it. There's wheels. I could What am I going to do with the check? Look at it. If you're 30 years old [laughter] and somebody gives you the two, maybe somebody will still take the fire fire engine, especially if it's a good day. But but what happened suddenly? What happened was you say this is junk. Like this is nothing. This is $100,000. [laughter] So who who was right? Who was right? Depends which world. In the world of playfulness of a child, the check is worthless or almost worthless. A piece of paper turn it into a plane and throw it. And the fire when the fire truck is much more misused. You get a little older and suddenly this is nothing. You have you people get more mature and certainly the world of ideas or the world of emotions that's reality. Nothing else is really reality. Yeah. Even in food, right? One person looks at a potato chip, very nice. Ice cream, very nice. Babka, very nice. Another person is a little more sensitive, right? Looks inside what's inside and they say, "This is a piece of junk. It's poison." What do you mean it's poison? All the kadushima are filled with it. People come to schul just to eat this. That's how that's that's all grow all growth is about this. It's graduating from the lower perspective to the higher perspective. But yet knowing there's a lower there's a different perspective. They're both this is so in the ultimate sense this is the higher what do we mean higher? What do we mean higher? Higher I don't mean on the top of the Empire State Building. Higher we mean less defined by physical and finite properties. Laya is more iron. More L is more iron. I'm sorry. The highest is yes. What's the real yes? THE REAL YESES. WHAT DOES that look like? Don't ask me. It's above my pay grade. Yes. >> He said love. No, you can't. What? Wisdom consciousness. No. So what is it? I don't know. Sorry. Stop talking to me about it. But in the real in no that's the only thing to talk about everything else comes from a billion [laughter] all the real energy had to be shrunk and limited and limited and limited and that's how WHAT FOR US YESESH is for him iron you understand >> yeah for for what's us reality is for him almost not reality because it's the way reality had to be condensed and compromised you take a person like gone take a person like Okay. And he's teaching a Mishna to to to a 4-year-old child. Yeah. How much percent of of of of what he knows in that Mishna is he giving? He has to do that because he wants a child to understand. But leg all the wisdom it's like. So the whole reality that we're aware of, what is it? It's the way infinity is compressed into finite reality. So therefore it's called iron. What's the real thing to talk about? Now that's what you want to talk about. That's the real yes. Everything else is kiloy cuz it's coming from a dumbed down diluted version. Simum after symptoum restriction after restriction after restriction and then from that this suddenly becomes reality. So for us the moreum the more yesesh [laughter] the lessum the more iron. But for the ultimate reality, it's exact opposite. The only place, the only real yes is that yesesh. Now you have a little Timum, you'll call it less less Yesesh. And then you have so many it's mamish. [snorts] How many coverups had to be enforced in order to make this a reality? Your is exact opposite. No, sorry. I live in this world. This is reality for me. I'm very triggered now. Yeah, I'm upset. I feel hurt. There's a deeper world. I don't know what you're talking about. This is my reality. This is This is real. Now, you want to tell me, "Look up." Okay. I look up. I see the top of the mountain. Now, when you go on the plane, what happens? You're on the highway. There's traffic, right? There's a 100,000 cars. Everybody's stuck. THE CARS ARE A REALITY. They're a reality. You wish you could fly over. You can't fly over. You sit and you beep. They beep and beep and beep and beep. Or hopefully you're listening to a good cheer so you don't mind the traffic. And suddenly you're in the airport. You go on a plane and what happens to all these cars? They're all little tiny tiny little fire trucks of a one-year-old. And you fly over the highway. It takes like 3 seconds. And suddenly boom, 30,000 ft. And the buildings, the huge skyscrapers become tiny little buildings until they become invisible. And when the plane really goes high, 30,000 ft, suddenly this whole ay, right? It's fascinating. That car becomes a little tiny tiny toy and the building becomes a little tiny house that you build in Lego. It's like Lego. The whole earth becomes Lego. Why? Because you're in a higher dimension. But that's still all a mush. cuz that's still within the physical world. We know that the cars don't really become small. I'm just flying in a plane. But the point is this experientially what was yes yesterday it becomes because it's so reduced to because you're experiencing the expansiveness of consciousness. And this happens in consciousness. Our consciousness expands and suddenly where I was living and what I took so seriously and what I was addicted to and what I was entrenched in my whole life becomes ion. And once you taste that, you can't go back so easily. I may go back there because I'm a human being and we're we're in flux. You know, I may be in the plane and then I land and I go up and I land and I go up and I land and you have to respect that. But once you taste that, you already know forever that this gra is really just an iron. And the more yes, the more iron. That's that's the >> can you or should you escape this world? >> No. >> But in order to live in this world as a normal person, you have to know this. [laughter] You don't escape the world. But to live in the world as a real normal person, you have to know this. You have to know this. I can't make believe I see germs and I see viruses and I see bacteria. I can't. I see my finger. Barashem. I see my finger. But to delegitimize that, that's a terrible mistake. I'm telling you, the more invisible people say if I needed to be visible to believe it. The fact is, yeah, the only things you should be concerned about really are invisible things. [laughter] Don't be concerned about the visible things in your body. That's not what the main concern is. And there's a reason for it. Because the fact that it's invisible, that's what gives it so much power. The more visible it is, it just means that my eyes agree to its existence. That's a much that's a dumbed down version of existence. It's it's existence, but it's very dumbed down. the greater forces electromagnetic forces the four forces nuclear energy positive negative whatever all these things it's all invisible at least till we develop more kalum for thousands of years it was invisible but that's where that's where that's where reality is happening quantum physics you're talking about subatomic particles nobody has a fist of it they can't even look at it you start looking at it it collapses they don't right but that's where everybody knows that's where reality is happening that's where it's taking shape But yet we don't have a contact with that. We call that and for thousands of years it was taken not because it didn't exist because for me it didn't exist. There's a metaphor that a scientist once gave I think Heisenberg gave it to Einstein about quantum mechanics just a very brilliant metaphor that brings it out simply. I shared it with you once. He said that there was once a fisherman who built a net because he wanted to find all of the fish in the Pacific. So he built this huge net and he lowered it down for a few weeks and he lifted it up and indeed hundreds of thousands of species, new species of fish were discovered that day and he came out with a declaration that there's no fish smaller than 5 in. and he became the laughingstock of humanity because in your own dining room you have a goldfish that's smaller than 5 in. So they accused him of being a real liar and a charlatan. And then somebody said no the holes in the net were 5 in. He wasn't lying. That's it. The tools we use to define reality will define the reality we discover as a result of those tools. But most people don't bother to revisit their tools. Those tools are the net is a net. Now I'll figure out how many fish there are. No, you will not figure out how many fish they are because your net is defining how many fish you will find because the fish that are smaller than 5 in cannot fit through your mimm. So I have my vessels. This is how I measure reality. Whatever doesn't fit into those holes is not reality. It's I [laughter] and I'm I'm confident. I'm arrogantly confident that I have the truth. When people discard, does God exist? Does God not exist? And what are the me what are the what are the tools you're using to figure that out? [laughter] >> Yeah. I have a net and I want you to fit into that net. You don't fit into that net. You're ironing. It's a compliment that he doesn't fit into the net. It's It's not [laughter] Thank God he doesn't Thank God he doesn't fit Thank God he doesn't fit into the net. >> Huh? >> Quantum mechanics. >> Yeah. >> So you can only measure observe what you measure. >> So in a way the universe is full of information. >> Yeah. So the only thing is touch with is what we can measure peract. >> Exactly. You observe only what you can measure and you can only measure that which you can measure with the tools that you have to perceive reality. So how much of the universe do we know about? >> Huh? >> A minuscule part of the universe. We know so much but it's minuscule [snorts] and that's all. me right? You're talking about the frequencies. You're talking about the frequencies of reality deeper and deeper and deeper. At this moment, it's completely iron. When you say you're going to look at a coffee bean and you're going to seem you're going to seem what do you mean? What are you talking about? >> And also whatever we observe it's it's basically we observe one of the positions. It could be in the super. >> So that and that part is not discoverable until you >> Yeah. >> No. No. Because we observe something and it has a position. It that itself could be in what's called a superp position in in quantum mechanics. >> And that I don't even know about. So it it there's layer and layer and layer. This is all and this is all still within the physical world so to speak in the world what we call science and physics where we're still measuring things with different tools. The moment you go into the frequency of rni of elus which is really intangible intangible even to the most astute developed microscope a telescope now it's mamish and really that's the whole yesesh that's where yesh is everything else is what does it mean everything else not that everything else doesn't exist he says kilo because that's based on how much does have to be condensed how much does god have to hide his energy to allow how for the coffee to look like coffee and for the world to look like a world that I could see with my physical eyes and say I don't even know if God is here. So you understand how much iron that is. It's like it's like it's cayenne >> we don't do that. >> Let's stay here. Let's stay here. >> [snorts] >> The coffee always existed. >> Coffee always existed. >> The coffee bean existed. Hashem created it. But if you would look at the coffee bean in contrast or in in in uh in context of the dvar hashem the the the physicality of it is is is aims of how the energy went through billions of restrictions to be able to become incarnated and assume the physical reality that my eyes should say ah this exists. [snorts] such a brilliant way. >> Yeah. >> Yes. Yes. >> What did Al have to do to itself to make himself into the taste of coffee? Think about that. >> Yeah. What what had to happen for that >> that the yes of Saint which is beyond not just beyond physical, it's beyond spiritual even is not it. And yet it becomes the taste of an orange or the taste of a banana or the taste of lettuce and that and that becomes reality. So knows all that and says that's all the less mamas the less tangible the less you see it ah the more it exists the less you can grasp it. Ah, now now you're talking to me. Talk talk more. [laughter] If you can mama, stop grasping it. Oh, I have to completely cease to exist in order to ah okay, now you're re now you're talking about something >> in touch with it and really appreciate where it is. So you can actually be in touch with the higher reality. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> You become a channel for the higher reality. It's the opposite. I'm down here and I'm real. I'm real. This is down. I'm looking up and I'm appreciating that there's God, that there's an aus, but I'm looking from down here. I'm not on the airplane. The buildings are very, very tall. You want to tell me that there's a black hole that is billions and billions and bill. Fine. Okay. I could believe you. You could prove it maybe. Fine. But but this is reality. You know these this is my net. This is my net. This is my net. And everybody has their own net. And even the most sophisticated nets have shapes and sizes. Not because not because people are bad, because people are people. That that's our job. We only have our nets. We don't have anything else. >> We need to internalize. >> Yeah. So, [snorts] so we need to we we need to internalize this truth that Now the question is uh yeah what about the fusion? Yeah. So this is what he says now. So you see these few lines just like see how this is classic he takes up and he puts it down. He puts it down. What's the less tangible the more the more tangible the more. If it's very tangible it's really and the lower you go. What do we mean lower? The more distanced from infinite undefined non-existential states of existence, the more distant from a non-existential state of existence, meaning the more existence, the more tangibility, the more in it's the opposite. This is a yes. The higher you go, meaning the more divine, the less tangible, the more iron. And if you go higher, it's more iron. And then it's like iron. We call it nothing. What's really nothing? As I always say, nothing is no thing. That's what I is. No thing. So now think about it. In our world, if it's a thing, it's a thing. If it's no thing, it's no thing. It's nothing. But in the real world, it's the opposite. IF IT'S NO THING, AH, NOW YOU'RE talking reality. If it's a thingis, it's a it's a thing. Okay. It's a thing for you. It's not a If it's no thing, what does it mean? It's the source of all things. If you're a thing, you're not the source of all things. You're a thing. You became a little thing and you're busy bloating yourself and and figuring out how to inflate your ego. Fine. Knock yourself out. In the in the in in real reality, no thing is much more of a thing. [laughter] You're not a thing. Of course, you're not defined by a thing. You're not defined. But we can't relate to that. So how much does no thingness have to condense itself and and and and I don't want to say itself but def compress itself and limit itself and dilute itself and restrict itself and eclipse itself in order for no thing to become a thing. How much? Think of that. >> Even in the physical world, >> yeah, >> we think now we're stationary. We don't move anywhere, right? >> Yet the earth rotates like >> the the earth rotates around the like yeah even more 100,000 >> and the sun rotates around the that black hole is like I don't know few million miles an hour >> so it's completely relative we think we station we don't such universe that it's just mind >> right >> so our perception is super exactly >> so even in physical reality >> yes forget about spiritual reality. >> Yeah. And the truth is if you take a microscope and you look at anything, suddenly you see there's a whole universe that we were never aware of. And we called that iron for thousands of years. And not because we were trying to lie. And it's true emotionally. People could be stuck in certain paradigms about who they are and who other people are for 50 years, 60 years, 80 years. And and and they build from that a whole reality. They invest things and they get married and they stop their whatever. So many things happen. They build relationships. They destroy relationships. They go into different states of life and all based on their own definition of reality with their limited perception. And then suddenly something cracks you open. Right. And like, oh my god. Oh my god. Wow. You know, back to the metaphor of the chicken the egg. Like my whole life I was in that egg and I thought that was yesesh. Anything outside of that egg was stupid. It was iron or dangerous. My life is that egg. That's life. Please. And anybody who argued with me, I'd kill them if not physically, emotionally. You're done. I'm done with you. I'm done. And and and and I'm protecting myself. And this is life, Josh. You understand? >> I'm trying. >> Which dimension do you understand? I'm focusing on the little bit. >> Okay, good. >> In other words, in other words, in this is really reality. Like you have to understand that and then suddenly my things crack open and I'm what was yesterday's is today the only thing that matters. >> I'll give a simple example in the emotional world. Sometimes there are people who build their entire lives around disconnection from others. They invest all of their imagination and brilliance and creativity to remain disconnected because that for them is safety. That means I exist. The moment there's real connection, it spells danger. >> Security. >> Yeah. Security gates is >> is literally protection and and and and it's brilliant. This is called survival templates of the nephew Bahamas which are very very human normal stuff. Animals have it. We have it. just animals don't have it in the sophisticated way. We do it, we build philosophy around it and we write books and we do bestsellers around it and we make a lot of money and we just whatever and it works and then suddenly suddenly God helps and you're given an opportunity for a little awareness or a little healing and suddenly you take a look and you see that at 2 years old I created an entire emotional philosophy denying who I really am and what I really need because of the pain and suddenly I realized 50 years I invested in something that was fake has nothing to do with me >> literally a investing in a Ponzi scheme and and I was innocent and meaning it was coming from an innocent place and when that cracks open it's just wow and understand that that awareness is only one niche higher if you would go to a niche higher Suddenly the level of expansiveness is completely in a different magnitude. Right? We can't imagine what happens to the soul the second it leaves the body. We look at it and we say death. Death. The guy's dead. If you ever saw a dead person. Yeah. It's it's it's like wow person was alive and a few minutes later boom you look at a body it's dead. That's all we because that's what we see from. Yay. She became iron. From a living body became a corpse. And it's true. And that's what says there's a mess and there's of mace and everything that happens after that you have to bury it whatever all the because we recognize that reality. Now if you were if you were on a if you were in the nishama reality what do you think what do you think you see the second the nish isama leaves the body what happens any level of consciousness that we the our deepest levels of spiritual consciousness that we had is not even a quarter of a quarter of a quarter of a fraction of fraction right of a percent of what the soul experiences that moment but in our world that's called ayion it's it's a completely it's a completely yakavino ly mace what says yakavino ly mace [laughter] that's the idea because for him the goof was a lavush so it's like if I change if I change my MY MY JACKET YOU oh you died I didn't die I just changed my jacket he literally saw the body as a container it's a it's a beautiful container it's a beautiful container that channels channels electricity and now there's a different container there's a different lavush or no lavush so this isn't everything in life is that way everything. So >> I'm not getting specific now. There are certain presum yeah that's the concept. There's power and there's influence. Power. What's the difference? People think it's the same. It's not. Power seizes the moment you die. If you own Fifth Avenue in Manhattan and half of the Riviera and half of the real estate in Lakewood and Muny and Tom's River, you have power. And that means you have influence. But it's power. The moment the person dies, it's all gone because you can't own the Riviera and Lakewood and Tom's River after you're dead. Somebody else has to own it. If I have a company and I have 100% of shares, but I need an investor, so I have to give you 50% of the shares. That 50% I lost. Now you have it. And if I have to give more, I lose that and I stay with 10%. That's power. Influence is the other way. Influence sometimes begins much more after the person dies [snorts] because it's a completely different paradigm. Power is physical control. It's a zero sum game. If I have it, you don't have it. If you have it, I don't have it. Influence is like a candle. When you light another candle, the first candle didn't lose its light. And if you light a thousand candles, the first candle didn't lose light. Not only that, the first candle is now multiplied a thousand times. That's influence. Power is me versus you. Either I own the building or you own the building or we split it. We can't both own the building. And if I'm gone, I don't own it. Somebody else has it. Influence is the light that you ignite in others. That could be much more after a person dies. In fact, that's when you see people's influence. >> So, if we see like certain they draw >> Yeah. >> much bigger audiences. >> Yeah. Exactly. >> Right. So, it means there's clearly something there. >> Exactly. That is so big. >> Yeah. and so real that even if we don't see it >> and it's sometimes much more real than the physical. Yeah. >> Right. >> It says in Tanya wrote a letter after passed away. It's a very very moving letter. There's a letter there he wrote. You know was he was one of the students of the mag who made the first aliyah of Zion. He he headed he wrote a s called priorit considered him one of his teachers because he was from the oldest of the maga after the maga passed away he went to him anyway so after he passed away passed away 1788 the alterb he's buried in the old cemetery the alterb wrote a letter to the his so very very moving letter so [snorts] he says over there he says The life of a sadic is not a life of flesh. It's a life of energy, faith, love, and awe. What does that mean? What does it mean? He has to drink water. He has to sleep. He has to mean everything that everybody else needs. If not, he's not going to live. Thehat is that this is the of what's the yesh and what's the by regular person? The food that's life. I go to the bathroom, have a bed. Yeah. By the no the yesesh is that's the yesesh. The gof the eating is a lavush. It's a kali. It's a channel to be able to channel in this world in my body. I need to eat. But the food is not food. The food is a kali to be able to embody. That's the food. Yeah, there's a from the chart. So he says the Gmorra says I mean Alexander Alexander I saw sorry the Alexander he says like this that says if you have an from the world without a bra it's like your guil you're stealing from say what's he says he says you're having from not from the [laughter] you make a well but you're having from has not from the the real one knows the he says a Jew wants to scream out the middle of the day. He wants to scream. The problem is going to be so he's not. So what does he do? So he takes a cup of water. It's a cup of water. Ah just so what's the water? The water is not water. It's the means for an end. You made a but from it's not from the real is the that's the yesesh. >> You want the yesesh in this world. Yeah. You want to be in a body. So yeah, of course you have to eat. Of course you have to drink. Of course you have to sleep. Of course you need money. Of course you need panosa. But for the other person it's I make a because you have to pay YOU HAVE TO PAY TAXES. YEAH. You have to pay taxes to the IRS. If not you get you end up with so you have to pay taxes to God. The IRS or at least you think but God doesn't so pay your money. So pay do your [laughter] says that's the ga that's the ga. Yeah. It's a it's a it's a beautiful V. >> Huh? >> I was stealing >> you stealing. We're all We're all It's a perpetual world of gaza and and we have to know that that's the world we live in. Yeah. There's a piece of steakare. It's very tempting. It's very very tempting. So means there's nothing in it for him. The only thing is the only yesesh is the lus for the yesesh of alus to be embodied. Of course yeah you need to eat but you need you need to eat whatever you eat. If it's a banana or it's a piece of meat you don't have to >> for skiing. So you have to eat an apple in the middle of the in make. [snorts] >> Ah, I see. They're busy. >> Okay. I'm not going to tell you to go with an apple in your mouth. >> Okay. >> Huh? >> Because it's gaz in a deeper frequency. It's not like it's not like you own something and I took away from you. But it's it's it's it's the it's the experience of gaza >> denying the blessing. >> I'll tell you why. Because in the world of y in the world of arash, that type of gaza is called ayion. So it's called kilu. You understand? If you would be looking from a higher frequency, you would say it's mamish gaza. In fact, you would see it as worse gaza than ga down here. Gaza down here is just, you know, it's like a merry ground. It goes from you to me, from me to him. Yeah. But yet we live in this world and this is where mitzvah like was good in a very gosh that's when the rebb said this he brought a beautiful example from such a beautiful example he said that every idea is always expressed in every because it's one so there's a shabas [snorts] it's I think that's the gimlier in if you carry from there has to be a shear to be liable. So for example, if you take out a choland bean, little tiny chand bean from your house into a public domain into Fifth Avenue in Manhattan, even if the real you're not liable according to we say but you're not liable. You don't have to bring a carbon. You're not liable because there has to be a there has to be a called food that people you don't go to somebody's house with a cholen bean. What's that going to do for you? You take a crumb of kala that that's not food. It's it's not it's not considered a mala. So here's the question. What if the cholin bean is gooey? So I don't want to touch it. So you know what I do? I put it in a cholin pot cuz I want to bring it to your house and I take out the cholin pot and I bring it to your house and I carry it on my What would you think? You took a pot like this. You take a pot like this. It has a shear. Yeah. The answer is your potter. Why? Because why do you take out the pot? >> For the bean. So, so the pot is subservient. It's tough to the chin bean. And the chin bean is that's the so explain what's what's like thisly. Yeah. What did you want to carry to the other person? You didn't want to carry the pot. You wanted to carry the chalen bean. In order to have a cholen bean, you don't want to touch it for whatever reason. Either [snorts] you're sophisticated, you have fine schmecker, or it doesn't it's wet, whatever. >> You didn't have fork, >> huh? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. So, the whole purpose you're taking out the kali is just to carry this. So even though when somebody looks at it physically this guy is carrying much more than another guy but the other guy carried an egg he's and you carried a pot like this your potly is on a deeper level looks at the kali as an extension of the food it's ent because its entire identity is here to channel the food so it assumes the properties of the food and the food is so even though physically you're carrying a but your intention is the food. So it's as though the is so this is a classic that on one you're talking about a real yes and yet it's the whole k is ay. So when this Jew is drinking the water because he wants to make when he's taking care of his because he wants to embody so that's what it is because the whole buser is just a channel. The kay is just here for the kal is not a mits. What it means is a mits. It's not a mitsically it's not a mits. And so so in these two dimensions this is now of course one level of a higher level is because it's it's deeper and deeper and deeper right in one frequency could be and yet a higher reality that's because what was a yes in this world the higher world is there's only if you look So a person can have an expansive consciousness in this world in the most incredible way to the point where you're really living in a higher frequency. And yet the second the soul leaves the body, you can't even compare. The whole reality that this person experienced which was so deep was still after billions of layers of darkness and just a little glimmer of light came through. But it's still significant cuz it's generally so now what's what's the here? So this is so he says comes the and says this when she has the baby after she brings him to so she says here's the big you should say forem is only he knows the truth [laughter] he doesn't need microscopes and telescopes. Yeah, they say there was once an astronomer. So he said [snorts] he developed the best telescope in the world was in France the best and he looked everywhere and he didn't find God. He saw everything. He was looking for God. I want to see him. So there was a a musician, a violinist, and he responded. He said, "It's interesting. I took apart my violin completely. Took it apart. Disintegrated completely. I looked at every particle. I couldn't find music. I couldn't find music." That was his response. So I came to a conclusion there's no such a thing as music. It's all fiction. [laughter] He wants God to fit into his telescope. That's the level of arrogance. God is going to fit into my telescope. And if God does fit into his telescope, I want to know what type of God is he. If my telescope crash and suddenly it's God created in my image, he wants a God that he can create or at least that he can measure. Even if he can't, at least he can measure. He wants that to fit in. Till a person doesn't get through that block, he's always stuck in tat always. The question is how sophisticated right you see this is the hardest thing for scientists to give up. They have beautiful sophistications. religion, ISIS, Islamists, Christianity, Inquisitions, they have beautiful. The moment you go here, it's chaos. Now it's fundamentalism, radicalism. The whole world is going to be killed in the name of religion because you already passed that realm where we're the bosses of everything. But as we know, Stalin and Hitler were secular people. They weren't religious people. So, but but but the point is the dangers are real. Religious has religion has dangers when God is becomes another element of now I could do anything because I God is invisible and I heard him tell me to kill you and your family right but this blockage with all the justifications this is what eclipses this is what blocks all all real growth >> yeah yeah and it it forces me to reduce the marvel brilliance of the universe to very limited uh very limited for formulations and equations very limited. I can't really marvel at it because I don't allow myself to experience. So everything has to remain in a way that it should work with my mind so I can make sense. So how much truth do we have to force? It's like forcing the circle into the square literally you know how much do you have to do? How much work do you have to do? And how brilliant do you have to do to do that? you're not allowed to have the square even stick out a little bit [snorts] and and you literally deprive yourself from everything that's available. So he says the name of Hashem he includes really? Yeah. would have stopped right here. Okay, this is already a life's work. So now he goes further. He says in kale is both. What do you mean in kale is both? No, that's not true. For us there's for him there's law. For Hashem it's clear what the is what comes and says no just like whatever is the kale deises that even that's also true reality. Yeah. In other words the authenticity of course is not only in it's also Yeah. What's So she explains what does mean it's one of those instances in where the word is written one way and pronounced another way. When you look in it, it'll say with an alf, but you don't pronounce it with an al if you pronounce it with av. Now there's no difference in pronunciation between lo and li with an al. But in meaning it's opposites means not means to him. So is the way it's written is there's no schemes there's no knowledge there means for him for him it's all aware. He's aware of it all and it's all aligned means aware and it also means aligned like it's all aligned. So which is it? It's one of So these are one of the mysteries of it's written this way it's pronounced another way the way it's written doesn't really have meaning. So it's like one of those things says no that's the whole the and the and the that's the and he explains with represents what you don't do with represents what you do do means not it's like what we spoke in the last year the difference of mitzvah I pushed them away so the first things is you have to know what you push away you don't do passive. It's not for me. And then there's what connects you to me to him. This is what connects. This is what you do do. Every relationship has yes and has no. Every yes must have a no. A no is only a powerful no if there's a yes. But every yes means saying no to something. If not, it's not a yes. I want to be connected to you. I have to be disconnected from that which is disconnect going to disconnect me from you. This is not an easy thing for people. I want to connect to you and I want to be connected to everything else too. I want to lose weight but I want to eat the pizza. I want to go to the gym but I also want the kdesh. I want a relationship with you but I also want other things. >> Yeah. I want everything. There's no such a thing. There's lie and there's lie. So he says from the word they should be identical because you have this creates the the parallelis things become parallel aligned that see face to face with each other. They start mirroring each other. They're like looking at each other. What do you mean they're looking at each other? THEY'RE ENEMIES. SAYS YOU'RE AND SAYS, "NO, YOU'RE SAYS YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. YOU'RE NOTHING." HE SAYS, "YOU'RE NOTHING. I'M He says, "No, I'm means they start having a with each other. They mirror each other. They align that the becomes like the claw. that the even though it's not doesn't occupy space just like but not because it's and that's the of what does this mean though I live in the reality where the physical is the maybe philosophically I can relate that there is other realities maybe I could be humble about it but the kashem god is not afraid Kale is also also is also and this essentially is the is the big is this in other words there is the of and a person has to know about and there's moments of no question but the real is that could become And not because it's fake and fiction. It's not fake. But is not afraid so to speak of. >> Yeah. It's all part of the it's the whole of Basilani that in the separateness there's a different type of connection. It's all the same. >> Yeah. But this is already changing the paradigm. It's what we call Yesesh. The fact that we're calling it yet, you have to know that it's and it's a lower level and it's but that's the first step of spiritual development and it's revolutionary. But you could stay there and you're getting stuck. As long as you're stuck in the conflict of you're stuck. It's a very sophisticated stuckness. I should say it's a very spiritual stuckness. It's very very deep stuckness because it's the stuckness of appreciating is really and it's the first step in development. In other words, if I'm not like a little upset about then I'm not really getting it. But a deeper level is and this is going to be the whole of this is the of the is really another version of this version 2.0 zero. [laughter] This ver version zero this version it's another version of >> it's a mirror the language changes because the language is a language of yes the physical it's not it's not a temptation it's real expansive consciousness to the point where consciousness even seizes and everything outside of or at least but in the realis it means that even as the yesesh is a yesh It doesn't have to be. And this is going to be the that he's going to explain. How does that happen? That's the mitzvah essay, the mitzvah are the two dimensions of creating the alignment between because all mitzvah happen in the yesesh. IF YOU TAKE AWAY YESESH, there's no mitzvah. In infinite consciousness, you can't make Sorry, sorry. If you go on a journey and you experience infinite consciousness, beautiful. You could sing a niggan. You could sing the alter is but is a you're not [laughter] that's when you should make a suddenly you come and you take a physical piece of you take a coffee and suddenly you can make a which is a gileus. You can't be there's only one person to love over there. There's only one there's only one experience to love, one reality to love. In this world is a mitzvah. [laughter] All mitzvah require Yesh. There's no mitzvah without a yesh. In infinite consciousness, fill in is there's no fillin. If it's filling, you need a physical animal with physical skin with physical parchment with physical ink with a physical arm. And if your goof ceases to exist if there's only subatomic energy and then deeper energy and old there's no >> so how come that he's wearing also >> so we explained that fill in the higher worlds is a completely different type of filling. It's not the filling of if I put on that filling, I wasn't mit. So the iso with an al and with that's the where it becomes that both schemes the scheme and scheme become the yesh is reinterpreted. Our yesesh is reinterpreted not as a contradiction and as a competition and as a contrast which is true in one step of real that's true until ma that was true it was true and we're going to see how can do it not was the first step understood this and therefore said I'm not going to waste time with you with with with I got to go to and he did that amazingly he became a channel He lived in the frequency of it. >> Yeah. And he fused it in that but he says where was it in even though he affected the earth here is going to become the of that's going to be the of that's the whole of the >> the seven names are only this world. No, the seven names are in all the worlds because even the highest world requires a name. It's not it's not in its purity. Even the highest world he said needs everybody is they're all the higher the world is the more it knows it's inadequacy. Remember the higher you are the more you become aware of how much you are because the higher you are you start feeling more. >> Yeah. the more the the more knowledge the more knowledge the more ble it's not the other way around if I don't have knowledge I could think you know if I learn for 50 years I'll know something but if you learn for 3,000 years and you realize you don't know anything what does that do to you then you become a humble man >> yeah then you become yeah you become become a malench they say there was a Jew came to he wanted gill so says it's not for you you don't have to see a leo he nudged and begged him he says, "No, I I want to I deserve it." So the BM gave him an AO for 10 years. That's what they say. He told him what to do. After 10 years, he didn't see. So he came back to the BMP and he was very broken and he said, "10 years I worked down the drain and I worked hard." BMP says, "Not down the drain." Amazing thing happened. What happened? He says, "You became a humble person." Right? And sometimes that's that that's what you need much more than Gileo. What's Gileio? They say I have after 10 years he became a normal person. So that's the >> huh? [snorts] >> Yeah. That that may have been his biggest gillo. Where's Elio one of was he going to cap up some malik somewhere? He became a humble person. He realized who he is. That's the deepest the hayesh that's the deepest galio. So in a very in in a in a very practical takeaway way what we have here is that the ultimate purpose is not to obliterate. It's basically I live in I'm upset about it and I'm just living in illusions and fictions. That's not the kashm means god is the god of also is not a mistake. It's not because he was playing dice with the universe and he just said let the yesesh think that they're yesh until they die and they'll see it was all a game. That's not the vert means that the kale is a kale of both is as much divine as that's the that's the revolution wants to teach us again the first step is also very is the key in other words before you get to this you have to really understand the difference between the two and the and the infinite contrast between the two because if not I'm not really transforming I'm just dumbing down there's a very big difference between the two you understand dumbing down or really understanding that is not a contradiction to it's a very different experience but the real is so when a person is in a moment of what's the of the way it's seen down here not up there in which the is the reality so what's the over there the actus is recognizing that my job now is to introduce the actus we're in the yesesh not be afraid of the yesesh. Ah, in a higher perspective, this is nauseating. [laughter] It's it's it's it's like non-existent. What's nauseiating about it is how much it says it exists, right? That becomes nauseating because it's like a lie. Lies are nauseating, right? What's the most nauseating thing in reality? Inauthenticity. If you're if you're a real person, the worst thing is you hate lies. Yeah, it's it's sick because it's it's just what's worse than that. Like that just that kills everything, right? The lies. The lies. People don't realize this. That's the most nauseating thing in reality. The the lack of truth and that's what the soul is most allergic to. And in the level of this is the most nauseating. Leave me alone. Leave me alone. And that's why freaked out and they're like we're done. Right. And Benazi said, "I ain't coming back. You got to be a mug. I'm not coming back. We have to sit with with with lies my whole life and and and and make and be a clown, be a chameleon. Masks and more masks and more masks." You have to understand the existential crisis that people who get it live with. It's not a simple thing. What's the purpose? >> Not [snorts] only that, the moment you start seeing deeper levels of reality, it's like ah [snorts] you're sitting at meetings, you're sitting with people and 99% of the conversations are like not because anybody's bad, but because like the the the the superficiality, the the the the the lack of authenticity, the lack of honesty. So many so many m not not not in a sinister way even not like deceptive and manipulative that's for sure nauseating that's really nauseating but even just sometimes regular conversation it's so stripped from true honesty and authenticity think about how many conversations between people are really really honest without defenses without masks without any cover up just think about that how many conversations you have in your life like that you don't have to answer it's fine when was The last time you sat with one person and nothing was nothing was was eclipsed. Nothing. Not a single thought did you have to hide including the craziest most insane parts of your identity? What did you have such a conversation last? Not with yourself. With yourself is with somebody else. >> That's what the friends are for >> right? But there's friends and there's friends, right? There's acquaintances, there's friends, there's real friends. And if you have one real friend, No, the one that you acquired when you were young. >> Okay. >> Yehuda had a friend. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. The only time there's a friend in the whole is Yehuda and his friend. And what's what happens over there? That when the story with Tamar he could send him to go give the goats. So that's the definition of a friend. Powerful. [snorts] Powerful. Huh? The truth is in this week's par is called friend, right? It's interesting that he calls his father-in-law a friend. It's interesting. Huh? Yeah. Huh? It was clear why. He was clear with her children back. >> Yeah. >> He was a friend. I hear >> they were not afraid to discuss it. >> Yeah. I hear. >> So, so, so what's the nuda? The more sensitive a person is, the more these things become like despicable. Not despicable even in a judgmental way because that's another form of arrogance. But despicable is I don't want to connect to it. If there's excrement on the table, I'm not going to eat it for breakfast. Sorry. And in everything outside of Yeshi is excrement. Because it's like just it's like so like nothing. So when a person really understands that now they can come to a deeper place. And what's the deeper place? The new place is kale is hashem. the kale. Hashem is not just the day of is also the day of it's also kale. So get off your high horse and don't become arrogant in your spiritual transcendence. >> Yeah. [laughter] >> For God it was good enough for you also good enough. But not because you're compromising reality. YOU COULD SAY, "OKAY, YEAH, WE'RE just limited guys and every that's not the vert." That would be cutting off the relationship. God dumbing down himself and saying, "You know what? You're just a little bunch of guys. Take your little circus here called and live here and have fun. The whole this is not because the whole relationship is here. Not because I'm dumbing down reality." IT'S TRUE. I'M dumbing down reality so that they can be a yesh. That's true. And yet the of that through the and the two become aligned that they start mirroring each other. So becomes literally it becomes like a mirror of what do you mean it's a mirror? It's the opposite. That's what a mirror is. [laughter] A mirror is the opposite. So it literally mirrors it. So lao over there the higher is yes and the lower is ion and what does this mirror this mirror turns it around suddenly what over there was yesesh here becomes ion that's what a mirror does right and what was over there in here becomes yesesh but it I'm mirroring you so what does it mean I'm mirroring you it's another VERSION OF LAW BUT WHAT'S THIS VERSION OF LAW THAT THE yesesh is real that mat is real and that's the only place where mitzvah are going to So when says by I want you to do what is he really saying? I something about the yesesh that makes me so connected to you. There's something about the yesesh that excites the deepest parts of our relationship. There's something about the yesh that I'm completely invested in. If you would be this relationship couldn't happen. The veo and the vey couldn't happen. There's something here like as I told you there's no mitzvah that can't be that could be done without yesesh without the yesesh of no mitzvah you can't shake a lul and you can't shake an estri and you can't light chabas candles and you can't be nizer in any of nothing of you can't put a muz you can't say with your mouth and with your teeth and with your tongue you'll experience butish the mitzvah of you can't do that I need a mouth and not The whole of this is an example. The whole of happens in the yesesh. So why do you have to know? Because if you don't know then it's [laughter] then you missed the point that you're just stuck in the stake. That's the once you know the mis Friday night once the bos put his hand on his and they sang a and he closed his eyes and suddenly they saw an ax with a imagine a behemoth with a so they asked the bos what's this so he said there's a yid and he's eating he's eating steak he's eating meat for shabas but he's so connected to the steak that he became the behemoth so that's why you just see an ox cuz he's an ox now. So he said so what's the so he said because the shrim is big shabas so that didn't turn into an ox everything else became an ox so [snorts] his entire mitas was a behem the only thing that remained was the [laughter] what was the trying to teach something he was trying to teach what Judaism can become if you don't do inner work that's what it becomes >> yeah I'm a behemoth with a and it's not just when I'm eating it could be my entire life. I'm a behemoth with a black hat or whatever it is. The yamaka taka won't become a behem because it's a yama yam. But the everything else is a behem. He was trying to say this is what happens when it's stripped from consciousness. What I'm doing is I'm just using religion to justify my hedenism, my my fears, my insecurity, my obsessions, my addictions. I'm just using God. Uh yeah. For every Yeah. for my distractions. I just have a cover up. Shabas somebody once said there was a so he was he was a worked out person they call him of his name was Kman so they somebody once asked him you know was chabas and he was eating very uh scant so he says you know uh when you eat like this you eat this haba this is haba this is haba he said ms ms for every piece you go into habink dart but it smells over there. In other words, it could be tak there's good things happening, but when the person is not worked out, it could smell. So this is so that's where the alignment happens. Okay. How do you how do you explain the