When I Transcend Self-Consciousness, Real Healing Begins

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addictions that there is crazy shame around it and on the other hand it affects so many so many people you can ask the therapists in this class and uh it's something that's really really it's it destabilizes and really confuses people in a very deep way so we decided to do a very open session about it that's tuesday 8 30 in the evening new york time everybody is invited and so it's a webinar and a zoom and also going to be streamed live tomorrow tuesday we have the women's class at 12 45 and thursday morning 7 30 we're going to resume this mimer okay so now let's go right into what we have been learning a few days ago last week we began the my miami zachery remember what amalek did to you that de la baby said purim zain purim 1957. we already had two classes on this mimer and now we are up to class three you could review it i hope you will review it it's a very very uh powerful discussion and very loaded very heavy with the many personal applications we're now up to if dallas saved is the fourth chapter it's page 155 in your source sheets please open your sword streets if you're on zoom great if you're on the yeshiva.net you have the source sheets right near the video or below the video or on the right side of the video save dollar the bottom of page 155. is a very interesting expression via schleimer is an expression that's used very often in thai space tyson says the is a question and the ashleigh is an answer literally the ashleigh means one can say like there is what to say there is a way to answer so the rabbi would often use this word these this expression the yeshulima there is an answer but here he adds bader efsu means is a little bit of a hesitancy means it's like i can't say this for certain i can't say this i can't say this for certainty means it's possible perhaps to give the following explanation but there's a beautiful story that was once the sixth saying over a minute his bamitzvah from his father known as the shop and said something in the middle of the which means with a little hesitancy like perhaps it's possible to say this and when his son at the bar mitzvah said over the miami he took out the words buddha hasher he took out the words he just said this is how it is so his father asked him later why didn't you say those words he says versus my dear but then she's by me for you it's a possible explanation for me it's a good explanation i don't have to hesitate about it so he he took out he says if it's an f-share for you it's a vader for me it's just parenthetically based on what we explained above we'll understand the difference between yoda and lawyer the mats we learned before if you remember the gemara says in megillah this was the beginning not the beginning of the moment the second the second the second chapter of the mimer the gemara says person is obliged to be inebriated on purim to be intoxicated and put it until you don't know the difference you're unaware you're not cognizant of the difference between cursed is human and blessed is mark what does this mean we ask the questions i'm not going to repeat now the previous classes because they're deep classes and i want to get further i want to go further but you could review it we asked all the questions apparently it's a very strange commandment that ampuram which is all about the defeat of we have to celebrate to the point that we don't know the difference if you don't know the differences no purim if ahmad is not a bad guy madhukai is not a good guy that there's no reason to have a feast the whole reason we feast upon him is because haman was cursed and martha was blessed and the other questions that we asked you know is this really a jewish theme that you become so drunk that you don't know the difference etcetera so the laboratory ever quoted that result says in it means scripture it means literally it doesn't just mean you get confused in your brain and you go to sleep there's an interpretation like that too it's brought even in their mother that some people are mad they drink a little more than they're accustomed to they get tired they fall asleep when you fall asleep you don't know the difference when you're sleeping it's there's such a there's such a view in childhood as well the rama brings it in and some people do it that way they get a little tired and they fall asleep but darizel says it means that the person actually as a result of their inebriation can utter the words baruch blessed is that easily says not the other way not the other way around cursed is not but what's the meaning of this is said it means that i'm putting the jew has the ability as he says that even in the clipper even in the husk of haman there is a spark of kadusa because if there was no spark of kadusa it couldn't live haman couldn't live and by the way that's the deeper meaning i once heard from the red but the gemara says in holland of koflametas what's the source of human entire who says amman as a source in taira the answer is if something exists in this world it has a source in torah if something exists in this world it has a nithuts it has a divine spark there's a source for human entirety it's not just a question a cute question where there's apostate that alludes to the gemara answers but there's a very profound idea if haman wouldn't exist in china human wouldn't exist in the world now this doesn't mean khalil khalil to white wash haman was a russian was a was a hitler haman was an amaleki he wanted to destroy every single jew and he almost did it he had a plan of genocide because the nitsut sinhan is so distorted it's so covered up it's so buried it's so inaccessible that human himself has no access to his nitsuits if haman would know about his then wouldn't be then would be a fine man he would be a mensch human becomes ammon because the spark is completely completely concealed in embedded and covered over and buried in husks and that's called clipper shells husks as we spoke shabbos be after after muslim about the concept what a clip is it covers up everything inside and therefore says that reason when a jew says blessed human what is he doing he's bringing light to that spark but there's one condition you can only say it without kavanagh only without kavanaugh only without the liberation only when you're drunk says theresa if you do it with kavanaugh if you do it with premeditated clarity oh yeah that's not good because then the light goes to the clipper not to the nitrous that's the reason shara kavanaugh says this suddenly have explained that the fact that you don't know the difference means that you're accessing the spark of holiness of the gemara says in getting that the descendants of haman taught tayden in public and benebrach mabney banav shalham on lam duterte in other words haman had descendants who not only became jews but they became teachers of torah how does that happen and they had hormones genes they had hummus jeans the answer is because there's an it this there's a spark there's a knit so when you add the layer the means you reach a space where you can touch and access the spark but it can only be in the position of adalayatha what's adalayada so the dev is said only when a person goes out of his or her das and you go to a space beyond daas then you can identify and sublimate the spark of if you say baruch before layada it can reach himself the shell of not the nitrates of it reaches haman the way haman is and that of course is dangerous but what's the explanation she explained the whole long discussion about the gemarian was afraid to confront paris after this he comes now to the explanation we often translate the other means you know and ugly other means you're confused you don't know what hit you because when you're drunk you don't know what's going on right or a person is really drunk they're confused they're overwhelmed they're not sober they don't know what they're doing they don't remember what they did they don't remember they don't they're not they're not fully alert they're like you know they're drunk that's not that's the superficial shot and lawyer they represent two different dimensions in life yada means that my service of hashem my way of living is based on tom vedas tom vadas means time is reason and das is intelligence understanding there's an explanation that there's two types of avedas in the basamiktas one was called an aveda tama doesn't mean it's not complete in the sense that you didn't do a good job it just means there's still something to do afterwards so it's not called away the tama because tom means like tom van islam you know means it's over done finished avoid the tama means and avoid the after this whether there's nothing else to do you're finished avoid the says you still have to do something for example if a cayenne checks the animal it's not over you have to receive the blood you have to sprinkle the blood yeah you have to burn certain parts of the carbon on the mizbaya it's not the completion it's very important but there's avoider that comes after so the rabbit says like this is avoided it's a beginning it's an amazing beginning to serve god with your brain with your with your perception with your understanding they put it into yiddish the whole maya was in yiddish but usually they were written in hebrew but whenever there was an expression that was juicy they put it into yiddish because the hebrew doesn't capture it you see muslim means he still has a serious thing to do allah what does this mean this reaching the state that's beyond us this is also known in siddhas as bitter macias my entire mathias my entire identity becomes subsumed in the ancient scythe for the infinite and as long as the person lives in the space of tom vidas that's called a sadiq but it's a southern chain there's still an aveda afterwards it's not bad it's wonderful but it's like in the basement there's still there's still some work i got to do now let me let me just define what these two things are in life in a very in a we're trying to do it in a practical way the mind is a big gift you know judaism always believed in the gift of the mind are those who sometimes discourage people from thinking it's a terrible thing because you know one of the girls asked me last night she said how do i know i'm not in a cult this is a girl you know with a very very froome house and a hasidic house here in muncie and she wants to know how do i know i'm not an occult right so she's asking me i'm like why you asking me if you're in a cult i'm also an occult you're asking another member of the cult if you're in a cult or not but i told her the first thing the first thing the first way to know you're not on a cult is to always ask this question because when you're in a cult they don't want you to ask the questions when you're not on a cult you can ask how do i know i'm not an occult but i said the first thing is whenever somebody tells you shut down your mind don't think don't ask questions you're not allowed to think that's not a good sign because if hashem gave a person a brain it's supposed to be used and supposed to be maximized if hashem gave you a heart he gave you a personality he gave you a soul he gave you resources talents gifts they weren't made to destroy and crush and belittle and dis and denigrate no they're made to be maximized and utilized to their fullest so tom vedas yoda is not only a good thing it's a vital thing that a person utilizes their mind to the fullest to try to decipher and understand and comprehend and assimilate and internalize and integrate that's what the mind is on all different levels each person according to his or her capacity so what's ada at the other doesn't mean i'm threatened by the mind it doesn't mean i want to shut down the mind because i hate people who think or ask questions people who are afraid of questions are usually people who don't have answers and therefore questions trigger them when you're a confident person you're not afraid of questions you could listen to a question if you don't know something you say you don't know we have to research it if something is unknowable you explain why it's unknowable that's why he doesn't say la mata mitamvidas and that's what i told the girl occult is la mata matamvadas lamaila matamvidas it's very different la matamatamvadas means i'm afraid of intelligence some people are afraid of intelligence i'm afraid of intelligent people when people show intelligence i want to crush them so that their intelligence goes out the window and they stop thinking and then everything is wonderful they become submissive that's a dangerous thing we don't believe in that you don't have to if something is ms you don't need to close down your mind in order to experience it you don't need to become blind they call it blind faith blind faith is a terrible expression faith has nothing to do with blindness blindness means you have to shut your eyes in order to be able to believe that's not the jewish harmony you'd have to shut your eyes that ambum didn't shut his eyes didn't shut his eyes that barbarial didn't shut his eyes of alba didn't shut his eyes there al-baghdad didn't shut his eyes the irisell didn't shut his eyes the basham didn't shut his eyes the vilnigan didn't shut his eyes and the laboratory ever didn't shut his eyes their eyes were open you could read all their spot and you see their eyes were very open they didn't shut their eyes to become blind the concept of vamuna is not i am competing with sekhal it's going beyond sakhal it's very different it's very different yada is a blessing it's an away if a person thinks that all of life they're going to capture with sale that's not going to work there's a moment in life where a person realizes there's some things you cannot wrap your brain around and if you remember we once spoke about this on purim at length at one of the puddin fabregans this is the essence of mordechai's words to esther you remember murder his words to esther chapter four of the megillah marduk is trying to convince esther to go into and plead with him to annul the decree of genocide against the jewish people and esther refuses esther says it's dangerous and mordechai insists and he pushes and his final words to her that ultimately broke the ice and convinced her to go what were his final words mcgillis says to chapter four pedagog who knows if this is not the reason you became the queen so the rubber one said i put on fabrega and thompson base 1962 a few years after this asked mordechai should have been more convincing should have said i know i know i'm the head martika was the head of the sanhedrin he was the spiritual leader of the jewish people he should have told esther aniy i know or we know that things don't happen by mistake there's you became a queen because of this why was mardukai so that is in english who knows maybe yeah maybe not who knows so mordechai you want me to go sacrifice my life because you have a suffix because you have a doubt me idea who knows so the rebels said mordechai was not expressing doubt murder was expressing a truth it's beyond us it's higher than das it's in other words esther can ask ask a big question why me how did i end up in this position esther was a regular base yaakov girl she was valedictorian of basayakov and by khanna by suruh and by slifken basarya and even brewers llamas nevaeh she was the best of the best kram de la creme the trajectory of esther was to go build a beautiful jewish home and suddenly she ends up in the palace of a persian alcoholic drunkard monarch who's not jewish and who hates jews even more than hamanas the gemara says how is this part of my mission and martha says who knows this is not something that you can capture in das a person's ultimate mission in life you can't explain intellectually a father comes a mother comes and says why do i have to deal with this nissanian with this challenge sometimes people go through things with their in their own lives their marriages their children they say what did i do different what happened to me what happened in my house there's no intellectual explanation that you're going to explain logically and mathematically why this person's child came out and this person's child is going through so many struggles the answer is me idea and me is 50 members 50. so the rebbe said meme you this it's the 50th shah the 50th portal the gemara says in rosh hashanah that moshe attained 49 shari bina portals of wisdom not the 50th and the market says when did he attend the 50th on the day he went up to har nevoy the harnevoy the mountain of navoinova is nun boy nun boy nevo that's when moishe reached the 50th that's beyond us so mordechai tells esther this is a moment of ada it's a moment of embracing reality much deeper than your brain can understand which means don't reduce reality to the capacity of your brain because if you reduce your reality to the capacity of your brain we live in a very limited space and when i live in a limited space there's so much anger and resentment and frustration and anxiety because i'm trying to reduce infinity to finiteness to cover understand what i'm saying don't try to reduce infinity to finite toot mordechai says i'm not going to take this experience of you ending up in the palace and just turning and turning it into a little shallow shooter's toyota into a little a little pillpool this one i'm going to go like this and go like this and explain and bring you some safer and then bring your isma israel and then call it a bachelor and then give you another vart and then bring araya from this safe and that's safer and everything is good and it works perfect i'm not gonna do that i'm not going to try to put a circle into a square i'm sorry we're not going to do that a circle in kabbalah represents infinity a square represents finiteness i'm not going to force the circle into the square i'm not going to take your life which has so much mystery to it so much grander to it and reduce it to a finite experience i'm not going to do that i'm going to challenge you and challenge myself can i open myself up to the infinity of life there's only one way a lawyer that's called bitter medias what does bitter limit sis mean bitter matsias is one of the most beautiful powerful expressions in quesadillas bitterbemezias means that my whole mathias has the courage to be able to open itself up to becoming a channel of ainseif i don't need to reduce the encycle and force it into my identity i will not i'm not going to take my life and force it into the limited capacity of my understanding now this is a very deep avoid this avoid is not an easy avoider because we are trained and a part of us always wants to understand i always want to make sense of things you know i sometimes go to people go through different things and one of the things that many teachers love to do is make sense out of everything why because it makes people feel secure if i can understand what's going on i feel like i have control over it but that means i'm not in a place of truth i'm in a place of trying to control adalayada means i don't have to control adela yada is beethoven you open yourself up to that you don't have to control i don't have to control i can't control i don't want to control is manipulation i don't want to manipulate i don't want to exploit adelaide others bitter mitzi is what's beethoven could become a channel for infinity my brain my heart and abdullah i'm not going to reduce reality to my limited capacity me they aim less because who was the first person to be mekaim abdullah who was the first person to fulfill adelaide and the answer is esther marduk i said me idea esther this is something beyond us and what did esther do esther said i'm going to go into the king not according to the law it's not a doesn't make sense esther completely surrenders to this moment of absolute dedication of mysteriousness and what happens she saves the world she saves the jewish people till this very day from that moment of aadhaayada this doesn't mean that tamvadas is not good it's wonderful but it's an avoidance this is the concept of a sadhaksha new gamer is i'm still living in tamworth i'm serving hashem but i'm serving hashem in a way that's limited according to my understanding which is which is beautiful which is amazing which is incredible which is deep but here is what happens now he continues with when a person is in a state of yoda to bring the light to the divine spark in the clipper because if i'm in a state of yadah i have my own blockages and when i have my own blockages so then the light is going to go to the clipper to the shell i not only will i not extract the spark but something else will happen i'm going to consolidate the clipper i'm going to make the clipper stronger in other words the negativity the toxicity is now going to get energy from me so that it will endure forever do a bipedal shakasana explains in the past compassion's branches after adam and have ate from the tree of knowledge hashem says i'm afraid that now they're going to eat from the tree of life and now admiration will eat from the tree of life and live forever what's the problem she says was supposed to live forever but once they ate from the tree of knowledge what's the da das ooh do you hear this it's not the eights of adelaide it's the eights of das eight sadas is the the eights of das eight dust there's no other layered ones they ate from the eight sadas of yoda and that means there was an ability for the ra to become mixed into the good there's now a tarubas a mix between negativity and positivity between divinity and that which is not divine between wholeness and brokenness so now we have to be afraid that the ra the negativity doesn't have eternal longevity it doesn't exist forever before other made from the eight sadas it's great if there is eternal life because the toef will live forever that's what goodness does but once there was thera introduced into adam psyche now the ra is going to live forever if adam lives forever because it's part of him so therefore there has to be a concept of death which allows the ra to dissipate to dissipate it allows the rat to dissolve to be obliterated similarly who's in because he feels his own with his because of his self-consciousness he didn't reach he had the state of law yoda there's still an element of self-consciousness shazam and in fact when the gomorrah wants to say the source of harmony the only way i can extract the spark of harmonies through adala with the person is in the place of das yash it's a mixture between that which is whole and good and divine and that which is separated from the divine that which is broken so you have to be very careful where you go you have to know your boundaries there's certain places you can't go to you can't get involved with the toxic because when i do get involved with it and i am not in the position of beyond yada yada lia's boyfriend what might happen is not only won't you triumph on the contrary you may be schlepped into the clipper not only will you not have the ability to extract a spark rather what's going to happen the clipper can embrace can can slap you down and you lose touch with your boyfriend and that's why the regulars say that avodah is mordechai is blessed and homan is cursed the regular system of life is you try to remain disconnected from negativity in guns in it he says in his don't have a connection but when you reach this place of lawyer there's no self-consciousness you're a conduit for infinity you don't have to be afraid of clipper you can bring the light into the spark that's in the clip in you never get confused you always know the difference between the good and the you don't get lured into the trap of clippers and then the light won't be accessed to the clipper itself to the shell itself god forbid he says because it's dangerous the light you're going to bring to the nitsuits and you're going to extract it from the clipper actually you showed her allah and then when you take the nitsuits out of the ra there are remains alone and then it can't live anymore hammond can't live without the nitsuits so what happens to haman harman dissipates paris dissipates why because paris and haman all have a knit and the only way they can live and function is by that knit so it's giving them life even if the knits is concealed and distorted when you know how to take out that knit such without feeding the clipper so what happens the raw is left without an it's exclusive can't live anymore it gets obliterated now i want to like everything every mimer we've discussed this many times it applies on so many different levels to so many different people in so many different situations but the concept of every mimer is always applicable to every person's life i want to bring out this point and apply it the way we each and every one of us can relate to this wherever we are in the world there's certain situations you know one way of talking about this is with your own children it's not only with your own children it's with other people's children it's with yourself it's with your family it's with friends it's with strangers it's with anybody you meet but i want to apply this in a way that is very personal and intimate with children with with people that you're constantly in contact with i'm using the example of children because they touch us in the deepest way sometimes you meet a person and this person has a lot of clippers there's a lot of shells a lot of cover-ups a lot of blockages inside there's a very very holy spark but it's buried and you'll see two people two types of people you'll see two types of one person meets this child or this human being and they get so triggered i'm angry i'm frustrated i scream i run the other way i go into a mode of fight or flight or freeze i can't deal with it why then you have another person he meets the same child and there's so much love and so much empathy and so much compassion and they don't have to run they're present fully and they tune into the other person's life what's the difference the difference is not the child the difference is me the question is how much i worked out with my own clipper if i never worked through my own clip your clip is gonna drive me crazy you're gonna trigger me so badly when i meet you you're going to bring out in me my worst because you're going to remind me of my own pain you're going to remind me of those things that are so frustrating for me and difficult for me i will not be able to see through your shell to your spark and now what's gonna happen not only will i not help you i won't even help myself i'm gonna get schlepped down and therefore i say do me a favor my coping mechanism is just stay away and sometimes i'm not in a position where i can go there i'm not you have to be ready for it because this is the side of this mimer the world reacts to us we don't react to the world the world reacts to us we don't react to the world meaning when things are worked through inside of me then my relationship with you is going to be a different relationship and what i bring out from you is going to be much different when i'm not worked out on the other hand you're going to trigger me in a way that will slap me down emotionally and psychologically so often we say i can't deal with this person i can't get close to this person i can't talk to this person without going crazy it doesn't have to do with this person it has to do with you it has to do with me they will react to you based on how you react to yourself if i'm worked out so then when i see you i could see your mitsubs and even if i see the clipper i could see beyond it the gemara says this about rab mayer the gomorrah some of you are finishing now speaks very mayor remained a student of akhir elisha even after he became a heretic so the governor says how could a mayor learn from such a person and the gemara says knew how to eat the inside and how to discard the shell mayor comes from the word our mayor lived in a world of ir in a world of loyada of bitter so the mayor when he saw aher he didn't get lured into the clip but he went to the nichols and he stayed with the nitsus faker he helped the nitrous come out the gemara says how ultimately the mayor tried to get achar to do trouba didn't get affected by the clippers why the gemara says that in the toyota of redmayer it said costners are with an aleph not with an iron after other manhattan ate from the tree it says hashem made costners are he made leather shirts for them oh leather or before that they didn't have to have garments by the mayor the oil was spelled with an aleph not oil with an iron which is leather but her with an olive which is light in other words the mayor saw on the costner's oil in the tunics of leather he saw tunics of light the gash me wasn't a khatsitsa of the the outer wasn't a separation of the inner the clipper was transparent or translucent so the mayor didn't get any spell from the clipper so this is the difference when i'm in a place of yadah in other words when i'm feeling my own self-consciousness when i'm serving hashem only with that which i can understand that i can experience and i can feel so infinity is now limited within my own vessels so there's still somewhat of a shell that blocks the pure flow of ellicos through me oh now you have to be very careful now you have to be careful like other mauritian if he's now going to eat from the eight sachayam de rao is also going to live forever you have to be very careful because when i go to the world of clipper what's going to happen not only won't i get out the spark if i cared the clipper will trigger my clip and i could fall i could lose it and that's why you have to have boundaries you have to know where you're allowed to go where you're not allowed to go some people are not going to go certain places the gemara says you tell another don't get close to a vineyard don't get close don't get close to a vineyard it's too tempting you're not gonna eat grapes new york does it stay away you have to stay away you need boundaries when you're in a state of adelaide what's purim uh i become a channel for ain't safe there's no ego there's no self-consciousness shloka shalom is then you then you can go to places that nobody else can go then you can go to the lowest places and you're not going to fall fakert as long as i'm in a place of hadas i'm busy with my own ego i'm busy with my own self-consciousness i'm busy protecting myself i'm busy living in a world of das which means everything is limited based on my own identity and i'm living in that bubble in that box even though i'm a good person and i'm trying to be a good person i'm trying to serve hashem but i'm serving hashem with the limitedness of my das then there's certain people in certain places i'm not going to be able to access why because i still have my own clip and remember we're always triggered by things that exist inside of us you don't trigger me if you're triggering me it's because something inside of me that's not worked through that's not resolved and that's what's coming out your clipper is triggering my clipper your clip is triggering my clip and that's always the clown people think this person triggers me no this person triggers me because something inside of me that i need to take responsibility for and this is something we have to observe wow your child said something to you and you freaked out and you don't know what happened be quiet meditate and ask yourself what did you just experience be curious be inquisitive don't point fingers this way point the finger this way and say what just happened in my system what just happened why did i get so infuriated what happened so you'll see because he spoke against tita okay okay that's what we tell ourselves he spoke against taylor in other words i'm not really angry hashem is angry i'm just a channel for hashem but if i'm very very honest with myself and i go a step deeper i say is it because he spoke against tyra or is it maybe some personal shame maybe my dream has been destroyed which is all normal it's all normal but it means i'm still stuck in judgment i'm judging myself i'm judging others i'm in a place of eight sadasa of yada it's not bitter mates which is normal you're not bad you're a good person you ate from the eight sadas we all ate from the hate satas not all few people didn't but most of us ate from dates at us they say about zusha somebody told them you're so innocent you're like naive so the bazoosa said yeah because we were all in adam right all the neshamas come from adam so all the souls when they saw the hadas he said they all climbed up they all climbed up to get a piece of the fruit he says but i you know i was a little tum him i was naive so i just stayed i didn't climb up to get the fruit so he says somebody once told it about a certain love he said he said yeah you guessed an he ate a little less from the eight zadas in other words klug it's good that clog means smart nothing wrong with being smart but sometimes you're too smart you understand you're you're you're shrewd you're sly that's all i can go close to oman i can't and i'm applying this not only with haman is is the big picture the big evil but this is many situations i can get close to the clip what's going to happen that ebba says what's going to happen i'm going to be schlepped in i'm going to get angry i'm going to get frustrated i'm going to fall only when you're a place of adelaide now you can face every person and every situation and you're not afraid because there's no you because there's no self-consciousness you're just a conduit so you become an empathetic witness for another person's pain you become an empathetic witness for their nitsotkitusa you just contain them and you don't allow the clipper to take over on the contrary you see right through it because you see through your own clipper and you right away know when you're being triggered by your clipper or you're being triggered by your knitted kedusa and when you can see that and contain the other person's nitsuts you help them find their nitsuts and then their goes away now there's a difference between harmon and a jew haman ultimately haman has to leave has to be obliterated haman is a russia human is amalek you take the nitsuits and human dissipates there's different levels in clipper there's sometimes you take out the nitsuits and the clipper can be elevated with the nitsuits right sometimes part of the clipper has to disappear sometimes part of a clipper doesn't have redemptiveness each person is in a different state but the concept is that the only way i can elevate the knit suits is if i am completely in touch with my own initiates completely without blockages there's no blockage in me i can reach out to you in that space okay so we're going to take a break here and we'll continue this maya maybe hashem on thursday let me take a few questions is this the reason why the greatest blessings to the jewish people came from bilaam even though bilum was such a russia because ultimately there was a spark even in bilaam yeah and billam was also a prophet does this mean literally every russia what about when you're talking about haman what about when you're talking about hitler all these people listen it's very important to be sensitive when we're talking about haman and hitler yamashima you're talking about people who dedicated their lives to destroy countless innocent lives and in hitler's case successfully the six million of our brothers and sisters and so many other people that suffered and were destroyed during the second world war so it's very very important to be sensitive and careful how we speak about these people you're talking about people who have become an embodiment of evil and yet we believe that deep down everything in this world has a life force it could be so distorted and eclipsed and buried that they themselves are unaware of it every person is created in the image of hashem but some people distort that image so badly that you can't recognize anymore the telemalikim and when you look at them you see the face of evil and that was harman and that was hitler you look at them and you see the face of evil the face that just embodies absolute evil the worst of the worst no regard for human life no regard for morality no regard for human femoral boundaries no regard for another person's existence complete no moral sensibility in terms of life and death you know adela yada in the opposite extreme you don't know the difference of killing people and saving people and even a million and a half children you could send into gas to gas rooms without blinking an eye with tremendous glee it becomes you become in a state where a person's life is simply simply valueless and you know what we're seeing now in ukraine is another example of of terrible terrible calamities being inflicted on people often without discrimination so these are things that are real manifestations of negativity of ra and yet every person everything is alive because hashem allows it to live if hashem wouldn't let it live it wouldn't be here but we have to be very careful not to minimize the intensity of the clipper i don't understand how did mordechai allow esther to marry the king to go to the palace with a gentile husband it must have been so hard for her great question marduk i didn't allow it it says esther esther was forced she was abducted she was taken the king didn't give the women a choice he took them and if not they would be killed i know that you encourage and you don't mind when people ask questions but i do have to tell you that i know rabbis and i've had personal stories from others about rabbis who don't encourage questions they get upset maybe that's the reason that the girl asked you the question about being in a cult because many people don't like when others ask questions i hear you that's sad i understand that this is a very delicate balance and i think those who are not an occult are those who are okay with how other people live they live and they let live who is the first person to fulfill adelaide i think it was nayak because got drunk no no no no no that wasn't adelaide that was just drunk but new york was trying to fulfill adelaide that's true the way i understand is a cult allows no questions it minimizes contacts with people outside of the cult the very effect that this girl could come to you and ask a question and the very fact that she could communicate with all types of people and nobody separates her from them means that she's not an occult compare it la havda with putin today who cut off contact with those who are outside of russia he hides the truth there's tremendous propaganda he doesn't allow his people to have access to information to tell them what he's doing in russia this is how cults are created yeah you're right i have a question my question is well this is a very heavy question what you're saying is that every person has a spark deeply embedded in them my question now is as follows what is the pain that lingers in the soul of mr putin that makes him feel the need to be so aggressive and the fact that he has to conquer the world and the fact that he has to invade ukraine i know it's horrible horrible horrible but i want to know what is the spark inside of mr putin what type of trauma does he have what type of inner unresolved wounds does vladimir putin have that makes him feel that he has to be the bully of the world in order to survive why does he feel so left out what happened to him as a child is it possible that putin has such such deep pain and such low self-esteem maybe he's so wounded in a profound way and maybe that wound comes from a very innocent and child-like place could we have compassion for that what happens if putin was more internally whole what happens if he got more love what happens if he didn't feel so isolated as a child do you think history would look very very different i want to know what does putin's inner spark look like wow good stuff [Laughter] good stuff good stuff and you and and and the person says and if i would be sitting with putin in one room would i have to look at him and tell him you're an evil bum you're a gangster you're a kgb monster or maybe if i'm in a state of adelaide i could look into his eyes and say wow there's so much pain here can i contain your pain and help him heal a little bit and maybe the world will be a different place do you think that is even possible or that language is dangerous it's a very very interesting thing you're saying very interesting very interesting let me tell you this i can't answer this question it's beyond my pay grade i'm sorry i can't answer that question but one thing i know if there's somebody who can do that it's somebody who's described here in this nightmare as being in a place of real wholeness when i'm in a place of real real wholeness so you don't get me angry and frustrated because i see through everything and i can really become an empathetic witness for your pain then you can often extract sparks in ways that people don't imagine but for this you have to make sure that you're really at sadhagamer in other words you're really not triggered so you can get to that space you have to have those microscopic eyes that get right to the nitzets because if not your shells are gonna so enrage me and i'm gonna lose the plot and we have to know where we are in life where we are in history it's a very very good question and perhaps many of us who are still in the state of sadiq shaine gomer all we can do is stay away from the clipper or destroy the clipper from an external point of view right on purim you could say barak mordechai not because you're blessing ma i'm sorry barak haman not because you're blessing haman but because you're blessing the clipper of haman taking out the nitsuits and then haman is destroyed because haman can't live without the nitsuits so it's a very very sensitive sensitive issue but you bring up some very profound ideas you touched my soul with this class what you said was pure truth okay i was just trying to be a conduit for this mimer but thank you for being here it's very special always to have you your perceptiveness and uh yearning for ms is very inspiring my dearest friends sending you all the love and blessings and all the love and blessings to our brothers and sisters in ukraine and our brothers and sisters in israel and around the whole world and welcome to all those of you who are joining us for the holy land for married sister may we all join you soon there very much very soon and we're going to get we're going to continue this thursday morning wishing you all a beautiful day