Why Would I Surrender to a Rebbe?

thank you [Music] foreign I said English now today said he's going ah okay yeah wow okay I think I want to thank fried for uh all the tech work here installing a new camera making sure the internet is working yeah he told me so thank you very much for all the avoid a lot of work okay so we are II or 133 in the English page 133 on top it says Israel foreign [Music] class is dedicated by Jeffrey good friend thank you very much of Jeffrey we really really appreciate it you should have a lot of in everything ugly die [Music] so in the last class after a long discussion about the Toyota being called oyes and toshia eyes for the never shall the kiss to share for the nephesh habahamas empowering the soul to emancipate itself from the narctic from the Meister from the from the covers from the blockages from the prisons explaining the Gomorrah that when somebody is immersed in tighter they create peace in the higher reality in the lower reality explaining what that means what pieces the connectivity the attachment and then addressing the big question that just like the soul came into a body the Toyota also came in to its body and then he went into the discussion of the labor by assyrus called watermelon what the Lamer is apparently everybody was this you don't have to repeat it to anybody and the main point about LaTanya made was that the Lamer is not that it should be repeated because people were not there but the labor is actually the entire message that as a result of that experience for eternity the people were given the capacity the power that when we learn it should essentially be a layer it should essentially be a Continuum of Muhammad harsina foreign literally it means my tongue will will utter your words so he says the word tan means Aina in Allah it's a response it's like when the cousin says something and the crowd repeats after him that's called Aina you answer you you it's like a response like a chorus that really respond the way they used to do it was he would say hallelujah nobody would say hallelucca of the Hashem every Posse every stanza he would say and everybody was Aina so Timeless means that the experience of Taylor could be one in which my tongue my mouth is responding is repeating your words or it's repeating your words because the Lamer by double the chemists the words were given that they should be able to be repeated wasn't meant to be able to be repeated that all the learning sins afterwards when by shamai speaks it's by sharma's mind and a mouth becoming a conduit for the revelation of my madrasina when any Tanner Ramada speaks it's my words that come through your mouth it's not just an independent detached person using their own mind or heart and mouth but it's that throughout all of the generations these words can be labor that the person's learning is what what is it really it's a it's the revelation of Muhammad harcina that was the main the main nakoda in other words to put it in very simple English the chief quality the the the main quality of learning the real main quality of learning is the suspension of ego an ego even in its most benign and sophisticated term that's the main quality you would think it's a good thing to suspend your ego it's not a that is essentially the nakuda the Bittle let's now see further because this book elaborates even more so the second column almost at the end of the paragraph and the line starts Timeless shiny Imran maybe like 15 20 lines from the bottom 133 images that Hashem spoke these words in a way of Lamer that they can be repeated wasn't me they could be repeated not that I could say it over it means something much deeper that till the end of generations when a person is is learning China it shouldn't be his words it should all be a Layman it should be the Divine words even though they're being facilitated and channeled through a particular person and through a particular mind and through a particular mouth and as he says even though the Gomorrah is filled with names but if somebody said this basilis said this said this he said this mayor said this said this that doesn't say Hashem said this Hashem said this moisha said this said it everything is Maisha so he says that's true but that's the Kiddush of Labor the heritage of Labor is that the person is saying it and the person is using his resources whatever resources we have intellectual emotional perspectives rigorous mind of course mouth that's what the person is doing they're using their own individual resources but what makes it tighter what makes it Tater he says it's the it's called Hashem that comes through this person it's and that's a hiddish because if Taylor was just saying words okay saying words but a lot of the swatas it's it's it's logical swords you have arguments about issues like migoy and kazaka and star all about people's nature when a person is suspected of lying and not suspected of Allah it's very a lot of it especially the sectors that deal with civil law and civil judgment and civil societies and all that and even in other messages it employs methods and formulas and different perspectives comes down to that Ben says what makes it tight is not he had a good brain he had a good brain too that's not the nakuda to the khuda is that through this was being manifested there's a Divine wisdom that is coming through and that's something very easy to lose it's very it's a very subtle point you say it's a text it has its rules how you have to apply it some people are good at it some people are not so good at it yeah it has its rules and it's there's a lot of logic then a lot of sweater there but then it's them yeah yeah and this was a special kayak that was given to the Jewish people that their learning should be able to be a Lamer and what does this mean he says this is what real Bittle means the bit to live that it's not my words my words are so to speak hashem's words and my mouth as a mouthpiece is a conduit so that the learning should be able to coincide and not only coincide be an experience of absolute Bittle and Alignment that's the Timeless Chinese gifted the world with so he continues and he says even though by Martin Taylor they only heard the ten sayings that's true but as it says in many places Rashi brings its clawless color tit and encompasses all of China mean meaning so when they received Asado debris instead of this they did hurt stand sayings 10 Allah they essentially received the whole thing is Bittle Hashem the whole Trader is encapsulated in those ten dibrous so what they heard what they received at was essentially something that was relevant to the entire to the entire that they received the whole China in a way of Lamar what's that in a way of Lamer that the limit of the title The Learning throughout all the generations the Jewish people should be able to be in a state of Bittle in a state of Oneness of alignment to the dvar Hashem to the word of Hashem that speaks through their mouth it's it's like Hashem is learning he's learning through my body through my soul through my mind through my heart so essentially I'm being I'm responding foreign so real limited alternative real learning of title what is it it's the ultimate experience of Bittle mamish because it's the Gilly of Odin's Safe LA Mata below in the person learning as it is in a completely higher plane where the person's identity is not felt in a conscious way so because of this in the learning of Thailand is the could be the Gili of Irene is here below within the human experience within the human identity within the physical world right yeah yeah that would be the witness that's a learning that would be the most well it's the most basic litmus testis if my ego becomes attached to the swarate idea I just said obviously it's uh it's detached I'm in a detached place same Union the obsession to come up with obviously listen sometimes you know but sometimes you need to motivate a young person okay so you know you have to know how you motivate sometimes you know you give children a candy and adults also get candies different type of candy but what's the nikuda of China you give you give cotton candy and potato chips as Rewards but the whole idea I'm coming up with a hiddish foreign both the arm and the hiddish he says the real Toyota is Lamar then it's not me and then it's not they finished that's the biggest hiddish the biggest hit-ish is Bittle there's no hiddish like foreign are investing energy to create counterfeit identity the biggest hiddish the biggest hiddish is the Oneness the the the the the the the loss of the ego that's the whole Union of Thailand so he says that the homicide of Torah lemur so when Tyler becomes a tool for natsunas right I'm gonna win you I'm going to prove you wrong I'm just I'm just missing the point it's not just Bittle it's a good thing because it's a humility is a good thing that is the whole that happened by Martin Turner the kayak that it should all be Lamer it should be a Continuum for moment I've seen even though it's coming through me and you have to use your mind if you don't use your mind you can't learn I have to use I can't say I'm shutting myself off I'm going into a state of of nothingness then it's not you can't learn that's the Paradox here so Taylor answers the question can there be an Hashem within the structure of the human mind because so essentially Titus 1 with the source which source would the source of Oneness like he said so one would save so just like Hashem you say yeah the world doesn't change that because the world itself is infinity that's the consciousness of Torah that's what Tyler is and economy so what makes Toyota tighter what really makes it tighter if it could be Lamer if it could be Lamer in other words all the time that which became is it's when when did the letting go of ego and tuning in to the Muhammad harsinai to the Bittle to the Oneness of Ania that he discusses earlier in the mimer and that my words my experiences becomes a Continuum of that that is Hashem he says but who really said it it's been as a conduit is and he says last time there could be many different opinions there's a lot of machoikas in China that's not a student that's not a contradiction just like the diversity of creation is not a contradiction Infinity is not afraid of diversity the diversity is also an expression of infinity unless you detach it from the source and that's when my ego becomes attached to it when my ego becomes attached to it it's a completely different place it's either not in a different place and maybe I should say how the way you see it also in people's relationships sometimes you have people who are close to each other you take a marriage or friends or whatever it is they can have a disagreement any disagreement in in people's close relationships is not a bad thing it's almost essential unless we're both zombies or we're both angels but if we're real people people have different ways of experiencing the world it's supposed to be that way right the mission says no two snowflakes are alike and no two people are alike no two faces are alike and no two brains are alike and no two DNA uh sequences are alike so there's an individuality in a person that is basically God's imprint on you it's like you know his his Footprints his handprints you have your signature of my signature so when two people are close it's gonna come out if it's an authentic relationship unless I hide half of me and you hide half of you that's not where there's a challenge on the contrary that can be extremely enriching and expensive the challenges when insecurity or ego which is the same thing becomes attached to my view you understand that that's what happens when I'm hearing in your view not your view when I'm hearing in your view maybe a stab against me or you're hearing that in my view your sweater your perspective is now Associated it's connected maybe in my mind or in reality but it's connected with something else then there's a separateness that's created why do you have to always disagree with me you know and this is the naked in title so the mclaikusin are part of the Oneness until the ego becomes attached to the Savannah now it's already a whole different Parsha now it's not that knee Hashem is your state of Oneness what this also means is that even a sweater that seems very technical in gamada it's a kiss there's a there's a Divine energy that's being manifested and maybe you may deal with a very concrete thing you think he's lying or he's not lying you think she's lying and not lying you think he paid back with that he didn't pay back the debt right what do we assume so you're basically handling with her how a chakra thinks that is the greatest contradiction but it's not because it's the way is looking at it there's a Divine wisdom there so what makes a Tana what makes what makes a rabbi a real Rabbi why do people have a hard time trusting rabbis not everybody but some people huh because once your ego is camouflaged by Toyota it's the worst ego you know what I mean if I'm an arrogant person I'm an arrogant person the moment I'm not an arrogant person I blame it on God now it's dangerous foreign it's not bad it's like blue getting upset at red there's different frequencies of light don't get upset at Red don't get upset at Green though on the contrary it's beautiful right the harmony of different colors yeah it's like a violinist getting upset that the drummer or at the celloist OR at the guitarist during a symphony why can't you play my instrument right it's like your nose getting upset at your eyes your kidney getting upset at your pancreas your liver getting upset at your heart and your brain getting upset at everybody for being so weird and different you're laughing why are you laughing that's what real Michael says real mccoycus is you bring out this frequency I bring out this frequency that's not a problem thank God my nose does not do what my eyes do and my ears do something else thank God they don't look the same right what are you getting upset for thank God your wife doesn't think like you now you can have a healthy organism but we don't think of it that way why this is all of me but you not and he said it in a very pessimistic and numerous way is going to last forever if we could say we're fighting about fifty thousand dollars yeah so you take 25 I take 25 we're finding about a house we're finding about a yerusha it's all money money money money money fine when people say it's not the money ever heard that it's not the money Principe Supreme sip yeah that's what that's what the Western Democrats don't understand westerners and Democrats believe that the fight is about territory so split a territory and you'll be happy you take the basement of my house I'll take the kitchen you take the dining room so you split the cake that's how Americans think and it's a nice way of thinking right huh it's a function of money and that's it when it's like what um it's about money well I I'm gonna sell God I'm gonna sell my mother I'm gonna sell my soul I'm gonna fight you at the Boulevard until the last breath those are the hardest my location to deal with it's not me it's God and here you have to be very very careful because sometimes God became me instead of me becoming part of God God became me you understand the difference said you know Man was created in the image of God it doesn't mean that God was created in the image of man that's two different things so what does this mean this means that sometimes when the title becomes associated with any form of ego even the most subtle ego it's already undermines the very experience of Torah it's not just you're a nice person so people will be macabo from you it's much deeper than that and what ego are we talking about it we're not only talking about the ego that is toxic we're talking even the ego of creation the ego of separateness the ego of uh the ego that he's talking in this mimer the ego of symptom in other words even the most benign ego then the real is the he says the Gilead inside that can come out and this was a special kayak that a person should be able to learn this way because how can it be and that's the Layman don't think it was about that moment it was all about the Lamer the way in the future you could process things you could think about things it could be in a way of Lamer that you're essentially responding to the Divine word you're you're a conduit for the Divine word channeling channeling we're using the word repeating it's not really repeating you're channeling it you're a conduit [Music] it's not his Innovation yeah foreign that itself is creativity this is not a war against creativity I I see the opposite I think we become most creative when we know how to let go we we become the most creative on every level when we know how to let go of our insecurities of our egos we become the most creative people says it says next week's pastrama equally Vietnam give me a donation don't take a donation I don't want you to take it tonight when you give me a donation you don't have a fundraise to get up at the dinner and say I want everybody to take a donation for themselves that's not good that everybody would give it's a great way of making it you give me a donation truma means laughs yeah but you will say that it is a revelation that is at that point excavated yeah you're being magala you're revealing but so so this was yeah yeah right yeah so you have a series of conjunctions that begin with Christina and that it's yeah so so much says what's the vehicle so something very powerful I'll just give a muscle we have a refrigerator right the refrigerator is not working see wife says could you look why the refrigerator is not working well the food is going to get ruined for shopping and then you say oh somebody unplugged it so what do you do you plug it into the wall and what happens it becomes alive it becomes creative right it does with the food what it has to do keep it cool keep it fresh shouldn't get moldy shouldn't get ruined vehicle the word carbon we translate as sacrifice it's not the translation translation of carbon is kirov plugging in it's becoming close when I plug in my wire to the source of electricity what happens the electricity flows through me so as Hashem says when you're giving me something you're not giving me something to sacrifice yourself because I'm a stronger God my thought is stronger than your tattoo and I can beat you up so you better give me your money vehicle you're plugging in to the source of energy so you could become a conduit for all that energy [Music] yeah you're giving you giving money to the Michigan what does it mean you give your money to the Michigan you're plugging yourself into the source of energy so the greatest creativity is the greatest source of creativity is when a person could let go of their ego that's the greatest that's then I become the greatest channel for creativity and I think if you study in history the greatest discoveries they're very often there's a prerequisite of a certain uh Bittle or humility on some level where you're ready to open yourself up to something greater so this is even true in all aspects of life we see it was a French philosopher Voltaire he was a smart man but he hated Jews that's how you saw how objective his philosophy is he was brilliant but juicy hated with every fiber of his being so he once said if there is a God I want to be him if there is a God then I want to be him watch why you say he was he he wasn't tough as the only country if there is a God I want to be him the moment there's competition who's more creative that's the Zara I went out of the world of Oneness I went out of my own world I didn't only go out of God's word I went out of my world you understand [Music] so this is the greatest source of creativity this is even the greatest source of Seiko when the seikal becomes a conduit for that which is beyoncehal it's the most powerful form of circle because it's not stuck it's not stuck in structure it's rooted in Infinity yeah well it follows external death that's what I mean yeah yeah it says in mattress the maishina was imprisoned for many many years in Kush in Ethiopia and even a yesterday kept him in a pit for 10 years there's all these what is that all about Maisha does disappear at some point he shows up at 80 years old something happened between being a youngster and being 80 a lot went on where was he so the turtle doesn't say a word about it you know why because he became invisible Taylor Swift is a reflection of reality it's not just a book of it's a reflection of reality whatever is invisible won't be visible and Tighter for 80 years Maisha became invisible so it's not going to be in the text the text is a reflection of reality that's when Moshe became Moshe because he was invisible he could become Maisha Joseph the same thing but moshe's invisibility was also invisible and that's why there was nobody like Maisha you understand yeah but so dead that it's invisible there's death that's visible like wow this person is going through a lot you heard what I said that's why only moishes is Maisha like because the death of his ego was not even visible it's a different type that's why he gave the title it it tuned into the frequency of Anita people say why doesn't it saying made up a story no Teresa was a reflection of that reality that's articulated gazal their whole there was no agenda what this also means practically is the moment you have an agenda in Theta it's com you're completely off it's the worst thing to have an agenda not just because you're not going to be honest like a scientist who has an agenda is it's not going to be good science if I go into study genetics or to study cosmology and I want to prove that you don't need God my science is going to be distorted it happens every day I'm going to ignore certain things not because I want to but because the gender guide science even if nobody sees it and I don't see it but but my brain knows it certain things I'm going to minimize right you could look at it selling wow and then you could okay we'll figure that out next but let's get back why'd you just do that we all look at the same reality I'm enthralled by this detail and you don't notice it that has to do with confirmation bias nothing to do with reality right just like it's in emotions you say something to me if you would have said the same thing to somebody else he barely would have heard it right somebody said it to you and you're in a rage for three days that's on a good day somebody else wouldn't have heard her what did you hear you heard what your brain was hypersensitive to that's called why am I saying this I forgot oh when you have an agenda when it comes to Titan you have an agenda when religion is about agendas drab is telling here it's not just not a good idea it it's it's undermining the very nakuda the very core of Martin Tyler it's not just he's an airless kid he doesn't have agendas he's not so Wireless he has an ego it's much it's much more subtle and much deeper than that again we live in a world of structure so yes I want to go get my smiker I want to finish him a sector I want to achieve this I want to finish us I want to do that this year and again and sometimes candies are not a bad thing right the rambam says in perisham is that you motivate people with prizes he calls it nuts because then candies were called nuts there were no candies a geism was called Nash you know what we call today health food they used to call Nash right knots today we have other prizes MSG they didn't have MSG so so so that's but we have to understand what the naked is [Music] so the moment there's a Code of agenda the whole of Lamar is that is that the Oneness should be able to be lived and breathed and that that's what limousine is that's what learning is that's what teaching is that's the whole equipment of China should a person not learn because I'm right now in a very egotistical state of course you should learn doesn't mean you're going to accomplishment there's a lot of people don't come from they stick with the candies hmm deep down in the you don't have to be afraid you may not be ready for it when you'll be open you'll see it because this is really what the person wants I spoke to the not last year about self-esteem right people are trying to show that Judy the self-esteem in Judaism but it's much deeper than that the real self is not looking for self-esteem self-esteem is also a trauma sometimes the biggest it assumes separateness and as I said then I'm not knocking self-esteem I'm not knocking it but I'm saying the real self is not looking for self-esteem if I'm wounded it's a certain stage of development and it's a very important stage that we shouldn't bypass but that that's the Indian here I got it if I'm a shematah that's the first step right I understand if you write on your resume yeah yeah if you write on your resume and therefore your company doesn't exist and I also don't exist right so if he's actually then he looks at it he's going to hire you this is the people you need but not everybody learned this mimer so you have to be careful with your resume he was a very wealthy Jew he was a merchant of Klutz a klutz in in in Russian is is wood huh planks of wood clutches is it called kletzka he dealt with with wood he was a merchant of lumber very successful so uh I hear the story ones from the Bible said enough I'm playing it so he said at the end of the year he would you know he had a he went through all the checks and balances the money that came in and the money that was spent everything literally every everything he bought everything he sold you know you need it you need to you need to say the what's what you call accounting today bookkeeping and they came to the sahakal you know the sahaka you wonder how much you spent and how much you made and hopefully what you spent is a little less than what you made or hopefully a lot less so he wrote summation ain't Movado Movado so he said just right Movada yeah you need money you need Ruble yeah you got to sell words so make us a hack of the money she said no that was the whole word we have to deal with the money I gotta sell What I Gotta Buy with but what's the sahakal what's the summation of all what's this theology the sahakal of all the money could be I eat the sugar cup you have I thought they could have said nothing exists Asylum so when it comes to title when it comes to the Quran of Martin Taylor the whole Indian of of an agenda of a box that you have to fit into it's it's contrary to the whole nakuda of Labor and that and that's the hiddish of Torah and that's the nakuda of Martin Taylor and that's why even though it was enclosed in the physical as he said before Tremors meister's and so forth it remains kulakhad and that's why title when it's learned this way can free the soul but it's learned this way because it's an attachment with that which transcends all of the Brokenness of separateness oh okay bittel is the most creative thing in the world it's it's literally you're plugging in your soul your brain into the source of all electricity imagine my computer is dead yeah so I tell my computer you know what I'm plugging you into the wall the computer no no no no no no no no no no no no no but now don't plug me into anybody I'm not gonna have to connect to anybody I don't need anybody self-confidence what happens to the computer I tell the computer I want your Genius I want your Genius I want your Genius to come out I want you to facilitate your Genius okay plug me in that's what Bittle means [Music] huh depends what you're plugged into if I'm plugged into the source and I become a channel for that it's the greatest creativity in the world but for that I have to let go I have to let go from the need not to plug myself in isolation loneliness right my insecurity is basically I'm not plugging into anything I'm going to be creative when I plug into the source to the ultimate source of creativity and I become a channel for that it's the deepest creativity it's also the most it's also the most interesting so it doesn't take away doesn't stifle creativity it opens it up makes sense or not would you say there's no ego you're talking about Asia you'd see the bridge I don't know who the next [Laughter] is a very big ego it's all but but it's it's but once I'm in that frequency it's already a different type of ego yeah if that's what you mean there's a certain element of of Oneness the deepest level is that he describes here that the whole Bridge it was just it was just a deeper very calm wow [Music] you want to know if at that moment the nervous system is on Fire or the nervous system is the calmest it ever was what do you think another one of you made a mistake they were very holy people they didn't want to come back another one of you learned the first half of the mimer not the second half they learned the first half of every reminder not even a view not I'm serious Ain't So if one is right the world the symptom boom I'm done I know that in today's culture the the the popular answer would be the most calm and that's probably true very often but there's probably other situations where the body responds in a different way but even then the fire is not a fire of anxiety or tension the fire is a fire of perhaps profound passion and yearning and therefore it's not a contradiction to calmness because it's not escaping right calmness we always see is you know going into the reality rather than escaping it when the passion is a passion that's coming from a very authentic place not from a fear of isolation or the fear of authenticity so then the calmness and the passion are not a contradiction to each other I hope you understood what I said because I'm not sure I did but you know I don't know that it has to have a certain look exactly what the what the nervous system has to look like right right so calmness is yeah the body is calm it's very very calm but I'm just saying I don't think we have to negate you know in in eastern disciplines Bliss is everything there's only Bliss there's nothing else bliss bliss bliss but there's something deeper than that right right yeah so what gives a rabbi a real power what gives a rebel what gives the tunnelium what gives them the real power the answer is not what they had it's what they had not ego it's not what they had you're a genius yeah it helps that the guy knows his stuff obviously but with the real kayak is not what he has what gives the rabbi the real Rabbi the ultimate the real power that is complete powerlessness and if there's anything else but that that gives them the power be careful be careful if the real power of comes from powerlessness powerlessness in the most creative way Bittle then take more of it because then you're plugging in your computer you're plugging in your brain to the source of the electrons good good for you it's always vehicle if I'm giving to you if even if I'm giving myself over to you but I'm getting all my creativity that's the river you want it you may give away everything you give away everything because Bittle you give away everything but at the end of the day why because you become your best self you become the most creative self that that you should trust and if I don't trust that then I feel bad for myself that I can't plug in but if what's demanded of me is abnegating Right me because you're more powerful and I want to be accepted and validated then just be careful you're gonna get you may get hurt and your children may get hurt even more obligated means dictator that's the simple Yiddish self-abnegation means self-destruction that's the opposite of Bittle how do you know it's Bittle versus destruction how do you know right how do you know and the answer is if by plugging into this source I become a channel for oh wow look what's flowing through me that's Bittle vehicle you get much more than you give because you're now a channel for Infinity wow and the zero ego here because you're a channel but there's the most creativity here most creativity comes when there's zero ego least creativity is the more ego least creative shiny that's what the auschak says he says that the Gamora says in kadushan daf Zion that the man gives the ring or the money to the woman and he betroths her right what if she gives the money it's not condition he has to give the money you got to pay the bills not her right but the Gamora says what happens if this man is something very special he's a unique person so when she gives him something the fact that he received it sometimes you give something to somebody the fact that they receive it yeah if you have somebody a really a beloved sadika something really special the very fact that he took it from you and you felt that you gave that to him and he it meant something to him you got something that that's worth a lot of money so to speak so the gemara says in that case she's makudish it's an interesting mother [Music] it can also be misconstrued you understand when a husband comes to a wife so the more you give me the more you're getting you realize right so you should be right I once heard a couple's yeah no because he she he didn't give anything is giving to him she gives him a hundred dollars whatever she gives them that's wonderful but you need but you Allah right the the man needs to give so the gemara says that's called giving by taking and we also know emotionally sometimes receiving something is the greatest form of giving you know by the way you know somebody wants to give you something I don't need it I don't need it I don't need it right sometimes maybe you don't need it but they need it it's not always a Mitzvah to say you don't need it sometimes it's a big Mitzvah to say I do need it think about somebody else and not always but sometimes say thank you sometimes the greatest need of a person is to feel needed it's one of the great to feel needed so don't just say I don't need it so all your work was what worthless and I'm very humble because I don't need anything the person now feels like a Shema you know they worked for two weeks oh I don't need it you know a guy at a birthday party his family worked hard to make a birthday and they made a beautiful thing and he came oh I don't need all this and he felt very good about himself what do I need I don't even exist Bittle his poor wife worked for a month to put it together you understand what I'm saying people don't uh Bethel can also be narcissistic Abyssal what do I need I don't even exist I don't matter so everything you did for a month you were really stupid because I don't matter anyway so the auschak says that she's the Gamora says she's makudish she says if I can give something to God and he says yeah wow I really need your money I need it wow vehicle if you take it to a deeper level right without what is it really saying it's not two separate people you know you're a hush of a person so you took a gift from me so I gained more it's really saying something very subtle there are certain forms of giving which are ultimately taking because the giving and the taking is the same not because you're selfish because that's what God means and here we come back to some very if we mean if God is an entity that lives in heaven which is the Pagan idea of God then giving to God means right like you give me a check so the money leaves your account and it goes into my account but that's paganism that's how I DeSoto even though it's a little bit entrenched by some of us that's the problem with the word God that's why uses the word ain't safe but if God is what does ain't safe mean angel means reality so if somebody says you know plug into reality what does that mean the money is not leaving you now you become part of reality you're plugged into reality you're plugged in to Consciousness you're plugged in to age safe you're plugged into awareness you're plugged into creativity to the creator of creativity so giving is taking and taking is giving real taking is good but it's because there's no separation you understand the plug the electricity is not a competition with your computer because electricity is not busy trying to put away money electricity is a source it's a it's a Divine energy electricity doesn't say oh I'm sorry I'm being used for for his phone not your phone pay me more if electricity had that model we would all be in trouble electric companies have that model that's true you know the moment we're going to tune into solar energy right there's going to be a lot of money saved because the sun has no issue the Gambar has an expression the sun doesn't care I don't need you to send me a monthly bill I don't need you to send me a monthly check for the Sun the ax is the Sun so the same is true with Arab that that's within the code of Arab is we live in a generation because there's so much cynicism and the cynicism comes because of corruption and because of people who have been burnt so often we go to The Other Extreme and we lose the ability to trust we lose the ability to have Bittle when you when when when it's the most beautiful thing in the world we cut ourselves off it's because some electricity some plug abused me you know I got an electric Chuck so what do I do I never plug in again so some of us got electric shocks from all these ideas you know what I mean so it's like I'm done but the computer remains a little lifeless right I know that when I say ego when I say ego I don't mean the ego of aniva officeroid we have very little of that in our culture today I'm looking for it everywhere we have very little of that you still have a few people Baruch Hashem but but generally the ego today is insecurity the ego today that we see is the ego of of Brokenness of ah even the rabbis yeah just talk to them for a few minutes ah sometimes I display my insecurity through a big ego but it's not it's very little of that yeah that's ego I shouldn't use the word ego just because I'm not talking about ego here I'm talking about separateness loneliness isolation Brokenness living in deep deep solitariness and and the fear and anxiety but I call it ego because ego is easing god out it's it's trying to make sense of a self that is shattered to one degree or another shattered again doesn't necessarily mean because of a dramatic event that too but sometimes other stuff you know all of us get broken in the world I know that with a computer and a fridge there's no issue because huh where's their judgment here it's the opposite of judgment huh why why he feels you feel this judgment there we go yeah if I trust that I get burnt I plugged in and I got an electric shock and I was almost electrified to death it's like an electric chair don't don't talk to me about electricity you know what I mean huh no where's the criticism right so how do I know somebody's teaching Toyota how do I know somebody's how do I know somebody's living tighter why do I call these words Hashem that's a big thing to call our human human words the word of God wow so what does it feel like I'm not coming on what does it feel like in the body when you're hearing Taylor right so so the key issue is and and you have to really be able to have the antennas even to notice this but what is it that the soul notices you want more yeah you see how he treats other people foreign person may want more heroin but which part of them wants more heroin the part that wants to numb their pain or the The Living Part so so what we're learning here is that you know how do I know it's real Toyota what what does that look like and the answer to that is so when what the person the energy that's being transmitted as he says it's all a Lamar what does it mean it's all labor the person that's communicating and what they're communicating is I feel and I'm what's resonating is that this is a conduit for Pure Oneness of ain't safe undiluted Oneness of infinity it may come through the prism of of pilpal and logic and intricacies but at the core that's what it is huh how do you recognize it I know you need to you're right you need the antenna too that are sensitive to this how do you recognize it I don't know how do you recognize it a little bit do you know if you love someone you say you'll know um there you go you can't you can't you can't you can't deceive this it's either Ms or not MS the less matseus you feel from the teacher the more tired it is the more matsius the more it's obstructing very good thank you nakami for the validation he just said I'm a nobody that's why you're sitting here concept of plugging in it seems to me that what I'm doing is I'm vivifying the plug that I already have yeah that's true so if I if I'm plugged in for example to where my wife was sheer right now either here or virtually you plugged in let's correct it altered is mimer okay thank you yeah how much do I actually but if I have never learned it before the first time something 20 years ago and I learned it today again and I've learned it for 20 years then clearly I'm more plugged into the to for example if I learned something from you in good morning Rashi 20 years ago right and I learned it again today and I learned continuously from Warren Ranchi I'd say that I I'd be pretty well tuned into your methodology right so it's my understanding the structure and the substance of whatever whatever it is I'm wearing so it's a qualitative I would say if you're asking me it's something qualitative and it's it's a function of uh you know how much I want yeah I mean is that part of it how much yeah yeah so I used to learn something yeah I think so yeah but you're right if the arrogance comes through together with the Toyota it it becomes it becomes very ain't an evil inside I think it's from Bells eruptions it says in perkiavis that murdered the fear of Europe should be like the fear of God you know that mishna could be easily misconstrued you know I have to fear my teacher like I fear Hashem and it could be used against people you know what I mean you have to fear me like you fear God so so so so so so there's a beautiful word I once saw I think it's uh maybe bells one of the Great sadikim he said in Poland he said he said the mishna is not giving a commandment the mission is is is giving a prediction in other words which every commandment is really a prediction is every Mitzvah is also a promise because it's organic it's going to come out sooner or later right every real Mitzvah is a promise it's it's the design of the world so it takes time but that's it's who you are so you know may take a couple of years but every Mitzvah is really a prediction it's a reality this is what he says the fear that you have from your rabba is going to reflect the fear that he has from God it's like a mirror it's almost like [Music] the fear that you have from him is not for the effort it's a reflection of the ore that he has with everybody in it's just passed down to you so it's just a statement so based on his year is shemaim that's exactly the type of fear you're going to have from him unless it's a very unhealthy and toxic fear of control of manipulation but if we're talking about or reverence respect that's going to be Mama's commensurate if his year is shamayam is absolute like he says here Bittle mamish so then your all will be unbelievably profound because because the awe of him is really the awe of Hashem because the hymn is a conduit so it's not all of him it's all of Hashem even though it's all of him but the whole hymn is not him that's the nikuda if it's not that way if he is he you know I'm a big guy so then you're all of him is going to be very very different it's going to be more control more you know maybe I need to do him so I got to fit into the system and I can't say what I think but it's not real or because the moment I'm not there I'm like you know have a good day so whenever the ore requires that I shut my mind I shut my heart I don't think too much in order to be able to fit in obviously it's a very superficial it's a skin deep War if you want the oil to be very genuine it can't fake it if he's in a state where there's no he but Bittle then that or is going to be as infinite as though of Hashem because he's a Channel of infinity so he triggers Infinity he goes he's plugged in if he's plugged in electricity is flowing through him and if he's not plugged in so the oil is going to be you know much fake more fake or a lot of pressure The Heist yeah or in a good way Yuri here is in a nobling era doesn't mean fear you're going to punish me because you know I I you don't like what I look like you're a means reverence uh real respect like Bittle here it means you're plugged in foreign there is that element but it's not a it's a beautiful ore you know sometimes you're in the presence of uh you know nature you know sometimes you see something like you know you're like you it's an or there's a sense of distance because wow the magnitude of it overwhelms you that's that's very powerful oh yeah this you can't fake two and I understand why if I get disappointed again and again and again and again and again I'm like I'm done I'm done yeah what here it's it's a survival skill I have to protect myself I opened up my heart and you gave me a stabs I opened the boom I went to the hospital again at some point I don't open up anymore sorry have a good day and and we have to be aware of this after respect that it's a survival skill but some at some point you say you know what I'm big enough and strong enough to be able to handle it and I don't want to drip myself off from from plugging in if I could plug in forever if you're tuned into someone that you've tuned into a rug or whatever it is there's a soul level of connectivity yeah [Music] which is really connectivity yes yes yes then there could be ultimate connectivity in very practical terms if I'm surrendering my soul to a rabbi and there's even an iota of manipulation or exploitation or even if not exploitation but just an agenda to build you know his ego whatever that ego looks like or insecurity the surrender can't be genuine it's not coming from it's something there's something off about it because I have to shut down my mind in order to surrender I have to be able to ignore things I have to be able to have to be able to fool myself so it's not I it's not comfortable it's not genuine right but that's the re that's the real idea of a rabba and a Sharma clothes yes always the surrender is to God the surrenders to God there was a khasid of remotely he was the son of Chennai was he lived in Chernobyl Ukraine when he passed away his son took over chernobyla most of the tourskies come from the Battle of Chana he would say this but very short Titus like a Tish you just said a halberd a half of Art some of us told us are collected but very very short one of his system ones came to the middle Arab the Middle River was the son of the balatanya and he said he said this even longer than his father the balatanya was known as bear the success and this person heard it it was Suzanne he was a balchitian he was a big mind and a big heart and he was transfixed and enthralled and he felt he comes back to the matala and he says you know I feel and how he said it I feel jipped why don't you ever do these things why don't you he's throwing a how before it red fabrang explain he wanted to have ideas he comes back to the Buffalo he was honest with him like la manigora so the motherless said karagula very short vart he said the gemara says foreign [Music] he stopped he fell silent why because it says you should fear God what's the s there's somebody there's somebody else to fear usually s add something also your brother right you have to put you here in the Mikvah too I have to fear God and who else who else perish it's quiet [Music] you don't talk you don't explain you're not my father the silence is what you do that's what he answered him [Music] oh the next time he came back to the middle it happened he told them over the verge he said you have to tell you had to answer him the gemara continues said is foreign that's the first thing it teaches you this was a disagreement obviously right and there was taka disagreement but it shows you how two people disagree that's number one that's what I'm saying it shows you how to how two people disagree I'm just giving a model you're saying because it's not a real disagreement I'm saying but the way they manifested it yeah that's what I'm saying it was a different Derek it's a different data but I'm explaining how you understand but that's that's number one but that's not my main point the main point is what is he really saying it's not a contradiction to fearing only God because a real talmouth would it be to be a real time you're a conduit there's no I that's separates so the year is Hashem it's not you're a nice guy so you're not going to manipulate me that's that's not the vote he's a good time with he's an air guy don't worry you could feel it no why should you fear anybody well something's father told him before his death don't fear anybody in the world besides Hashem including is this this without remember saying means what time is my order to you is not an ought to you because there's no you you're plugged in it's a very subtle thing because there is a you what do you mean you're saying right and I'm sitting at his feet I'm not saying God I'm saying that's the that's what Bittle is and this you can't fake you can't fake you could fake it for a couple of you know months maybe but really you can't fake it helps you're right the alternative was that self-transformation only happens when you empower the people to really grasp and internalize so they could talk to their own animal Souls right but the motherless said it's a stereot Exodus because words and explanations you need a fire you need the purity [Music] so the mythology answered he's right takapidish but the bekiva was megala that you don't have to be pitish that Oneness doesn't only have to be doesn't only have to be experienced in silence it could be experienced even in in perish even in the words when the words are connected to the source so why do you need it you need it if you want to integrate if I could live in the world of Silence I could live in the world of Vegas he did I once heard from a BL Khana story touched me very deeply he said there was a talmud there was a talmud of the Magid his name was a city in Ukraine they called them by the Tamil they call them the city was he was a fiery Jew a big sadik and he was a friend of the balatonya they both learned by the market she said there was a hostile who once came to the balatanya and he said that he davins and shul and his neighbor in shul is and he says this man his friend comes into shul in the morning yeah and he's on fire [Music] he's on fire and he davins like the minute of of you know different Hasidic branches are different David was so much passionate enthusia he said he says I I'm your student yeah and I come in and I have to learn and I'm just biting and think and then after a long time sometimes a little match gets ignited and by that time I already met I missed the minion I missed the minion so over here in China so you don't have a problem you can do the next minion he says and he you know just like this the story I told you before the opposite story he was telling that to them but like you know we did where did we go wrong so they said I see the Spanish he's right away excited and I I don't feel that that's what he asked out to them and where the words are used in yiddishes at Brent they eat bread he's on fire I'm not on fire so the balotanya went into Vegas he didn't answer right away he uh he went into a meditation like a spiritual trance for a few minutes generally I'm just going to say his comment when you respond from a place of Bittle you usually don't respond right away especially to tough questions you know what I mean because it's not impulsive it's not survival like I'll get you back you know you insulted me I'll get you back so you went into a place of Vegas and then he he came out of his vehicles used to speak in a nigging he spoke in a melody I'll tell you in Yiddish he said over what the story is about to never said it Brent [Music] in them foreign he's burning reply it was just drama since they called him because it was his colleague is burning in him and we want he said we want you should burn on your own both and it's really a tremendous thing even the first statement because he was so connected and the heikel was a real man he was a real so first of all he was connected that triple's fire could burn in him it's almost like you're holding a match you're holding him you know you hold your match near the candle right and it looks like the the wick is burning the match is burning you take away the match you still need a light to Wick actually his closest with an apps it was burning in him and don't underestimate that don't underestimate that first of all it tells you what connection is and I tell you that the moon of lifted him up it's a very powerful thing and that exists the first generations of this you see this a lot and and and many of the colleagues of the altered but disagreed with him about how he's teaching Sid this they felt this is the Derek let them come let them see what a davening is yeah and everybody will go home already transfixed now today's episode how do you do that oh my God how am I supposed to do that I need to light my own fire in my belly in my nephew Bahamas so I have to work through all my stuff so that's why he taught listen to this this way now there's something very powerful in the first way because burning in you it's like a schmuck of Fire it's a holy fire and what do you have to do you just have to let go and it's not a small thing and you add for Generations a lot of them in different different dynasties you saw this nakuda there was a fire there was such a fire a beden and the the way they were together there was a unity and they would come once a year or whenever they would come there was a very powerful one there was an emuna obviously you're talking about people who are not manipulative you're talking about people who were who were genuine now what was doubted ever partly concerned of what I think he was partly concerned of was not his generation he knew that 200 years down the line you're not going to have everybody like oblivious not everybody that's just the way it is right we all understand that huh what's going to be really left of this so if you can give people the tools to ignite their fire inside another articulate terrorism or something in a way that it becomes like almost a singing gamara that can be explained relatively speaking and comprehended and grasped and internalized and mostly a language that you could communicate to your own animal soul another you have to find the rabbit inside of you you have to find the debit inside of you in a way it's a deeper type of connection I'm connected to you in a way that I not I'm connected to you I become you there's like a transplant I become there's a deeper Oneness so this is the only code of Martin Taylor the Bittle of Lamer that my Matthias is a conduit [Music] okay everybody a person has to have a mentor a person has to have a guy the person has to have somebody then there's the concept of clothes a rabbit that's already deeper than a rough foreign there's no ego or insecurity that defines doesn't mean he doesn't struggle we all struggle but the struggle is identified as a mission to be able to transcend and open yourself up is there are so many different ways to connect to the same that's not a student it's all available yeah nothing personal but you spoke about this today so I'm saying that the government thank you I don't even know where to start thinking about this because if I start thinking it's like thinking I understand where did you grow up