Yud-Tes Kislev Fabrengen 5786: The Secret Diamond Factory Within You

[music] Everybody that came to be known as so welcome everybody and I want to thank you all for gracing us with your presence. This is the 227th kagula of the alterb of the balata who was liberated tok that's 1798 two years after the Tanya was published nun 1796 so this is 227 years and each year it gets stronger and stronger and stronger and more powerful and includes more communities and more Jews literally the world over. So everybody by us we wish on this day of said that whoever is going to be whoever is going to celebrate with me I'll help I'll lift him up from restrictiveness into expansiveness. from uh the superficial material into the infinite spiritual and from darkness into into light. So the once said it's not three it's not three different versions all three are true or from that's from is from so that means even if you're you can use your and even if your you can also use your everybody could utilize your of the and our participation He didn't only mean to participate physically to come. Means to internalize to internalize what he taught to internalize in our nervous system in our bones. We should all be able to experience everybody everybody in their own restrictions. Whatever those restrictions are, physical, emotional, spiritual, financial, psychological, whatever the m is the m, the narrowness, the the the smallest, the smallalness, the pettiness, the resentment, the anger into a place of of expansiveness. The said that redemption and exile are all in the mind. They're in consciousness. So from a consciousness of ma to a consciousness of there's a niggan there's a letter the yumpt of is bigger than most people know but most people understand. It's uh it's the yumptiff of of complete transformation. It's the yumptive of transition from gulus into gula. The Mashiach told the Bash writes a letter that he writes to his brother-in-law that rash of Zion 1746 he had an writes and he went to the of Mashia to the chamber of Mashia and he asked him when are you coming? So Mashiach said you probably know it from the song right but it's from a letter from the actually the words is a verse in Mish in proverbs your wellsp springs shall disseminate that's what Mashiach told what's the connection it's not that mashiach meant that if you spread your wellsp springsings everywhere as a reward I will come no that is what msiah's coming means means When godliness when anoid mulvad saturates every part of the world and every part of our world is inside of us every part of us that is the consciousness of gula that is so if we're physically also so that's the of is very very infinitely profound and that's why the momentum I was in for many years they have it's called summer there like a week like a 100,000 Jews it's it's unbelievable like 100,000 Jews the whole world is coming when he came out of prison it was a very serious accusation a very serious imprisonment it's a there's already books that were written on it it's incredible incredible story very dramatic there was unfortunately a terrible msira against him from his own br from you know from Jews themselves which was the saddest part of it and this was the zarist government and he was accused of treason and of destroying the Russia and trying to take over thesar. They accused him of trying to overthrow thesar. He was sending money to Israel for the poor people. He's sending money to Turkey so they can declare war against Russia because Israel was under the Ottoman Empire and that he's creating disarray and havoc and chaos in all of Russia with his teachings. It was a very very serious accusation and he was in in prison for for 53 days under terrible terrible conditions. And when he came out was Tuesday was Tuesday just like this year. So he wrote a letter to two people and of was a grandson of the his mother was ramp and was ofich in Ukraine who was a very close friend of the Balata. They were both students of the mag of Miz. In both letters he writes about his experiences and about the miracles of his liberation. But he says he writes something very interesting. We have the letters. He says he was in his cell saying to him it was Tuesday. So the hillm the way it was divided into the days of the week. You could say till over seven days. Some people do it over the month over the week. So he was saying till the way it was divided over the week. And uh nunhe 55 nunh is what you say on Tuesday. So he said he was saying nun capital nunhe is a is a from and he speaks about the war of shalom against him. His own son rebelled against him and he tried to kill him and and assassinate him and destroy him and writes about his redemption. Reb says, "I said the Hashem liberated my soul in peace from those who declared war against me because the many the multitudes were with me." So he said, "When I finished, when I finished this shalom, I went out. I was freed." In other words, right when he finished this, they came in and they took him out. So of course composed of on this on these words from and every year we sing it on. So we'll start the we'll sing the shalom. If you have aim you want to open up aim you could follow inside. It's huh. So because it's it's quite a few over there. So unless you know you know the niggan balpa you can open up. It's the middle of the you'll see bashalam. It's a beautiful beautiful niggan and it captures it captures the emotions. It captures the journey of of of the the heartache and the [music] the pain and the agony and the uncertainty and then it ends with the crescendo of redemption. Will give me the pitch. Sh. [music] [singing] [music] Keep it. I might. &gt;&gt; [music] &gt;&gt; Shaling [singing] [music] are you mighty? &gt;&gt; [music] &gt;&gt; Ele. [singing] [singing] [singing and music] Oh Y my Lord [singing] [music] [singing] of Sh of Hashemic. [music] [singing] [music] And the king [music] [singing] [music and singing] mean the [singing] Fore [music] and sh [singing] Oh [singing] Word [singing] [music] by [music] Yes. after [music] the body. [music] My name [music] My name [music] Hey. Heat. [music] Oh yes. Hey [music] [music] [singing] &gt;&gt; [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] &gt;&gt; Heat. Heat. [music] [singing] Heat. Heat. [music] [singing] [music] Heat. [music] Heat. [music] [music] and hey. [music and singing] [music] Heat. Heat. [music] Yeah. Heat. [music] [music] Heat. Heat. [music] Heat. Heat. [music] [music] mighty. [music] Yeah. [music] Yes. [music] [music and singing] Yeah. Heat. [music] Heat. Heat. [music] Heat. Heat. [music] [singing] [music] might [music] not. [music] We have [music] the [music] heat. [music] Heat. Heat. [music] I &gt;&gt; [music] [music] &gt;&gt; We Use more of it. I will trust in you. I will [music] experience safety in you. Vani, I will experience safety, trust in you. What else can you ask for? Safety and trust. You have everything. Huh? &gt;&gt; Yeah. Seeing soothed, safe, secure. Father Bashami. &gt;&gt; Father of the Balatus. I want to give a special thanks to the shulim for organizing this beautiful fabaniga sudisv with such special thank you tolazer and heather shiner toim shiner rabbi denil k [cough] and a special thank you to people who dedicated and sponsored this evening. Davidid and Shatenstein from Florida in loving memory of uh my cousin the unforgettable Rabbi Shalom Lipker the founder and rabbi of the Shul in Bell Harbor who passed away last year on Rabbi Shalomber Lipker and also sponsored by somebody mayor Bengala and Miriam Leia bas and their entire family for in all aspects of their life and by our dearum I'm not saying a last name who dedicates it for and to the bal for the gift that he provided the world ah and also dedicated by the family in this of a complete and speedy recovery esester a And of course for our brothers and sisters in the holy land. So I want to share with you a story experience 40 years ago. The garra says in a desire in the beginning that sometimes it takes a student 40 years to understand what their teacher saw. So I'm going to share something that I heard 40 years ago. I'm not going to tell you that after 40 years I understand it but probably a little better than I understood it then. It was a few months after my bait mitzvah mitzvah was in 1985 in the summer and spring and this was already tinv that's the end of 85 kaneka shabas actually shabas was the seventh day of kaneka shabas mik toshin mev that's the end of 85 right m the last the end of 1985 and uh I was a few months after my mitzvah I was quite a young uh a young boy I'm still young But then I was even younger and um it was the labbang on Shabas Shabas always and at the end of the Fabang it was a surprise. The Reb said that in honor of Zanaka he's going to make a second Fabang M Shabas which was unusual. So it was very exciting to be a second fabangan. By the second Shabas, which was the night of the eighth day of Kaneka Kaneka, middle of the Fabangan, the Reb threw out a question. It's like one of these bomb questions. It was unusual to hear such a question. And I I think I and everybody felt this wasn't just an abstract question to understand something. It had some deep relevance. You could see that it was very he was it was very emotional when he asked the question. The Reb told a story about Utus Kislv. The story is known. It's already printed in a biog biography, an old biographical book about Alterba called Base Rebi. It was a story that was known from for generations because Alterba shared it after he came out of prison. Alterba was in a cell in Petersburg. Petersburg was the capital of Russia then. You know, like Alcatraz here, that was the type of prison. I actually went to visit it. It surrounded all sides by the Neva River because it was designated for the highest level criminals. So they didn't want anybody to escape. So you can't get out cuz from all sides you have to go through the river. I actually went to visit it a few years ago when I was there in Petersburg and uh he was there in a cell a small cell and alterb said that he had two visitors that came to visit him not from this world from the other world the bump and the maggot. Now the bashv passed away 1760 the maggot passed away you know the maggot passed away also the shabas before he passed away he turned to his youngest student and he said is our celebration day nobody knew what he's talking about a few days later he passed away and a few decades later was the kaguli So the maggot came to visit and the BMP came to visit. But you have to understand that the mag already passed away 26 years earlier. The BMP passed away 13 years before the mag. [clears throat] So uh they came from said they came from to visit him. The mag he said he recognized right away. He was a student. The bos he was only by the bos once when he was three years old. His father the barak was a bos. He took him to Bash once for his uph but he didn't see the BM after she said he didn't recognize but the fact that he was walking in front of the Mad he understood the came to strengthen him to give him said I asked them why do I deserve this why did I deserve this punishment why am I sitting in prison and suffering so much and generally why did I deserve all the persecutions against measi what did I So the mag told him that there's a big on you in heaven because you reveal with such expansiveness and with such revelation and so much so a huge opposition was triggered so to speak against you in heaven and all the persecutions down here is just that's not really the story thesar government doesn't know from the mazi in heaven there's a kit against you but it came down that they arrested you here that's how it came down into the in the physical world and all the persecutions against you said to them if that's the case maybe when I get out of here hopefully I get out of here I should stop I should stop and the market said no no no no once you started if you get out of here means that heaven agrees with you, it means you triumphed. So if you get out of here, not only should you not stop, you should add and increase much more. That this was the conversation. And in in there's always there's an expression Peterbber Petburg that my mother before Petersburg are shorter. After Petersburg he did what they told he went much more much more frequent and much more elaborate and more expensive before Petersburg but after Petersburg it's a famous expression because of the story. So the this is in 1985 asks a question. He says I don't understand the bos and the mag they are the guilty parties. They're the ones who founded they're telling him there's a kuku because you publicize it's their fault. The bos founded he was the founder of the mag was his successor. So they're telling him there's a kit. What about them? And in fact they also suffered from opposition. So why did they continue? They continued obviously they felt that somehow it's the right thing and the kit was gone or the kit is not important or it's not relevant. So what happens suddenly now that when the is continuing their path there's a new kit number one number two there's a story that happened in the times of the mag of mis it's a known story about a man named karin of kar was a student of the bump he was a very big sadic he did not agree with the mag to publicize he didn't he felt it's only for very very spiritual and elevated souls once He was walking and he saw in the garbage a p a a page and he took he picked it up and he saw that it was a mime. It was a discourse from the mag of mis and he felt disgusted that such holy words should be in the garbage and because of his because of his uh negativity it created a kit it created a negative force against the mag in heaven who was there the alterba was the youngest of the students and he saw it and he right away realized what's happening so he told I want to tell you a can I tell you a story said yeah so the alterba who was then the youngest student of the mag told a story what's the story [snorts] he said there was a king who had a son a prince and the prince was an incredible person and he was obviously the ear of the king but unfortunately he fell ill and his illness increased to the point that no doctor or physician could find a cure [snorts] and the king searched everywhere for some doctor who can help his child and there was a great doctor who came and he said he has an idea there's a certain type of diamond and this diamond Diamond has reme it has um it has remedy powers. If you grind up this diamond into powder and you feed this powder into this into the prince, he thinks he'll be healed. So now they do a search for the diamond. They can't find the diamond anywhere. Finally, they found that there's one diamond like this available. And where is it? It's the crown jewel of the king's crown. Wow. Does it pay? And if you take out that crown jewel, that crown jewel is the crown is gone. And you know me, the crown is this the glory of the king. So what do you do? So they're debating. In the meantime, the situation became worse to the point that he was so sick that they didn't even know if it's going to help. And his mouth was closed. So they couldn't even get anything in. So was it worth it to destroy a diamond and destroy the crown for something that's very unlikely to work? So they decided to consult the king. It's his crown. So they asked the king, the king said, "Listen, the crown is very important to me, but what's it worth if I have no child? My child dies." I we don't not sure it's going to work. He says, "I know. Take the crown jewel, grind it into powder, mix the powder with water, and maybe you could get one drop of water into the mouth and maybe that will save my son." And it's even if it's a doubt within a doubt within a doubt, it's worth it. Maybe maybe he'll be saved. So turns to the and he says the prince is the Jewish people. The king is the crown jewel on the crown of the king. That's that's the crown jewel of Yiddish like it says in Zer it's the nish of it's the essence it's the soul it's the divinity of godly of yiddish of the world of mitzvah the crown jew should be respected it should stay in the crown but said the child is sick the child is sick is the child is sick the child is dysfunctional the Jewish people have been so hammered So crushed, so overwhelmed by the stress and pain and anxiety and trauma of the gulos, physical, emotional, spiritual, financial, on every level. Remember the times of the bos were very, very depressing times. If you know about history, there was just such a devastation, such a depressing mood between the Shabsvi false msiach and the 1648 pgrams of Kalanetski and the poverty and you had the elitists, the Jews who were elited, the Jews who were elite and then the rest of the simpleans. It was just a very depressing era. So the king says, "Take the crown, grind it into powder." Even though most of the powder is going to go go not going to be used, mix it with water, dilute it, compromise it. And you're not even sure it's going to go in, but maybe a drop will go in. It's worth it. Heard it. He calmed down. and Alba nullified the kit the negative decree against the maga that came from of kit's anger and and and hurt about what was happening asks so the tells the story at the I was there and he says I don't understand the alter himself in the time of the mag knew that it was a kit and he himself nullified it through this explanation 26 years later or 30 years later the situation had become better. The son of the king became more sick not less sick. Gmorrah says generations go down not up. So the kid became more sick. So for sure for sure you need to grind it up. For sure you need water. For sure you know that much of the powder is going to go to waste. For sure you know that it could end up in the garbage. Maybe a drop is going to go in. So what happens suddenly that the kitra came back and Alb himself said maybe I should stop. What do you mean maybe you should stop? You're the one who said you're not allowed to stop. You got to save the child. So now suddenly he's thinking he has to stop. This was the question was very interesting questions that the should ask these types of questions. And he said in his humility he said how is it that a person even thinks that he's going to understand the conversation between the he said about himself. He said in Yiddish in the day of how does a village boy come to say an opinion about what the ministers of the king are talking about? He says himself how do you even have the that he's analyze a conversation but he said it's we need to learn we need to understand especially understand how it's relevant to us. The Rebba finished the questions and they went on to the next subject. He didn't answer. At the end of the much later, he said it's possible that some people won't be able to sleep because of these questions. So he started to explain it but very very briefly very briefly just a few minutes he said something and he finished finish the fabang. This was the next day the notified he's going to a third time. This was already very unusual. in two days three extremely unusual at the third that year 40 years ago the Reb dedicated a whole to answer these questions with a long long explanation I want to share with you one that he said them one point that he said the explained you know in yeshiva in yeshiva lingo yeshiva slang there's an expression it's not inus is not in the in The contribution of there's two aspects because really the Gmorra says generally there were many limitations on revealing kabala was always transmitted secretly a lot of limitations a lot of conditions who and what age and when and what environment all these conditions what what what happened at the bos changed this already before the says that in our generations it's a mitzvah to reveal this wisdom. Vital writes that said that in Shak introduction to Shakus brings it in Tanyak 26 that in our generations it's a mitzvah to reveal this wisdom. Why said no the answer is because the limitations is not of the it's not that this is never allowed to be revealed. It's part of it's just the government the people they're not always worthy. They have to have the right conditions. Says comes what everybody's going to be doing is going to be immersed in divine awareness, divine knowledge. Says in the beginning of Mishna there's limitations. The answer is when Mashia comes is going to be different. It's not that this has to remain hidden. Just depends on the circumstances. So what happened suddenly that felt you should reveal this wisdom. So the Reb said there's two there's two reasons. One has to do because you did the The child is sick. This is as has a power to resurrect. You seek you seek you see literally that people desperately need guidance, inspiration, empowerment. Life gets difficult from anxiety to other spiritual, psychological, emotional difficulties. So the bos came to heal the trauma and the spiritual illness and the physical debilitating process and experience of the child. That's the first thing. And this is the m ofba. They have a drop of water mixed with that diamond with the powder of that diamond and it can heal the child. And because it can heal the child, the king says, "Grind it up, dilute it, but feed it, share it, share it, because it can heal. It can heal my child even if it's a suffic." That's the first thing inused as the power to heal souls, inspire Jews, resurrect hearts, mend brokenness, give people more meaning, more depth, more awareness, more joy, [snorts] more serenity, more confidence. With all theness and all the hardships in the time of the bump, they needed an energy. They needed a divine nuclear energy, so to speak. that can that can reignite their soul that can help them reveal their love of God their awe of God their life and mitzvah and and their their experience as Jews that's the first element of for this you need drops you need drops of water that have the crown jewel of the king that can feed them that was the of that's the first thing and tak you see if you read the teachings of the BM and all most of their students you'll see that most teachings are a paragraph. You read all the mag and all the swarm of the the students. It's paragraphs, one paragraph, maybe two paragraphs, but each one is a fireball. Each one is like an atomic spiritual bomb. An atom is tiny. We don't even see it. But if you split an atom, watch out. You can build a world, you can destroy a world. The BMP's teaching is like atoms. [clears throat] It's like the atom. You split the atom in a in a holy way. It's like nuclear energy. That's what it is. Nuclear energy. And you saw what it did within 50 100 years. I don't know if you have the likes in Jewish history. The teachings of the BMP reached probably close to 10 million Jews. revolutionized and transformed Jewish life without money, without institutions, without territory, without an army, without uh violence. It's incredible the presence of this guil of the the crown jewel of the king. It it it captured the Jewish world in 50 100 years from 1740 to 1840. It's an unbelievable thing. Unprecedented revolution without, as they say, without a bullet shot and without infrastructure. There was no infrastructure like ma. There was no infrastructure for it. What was it? It was the soul. It was the presence. It was the regulated uh healing divine presence of the bos and and and the students. And that's the that's the first element of it gives people hope, depth, awareness, inspiration. Anybody who learns knows this, especially if you're a more sensitive soul. Went a step further. He didn't talk in drops. So he didn't give my not one paragraph. Good luck if you could find that. You have that the early years he said short things are long. We have this to learn constantly here and those of you who participate and hopefully more people will participate. Many of you I know listen online you know every mimer is long elaborate there's a buildup there's a structure it's a whole treated like just if you learn with his that's how he treated he explains and he illustrates and he's masid it with illustrations and relevance and examples from people's lives with long explanations the are like sugis of andil And if you're learning, you're learning you're holding with Yeah. So you know this it's to learn. So already it's not drops not little drops a vart. There's no vart. What's what's the vart? There's no vart like you finish. What's the vart? It's like whether before whatever all the what's this about just give me a vert give me a nice there this is already a seconding in not this is the it's a of what's going to happen with Mia comes right in the beginning of the Mashiach comes he's going to teach the Jewish people the inner depth of says in the end of the last of the whole the whole the whole that everybody the last of the whole speaks about Msiah and he says is you shouldn't suspect me that I know the whole but this is the last the la this is the last of so I know. Huh? [panting] What's the Rambam saying? There's going to come a time there won't be hunger. There won't be war. There won't be jealousy. There won't be negative competitiveness. And nobody's going to have what to do. All the goodness is going to be abundant. And all the delicacies are going to be as common as dust. So nobody's going to know what to do. The was already 850 years ago talking about AI. This is our about AI. In 30, 40 years, AI is going to be doing everything. You're going to want to order pizza mitsai Shabas. You're not going to call. You're not going to have to have people who need to get paid and they don't work here and they go on vacation. AI, they're going to make the pizza. They're going to deliver the pizza. You need cleaning help. You need whatever you need. That's why people are worried in a few years, 40, 50 years, 90% of people feel they may lose their jobs. So already spoke about it. You don't have to worry. It's tak going to be no hunger, no war, no kina, no ta's goodness is going to be so abundant. All the delicacies are going to be as common as dust. Everything. Everything. It's going to revolutionize the whole world. Rambam writes it clearly. So what is everybody going to do all day? We're going to walk around, scratch our heads, and smoke cigarettes. So says, not even Jews. Says, that's the whole Jew world, all of humanity. is what the whole world is going to be doing is they're going to be immersed in divine knowledge. Now das doesn't mean intellectual knowledge is knew doesn't mean he got a resume from kava on Google and he called the and he said where did she graduate which seminary was she validictorian Adam didn't have a resume of kava yava means he had with kava he connected to kava because the next words is she had a child from a resume you don't have a Yoda is not knowledge. Yoda is intimate experience, embodiment. It's embodied. The whole world is going to be experiencing divine infinity and bliss. That's the whole that's what you're going to do. That's the only thing AI can do or AI could do this also. this AI can do for this you need a soul it's not information it's the experience of the divine in your divine core which is one and the whole world will be filled with we know the says that of Shabas it's a mitzvah to be from the food of Shabas if you go to Shabas hotel programs the has more food than the whole Shabas The mug of Ram's time is a little tiny piece of fish. You were lucky there were two dishes for shabas. You took a little today became a little whatever. But the point is you have a you have a taste of shabas. The second is not as a crisis intervention tool. The secondus is a foretaste of gula consciousness. When Msiah comes, what's going to be the daily conversation between people? Yeah. For those of you who these words are Chinese, you have to start learn Chinese anymore. That's my point. So said it's time to start start talking about to start living this. It wasn't just crisis intervention to get the drop into the sick child and maybe get him out of his slumber. That's madik for that. You need a tipper that you need a drop. You need a good electric spiritual shock. Boom. Wake him up. For this you don't need long my wanted to change the conversation of people that our daily consciousness should be divine consciousness should be integrated when you're in work when you're in the office when you're in when you're in Bish divine awareness should become the vocabulary it should become the it should become the so to speak it's not it's of b real bit is words of ble Because that's really what it's about. That's that's the consciousness of the world. Anoid mulvad. To be able to speak about anoid mulvad as a regular conversation on a cup of iced coffee with an omelette. Just if you really get into it, the omelet may get cold and the ice coffee may get hot in the middle. But that's the concept. It should be a casual conversation, not because crisis intervention. It's you're living with a consciousness of exactly like when Mashiah comes for this. It's not a drop. [clears throat] This is a consciousness. This is a whole lifestyle. It's like the difference of Mishna and Gmorrah. Mishna you have five lines. Gmorra you can have 10 pages but it takes those five lines and expands it. Ah on this they became a new kit. The first dealt with in the time of the mag the drops need to go into the king's son's mouth. Ah, it's in the garbage. So much is getting spilled out. So much is getting wasted. Many people don't even understand what they're talking about. How could you desecrate such holiness? The king says, "I know, but it's worth it if one drop reaches one Jew and opens up his heart. I'm happy. I'm fine. I don't need a crown without that." That's what the crown is for. That's what Alba dealt with. But now on the second of there became a whole new kit. It's a whole different thing on this said maybe I should stop. So says no way once you started not only you don't stop if you come out of here it means this is you were victorious this is going to transform the landscape of gulus into the landscape of gula as a preparation for messiah that's what's going to be yiddish is not going to be an intellectual experience a cerebral experience it's going to be an embodied experience of divine infinity and bliss that you're going to feel in your nervous system that's whatever wanted Now even in golaf as a toy it's a foretaste of mashia. So the rebba said he finished and he said once the bent and the mag told us to everybody understands what they have to do that they should learn and learn more and learn more and learn more and it should become completely integrated into the body into the animal soul into their daily life into their conversations become part of your life this is one of this was the third [clears throat] at the time I'm just mentioning this in parenthesis because it's already not from whatb said it was a was a little astounding what motivated to suddenly to start explaining the kick with your so I'm just saying this in parenthesis may be true may not be true but it's probably there's some truth to it but I'm not sure that time there was a new kit that happened so it seemed the the's father-in-law the previous named after passed away in 1950 he had three daughters One daughter was killed in trebling care. The other two survived. He had also one grandson. And in 1985, this grandson maintained that his father-in-law passed away in 1950. And the dynasty of Kabad ended. There was a huge library that Rebayat had huge. So he said, "We'll split it. There's two daughters. So we split it. It's a family possession." And essentially there was a huge court case. Then he wanted to go to court. It was a fed fascinating federal court case. Who does the library of the previous belong to? Was it private or not? The said when the court case began based on what the bos said, it wasn't a court case down there. It was a court case up there. It's a new kit on the on the on the dynasty of Kabat. Then Mame started them. What would be the Kitro? It could be alterb wanted to take and make it the vocabulary of daily life that you should really integrate anoid mulvad in your body and in your animal soul. But the Reb wanted a step further. The Reb wanted there shouldn't be a corner in the world that should be devoid of anoid mulada. From Nepal to New Zealand, from Hong Kong to Peru, there shouldn't be a corner in the world that there shouldn't be anid mulvada. And not only in the world, but also in people. Sometimes in Apal and in New Zealand it's easier than in Muny and in Lakewood or in Bar Park or in Crown Heights because in Apal you know it's Gishmak and everything you know but sometimes here you know with the and all the beautiful things the dryness and the deadness I don't have to explain can be pretty intense and anxiety doesn't distinguish between apal right and forche [laughter] and this association and disconnect and inner pain and turmoil and all of these things are everywhere the wanted there shouldn't be a one corner in a person's life that shouldn't be saturated with so could be there was a new kit on this and that's mish when the court case began and suddenly the started to speak about this whole thing what the boss said it's very possible that's what happened a year later hey tavis 1987 the federal judge declared that the donuts and the library is not a private possession possession. And as long as there's a alive in the world, it's not a private possession. There's a dynasty and it doesn't belong to anybody. There's no such thing. It belongs to somebody. It belongs to the Jewish people. It's it's it's a gift that belongs to the Jewish people. It's a collective entity. There's no one person who owns it personally. And they got all the books back cuz he the grandson took a lot of books and he sold them, made a lot of money, and they got it all back. So this was looked like a court case, but the Reb was really saying he was intimating. He didn't say so clearly. This is just what spec I remember speculated at the time because it was very strange occurrence that the had three fabans one after the other and started to analyze the story that happened hundreds of years ago in the prison. It wasn't even it was but what do we learn from this? We learned from this a whole new depth of what is because this happened right before that basically there was a a a victory in heaven not just that should go out of prison for a whole new transformation in the world. Now for many years people didn't realize this but today we mamish realized this because today what you see is what you see today is on one level we live with a lot of prosperity and so many blessings that our grandparents couldn't even dream of the Jewish world has been rebuilt there's beautiful infrastructures everywhere all different communities and Jews from different backgrounds and walks of life there such and gashm and right and yeshivas and shurim and and uh all forms of all types of programs and initiatives that nobody even dreamt of. Whatever you're interested in between podcasts and MP3s and websites and seminars and workshops and retreats and sh it's like flourishing. Huh. Yeshiva.net. Thank you. [laughter] And many many others. He's preparing already for the next mash in Metife Stadium is already preparing for it. It's unbelievable. Yeah. Malahar it's mamish and yet you see that there's something eating up there's some deep pain and anxiety nobody knows what is it and really what it is is Hashem is inviting the Jewish people to step into gula to step into intimacy and intimacy with God means that I have to be pure I have to be clean I have to be open I have to get through what it says in the skin of the snake the skin of the snake you have to get through the skin and penetrate to the soul. The world is searching for the conversation of Msiah for the gula consciousness. What does it mean to be redeemed internally? Not just crisis intervention. Don't just tell me a good v. A good vart is not going to cut it anymore. A good vart is a good v. I have nothing against a good v. I also once in a while say a good v. I hope. But the worst I told I say tell my students the worst thing you could tell me after a shir is it was a good vart. Do say whatever you want. Disagree with me. Say it didn't make sense but just don't tell me it was a good v. And also don't tell me that you heard it at this last week. What's the search? The search is for a transformation of consciousness. Not less and not more. I mean more because it's infinite. So there's always more. It's a transmission of consciousness. It's a paradigm shift. It's living in a different space. And that's the gift that the alterba channeled from Hashem to the Jewish people on. That's the gift. I want to read to you before we go to the next a letter that the fifth lab wrote for that's 1901. the beginning of 1902, the end of 1901. Usually the rebal, he was the fifth labb, the father of the rebay. He passed away 1920. So he would kiss was a big fab. But that year, he had to be out of the country. So he sent a letter for the fab of that his son read and it became printed. And I want to read you three paragraphs from his letter. This is 1901. How many years ago is that 125 years ago? Yeah. 124 years ago. So he says like this, it's a few a few lines I'm quoting the holiday when Hashem redeemed our soul in peace. The light and the vitality of our soul was given to us. The light and the vitality of our soul was given to us. This is the this is the time. This is when the was coined by the I just want to tell you an interesting story in parenthesis. Today this story is not applicable anymore. But it's such an interesting story was the chief rabbi of VNA. He was a real literature. He was not aid. He was a Lithuania but he was very close to the Reb and the Aayats. There was a Yid in Vilna. He was a prominent Jew. Unfortunately at that time before the war Lithuanian jury was struck very very much by enlightenment just like Russian jury and half or more I mean Rabbi a lot of if you've been familiar the history but huge huge parts left it was a very difficult time between the wars all this the socialism and the cap the communism and secular zionism the bundistan all the isms stripped millions of Jews from Yiddishkite there was a Jew in VNA he didn't have affinity to let's put it that way. So he comes into the and he shows him the letter and he says the Mishna says inash remember we learn the says there's four and he made us a fifth looked at him and said So he said told him, "How do I translate that into English?" He says, "With your approach to Yiddish, you're diminish you're substracting from the rishness." Yeah. And here is growing. Rishana is growing. In other words, recognized that there's a spark here. that's going to reinforce and revitalize in the most powerful way. Of course, you're not add with blowing and making of course that's what he says which our fathers our holy fathers have given us. And the writes I'll call This is the day of the beginning of your creation. What do we mean the beginning of your creation? To appreciate the true and ultimate purpose of why Hashem created a human being on earth. This is the day when the true secret of why a person was created was revealed. The day that accesses the revelation of the deepest depths of which on this day flows from heaven in a way that encompasses the whole year. And on this day, we can open our hearts with the deepest desire and love and affection in the core of your inner heart in the truest most deepest core of your inner heart that you should be able to channel the light of the Hashem's On this day that ever writes, I call out to you for Hashem from the depth of my heart to be able to access the depth and the core of the of Hashem, the mitzvah of Hashem, the way they flow. flow from the atmos and plius of cyh of the light of the infinite that it should shine and radiate in the deepest core of our souls our entire our entire etsim and he says what do I mean by our entire entity the core and the extension that which is undefinable in your core and all aspects of your personality should find and surrender and become aligned with hashem to expel from each of us every mid every negative And this graceful attribute and characteristic that dominates our lives from the natural coping mechanisms that people develop. All of our life, our actions, our aspects, our feelings when it comes to avoiding and everything we do in the world which you need for our body should be completely aligned with God with true true kavana that it should channel God's desire in the world and he should allow us to go in this path in a way that we can actually see his face and his pimeus. This is a quote from the letter of Utuskis. So this tells us what Utuskisv is. What does this mean for all of us? It means that we live in a generation that's why it's become this day is becoming more celebrated with each year where the whole world, the Jewish world for sure and ultimately the whole world is yearning to come back. We're yearning for alignment. People didn't think it's going to be so relevant today. A few years ago, but today you see with all the blessings that we have that we're so grateful for, the inner life has become so disintegrated. Nobody even knows why. You look around teenagers, anxiety. What What's your anxiety? Whether you don't have the keys to the new car, you were sheltered. You were given everything. It's really an invitation of the divine for complete alignment. It's an invitation to be able to find out who we really are to be able to experience the inh because everybody is infinite. Everybody is literally infinite. Every moment of teaches you that anoid mulvad we have an animal soul. We have pettiness. We get resentful. We're very self-conscious. And we have to hold it like you hold a child. You have to hold your animal soul with compassion and work with it. But not forget that the one who's holding it is divine as infinite as and that language is the gula language. It's the consciousness of gula. And when you live in that space, it's a very optimistic space to live in. It's a very beautiful space to live in. I asked my wife what I should say. So she said tell the people why you love as my tell them. So I'll tell you I'll tell you why I love them. I teach them. I learn them. Even when I don't teach them, I learn them. I don't only learn them to teach them. I learned them most of the but I learned them myself. The reason is because I haven't found anywhere such purity and such depth. I haven't found anywhere. I'm a little bit inquisitive but I haven't found such purity and such depth. You have purity that comes with naive. You have depth but it's not so pure. Such purity and such depth. Like when I read a mime I I I see parts of myself that I never saw. I could never see with regular glasses. You see parts of yourself. Sometimes people go on deep deep journeys of of work of inner work and healing, but they don't have the ices of it. You know, you could you come to a place, you never saw the place. If you don't have a map, what do you do with it? You're you're amazed. You're blown away into another world, but what do you do with it? You come back from the journey, you don't have anything what to do with it. When you learn, when you learn, suddenly there's a map. Oo, this is what I saw. This is what I saw. This is it. You have a map of the inner soul. You have a map of the inner landscape of reality. I hope someone knows what I'm talking about. Uh, those who have to know know those who don't, you'll learn about it. It's like a map of the inner landscape of reality. Where did he how does he know this map? I don't know that I'm not going to answer this channel though. the real channels formos for so suddenly you look at a world I I I I despise politics I despise politics I hate lies I hate au inauthenticity and I hate when religion is tainted by corruption I hate it I can't deal with it turns me off more than anything else I don't corruption is corruption I also have corrupt parts but don't mix it in with keep corruption corruption right church and state I say right God and corruption. Keep keep it separate. Don't turn Yiddish kite into power struggles into your own insecurities and trauma. It becomes yiddish kite. It's it's it's it's it's it destroys the human spirit, right? That's why so many young people are turned off. Like be truthful. Be pure. We all have corruption. That's fine. We have an animal consciousness. That's why we're created to deal with it. You learn the you see you see see you see what it means to channel Hashem without agendas there's no agenda not even this spiritual agenda we just learned that says that you remember the the end of par speaks about he had a wife and he had a even four children So we have to know exactly who the of was. I mean the title wants us to know. So we have to know that of okay you you'll know this when you go away from the that had a plegish a concubine and her name was that's very important because it says in just like you should know all that. I'm not going to test you but you should know all that everybody. It's very important who Asov's wives were and who Alifas's children were were. One of them was Nakas. It's very important to know that As had an called Nakas. So when you ask for Nakas, just make sure it's not Asov's version of Nakas. A lot of people want Asov's version of Nakas. You can look in he had an anle called Nakas. Not every NASA is so holy. Some nases are As of the Balsh was born in the year. You know that 1698 because he taught what means. &gt;&gt; Very good. Not of that's very good says and look is two words what's it means means what it's the openness is it's the ability to say what it's to be open curious inquisitive to surrender to a truth and to channel it ma means I don't have a fixed idea ma means I could say what it's It's like when you have an emotion instead of deciding what it is you could just say wow ma what this is the key to all growth ability to say ma you don't have to have a verdict who your wife is you're never going to figure it out anyway trust me it's from even after mashia comes some sas don't get revealed it's it's it's you have to say ma just be curious ma what you don't have to reach conclusions that allows growth the moment people reach conclusions they put a lid on it and They seal their opportunity for expansiveness. Ma is B. What's the clip of B? I want you to see my BMA. See my B. And he says that's the beginning of all dysfunction. That's the beginning of all disconnect from it doesn't begin with arrogance. 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IA [music and singing] [singing and music] [singing] [music] was I want to share with you a very moving story. My father Oliver Shalom has a first cousin who lives in Kirat Mali in Israel. His name is Ra Garelik. He grew up in the Soviet Union in Samand which is in Usbekistan. The third to the largest city in Usbekistan is called Samurand. and my father and his mother, my father's mother and his mother were sisters. Some of the family escaped in 1946 after the Second World War on forged passports, Polish passports because Stalin allowed Polish citizens who fled into Russia because of the Nazis to leave after the war. So many Jews forged their citizenship, making themselves look like Polish citizens, and they left. my father's family, my mother's family, many families, but some of the families stayed behind. They couldn't get out for whatever reason. So, this is my father's cousins. They stayed back in Samarand and Beakistan. Samaran became a huge place of Jewish refugees during the Second World War because the Nazis didn't make it tobakistan. So, [snorts] many Jews from other parts of Russia escaped to Isbekiststan and that's how they survived. So Macan became a very big community and then many escaped but many stayed and Mut Garelik stayed there with my uncle Mendel Garelic Ba Garelik my father's uncle and aunt and then they left ultimately in 727172 so these were kabad families in summer growing up in communist Russia there was obviously no yeshiva everybody went to public school which were all communist public schools this is the 1940s 50s60s And [snorts] Mat Garelik was a boyad classic family but he went to public school and there were a few friends of his in public school who were also from Jewish and Kabad families who all lived in summer. So Melik my father's first cousin shared this story. He says once it was recess time and the kids were in the hallway, you know, playing and the school put up a big map, a map of Russia. So the few Kabat kids who were there, they weren't officially they were had to be they had to be integrated into public school because it was very dangerous to identify as a Jew and a religious Jew was extremely dangerous and Jew. But they would they would they would stick together because they were friends. And they're looking at this map and they decided they want to find the city of Labavich. They heard so much growing over the city of Labavich. Now Labavich is a little littleetle. It's a little town in Bellarus very close to Lithuania. It's bamish a little town. I was there in Labavich. You could probably walk it. Uh I don't know 20 minutes, a half an hour when I went there a few years ago. A few chickens, few houses, a little river. Very, very small town. This was the city of Lab the Reb moved there after the passing of the alterb the moved there and this became the center of fivebas theb and theats and then he left Labavich in the second world war when the Germans came in and he moved to Rustav where he passed away. So they decided they want to find the city of Labavich that they heard so much about on the map. They're looking and looking and looking. They knew it's somewhere at the border of Bellarus, Lithuania, near a city called Smalinsk. They couldn't find it. They couldn't find it. They're searching and searching. Their geography teacher, a communist teacher, walks by and how excited he was to see kids looking at the map, right? This is the greatest validation for a boring geography teacher. When you see that the kids during recess are interested in geography, this was like, you know, Dan, this was a victory of what a great teacher he was. So with tremendous enthusiasm, he walks over to these kids and he says in Russian, "What are you searching for?" They couldn't say the truth. So Melik says, "My grandfather was born in a city and I'm looking for that city where he was born." The teacher says, "Which city was he born in?" Lavich. That doesn't give away anything. His grandfather was born there. You know, there's no any connection. So, uh, the teacher starts looking and looking and looking. He said, "I never heard of the city, but let me look." and he can't find it. He tells the students, you know, come with me to my office. I have an atlas and an atlas has already a specified depiction of all the cities, much more details. It's much more granular and you see things over there that you didn't see on the map. Maybe we'll find it there. Good. Excitedly they come to his office and this [snorts] communist teacher opens up his atlas and he searches and searches and searches and indeed near Smalinsker he finds a tiny tiny tiny little dot and it says Labavich and the kids look and they see Labavage but they also see cities that are written in bigger letters and bigger circles and bigger dots. So they asked the teacher why do some cities have a big circle, some cities have a small circle, some cities have a tiny circle, some cities actually have a whole huge space. So he says a huge city like Moscow, like Lenigrad, they occupy a lot of space. A regular city has a regular circle and a tiny tiny little village has a tiny tiny little circle. They were very disappointed. This can't be their labavich. It's the center of the world. This is where everything happens. can be. They say to him, "No, no, no, no, no. The city where my grandfather was born is known. It's worldrenowned. It's a very important city. It's a great great city. Something is off." So the teacher says, "I don't know what to tell you. I don't know. I never heard of it." Then he says, "Are you sure it's a big city?" They say, "Yeah, for sure." He says, "I have an idea. I know the Russians have a principle that if there's a city where there's a secret factory that produces something that they don't want the enemy to know about. So they don't make a big deal of it and they eclipse it to make believe it's insignificant. That way they eclipse from the enemy any information that could endanger them. So it could be that Labavich is a very big city but it has a secret factory and they don't want the enemy to know about it. So therefore they don't really mention it. They mention it very in in passing and very insignificant but I don't know anymore. Okay. Now they're dismissed and now their curiosity grows. So my cousin of madelik says after school they go to visit an old Jew in Samand whose name is Raendel Nudendel Nud learned in Lavich by the rebab. This is already in the 1950s. He learned by the rebashab was there till the first world war. This is the early 1900s. The rebashab built the yeshiva in Zion that's 1897 and he was there till 1915 when the Germans came in during the first world war and the yeshiva was there. So big yeshiva hundreds of and mendal learned there for a few years in the actual city of labav who was already passed away at the time. So they went to visit mendel mendel m was an alid in a long white beard. He was aided who survived all the years of of persecution and exile and terrible terrible conditions and circumstances and he lived in samakand with his family. So after school all the boys make a visit to the mendel m and the m gadellik my cousin says we come in mendle is sitting on the couch. It's a broken down home. Poverty everywhere. Every piece of furniture is broken. There's nothing there. It's like a real real Aramman. Real povertystricken Jew. And they all walk in. So Mendle says, "Kinder Bilter, what you know what gives me the honor? What brings you here?" So they right away turn to him. They say to men, "You were you were actually in Labavich?" He says, "Yeah, tell us." They need to crack the secret. Tell us. Tell us the truth. that Lavich have a secret factory that the government didn't want the enemy to know about and therefore it's so so small on the map. So the Mendel was a very wise Jew. So he understood what's happening. And he said, "Yeah, it's true. Abavic had a big big factory, a big secret factory." They said, "Really?" "Yeah." "Were you ever there?" He says, "Was I ever there?" "I was there for years. I was there." "You were in the factory?" "Yeah, many, many times I was in the factory." They're so excited. Finally, they're cracking the code that nobody knows. Nobody in the world knows. Says, "What type of factory was it?" He says this was a factory created to polish diamonds. That's what it was. Diamonds, infinite amount of diamonds there, abundant diamonds. And they would polish the diamonds. So the mut turns to the mendle in his innocence. He was a little kid. He says, "A mendle, I don't understand. Look at the poverty you live in. If you were there every day, why didn't you take a couple of diamonds and bring them with you to sant and your life would have looked differently? And says the men started to cry and he says, [snorts] "I [snorts] was very young. I didn't have the mindset. I didn't have the sense to take the diamonds with me. This is what he said to them. So I heard the story a number of years ago and it was very very moving. I wanted to share it tonight for you. So I texted Moto Garelic son. He's a kabach in Tuman Siberia. Okay. With the weather, you think it's cold today? This is Miami Beach with global warming on steroids. This is not cold. It's 15°. This is hot. Siberia has places 70 below zero. 70 below zero you're talking about. And here's a Jew who went as a schlak voluntarily. He's from Israel. Tuman Siberia. I don't know if you know how big Siberia Siberia Russia has 11 time zones, [laughter] right? That's why nobody could conquer Russia. Napoleon, Hitler, they just retreat more and more and more. Russia never ends. So you can't conquer it. Just go back, back, back. And Tuman has, believe it or not, thousands of Jews. So here's a Jew who went with his family to Tuma. Yeah. He recently built a mikvah. He was built a mikvah in Tuman. Amazing. His daughter was getting married, so he wanted to marry her in Israel. He said, "No, I want a wedding in Siberia." Imagine a wedding in Tuman Siberia. His name is Gadelik. Mut Garelik's son, Rhiel Garelik, Rabbi Rakhalik, a cousin of mine. So I texted him just to verify the story. I just, you know, I wanted to verify that it's a true story. So he said, "Yeah, my father always told the story, but then he tells me, I want to tell you a sequence to the story. There's always a sequence to the story. This is already This is a story from the early 50s. This is a story from already the 21st century 2025 or approximately 2025. And he said, "I was giving my sheer Thursday night in Tuman Siberia to the my mccur over there, Jews who grew up in Siberia who had no Jewish education and but they come to to us and I teach them every Thursday night. We learn ydushkite." And when I finished my class, they asked me, "Is any of this relevant to us?" Is any of this relevant to us? So I decided to tell them the story about my father with the diamonds in Loavage. [snorts] And I said, "You should know that the factory still exists because today there's a kabad house everywhere and these are factories to polish diamonds and every one of you is a diamond." The says the says that the Jewish people are called a desirable earth land. So the says why? Because in the earth you have minerals and diamonds and resources that nobody can even grasp the depth and the infinity of it. Says in there's there's diamonds that are infinite but you have to dig up. You have to excavate. You have to go through the gravel and the dirt and the darkness and the dysfunction and the pain and you'll find it. This is what I'm telling them and I tell him the whole story. So my cousin says the next day in Shul, one of these guys comes over to me and he says, "I have a surprise for you. Here's a new atlas that the Russian Federation just published. A new atlas and especially for kids, they want the kids to become educated in Russian geography." and he opens up the atlas to that page of Smealinsk and Labavich that was barely recognizable in the map of the 1950s. And suddenly I see, he actually sent me a picture of it. And suddenly I see this occupies a huge space, a big picture of the Labavichba, one of the most uh worldrenowned leaders of the 20 of Jewish 20th century. And this is the city where it all began, Labavich. And today it's a center of from which a center of and all around the world is centers that are spreading Judaism and which originated and was centered in this city with a big big picture of Loavich and the the house that they rebuilt in Labavich was the place of the yeshiva they call it Bisenu in Lavich huge huge picture of the reba and this said I'm looking and then I see Smealinsk which is right near is a few miles from Solenc months because the big city and I see in the center of Smolins is a diamond in the atlas. So I just want to show you things have progressed in Russia since the early 1950s. He says I asked the guy what's the diamond in Solinsk. She says you don't know what happened. In the end of the 1950s Russia discovered a huge diamond depository, a crazy crazy diamond depository in Russia which was an incredible resource. But they needed a center to be able to polish them. So what did they choose? Smolinsk. They chose Smalinsk right near Labavich. And this became in Russia the most popular and in Europe one of the biggest centers for polishing diamonds. Right near Labavage and Smalinsk. [laughter] So it turns out that a few years literally after the story the end of the 1950s somehow this factory actually was created a few a few miles little few Solinsk is very close to Labavage few miles away from Labavage. So, uh, he finishes and he says, you know, he says, I wish I could show to Mendel Nadal this picture and tell him Lavish is on the map again. It's on the map again. Yeah. So really, you know, you think about that moment what Rendel Nad was saying, you know, in a dark in a dark home in poverty, in complete complete uh completely bleak situation. But he held on to those diamonds and he said, "I was young. I didn't have." And he infused in these kids this imagination, this dream. My cousin told me when he saw this, he right away took pictures and he sent it to his father in Israel. Montto Garelik and he called him and he said his father was crying. He said, "Wow, you just took me back to that moment in the early 1950s, you know, close to 60, 70 years ago." And to be able to see the progress, to be able to see the transformation, but the truth is that this is one of the key points of Utasis, the real real conviction and faith that the diamond is not outside of us. The diamond is inside of us. And it's not just a cliche, you know, you're a diamond, you're precious, you're you're cute, you're charming, you're good-looking, you're handsome, you're talented, you're resourceful. We're talking here about the real diamond. The real diamond is your infinity. The fact that you're a channel that you don't need an ego to live by. The ego is fake news. The ego is the trauma response from the tsum which doesn't teach, tells, and tell you who you are. So we grab on like somebody drowning you know you grab on to anything to hold on and even if the thing is flimsy and frail and it's not going to help you but if it's something that can save you from the depth of the ocean you hold on to it. That's what the ego becomes, you know. We hold on to it and we desperately clench it because somebody give me attention, somebody give me validation, somebody uh tell me how good I am, somebody give me affirmation, somebody help me and give me some oxygen and tell me that I'm worth something. Labavich is the factory to polish the real diamond. That's what it is. That's what the hulus is. You wake up in the morning, the diamond is there, but if it's not polished, you're going to look at it and you're going to say, "Ah, a stupid stone. It's not worth anything." That's what people say. It's not worth anything. Could you tell me that I am worth something? If you polish the diamond and you look at it and you say, "Ah, there was a his name was Mosenson Mosen was a he was a wealthy Jew. He was also a bent. was a and when he was a of the fifth, he used to come once a year to the and he would give the a gift. The best diamond he was a diamond dealer. The best diamond that he found over the year that he purchased, he gave to the as a gift to give to one year. He came to the shop and he was waiting on his turn to go in on to go in for a private audience. In front of him there was a Jew who was a simple Jew and he went into the Reb and he was there a long time and then came Ma's turn and he was there only a few minutes and he felt a little resentful this Jew in front of me is a simple guy and the Reb gives him so much time and me I'm a scholar I'm a wealthy Jew I'm a supporter I'm a prominent person in just a few minutes he felt that it was unbecoming and disrespectful to him he didn't want to say anything because it was his reb. So he kept it in his heart because he didn't feel comfortable telling it to the Reb. But he was a little upset. Let's put it that way. After Yamiff, it was time to leave and he went into the Reba and he put out the diamond. He took out the best diamond to give to the Reb a gift. Obviously a realb feels what's happening in the heart of the So he looks at him and he says, "What's this?" He says, "This is the best." The best. So [snorts] picks it up. I don't see the &gt;&gt; I don't see the grace of he says, "Rebel, let me explain to you. If you know about diamonds and he explains, I don't know what he explained, but he explained whatever." He was a diamond connoisseur. So he explained, you know, people explain wine, what a good wine is, and what a good aroma is. But he explains if you understand what a diamond is, the features, the characteristics, the cleanliness, the glitter, the shine, the attraction, the charm, whatever it is. The says, "I hear you. I don't see." So he explains again and again. And the insists that he does not understand. So finally in frustration, he says, when it comes to diamonds there's training you need to be a connoisseur not everybody gets it looked at him and he said and on souls you also have to be an expert you're an expert on diamonds I don't tell you how to run your business don't tell me how to run my business these are just my own words you need an to be an expert on diamonds is you have to have an expertise in souls also. And he said over the story he understood you could look at a diamond I don't see anything. Some people look at their own children I don't see anything. Some people look at their own spouse I don't see anything. Some people look at themselves they don't see anything. And if you don't see anything in yourself you won't see anything in your children. You won't see anything in your spouse. You won't see anything in anybody else. That's how the world works. A maven. A maven is yeah is a factory to bring out the diamond to polish the diamond to to be able to live fully as the diamond to be in joyful presence to be able to appreciate it and to polish the diamond means that I have to be able to also know all aspects of the diamond I can't bypass anything. I need to be able to hold space for all the parts of the diamond. The diamond has sometimes different soil and gravel and dirt that's mixed into it that I have to work with. Not every diamond you excavate and it's a perfect diamond. That's why it needs polishing. And you don't have to get afraid that you need to polish it. That's your work. Not a punishment. It's not a penalty. My work is I'm given a diamond here. Polish it. Make it what it really is. And alterba gave us this gift through to be able to every day polish our diamonds. And that's the factories we all want to create in our homes, in our communities, factories where we polish diamonds. They don't have to be secretive anymore. Even in Russia, the diamond factory is not secret anymore. The imperfection in the diamond is how you know the authenticity of it. Yeah. &gt;&gt; [music] [music] &gt;&gt; Huh? It's nice to have you all the way from Dangster. &gt;&gt; [music] &gt;&gt; jumped. The jump, [music] &gt;&gt; huh? &gt;&gt; You can take off your car. A few years. A few years. The only job they're not going to be able to take away is learning the every other job they're going to take away. All the calculations they're going to do better than us. Even therapy, they'll do better than us. [music] Yeah. I am [singing] I am aba. Baba.che. [music] [singing] I am. [singing] [music] Let Yeah. [screaming] Yeah. [music] Yeah. &gt;&gt; [singing] &gt;&gt; Everybody [singing] am [music] I am I am [music] I am Oh you might above you Am I Ever. How do you say that? I amaba. Hallelujah. [music] I am I may [singing] [music] let I [singing] am [music] they are And [singing] yeah, [music] I May I Forever. [music] Hallelujah. [music] Oh, act like him. You know what? Before before we continue the theat once said that said that he was p that should be like that whatever a Jew asks for should have a tremendous impact. So we're going to sing nowish on old so everybody can have those things that you're struggling with in your personal life or with your children or with your family or your own internal stuff to be able to break through to be able to go from restrictiveness to expansiveness. I am [music] the Lord. Yeah. Yeah. [singing] Yeah. [music] Heat. Heat. [music and singing] [music] &gt;&gt; [singing and music] [chant] [music] [singing] &gt;&gt; Hallelujah. [music] Hallelujah. [music] [singing] &gt;&gt; [singing] &gt;&gt; Show us [singing] again. [chant] Yeah. [singing] Yeah. [singing] [music] Yeah. [singing] [music] Yeah. [singing] &gt;&gt; [music] &gt;&gt; Hey [chant] [music and singing] [chant] [music] [singing] y. [singing] Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. [singing] [music] Hey, [music] [singing] [music] [music and singing] Give [music] me [singing] [music] [singing] [music] God. I [chant and singing] [singing and chant] [music] might [singing] Oh yeah. [music] [singing] [music] Mercy [singing] [music] [singing] is all. [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] Oh yeah. [singing] Yeah. Yeah. [chant] [music and singing] Yeah. Yeah. [music] I love [music] Yeah. [singing and music] Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. [singing] [music] &gt;&gt; [music and singing] [chant] &gt;&gt; Yeah. Yeah. [music and singing] Yeah. [music and singing] Yeah. [music] Yeah. [singing] When Alba was in prison, they sent a psychologist to diagnose Now this is before the days of Ziggman Freud. So they didn't have the word psychology. Then [snorts] it was called a doctor but it was a nefasious a doctor of the soul so to speak of the mind. Why? Because one of the mysterious one of the accusations was that alterba wants to overthrow the zar and he's creating a movement in the Jewish world in Russia that will ultimately seow chaos into the system and overthrow the government. And they had all these the ms against him, the accusations against him included all of these facts quote unquote to support that this was his plan. That's why Thesar took it so seriously because this wasn't just a criminal who stole money or somebody who's avoiding the draft which is all serious but this is you're coming to overthrow the zar this was the worst level this is treason of the highest order was taken so seriously I don't know if you know the zar himself came to visit him but he dressed up like a simple person he didn't want he should know that he's coming in stood up he says why are you standing up he says the melik He says, "How do you know?" said the says down here reflects a when you came in I felt the energy of so I stood up. So he realized that he's not dealing with a petty criminal trying to overthrow him. So there's a lot of interesting amazing stories that happened in prison because they were trying to figure out who this person is. So they sent in a psychologist to uh analyze him, to dissect him. The psychologist interviewed him, see who he is. The man came out apparently was a wise man. And he said to the to the ministers who were reviewing the case, he said that this prisoner has a craving to something that he can he could not fulfill. &gt;&gt; He's looking his longing is to something that he can never achieve. He has like a a goal that's unattainable. You could see from there's like an anxiety there a desire for an angst an angst like a chuka for something he can't fulfill a longing pining you know got pining. So this was tremendous f for the accusation of course he wants to overthrow the zar and he knows that with all the respect injerus not from the family and what is he going to become a it's impossible so he has a longing for something that he can't fulfill so it really it's it suited very well the ms accusation but you have to ask the defendant so they came to the and they show they shared with them what this man said, "It's true. I have a desire, but it's not for the my desire is to be subsumed in the mal of the infinite one." He's right. I have a desire that I can't fulfill. So, Mal, that's what I'm looking for. I'm looking for Malus, but not to become desar over Russia. I'm looking to become one with Mal with the infinite malus. One of the people who they sent in to interview him was a minister in the government in the Zarist government. He was a Christian and he was very very educated in biblical studies and even in Kazal he knew very well Yiddish and he came to ask questions. So uh he came in and he asked Alba he said I want to ask you a question. This is fine. Ask all in Russian of course. He said he asked after ate from the tree. It says they heard Hashem strolling through the garden in the afternoon. So they went into hiding. So Hashem, so Hashem turns to Adam and he says, "Where are you? Where are thou?" So Adam said, "I heard the sound of Hashem walking in the garden and I went into hiding because I was afraid because I'm naked." So Hashem said, "Ah, ate who told you that you're naked? Did you eat from the tree that I told you not to eat?" So the man asked, "Why does Hashem say, "Where are you?" If he's God, he should know where Adam is. He doesn't have to ask where he is. said, "Rashi, Rashi answers the question." Rashi asks the question. Rashi answers. She tells what Rashi says. I know. [snorts] I want to hear what you have to say. So says, "Do you believe that the TA is eternal? It's timeless or not?" He says, "I do believe it." He was a Christian. I believe it. So said, "If you believe it, I'll explain it to you." Ayeka is a question that God is always asking every person. It's not a question of geography. Where are you? Are you in the east? Are you in the south? Are you hiding under the shed? Are you on top of the shed? Under the blanket? On top of the blanket. It's an existential question that you can hear in the depths of your own soul. If you listen, if you clear up your antenna and you uh become transparent, you'll hear in the depth of your own soul. It's a question that God is always asking Adam from after Adam ate from the tree. That was the birth of self-consciousness of ego of disconnect self-consciousness. From then there's a question that he asks Adam and the question is where are you? Where are you? Where are you in the world? I have given you a life. I have given you resources. I've given you a soul. I've given you a body. You have a mission. Where are you? Do you know who you are? Do you know where you are? Where do you stand in terms of fulfilling your destiny and your mission in this world? Yeah. And said, a metaphor. A person is this in this age. And he said the age of this person, whatever his age was, he said the age of this minister. So, Hashem turns to him and says, "You're this in this age. Let's say 53 or 63, whatever it is. I've given you these and these amounts of years. What have you been doing with your years? Where do you stand? What's your future? What's your destiny? Do you know who you really are and what your calling is?" That's and do you understand that you have a mission in this world for which I have chosen you? And that question only happens after he eats from the tree. Before he eats from the tree, it's not a question. He knows who he is. after he eats from the tree. Your whole life you could be trying to figure out who you are. Am I crazy? Am I normal? Am I divine? Am I anim animalistic? Do I have a big ego? Do I have a small ego? Do I want cover? Do I want money? Do I want influence? Do I want power? Do since then the cosmos has been plunged into the therapist office and we still haven't graduated. And every generation is just dealing with a different anxiety, but it's all based on a question of aka. And if you can hear the question of ayaka, you can start dealing with reality. If you don't hear the question of ayaka, you're distracting yourself too much. You're eating too much uh I don't know uh sesame chicken or whatever sesame chicken looks for you. Everybody has their own sesame chicken. The bottom line is it's toxic. That's the bottom line. It's a distraction. This one with a phone and this one with women and this one with computers and this one with money and this one with websites and this one sometimes with spirituality. It's running away. This is the misa. The man was blown away and especially knew his age. He said his age and it was a tremendous tremendous help in his victory. He said, "You're talking about a divine person. You're talking about an is he said about an is you're not talking about a criminal. You're talking about a man a man of God. This was tremendously instrumental." The Reb said over the story 1957. He said over the story in the beginning of the and then he said that there's an addition to the story that alterba himself said after what's the addition to the story said that this fact that this man came into him was divine providence that saved his life it saved alterba's life why sobba said this said it over he said it over heard it from his father-in-law I think 20 years before 1937 before the more said he was in prison and the tug the bliss that he had I'll say it in English and then I'll translate the bliss that had from the fact that he was to have for the of the bashive it was so blissful that he was about to expire his soul was about to expire from his body because sometimes when you have so much pleasure your body can't contain it it's like you feel your heart is expanding I don't know if anybody ever experienced it but it's like a pleasure it's like almost when the when the voltage of electricity comes into the wire and it's too much the wire burns up yeah you want to give a plumbing mushel there's a lot of malam for this in electronics and plumbing In [snorts] this it's called if the is too intense for the kali the kali breaks it shatters. So the gof the goof is a container and if the is too much it's too overwhelming the it goes out it can't deal with it. When you have too much egg right when you have too much bliss the heart goes crazy. So the goof says I give up. So the nama says okay I'm I'm out. I'm not here. It's time to leave. Like au right? They went up. They says they kissed God and that was it. Once you kiss God, what are you going to come back to in the world? You what? What are you you gota be crazy. So they stayed there. You have different stories like this. It's called without only came out in peace. Ben passed away says lost his mind. Alisha became a heretic. said that the that he had that he was to have because you have to understand what happened when came into prison. They asked him one of the questions they asked him is if he's if he's the successor of the BM if he's here to teach the BMT because the main thing was the BMP is the problem. Now said if I would have told them no they would have let me go. from the go even for a moment I didn't want to detach myself from the bump even just for their for their he knew he was not detached even just to tell them I have nothing to do with the bump which would let him free he didn't want to do it now why would he want to do it just get out the answer is because for him to even say that he's not connected to the bump was worse than being in prison it's like detaching yourself from from your oxygen you have to understand what this means if you if you can't understand this you have to feel it if you know if you feel the bos you can understand what a relationship is it's a different type he used to call the my grand so he said the that he had even though he was tortured there and it was difficult situation but the bliss that he had from the fact that he was so inspiring for him it was such a gishmach that he was about to expire he's not going to survive what happens this guy comes in and he says why does hashm say what does tell him is asking every person do you know what your in the world is said and then I realized he's asking me do you know what your in the world is you think your in the world is to go back to you was sent down to bring into the world I need you to come back to said that saved me from this man's question the way explained him it saved him from because he asked himself do you know what your says And he grounded himself and he came back and he said my mission is to be here not to be there over there. Yeah, you can go back to infinity. That's not the do you know what your mission is? Your mission is to be here not there. In many ways when you're a soul like it's much easier to be there. It's infinity. It's beautiful. What do you need to deal with darkness? Your whole avoid was to give it to the people here to come to postsum had a soul from preum from preum. That's why everything is ain't but all all in this world in the animal soul in the body in the struggles in the anxiety in the ego in the self-consciousness the whole time the ability to be able to live with serenity and truth while you hold parts of yourself that are going crazy that are completely self-conscious that are overwhelmed with fear and anxiety and dread that are worried that are feeling shame and guilt and resentful and hate. Anybody relates to this part? You only relate to the I hope you also relate to the this part is not so hard to explain. Right? The whole is that we there's a self that contains this and this is the right you don't have to get scared of it. You have to be able to look at your animals. So this is this was this was his interesting it's a story about I had a za my father's name was Gar. He was named after a Jew named Gasher of Pahar Ger was a he lost his father died when his mother was pregnant with him and after his mother gave birth to him they named him after his father. So my el is Gash and my father's name was Gash. My father passed away. I named my son Gash. So he's named after his father and his father was of so uh was raised by an uncle. His uncle's name was Abed because his father died during his during the pregnancy and his mother died after birth. So he was a a round orphan. So he was raised by his uncle. His uncle's name was Rabba Debedik. You know what the Lebika means? Aba, the lively one. Why the name why the name of Aba de Leaded? It's an interesting story. He lived in a city called Clovich. Climovic and he was a very charismatic person and he was a big big gone a big and he became connected to and he brought into Clovich at that time there were many many opponents to and toidus unfortunately you probably know the history or you don't know there was tremendous joy in this opposition the whole reason albba was arrested was because of the opposition it didn't come from the gentiles it came from the Jews unfortunately I mean it came from heaven but it came through the Jews everything comes from heaven but it came through the Jews already you know today everything changed but then it was very very difficult it wasn't simple the way suffered it was not simple and uh Abed lived in Kovich and he brought to Kovich and it was very very powerful and there were people that were very very opposed to it and they wanted to get rid of him so what do you do they couldn't get rid of him so they went to the purits they went to the like the governor the the the overlord the the gentile governor and They made him a sur they sent somebody to tell him a story that Ab spoke against him. He basically was was creating a revolution to undermine the governor of the city. This is very serious. It's treason. So the governor decreed that Aba has to be brought to the center of town and be given 50 lashes. 50 lashes. 50 mus which was not uncommon in Russia. This was one of the public penalties and punishments. Rababa came dressed in Shabba's clothes in festive clothes and they started to whip him. And when they finished whipping him, as he went into the whipping, he was singing and dancing. And as they were whipping him, it looked like he was like enjoying it. And when they finished, he went over to the pirates and he thanked him. He said, "Thank you so so much." As though he just gave him, you know, a $100,000 donation. He thanked him. They thought that the man pushed from fear, from dread, he lost his mind. You know, it happens to people. You go crazy. You lose your mind. &gt;&gt; Huh? &gt;&gt; Withdraw from reality. &gt;&gt; You withdraw from reality. It's called disassociation, which is actually a coping mechanism. When there's abuse that your soul leaves the body and that way your body is just like a corpse and you don't feel the pain and it's it has tremendous consequences. There's people who do it. It's it's a known thing. It's it's it's one of the it's one of the results of abuse, deep abuse. people disconnect and they don't feel their bodies anymore. And it's tremendous, tremendous suffering as a result of that because if you don't feel your body, you can't be present. You can't be present. You're like detached from yourself. It's a tragic situation. They thought that the manbak lost his mind. And um and that was it. When they went back as they saw that they didn't lose his mind. So he said, "I'll tell you the truth. The I had that I was for the of the was so blissful that it felt mish pleasurable. He said it was such a gishm that he was to have such that it was he didn't tell. So this this first story is a story about this story about my my uncle. So they sent them they gave him a name. What does what why why might so the Reb told over the story and the Reb said that you learn from the story that the question of is asked to everybody. He said sometimes the question of is addressed to a person whose desire is to go back to infinity and the question of is go back down. Some of the question of is the opposite to somebody who's in the abyss and the question of is do you realize your preciousness? Do you realize your purity? Do you realize how powerful you are? Do you realize how you beautiful? But the question of is to ask to everybody. Every Adam gets the every Adam and every gets the question of what the question is that depends on who you are. For some people, the question is, can you come back down? We need you to be grounded. We need you to be present. We need you to be able to come into the world and transform it from within, not escape it. And for another person who's submerged in depression or in darkness or in addiction or in anxiety or in shame or in guilt or in promiscuity or whatever they're immersed in can you feel your soul? Can you can you feel your presence? Can you feel your your your voice, your resonance, your your inner music? That's the question. That's the question of what do we learn from all of this? Why am I sharing this? I mean it's but the truth is because the that's really that's really the pleasure the bliss. What do I mean? You have sometimes you know yiddesh it's another burden. It's another it's another duty. It's another obligation. You should and you will and you could and you have to. And I guess those are important words. You should and you should then you should and you should. You should do this and you should do that and you should do that. What the was trying to do is not take away that you should is theight of everything but it's to be able to be able to feel who you really are. And when you feel who you really are then it's an of it's not any it's not a burden. It's not forced. It's it's when writes in the letter of say you can't tell somebody you should give me the core of your heart. How do I give you the core of your heart? Duty can only go till this far. I can give you my actions. I can give you my words. I can give you a checkbook. I can show up physically. But how do you get from people? [laughter] How do you get the pineas of somebody's heart? What does he say? Your whole what does that even look like? This is only tuk. This is bliss. This is not something you should and you could and you'll get rewards. You'll get punishments. This is where the vocabulary of reward and punishment runs dry. Reward and punishment is a limited vocabulary. If you do this, you do this, you do. If you do this, you'll get if you don't do this, you get fine. I'm not arguing with it. I'm not we're not over here with competition game. But that touches a very superficial part of you. And that's why you see that it's not working today. It doesn't like touch people. I've been around I've been around the block. You go to Yungalide, you say, "By the way, if you do this, you'll get ganed and if you do this, you get ganam." They don't even disagree with you. They just give you this dead look, you know? It's worse than disagreeing. If somebody disagrees with you, at least they like disagree with you. It's just like this dead stare like they go they just go back to their phone immediately. It's like it's just dead. Why? Because right before the gula, what everybody wants is a real relationship. And a real relationship is never based on reward and punishment. A real relationship is based on inner core. It's your atmus. It's something that it's not even choice. It's it's it's your it's your core is there. You're present. You're fully present there. And that's the that's the is ah I don't even want to be anywhere else. That's what revealed. When you know who you are, when you see who you are, I where do you want to be? It's like when you come to a beautiful wedding, there's a smogus boy, the most delicious food in the world. And then I go to the garbage can and I start looking for the bones. What are you a dog? It's like the moment you know who you are, what's available to you, what's happening, your essence, your pimus. I don't even want to go anywhere else. That's the that's the and that can only come from internal work, internal presence. It's not something that you can impose. It's not something that you should, you could the Everybody here understands what I'm talking about a little bit. You feel what I'm talking about or you just understand what I'm talking about? Huh? This is this is what purity looks like. This is what innocence looks like. This is what looks like. There's no agenda. There's no dirt. There's no filth. There's no there's no there's no politics. This is where your soul comes to life. Who are you? Can you feel yourself? Can you feel the presence of God living inside of you? Ayaka, can you can you hear a voice, the sound of a can you hear it? Can you clean up the antenna? Can you hear it? And the alterba teaches everybody could hear it. It's not so easy to hear it. You know, usually there's other sounds. I'm hungry. You know, past the chocolate, past the sushi, past the coug, past the mango, past the chicken. Fine. That's what I I don't hear or where are you? You're late. You know, maybe a different type of ayaka. The real the real ayaka is not anxiety. It's ayaka of of of love, of grace, of empowerment. Like this is it. Like you're the channel. You are the channel to be able to experience that. It goes beyond any duty and any obligation. It's like in a marriage. Think of it in a marriage, right? There's two types of marriages. You ask a husband, "Why are you a loyal husband?" He says, "Well, if my wife catches me doing the wrong thing, she's not going to cook. She's not going to do the laundry. She'll throw me out of the house. It's simply not worth it." And it's like you feel bad. It's pathetic that the entire motivation for the marriage is what? afraid of dread, afraid of punishment. There comes a point where you want the relationship. Is there a real connection? Like enough with the anxiety. I got it. We know the fear. We know the dread. We've been there, done it. Witho some of us in our relationship with God, we haven't graduated that. It's like all reward and punishment. If you do this, if you're not d it comes to marriage, everybody, we know how pathetic it is. So your marriage with God, this mama is so pathetic. I was once uh picking I was once in an estric store before sukus. So this guy was with a magnifying glass looking at a so the estri dealer tells me he's here already for 12 hours. For 12 hours he's here checking his estric. The guy is a comedian. So he tells me by the way he's spending more time finding an estri than he spent on finding a wife. He didn't spend 12 hours finding a wife. Maybe 1 hour I don't know 2 hours 3 hours it was done. So I turned to the guy. They says, he says a but how could you compare [laughter] right? So the says in says weem says there's going to be a day you're going to stop calling me bali. You're going to call me ishi. So rash say bali comes in the word balos my master. There's going to come a day you're going to stop calling me my master. Bali like my balabos. You're going to start calling me ishi. I ishi is my husband, my fire, my ish. There comes a time where it's about a deep deep relationship. It's not about anymore the obligation, the pressure. You need a good shak. You need to make your father happy. You need to make your mother happy. You need to get into a good yeshiva. That all touches the most external parts of people. And today God is saying, I want a real relationship. The only way you can have with any relationship is if you go to those places. The only way we can go to these places with a lot of courage, with a lot of clarity. It's an interesting story. I'll tell you that was the grandson of the alterb the balata the balagula had a son his youngest son Marash. He succeeded him as the fourthb and he had a few sons. The oldest son was and the younger son the middle was who later became the who was the fifth and he succeeded. So the and the would go into the their grandfather the would give them was called a pka. It was a certain coin the name of a coin for every chapter Mishna is that they learned balpa they would go into their he would test them and afterwards he would give them each it was a very nice coin and this was a motivator for them and they were good minds bigish geniuses both of them and so they would do this often once was already older was a few years younger than him they were about to go into the and the was already a little older. So he would already go in with a hat and a garland. The nashab was much younger. He was only four years old when the passed away. Five years old, four or five years old. But the was already a few years older. So he didn't like to go into without a hat even though he was a boy. And they were about to go into and the realized he doesn't have his hat. So he didn't want to go in. So the rebashab went in himself and he tested him on Mishnay and he gave him gave him this coin. He comes out. was probably four years old. And the even though he went in with garments, but he was still a kid. So he got very jealous. He got very jealous. He regretted that he didn't go in. So what did he do? He was bigger and stronger. He was older. So he stole he stole the coin from his brother. He stole the coin and he ran away. So he got the pyka. The Rashab was a little kid and he looked at him and he said, "Zmanarin, Zmanarin, I forgot one detail. They he went in, he gave him a coin and he kissed him." And he went out. He stole the coins. He said the pka the kush from the za by you could take away the coin but the kiss of the za that stays with me. That's blight by me. Now there's a very deep message here in life. There's two things. There's a coin. The coin is tangible. It's a glittering coin. And then there's a kiss. The kiss is not tangible. The kiss was kissed. But in everybody's life, there's two things. The coin is tangible. It's physical. There's money. There's value. It may be glittering. It may be gold. It may be still whatever that coin looks for you. Could be a coin of a dollar. Could be a coin of a million dollars. Could be a coin of $50,000. But then there's a kiss. You could take the coin, but the kiss you can't take away from me. The kiss is intangible. The kiss is internal. What's the kiss of his grandfather? But what did his grandfather give him with a kiss? It's love. It's safety. It's security. That's what gives you this coins. Coins are nice, but coins will not give you the kiss. On the contrary, the coin just says, "I have another coin." It's a beautiful says last week's parish. Asov says to Yakov, when he says, "I want to give you a gift." says I have a lot. I have tremendous amount. Yakov says I have everything. Hashem gave me everything and therefore take the gift and as takes the gift. So the explains why does say and Jacob says Kyle Asov was focused on the physical. The physical I have a lot. I'm a multi-millionaire. I don't need your stupid gift. Yakov says, "I have everything that God that God wants to give me. Whatever I need, I have because that's what Hashem wants to give me." As says, "I have a lot and there's always more because the more you have, the more you crave." The med says it, right? If you have $10,000, you want 20. If you have $100,000, your appetite grows, but it's always more. Says, "Whatever I need, I have because that's what God gave me." Fine. It's very nice. But fart. How could somebody say I have everything? Who has everything? Imagine a person says, "I have everything." What do we have everything? You have everything. You have everything. I have everything. Nobody has everything. All nice. I have everything. Co means everything. Come on. Nobody has everything. There's no such a thing. There's always more to have. Physical, spiritual, emotional, whatever it is. What's says something very powerful? He says that Yakov was saying yes because he has Hashem and Hashem is the source of everything. So whatever I have it can be one drop of water but coil I have everything. Yakov is saying because I have God and God is the coil he's the source of everything. So everything I have, every circumstance that I'm dealing with, whatever have it could be a penny, it could be $100 million. I have everything because I have Hashem in it. He identified the infinity and everything. Or to put it in the context of this story, you may have all the coins, but I have the kiss. The moment you have the kiss, you have everything. You have everything. Everything doesn't mean I have everything that exists. Hashem is everything. So if you have Hashem and that's so true in life, there's two ways of living. There's and means I have a lot and now I want more and I want more. There's always a void because you can't have everything. Means I may have a lot. I may have very little. But right here I have co. I'm connected to the source of everything. So in this little experience, small or big, in this moment, in this circumstance, in this gift, in this relationship, even in this struggle, I have coy. I have the relationship. I have the kiss. The kiss you can't take away. Nobody can take away from you that kiss. Nothing can take away from you that kiss. That's the That's the tuk. That's the pleasure. That's the inner inner experience [snorts] that only you have. Not from a selfish place. It's because you're accessing your channel of ky everything because you have hashem you have everything. You could put it in different words and say that everything comes from God. So everything has infinity in it. The moment you identify the godliness in it, you touched infinity. So You have everything if you touch the Yeah. So the world is Hashem should give you the D of heaven. He should give you the gift of he should give you the gift of you should have that's ky in everything you should have a lus even in a struggle a lus means you have the presence you have the safety you have the trust you're a channel for infinity so there's a certain internal wholeness that you can have even while you hold space for the tumultuous fragmentation that you're dealing with. It's a different experience. You can't impose this on people. It's a blessing. You should give you the gift of that's the gift of that in every experience should be able to experience the of it. And that's where there's a real serenity. There's real tranquility because it's a kiss. It's a kiss of your grandfather. It's a kiss of the nobody could take that away from me. How you going to take away the kiss? You could take away this. You can take away that the kiss. You can't take away the class. You have that idea. If you internalize it, if you internalize it, if it becomes yours, this has to become yours. It can't be. If it's my class, it's my class. You know you have the ability says in we say in every day we say also right with the biggest thing you have given us iso that's what you have given us. It's not just God gave us something else. You gave us the gift of you here. The gift of infinity in everything. The gift of God's presence in everything. That's everything because that means that you're alive. You're a channel for real energy. It's not and you it's not something in words. You can't describe it. But it's not anymore ego. This is where you're a channel for real, real energy that your nervous system feels the embodied presence of the divine in your life. It's a joyful presence. You show up in a different way. Why? Because you have the gift of what does that gift look like? It's not a gift that looks like doesn't look like a pka. It doesn't look like this or doesn't look like this. But it's the inner experience of the tanug that was talking about the right now you're a channel for and hashem is celebrating you was once by the men of the priorit he was a student of the mag when the mag passed away for a few years went to soash was the meal was the night of wasn't there at the meal so the men of asked where is he said he's not here So they searched for him here and there. So they the guys went to shul the young went to they toldki he's still ding. So after a few times asking him he decided he's going to go himself. So he went to see he came back he told basically he's having intimacy with God and God is having intimacy with him. He's celebrating God and God is celebrating him. That's what he said. That nobody could take away that kiss. Nobody can take away. The moment you can experience life in that frequency, huh? With openness. You have to hit with an open heart. Not with guilt, not with shame. We all made mistakes, Ems. But this is with an open heart. This is the siphon everybody. It's not that there's also other stuff. We know about the other stuff. We could talk about that too. We could talk about that. It's not a problem. I always talk about the other stuff. I don't mind. Huh? includes says anyway. So I want to bless all of you and myself and all that this day of we should be able to internalize the kiss be able to hear the question of to be able to respond. Hashem says and you say &gt;&gt; we'll sing the Okay. You want to sing Okay. Beautiful. &gt;&gt; And then we'll see the down. &gt;&gt; You got it. You got it. [music] Heat. Heat. [music] [singing] [music] Heat. Heat. [music] Heat. [singing] [music] Heat. [singing] [music] &gt;&gt; [singing] &gt;&gt; Heat. [music] [singing] [music] Heat. [music and singing] Yeah. Heat. [singing] [music] Heat. Heat. Heat. [music] &gt;&gt; [music] [singing] [music] &gt;&gt; Heat. Heat. Yeah. [music] Heat. [singing] [music] Heat. Heat. [music] [singing] [music] Heat. Heat. 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We learn it from so today we started again the every year those who learn finish the whole those who don't do it yet it's a very special thing to learn every day the year you finish the whole there's a there's a guide just like they have for the other every every day you learn a it's not so long and over the year you finish the whole Tanya every single year so that way just like you do with you also do with so today. So those who don't do it, it's today a lot of today doesn't start. Today's just the and the then tomorrow starts of and then a few days later starts of and you go through and then there's five of and is the last the end of test you start the Tanya again and that way not a long time you become uh knowledgeable in Tanya and today Tanya is the meaning a few years, you're not going to be able to get a degree in psychology. If you're not Bucky and Tanya backwards and forwards, not social work, not psychology, you won't be able to do anything without it. Because it turns out after everything after everything said and done, Tanya is the is the the primer. It's the blueprint. It's the most evolved, developed, thorough, integrous, profound, authentic, real system to be able to understand yourself and to be able to help other people understand themselves and more importantly embody their true destiny and their true energy and their true mission. The power of Tanya is that there's no bypassing. It doesn't amputate anything. It doesn't ignore anything. It doesn't repress anything. Doesn't run away from anything. You know, you have different systems. One system is you wallow in your shame and in your problems and your guilt. Another system is you bypass everything and everything is beautiful and both don't work. We've tried both. One part of the world has tried one path, another part of the world has tried the other path and they both ended up with a lot of struggle. The power of the isim that it's real. It's authentic. You can hold space for all the parts. All the parts in you without blinking, without wallowing in the guilt and in the shame. You can really look at it and and appreciate it and see it for what it is. When you don't have to ignore things, you can actually see it for what it is. And when you see it for what it is, you see it in its power and you see it in its weakness. And that's the whole idea of alterba that every person operates on two levels of consciousness. The nephist the most basic level of consciousness is the animal consciousness which is ego consciousness which is survival template which has one agenda and that is to keep you safe and to help you survive in a very difficult world and all of its instincts are there to keep you safe according to the neph's understanding of what will keep you safe. Now says already in the first chapter it has four elements for fire water and earth and it needs to survive. So make sure it has enough fire, it has enough ear, it has enough water, it has enough earth. Fire is arrogance, fire is anger. He says may water is all the addictions, all the cravings, all the pleasures you want to become pleasurable. We want to have pleasures in life. Yeah. Ruach is all the validation you need, the boasting, the compliments you're looking for, the idol talk, talking about others, talking about yourself. Afar is the laziness, the depression. It's also a coping mechanism. Laziness, depression, sadness, melancholy. It's a way in which you could feel comfortable being a couch potato, being in bed for a few days, being on your phone. I'm depressed, I'm lazy. These are all the animal soul's beautiful sophisticated way of survival. It just keeps you stuck. And then there's an kiss and we operate with two levels of consciousness. And at any moment, you could be in the Nephilis and 60 seconds later the is all over there. could be in middle of the alter is and kiss is conscious and 60 seconds later you're thinking he's looking at me this one is looking this what happened so you say not a mishuga you have two souls not a mishuga not a mishug split personality yeah everybody's a mishuga the whole world is mishuga huhug but but it's it's part of the fabric of humanity and you could also be open about it you could be open how you could be open about it. This whole idea that people have to be something and then half of their life they're busy repressing and denying what they are. They can't live like that. It's not healthy. It's not normal. to be able to be open to be able to be present to be able to be real about all the parts all the parts of you writes in that people get a go into a crisis because they think in the middle of dining they have they have a beautiful doning and the middle you have in the middle you start thinking sometimes filthy things dirty things even if not dirty but completely I don't know Gishmak or not gishmach whatever the thinks is gishmak So a person says this proves that I'm a liar. If I would have had a real doning, why would I be thinking about these things? They would have been right. If it was one soul that was dvening and thinking all of these crazy thoughts, he would be right. He's a hypocrite. He's a liar. He's a con artist. It's two different people. It's two different states of consciousness. Two different parts. Relax. One is your protectors and your animal consciousness and one is your infinite divine consciousness. Relax. It's too knows exactly who it is and has clarity. Has confidence and has joy. It's it's just channeling infinity. It channels cosmic intelligence and cosmic love. That's the kiss. It channels cosmic intelligence and cosmic love. The nephah says, "I need to survive. I need to survive. And you're the problem. You're the problem." And it finds whatever it needs at that moment. Resentment, anger, frustration, obnoxiousness, laziness, depression, melancholy, guilt, shame, addict, whatever it is, small thing, a big thing. But says you have to realize there two souls. And the point is you create a conversation between them. You talk to them. You connect to them. So that's the power. You learn Tanya every day. You integrate it. You you live with it. You think about it. It's very very powerful. I would suggest everybody your today. We started the Tanya today. It's very easy to find the might and every day to learn the Tanya of the day. It's not so much but it gives a for the whole day gives a for the whole day. So uh today in Tanya we learned the husk wrote a shlot a small title page what he wrote it for and then he has before he printed he sent the manuscripts to two people of an who was a student of the mag of his and the second was who was also a student of the mag they both gave us very interesting as they gave the was very close to He lived in Anipoli. Anipoli is in Ukraine and the mag is buried there. The mag passed away in Anipoli. The mag is buried. Absush and mag are buried near each other. So gives about the tell a story that uh one of the greatest go of the generation was known as the balhafl. The balhafl his name was harvitzinvitz. He was a brother of nichlbber. They were two brothers. The balaflaw was the r of Frankfurt. Frankfurt a mine in Germany. How he ended up from he was born in I think in chart in Galitzia. How did he end up in Frankfurt? It's a whole interesting story because of a get some ice how he ended up there. But he ended up in Frankfurt. He built a yeshiva there. He was the of was of the and he wrote a lot of in the world are very still learned on it was one of the story is told how did he come to the maggot he was traveling to in Ukraine when he lived in Ukraine and he had to go through Ravna the maggot was then living in Raa Ra is a city in Ukraine and he decided he heard about the mag of misery. He decided he's going to go into him just to see it. So he went in and he spoke to him for a few minutes and he wasn't impressed. Say he went and he left. The maggot says before you leave if you don't mind go into the bush and by the oven there's an oven and it was a winter night. You know the winter nights could be cold. So they had a different they had an oven with you know with wood with fire and sometimes people would sit on the oven to warm themselves up. So he says on the it was morning there was was this was not night it was morning but it was very cold. says in the oven there's a Jew he's there before you leave it's worthy to talk to him and learning okay fine he wasn't impressed but he asked him so he went so he went over to the there was a Jew sitting there with talis it was the morning hours he comes over to him and he says I was just by your and he said that I should speak to you in learning he said you must have misheard him you probably misheard him because I'm not a he says, "No, he told me the Jew on the oven. I should speak because I've been learning. Tell me what you're learning." So he says, "I'm learning cuz I'm not uh I can't learn complicated things. I learned more simple things. I'm learning." Says, "We'll talk about which dafa you learning." He's learning. That's what he asks. Fine. She says, "I just learned the I actually don't understand it." The says there that is speaking about a minion. So the Buuna says, If you have nine people and you have an an arion the is ach is a person how could the become the 10th for a minion because it's an arc it's a box I don't understand so the gar goes into two answers didn't mean that he meant something else fine so uh says I don't Understand what's the even the first thought in is also yeah when he says so what was his what was his thought that you can have an onin as a tent for the minion asked that question but what what's what's his thought just explain it to me so uh says I don't I don't know what his thought was. He says, "What do you say?" So he says, "I think that it means something else." I think that it means tissue. You have nine people and you have a an is also a person. An is also a person. What's an? An is like the says is an arc and the ark has in it to say for so it's a person who has in him a lot a lot of you think that makes you a mench you think an makes you a mench the fact that you have a lot of information inside of you that doesn't make you a ga it's not embodied Your brain is filled with a lot of stuff with a lot of material. You think an is what's an is this inside of him but he's an arc. He said that's a p type of person. You have a person more information more information more information. I know everything. You know what do they say? People who know the price of everything and the value of nothing. I know everything. It's all inside of me. But you're not a person. That's not a person. Person is not somebody who has information. A person is somebody who lives the information. Person is somebody who embodies the information in them. That was his says where do you learn these things? Where do you learn to? He says this is the mag. So he stayed and he became one of the biggest of the mag of this is this this was who was this person of this yeah and really it's the sight of everything it's the sight of everything I could learn [snorts] and learn and learn and learn and another vart and another vart I could learn nigla and I could learn medish and I could learn tanak and I could learn pilp and I could learn everything and piss I could learn everything. So I'm an Arin. You want to know something? Google knows much more than everybody. Google knows much more than everybody. [laughter] And AI mish geniuses. They know everything. Mish everything on the tip of the finger. You put in a question. Yeah. Within a half a second. one thing that makes him a [laughter] so there's information more information that's the difference it's a different yiddishkite this yiddishkite of information more and more and more and more and more and it's nice it's very nice but AI is much better than you much better faster better clearer gives the answers nice any language you want I'm aaya There's one thing that can do a person. It's embodied. It's inside of you. It's real. It's authentic. There's no replacement for that. The mayb writes in parv it says after was sold what happened. Yeah. Yehuda left. He went down says they dethroned him because they blamed him for everything that happened because he sold and he left. He went to a place found a friend and he married a woman and he had a baby a child in and then Shayla unfortunately died. Shayla survived. Then it was the whole MS with Tamar and Yehuda and Per. So the mayor writes that Yehuda realized that he made a terrible terrible mistake. He said my beta what are we going to gain from leaving Ysef in the pit? Let's just sell him. Let's go sell him. And then you know he was in charge. They took the Kinus. They took the tunic of they dipped it in the blood. They sent it to Yakov. So Yehuda thought, you know, he was doing the right thing. Ysef was just, you know, Ysef was in the way. Ysef was an obstacle. Ysef was a danger. Y was a any way you explain it. And when he saw Yakov's reaction and he saw the depth of Yakov's grief and mourning and sadness to the point that Yakov put on a sack and he said, "I'm going to go down to my grave grieving for Ysef." Yehuda realized that he made a colossal mistake, not just a small mistake, a defining historic mistake. So this is what the man says. He decided that he has no hope. He has no hope. Sometimes you make mistakes that are small. Sometimes you make mistakes that are big. Sometimes you make mistakes that are historic. And you're like, "Oh my god, you know, I just I just went out of the system. You know, I just destroyed the whole system. There's a virus and there's a virus." And Yahuda felt that this was the end. This was like there was no tick for him. So what are you supposed to do? So the says he decided I have no hope. Huh? &gt;&gt; So the says he says I have no hope but you know what my children might be come out good. &gt;&gt; I'm done. I'm finished. My children might come out good. So let me get married and hopefully something will come out because I'm done. And he says that's why he named his first child Maybe he he will somehow &gt;&gt; create something positive. He will create rejuvenation. His heart will be aroused. You can add what's on is grief is grief, right? He was an on himself as a mess. But hopefully the children will be an air will be a he was grieving. He's a mess mitzvah or not a mess mitzvah and his children will will will will will save the day. His children will save the day says the I I I saw it and I so appreciated it. So I I copied it. I want to share with you a few words. [snorts] Hashem explained to him and then he realized he had an intuition that came from Hashem like all intuition and said if you really believe you have no hope [clears throat] you're disconnected from the source. You're done. The plug was pulled out. You're finished. Even if you have a hund children, they're not going to be able to have a drop of life more than you have. The channel through which Hashem is sending life, that channel can't be dead. If you're the father of these children and you're a dead man, where are they getting their life from? You're dead. You're finished. You're hopeless. my kids. Oh, they're going to save me. They're going to save the world. He says, "No, no, no, no. The root of the tree is dead. There's no tree. You're not gonna have can have a hundred branches. I don't care. Everything dies." Says, "But Hashem, the channel to life also has to be alive. The channel of life can't be dead." If your life is just temporary, it's transactional. It's meaningless. That's what all your children are going to be like. And that's what they're going to feel. They're not going to have more than you. And therefore, when he realized this, he decided to name his third child Shayla. Shayla is in Hebrew, you have a word. He's living in uh delusions. He's living in a mistake. She says he realized my whole philosophy was based on a dream, a mistake. The first two children didn't survive. Only Shayla survived. Spiritually speaking, the first two children had no life. Only when he realized I'm I need to be alive. So now Shayla had life. The other two children didn't have life. We have sometimes in our gay people think I'm I'm a lost case. I'm miserable. I'm not really from I don't know who I am. My children at least my children are going to be saved. They send their children to the best mas. They take their children on trips on beautiful vacations. They make a shabas table a fake shabas table for the children. The kinder. The kinder. The kinder. The kinder. Me it's been garnished. I have nothing. My children, they live vicariously through their children. And because then you know what you're going to give your children? You're going to give your children the feeling that they should live for their children. Yeah. [snorts] Somebody once said, "My mother always served leftovers. We're still looking for the original." Yeah. Everybody's doing it for their children. My children will do it for their kids. Their kids. And the question is, Yeah. Where is the buck going to stop and say it's here it's for me? &gt;&gt; Huh? &gt;&gt; So, so he tas as long as Yehuda was busy with that idea. I'm hopeless. My life I made so many mistakes. You're not going to have any children. Your children are going to have the same idea. You cannot give your children anything that you don't have. Doesn't work that way. I told the women this morning a metaphor that somebody told me you told it to me. Yosi Gross told it to me. He's a therapist. He told me he said, "Imagine two fathers. I mean one father and he has two children and he gives each child a check from and the check is $1 million." No, not bad. Not bad to get from your father, Mumin. A million dollars, huh? You wouldn't mind. I wouldn't mind. He wouldn't mind. stomach. Yakov, Yakov, also what? Nobody would mind. Okay, they take the check and they go cash it. And what do they find? They find that he has in his bank account $3 and10. So, one of them gets 150 or 155. The other one gets $155. That's what happens to the check. All he has, he has $3 and change in the bank. So there's two children. They each have a different response. One responds, he comes to his therapist says, "My father's a gazak life, a narcissist, a borderline personality, I'm a shig, an abuser, a manipulator, a low life. Everything he can do to suck the soul out of me, he does. Finally, he gives me a check of a million dollars just to me in the soul. Ain't nothing." The other boy other boy says my father a trauma victim his whole life he's trying to be successful his whole life he's trying to give something to his kids I have my father the poor guy he was trying to give me love he gave me a check a million he's trying to say I love you I love you I love you I love you so much the guy doesn't he doesn't know what it is not to make I feel so bad for my father he has no life so this Guy is angry at his father. This guy's having compassion for his father. But you know what the common denominator between both of them is? Nobody got a million dollars. One guy has a on his father and one guy is angry at his father, but nobody got a million dollars. You know why? Because you can't give your kids a million dollars if you don't have it in your own account. There's no such a thing. There's no such a thing. You can mean well, you can not mean well. The kids can respond in different ways. So in the previous generation it was Fras ADHD. No such a thing. Fras. Today the generation is I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. Beautiful. But you know what the common denominator is? Nobody's getting anything if the father doesn't have it. If you don't love yourself, you can't give it to anybody else. If you're not regulated internally, you can't give it to anybody else. If you don't have internal bliss and joy, you can't give it to anybody else. If you don't have your own relationship with Hashem that is deep, alive, vibrant, intimate, vivacious, you can't give it to anybody else. The father means well, one kid will be angry, the other kid will have ramanas, but they're both not getting it. And the fact that I could say I love you and say beautiful things, it's nice. It's better than saying I hate you, but it still doesn't give him a million dollars. If this is true with physical things that you can't give your children physical things if you don't have them, how much more true is it with emotional reality? If even physical reality, you can't give what you don't have. You think emotional, spiritual energy you can give if you don't have it, there's no such a thing. This was Yehuda's mistake. That's what he says. I'm a lost case. My kids, my kids, my kids will come out normal. God says, "No, no, no, no. Don't blame your kids. Go back to yourself. Go back to yourself. You made a mistake. You'll confess your mistake. Is the one who has and he says, "I'll become a slave instead of that's the moment where he transforms himself." He sold as a slave and biny he says he goes back home. I'll become a slave. He transformed himself. When did that happen? He says your your son is not destined to make us. He's not here to save you from your ganim. At least I have nas. I'm a nobody. At least I have nas start is one of Asov's children. I told you before I said before, look. We spoke about it. One of nakas. Why? Because it could be an ace of nakas. My children will give nakas. No, no, no, no. Find your in yourself comes from the word noy. Find it in yourself. When people start saying I'm this, I'm that my children doesn't work that way. When he realized Shayla this was a delusion he has to transform himself. Now Shayla could survive. Now they had a real kios that has to be alive. You kind of have a dead plug channeling electricity to the children that's alive. If the plug is dead, it's not going to your children. This is what people need to understand. You can't live for your children. Not because you don't want to. Everybody wants to, but because you can't give them what you don't have. Go inward and rebuild your soul. Rebuild your life. Let your children see that there's something internal about you. There's something authentic about you. There's something called you. Your joy is not dependent on them. It's too much pressure. Your joy is not dependent on their success. When your joy is dependent on their success, you drive them mad. You deprive them from the ability to be. And you're just showing them that their main role is to do it for the next generation. first for this. I can't give my kids information. They don't need information. AI is much better. That's what all schools need to understand. All homes need to want to know. &gt;&gt; Yeah. If kids are coming to school for information, AI has much more. What do I have to pay? $20,000 tuition, $30,000 tuition, $10,000 tuition. Okay. Vision, it's $1,200 a year tuition. &gt;&gt; I'm sending my kids there. But you have to subscribe to the program. Uh, he wants the cake. I need it too. &gt;&gt; Okay. You'll do anything. At least the kids will come out good, right? [snorts] &gt;&gt; But but this is what people think. My kids, my kids, my kids, my kids. Doesn't work that way. And the kids will show it back to you. They're like, "Tati, you're miserable. Mommy, what's happening?" So, what do we want to give them? We want to give them ourselves. You want to give them presence. You want to give them authenticity. You want to give them an embodied kite. When we learn, it could be intellectual. I grew up, I had good teachers, but a lot of them was just everything intellect, ideas, ideas, ideas, ideas. of shalom wanted to affect the mid to affect the effects intellect. I told you AI is much better. Another idea, another idea. Another idea. We need to be able to embody it. Not just relevance intellectually. Explain it to me. To be able to feel it. You with me? &gt;&gt; To be able to feel it. And that's what we run away from. Oh, I don't feel anything. My kids. Well, that's what you felt view. I I don't feel anything. I'm a lost case. So, you know what? Your kids will also be a lost case. And they'll say, "My kids won't be a lost case." And then their kids are going to say, "I'm also a lost case." I once gave a lecture. A woman came over to me afterwards. It was a woman's class. And she said, "My children are miserable. How can I make them happy?" So, I said, "I don't know. I don't think you can make your children happy. Maybe you can make yourself happy. So she said, "I'm a lost case. I'm going to be depressed for the rest of my life. I want my kids to be happy." So I said, "Excellent. So you're going to teach your children to say, I'm a lost case. My kids are going to be happy." But that's something we can't fake. It's not through words. This is integrating in my nervous system, in my body, in my in my It's real. It's real. It's real. The gavin is not a ga. An is information. The amum is exhausted and fed up with information. There's so much information. I mean, it's nice. I'm not knocking information. I also like information. It's nice. [snorts] It's good. But that's not uh that's not information. You can get what we're craving for is life. energy embodiment embodied embodied real real inside for this I have to allow it to go through my blockages to be able to be felt experientially and that's what regulation looks like that's what pimus looks like it's challenging because sometimes we have so many you know what mean yeah barricades it barricades the heart. It barricades the heart. So this means that in every person's life when we learn we want to be able to really integrate it and when you integrate it then you're not an you're a gra you're a person. So they could be there. But the sinner through which Hashem sends his life also must be alive. The sinner can't be dead. You're not going to pass through life without it. There's no shortcuts in this. People think they're educate their children through putting them in good programs, sending them to good therapists, getting a good yeshiva, and I'm going to be a dead man walking. Find your own life. Find your own relationship. 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So a friend of mine who lives in Florida, he sent me a letter, a picture, a photo of a letter of the labba that the Reba wrote to a young man to somebody in Tshiny B 1952 and uh I read the letter. I said I've seen the letter before cuz it's printed it's printed in the igar kaides in the letters but he sent it to me. So uh I felt I had a feeling that I should read to you the letter. You could look up the letter in the original but I'm going to read it. I'm going to read the the content of it in in English translation. I said sorry 23rd of that's actually 1951. So the Reb writes to a Jew in response to your letter from Bashman. You tell me, you notify that you accept it on yourself and you're fulfilling the directives I guess that theb gave him that he should be learning and giving. But then you write to me that when it comes to shalom bias which means peace in your marriage in your home externally it became better but internally it's a mess. Externally it looks better but internally it's really not a good situation. I already wrote to you in my previous letter that it's certainly that when it comes to shalom bias with you there's going to be a lot of havest there's going to be concealments and blockages by you especially in the in of shalom bayas this is going to be a struggle for you but that means that this is where your main work has to be this is what you have to work hardest with and I'll explain to you from the tremendous concealments and blockages and challenges that you have in this area. This proves that this is this is one of the main this is your main avoid of means to separate the good from the bad, the good godly from the ungodly, the poison from the from the from the healthy. Everybody has their in other words what your arena is and this is your main mission. This is one of your main missions. Why? It's explained in the writings of and it's explained in chapter 6 that besides a few individuals most souls of our generations were already here and they come down now not for the first time they come down in a gilgal. They come down in reincarnation. And the main reason they come down again if they were here already is to fix that which they did not complete in a previous reincarnation. In the previous reincarnation, some of the tarag mitzvah, the 630 mitzvah were lacking. So they come down again to fulfill that which was missing. So besides a few souls that are fresh souls, new souls that were never here, most souls were here before and they're coming down just to fix a few things that they were missing. Now this doesn't mean that they're not to do all of the mitzvah. Even the things that they didn't lack last time, they still have to do. So how do you know in your life what you came down for? If you have to do all the mitzvah, how do I know if I came down for this mitzvah or that mitzvah when I'm obligated to do both? So, how would I ever know what my mission is? So, the Reb says the difference is as follows. The mitzvah that you weren't lacking last time around, you did them well. The sahara is not going to oppose them because that's not your mission because that you already completed. So, there's not going to be crazy opposition to that. only a little opposition that they should be able to still be called in order for there to be has to oppose a little bit. So you should have choice but real opposition is not going to be directed towards the things that you already achieved last time and you fulfilled them because that's not your mission. Mhm. &gt;&gt; However, those things that you lacked the last times you were in this world, in other words, those parts in the world that you did not elevate and those parts in your soul which are connected to the parts of the world that you didn't elevate and you came down for that here the opposition of is going to be unbelievably strong because he knows that this is your purpose. So if this is your purpose, he's going to create every opposition and excuse in the world to make sure you don't do it. And there's no need to elaborate on something that has already been explained because we see by you how hard it is shalai is. It means that's what your soul came down for. That's why you having so much struggles. The you did you did but your marriage you're not going to fix because this is what came down for. This is your that's why there's so much resistance. That's why there's so much opposition. When you know that something is the right thing and it's so hard, it's because this is it. The other things are not hard cuz he didn't come down for that. So the itahara wants to make sure that you fail in this area and therefore when it comes to you to get practical which is always the main thing I'm going to again tell you and hasten you and be mad as you how much you have to work hard for your bias I you have to compromise it's fine the compromises are not in mitzvah the compromises are in other things it's fine and I told you last time say the gar says by a woman women cry a lot easier than men. Their tears are very common and you have to realize that be sensitive and say the gates of tears have never been closed in heaven. In other words, tears reach a very deep place. So you have to be sensitive to your wife's tears. And also remember the Gmorrah says that the blessing to every person comes because of his wife. This is the letter that somebody just sent me this evening and I wanted to read it to you. And even those of us who are not struggling with shalom bayas for one of two reasons. Either because you're not married. So that's one reason you're not struggling with shias. It's a good excuse. Or because your marriage is it's perfect. It's blissful. One of the two reasons. So what's the sh to you? But the answer is that this gives us a way of looking at the world, a way of looking at life. If people often ask, how do I know what my mission is? How do I know what I have to do? Am I just another, you know, member in the club to do everything? I I don't want to copy. I want to be me. The answer is this is one of the best ways. When you see when you know something is important for you, it's productive for you, it's meaningful for you, and it's very hard. There's so many obstacles, you keep on running away from it. This is probably one of the things that you have to tackle in order to fulfill your mission in the world. So don't run away from it. The fact that there's so much fear and so many obstacles is just a proof of how important it is for you. You have to acknowledge the fear. You have to acknowledge the obstacles, but don't run away from it. Cuz this is your opportunity. This is your gift. This doesn't mean that everything that's hard for you, you have a mitzvah to do. For example, it's not a mitzvah for everybody to go bungee jumping. It may be hard for you to go bungee jumping. So, don't go bungee jumping for me. Not everybody has to ski down from the Swiss Alps if it's hard for you, right? But we're talking about something that you know is important for you. You know that it's productive for you. You know that there's a calling there. You know that your life needs this. And yet it's not easy. So instead of saying and backing off and running away, no, no, this is it. In simple words, it means there's people that experience resistance, a lot of resistance to certain things. And the resistance makes them run away. But what we're learning here is it's the opposite. The resistance is telling you how important it's to stay here. Stay here. Hold it. Look at it. Work with it. Penetrate it. Get through on the other side. Breathe through it. Don't run away from it. Don't avoid it. Because this may be the the reason or one of the reasons you came into the world. And that's what the Reb is quoting from the based on the writings of that the things that we completed in the previous Gilgulim there is not going to have a lot of opposition. It goes easy for you. And that's why you see for one person one aspect of is smooth. It's easy. It's easy for him to din. It's easy for him to learn. It's easy for him to do this. It's easy to And for another person, this same issue is so difficult and you can't judge. This person didn't come down for this. So the says fine, but there's that area that you did come down for. And be careful. Don't mess up here. And not with guilt and shame, with enthusiasm, with joy. We can't know for sure because there could be different things. But lean into yourself. And when you see that there's something really difficult for you, for example, Shalomias in this case, his relationship with his wife, he couldn't get it together. Externally, it was civil. But there was mistrust, there was negativity, there was judgment, there was shame, there was embarrassing, there was lack of respect. Internally, it's not when he came home and he saw his wife, he felt bliss. It was the opposite. He was nice. He said, "Good evening. Is supper ready? But that wasn't the first excuse. Might have MV. Got to go to Maid. That's you have to go to the Pine. The main thing is the Pineus because that's really where relationships happen. Is nice, but the Pineius is where it's at. So the Reb tells him, you tell me in your letter that you fulfilled my directives with and with Saddaka but not with this this is your this is your bit. So why are you guys here so late? I don't know. It's a good question. You're supposed to work on your bias. Okay, but tonight you could blame me. It's fine. What should I do? I wanted to come home. Why I was going and going and going? So okay, &gt;&gt; they're sleeping. &gt;&gt; Huh? &gt;&gt; They're sleeping. Don't worry. &gt;&gt; They're sleeping or they're watching. They're watching. Huh? No. No. He says they're watching. The men are sleeping. The men are sleeping. Yeah. The Reb once wrote at Settle. There was a His name was Gari Shalom. So he wrote him. He wrote him a note. He says, "A lot of people come to Fabangans to do me a favor because the people are going to say that I'm Fabang and they don't come. So they're coming just to do me a favor and therefore when they come they fall asleep. He says a few of them sleep with closed eyes. Most of them sleep with open eyes. A few of them they're not embarrassed. They fall asleep with closed eyes. Most of them fall asleep with open eyes but they're sleeping. But this is a very very very very important message in life. [snorts] And we see that how did other not eat from the how did eat from the come on you have so many trees<